Monday, October 31, 2005
She asked him if he liked her, he said no.She asked him if she was pretty, he said no.
She asked him if she was in his heart he said no.
She asked him if you would cry if she walked away, he said no.
So she walked away, trying not to cry ...
He grabbed her arm and said ...
I don't like you, I love you...
You're not pretty, you're beautiful...
You're not in my heart, you're my soul ...
and I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die.....
Nope. No one said that to me.
::Running away from delusions::
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Okie.. I left 3 half hrs to sleep.. Just got back not too long ago from Pear's house.. erm. end up Glenn came home with me by cab.. Cos he stays just few blks away.
Then PW took cab back home himself.. he wanted to sleep over initially... oh well he IS sleeping le haa.. but all of us leaving.. so..
yup YR sending Jiemin home too.. *Sobs.. now no one send me home next time le.. haa no la.. he wanted to send me back first then go back n send her home if G n PW not leaving..
Happy to see that he is happy :) I suppose he is.. But he finaly meet a gal that I think is just nice for him keke..
Oh btw.. we ended clearing up the wedding dinner only at ard 11+.. then head over to Pear's house to gather n watch the movie <
Its PW's elder bro's wedding dinner tonight.. n the first time I help out serving..
Hee its actually pretty fun and you get to eat fab food lol..
Was invigilating this Music theory test @ Amara Hotel this morning.. Thanks Leonard for the lobang haa.. get to noe a few more NUS frens.. mainly yr 2s though..
Bought another pair of C&K shoes.. cos they r on special sales at the atrium beside the Hotel.. erm.. Kinda regret though but ok la. its $14.90..
Went Far east after a Subway lunch with them.. Shop a bit with my new fren Siying and Leonard... erm we r looking out mainly for bags.. can't find my Allison lookalike.. sobs..
But I bought a bag.. From project shop bloodbro's sales.. hee.. for $44.. when original price is $149.
Damn I din c it the other day when I went there... else can get additional 15%.. sobs..
Oh ya.. I found the Allison lookalike le! from yahoo auctions.. but cost $78... erm... decisions.. or just get a GAP one?..
Or dun get since I just got another bad.. but diff leh. haa.. A gal can never get enough Bags.. Shoes.. lol..
Nah,. I'm not really one who spends that excessively.. cos wil heart pain.. n not that rich too ma.
I'm pratical enough to noe that. haa..
Ok KIV..
Took a pic using my Razor today during the test.. cos some of the participants are damn cute!! like only 7-8 yrs old? hee.. oH well will blog more abt that another time..
I left 3hrs now! damnn.. Ciao n nitez moi frens..
::Running away from delusions::
Saturday, October 29, 2005
I know I should be studying now...
But currently in a bag and shoes craze.. omg.. I want this bag!!!..
Should see how it looks on Diaz.. Suave..
But its freaking expensive.. can't afford :(... but have to settle for a cheaper alternative keke. Anyone knows where I can get it??? *pleading eyes*
Went alone for retail therapy today... cos no time to do Nail therapy.. plus its all the way over @ Holland V. Haven shop for sooo long.. haa I can feel the itch crawling..
I'm not exactly a shopaholic.. but at times it helps me relieve stress.. and brings on some silly joy. Silly cos ultimately U are spending your own money.. :(
Oh and today is self day.. meaning I din have much contact with anyone I know except tru msn n msg.
Sorry Ivy n Ken.. cos not in the mood to go sch today.. N Ronson.. ur 24hrs Mac too far away la..
I promised myself i will study later after this..
Hee.. I took quite awhile gettin out today.. cos was in the mood to dress up.. its all in the course la.. Anyone wanna find out more abt Retail Therapy.. ask me.. will give u a step-by-step to do list..
ok.. so I thot of which pair of shoes to wear first.. n decided on my high heels.. one that I've worn less than 6 times? Paul from Insane shopped with me for this pair.. for Union ball..
