LAST OF 2013 (?)

Three more days to the start of the brand new year, I don't know about you guys but I'm pretty much stoked for it. A brand new year, brand new experiences, brand new adventures and yes, my last  "-teen" year *cries a river

I'm really dying to share with you all my trip to Aussie but like I've mentioned previously, the camera's with sissy so no photos till she's back & my phone's throwing fits because I can never get to transfer my photos from my phone to my lappy :( It's a sign to get a new phone!!

Lately, I've been hooked to Sims because Kaiwen's back to his Sims streak and I love making new characters & making houses and rooms!! Kekeke an outlet to let your dream/ideal houses come to live without worrying a single strand of your hair because you're pretty much rich in the Sims world. It's so cool to see your dream house in 3D and I get all excited seeing it come alive as I complete each component of the house. Kinda like seeing your interior designer assembling the furniture & placing them just like how you wanted it to be. Plus, I bought an expansion pack for only 9 ASD, which is 11.20 SGD!! (you do the math). So it's pretty much a steal & one of the best prices you can get!

Me being an IT idiot, it took me awhile to get the hang of it but yesterday, I design my own room on my own! Good accomplishment kekeke! So so tempted to get SIMS 4 so that I can play when I'm at home instead of only at the boy's place.

Speaking of which, I've been spending good quality time with Kaiwen ever since I got back from KL because I missed that fella so much :( It's good to be back in his arms again hehe. 

Today, I met Tanz for breakfast because I've not seen her for weeks & I miss my bestie :( Had a really really good catch-up with her and of course, I'm so thankful that she listens to me ranting on bout stuff and giving me her insights about it. It's amazing how my clique is forever busy but we still connect to each other so well, how blessed I am for them (': but of course, we really need to meet up ASAP.

MINI PROJECTS FOR 2014. 

1) 2014 RESOLUTIONS

Every single year, I make a list of resolutions but I never manage to really achieve them. Somewhere in March, I'll forget them & then they disappear into thin air. So for 2014, I'm just gonna stick to Three resolutions. 3 more days to the new year & I have yet to decide on the three. Gosh, Chi you gotta hurry!

2) BUCKET LIST

Only towards the end of this year, I came up with my very own bucket list. I was very inspired by my senior Irina when she shared with me about her bucket list during council camp. She really encouraged me to travel if I could & listening to her adventures made me really excited and I'm anticipating the day when I can travel alone or with my friends. 

My bucket list is still in the making because when I really sat down to make it, I realised that there was so much I wanted to do in life & to only live once, why not make the best out of it & really do what you've dream of doing? Life's too short to only be stuck here in Singapore, spending the rest of my life doing what's expected of every Singaporean and following the mandatory lifestyle. I want to do the different, explore what's out there & gathering all the different experiences.

3) MONTHLY ADVENTURES WITH THE BOY

Kaiwen & I came up with this really cool 12 month adventure list! Gosh, I'm all excited even at the thought of this!! I really wanted us to do fresh & new stuff/activites apart from our usual things we do and it would be so much fun trying out new activities with the person you love! Also, isn't it a good way to get to know each other even better while sharing with each other what we love to do as individuals? So, our very own tradition "Monthly Adventures" evolved.

We both had 6 slips of paper and we wrote down ONE activity we would like to do in that month. For example, "cycling" or "trying a new cuisine". We didn't want to be adventurous so we started off with one activity/month. Then, we folded up the tiny slips, mixed them around & labelled them the different months of the year. Lastly, we would both randomly pick 6 slips of paper & keep it in our own envelopes!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR JANUARY TO COME! 

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PAINS OF BEING A STAR

GUESS WHO'S BACK FROM AUSSIE? 

"ME!!"

GUESS WHO'S HEADING OFF TO KL FIRST THING IN THE MORNZ?

"ME!!"

Yes, less than 24 hours in Singapore & off I go to KL for Christmas with the Changs. Apart from being all excited (cause all 12 of us will be travelling together in a mini van) & thankful (we get to travel as a whole family), I finally feel the pain of being a Star. Y'know those mega-huge stars who travel from country to country as if taking the MRT from Woodlands to Yishun to Town. Well, I don't exactly know if they like it or they hate it but it's really tiring though we're just sitting on moving/flying vehicles.

