Wednesday, December 31, 2003
I don't think I'm overly sensitive.. I'm just Observant.. and pretty gd in sensing people's thoughts and seizing the situation.. But found out today that it may not be such a good trait after all.. haiz..
I'm really trying.. really trying to leave the past as it is.. the past..
But somehow .. at times.. I let it affect me too much.. and the more I dwell on it.. the more its like poison... even blinding me.. hardening me.. putting a veil over the sea of Love..
Sometimes.. I feel lousy.. lousy over how terrible a gal I am.. how I haf made someone felt bad.. and the many times when I can be just a bit more understanding.. just a bit more affectionate.. just a bit more tolerant.. just a bit more happie... yes.. hapie.. now that makes me guilty.. I ought to be ashamed..
neways.. was chatting with JL.. and we talked abt dawnie.. abt how she's converted.. not that we haf anything against the religion.. but rather.. how her personality has been.. n things just roll..
(.............) <-- section delected.
There is something that I've wanted to share once I read it.. cos once again.. it gives puffs of oxygen to the dying flame.. due to the current hour and how needed sleep is for the later part of the day.. I'm gonna share just a short one now..
Moses Mendelssohn, the grandfather of the well=known German composer, was far from being handsome. Along with a rather short stature, he had a grotesque hunchback.
One day he visited a merchant in Hamburg who had a lovely daughter named Frumtje. Moses fell hopelessly in love with her. But Frumjte was repulsed by his misshapen appearance.
When it came time for him to leave, Moses gathered his courage and climbed the stairs to her room to take one last oportunity to speak to her. She was a vision of heavenly beauty, but caused him deep sadness by her refusal to look at him. After several attempts at conversation, Moses shyly asked, "Do you believe marriages are made from heaven?"
"Yes," she answered, stil looking at the floor. "And do you?"
"Yes I do," he replied. "You see, in heaven at the birth of each boy, the Lord announces which girl he will marry. When I was born, my future bride was pointed out to me. Then the Lord added, 'But your wife will be humpbacked.'
"Right then and there I called out,'Oh Lord, a humpbacked woman would be a tragedy. Please, Lord, give me the hump and let her be beautiful.'"
Then Frumtje looked up into his eyes and was stirred by some deep memory. She reached out and gave Mendelssohn her hand and later became his devoted wife.
Ok guys.. this is not the initial article I wanted to share.. but.. well.. will do.. haa. Ooohh ya.. watched LOTR today.. talked abt it another time.. Char ne~!
::Running away from delusions::
Monday, December 29, 2003
"My Immortal"
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[CHORUS:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
::Running away from delusions::
Sunday, December 28, 2003
Haa after 8800 Kou Shous... phew!>. haa.. thighs a bit aching ... was worse while doing so though haa.. oh yar.. will be sharing a story or two once in awhile.. was touched by them..
Sometimes we do need time to learn how to love the pple ard u again.. many a time, we do take those who love us... whom we love.. who are ard us for granted.. We do forget how impt they are to us easily.. ops gotta meet da for dinner le.. guess I'll haf to share a hug later with u guys :P
::Running away from delusions::
Cried today.. at two different times.. wish things are fine now..
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Was at Pasir Ris Park yday nite with dar, Shir, Issac and grace.. I's sis.. shes rather pretty :P tall 169.. sat at a nice place..where the tables and chairs r sawed off at the legs.. then fooled ard. and spent the nite at I's place.. playing cards and talking with Shir after that over my Spicy Mushroom Noodles.. haa.. talked abt relationships.. etc..
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was vexed by mum though haiz.. she cares for me...
ooh got the few more Celestial Zone II fr JH tonite.. n craving the corn fr the Pasar Malam hee.. shld haf bought earlier just now..
::Running away from delusions::
Friday, December 26, 2003
http://www.mindmedia.com/brainworks/profiler
Haze, you are mildly left-hemisphere dominant while showing a slight preference for auditory processing. This overall combination seems to indicate a well-working blend of logic and judgment and organization, with sufficient intuition, perception and creativity to balance that dominance.
