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Visuals from the weekend (:

Really a good weekend well-spent I must say! :D

Finally satisfied my Prata craving with Jon on Sat after accompanying him to his SYFC submission. Had a real good laugh cause Jon was a complete idiot. Don't get how people can take him seriously! But it was my first at an air-base & I was really fascinated by it. Really enjoyed just walking about.

Had Nationals today and it was great seeing people that I've not seen in ages & of course my favourite guys & teammies c: Waited for Halim & Daniele to end training before squeezing out time to lepak with them. Stoked for the next weekend (;

xoxo.

Killer Thoughts

ever wonder how thoughts actually come about & what they're made of. Random thoughts, Bizarre thoughts well all of them in fact.

Sometimes, it amazes me how deep my thoughts can get. Thoughts either kills a person or keeps them alive. But sometimes  it appears to me that thoughts have a mind of their own.

yes, thoughts have a mind of their own.

Let's see. Who controls the incoming of thoughts? The content of it? Complex thoughts are too tiring to handle at times. Where you think of the past, present & future. In all honesty, what is the limit capacity for all our thoughts. Why do they haunt us? Mighty silence with such loud voices, that would be how I would define thoughts.

Can we organise them? Analyse them? Or even stop them?

In fact, at this very moment, I would prolly have 20 at least running through my mind. Thoughts can be considered at one of the major killers. They can make us think about a particular thing for hours, days, weeks even months. How about those surprise thoughts that have a huge impact. Like a secret ambush on us.I Would say that those a the main killers.

Aish, too tired to even go on. 

Only you can do it.

promises are sucha big deal to me, so please keep yours.

it requires tons of courage to text you just to make sure that you're fine. Afraid that i'll be more of a nuisance instead but I rather take my chances cause I always have this thought " What if you really needed someone to talk to? "

It kills me to see you in this state. Its like I know how hard you've been trying but you just don't get the results you deserve. Worried for you, because disappointments just kill you inside. And now, you most def need motivation. And those killer thoughts in your mind. 

Just now, while texting you I really wanted to go over & talk to you face to face and just be there for you. I really wanted to, so bad. Give you a hug or whatsoever. Sometimes I wish that I could do something for you, to lighten your burden but you need to go through this to learn.

Definitely can't leave you to die silently when I somehow know what's going on. I'll go through this with you. It feels good to be able to help you here and there, at least organise your thoughts and give you a picture of what's going on. Lucky you, at least someone was there for you during this critical time. A year ago, I was silently wishing for you to be by my side.

Exception

Hope it helped.

Went down to the Kindergarten for the first morning lessons before busing down to NP to meet my girls & had the post-prac breifing. Was dying for it to end quickly cause I was really missing my lil joys and yes two hours away from them nearly killed me :( cabbed back with Aisyah & it was kinda a bummer that Rian & Nat didn't come but it wasn't too bad cause the other kids were really adorable (:

My weeks are packed & I'm really stoked for the upcoming Nationals! Getting to meet those which I've not seen in ages, like Wes & the rest. And I really wanna get my assignment over & done with so that I can start on my prezzies for the lil ones (:

because I know you too well.

xoxo.

Importance.

'It's a pretty scary feeling when you love someone more than anything else in the world. It's like you've given them this power over you - they can make your day or break you to pieces, they can make you feel like the luckiest person alive or they can make you feel like you don't even exist. And you wish you could be stronger than that, but you can't change the way you feel"

Sometimes, it hurts to know that we could've been enjoying this very day together happily, just the two of us. I wonder if it ever crossed your mind at all.

16th. xoxo.

Tension.

here comes another weekend. I think 2012 is the year that time pass the fastest. The kids are such happy pills and its a joy being with them (: Prolly gonna head down to Ikea soon to revamp my room & of course prep myself for the next sem. Gotten my results back and i must say, I was not completely satisfied with it but I felt that it was quite okay for the first attempt in poly. Shall push myself even harder to do even better.