Might post about my KL trip before my Aussie one because sissy is still in Aussie & the camera's with her so yupp, Aussie post can only come up in 2014 :( But I really can't wait to share my Aussie trip with all of you because it was Amazing & it was an extraordinary experience for me. So much action in Eight days, better than any tour package can offer!

In a macadamia shell, I did:

- Tree-top rope course high-elements challenges 

- Feed Pelicans

- Went Yappie-catching

- Had a good tanning session @ Surfer's Paradise Beach

- Go-karting

- Mini golfing

- Dreamland

and so much more!

In the meanwhile, Merry Christmas you guys!! (: Enjoy the season of giving & sharing with your loved ones. p/s: Thank you so much sweetie for the personalized organizer with pockets of love on every 16th & the monthly tasks/adventures we're gonna do in 2014. I love it so much & thank you for putting in the effort in all the letters & present. Santa gave me the best present ever, you.

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STOKED TO MY SOCKS

Countdown to Aussie: 2 MORE DAYS!! And I really cannot wait for Sunday night to come & I can go out & explore another city & soak in all the energy over there. Two more days & I have yet pack my luggage and get the stuffs I need for Aussie, the bleah-sides of travelling - PACKING & UNPACKING. But I think I better get started before I start panicking and end up not bringing the things I need for the next 10 days.

Did a lil research on Gold Coast & hopefully the weather will stay from 20 degrees to 24 degrees! The kind of weather you don't need to wrap yourselves up like a sushi neither do you sweat like crazy. Hopefully shorts will be the best attire for the weather there! As I did my research, I also went a lil window shopping & already got my eyes set on some clothes, shoes and bags which hopefully are cheaper than in SG, hehehe.

Was told that the moment we touch down and head to our apartment (hopefully there's Wifi), we'll be going to a nature adventure park! Kinda like OBS but cooler! Walking on zip-lines, flying-foxes etc and I really can't wait to try all the coolio activities in stored! YAY ITS FINALLY COMINGGGG. The thing I love about traveling is to be able to soak up every drop of the nature, environment and culture there, take good photos (hopefully), shop a lil, throw everything aside & just enjoy myself.

1. 6TH MONTH.

Yayy, it's our 6th! I can't believe that it's been 6 months because it only felt like a few weeks and I thoroughly enjoyed myself every single minute with the boy, I love you sweetie! We don't exactly have the culture of celebrating monthsaries apart from a sweet long text on that day but I just thought it'll be cool to do a lil something to celebrate it since its December, my favourite month, and it means something to me. I'll blog about #PROJDEC, a mini proj that I've been talking about & the behind-the-scenes of the making of #PROJDEC.

So, today we decided to have an early celebration - just a simple day out since we'll both be away on the 16th. Headed over to Kaiwen's in the mornz to surprise him with the gifts that I prepared before heading to Waffletown for some good waffles! (: I think Waffletown is kinda like our place now, I can never get sick of the waffles there.

Then we headed to HV & lepaked at my Grandma's cause we were gonna have dinnz with her & we were kinda in the afternap-mode. The boy took a nap while I watched my shows then we carried out our " Monthly Adventures for 2014" & then played those good old games like Dominoes and Jenga (: Not a bad way to just chill the noon away.

 Had dinnz cooked by my Grandma & it was fan-tabulous as usual, homecooked food is ze best. And then accompanied her to the mobile-clinic a street away for her weekly check-up. Before heading home, we got ourselves some Churros & it was so so so good! Though it wasn't to Kaiwen's liking cause he's a savoury lover while I've a sweet tooth but it was good!

So, our "Monthly Adventures for 2014" goes like this:

1. We each write 6 activities (total of 12 activities for the year)  which we really wanna do with each other monthly. We label each mini envelope, which we made ourselves, the months of the year.

2. We fold our slips of paper and random place them in the envelopes. One per envelope & seal it up. Lastly, we take turns picking an envelope till we each have 6 envelopes each.