You will at times experience conflict between how you feel and what you think which will generally be resolved in favor of what you think. You will find yourself interested in the practical applications of whatever material you have learned or whatever situation you face and will retain the ability to refine whatever knowledge you possess or aspects of whatever position you are in.
By and large, you will orient yourself toward intellectual activities and structure. Though not rigid, you will schedule yourself, plan, and focus on routine and continuity of operations, rather than on changes and disruptions
When changes or disruptions occur, you are likely to consider first how to ensure that such disruptions do The same balance is reflected in your sensory preference. You will tend to be reflective and measured in your interaction style. For the most part, you will be considered objective without being cold and goal-oriented while retaining the capacity to listen to others.
Preferentially you learn by listening and maintaining significant internal dialogues with yourself. Nevertheless, you have sufficient visualization capabilities to benefit from using graphs, charts, doodles, or even body movement to enhance your comprehension and memory.
To the extent that you are even implicitly aware of your hemispheric dominance and sensory style, you will feel most comfortable in those arenas which emphasize verbal skills and logic. Teaching, law, and science are those that stand out among the professions, along with technical sales and management.
::Running away from delusions::
My mood for today seems to be going downhill... n this time round.. its my fault.. It has been two months.. how can i forget.. though it has not been really official with significant symbols.. still.. i forgot.. so no pt for me to say anything here... no more excuses...
I've probably hurt him enuff.. but recalling.. I do sound real cold then.. just dunno how what to say.. its Unpardonable.
::Running away from delusions::
Haiz.. haven been abt to sleep well.. or rather get to sleep> Went to ZZzz at almost 6 last nite.. or rather this morning.. cos .. was watching this show.. abt the failed assassination of Emperor Ching.. then this cute jap serial abt a teacher hee.. real nice.. too bad only screened at 4am.. phew... anyway.. may as well do moi prayers at 5 so that I can haf undisrupted sleep.. However.. I kept turning and tossing.. having so many thots flashing tru.. haf to psycho myself to shut out thots.. burr.. Oh yar..
YOu guys can add comments to moi posts now.. was irritated by that stoopid site though haa.. but seems like its wking fine now.. haa.. Oh yar.. rite now u r hearing My december by Linkin Park.. for the rest of December
my december
this is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear
this is my december
this is my snow covered home
this is my december
this is me alone
and i
just wish that i didn't feel like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to make you feel like that
and i
just wish that i didn't feel like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to you
and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to
this is my december
these are my snow covered dreams
this is me pretending
this is all i need
and i
just wish that i didn't feel like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to make you feel like that
and i
just wish that i didn't feel like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to you
and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to
this is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear
and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to
yeah... hee.. new year's ard the corner hee.. its additional excuse to celebrate and drink hee..
CHeerS pEepS~!
::Running away from delusions::
Thursday, December 25, 2003
Ohh and yar.. hee.. got moi pressie fr Buddy loh.. haa.. love the cards.. cute squirrel and the magnetic bracelet of dunn wat stones hee.. oh yar peeps added a link of a fren's.. check it out.. haa..
::Running away from delusions::
Haa just added a few games for u guys.. thefirst for the X'mas season yeah.. and one of my childhood fav.. PacMan.. just that this one is new version.. em.. may change the games when I'm free next time.. burr.. wanted to put stickgames here... just dunno how.. anyone who has an idea.. do enlighten me ya?.. oh well.. spend a cosy X'mas this yr.. hee.. was at dar's place watching vcds.. Ju-On and the Italian Job.. nice i guess.. then the whole of this afternoon napping hee...
Oh ya.. something for moi frens... 2 hrs b4 X'mas 2003 is over hee..