Usually wun wear heels to shop cos they kill when u r on them for long hrs plus long distance.. but heck.. lol.. the extent gers will go to look gd.. Actually my birkens wil be gd too.. but colour dun match hee.. brought my Mango bag too cos initial plans were to study a bit at a cafe b4 heading home..
Ok next clothes. Moi only short skirt in 'dirty' brown.. plus my fav tee.. Atticus.. If you noe me.. I seldom wear tees.. unless they r really nice..
Why this is voted #1 so far?.. its really comfy. love the material.. it follows ur bod yet thin enough so you wun get hot and yucky.. THen lurve the design too!.. the bright colours contrast. hee..
Ok.. next up.. make-up.. Decided to use mi fav Diorwild for eyes today.. haven been using that for a long time.. oh well haven been puttin much eyeshadow heh.. Love Dior's eyeshadows.. swear that its one the best :)
Those glittery ones like Chanel's may look fun but they come off earily while Dior's settle on the skin better.. it reacts well with skin n will bring out a better colour.. satin-finish.. (perhaps cos its the 2-coluer one cos its for wet & dry.. din notice if the 5-one wks as well..)
Eyeliner! a must have.. liquid for a sharp smudge-free-unless-rub look. Brown which is softer as compared to black for Dramatic..
Diorshow mascara.. yet another must hav.. plus Clarin's mascara fix.. No blusher today.. but had to touch up my brows.. eva since I model for Lilian, they look weird if I dun cos she plucked out so much.. (oh ya. need to find shirleen for a shaping soon..)
n Dior Ultra-shine in Shinest Beige.. :) set to go.. oh no.. take some pictures first haa.. Oh.. can see my green? Its in 2 shades ;p
I went straight to Far East cos haven get to shop properly there.. working nearby doesn't count for anything when you dun really have enough time to go ard..
First stop-> 2%.. Its actually under same company as P.O.A. which is why their range sama sama.. haa. saw this real vintage tank that has a rainbow... First thot that comes into my mind.. rainbow!! means happiness!! must try.. haa n its a straight cut.. not bad.. get it.
Got this last pair of Sandals that they have on the rake.. the green one caught my eye first but salesger recommended the pink one.. in the end she agreed that green one nicer haa.. Got tt too. the rest.. nah.. she's real nice n helpful... and insist that I should try this...
Ok.. I did but din fancy.
When I'm doing the payment, the guy took a look at my debit card and proclaimed "hey you are Chinese ar!"
"Ya y.. I look like Malay?"
"No I din say that.. thot u look eurasian.."
Okie.. thats like the only 3rd time i get that.. usually its Malay.. twice Phillippinio.. Keeping count.
Think I could just cover the whole of level 3 thats all haa. Oh got the green long skirt from this nice ger too..
Erm probably a bit late for me to get this cos it has been in fashion for quite awhile.. just that.. I HAVEN BEEN SHOPPING haa.. got it cos its a nice shade of green keke..(green's one of my fav color and has been for at least 3 yrs now..) plus there is a 20% off.. I need to get a belt to go along... No time today..Next up.. the bomb..
realised that many shops are selling rather vintage stuff.. the trend? Saw this cabinet with interest unique accessories.. I used to be very into them... esp earrings haa.. I have countless pairs now.. Made some of them myself tooo.. n told myself if its a pair that I can make.. I'll never buy from shops..
Reason #1.I can't get the 'little black riding hood' pendant for sure..
Reason #2.I'm a big sucker for designer stuff.. unique and one piece. (spent $80 on a beaded choker n lost it that day itself.. can never forget how the sadness experienced..)
.. n of cos its uber cute!.lol..
cost price ard max $10.. :( its freaking expensive though.. $69!!!(*#$*%@!(*&%*^@#*&^$(
And I still got it. Sigh.. *pat pat green Braun wallet*
Oh one sales gal asked.. "Sorry may I noe where you get your bag? Its really nice.. How much?"