3. So, the 1st of every month, the person who owns the envelope of that month will open the envelope and see what activity we have to complete in that month! It doesn't involve complicated lists of things to do but just that one activity. 

For example:

MARCH, visit the zoo.

So, in the month of March, we have to complete this activity & this goes on for every month! KEKEKE IM ALREADY SO EGG-CITED FOR 2014 TO COME!!

In the meantime, enjoy your December hols & Christmas (: CANT WAIT FOR AUSSIE!!

P/s: I'm gonna miss you like crazy baby, please take care kay? More in the letters (;

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#PROJ DEC

#PROJ DEC.

Been working on this project for ages & I'm honestly so stoked to see it all fall into place, kekeke! Accomplished more than what I planned and I couldn't have been more proud of myself *personal achievement unlock.

December, one of my favourite months & yes, the season of giving & sharing. I really cannot wait to see what's in store for this month & yes, 4 more days to Aussie :D ITS COMING GUYS!!

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Surprises, surprises, everyone's gotta love surprises.

GOLD COAST

FREEDOM IS HEREEEEE!! *throws confetti and pop champagne

The day that I've been awaiting for is finally here, due dates for assignments! No more referencing, no more essays, no more citations, no more research (for now). I'm really glad that I can now spend more time on things that I want to do, need to do & of course, I can't wait for my trip to Gold Coast, Brisbane & then KL with the Changs to celebrate Christmas!

Yes, all these plans that I've been counting down to is round the corner!

Count Down to Aussie: 7 more days

I've been doing a lil research on Aussie & I can't wait to head to the beach, maybe try out surfing & most def the water sports that and hopefully para-gliding if it is available there! All the sight-seeing, food (all my fave) & of course the theme park! Though I'm not really a big fan of those insane rides like sissy but I guess I can find rides that suits my not-so-big-and-daring-guts. Gonna start packing my luggage & stock up on my films, kekekeke so stoked for it!

But on the down side, I won't be in SG for half a month because of travelling and we'll (Kaiwen & I) both miss our 6th month & I won't be able to celebrate Christmas with him :( But I've got things in stored for him while I'm gone so hiak hiak hiak (; Oh yes, make-up celebration for us this Friday! ERNCHI FRIDAY. So many things in stored for us, it's gonna be so goodzzz.

Lastly, a new hair colour to welcome that start of hols and 2014! After contemplating between reddish-purple & copper, I decided to go for copper! Yes, so many events, plans for this December, it can't get any better! What a way to welome Christmas (:

Because it's my favourite month of the year with my favourite festive celebration happening, there's this huge ball of excitement & bubbly-energy in me!! HAHAHA I think I'm like a champagne, first thing I can think of to describe how I feel. Yeap, can't wait for all my plans to go in place & enjoy my December.

Wait for my new hair on Tuesday (;

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HOME.

 

 

 

Home, that's where the heart is. The overdued photos from Council camp last week. It was really really heartwarming to see all the familiar faces & to catch up on everyone's busy lives. Council, my big extended family. Couldn't be more thankful to be able to go back and hopefully inspire the juniors in one way or another but most importantly, for them to understand and feel the love & passion towards YTSC. And of course, it felt really good to re-connect with the 10th. Thank you ladies for coming down & being such inspirational figures ever since we stepped into council. Thank you Irina, Hu Sze & Shamm for being role-models I look up to.

Assignment week - it's a miracle how I managed to drag myself to school & complete my assignments in the rainy weather. One down, one more to go! Finally, got my ass down at my Grandma's to complete  my essay & I'm proud to say that I DID IT.  

Nine more days to Aussie, all stoked for it!

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STRANGER BETWEEN FOUR WALLS

I just did something which I shouldn't have done but yet I was dying to know. And now, I kinda regret knowing it. I wouldn't exactly call it "truth" because I do know the existence of it but I just didn't know to what extend or how the situation is as of now. And yes, I officially regret was I just did and it's making me crumble down to the bottom of my pit.