::Running away from delusions::
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
AVRIL LAVIGNE
Skater Boy
He was a boy
She was a girl
Can i make it any more obvious
He was a punk
She did ballet
What more can i say
He wanted her
She'd never tell secretly she wanted him as well
But all of her friends
Stuck up their nose
They had a problem with his baggy clothes
He was a skater boy
She said see you later boy
He wasn't good enough for her
She had a pretty face
But her head was up in space
She needed to come back down to earth
5 years from now
She sits at home
Feeding the baby she's all alone
She turns on tv
Guess who she sees
Skater boy rockin up MTV
She calls up her friends
They already know
And they've all got
Tickets to see his show
She tags along
Stands in the crowd
Looks up at the man that she turned down
He was a skater boy
She said see you later boy
He wasn't good enough for her
Now he's a super star
Slamming on his guitar
Does your pretty face see what he's worth?
He was a skater boy
She said see you later boy
He wasn't good enough for her
Now he's a super star
Slamming on his guitar
Does your pretty face see what he's worth?
Sorry girl but you missed out
Well tough luck that boy's mine now
We are more than just good friends
This is how the story ends
Too bad that you couldn't see,
See the man that boy could be
There is more that meets the eye
I see the soul that is inside
He's just a boy
And I'm just a girl
Can I make it any more obvious
We are in love
Haven't you heard
How we rock each others world
I'm with the skater boy
I said see you later boy
I'll be back stage after the show
I'll be at the studio
Singing the song we wrote
About a girl you used to know
I'm with the skater boy
I said see you later boy
I'll be back stage after the show
I'll be at the studio
Singing the song we wrote
About a girl you used to know
Haa .. this song is cool.. like the come back part ho.. anyway.. went Devil's Bar.. finally haa.. think the place is spacious enough.. not exactly the dance floor on a crowded day but the chilling out area... music's not bad too... haa.. DJ yday was a 30plusplus guy... haa quite alrie though :P.. Seems like no plans for today so far.. cos potluck at Kenneth's cancelled... he's under the weather.. the poor guy.. yup haf to do bidding this morning.. so slept for only 3 hrs?./ ya got to bed only at 6am.. its Christmas soon!~ hee..
::Running away from delusions::
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Pray my memory is intact
Oh yes... So happie.. hee.. floating with LoVE.. cos just watched Sound of Colors... Aaa... its just like a fairytale... hee.. touching.. and so ful of hope and love.. and not to mention christmas angels hee.. Do u believe there is the 46th trainstop?..hee.. Man.. Jimmy SPA is good hee..its the words he uses... wish I haf a copy of his comics... his ideas whoA...
Rcollections ::
Love to get the stickers... haa.. so.. oh yar.. at the part.. something real embarrassing and funnie.. I was so excited abt gettin them I actually tap on Shir's breast without turning ard.. ops.. haa.. found it so ridiculous I almost chocked on lauffing.. hee.. really greatful to her.. for wanting to watch this movie.. or I would have skipped it..
:: the chocs::--- Why do couples close their eyes when they kiss?... Kissing is a pleasure.. and you close your eyes upon it.. the same goes for chocs.. you close your eyes when you r having it.. What do you see when you close your eyes?
