It has been a couple of days since I blogged?.. erm wked today.. but at Parkway.. cos SzeHua wants to be at Paragon as her bf is at Mount E.. First day at Watson instead of Guardian haa.. interesting.. got to noe this real friendly pharmacist.. hee.. really old with 6 grandchildren le... quite a remarkableperson I'll say.. Anyway.. kat called in the evening.. may haf a bit of prob with the trip. erm. keeping fingers crossed. Bebe came down n we had dinner.. felt weak after wk.. like the jelly started creeping in only after wk.. met ken Pan.. n was chattin with him when I saw the actor who acted in the Chicken Rice War as the Chicken Seller... n turning behind.. i thought I saw my cousin's ex... who was 14 yrs her senior.. quite sure its him actually haa.. cos think I saw a vague sense of recognition passed by too.. Gd thing we both got some money today.. cos hit rock bottom these 2 days haa./.. so uncomfortable without a single cent huh..

was a bit disturbed by the msgs last nite.. or wat it this morning..?.. eh wait. now pass midnite le.. erm blur. anyway.. was reading Mun's blog... Yup its always sad to c or hear abt couples breaking up.. be it with or wo another party.. having a party just seems to create more topics isn't it.
yup no one says its nice to be involved in one. its sux actually isn't it.. esp if conscious eating in..

Have no problems staying faithful with my partners so far.. cos when I decided to get attached serious.. I'll be rather focus ba.. haa.. then again.. its up to me.. my mentality to wats being attached isn't it.. so things like these.. only parties involved will noe.
Well, glad at least one couple will stick on :)

Bloody irritated with mum.. burr..

::Running away from delusions::

Tuesday, June 1, 2004

The chance to revive enjoying your home life occurs today. There are numerous possibilities on the home front. Look to entertain a friend or two at your place as you focus on achieving for domestic bliss.

Wednesday, June 2, 2004

There could be some social tension today as you interact with two admirers who compete for your attention. Let them set the ground rules for the tussle. Focus on your workload and see who sticks around.
Saturday, June 5, 2004

You will feel torn between a commitment you made to someone and one you made to yourself. The tug of war is not between your ego and this person, but between what you think others will think of you.
Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Romance is all around your world today. The week begins with a new emphasis on feeling loved and excited by the pursuit of another. You might have to concentrate extra hard today just to get any work done.
Thursday, June 17, 2004

Some people who are relying on you have not been clear about just how much they are in need of your input or assistance. Fooling yourself about some entanglements in a romance is likely to cost you your reputation if you have been dishonest.

Friday, June 18, 2004

You can focus on something that seems impossible or incomprehensible to other people and make it manifest today. An impressive afternoon with a lover could be most memorable if you organize a few surprises.


Saturday, June 19, 2004

A possible soul mate situation arises around your home or another domestic setting. Look at the possibilities through a filter of ensuring that things remain secure for your reputation and life direction.

God.. haaa c wat I come across for the last sat.. Cuts a bit close
::Running away from delusions::

Your Monday Horoscope. May!
A lucky break concerning your career is bound to occur. If you are prepared, this opportunity can propel you to pretty dramatic heights. Tension involving your desires versus your obligations will create its own drama.


yeah.. I got my audio le. haa seems like my com is still as cranky as eva :)
think i shld shut down all sorts of reasoning n morality.. live like a bairn :: free of responsibilities :: pardonable of all sins...
ya i wish

::Running away from delusions::

Had a real late lunch yday cos Chris came down only at 4 plus? hee.. think overslept. Anyway.. gd too.. haa cos will be knocking off soon.. Oh met Micheal who was out for Father's Day celebration. n Sherman who was taking a break fr wk ha... if u even call it wk.. such a slack job!.. Celebraties wise saw Li Nan Xin's wife, Li Ping. n Ivy Gan with her bf/husband..

Had lunch at Lucky plaza n we went to ard 3 places to check out perfumes.. erm. Think I should get Ibiza afterall... haa shld save the money for the trip.. Suppose to book the dates today with the rest.. but gotta rush my hw n having my course tonight.. so will be too rush.. plus.. I still wanna nap a bit haa.. ok.. after dinner n shopping ard.. (oh yar caught sight of Vance at wk so said hi. N met liren for a while at Heeren..) I left slightly less than 1/2 hr of wk hee.. then Chris n I went down to Chinatown.. Partyworld again.. haa.. joined later by the other two.. Unlike usual times, instead of just reading n singing the lyrics.. I paid attention to the lyrics. Realised quite many songs r rather meaningful.. duh.. they r written by humans arn't they.. ops.. yar, so kinda thought a bit n got a bit emotional.. ah.

