Change

When someone sees the same people everyday...they wind up becoming part of the person's life. And then they want the person to change. If someone isn't what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own. (from alchemist)

 Weird someone is around me, so why should I not bother her to change?

Some thoughts

Life is like a time bomb. There will be hidden uglies. Do we choose to let go or react it adversely. There are many things that I wish to clarify like why someone behaves like this. Then I choose to forget and ignore. However, will there be a moment when the person changes and revolts causing unwanted misery. I'm afraid this to come.

I'm bo liao

Whee, I started work at fair yesterday! Stand tired but better than nothing. For da money!!! (:
Have a new digital cam, thanks and I'm playing with it. I loved the color swap function since it makes my day! Sharetime.

My Love (:

 The EVOLUTION of Patrick...

Albino Pat

Neon Pat

Sashimi inspired Pat

The Pat that has been charred for years ( I find this super funny)

Baby Pat!!

Imma hoarder

Okay, I'm such a hoarder. I am in the midst of clearing my clutter in my room, I can't stand messy stuff, yea, plus it's the Chinese New Year soon, so being Kiasu a bit, I did some early early spring cleaning!!!

I cannot define some stuff as if it is worth keeping. I cannot bear to throw stuff given by people, no matter how small the stuffs are. I cannot bear throw away my collected diaries, written when I was 7 yrs old. I cannot bear to throw away the collected cute cute erasers and notebooks that I bought in primary school. And of course, I cannot bear to throw away the handmade cards and written letters by my friends. So ya, things just keep accumulating! (: I guess it is probably girl's nature to keep so much stuff? I don't think guys really keep much proven from my guy- almost everything is to the bin if it's not useful?

Also, I will feel slightly a pity whenever I threw away some stuff. For example my school notes, even though it is not so worthy and I did not excel in exams btw, it deems like throwing away is like wasted effort. Still, I don't know why the impulse that time- prolly the sense of jubilation of the removed burden (because I utterly hate a levels!).

Next, I will look at my clothes and curse why would I even spend at such kind of stuff? Some is bought by impulse and I rarely wear but only as a decor for my wardrobe I guess. Otherwise, I will try them and tamade- I cannot fit them or look nice in it. Then it makes me feel sad ):. Whatever. But, there are a few clothes that even though I can't wear them nice, I don't bear to throw away, cos the prints or cloth is beautiful. Yup, that's why I'm a hoarder.

I can't believe it's Dec already

Wonder how does it feels to be really judged upon what you do, especially when you seem that you are at the top and being at the scrutiny of the others. Does people's opinions affect you? Sometimes does listening and following people's advice works- but at the expense of losing things of doing 'your own way'? Is gaining people's affection and popularity really that important or doing the thing that is deemed right?
No matter what- 1 more month to go right. Go for it <3

I was watching Easy A and love it! Somehow the story is light and not that 'dark' as when you watch Harry Potter. (: Should watch the movie cos it's pretty funny and has a nice story plot.

Somehow, I don't know, perhaps others will also feel that, that sometimes when you're down or reflective, things that are happening around will tend to relate or remind you of the thing that is troubling you. Perhaps, it's just me being too sensitive or maybe, it's just some way of how life is trying to console us or hint us ways to think and change to another perspective? For example, some pop lyric may become something inspirational or maybe some movie and you will suddenly think, "hey, this is somewhat similar to my freaking situation"..

Sometimes, I will feel guilty for being a temperamental 'Buddhist' (heh, even dear mentions this too, when I ask him to pray more). For such, like praying or meditating frequently only when I'm stressed out. Nevertheless, I guess Buddhism or religion in general reminds us to be more appreciative and less complacent, as we are bound to meet the rough times even when one's luck is high. The other factor will probably be the fact that I'm not really in touch with Buddhism, I don't really join any Sunday pujas or whatsoever. "Compartmentalization" (Term I learnt in SSA2219 :P) - That's probably the other reason why only the retired gets more religiously-spiritually active. No much time for religion? Nah, it's more like lesser priority for religion activity.

And, I don't understand why people are so connected to Kpop. I don't at all and does that make me weird? I don't really like watching dramas, read anime. I'm boring? Perhaps, slightly unconventional. How do I slug my day off? (:
BLANK, no standard routine, I guess.