(ps: good chocs are never too sweet.. hee)
Actually sometimes our sense of sight is the most useless one.. we miss out on so many details that ought to be cherished.. n may only realise them.. when we shut out sight and focus more on using the others... *sigh* how I wish I can just spend sometime.. sitting with my loved one... dedicating the time to listening.. listening to all the miracles ard us..it is such a simple thing... yet it could bring abt joy and peace. Although I think he'll find that meaningless and a waste of time... burr... And yes.. unrequited love is painful... always has been.. that or bittersweet.. haa.. hey.. i prefer bittersweet chocs to sweet milk chocs anyway~
This movie is like something out of a toyland book... leaving me tingle with sweetness.. and love
the music helped lots too haa.. gonna dig them out.. OOohh. the stickers.. haa.. love stars... think i'll go buy some.. 3D too.. haiz..::..at the next stop, will there be someone waiting for me?>::
But after the movie when shir asked Vance how he thinks of the show.. the only comment he can make is the China gal is pretty.. yala yala.. she has a damn nice nose and beautiful eyes.. that DongJie.. but.. sian le haa.. all he can say is the 'cai' burr.. there.. below
Btw.. if guys r interested... do view these :)
Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Ok now.. let me recall.. emm.. oh yar.. slept only at 6am this morning haa.. was rearranging my closet as mentioned in the previous blog hee.. da woke me up at 12.. but apparently I slept back hoho.. erm luckily he called again at 1.45.. else I'l b damn late for the meet.. but think he din sleep well.. was having headache earlier on.. haiz.. i really got to start sleeping early... oh well alex and issac came with me.. and so wat Mr CHan is doing.. theUnited Artists thingy is actually like a membership selling... and so qiao the Michelle fr IRN is now wkingwith them too haa.. she's also under sales.. in-charge actually.. so I din make a mistake when I thot its the same company that Sherman mentioned the other time haa.. but i'm more interested in the event organising part though hee.. wil b gd to gain the exposure and start learning things.. but I can only be on adhoc basic since I'm still schooling.. Chan is in charge of that.. When ard shopping with the guys after that since Vance and Zh were doing their christmas shopping which includes my share.. Saw this real chic choker fr Atiris.. tried it on.. it looks so gd.. the boys agreed too.. haa.. but the price is horrible... 69.90.. cos it includes crystals and embroidery.. sounds gd huh.. hee.. was indecisive abt it.. but finally decided to leave a deposit after walking all the way to Tangs and still can't get it of my mind.. damn.. this better be good..cos I'm penniless now..
yup cos hee.. the day before was out with James F.. when PA mart to collect my commision.. turn out to be less than wat I calculated.. so .. Zeth promised to check with Leslie for me.. k.. but I spent all of that sum on that day.. hee bought something for da .. and a cute pair of hand-made shoes fr India.. hee..
http://image.pbase.com/u37/hazeuploads/large/24364065.Pict0757.jpg
only thing its real flat.. and a skirt fr Taxi at Parco.. had dinner at Simply Thai.. yummy man... its sour and hot..I mean the TOm Yam Noodle Soup.. cool hee.. then get to noe Edmund and Laura.. haa nice friendly pple.. who can be as crazy too haa.. oh yar.. I received my first X'mas pressie.. not counting the pink top la.. its fr ZH today.. a necklace with a light blue stone set in.. clean :) haa.. hee ooh.. yet to collect moi gifts fr ZM ho.. oh yar.. mum got me a pair of shoes today too.. think cost 80 plus.. wah.. haa. SCholl one..
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Haa.. wanna c james in his ohsocute hat? hee.. will post after uploading la.. also.. think better ask him 1st haa.. ok.. think I better wrap up now.. time for bed.. and doing moi bidding tml.. lalala~
Oh yar.. was reading fred's post n get to noe this song.. You are the one by Whyte Shadow.. sweet... haa.. so for now.. enjoy~
::Running away from delusions::
Monday, December 22, 2003
Had a nice day today.. will tell ya in the next post.. but currently I'll have to go pack my closet... need new organisation hee.. all in jumbles now... n mainly cos Mum has been nagging non-stop at me... think I'll go crazy if I dun do that today... so there.. haa.. anyway.. below is wat I haf on my previous blog.. just kinda thought of sharing here.. for those who missed the previous.. Also.. realise they only feature limited posts here... so peeps.. do come back often in case u guys miss out somethings haa..I saw a nostalgic dream
At that time we became close
Everyone understood the overflowing loneliness
By the time we realized
That something was precious, it was too late
The feelings that pass us by are always too dazzling
If I ever hurt you until you want to cry
At that time, I'll sing for you until your tears dry up
::Running away from delusions::
Sunday, December 21, 2003
OK... got to rush out now.. so finaly done with the new template with my modifications.. haa.. customising this template took so much of moi time.. humph.. and it really irritates me when my com hang this morning at 5 when I haven save.. gave up then.. and spent the last 1/2 hr doing everything again haa.. was staring for 10 hrs yday since evening reading Lissa Explains and choosing the skin haa.. so many!!>. guess I'll change every now and then.. when I'm free haa... much to learn much to learn..