We missed the night market though.. cos sang till 12?.. so went back for super at the 24 hr coffeeshop there.. Plans were to head down to jackson's place for pool but Kat's not feeling well.. so headed home.. but rite now.. I got to logged off.. beebuh..
::Running away from delusions::

練習


如果留下多一秒鐘
可以減少明天想你的痛
我會願意放下所有
交換任何一絲絲可能的佔有

#幸福只剩一杯沙漏 眼睜睜看著一幕幕甜蜜
不會再有原本平凡無奇的擁有
到現在竟像是無助的奢求

@我已開始練習 開始慢慢著急
著急這世界沒有你
已經和眼淚說好不哭泣
但倒數說時的愛該怎麼繼續

我天天練習 天天都會熟悉
在沒有你的城市裡
試著刪除每個兩人世界裡
那些曾經共同擁有的一切美好和回憶

Repeat # @

愛是一萬公煩的森林
迷了路的卻是我和你
不是說好一起闖出去
怎能剩我一人回去 回去

Repeat @

I bail out.

ya.. I sux. u ill-determined cretin.
After all the crap I have blogged yday.. tried refraining myself till dawn this morning..
But when I felt b's arms ard me.. emotions took over me.. tears racked tru. N 'cos he noes.. Ryan was in the same rm as us.. but its ok.. cos I'm silent.. till it got worse.. n for some reasons that I fathom.. I start to laugh.. Ya.. to my horror.. n I couldn't control them.. Tried stifling.. but just got worse.. think haf been suppressed for too long.
Its shit.. cos Ryan was not asleep.. then he had to get me out of the room. Got tru' some stuff at the couch.. was shocked.. n hurt when I catch bebe tearing... felt so lousy then. think both of us were just so tired we slept on the couch..
This morning had puffy eyes for wk.. damn. but things r not exactly settled then.

had a near-teary day haa.. exhausting.. but tru afternoon more or less resolved? I was asked to b more selfish n he thought I deserve him... owoh~.. i wonder if he's being selfish? but one thing is clear.. we both r in an ugly situation.. if we are to con't as how things have been.. we r just waiting for the bomb to detonate. Bebe dun seem to care that much... will b touched if its due to disregards of others' views for me...
But it could be he simply wun give a damn?.. his.. happy jiu4 hao3 mentality?..
Can someone tell me wat to do.. I'm not courageous enuff.. to let all these go.. cos I noe bebe will be able to achieve that if I'm adamant. :( sorry.. just dun haf enough assurance to noe that he will put up a fight for me.?. Sad isn't it.. kaoz. but dun b mistaken.. not self-pity here ya

Was drop dead tired by 5 plus.. can fall any min. A new colleague asked me to join him n another gal for lunch today. He's fr NUS too yr4. N the gal fr NIE.. oh well paragon is full of jap families n SPGs.. haa.. ok shall not b sterotyping.. Sales is lousy here.. pharmacist asked if I'm the colgate gal n upon identifying so commented no wonder sales was gd.. n the definition of his gd? :: ard 7-8.. kaoz.. thats real bad,... usually sales at other outlets can reach 20plus.. haa. kahFei noticed how shacked I am by evening.. haa.. had to take 2 breaks.

Decide I need a booster after wk since had to walked till PS.. so got a cup of white choc fat-free gelato fr this Italian shop named barvissimo.. that I've been eyeing haa.. they have such cute varieties n tastes good!!.. ex though. $3.20 fer small cup of one flavour. Head rolling on train.