Heh... din waste $80 for nothing hee.. well I like it in the first place haa.. was hesitant initial cos of price.. but finaly got it mths back when I went back to Mango to suss it out.. Not all branches have this color :)
Haa stumble across this shop at a corner selling real nice earrings tooo!>. going for $30+ per pair.. i could get 2 of these with $69 lo..
These r more demure feminine and slightly victorian style.. kinda like fie.com's... Snapped a pic usong my Razor but couldn't get one of those I like cos of strategic location.. hee ;p
But I can hand craft them myself.. cos its basically wires crystals n metal.. N so I console myself. haa..
Haven got time to touch my kit.. if u guys want anything..present for gfs, frens, urself... feel free to request..
Bought a champagne coloured pearl bracelet with diamond encrusted metal from this accessories shop owned by a China lady..and a man from China served me as well.. they are nice though..
Oh ya.. noticed quite a few salesgals are from China..cheaper labour? *shrugz* (Argh got reminded of EC3361)
Oh oh.. I found the shop!! hee *jumps ard happily..~boing ~boing* THe one that designs canvas shoes.. hee.. end up I din get those.. I got the peep-toe wedge cos they look classier haa.. n slim.. the sch shoes kind are rather fat.. lol.. But no size.. so gotta wait for min. 3 wks.. Sobs* Haiz.. chose a pink one with Black embroidery.. yes Pink.. how often u c me buy pink hee.. unless its really nice.. nothing against pink though.. just that they are the minority in my wardrobe heh..
Show u the pic.. even though I dun have them now..
Erm.. ya thats abt it.. couldn't find the demin clothe skirt though.. another day..
I love meeting considerate, cheerful salesgirls.. who dun *bish*.. it makes shopping a much more enjoyable experience!.. haa which is y no matter how bad my day is, I'll always smile at my customer last time at Dior.. Understand y some of them couldn't.. cos they have been in the same job for too long and are numb..Long gone the fervor n motivation that comes with gd service..
The ones that can still be smiling and chatty are those I admire.. Like Vivian n Irene.. goodness.. dun think anyone can dislike them lo. haa. They r uber nice!..
Reached home just b4 10.. haa I'm only out for 4-5 hours.. Decided to head home instead of studying at cafe cos feet are aching.. haa tired but in a way sated ;)
Ok lets see how much I've spend..*shudders*
From 2% :: Sandals $ 29
Top $ 36
Love Potion I :: Skirt $ 23
ZTAMP :: Earrings $ 69
Point Boutique:: Bracelet $ 6.90
Minou :: Pre-ordered Shoes $ 49
Grand Total:: $ 212.90
Phew.. ok.. just over $200.. thot it will be worse.. no more shopping till exams r over :P
Some other pictures..
My thong heels..
Just love the deco and lighting!! abeit too dark for a photo without flash heh.
Tried on this.. but.. nah.. crumpled clothe.. Its in green and brown though.. pretty nice actually..
Ah.. the little black dress... I nid one!! This looks fine.. but nah think there are better ones..
Thot this is one of the nicest dressing room at Far East :) Look at that wallpaper.. swoonn...
The logo on 2% bag.. of P.O.A rabbit!!
My hair is growing.. bit by bit hee. Can finally tie half without 3/4 of fringe falling out.. Pardon my oily face lol.
Yawn.. goodness.. tired.. yup tmr have to go invigilate Piano Theory for Grade 1-5 applicants :) Hee.. hope I get to see cute children.. hmm can't play with them though..
Argh.. have to freaking wake @ 6.45am..
Shit ok gtg.. Need beauty sleep..
::Running away from delusions::
Friday, October 28, 2005
Check this out.... overall the whole thing sounds fun :)IF A MAN FINDS YOU ATTRACTIVE YOU CANNOT BE FRIENDS
Many women want to argue this point and say things like " I have lots of guy friends." Maybe. There are exactly 3 cases Intellectual Whores has identified whereby a guy and a girl can be friends:
1. The guy is gay
2. The guy does not find you attractive.
3. The guy already has a woman much higher than you on the ladder
--> Kill me but I dun agree.. and it will be pretty sad..