::Running away from delusions::
Saturday, December 20, 2003
The tale of Love and Madness
-shared by Shereen-
A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it
for
the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not
knowing what to do.
One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more
bored than ever. Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: Let's play
hide and seek!
All of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: I want to
count, I want to count! And since nobody was crazy enough to want to
seek Madness, all the others agreed. Madness leaned against a tree and
started to count: One, two, three...
As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding. Tenderness hung
itself on the horn of the moon, Reason hid in a pile of garbage.
Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the center of
the earth. Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the
bottom of the lake, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up
breaking. And Madness continued to count: ... seventy nine, eighty,
eighty one...
By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden - except
Love. For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And
this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to
hide Love.
Madness: ...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven... Just when Madness
got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where he hid.
And Madness turned around and shouted: I'm coming, I'm coming!
As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because
Laziness had no energy to hide. Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn
of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake and Passion at the center of
the earth. One by one, Madness found them all - except Love.
Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love. Envious of Love,
Envy whispered to Madness: You only need to find Love, and Love is
hiding in the
rose bush.
Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose
bush.
Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop.
Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands.
Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes.
Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a
pitch fork. What have I done! What have I done! Madness shouted. I have
left you blind! How can I repair it?
And Love answered: You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do
something for me, you can be my guide.
And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always
accompanied by Madness.
...There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never
stop
loving...there are some love that don't go away...but we should all be
lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity.
Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever
::Running away from delusions::
Friday, December 19, 2003
Now at Vance's place..waiting for him to get ready b4 going for dinner and meeting Shir and Issac again haa... yup the four of us went to his place after the movie.. haa to carry on watching Home Run.. anyway results are out.. moi's bad.. haa.. well at least I din flunk any..and surprisingly SEA.. which I've only read tru' one n half chapt of notes an hr b4 the exam.. got me a C.. -_-"' N philo.... haa got A- can u believe it??.. not so bad afterall but still my CAP score is low.. Well Vance's is real gd.. hee.. so. happy for him.. erm.. but mood was kinda affected by Dawnie's results and feeling low while watching Internal Affairs... its a great show nevertheless..
Ok.. ZH's was ard Vance's but Buddy got such a high score!~>.. Phew.. haiz.. dun really wanna think too much abt my score.. no pt crying over spilled milk anyway.. well.. we watched Wo de lau po wei man shi ba shui after lunch.. haa was explaining the actions of the gal in the movie to Shir... cos.. well.. I kinda c her in me.. haa yar.. can be a real defensive nature.. which sometimes leaves one lonely.. Not everyone can decipher people with that nature.. but guess its easy when u r like that urself.. or when one gets the hang of it hee.. hm.. n I still dunno which hp to get by this 26th... ...
::Running away from delusions::
Thursday, December 18, 2003
Finally met Tracy on tuesday evening.. for dinner.. with Vance and Mervin.. n chilled at CAN cafe.. ended up staying over at Tracy's for movie marathon.. haa watched only Freddy vs Jason and Tears of the Sun.. was 5 plus that we al went to bed.. .. em.. Tears of the Sun was nice nice... but got the overall impression that its rather short.. but come on.. its just abt a mission.. how long can tha be.. and a jolly well mission carried out at that.. just a pity so many deaths involved..
