Got my pay for the Suntec IT fair.. from Rick today.. all of us r down there.. except for Zen n Pitt.. got 210 ba.. not bad lor.. 3 days.. 10hrs. Then waited for Rick to treat us for dinner haa.. n got to explore the toysight... man its soooo cool!!!>.. think I'll fo check out more abt it.. its like those virtual sensoring games...

We went to this Restuarant at the basement.. which haf a sushi conveyor belt.. its a fusion of Jap Korean n Thai food... nice... n my powerbabe is with Rick now haa.. ya cos he's helping me.. sending it in for repair.. the magnetism of the latch la.. hopefully they can change the whole cover too hee so it will be scratch-free again hee... n he offered to get rid of the dent for me haa... n many things I'll be doing to protect my new one if I'm selling n buying.. problem now.. I can't find my invoice.. shit.. nvm will head down to notebk coop to collect the Apple Extended Care haa n c if I can get a copy of the invoice. Needa do the MF mailrun fr 12-2 anyway.. piano tmr shit.. n now having disagreements with Vance.. dun think i need to say more..
emm.. ZH saw the pink set I've done for Dawn's fren.. N since he's gettin jewellery for his ex overseas he decided to get them fr me!!>.. too bad its too late to get the beads tonight.. but think he wants it by thurs. . so haf to get them tmr lor..

Think I've done many wrong things? or thats the idea Vance gave me.. fine.. I may agree.. but can't blame him cos ya he dun understand wats going on isn't it.. ya I'm just full of flaws.... its gettin almost unbearable... conversations...
Actually saw something that cause me remorse earlier on... a card that reads
"To: May
Happy one month!
We'll brave all hardships
and share all fortunes.
Hugs!"

Now it just add on more grief.. on top of the guilt n stuff.. things i'm not gonna mention here..

K maybe meeting Buddy n his gf on friday. dun think i have the mood to continue blogging
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For piano lesson today... she told me alot of things.. including sensing that I'm frustrated.. n troubled by things... be it studies.. relationship.. so much so that I may spend a lot of time practising piano but wun b effective..
That I'm one of her fav student though I not a gd student relating to piano la hee.. But I'm a warm child.. etc.. shit.. gonna miss her.. can't believe it huh.. ya.. she's going Texas.. n may b for 2 yrs.. so gonna haf 2 more lessons with her.. then will be pass over to her fren..

1st MF meeting today.. wah.. the comm is big.. 15?.. Chee Shing is indeed in it too haa.. Ken Pan.. ok la.. overall fine.. then when down town to met yifeng.. suppose to haf KTV with J n P.. but they both busy la.. so.. ok loh.. Anyway.. was complaining to Y how stressed up I am... since din feel like clubbing too.. so chill at Alley Bar... 1st time there.. not bad... not as crowded as wkend.. I ordered a Blue Mountain.. think its Bombay Gin.. n lime flavoured.. so not that bad .. a cheese platter!!>. sounds gd doesn't it.. but out of the 4 tyoes of cheese... 2 sux big time... yucks!! like chemical pungent.. n one bland.. only cheddar cheese is gd... along with celery n carrot sticks.. n cookies.. n green olives! haa.. $15 though.. wat a monster.. should haf ordered the mango frozen magarita though.. cos half way tru mine.. can feel the alcohol hitting me.. heart beating at too fast a pace.. hot.. think i shld be slightly red.. so tone down.. till its better b4 finishing up my drink.. felt so tired.. n din noe y its so fast today... till Y mentioned that perhapz I'm tired in the 1st place.. so the effect is hitting in faster?.. we walked down to Dhoby Ghaut.. n went back to Hougang vis NEline b4 the cab down to Pasir Ris..

ooh.. haven tell u guys abt the IT fair.. took a few pics only during the last day of the fair.. haa.. but rite now i need to hit the sack......... haven do tut 7.. gurps..
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"well, coz ya haven't got to the root of the unhappiness, wat's causing all this pain? remember how you felt when you're in love the first time? Love is powerful...and at the same time, more peaceful than a gentle breeze up in the mountains...
it soothes ...it teaches.... it grows and those in love grow from it...
it's aliving thing... it needs everything and at the same time gives you more than you need.... "
ya kinda exhausting

let it fallow..... let it sit around for sometime.... go to a place i find peace...then somehow, the answer will come to me...
you know, most of the time, the solution is there...juz that we dun see it...or thought abt it enough..