1)Though I dun mind gay frens :)
2)Hey i have frens who appreciate how I look but have no interest in me.. so?
3)Great for him!
Haa its all in the name of fun.. Check out the link here..
- And c if u can get the Rose petals game.. think I'm rather slow ha... no la. lazy..
::Running away from delusions::
*Big big stretch*
The past few days have been crazy.. but felt a little better today.. perhaps cos I've been feeling so lousy the past few days I can't possibly feel worse..
Dawnie is right about something.. no one can really help you when it comes to certain things.. felt rather stupid seeking for help and answers cos they seem to make the situation worse.. oh well... no point crying over spilled milk..
I can only start afresh, or try to.
Theres this Deja Vu feeling about the similarity of things which are happening to me recently. Ah perhaps a sign then.. that I should not care about such stuff at this point of time..
I've been thinking weird recently too.. seems to have evolved into something.. I dunno what.
Well take a step at a time..
Exams drawing near.. gonna conc on that first.. screw all other issues.
I almost thot I could go China with NOC.. but too bad.. its not half a yr but one whole yr.. dun mind staying back one more yr in uni for that experience.. however seems like its abit too late?
Thats life, you can't get everything that u want.. although there r exceptions for some ppl..
Their life is sooo smooth-sailing its incredible,... kae.
I wun be jealous
I wun be jealous.. cos there must be a reason for the differences.. Karma.
Perhaps they are really gd ppl.. or at least in their previous life.
So moral:
Be good.. try to be really good.. Constant Changing to be the better..
Yeah.. Haze will try. Then life will be simplier too.. That shld be true.
I want to be successful, so I can have lucky kids.. It got to start from somewhere right.. If not generation after generation, its abt the same..
Okae.. not sure if anyone understand my ramblings so far.. but I do *grin*
And dun ask me explain.. cos i'm sure I can't.. ya still lousy in that department..
But one thing..
Haze is back.. to face whateva shit that Life will be throwing at me.. I can't afford to fall.. alone or not alone.
::Running away from delusions::
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Realization...Gd bad"?
*shrugz*
Learn to breath..
::Running away from delusions::
It hurts, I'm aching..
And I wonder why
::Running away from delusions::
Here in NTU!!
Had a wonderful experience on way here.. :) haven felt that refresh le.. And for the first time this wk.. (cos I can't only remember abt this wk) I'm at peace :D
Love the vast folds of clouds which I can see all along the way esp. the part ard Chinese Gardens..
Was staring out savoring the beautiful scenic..
And I just saw swallows! (Ok I’m parked somewhere along the North spine for now.. cos there is not wireless here.. n no power point). Whoa, almost forget abt how they are always hovering ard in NTU. The only other place that I can remember seeing them is in Taiwan..
Haa.. wun be able to understand how Ronson hates staying in NTU all the time.. but maybe I would if I study here too…
Just came back from lunch.. saw Yiling... n she was telling me where pple fr S45 are now.. haa.. had a pretty long chat and she changed!.. first thing that I noticed is how often she initiated speaking in mandarin.. which is so-not-Yiling..
Back to studying… bought fries and Super cup noodles.. just in case I wanna eat later haa.. shit been eating non-stop since I started studying it seems.. c.. sure get fat wheneva I’m under stress.. erm need to control la. Okie, gonna eat fries now.. keke..
1:28am
Feels damn bad la.. think Ron tired le but still have to stay here cos of motto.. erm paiseh paiseh.. haiz.. [oh n ^J din pop by in the end cos according to Ron sleeping le.]
But I dun wanna stay home study..
Hmm I know le… hiak..
Oh ^J did pop by later ard 4.. neway.. i covered 3 plus chapters today :)
Not exactly a great accomplishment but hey I studied!
Now back at NUS anyway.. eyes tired le..
::Running away from delusions::
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Feeling pretty down for the whole of today. Started off bad.. n subsequently everything just seems to go wrong.. plus I just knocked my knee against something sharp.>#$%@**And today I felt 'alone' but thanks.. to those who are there today.. you noe who you are.. who are there when I nid someone to listen to me.