Zonk off..
::Running away from delusions::

Can't help it.. glad he's not that sensitive or observant to notice.. ya he did sense something wrong.. can't believe i actually teared in front of him.. just as he turned to leave the room ..
phew..its better he din get to noe then.. din want to dampen the atmosphere... or at least his mood.
Realised I can't seem to face him tonight.
Everything is killing me. got 2 switch to zombie mode.. ha ha. C I can still humour myself.. *pat* May is still ard::
Everything will be fine... once tears r dried
::Running away from delusions::

Today will mark the end of the week. Our week.. Guess thats the best I can do for BB. The best that I can do to salvage situation now...cos din noe things are so bad till today.. more pple r involved.. relevant or not. But don't blame them.. cos in the first place I've/we've made the wrong move... N I do have my side to take care of too.. though that is not that big a prob.
To bebe: It's gonna be hard for me. Maybe bad for u too.. But I dun c any way out now... N I'm not that selfish to spoil wateva u have now. Frens included. Today will be the last. No more extensions.. no more excuses.
This song is just apt for today..
~ Lian4 Xi2 by Andy Lau.
A pity I'm using Kat's com currently n the characters can't be encoded.. Own u the lyrics.
::For you.. a special being in future::

::Running away from delusions::

I am upset. Stomache churning. Eyes burning. hurts.
It all started out rather innocent.. at least thats how it is then. For once I did not think of all the factors.. but just let feelings/emotions flow.. Till things r gettin more serious? then realised how I may have erred.. That things r not as simple as I thought.. or yearned it to be.. fact is its gettin complicated. N guess I have sinned.
More than one person will be hurt.. maybe all of us.
Have been increasingly gettin disturbed, guess after that day when Kat asked me wat exactly am I looking fer.. but tried pushing them away.
N everytime when I'm asked if I'll get jealous or am I so.. I thought since I have chosen this path... knowing prior the situation n everything.. I'm not gonna let myself get affected.. or not too much at least. Till today that I find the toughest to achieve that so far..
Tried distracting myself with surrounding environment.. start distancing myself.. shut out my heart... till I closed my eyes. Felt them heating up n kept telling myself to conc. on breathing even.. no way am I breaking down in front of anybody. much less on the bus.
Smilez. I'm capable of that.
::Running away from delusions::

Just slog through 100 plus mails... phew.. strained.. oh well.. came acosss my keen horoscope mails.. good thing is due to the diff time frame across the globe I will only receive the daily horoscope the next day.. so its more like for checking.. to c how relevent it has been... n truth is it has been more than once that it hits too close to wat happened.. neway.. i promised to blog fer the missing days.. so here goes.. will include those daily horoscope digest that is left in my acc..
::
25th May
Was out with Teddy that day.. Realisation dawned upon me that nite..
That vance had finched on 1st April when I touched him.
had sensed something then.. which I only noe now.. that it had been involuntarily..
How he had detested my touch.. has it been revolting?.. I guess it all doesn't matter now... how meaningless things have been once a conclusion has been made by him.
Understand that perfectly now... it still scares me.. now things can be so different in the mext minute.. in terms of environment, & feelings in others.. even within me.
How ephemeral life is. things are.

Then met Laura on the way back home.. NEline. 2nd time i c her. She has changed.. fr the cheerful fun gal to somewhat more bitter.. n I can understand..with the reason behind this change.
To face life all of a sudden all by herself.. Can't help feeling wat a jerk Ed has been.. n how foolish of him.
Felt sad n sorry for her...just pray she will not be harming herself..
Do not blame me for being cynical at times.. seen & heard too much.. been tru' some myself...
But I refused to be tainted.. I dun wanna be. hate it when I feel that way.. after some time u feel the drag of it.. the residue that haunts.. its the same feeling that makes one regret going into too many serious relationships ba.. each time it fails, it takes somethings away.. but thought it should not be to the extend of changing too much the gd part of the r/s.. else it will be mighty unfair for those after.

::
26th May

Your Wednesday Horoscope.
Look forward to another big career day. You could be in the right place at the right time when a boss or authority type is in the mood to be impressed. Focus on looking like you have already earned the promotion you seek.

Met Des Pang that day.. really took Chris fer a butch!.. for a few secs le ha..but thot he has a nice side profile... Chris.. u can stop floating now.. caught a late nit movie wif kat cm n Chris. Suppose to club.. think thats the start of the guys drifting fr D...

