Hope.

Seeing old couples holding hands while crossing roads still gives me a glimpse of hope, that love still exists.

Drained.

My mind's switched off & my brain's not functioning at all. Today was a mental breakdown, emotional stir & physical fatigue. Three in one huh? What luck. The endless tedious task is draining every ounce of energy i have now. I need & want a break from everything, a super long sleep will do the trick i hope. My eyebags are proof of it all. 

You do know that you aren't the only one going through shit. SHIT, can't be compared there's no such thing as going through more or less than others. We have our own troubles too but that doesnt give you the rights to vent it out on others. Stop this please, its not doing any good. Till now, you don't know me at all. I'm raising the white flag now, please spare me. Its not only about you, try being in my shoes.

Today's the first in 2012 which I'm this tired. My energy level just dropped nosedeep within such split second. Y'know how rare it is to see that side of me. Even my girls could sense it. I really wanted to curl up in a ball and let it out. I wished K was there. But I couldn't let this affect everything I'm doing and everyone around me because they don't deserve such shit.

Thank you Halim for being here for me & making sure I'm fine as well as being able to cope with my assignments. I know you're up right now to make sure I can get through this & that i dont doze off. (':

And not forgetting Daniele & Vincent for encouraging me (; it means so much to me.

Fighting this battle. Xoxo.

If only you get me.

I guess now, I just wanna throw everything at the back of my mind & live life the way i want it to be. I don't want dramas, yes definitely none of that. I wanna be clearheaded now when I make decisions. Because one decision does have that dominoe effect which I dont wanna see ever again. Last final mistake.

Visuals up soon from Phoebe's!

xx.

Visuals.

Oh yesh, the Visuals that I promised (:

SUNDAY.

 PHOEBE

 MY FAKE SHORT HAIR.

 CLARA & BRENDA

 CHARLENE & DAV



New York Minute.

 

There's nothing better than the childhood icecream on a day like this (;

All this project work is killing me alive :( Its causing fatigue & exhaution to my body & mind. Dreaded school today & i had to drag myself out of my comfy sheets to get ready for school. Met Tabin @ the busstop & bused to school (: Caught a small part of my show today on the bus. Saw all my babygs today. School wasn't that bad cause both Tuts ended wayy earlier than usual so had time to lepak @ Makan Place & see photos of Ms Minnie's qtpies. Gosh, such qts those lil ones are <3

Something embarassing happened during lunch today, shall not elaborate on it. Bet the two guys were amused. DPL Lect was a killer though. Found it kinda hard to concentrate because its the after-lunch-me-wanna-sleep vibe. Thank god I survived it. Bused back to Woodlands & met the bestf to buy my nailpolish & hunt for a new bottle. Met my BabyG & Ashiddiq :D been months since i met her :( Meet up soon yeah babe?

Finally an evening to myself. Shall do my project & cross out some stuffs that's been in my To-do list since forever. Have no clue why I'm so moody when it comes to you. I just have that dampened spirit feel when it comes to you :/ Aish.

Contemplating to cut away my locks to something like that but slightly longer, should I? :/ I've no guts to try that though, maybe EOY?

xoxo, muah.

Get a hold of yourself.

Aish, if only Singapore's Starbucks were classier & prettier. Having a craving for one now actually. :(

Just ended ooVoo sess with Phoebe & Dav (; Omg we're one heck of crazy girls & we're cool like that. Finally one assignment down and many many more to go :/ at least progress is good with them.

Wanted to blog bout last night's fab dinnz but i'm dead beat to do it so i guess i'll do it tomorrow. Gonna keep this short & sweet. Its gonna be a hectic week no doubt about that, here's to the busy week!

you totally blew my mood period. Quit it.

xx.

Comfort

#ootd

Preppin up for Cold Crab later with the Fammy (; My long awaited meal of the week! Sinful but who can resist such temptation, indulge fist fret bout it later.

This week's gonna be a hectic one, esp with all the upcoming due dates for assignments & practicum stuff :( Today's a pretty chill-laxing day :D lovin' the weather, reading the papers on my comfy bed, surfin the net & watching my HK Drama! Not forgetting my Ice-cream craving which i satisfied (; no more Haags so i settled for this childhood cone ice cream which was shoooo good (Y).

i'm sorry, i'm just not in the mood for anything right now. :/

off to prep! xx.

CHOICES.

Dead beat after completing the rest my assignments for the entire day :( even had to reject Wister's movie date seesh! I love the sense of accomplishment i have after Completing a task, it feels like " OMFG I FINALLY DID IT!" It doesn't have to be a major thing to feel that way but even a small task like filing up worksheets or even clearing your desk is worth a celebration.

Had my favourite ice-cream today thanks to Sissy <3 and had sushi for dinnz which was good! Just had a good shower & now I'm chilling in bed watching The Last Song. (': tear-jerker.

The best way to end the day (: Movie, snugging under the covers, mask & mani. Indulgence!

 And Guess what! Both G & my Bro got me the Turqoise Mug I wanted from Macs :D Omg its Turqoise, sex or what?! And now, not only do I have one but TWO of it (; I'mma Happy Girl! Teehees, such sweeties.

I found this from Irina's blog & I found it really interesting. No one's perfect & Nobody can be perfect but every single day, we try our very best to be a better person of we want to be. There's no solution or method to be perfect, no rules saying we have to be perfect & its not illegal to be imperfect.

When you love a person,  you love the whole package that comes with it. We shouldn't change a person but instead love them for who they are. Yes, sometimes we unknowingly, unintentionally try to change them for someone who we perceive is better but before you do so think again.

Isn't there a reason why he/she doesn't have the same traits as that particular person? If everyone is the same then doesn't it defeat the purpose of making new friends? Where's the joy in meeting someone new.

 

SHOULD STOP OVER-THINKING. Hate it when the thoughts in my head are getting out of hand. It never stops. What if I made the wrong decision? What if it doesn't end up the way I had in mind? What if the walls in my heart don't open up?

You always know the right words to say & the things to do to put a smile on my face. Your smile is so contagious that it keeps me moving on. Gosh, where are you now. Maybe its time to learn to be independent.

p/s : i should've kept your long texts so that i have something to keep me going, because I really need one now.