Thanks for being there when I reach for you.
[Also those that bothered dropping me a msg end of the day.. at least I'm not being forgotten.. i guess.]
Guess I was slightly disappointed somehow at some pt of time.. but hey I shouldn't expect..
Thanks too for taking time.. to listen, n ^K to watch me cry. Felt somewhat better.. serious. That I have such wonderful frens.
Confess.. there are times that I felt neglected cos you are not paying attention but understand.. ur care for others n other issues too..
Remember you sending this simple, regular sms::
Valuing someone is not juz by seeing each other always. Wat counts is dat somehow in our busy lives, we rememeber each other.
And this is the only time u send this sorta msg.. appreciate that, really.
A friend for keeps remember?
Just teared again.. mum la.. perhaps not her fault. Just dun wanna hear such things..
Wah..*pull hair* bad day to start assignments.
::Running away from delusions::
{Instant Blog Post}
What a joke.. perhaps can try it one day
::Running away from delusions::
How many can be there when I really need them..?
Only a handful..
And how many that I could bug without the feeling that I'm imposing on them?
... a couple ba.
Gosh.. I seem to be pushing people away these days... and think I'm succeeding..
Sometimes I put too much faith in ppl.. n thus asking for it. Feeling miserable when I do not have to cos there is 'nothing' that I should expect..
Some things may have been said.. but how much the words really meant to the speaker..
I shall not judge or jump into conclusions..
Never jump into conclusions.. constant reminder~
I nid to start on my gen bio.
::Running away from delusions::
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Arhh!! Someone hugged me!! hee.. *grinning widely*So happy.. see.. I can be easily pleased sometimes lol..
Haiz.. still got to go sch.. decided that I have to do my nails today... squeeze out that little time.. then back to study..
I wanna heck about everyone.. n pple stop discussing about me~
::Running away from delusions::
Saturday, October 22, 2005
I think I can be rather contradicting.. And I wonder if I even understand myself.. Much less expect others to understand me..Anyway.. went to Zouk's opening today.. Got free invites cos Emman is one of Zouk's photographer.. Saw Jeff there too.. one of them too.. so he did pursue his passion ha.. Oh.. hee n I was wearing my Bods tank top today.. n realised that sticky patch is gettin more prominent.. damn.
Initially still not sure if I'm heading Zouk.. cos of conflicting emotions.. anyway need to check out BloodBro's sales.. wanted to get a top to change into too.. fashion disaster.. haa.. anyway items on sales r rather limited... n lousy I'll say.. saw a black tank.. but smallest size2. Bleah.
Kan Jiong cos have to enter Zouk by 9.30 i think.. n running close.. pop down to Forever 21 downstairs.. n surprise surprise .. i found something that I guess I really like lol.. [been there a few times and can never c anything fantastic]. Cost me $48.. n got some elastic bangles for $7 to go along with.. SO total expenditure = $55.. hm.. this is how it looks..
Looks pretty plain isn't it.. but it actually has lace layer at the shoulders.. plus deep cut front haa.. n no. i dun have a cleavage lol
See.. my poor infected earholes..cannot wear earrings :(
Tried to capture Zouk with my Razor.. erm not very clear.. VGA leh..
Well dun think Zouk has changed much except for some internal settings.. n 'igloo' concept but left rather early today..
And while having supper.. noticed wat a clear moon tonight haa..
Took this silently...
Got it stunned. heh.. OMG.. saw the sunrise.. peaceful..
::Running away from delusions::
Friday, October 21, 2005
I envious those who r going on exchange..Ears still infected.. pretty bad.. ouch..
thanks for the drops from 77thStreet.. been using it n think it helps...
today is a sad day.
Lost. headache. A sad day indeed.. but still..
What shld I do tonight..
::Running away from delusions::
Thursday, October 20, 2005
emo now... how to study.. :(hmm,, focus
::Running away from delusions::
Haa... another session of Science of Music lecture.. n of doing "bo liao" stuff lol.. sitting with SinChang and Leo again lol..