:: Hey peeps Can I cont another day? haa... tired le.. n promised bebe to be in bed half an hr ago.. haa.. ops. going swimming tmr morning too. :)
*lots more to catch up with ;p but I've blogged enough for today anyway.. so there.
::
was talking abt keen horoscope earlier on n checked out on something..
Both the Chinese n Western versions:

Two Rats loving each other can achieve a great deal of satisfaction and enrichment. Almost all conditions necessary to their common happiness are present here. Both Rats are afraid of loneliness, and their common fear will firmly bind them together. He knows how to behave as a friend, lover or husband according to the requirements of the moment. As for her, she will appreciate his kindliness and solicitude. Her economical virtue will meet with his approval as he has a strong sense of parsimony himself.

Though this union may seem ideal, there are some danger zones threatening it. Both parties are incorrigible flirts, and the discovery of one's secret infidelity by the other may bring about stormy quarrels or days of sullen silence. It is important for them to tell each other everything - to be an open book to each other - thereby allaying their mutual fears and suspicions. They had also better spend less time at parties and more time together at home; an overactive social life, which however pleases them, is apt to weaken their ties.

Sexually, the partners are remarkably well-matched. Both have a good appetite and attach great importance to the quality of their physical relationship. They suffer from no inhibitions or emotional hang-ups. They are always in quest of novelty and enjoy playing at love; this will preclude boredom but will often lead them to complicated, though harmless, sex games.

The Rat woman should be tactful and understanding when occasionally her man shows little interest in sex. It is certain he loves her, but his virility has its ups and downs because of his nervousness.
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What a wonderful couple you two Taureans make! If you don't allow yourselves to get too stubborn or set in your ways, the two of you should get along great. Both of you probably love music and the arts. And with similarly conservative views on financial matters, you should be able to have all the luxuries you need without going broke. In fact, you may have already discovered that you love to shop together. Especially if you're treating yourselves to something nice.

You both love to be told how much you're loved, yet rarely say it yourself. But you both deeply appreciate the value of a secure and long-lasting relationship, which is why this Taurean partnership can -- and probably will -- stand the test of time.






::Running away from delusions::

::Something I found among the flood of mails..::

> > > CHILD: Dad, where did I come from?
> > > DAD: Okay, we had to have this conversation some day!
> > > Dad and mom met in a chat room on the net. I set up a meeting
> > > with your mom and we landed in the bathroom at the Cyber Caf¨¦.
> > > Then, mom did some downloads from dads memory stick and when
> > > dad was ready to upload to mom's hard disk, we discovered that
> > > there was no firewall. Seeing that it was a bit too late to cancel,
> > > I just carried on doing the upload. Nine months later, the damn
> > > virus then made a copy of files from both mom & dad's data and
> > > expelled it in an email attachment using mom's address!

Talking to Bebe now.. not very gd at multi-tasking afterall...

> > Management Case Study No.1

> > The manager of a large corporation got a heart attack, and the Doctor told
him to go for several weeks to a farm to relax.
The guy went to a farm, and after a couple of days he was very bored, so
he asked the farmer to give him some job to do. The farmer told him to clean
the shit of the cows. The farmer thought that to somebody coming from the
city, working the whole life sitting in an office, it will take over a week
to finish the job, but to his surprise the manager finished the job in less
than one day.

> > The next day the farmer gave to the manager a more difficult job: to cut
the heads of 500 chickens. The farmer was sure that the manager will not be
able to do the job, but at the end of the day the job was done.

> > The next morning, as most of the jobs in the farm were done, the farmer
asked the manager to divide a bag of potatoes in two boxes: one box with
small potatoes, and one box with big potatoes. At the end of the day the
farmer saw that the manager was sitting in front of the potatoes bag, but
the two boxes were empty.

> > The farmer asked the manager: "How is that you did such difficult jobs
during the first days, and now you cannot do this simple job?" The manager
answered: "Listen, all my life I'm cutting heads and dealing with shit,
but now you ask me to make decisions!"

> > Management Case Study No.2

> > A man goes into a pet shop to buy a parrot. The shop owner points to three
identical looking parrots on a perch and says, "the parrot on the left costs
500 dollars". "Why does the parrot cost so much," asks the man. The shop
owner says, "well, the parrot knows how to use a computer".

> > The man then asks about the next parrot to be told that this one costs
1,000 dollars because it can do everything the other parrot can do plus it
knows how to use the UNIX operating system.

> > Naturally, the increasingly startled man asks about the third Parrot to be
told that it costs 2,000 dollars. Needless to say this begs the question,
"What can it do?"