Love,

Heal

Love forever.

This week

Yup yup, the end of exams! Loves the feeling of finishing all papers, not matter good or bad though. Back to my idling days. Went some shopping these days, stocking up many dresses for my wardrobe! :D Plus, went Ikea and saw so many inspirations... So wanna decorate my room again, there's like a few things I want to change; but it's really like more of a want than a need though.
Mans, I had dinner yesterday at some really ULU restaurant in my nearby market place. My parents and I practically owned the whole restaurant, no patrons except us (It's only after we are almost finishing our dinner then a group of trio came). Well, the food is good but the environment totally spoils it. It has a terrible old musky carpet smell and the dim fluorescent yellow lights is making me feeling drowsy and droning. -.- I practically rush out of it before my dad pays for the food. Plus, within the restaurant contains some Karaoke room and oddly, skimpily dressed ladies walk in and out. I wonder..
I've been reading a novel by Jodi Picoult once again, since I have like about 5 of her books. I can't understand why her stories have always been revolving around sex and crime and the courthouse. It seems one story after the other bears the same resemblance. I guess it is only My Sister's Keeper that is intriguing and slightly different? However, I still cannot take my eyes off the novels, it is like watching dramas right, no matter how bad the plot, you will be always curious of what comes after.
Let's hope for a more enriching holiday!

Shoppingg

Literally went out for shopping the whole day today with my mummy. A tinge of guilt for not studying? Nah, shouldn't be since rest will be recharging! (: Yeap. And seems that I haven't been in town for like months. Like no life, school, home, jurong point. A true blue west roamer. (: And yup, time to shop for new year clothes and of course, use mummy's moneyy! :D That's the plus plus point of shopping with mummy. Muahahas. 

:D

And had few comfy food today. The feel good food. The MOF kanten jelly and matcha ice cream is the best! Plus, great caramelite coffee at JCO which is in the basement of Bugis Junction. Mans, I really like the environment, great quiet ambience and temporary hideout from the crowd. 

Appreciative day

Am appreciative! Finally my mum and sister is back from Malaysia. I am insane, they are gone for just 3 days but I miss them nuts. I miss the home cooked food and glad that mummy swept up great dishes. That did make up my day (:

Utterances

Will there be a time that I'll eventually shut myself up to the world of my own, sunk with heaps of deemed inane academic information. The hermit crab exuding in me isn't helping me to ease my solitude. Nobody is at home only me on this scorching hot Saturday afternoon. In fact, I miss everyone. Ironically, the crowd push me the urge to study but distract me from doing so. Yet, the loneliness cause me to drift my thoughts away from the schoolwork. Sometimes, I wonder the purpose of my life, the choice I had no choice and the many times being led by someone willingly reluctantly? I find myself losing myself perhaps but perhaps not, I don't know. I'm tired? As always. Is my life mundane? Yes, but I don't think so. And why does time flies so quickly, learning a chapter spans the whole day. Why. Why. I think I'm weird- things happen fast end fast. Drinking coffee gives me highs and caffeine boosts my inner concentration, but too much cause headaches and adrenaline rush. Okay, talk to me, but stop- did I distance myself from you? Sorry then, I'm lazy but friendly actually. Phobia, I have alot. Math and anything of calculations. But I have to love it, everything involves it and statistic is significantttt.

Mình đang học tiếng Việt vì thứ ba mình có test. (: Mình vui biểt được lọai tiếng nào.

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Hello there.
Yes, I worry too much! As I always think forward, I anticipate the bad things to happen, or the consequence. I want time to stop so that I can spend more time and time that will soon be lost and evaporated. I don't want to look forward as very soon, I might miss someone. I better stop being too attached!
Uni life is such a loner, I will move alone here and there. Sometimes, I like the solitude but sometimes yearn for a fixed clique that I used to.
ALONEEE.-.-
Lone at night: Almost daily I will see Mr Yucky a.k.a. xiao qiang, the COCKROACH. I used to happily but of course, guilty of the killings :P- spray his family with the insecticide. Yet, now I give up. As it is omnipresent, since it comes out at night- I shall hold a neutral stance. Annihilation might be a necessary evil if his family is caught/seen live foraging my kitchen's stuff and any of my food. D: Yup, I hope his family will soon move and not come to my house. And never ever fly. If not I will scream like nuts.