Something SC has done over the one wk.. M-U-S-I-C..
And aso his own name.. S-I-N
C-H-A-N-G
The Master at Work..
I had Jap Rice cracker Wasabi flavoured with seaweed hee.. SC went *toot* with a handful at a shot..
I had him make my name on the spot.. within less than half an hr lo.... He used H-A-Z-E
C-H-E-N
Some kind of talent...
::Running away from delusions::
Saw this car outside Club Momo which reminds me of Initial D's tofu car haa.. heard frt Zuo one of his fren had a car of this design too.. of same model too if I'm not wrong..
Talking abt movie.. during tut today Sylvia asked if I wanna accompany her for a free show of "Skeleton Key" hee.. cos she won them from Showbuzz of something like that haa.. lol.. maybe one weekday nextwk cos have to be during off peak period..
Oh had this superduper long(check out my forearm n its length.. ) pizza with gal, pengwu, sunming, biting n erm pw's fren.. suppose to go Sentosa with themm.. yet got stuck in sch rushing my public finance assignment... :( n it din rain that day lo.. they all have shining tan while me.. haiz.. when I'm all geared up for it too.. need to get a tan for a change la.. so long le.. feel rather unhealthy now. esp when I keep eating hee.. Oh well will show u guys more pic when I upload my cam photos.. using my powerbabe now.. in Lib btw.. haa.. having a discussion room hee..
There u go.. the blue room.. haa.. I can't conc la.. haiz.. having an assignment due tmr.. bleah*
::Running away from delusions::
Haa Clubbing days with IVy...
This is taken b4 we head over to Zouk.. resolution lousy la..
And this during *Bling Bling* KR Hall bash :) With Bernard. haa.. at Gotham Penthouse..
::Running away from delusions::
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
He has completely no trust in me..For such a long time
I know.. my fault..
- a tear rolled down.. n more subsequently as the conversation carried on..
Is LOve abt enduring all that distrust.. abt how much u do not trust her but still... willing to be with her?..
Will tt be love or torture, I really do not know. N dun think that matters anymore..
::Running away from delusions::
Have thots that I wanna blog abt today.. Perhaps insubstantial stuff.. but now I can only think of how tired I am... of arguments..
Of how much I've changed.. etc.
Stop asking me qns that I can't answer too.. My head feels like bursting. My body feels more exhausted. I just dun think I can spare the energy now.
I've aged.. can anyone see that?
::Running away from delusions::
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Me.. Ivy.. N Mun.. gosh.. can't c Ivy la.. burr..
Ah.. Mun behaving.. tada** Ivy:)
Taken some time back at NYDC..
~I miss my hair... THink me gonna try leaving it till waist.. haa never can I wait till then lol.. mid-back the max so far.
Mark.. n ~uherm.. Chris lol
::Running away from delusions::
I'm HOME!! haa.. haven been home so early for along time...
Was so freaking tired today I dozed off in labour tut.. ha. ken has to hudge me.. n I'm sitting first row right in front of the lecturer..
Just cooked my mee.. hee hungry la.. suppose to pack the house too.. tonight qing zhu hee.. cooked tom yam mee with fav golden mushroom hee.. can't find vegs though.. :( ya me chi cai de.. lol
Anyone interested in gettin Birkens? fren ordering so will be cheaper... they are good for you feet! haa..
Gonna order this pair..have been eyeing it for a long time.. no more stock in S'pore.. Its a Gizeh.. English Garden Cream.. SIze 36 :)
Hee... already got this::
Madrid (this design) but not this pattern..
In this pattern:....
Nice hor.. *grinning happily*Muahaha.. damn ex for a pair of sandals though.. but gd for feet.. must remind myself to pamper moi feet.. cos they suffer the most with me ha.. I walk alot since young.. Love going for pedi too.. to get my sole scrub and scraped.. ok.. sound gross actually..
erm super hungry le.. go eat first k.. n pack house..