> > To which the shop owner replies, "to be honest I have never seen it do a
thing, but the other two call him boss!"

**

----------------------------------------------------------------
A Chinese



A Chinese walks into a bar in America late one night and he saw Steven
Spielberg.
As he was a great fan of his movies, he rushes over to him, and asks for
his autograph.
Instead, Spielberg gives him a slap and says, "You Chinese people
bombed our Pearl Habour, get outta here."
The astonished Chinese man replied, "It was not the Chinese who
bombed your Pearl Harbour, it was the Japanese".
"Chinese, Japanese, Taiwanese, you're all the same," replied Spielberg.
In return, the Chinese gives Spielberg a slap and says, "You sank the
Titanic, my forefathers were on that ship."
Shocked, Spielberg replies, "It was the iceberg that sank the ship,
not me."
The Chinese replies, "Iceberg, Spielberg, Carsberg, you're all the same
**

Two rich men were talking over coffee one day and one of them said to
the other one. "Hey I tell you my driver is really stupid. If you don't
believe me I'll show you." He called his driver Ah Beng over and said,
"Ah Beng, here is a $10 note, go to the car showroom and buy me a
Mercedes". To which Ah Beng replied, "Yes Sir! Right away, Sir!" and
rushed off to the Showroom. The rich man then turned to his friend and
said, "See, I told you he was stupid."

The other rich man said, "That's nothing, you want to see stupid, I
will
show you stupid." And he called his driver, Ali. "Ali, go home now and
check to see if I'm at home." To which Ali said, "Yes Sir! Right
away,Sir!" and ran home. "See what I told you? He doesn't even have
enough brains to know that I cannot be at home if I am here."

Later on, the two drivers met on the road. Ah Beng said to Ali, "Eh,
you
know my boss is sooooooo stupid. He gave me $10 and asked me to go to
the car showroom and buy him a Mercedes..... Doesn't he know that today
is Sunday lah, the showroom is closed!"

Ali replied, "You think your boss is stupid? My boss lagi worse, he
asked me to go home to check if he is at home... He got handphone
what,he can just call up to check lah, bodoh!!!"

*****************************************************
CAR

Beng and Seng excited and locked the car in a hurry, forgetting to
remove the key which was in the ignition. Realizing the mistake, Beng
asked, 'Why don't we get a coat hanger to open it.' 'No, that won't
work' answered Seng. 'People will think we're trying to break in.'

Then Beng suggested, 'What if we use a pocket knife to cut around the
rubber, then stick a finger in and pull up the lock?' 'No,' said Seng.
'People will think we're too dumb not to use a coat hanger.'

The kan cheong Beng shouted, 'we'd better think of something fast. It's
starting to rain and the sunroof is open!'

******************************************************
PIZZA

Ah Beng ordered a pizza and the waitress asked if she should cut it in
six or twelve pieces. Six, please. I could never eat twelve pieces.

******************************************************
DEAD BIRD

"Oh, look at the dead bird."
Ah Beng looked skyward and said "Where, Where got?"

******************************************************



::Running away from delusions::

Dawnie is sick.. quite bad i think... heard yday fr her.. that she has been having fever for 3 days!! Erm.. no wonder she got irritated too.. erm its like this..
I've heard fr quite a few frens that I'm attached.. naturally I'm surprised cos I din tell anyone I'm attached.. not that I'm hiding anything.. but no need to n things r not concrete enough (at least fer me) to declare anything. Got to noe they all heard fr Vance.. there goes the ???? huh.. n where in the hell did he this info fr.. + y has he been spreading.. asked Issac when he called the other day.. he who noes a bit..abt teddy n me.. but even he can't b sure how things r. Actually din wanna care much abt it cos hey an ex telling frens abt me being attached is no big deal. till yday when curiousity got the better of me n I msged Dawnie.. cos the day b4 I got it fr Vance himself that he had got the news fr Dawn.. think is she has never confirmed I'm attached.. just that there is this thing going on with a guy called yi... something that she herself can't remember. But I gathered enough to noe Vance has been asking ard abt whether I attached.. I'm sure he asked Ivy too.. hey.. is this the same obsession he had for Joann in the past? wanting to noe wat's going on in his ex's life? haa neway.. Dawnie got irritated by us.. saying "wat's his prob trying to dig info fr everyone? I mean u all broke up n u haf every right to date who you want... n y you so bothered about whether he tells e whole world not if your frenz know you din let him down n it was him right from e start... gosh.. this is ridiculous.." ops..
Haa.. ya din wanna b bothered by it.. n no matter how situations r now.. only the parties who r directly involved know exactly what is going on.. thats y dun bother speculate too much abt others' relationships... no matter which kind they are.. anyway.. knowing that Vance has tried wooing another gal when he had not clear things with me then had distanced me fr him..(be it true or ney)
every ounce of pain experienced had taught me to let it go.