101010

Had my 1st 10k run and albeit being relatively slow, the achievement is that I didn't walk! (: Still, it is slight a shame that tth is walking and pacing me, while I was running. So ya, so much a being slow. So yay, a little contentment aside for finishing one distance!
My school is now overwhelmed with many graded projects, so much that this week that I don't even know what to start first. Sometimes, I wonder if the effort done will eventually go down the drain *cross fingers. Really kudos to seniors who are handling like 7 projects in one go and can also handle with co-curricular activities. 
A busy note aside, I'm glad that tth's here! A slight detractor to my school work and my placebo. And <3 his surprises. (:
here some sweet little pixs to brighten my day! :D

The black heart made outfield!

Jigsaw puzzle (: that I did not kill steal

And a cute toddler rubber shoes found! omg!

Love,

Heal

This week will eventually pass

woowweee

Gosh, my favourite fruit is guava! I love guava and yea, my number 1 fruit!


Yup, school is busy relatively, loads of project and bad is that I'm pretty headless. Hopefully the Chinese proverb- 船到桥头自然直 works on these!


I'm feeling slightly sad that friends are leaving overseas now and then, but perhaps it's the matter of perspective.. Still I think I seriously am so detached from friends, my innate laziness to catch up- and excuse me. D: I mean, I don't mean to be that. I will change!


And I think a pretty cool quote by wl: I was living but now I'm existing. 
Sounds the emo quote, but perhaps I think it is natural that we can be constantly switching our perspective in life. Sometimes I feel down and all grumpy and like totally depressed, but sometimes up and happy. How I wish that I can retain that positive attitude and the slight confidence to bring me through tide.


Anyways. The Vietnamese words seems to keep circulating in my brain and like which tone will be used for which word and the nitty dots and curves. Manss.


And I'm silently counting down to his arrival! 

the mind

It has been such a long time since I've never blog..
What I want to say is that I will just keep trying and keep trying, no matter how much I wept over it (yea, like an idiot), I will try till I get it. Perhaps, this is myself, having poor reaction and judgement. Laugh at me, laugh over it, whatever not, I'll be strong!


I really hate myself for taking such a long time to heal after some bad incident. I worry that I will whirl myself into the deep hole of depression again, and that hurts, seriously.


I hate failures but somehow this has been that trait with me. Yes, it will be a bother to face it, my fate maybe, and I need try to deal with it- happily. I must tell myself, the journey will be hard but eventually it will come to an end.


I will grow and live strong. Keep running on. (: You go girl! 

Thoughts

Dear Shooting Star, 
My mum keeps asking why do I keep smiling yesterday. Funny sia. Happy for nothing also cannot meh, like I sometimes happy, sometimes moody lah. The atypical unpredictability of women mah.


Okay, enough of the Singlish.


Yesterday was the NUS FIC and I asked around previously from my friends who will be going and many did not even know such ceremony exists! So, I should be privileged to be able to get the ticket to the event. Initially, I was reluctant to attend it but the performance turned out to be superb! 


...


Sometimes, have you ever wondered the difference between a Singapore Singaporean and 'hybrid' Singaporean? Subtly, I think there is a difference. The indigenous tend to be slightly haughty and perhaps conceited. The latter, could be more humble and perhaps down to earth. Not that I was like praising myself, but my, some pure Singaporeans did give me such a feeling that they are snobs. Especially, those rich kids, whom they think they rule the world. 


I'll leave it here.


Alright, I 'failed' detox! But at least, I've tried! But I guess i psychologically feel better... to compensate the loss my $$. Yet, this probably explains my unexplainable happiness. Haha.

Love,

Heal

Amazing, just the way you are

Amazing sky color! 

Sometimes, it will be nice to stop by and appreciate the goodness around you.

Really, it did lightens the heavy mood.

