TATA 2010!

told myself that i could do it, but when i saw you, i guess i just died inside & yet i had to force myself to put on that smile.

Hello everyone, just another hour to a brand new year :D
i hope that 2011 shall be an Awesome one for me!
Its a special year for me though,
my sweet 16 ; my Os ; my last year in YTSS.

a little quickie of the past two weeks & a conclusion on 2010!

Spend Christmas Eve at my Aunt's house ( mummy's side).
to be honest, it was totally boring. 
I just sat in a corner and did my own stuff, BUT
after my uncle came, we played cards & drank (:
so that part of the party was better :D


Had Christmas lunch at Godma's :D YAY!
it was so fun, that i really enjoyed myself & bonded alot with my Fam!
think i gained loads of weight with the yummy goodies :/

attended Julien's birthday in the evening :)
it was suppose to be a BBQ but it poured so heavily that we had
to shift it all to her house! Aunty Joey's so cute lah!

All of my cousins and I stayed over at Godma's & woah did we have fun (: watching a scary show at like 2 am at night & cam-whored with
Charis's camera :D

i loveeeee the CHANG FAMILY to bits & pieces (L)

Had retest for A math, E math & Comb science this week.
It was a total waste of time cause it was the same paper.
just had to memorise EOY's answers. Lame.

but the best part was to spend the Noon at Shann's (:
Watched SAW 5, it was so gruesome! Me & Shann kept screaming
while Eunice was on her way to Sleepland (:


Okay okay, 2010 time! (:

this year was a pretty rough year for me.
But i learnt alot & had some pretty good experience (:
is a 15 year old teen suppose to go through this? 
though i still have some regrets but what's done can't be undone.

i learnt to move on, to let go, to be strong.
and though that day, i dreaded seeing you, it kinda made me happy.
it was a heart-ache, it killed me in fact.
But i had to put on a brave front & endure.
in fact i was pretty proud of myself for that 3 hours :D

but it kills me to know that you're not part of my life anymore.
Poof, just gone like that.
But thank you for all the memories, for all the fun, everything (:
iloveyou.

2010 made a better person, leader.
To grow & gain experiences. To learn from my mistakes.
taking up new responsibilities.

12ytsc, i'm so proud to say that we've made it :D
yes we have! (:

Hmmm, i have not been putting much effort for my Academics this year. No more time for fun & no more distractions. This is gonna be my final battle & i will give it my best shot.
that's right, NO MORE DISTRACTIONS.

This year, made me realise how much everyone cared for me.
My Fam especially. My Aunts, Uncles, Cousins (:
thank you for the encouragement you all have given to me.
the daily nags (: hahahs, but also not forgetting the time when
you all rang daily to see how was my papers.
How all of you fork out the time for me, to love you gave :D
thank you.

Gong gong & Ah Gong left me this year. Not a very nice feeling.
i missed you, i really do. And at times, when i'm really lost,
i end up talking to Gong Gong in my room. Wishing he was there, to jokingly chide me and call me "BongKang". (: i miss his smell.

Thank you Jare'el Chang for vomiting so much blood this holiday (:
more than enough to donate it to the Blood Drive!
" Chi ah Chi ....." forever ringing at my Ear (:

Lastly, Clique. Babes, thank you so much for being there for me :D
Esp the last few months (; i really appreciate it! All the fun, joy, laughter & craziness for 365 days of this year :D
shall cut all the mushy crap which we all say all the time!
but lastly, I LOVE YOU BABIES *Muacks!

another whole new year, another bag of fun :)
which is time, for you to talk to me right.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

LETTING GO & MOVING ON. LITTLE PIECES LEFT.

Hey people (: its 9 more days to christmas!
Yay, *raising arms up in the air, all the presents & the the tempting food :D

I've learn to move on & let go. To get on with life, but to keep the memories because they are mine to keep. If you can move on & not care about me anymore, why should i continue to bother & make myself miserable? i should love myself & pamper myself to the fullest. you'll regret it one day, you will. Guilt will eat you alive, no doubt. And though sometimes the memories just play back in my head like a movie, and i'll still shed a tear or two, i know that i've gotten over you. Well, not fully yet but i'm almost there. i love you.

