I'm a selfish bitch! Yeah!~ that I agree.. to a certain degree...
I am still a pretty lousy person ha.. but improving.. this I promise lol...

So happie.. got my BB package today.. just this afternoon.. but not very happi with the gel liner.. kinda dried up? N now I need to find the perfect brush too!.. burr.. Will be wking this sunday.. hm... and heard they r planning an outing after just for me haa..

So many things which I wanna do after exams.. going to the beach.. (I wanna tan!) gym, run, partying with Ivy, catching up with frens, more pigging and books (mind you.. friction books keke.. )of cos.. all plus the wk I still have to do... for commencment -- CCA card, Resume.., my Hair.., gown.. and moving my stuff back home.. ._." sobs.. gonna miss hall life and the privacy+freedom it entails..
But will get to see mummy everyday :) Think she will be the happiest hee..

Ooh.. still haven decide if I wanna go on grad trip... plus with wk uncertainties and everything.. rather hard to plan... wanna go HK to find Ivy.. but.. need more $$ in order to fully make use of that opportunity.. its spring/summer season somemore!!! AWWww..
Else Bangkok.. cheaper.. n can get more stuff lol..
KenP can go with me.. but not sure who else can go.. still.. back to the main prob.. Not sure if I can leave Singapore.. not when I'm still unsure if I shld apply a job with Club 21 or entering banking..

Ivy... I need to go to G1Y1M4 at bugis~! wanna go with me?
::Running away from delusions::

Ivy got this for me last Christmas!! Hee.. So cute huh... Haa check out www.davidandgoliathtees.com
for more of their cute graphic tees AGAINST boys!~
Anyway... just took this out today.. n decided to use it.. finally. haa.. cos bu she de use for soo long..

Ok gonna open it now to c if it really stinks haaa..
Oh!! its sweet!! with a tinge of red.. nice nice!! Thanks dear!!~... Mug hard hard.. then we can play hard hard too real soon! yippie..

now.. back to ASEAN.. stupid
::Running away from delusions::

I have huge distrust in guys ha in general..
And this distrust grows as I get older..
...
I do trust someone though.. but that someone dun trust me.. & I can understand perfectly why.
Guy frens around me.. dun think I can vouch much for them.. but KenP.. I think I would ha.. perhaps cos I noe him well enough to a certain extent.. and from what I have observed so far..
I'm different, I guess.. cos my degree of distrust could be higher than normal.. I dunno. Not exactly a gd thing lol.. plus I suck at assuring ppl n explaining things.. or myself..

These days.. just keep having stupid weird thots.. exam stress? n I haven covered as much as I shld.. in fact, too little.. *help* yelps.. Like rite now.. mind wanting to study.. but just can't do it..*yelps.. time to shut brains off? Oh no.. can't afford the time.. :( how how.. so many other things that I want to do flashing in my mind.. when I shld be focusing on work -_-".

I shld just stop rattling away..
::Running away from delusions::

I find it hard to trust guys these days.. or rather to trust emotions.. love n the takes..
They all seem so fragile.. n with high potential to hurt..
I want to stand far far away... so that I dun get stabbed accidentally..
But I'm not even sure of where I'm positioned..

I'm so screwed.
::Running away from delusions::

Everything seems so meaningless these days..

Oh n exams r starting on the 22nd.
::Running away from delusions::