I guess lovers can either bring ya to heaven or hell....



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State of delirium..

Had a rather fitful nite.. was upset... and confused.. I questioned n questioned... but couldn't get an answer.
This morning I'm so distracted that I did a few wrong things during the morning prayer session... Luckily mum blamed all that on having not enough sleep.. Thoughts arn't fleeting fast enough.. I recalled that hurting incident .. saw it from a new perspective.. needless a gd one. Experienced another degree of pain.. heartache n betrayal.. Perhaps I've taken in too great a magnitude. Perhaps u will ridicule me.. to have been so affected by such a casual response..:: in fact.. I rather hope thats how u c it rather than thinking that is important... that she matters that much.. that u care to be that curious(quoted) abt it. Nevertheless... I'm holding a different stand.. being not just another friend..

Dunno if I should even blog wat I feel here... it may alter things but I hope not. What done is done.. I recognised that. This could even be a secondary thing to how things r now.?? really dunno what to think... apparently I wasn't included in how your mind thinks or brains wk.. If only I can read your mind.
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This few days haf been hell... studies.. haven done much of that.. haiz.. NUSSU stuff.. ya.. gettin real stress fr stuff... cos of Matric Fair.. the worse for marketing among the 6 FOCC projects i guess... KEN PAN!! haa ya shouldn't have listened to him haa.. Had a Bizcom AGM yday... it started an hour late at 7.30.. and last till 10 plus?.. but left sch only at 11 plus... thank goodness Chao Heng offered to drive me and Ken Soh back.. n ya... Ken is the new Chairman... not a surprise for me :P n the greatest shock for u guys.. I'm the vice.. almost got Chair.. cos HX was telling me many seniors wanted me to run too.. but come on.. with Ken around.. haa so ya.. he saved my ass.. But it wil be a joy to wk with him.. he's gd la.. and Ron too.. project manager.. Stanley Marketing manager.. the other 2 gals Ling ling and Claris?(shit i forgot name le) I'm not close to them cos haven got a chance to wk together... but the MC discussed and we decided to get in Fiona to help Ron and Trevor to help Stanley.. Trevor wanted Marketing manager alot... so when he din win the vote.. could c that he was rather upset...

me presentation was crap anyway. haa.. din noe how to sell myself.. then while waiting for the others.. ZC came out.. n was saying we should be more aggressive hee... ops.. aggressive in this way?.. not used to it.. can sell products and ideas better than myself.

Ok.. back to the lousy period part.. relationship-wise... think gettin better?... oh well.. may as well get used to things too haa.. but was so bloody angry at things n myself that day that i stupidly bang my fist on my com table..or burst my vessel.. so when I got to practise piano on Monday then I realised how bruised my knuckles were...
Going to wk for Apple again tmr and friday.. at Suntec.. Benson msg to ask who's wking again this round... well.. gd to be able to c the guys again :P
dunno.. but rather tired though.. so.. sorta wish the Colgate project will end earlier.. haa.. 3 more wks to go.... Jel... u free to join me again? haa... we'll hunt out the other 2 flavours haa..

Had a couple of things lined up to be done by this wk... but somehow wanted to take some time off.. No pt afterall.. cos no one is free to accompany me too. Which is y I haf the time to blog.. muahaa...
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Guardian's health and beauty fair which lasted for 3 days over the wkend has finally ended. Haa.. it is not as boring as I thought it would be cos met a few familiar faces and the guardian pple there r much friendier.. but my poor left hand.. was scarred here n there by the toothbrushes in my lab coat's pocket... haa..too bad I forgot abt taking pics... *erm erm* else can c me in my dentist imitation haa..

Oh ya.. made a few more earrings n necklace.. decided to put all their pics up here::

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