Well woke up in time for dinner b4 i need to rush home for class.. Head down to Mambo Jumo after that.. em.. think this is gonna be my last mambo for the hols.. anyway..V JH K and a new fren Rong Jing.. met couple of ol'frens there haa.. ZK and Hong.. man.. he's on the platform.. !! haa I've forgotten that he's already 18 now.. haa.. but he picked up smoking.. tsk tsk.. saw Terry.. Pakloon.. yes... again.. and a couple more biz com seniors.. msg ZhengChang to c if he's ard too.. but he just landed S'pore a few hrs ago fr Aust.. so pretty exhausted.. met James Fong finally haa.. he drank pretty much.. not drunk though.haa.. n he's a member.. damn it.. haa pakloon is too.. fr being a model i think.. Oh well.. satisfied that I've exercised hee.. moi all time fav sport :) oh the only incident that irks me is while queezing my way to get to james and back, theres this grp of frens i guess.. who played a fool.. tapping on me and saying his fren has been eyeing me blah blah.. come on.. i've been dancing at the other end.. like real they haf seen me.. n to make it worse.. the 2nd time i pass by that place.. another guy fr that grp kept sCreaming 'hey hEy' like an idiot that finally i had to look back.. n its all abt the same crap.. just different guys.. so wat.. they r trying to test which sort of guys attract me? blaH.. haa and its so funie when I went back that path with Vance n hey~ i had my peace :p
Craved for Kimchi cup noodles.. haa not in the mood for benS& jerrys though I finally found them.. haiz.. N noW I'm in the mood.. burr.r.. anyway.. master and commandments cancelled.. no other better shows other than those I reserved for dear.. so.. meeting them for coffee now.. ya.. i asked Alex to get Mervyn along too hee.. cos I din noe him for that long to garantee I'll enjoy spending 2 hrs with him alone. hee.. ops~. Shld me catching Internal affairs tonite with V Shir and Issac though.. hee.. c|aO~..
::Running away from delusions::
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
Love..con't
Oh well was in the bathe just now and remembered something the narator said at the start of the movie.. ::Love is actually all around.. at the airport, you c all the tears and hugs of love.. N during the 911 incident there are no calls about hatred and unhappiness.. its all about love..:: Guess there are many minuscule things in life whereby many of us overlooked... be it the little expressions of care, concern and love or appreciating the 'wealth' we own..
::Running away from delusions::
Something 4 all of you.. click here.. watcha waiting 4?
::Running away from delusions::
You are a goddess!
Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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Oh man.. do check out the other possibilities man.. they are FANTASTIC.. hee~yummie..
::Running away from delusions::
Monday, December 15, 2003
A breath of fresh air! Which Journal Site Are You?
Emm.. blogspot is not one of the possible results... xanga is though haa.. emm..
Oh man.. this is a cute qns ::
if you were a fruit you'd be...
a banana. it's long. and yellow. and firm.
a fuzzy kiwi. or a tropical mango.
a chocolate covered strawberry.
a fucking lemon. because i'm acid to your eyes.
two bananas. because they're both long. and yellow. and firm.
apple pie. what? doesn't that count?
a watermelon.
an apple.
you are "shonen". all male. all the time.
(if you're a girl and you got this i suggest
you get some estrogen).
What type of manga are you?
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wah.. erm.. c.. told ya i need to rethink my sexual preferences.... hmm. and believe it or not.. hee.. they haf HENTAI!! haa.. muaff..
You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.
What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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haa I esp love the graphics of this one...
You are a... Sex Dream!
What Kind of Dream Are You
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em.. i wasn't that 'bad'... I swear...
#66CDAA |
Your dominant hues are cyan and green. Although you definately strive to be logical you care about people and know there's a time and place for thinking emotionally. Your head rules most things but your heart rules others, and getting them to meet in the middle takes a lot of your energy some days. Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it. Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up. |
You are 'Silent Night'! You really enjoy
Christmas, and you like your Christmases
conventional. For you, Christmas is about
family and traditions, and you rather enjoy the
rituals of going to church at midnight and
turning off the lights before flaming the plum
pudding. Although you find Christmas shopping
frustrating, you like the excitement of
wrapping and hiding presents, and opening a
single door on the Advent Calendar each day.
You like the traditional carols, and probably
teach the children to sing along to them. More
than anyone else, you will probably actually
have a merry Christmas.
What Christmas Carol are you?