I didn't know how much it hurt and affected me despite me telling myself that I simply couldn't be bothered by it and how this system/relationship/interaction is working and heading to. No, I'm not referring to my relationship with Kaiwen, we're perfectly fine (more than perfect, too much love going on hehehe). It's another relationship I really value so much though I always rant about them. I wouldn't be here if not for them.

I was over the phone with Kaiwen just now and I teared talking to him about this whole situation which has been bugging me on and off. I've been attempting to push this aside but in all honesty, it's bothering way more than I thought so. "Them", "Her", "Him". These few nights, I feel like an audience in a real-life show. I don't feel like part of them, more like an observer of them.

 I try distancing myself from them & I know how much they dislike it because the of the wrong reason, they have no idea why I'm actually doing so. It is because I feel that they're so much happier and better off without my existence. I don't like what I'm doing and I hate that I have to resort to such shit because this was not what I had in mind, I didn't expect it to turn out like this. I don't want to continue just being physically there and not mentally,emotionally there but y'know what, I have no choice. 

It's like no matter what I do, it's never good enough. This is prolly the first time I've ever felt this way. I rarely feel like I've not done enough despite giving my all and this is the first. What exactly did I not do well enough? Kindly enlighten me on it. I found out about this a year back & this year, it was one of my "must-do" thing I listed in my resolution. Frankly, I thought I was doing sucha good job, being really caring and doing things for "her". She craved for starbucks, I got her Starbucks. She was mugging hard for an upcoming test, I bought her her favourite drink. I'm out shopping and I see stuff that she might like, I get them. All these may come off as superficial affection but knowing that she ain't someone who shares her emotional thingy with anyone, I guess that's the best that I can do.

But at the end of the day, I found out that it wasn't good enough, at least to her it isn't.

So now, what should I do? Someone enlighten me, really.

BESTESTS REUNION

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Absolutely adore all the photos I took with the bestests!!!

Met up with the bestests last Tuesday because its been forever since I've met them for some good retail because they've been really busying mugging for their As. Everytime when I ask them out, it's either they're busy mugging, having a test the next week or just studying. So now that they've bravely conquered the As, it's time for some decent retail therapy.

I think I need to see some finance doctor really soon because I'm just so bad, terrible (and all the negative adjectives) at saving money & controlling my spendings :( I spent quite a huge bombshell in a day and though I don't regret anything I bought but my bank account looks so dry right now :( 

If it's not for them & my boy (nagging at me through WA), I think I would have doubled my spending on things which I wanted and not need. Well, I don't really need anything lah, I just want them. Y'know like how you crave for something and you really wanna get it satisfied, yeah that sort of feeling. But it's a horrid habit and I needa quit it. Gonna start working on it if not in the future, I doubt my salary would last me for the entire month!

Though Tanz left kinda early because she wanted to be a super nice girlf & surprise her boyf but that short meet-up was really good & we were saying how we should vid down parts of our meet-ups so we can play them when we grow older or even use them in our wedding vids (': AWWWWW, IM SO EXCITED AT THE THOUGHT OF IT ALREADY!!!

Was craving for Jap so badly so Eunice & I headed down to Cathay for some cheap and satisfying sushi there. It was a really good place to have a deep conversation and just catch up on life & y'know just pouring our hearts out. I missed quality time like that with her & I'm really happy that I managed to do a proper one with her (No cut-short sess because she needed to study) yeap, it was all good. 

Before we left, I decided to make a quick trip to Ion to get a study basket for Kaiwen because he's MSTs are round the corner & he's really been studying so hard so I decided to motivate him with F.O.O.D, the originally best way to a guy's heart.

Trained back to Yishun and I got my spies (aka Ming, Cy & Cuen) to help me out a lil. MY HEART WAS BEATING KINDA FAST when CY took the basket from me & walked towards where they were sitting. Hahahah the look on Kaiwen's face was priceless and I nearly died at the super-wide gorgeous smile stuck on his face when he saw it. 

YAYYY MISSION ACCOMPLISHED

Now that my girls are free, with 8 months of holidays, I foresee more impromptu and trips coming right up! Kekeke!

AND NOW, BACK TO ASSIGNMENTS. *dreads

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