::Running away from delusions::
Monday, October 17, 2005
Do people always tend to seem nicer better when you first know them... and turn out to be different.. not as gd as they initially seem to be?.. Do I actually behave that way too?.. Do u really think so..I'm not aware of that.. but only know that I am always 'me'.. however I behave at wateva circumstances.. I'm just me.. its a subset of me.. oh well at least for most of the time..
Think pple changes all the time.. we mature as we grow older..(or at least suppose to..) become more sensible.. depends too on what have one gone tru' with, experiences and little tests of life..
Why are human so complicated?.. I dunno too.. guess no one is really simple no matter how much they claim to be so.. n those that are always saying abt wanting a simple partner.. usually are rather complicated.. That I found out on past occasions..
Ah.. life. It can be tt ugly at times.. humans too.
So now I'm no longer that spontaneous.. no longer having the particular trait that you love.. you are sad.. n now so am I. But thanks for lettin me noe..
perhaps I'm gettin jaded...
Its really nothing much.. but just some negativity tt I'm experiencing now ba.. Sorrie, perhaps I din stay the same.. the way you want me to be.
::Running away from delusions::
"I din change... you did"
Have I changed that much?..
Hearing that.. I felt aged.
::Running away from delusions::
POLL #1
Should I change my blog layout??
YA... erm.. ok I'm bored.. Suppose to be studying.. or at least transferring some notes that I've taken.. erm..
I'm actually checking my hotmail account haa.. haven done that for a yr? cos its mainly junk mails.. oh well.. its time to sieve tru my 600+ mails.. burr..
Weird how chemistry works btw human.. how fast n spontaneous it can be between some n how long it may take for others to start sparks... does how fast and how well you can click with someone help measure the quality of the relationship?
A gal fren of mine has been 'seeing' this guy for a well.. much as she sometimes hope things can be clearer established, they are going rather slow albeit steady.. hey this could be gd... like wat mummy would say haa.. a r/s slow n steady usually last longer... hmm. or would an intensive, 'sparks spewing' one be better?.. Would you know when the one
comes along? N if so.. what are the signs?..
[Listening to moi songs on itunes now... many which I do not even know of.. haa ya.. n simply lack the time to sort them out... guess it good.. n just heard a Live version of Growing Old with You... LoL.. There was this period when I'm so into New Age... they r relaxing.. sometimes inspirational.. ]
Ohh well, not just applying this to "relationship" but relationships of all levels.. Just like how I am able to sense on first meet those that I will never be able to click with.. worse.. for some u get a repulsive vibe haa.. n usually there will be something wrong with that person lol.. I trust my instinct ;)
It takes time to see a true fren.. though ONce awhile you stumble upon one that you know makes a difference.. :D
Some frens you grow to trust.. trust that they wil be there for you wheneva you are down..
Some frens you grow to love... for they love you too..
Some frens you grow to understand... thats when you can sense their thots even when they're not spoken..
Some frens you grow to care... as much as for yourself.. your familiy..
... Some frens.. you grow to be silent with.. cos no words are needed.. ears will do.. (oh well.. u take turns)
And.. a handful of them are for keep... to hold within the heart.. so that you will never be lonely..
Thanks.. for those who mentioned that they will be there when in need.. those who promised to lend a shoulder or ear..
... even if it has been forgotten..
... cos that thought has left footprints across my heart..
Can't say I have many frens... many of them came n left.. everyone moving on with the pathz they have or chose to take.. For those who thot that I'm Miss Popular *lifting an eyebrow*.. haa.. ya i do noe ppl ard..
"hi... "
"..bye.."
Few that I can share my thots with.. few that will stay with me.. n no one can surely pass the test of time till the bell rings.. isn't it.. but truely appreciate those ard me now.. be it old or new :)
Shldn't start being cynical.. I promised to be happier..
Thanks for those who care..
N ones who love me...
You noe who you are....