In a snap of a finger, the holidays are ending soon. :(
Awwww, darn sad. I don't wanna go school at all.
Phobia of books, teachers, pens, papers.

Met Nisa yesterday :D chatted alot bout stuff.
Guys. Girls. School. Exams. People. Love.
And we were somehow staring at this couple who were making out!
It was damn funny cause they realised that we were staring at them!

Nisa made loads of sense, she did.
She made me realised that some stuff are not that important for now. How some things can wait, how some things can't. How love can make a person change or different.

Nisa, came to my rescue (: I love Akip :D

LOVE SUCKS

Ever wonder why God wanted us to have Love when it actually hurts us. Love is the only thing that makes us go Up High High and bring us deep Down Down.

Its so complicated yet so easy.
To open your heart and accept someone.
To trust that person entirely and allow him/her to have you.

To allow that person to heal your wound but
let him ends up riping it open and making it deeper.

that's Love.

But on the other hand, Love is the best thing that will ever happen to you! It makes you feel loved,  feel like you're being cared for.
Its like spoiling and going the extra mile for that person.

The memories will still linger, it will not fade.
feelings go, memories stay (:
and someday, you'll regret it. :D for everything that has happened NOW.

MY LITTLE UP & DOWN ROLLER COASTER RIDE.

Texted with Mel last night && we said 15 things about each other (:
So here goes my 15 points :D

1. you're sweet
2. you can stand my irritatingness
3. you're shorter than me thus you add to the list of girls i can date.
4. you're so so so forgiving
5. you're pretty hot
6. you're fun & pleasant
7. you keep me from doing overly stupid things
8. you're simple minded in a good way
9. you have a beautiful smile :D
10. you've got brown eyes
11. you can kick my ass with skills
12. you can stick to what you stand for
13. you allowed us to use your pic
14. you're patient
15. you're positive

Isn't mel sweet (:

feeling suckish today. Daaanng, its so bleah-ish.
the only way i cheered myself up was to sing Nursery Rhymes!
hahas, twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what you are,
up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky, twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what you are (:

each time i cough, i'm on the verge of puking.
cough cough cough cough.

everything now is study & study.
i'm like stuck in a cage, with a fence of books.
everything now is no no & no.
What's the point of having holiday?

Go away, everyone.
Go. :( Damn, mood swings.

you'll come back.

SAIL DOWN MEMORY LANE.

So So, My first post is for Aaron :D
Bloody hell, Aaron you better thank me for it (:
thank you so much for everything you said to me for the past
few days. you're the only positive one (: i always feel relieve after what you've said.  " Nothing's impossible, you just gotta believe"
though you're a damn asshole at Most times but but you're damn nice :D

12YTSC!

i miss all of you 19 people so badly :( Esp the LEOPARDS!
Anyways damn excited to see all of you tomorrow :D
Can't wait for camp && we can finally Order MAC :)
its bonding time :D

Don't worry, i'll never ever forget you babes (:
i'll do whatever it takes okay to go Shop Shop with you all :D
we need to really go hang out like real soon :(

i'll stay strong alright, i promise!
i'll SMILE as wide as my face can contain it :D
and and soon soon Colgate will approach me for ADS :)

maybe one day, you guys can come over :D
hang out for the day with my new Camera!

i love you babes tons (:
i should just marry you girls huh?
that's quite a good idea, i likeeee.

Three Musketeers!

i guess we've kinda drifted apart since the June Hols :(
which is damn sad.
i hope we can meet up real soon. Carissa, i wanna call you real soon. I've so much things to tell you! And Wesley Ong (:
eh Ah Beng, i missed you too!

i wanna go snap snap with Carissa (:

i miss the Class Clique too (:

 Jacq, Pearlyn, Zhe, Syafiq, Nisa & Asmaa :D

i wanna see see all of you tomorrow!

had so much fun with you all for the past month (:

doing stupid & hilarious stuff, esp with Zhe around.

my mum's sucha SHOW-OFF :)
she just called telling us that she just reached her High-Class hotel.
and she was on a Yacht! Damn idiot right!
She didn't have to fork out a single cent at all.
Bull-shit.