Orientation day

lol. With a sudden A-Ha moment, I've decided to do some prep for the beginning of school- making introduction of myself. Unwittingly, people have the tendency to create nice nice first impression and hence find people of the same social circle. e.g. the partygoers, the geeks, the sportgoers, blah blah. And naturally, I'm always in my usual comfort circle, needless to say. (: I'm tired of the masquerade and more or less, I will just act the way I usually am, unless, I'm on a shield. Like a crab!

Possibly hard or sadly "edible" on the outside... But I'm no mean feat! 

I don't think I am the super girl-next-door person, which I always have the perception that people see me as that. -.- Damn it. And I'm not super studious, this explains my choice of school. Neither am I outgoing, I don't like socializing and meeting people, which explains my comfortable social circle. Yet, sometimes, I feel kinda D: that I don't have any close close friend. Generally, I'm more of a homely person, I love my family more and my cousins! Yeap.

Physically, I'm big sized for a normal Singaporean girl. Tall and possibly on the fat zone. Sometimes, I did think my size don't really fit my character, I would prefer to mingle and blend rather than stand out with my size. Sigh. However, on the bright side, the height sometimes give me the privilege and edge for acting 'adult' and definitely a good assistant for those "height-challenged" friends! And I always hesitate when wearing heels since I am "attention" conscious.

I have a signature tired or bored face. If that disgusts you, then back off. Cos, that is my natural look and apologies if that disturbs you then. As the saying goes, "Never judge a book by its covers". (:

I'm literally bad in flexibility and coordination! Heh, so I hate dancing! Dread learning any moves as I feel like a joker.

Many friends think I'm daring with food. But I think I'm normal, at least, I hate eating any animal innards and never tried smelly beancurd. I eat wasabi, bittergourd and love all my vegetables. I drink brewed coffee but not addicted to it and super love the one brewed by my ah yi! I love thunder tea rice and find this name funny. I wonder if there is lightning tea rice? So, when it comes to FOOD, I'm super flexible. :D 

I've the penchant for doing things at the eleventh hour, especially for stuff that I resent. But I believe with pent up determination, I can and will do stuff well! 

Overall, I love things that are different from the rest but I'm not weird, that's for sure. I'm very normal. So don't bully me leh.

Heh. Is it good orientation?

Day three

Dear Shooting Star,
I must keep telling myself Failure is nothing and nothing can hurt my ego! Sometimes I always ponder why people around are always times better than me... That is definitely my flaw, stubborn and gives up easily. D:
This week, I shall prove it wrong! That I can make it for the 7 days, it ain't too long. I just need to be numbed so I can resist all the food temptations. I'm DETERMINED. Whoosh. I shall never let the diet industry keep sucking my money!!! 
Perhaps, it's kind of my life, that I need tons more effort or encouragement to get what I want. Face it and take it and challenge it! 


"Every Accomplishment starts with the decision to try" 
Never mind if I fail cos I can always try! :D

Love,

Heal

Cookie

Hello Freedom. 
Since once again I'm such a free person, I decided to bake cookies! And I chance upon a pretty good website and credits to the "Happy Home Baking" blog, I managed to bake some cute doggie/ monster cookies. :D


Use a lightly salted butter otherwise the dough will be too salty, so invest on a better butter! 
Put more than the stated chocolate chips number if you're a chocolate freak like me!
I used Milo instead of Horlicks

The dogs did look like aliens though and the white nose is made of white sesame seed.

The cookie texture is smooth and buttery, though I expected a more chunky cookie. Somehow, the baked dough tasted like the kind for making the pineapple tarts... 

However, I think the Koko Crunch doesn't really complement with the taste of the cookie. Somehow, it is merely a decoration and fyi, it's the dog's ears. 

Eating dog head.

Love,

Heal

Oh Yeah

Dear Shooting Star,
Alamak. The tv is killing me with all the cheesy advertisements, first the YOG song. Oh yeah, and then I love you by some drink? =.= That is one way to attract the attention of people.
Otherwise, beautiful objects be it eye candies. Like how my driving instructor turn his head when he sees attractive girls.
These are all factors for good marketing of things. Love it or hate it, as long it can drone you and make you be reminded of their existence..