To Vance: you will be another person left in my memories. Someone who has once given me so much love n joy. So much assurance that you will be there for me. the securities..to protect. to bare burdens with.. till the day u decide to give up me.. to let me go. Someone who has caused me so much grief.. the greatest intensity of the meaning of pain.. so much so that I'm quite sure then that I'll not get to experience any pain greater that that.. just wat i felt then though I noe there will be greater agony.. ie. if anything abominable is to happen to mummy..
When you told me that for once... in a relationship.. all u want for me is to be happy.. I've only realised now could that be so, cos subconsciously ur past relationship with Joann has induced that need to make me happy.. to accomplishe wat u haf failed then.? Even if that is true.. I will not b hating u. Cos I'm sure when we r happy then.. u haf put in genuine feelings fer me. Which reminds me of a nice song I've heard just this month.. its an old song though by Karen Mok.
Dedicating it to Vance.. to how i feel esp. since 1st April.

他不愛我


他不愛我 牽手的時候太冷清 擁抱的時候不夠靠近
他不愛我 說話的時候不夠認真 沈默的時候又太用心

*我知道他不愛我 他的眼神 說出他的心
# 我看透了他的心 還有別人逗留的背影
他的回憶清除得不夠乾淨
我看到了他的心 演的全是他和她的電影
他不愛我 儘管如此 他還是贏走了我的心



::Running away from delusions::

Finally got up at ard 6pm.. dead beat. erm.. din manage to wake bebe up in time.. hee cos after one failed morning call i dozed off myself till 2.. n by then its kinda late fer him... oh well.. just finished reading kat's blog.. I'm kinda envious of wat she's going tru now.. cos I've experienced it in the past.. just my most recent failed relationship actually.. its the one I've put in more I guess... cos in a way I've never really dare to let my guards down to open enough for any guys in the past. It could be due to the way I'm brought up.. Very independently.. so much so that it has actually curbed my expressiveness,.. guess thats wat my piano teacher, Liu, noticed too.. Over these recent yrs it has been better.. as in.. starting to learn how to let myself feel more..
::in the past... the way to protect myself.. as i believed.. is to put a gap to feelings.. not to let any emotions get too close to me.. not to feel the full intensity of acute emotions.. ::
For the latest relationship.. I've tried the best in lettin myself fall into the abyss of love.. (haa ok maybe i shouldn't use the word abyss.. cos its usually used for something bad like hell isn't it?.. then in a way.. ironically.. love has always been a double-edged sword.. kinda. its just the risks u got to take.. n I've not been courageous enuff in the past to take these risks..)
Perhaps that is the reason for my insecurities when I felt myself down that path with the latest failed relationship... still .. no excuses fer my changes. Sometimes u may meet the rite guy but he there fer u at the wrong time.. n I've needed him to make me realise certain things.. to learn.. They say its always too late by the time u learn something.. quite true at times isn't it.
:: still learning how to dismantle bits by bits the walls I've long built ard my emotions..::
But at least I have loved before.
Think I need a guy who can give me enough assurance.. that they r not like those.. who will give me up easily.. who can have heart for more than a gal.. for more than just me. N that will not be easy ba?

::Running away from delusions::

Eerm,, got home ard 7 today.. bebe talked to mummy for at least 1/2 an hr earlier on.. fr 6.. Felt kinda awful then.. cos to trouble bebe so much.. n cos of how i feel for mummy.. I do love my mum..

Anyway.. situation with bebe has been gettin kinda weird i guess... weird as in with pple ard us.. like family n frens.. mentioned that but bebe missed the main pt... he just wants the best for me... still trying to apprehend that part.. kinda noe how he feels ... then again not too sure :/ haa.. queer.