[Wah.. those Hokkien songs ZH sent me last time... gosh.. erm.. ok.. kinda caught me by surprise hahaa *weak*..]
Today Martin was ard sch for some work purpose n actually asked if I wanna meet up for lunch.. even though I couldn't make it in the end... that thot was appreciated..haa haven seen him for awhile too..
Wah wats with me today.. a bit too emo le.. must be the music.. burr..
All For Love
When it's love you give
(I'll be a man of good faith.
then in love you live.
I'll make a stand. I won't break.
I'll be the rock you can lean on,
be there when you're old,
to have and to hold.
When there's love inside
I swear I'll always be strong.
then there's a reason why.
I'll prove to you we belong.
I'll be the wall that protects you
from the wind and the rain,
from the hurt and pain.
Let's make it all for one and all for love.
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
the one you need,
'cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
then just let your feelings show
and make it all for one and all for love.
When it's love you make
I'll be the fire in your night.
then it's love you take.
I will defend, I will fight.
I'll be there when you need me.
When honor's at stake,
this vow I will make:
that it's all for one and all for love.
Let the one hold be the one you want,
the one you need,
'cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
then just let your feelings show
and make it all for one and all for love.
Don't lay our love to rest
'cause we could stand up to the test.
We got everything and more than we had planned,
more than the rivers that run the land.
We've got it all in our hands.
Now it's all for one and all for love.
It's all for love.
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
the one you need,
'cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
It's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
then just let your feelings show.
When there's someone that you want,
when there's someone that you need
let's make it all, all for one and all for love
::Running away from delusions::
Just found an old Lavender essential oil today hee.. Oh well.. its pretty faint though.. still prefer the rose geranium..
Camphor - kinda too sharp..
Em bought passionfruit n blackberry apple home fragrance from Body Shop that day after cuttin hair. Love Body Shop's passionfruit fragrance.. n the passionfruit cleanser.. think that smells greater.
I'm down to my last tealight candle le.. need to get some from Ikea.. plus my table lamp.. n more candles.. haa.. goin this Thurs. gd thing its pretty near sch.
Watched 'GOAL' earlier on at Century Sq.. Its nice... n love the emotions that movies like this can stir.. :D..
Argh.. sch starts in 6 more hrs.. n can't afford to miss the micro lecture.. burr.. think I shall turn in soon le.. so lack of time.. n sleep..
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One day.. just had this urge to find my burner n enjoy some aromatheraphy.. Just wanna burn some candles n relax myself... plus it makes my whole room seems cosier :)... this is given to be by yeebo back in JC.. haa I was once pretty much into using it too... couldn't remember the reason why I stopped though...
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Thats the painted side.. :) Red apple.. love the green..
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Burnt one of the 4 candles Ivy got for me that day when I was pretty down... Fell asleep staring at it.. lovely.. I felt that much better n more at peace.. *squeeze*
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Saturday, October 15, 2005
Just had a hair cut at Far East Kleancut on the 5th floor... had this unbearable urge to cut hair while cramming for the Labour test earlier on... n the test turn out to be quite a disaster.. so thot NoW I have to get it done no matter what.. need a breather too.. Think more so for K. Cos he studied more than me.. hiak.. Oh well.. erm din think its fantastic.. n not sure if I like it.. but then.. its real normal.. just super layered. Spent $48 though.. inclusive of a protein treatment (promotion).. Initially wanted Kenneth the director to style for me.. but.. for 1st-timer he charge a freaking $65!! Erm think I wanna try out Summer D or D Summer b4 investing on this Salon haa.. but finally got a cut here.. Hee dun think Kenneth remembers me.. Took a photo of him for my talent scouting job a couple years back.. Oh god look at my dark circles!! Its pretty bad now.. had quite a hell week.. stress plus upsetting events... oh well.. n I can't sleep early tonight.. got an assignment due tmr.. ya.. saturday.. tmr..
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Just in case anyone is thinkin....'wats the diff...' My hair is much thinner now!.. oh well Ken couldn't say if its better or not.. but at least said its neatier
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