Monday, 30 April 2012

band aids and little lies.


my mind's in a whirl right now. Seesh, its one of those nights just before you hit the sack and randomly, stupid thoughts just pop out in your mind. Then, we start to think, think & THINK.

there's nothing right, nothing wrong. The only thing that i've come to realise is that you're no longer who you used to be. Shall not go on because i really wanna stop thinking. Maybe i should just cut ties from you & distant myself away. At least, i'll be doing myself a favour.

Nothing much today, went to Warren in the morn for badminton && did notes the entire noon. 3 mods to go (; and i cooked dinn today for the fam. Baked sausages, mushroom soup & baked potatoes! Yums, thought it all turned out well (: hees.

Looking forward to school tomorrow! (;



just out of bed face!







 phoebe (:

i miss Mel already :'(

xoxo, muah.

Sunday, 29 April 2012

Attractive.



Day Eleven - Five guys that attract you

Oh god, this kind of question! Fellas,ITS A COMPLIMENT (;

1. K
2.Kai Jun
3. My eyecandy (;
4. Wes
5. Ong




 its not those warm warm kind. you get what i mean right?



 guys like this are so cute (; * gushes

 it means he's protective of you, in a good way (:


OH-MY-GOD! These hunks are the sex man! Shooo sexaye, me likeee.




Hell man, this post is so ummm what's the best word to describe it?
Ah yes, MANLY! Hahahs, yeah i'm pretty superficial but it still sums up to the character of the guy right?

I want a guy who I can be 100% myself with, never having to worry that i'm being judged or what not. Someone who reads me well, it saves all the explaining blah blah. Someone i'll never find boring to hangout with, even if its just the two of us in an empty room, we'll still find appropriate stuff to do and amuse our lameself. But most importantly, someone who'll NEVER take me for GRANTED. A thank you or a tiny action to show that i'm appreciated would be good enough.

This week, hmmm it was a lil disappointing :/ its like i kinda expected the outcome. You're starting to take me for granted. When you need me, you'll call and stuff and when you're done, you just kick me to the side. idk if i'm thinking too much but y'know that's what i feel. Yeah, you may say you do appreciate the stuff i've done but is it really true? Do you?

Maybe you feel more comfortable to talk to me when you're down or i'm the first person that pops to your mind when you need someone. If that's the case, i'm flattered. But y'know this can't go on.

FYI : ACTION DOES SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.

xoxo, muah.


Thursday, 26 April 2012

Safe and Sound.


Kinda lazy to type, so the pictures shall do the talking (:
each picture here, actually has a lil reason behind it, so enjoy!

AND BEFORE WE GET STARTED,
(and before i forget again)

Day Ten - Put your playlist on shuffle & play the first ten songs.

1.Pumped up kicks
2.California King Bed
3.Lifetime
4.New Perspective
5.Call me maybe
6.Marry Me
7.The best days of your life
8.Want U back
9.You Lie
10.Long Live




i like it when we do stuff or try new stuffs together (:
because its not what we do but who we're with instead. its like how i enjoy being with you. Not being in a relationship kind but purely just being with you physically. Remember when we watched Step Up 2, we held hands & occasionally looked at each at the same time?




y'know the best way is to just pick up your calls because whenever you give me a ring, i know that you just need me. Good or bad. And yes, if i could & if you would, i'll do all those above just to make you smile (:




and vice versa, i need you too. Jus like what you said just now, "How long have i known you already! I know && understand you too well already." And i agree. In fact, You're one of the few people who knows me inside out, one of those who i've opened up to, you've seen me at my worst & my best. When i cry and look like a mess. If i have stuff on, you'll be one of the first few i'll turn to. Just like how i'll call you whenever i used to argue with my parents. 




call me selfish but yeah. I dont wanna share you with other girls, i just want you for me, myself & i. I want to be the only girl on this planet to feel the love, care & warmth from you. I want to be the only girl that you love, that lights up your eyes. I know how capable you are to make someone feel special and i don't wanna to let others have a shot at it. 