Oh ya .. its has been a long time since i last blogged.. or rather.. cos so much has happened over these past few wks.. I think i've enjoyed myself.. its like taking a break fr everything.. (ya.. even though its hols..) Fr wk.. bizcom stuff... just everything.. in a way being MIA haa.. so much so that I'm dreading going back to them.. burr..... .. Neway.. will be blogging later.. as in some of the stuff that has happened over these days:).. gonna take a long time haa.. n I'm just gettin too tired to type or think now haa.. oh n think I'll set those postings at 2300hrs for convenience sake.. haa.. may haf a time lag though. will try to recall as much as i can lol..

Miss this? --> haa something that marks the start of all my posts last time... b4 my template goes haywire.. Oh well.. hee not gonna redo it.. cos asked Kat to do one for me haa... lazy ;p think should be in green n purple.. haa my fav colour combi so far hee.. well hope its the rite shades of greens n purples hee.. can't wait to c it.. meanwhile then I'll b doing another particular template for a certain 'blog' hee...

Haa.. bebe was hooked on to Scrabble after that game they played at my house haa.. brought it over his place after swimming n lunch.. (oh i found my St Nick's uniform! haa.. thrilled..paiseh..just one of those silly times that gets me excited..) Anyway.. I won again i think.. haa.. never really enjoyed scrabble like this in the past.. can count wif one hand the number of times I've played Scrabble.. being the only child doesn't help too.. then crazy taxi3!! haa.. its fun.. but darn.. I drive too crazily haa.. I've got to catch up bebe's ranking haa.. Then time to head down to Zouk.. or rather Phuture.. finally get to c Darius again n.. ya Clara n her bf.. mambo suxx.. its no longer mambo.. mixed with pop n wat else... burr.. went back to phuture n think we all enjoyed a little more than last wk.. other then its still too crowded for my liking.. but hey.. I'm flexible.. limited space then dance in limited style loh haa.. saw Desmond Pang haa.. just happened to chat with him a few days back.. haa.. he thought I'm with a butch... erm ha.. he got the wrong person but in a way he's close too.. saw yong ping too.. got to noe he broke off with his gf le.. last wed.. humph.. he's fine though.:) gd fer him.. Had supper at River Valley.. the same place again.. n ya... Chee Mun proved once again to b a v. thoughtful bf... at least for Kat :) n Chelsea is cute haa.. her sae reminds me of someone.. can't place a finger to though. Realised something.. that I almost always club with Vance in the past.. haa cos not after we part.

Ah.. just came across these in a mail.. ______________________________________________________

An exasperated mother, whose son was always getting into mischief,
finally asked him, "How do you expect to get into Heaven?" The boy
thought it over and said, "Well, I'll run in and out and in and out and
keep slamming the door until St. Peter says, 'For Heaven's sake,
Dylan, come in or stay out!'"
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One summer evening during a violent thunderstorm a mother was
tucking her son into bed. She was about to turn off the light when
he asked with a tremor in his voice, "Mommy, will you sleep with me
tonight?" The mother smiled and gave him a reassuring hug. "I can't
dear," she said. "I have to sleep in Daddy's room." A long silence was
broken at last by his shaky little voice: "The big sissy."
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When I was six months pregnant with my third child, my three year
old came into the room when I was just getting ready to get into the
shower. She said, "Mommy, you are getting fat!" I replied, "Yes, honey,
remember Mommy has a baby growing in her tummy." "I know," she
replied, but what's growing in your butt?"
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A little boy was doing his math homework. He said to himself, "Two plus five,
that son of a bitch is seven. Three plus six, that son of a bitch is nine...."
His mother heard what he was saying and gasped, "What are you doing?"
The little boy answered, "I'm doing my math homework, Mom."
"And this is how your teacher taught you to do it?" the mother asked.
"Yes," he answered. Infuriated, the mother asked the teacher the next day,
" What are you teaching my son in math?"
The teacher replied, "Right now, we are learning addition."
The mother asked, "And are you teaching them to say two plus two, that
son of a bitch is four?"
After the teacher stopped laughing, she answered, "What I taught them was,
two plus two, THE SUM OF WHICH, is four."

::Running away from delusions::