The weather's pretty good today & i'm lazing my noon away listening to music while reading a couple of books & some funny vids, what's missing is a good cup of latte :( Gonna head down to Bedok for dinnz with the fam later on. Kinda excited for tomorrow's friendly with Zen Tkd, hopefully we'll be on form.

I'm contemplating on whether to get the huge-ass polaroid, y'know not the normal ones that most people have but the bigger ones. Cons of it : its too huge & cumbersome to bring around. But it'll be cool taking photos with loved ones. Still giving it a thought!

Well, on the brighter note, its my Buddz's birthday today :D Happy Birthday Wister! (: So sorry i couldn't meet you today but i'll make up for it prolly the week after next, most def! 4472927 pictures, here we come!

sometimes I wonder how it'll be like lazing the noon away with you. xx

Inkling.

Its times like this when you have the sudden urge to blog though I wrote a post just now. Was watching some comedy & this guy with a killer smile came up (; Gosh, heart pounding right this second & you came up my mind. Wished you could be right here next to me & filling the room with our laughter (':

xx.

madly in love with that killer smile of yours

Tu Chey

can they get any sexier than this?

I love forehead kisses & guess what? I got my from my all-time preschool favourite qt, Nat (; Teehees.

Maybe today was kiss-me day cause I got kisses from all of my favourite boys. *squeals and squirms in seat

Thank you lil joys for really making my day today. Who needs a boyf when you have them. Renfred, Rian & Nat. They should do tis everyday & they'll officially be my daily dosage of happiness.

Nat was really cute today cause while I was sitting on the play mat, he ran over to me and jump onto me while clinging his dear life around me. And suddenly, he plants a big kiss on my lips for  a min & a half? Isn't that the cutest thing ever?

xo.

a big wet one, i like it that way (;

Go for Gold.

Currently taking a break from my assignments. Honestly, Prac would be gateway to heaven if not for the tedious tasks which need to be completed. But oh wells.

Seeing my qts was definitely an awesome start to the week (: Gosh I miss them all already and I can't imagine how it'll be like not going there once the school term starts. In such a short period of time, I've forged a strong bond with not only the children but the teachers there as well. Every single day, the kids will give you a pleasant surprise that'll brighten your day in one way or another. I'mma happy girl with them & i'm lovin' it this way!

Gonna do some shopping for their gifts & start making birthday cards for my lovelies. Gonna make the best out of my holidays for sure (;

xx.

Crossed out.

Visuals from the past week & the previous week.

Monday :

Met Aisyah in the morn & headed to NP for some consultation sess & trained down to Yishun to the boy's place.

Tuesday :

Lazed at home & waited for Ernest to pick me up & off we went to tryout this new ice-cream place (; the red velvet icecream & waffle was darn good, gonna bring my girls there. Went for a spin, thanks for the ride Ernest!

Wednesday :

Headed down to Clementi to meet Pheebs & Clar before heading to Char's crib. Had sucha awesome H2H sess with the girls, teehees. Wished we could stay on. Had friendly at Raider's & it was a good match, love our team spirit & not to mention my add-ons to the bruise collection.

Thursday :

Met my babes @ CWP & we did a lil grocery shopping for the stayover & hell I spotted Adam Chen, the hot actor. Omfg, he is so fucking hot in real life. Went to my place, called for Pastamania, played fooseball, watched If only & Taken. My TV room turned into a cinema & we just lepaked the noon away. Thanks Mumsy for the awesome dinner, the girls couldnt stop praising my mummy for the food. Sent Pheebs, Char & Brenda off cause it was getting late. Showered & chilled with Clar & Dav (; So we crashed at 5 in the morning. H2Hs, Disney Movies, Midnight Craves for Popcorn & so much more. Woke up at 10, dragged our asses off to wash up while I made Breakkie :D Caught the Little Rascals & we were suppose to catch the 3.10 show but we were lazy & decided to catch the 5.20 show instead. The weather was just too good.

Stoked for Monday to come because I get to see my lil Joys again & I do hope they remember me after the one week holiday.

xoxo.