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sorrie I'm not a church person lolx~
Reason why I'm doing all these is theres nottin better to do haa... n looks fun.. blah~ ;p
::Running away from delusions::
Sux
Haiz.. its a terrible day.. woke up only by khing's call.. which is 2.35pm.. suppose to meet them at the office by 2.30.. haiz.. so rushed there by cab.. n only reached at 3.30pm.. the training has started for awhile le.. neway.. I'm not the only one late.. but the latest.. ERmm seems like I may be able to use Simply White too cos its suppose to get rid of both intrinsic and extrinsic stains hee.. so color.. due to medication when I'm young is of intrinsic.. so yeah.. though the dentist warn me against whitening measures.. he could mean those whitening toothpaste instead.. hee.. I was given one for self experimenting anyway hee.. oh.. at the end of the session.. Danson actually made me stay back.. he was saying me being late for so long makes him worried.. whether I'll be late for my job too.. I told him I wun be late for jobs.. but he wanted assurance from Khing that me and the other gals wun be late but Khing wasn;t that happy cos she wun play mother to working gals.. n throughout the whole thingy.. I felt so bad.. not just for being late.. but for Khing too.. haiz.. think she wun be so keen on having me on her projects in the future.. but that is not a big issue for me.. its just that.. its real embarrassing and just felt real lousy for putting her in a spot.. haiz. ~
Was chatting with dar on the phone after that.. and think I was too easily worked up so the chat was not entirely peaceful.. haiz...
Met Mr Chan near Istana..and he told me he and his frens ventured into a biz.. United Artists.. so asking if any of my frens looking for jobs can get him.. haa gave me a number to cal and took my number too.. I actually haf him on my icq list.. but seems like something cock up with my icq or maybe just my PC again. argh... so I can't run ICQ.. emm.. y it never come across to me that I can use go.icq?... aiyo.. stupid me.. haa.. may b catching internal affairs iii later.. oh yar... Alex John asked me for a movie date for Master and Commandment.. think he got 2 free tixs somehow..
::Running away from delusions::
Sunday, December 14, 2003
Kelly Clarkson - The Trouble With Love Is
Ooooohhh?
Oooohhhh ya
Mmmmm
Love can be a many splendid thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It'll fool you every time
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all
Now I was a once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all
Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This set story always ends the same
Me standin in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two
The trouble with love is (the trouble with love)
It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up inside)
Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie)
It's stronger than your pride
(The trouble with love is) It's in your heart it's in your soul
(It doesn't care how fast you fall) You're losing all control
(And you can't refuse the call)
See you've got no say at all
The trouble with love is (Oooo'.ya)
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love..)
::LoveActually is all around.. :: sounds like powerpuff haa
Watched Love Actually this evening... man.. haa.. its a British film.. usually prefer American.. but this one is nice.. with Hugh Grant too aha.. Keira Knightley is babelicious!!! Gorgeous i think haaa.. ok eye candy aside.. the stories of different couples r nicely interlinked and filmed.. not all end up happyevaafter.. but still.. it painted human relationships.. to treasure.. to trust the heart too.. and like the bluntness that you dun get that often in movies..
Company today could be better though haa.. was wistful..
Had dinner at Kushi btw.. 2nd time and had pasta... yummie hee... erm.. tired..
::Running away from delusions::
This morning when I'm on the phone.. . I fell into a rocking motion subconsciously.. Think my mind is desperately separating itself from the situation..
Realised that you can actually derive a sense of comfort from the mindless repetitive oscillations.. Sometimes, the simplest moves.. actions.. can show you the basics..Or perhaps create such a sense of familiarity... that its real soothing..
Guess I'm really blessed.. to have someone who cares so much for me.. whom I can say for sure loves me.. and hopefully for who I am.. but most importantly someone who does not give up on me that easily.. someone who assured me he'll never give up on me.. gave me the time to sort out how i feel.. the chance to face my own feelings...
Recently he and she have much conflicts.. both are real tired of it all.. but they are determined to work things out.. thus the eagerness to patch up after every tiff.. they love each other so ;)
Just can't wait for the clouds to part... sunshine after rain.. haa.. Cliche leh.. lolx
::Running away from delusions::
heya haa.. yar.. finally decided to switch blogger.. erm.. anyone interested in my former blog can access it :: here ::
Now.. this template will be a temp.. read the lines.. they will be here for approx. one wk.. b4 I decide on further changes. Luv ya...
::Running away from delusions::