 this is my favourite quote ever! It makes sense && its true. If it belongs to you, it'll be there in the end. You might have to make some U-turns here & there but in the end, it'll remain yours. So right now, i'm still believing this quote because we're a classic livin example, aren't we? Because otherwise, we would've remain strangers 2 years back.




don't you happen to actually meet with 90% of everything inside here? you know all my darkest secrets. you do. We used to talk till either one of us is in sleep-mode & we sleeptalk to one another. And i honestly miss that :'( Now, its different i guess. You've the Big Os to settle and i have no guts. To me, sometimes we're awkward on the phone.






 true that. Absolutely true. Its like we'll stop texting each other for a few months maybe two or three, forgetting that we both actually exist and then, poof, one day i'll just receive a text from you. We'll prolly text for a day or two and no more. The cycle then repeats.
 y'know you have the ability to do that. Just one simple, innocent forehead kiss does the trick. It makes my legs go jelly, butterflies fluttering like mad as if they were on drugs, the tingly feeling inside and a smile forms on my face. Even the thought of it makes me chuckle. It was funny how you didn't know what forehead kisses mean && you looked shocked after you gave me one & i told what it meant.



you did that just now (: i felt so myself to be talking to you with no awkwardness at all, just like the old times. Every single tiny action you do or say.






 remember how we used to be like this?




for the past three years, i still agree to that.
i don't know why but it will always be you. Everyone says, forget him, move on, you'll find someone better but my heart says otherwise. It's not like i didnt try or what but i just can't. I can jolly well tell myself to move on but in actual fact i can't.





Wednesday, 25 April 2012

Dirty Lil Secrets.



Hello sexayes (;
Just a lil quickie before i head to bed, been sleeping pretty late these few days. Sigh, screw the body clock!

Today was very fun @ Tuts, the lecturers are just so humourous & friendly, not to mention Trendy as well. Gonna start liking school already, hope that it'll stay this way.

Lunch with the Sexayes was fun as usual! (; Was laughing my ass off for that one hour! Geez, teachers these days, tsk tsk. Think my friends got a chance to see my Wild side today!

So, just finished prepping myself for tomorrow's interview for the scholarship! Been doing so many interviews that i'm pretty immune to it but nevertheless, i'll give it my best shot (;


cracked up seeing this! How true.


AND YESH, BEFORE I FORGET ONCE AGAIN...

Day 9 - How impt do you think Education is

Geez, after spending nearly 3/4 of my life in education, its actually fucking important, esp in Spore. You're good as gone if you dont have a diploma or a cert. Even now, Uni Students are like everywhere so no one actually does outshine the rest unless you have a PHD or some sort. Without a diploma or a cert, you can forget about earning big bucks much less survive here. SO EDUCATION IS IMPORTANT.

just so y'know, never ever take me for granted.

xoxo, muah.




Tuesday, 24 April 2012

Surviving.



Been too caught up with School & such that there's not enough time to blog :/ sorry guys!

Today's my first day of school and it was Fantastic with a capital F :D apparently, the shuttle bus queue was shooo long that Jo & I had to train down to Clementi. it was a human jam there. Madness.

Thank god we managed to board the second or third bus and met Phoebe at the entrance with others (: was kinda late for my first lecture for 5 mins :/ awkward when you enter the Lecture theatre && you see like 70 plus pairs of eyes staring at you. Hell yeah man.

the lecture theatre seats were shooo cute i swear! its not the norm chairs we use, its like ummm how do i explain it? its actually fixed into the floors and you just gotta push it out to sit. USE YOUR IMAGINATION GUYS (;

i love my lecturers <3 they are all shooo Motherly and Hilarious (: Boy am i starting to enjoy it! Looking forward to classes now! Today was pretty much introduction and it was a lil confusing at first because everything is all inter-linked. Not like how Math is Math, Chem is Chem and such.