Gonna go to school for Open House :)
though its gonna be tiring, but i'm sure its gonna be FUN (:
i don't wanna set sight on you.
its gonna be painful i think.

but you seem so happy now, that i don't wanna burst your bubble.

Have you ever occured why people only judge the flaws
but never consider the good points of others?

its so unfair to them.
its not like they commited a crime or whatsoever
and even if they did, what's wrong?

others deserve a second chance, so don't judge others. (:

Sorry for the randomness, just thought bout it while reading my book (:

Its not about the rings or the grand weddings, its the promise. The promise to love & care for someone, the promise be stand by him/her, the promise.

HOT HOT HOT!

SEE THE SUPEERRRR HOT GERMAN TKD FIGHTER :D

Here's the final post before i'll blog again which would approximately be weeks from now :)



Its so wierd why school passes so quicky now! Don't you think so too?? :) :) heehees, i'm a little crazy now!



I LOVE TYPING IN BIG BIG FONTS, like this :D



Reasons why i think school is fun is because OF MY FRIENDS & NOT THE SCHOOL ITSELF.



1) I SIMPLY LOVE MY GROUP, CAUSE CAUSE WE ALWAYS TALK BOUT RANDOM STUFF AND WE LAUGH ALOT TOO :) AND BESIDES THAT, I GET TO LEARN MALAY ;D



2) THERE'S THIS BIG BIG HOLE IN MY CLASSROOM WALL AND FROM FAR, IT LOOKS LIKE A MASTERPEICE :) ART!



3) I HAVE FREE PERIODS TOO :) AND WE'LL JUST TALK, GOSSIP, CAMWHORE AND PLAY WITH NISA'S IPHONE :)



4) EVERY MORNING, I'LL SEE MY FOUR CUTE JUNIORS WAITING FOR ME :D AND THEIR FIRST QUESTION WOULD BE EITHER " YOUR BUS BREAK DOWN UH?" OR " YOUR BUS DIDNT BREAK DOWN TODAY" ANGELA WOULD BE GOING ABOUT TRYING TO ACT CUTE! HAHAS :)

5) ME & SYAFIQ WILL END UP CRAPPING AROUND & DOING SILLY STUFFS AND DUMB THEORY! :) HE'S THE BEST FLAG-PULLING PARTNER EVER.

6) AFTER EACH PERIOD, WOAH, YOU'LL SEE A GROUP OF 10 PLUS GUYS WALKING PAST MY CLASS AND GIVING ME CHEEKY FACES :) AND THERE'LL BE THIS CERTAIN ASS WHO'LL SMILE BROADLY :D AND AT CERTAIN TIMES, YOU'LL HEAR THEM SCREECH OR SCREAM MY NAME. :)

7) SCHOOL IS EXTREMELY FUN TOO WITH NONE ANOTHER THAN MY CLIQUE (L) :) THESE BABES ARE JUST THE CUTEST! AND EVERY SINGLE DAY I SPEND WITH THEM IS A WHOLE NEW CHAP :) WELL, I'VE BEEN SPENDING 9 YEARS TO BE WITH THEM :)

8) NOT FORGETTING, NISA & ASMAA :D THESE BABES ALWAYS MAKE ME LAUGH IN CLASS & WE SOMEHOW DO THE STUPIDEST THING CLASS!

9) DOING DUTY WITH CHENG DAOLONG! :) WE PLAY THE DUMBEST GAMES AND TALK BOUT ANYTHING :) I'LL START HITTING DAOLONG AND HE'LL HIT ME BACK! :)

10) LASTLY, I LOVE MY LIFE :D

THE END!