What I did

Great. I'm stuck in my room, dreading the idea that my father's outside. He will be dozing off, no sooner and I resented the idea of chiding him again for treating the living room as a bed. 


In the past few weeks, I've been thinking about how dead is my life, since I've got no job and relatively nothing to do (in some other's people perspective). However, even with a job in hand, I still think life will still be mundane afterall. The feeling of  ): ness happened when I got a relatively serious flu and fever, while my grandma passed away. That whole 2 weeks are the ultimate dullness and idleness, when I've to practically stay at home sleeping like a sleeping beauty or otherwise, stone at the wake and not really socialising with my faraway relatives. 


I did not run for so many weeks and it thus become a vicious habit of not working out again. D: My body works like a mechanical clock, and the moment the cycle stops, it stops till something drives it on again. And my dad taking his long leave to idle at home is not helping at all.

But later, my cousin came and became a absolute great company! And my life is slightly (: again. Once, I realise that 2's a company and 3's a crowd. No wonder I do not subscribe to hanging out in big groups. That week was when I decided doing something new and learnt basic sewing skills from her! :P Good thing that Malaysia's Home Science is much better than Singapore's and she taught me hand-sewing techniques like tying a super-dead knot. Then the momentum starts and I decided to do something nice for my dear dear for his birthday. And I guess, it  turns out pretty well and I'm :) Together with my cousin, we tried making sushi (which I did when I was p6) and some super-easy sherbet (in which the powder pack is bought from Daiso). Afterall, we are rather elated with the outcome. Then, after that trial, I made it again for my dear dear and screw the sushi up but the sherbet saves the day. Phew. 


Later later, I went to my faculty's admission day and that reminded me that I've to once again, go to school and socialise and act and what nots. People I saw were so different and somewhat unknown. But I'm not going to camp because I do have other commitments and my college days orientation shows no much use to help my social circle, since probably, I will be used to being with just a few nice peeps around.. 


Sometimes we hate someone as he can be too straightforward. Sometimes the words to say may not be at the right timing. Sometimes we might want to hear true words too.

Love,

Heal

YEAH.

Haven't been writing here for long. Diverted my entries to the other book.


"Just give me... five years"
"No, it's too long"
"Then three?"
"..."
 "You're so stubborn"
"What are you waiting for?"
"I have... one condition... If you want me to do it myself..."
"What is the condition?"
"And then, forever"
"That's what I'm asking"
"Marry me, Bella"


Awwww. Watched alot of movies with her while she was in Singapore. Didn't realise that I was slightly attracted to the twilight series. :D Man, Edward is such an attraction!!! 


Okay, can't wait for the next series. And thanks cousin for the company! (: 

moody D:

Sighs. 
I am having this indescribable welling of sadness today. I feel constipated. It's kinda of hard to explain the reason of the disappointment, but it seems to be welling up, and soon bursting! Moody moody.

well at least, I've some reasons to smile... I'm Liberated, temporarily.

Happily bored...

(^.^)
The standard happy


When it's the double mundaneness...
8(^.^)8
The happy starts to have hairs!


When it's double the lameness...
   ___  
8(^.^)8
 ~{ o }~
@    @


The happy has halo on her head! Plus wingsss.


TGIF everybody!!! :D Happiness is short and sweet!

33

Dear Shooting Star,
Sometimes I wonder why I keep seeing the number 33 in some random periods of time. For instance, when I am looking at the digital clock on the office's monitor or when I am staring blankly at my handphone screen. Initially, it kinda spooks me since the number seems evil enough and I thought it will be more than coincidental to keep looking at this particular number... In fact, I was pretty much annoyed with this to the extent I removed the digital radio clock from my bedroom. So practically, my room is timeless! (: However, on the other perspective, it could be "I" who keep noticing this number more than other numbers. -.-


Ah, the superstitious mind. Hence, the power of attraction will also be useful. If we are always to think positively, good times come! :D Been paranoid for the previous 24 hours, but writing and clearing the thoughts in my messy mind did help.

Tell me what you eat, and I will tell you what you are

True enough, all actions comes from the individual himself. Stop blaming and pin-pointing. I need writing to keep reminding myself of this thought!

