I just gave myself a hug..
Need a squeeze..

think I have no choice but to force myself to start assignment. oh preparation for it rather.. due tmr. :(
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Just saw my fren's blog... she got one full litter of cute little rabbits!! so envious.. they r really simply gorgeous.. so fluffy.. n soft..

Nvm. i have soft toys. lol.

Small things?
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I'm so wasted... been feeling so tired these days.. think its cos during the break I rest more than usual n now my body is a sucker for what she should have had in the past.

Slept ard 12 last nite n by 5 today I have to struggle to keep my eyes open.. Din do much today again... just attend sch plus tuition..N I have an assignment due this Wed!!! Argh.. dun think I can do any studying le.. wun be able to register plus 10am lecture again.. haiz. hopefully tmr will have enough time to complete before discussion.

Then Micro3 due this Friday.. argh.

3 mid-term tests coming up.. okae its all lined up
N boy, I really really need to catch up...

If I'm not a student.. there r so much stuff I can do.. then again. it may alll be different by then.. sprouting crap again. gettin fat n bad complexion.. *woeful*

Sorry... me lamenting on n on here.. Wait kae.. wait.. one day exams will be over.. one day my worried will diminish.. one day I will be elated...
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Dun c how I can eva graduate with a min of merit.. I shucks at studies.. for the whole of these 4 days.. so called term break.. I have study a single shit.. just can't get myself to.. haiz.. been rotting at home.. n tuition. Damn..
n my latest manicure (for cousin's wedding) color is so wrong!. + I have absolutely nottin to wear for the wedding this sat.. damn.
Think I will go shopping later after tuition.. Hopefully I can rush down tmr in time for at least the 2nd dish. haa.,

Quiting Dior.. just got my hamper yday too.. erm not sure if I will go back for the next hols... but going Taiwan AGAIN for 9 days..leaving early Dec ba.. Sianzzz. Lets c if I have gd company this time.. So.. may not be able to get a decent job other than Dior... Blah.. I may end up in this line.. but definitely not on the shopfloor..

Wanna do PR.. but I can't write.. n u r suppose to be able to write fantastic letters if u wanna be in this line rite? So how do I go about starting..

Banker? Which aspect.. but I suck at Econs too.. goodness.. so many worries on my mind...

Been watching this Anime Ichigo 100% .. some high sch romanceakameaninglesswasteoftime anime.. still watch it cos I like tt kind of drawing.. n it can be a bit furnie.. erm act. no.. not comedy enough.
Its abt this guy who 'loves' 3 guys at the same time.. but seriously the way he is behaving... he deserve a beating.. its his biz to like 3 gals.. but to lead 3 gals on.. god. AND all the gals love him of cos...
But its kinda interesting after awhile of Jap animes.. cos u get to learn more abt their culture.. the way they speak.. handle things.
I wanna learn Japaness.. haiz.. was at Yola's blog n I'm green with envy.. Wish I can spend 1 yr staying overseas too.. if not Japan.. western countries like Canada? Read this site for Immigrants to Canada.. seems like Canadians r super nice n friendly. But wonder abt how will life there be like.. will I eva get used to it?

Remember someone once told me abt wanting to go there.. to live there...
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Experiencing a huge inertia to start study... Can't stop eating either.. have been staying at home.. sleeping alot, eating alot.. n no matter how much I've slept.. I still feel tired at the end of the day..
Depressing man...
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Gonna start lugging my powerbabe to sch.. well she has been collecting dust..
Then can transfer songs too fr Ivy..

*Bling Bling this thurday... too bad they dun have their own webbie on this.. bUT.. it is featured over @ www.funkygrad.com :)
Do check it out.. n get tix from IVY~* ;) *Bling*

Gonna start my gym routine too... at least twice a wk.. ok.. at least once.. or so if Darrell, Ivy's *emhem*, manage to move my cow arse over when I'm lazy.. ..
Need tone.. think u peeps have been hearing me say that for ages with nothing to show for ahha.. bleah^.

Gonna conc on studies too.. will try my very best.. which hasn't been good.. with all the preceding events..
Haven been abt to focus n settle down for much studying.. laggin again.. shit.. not gd at all.

Anyways.. been using my babe for tonight!.. n i'm at home.. eh.. surprise huh.. cos usually I only get internet connection on lappie in sch where there is a wireless netwk.. erm yet shes now logged on tru' linksys.. Think someone's connection nearby.. hoho.. I'm tapping for free..
There r a few netwk ard.. but all require password.. this? auto-conmnect.. how gd can tt be? n I'm in moi room.. yummie..

ok talk abt yummie.. I've just spent $132 @ GNC this afternoon.. buying gingko, gingko n more gingko.. ok 3 bottles la.. plus vit c which is gonna be my sweet replacement.. Signed on the membership too.. so anyone thinking of gettin anything.. ask me along.. or get my card. 20% off. +promotions..
Argh.. a big hole in pocket.. GNC prices r pretty steep wo % though.. nvm nvm... gd for my brain.. gd for my brain..*pat pat*..
+ its for mummy too.. so worth it kae.. *sayang*..

k i'm nuts.. must be the hour.. albeit the energy coursing tru' me..
hmm.. actually more like a clear still... glass.. not feeling much.
... no think I'm tired.
Yeah.. I'm tired.
Gonna crash.. after.
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Hey.. black one's cool too.. damn.. black or white?..
uh/ is it available over here?..

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See what I mean...

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Check this out.. its so sleek I couldn't help but feel greedy.. think its only 2Gb.. but its incredibly slim.. the nanotech. huh.. oh well. wait till price drop?..

anyway.. my 3G is in a distressing state.
Think i need to send it for a diagnosis.. poor guy..

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When will it be over.. think its my karma catching up with me.. still holding on.. but wonder when my string will snap.. definitely pulling so tight sometimes that I think that will be it... loosen n tighten.. loosen n tighten.. one day it will break..not because its tighter than eva but cos abrasion has wear it thin.. fragile.. will it be down to that?..

I dun want that. torturous. to escape or not?.. Will I be strong enough to stay?..

oh the other hand.. I'm feeling a gap in my heart.. dunno.. its a blackhole. sucks at me.. 'i wanna clench my heart n squeeze.. to distract it from the tightness, the pangs of grief that has been there eva since...'

God.. pls give me an answer.
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Cells.. amazing little micro things we all have.. beautiful.
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stifled.. I'm gonna be smothered.. prob. is I'm not exactly sure of the cause.. or causes

-- help pls
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You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies.

You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.

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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

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Your Top Ten Traits 1. Liberal 2. Big-Hearted 3. Adventurous 4. Practical 5. Athletic 6. Funny 7. Intellectual 8. Traditional 9. Sensual 10. Wealthy/Ambitious

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goodness.. was reading a fren's blog.. first visit. realised there are much more pain n heart wenching admist Love all around..

Depressed today...

- to capture a fleeting moment.
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I need a companion.. been thinking of gettin one these weeks.. it can be a hare, a chinchilla or a dog.. a blue-eyed husky.. can't forget that pair of blue eyes~.. *auwww*

Ache to get one.. one tt I'll shower special care n love. nvm its temperament..
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Pull tight like a rubber band to the max of its elasticity.. by everything.. Wonder if I will go crazy one day.
I wasn't like that in the past... what has happened?

I dun think I deserve anyone.. n I sux at it..
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