Lunched with Phoebe, Davina, Jia Yan, Wei Ning & Charlotte (:
First lunch and we're already gossiping! Teehees, they're like super fun people (: me likeeee.

Lectures in the noon were kinda dry or maybe because its just the After Lunch spell. Was pretty sleepy though. Shitted, think i gotta prep sweets or something.

Had tkd training @ 6 so Wei Ning & I lepaked near the poolside & Jo came too! Swear that i would sleep if there was a bed nearby. The weather was just too good to resist (:

So training was fine i guess? Did the basics of the basics so it was kinda boring. Maybe it was a chance to sharpen the basic kicks. But the warm up was tiring. Its been ages since i had such vigorous warm ups. So i'm like fucking tired now :( and i still have to read through my notes && pack me bag. Sheesh.

I NEED THIS NOW!
 like dead tired now :(




uh huh *nods head


i think i've been too selfless. Its always about you, never about me. Funny how whenever you're down, i wouldnt mind being there. But turn the tables around, would you have done the same for me? I guess not, since you can text me bout you being so worried but you didnt even bother to ask how's school. Is it so hard to just show like you fucking care? its always you, never me.


xoxo, muah.




Saturday, 21 April 2012

YOU MATTER.

Just a brief overall for the FOC this week (:


Monday :

Was pretty nervous for FOC, thinking if the people there were cool and etc. So as i was queueing up for the shuttle bus, i felt someone tap me and it was JO :D boy was i glad to see a familiar face! So we met Sandeep @ NP and yeah got into our tribes (:

Yesh, i'm forever in the Red group! In primary school and now poly.
So my tribe's name was Phoenix :D awesome tribe! Mel was my first friend there followed by Kiah & Shuqi. It was so great because we clicked like immediately. Super fun people to be with (:

Played Ice-breakers and did cheers like typical camps.


Tuesday :


Had group discussion about the design of the sandcastle which we were suppose to build at ECP :D yeshh it had to be 1.5m tall which is a lil shorter than my height. The ideas we had was hilarious. A brain on a dustbin. Yes, a brain on a dustbin. And it was suppose to represent Psychology & the natural environment.

So at ECP, there were professionals who taught us how to make super professional looking sandcastles (: they were so good. Everyone was just stunned! They used like normal sandcastle stuff and a lil of their equipment to do wonders. Hmmm, might consider going down to the beach soon. So our plan kinda failed :/ but our failed plan looked like a turtle to us AND VIOLA, we decided to build a turtle instead. Love how our group was so co-operative (: AND OUR CREATION GOT SELECTED! TEEHEES.


Wednesday :


Seperated into our courses :( met Phoebe from my class & Charlotte & WanNing :D nice people! so attended some lecture about port-folios and stuff. Then in the noon, we headed out to Jurong Safra for our Industrial learning. Guess what did we have to do.

WE HAD TO BE KIDS AND PLAY IN THE 3 LEVEL HIGH INDOOR PLAYGROUD.


No kidding people. We had to do that. Its one of the best task i ever had to do, honest.


Thursday :


Last day of camp :'( Had this Running Man like game which was very very fun! Most games were played before in YTSS (; Then we had Talenttime finale. Omg, it was the best part of the day :D the performances were hilarious & very entertaining. And i loved the energy level, it was fucking good. *thumbs up

Fetched Eunice from School and had dinz @ Pizza Hut.
Good lil catch up as always <3 the bestf you can ever find.






so that's pretty much it for FOC camp (:


xoxo, muah.

PHOENIX 4.


MEL <3





 RED4. <3

 LOVE MY GROUPIE <3
 MEL, ME, KIAH & SHUQI (:
 OUR SANDCASTLE CREATION - SAMMY


 SHUQI <3
 COURSEMATE CHARLOTTE! (:
 SHUQI, ME, SHAWN & MATTHEW!