I've not been driving for the past 2 weeks, I am pissed with my driving instructor. Shall call him soon for lessons! )): RAH.


Once mentioned to Mother that I find it amazing that people can settle in an occupation or a job in the same place for almost a lifetime (till they retire). I do not have such thoughts of a long-sustaining jobs- unless I'm a teacher/nurse, unless I pretty much settled with my own family, unless I build a strong-undying passion for a job. Till now, I hardly thought of a job that can last my enthusiasm. In fact, I sometimes detest myself of losing interest and focus so quickly- to the extent that some people see me as some AP person. (: For instance, the job that I hold now, I never thought of extending my contract, unless they can up my rate per hour by 4 dollars!


I guess it is norm for such thoughts in this age since everything is so impermanent. Plus, we have not much attachment and can easily be swayed by our overflowing emotions! So, hopefully I can gain a variety of work experience from different working fields before school term starts!


I'm so looking forward to the BBB on Wednesday. Yum. 

Love,

Heal

TGIF

Dear Shooting Star,
Work has been like as always and logging on to Facebook has already been the must-be task in my daily work life. Plus, checking my daily horoscope advice for me has become habitual! 


Life goes on as usual and planning a few teeny weeny stuffs in mind, such as painting my room. This has been thought since the new year but is practically busy! Or rather, too restless to bother.


Wait after my contract ends, I'm so gonna slack and do some stuffs. Don't mind the pay-less hours for a moment!


Happiness and shuangness is for the moment when all the big shots are gone for the afternoon!
----Written in office on Friday.

Food reflection

Dear Snowball,
I'm super elated with all the pleasant surprises and yesterday was another cute one. Pearl Barley roasted chicken pilaf. You seasoned it with chicken broth, fry with olive oil and used organic pearl barley! Kudos cos all things are healthy and super-guilt free. And the most important thing is that you made with it <3.


(: And that's what matters most. 


Food is my comfort and current favourite is the bread from Swissbake. At 90cent per piece, these little breads are great to go with a cup of bittersweet cheap coffee. While the bread can mask the bitter taste of coffee, it can also enhance it's sweet flavour and fragrance. Just like how we complement each other! WHEE. I'm such a sweet talker. 


Yes, I love things that are guilt-free but sometimes the indulgence will make life the excitement. If you understand me. Types of food that has plenty of grains like the gardenia walnut bread or your pilaf is now my favourite!


The coffee is powerful and my eyes are awake. Say temporary bye to my =.= look. Just for a moment or two, I'm awake.


It has become a norm to be back home late. But I know this happens only for the week. Sad. A week and come to think of it- it's so short. Who cares of the incessant calls for the week or annoying others. It's only a week.


I'm so going to emo when u're gone.


I want to do a few things yet achieved, before the cycle of school commence. Gratitude and appreciation has rarely been surfacing for me- to care for people around. 


Apologies for being harsh at times to my family- being selfish is my flaw and doing things that is done by my way. I'll be numbed to the incessant and harmless nagging= sound advice. Come, pour me your harshness and I'll take it head on. 


Relativity is on all happenings. Credit to you for keep reminding me of this theory. Food is one instance, one can be accustomed to a particular taste sensation and the tendency of likings of the range of food thus differentiates. DUH. Tried thyme tea leaves and the fragrance unfortunately reminds me of some kind of beef steak sauce- which of course gave a a slight tinge of disgust, since it is meaty. Another perception of beef has been imbued in me since young, and till now, I always think that beef have the closest resemblance to human meat. In other words, I felt beef as 'human' enough to be avoided for consumption. Still, I do eat beef, but it is never my favourite meat.


I always rever those who can go for a vegetarian diet. The most non-pollutive and considerate beings of all human race. Imagine a world of herbivores and the cycle of non-killings. Yet, this is impractical enough. Since meat is staple of the nutrients for many underdeveloped countries. At the very least, it is only good to be thankful of what you ate. 


Sad that problems are never solved.


Sigh. When I can I resist the temptation of indulgent food- the cause of lipid. 

Love,

Heal

RAH

Heels
They never fail to give me blisters.
Kudos to those who never fails to wear uber-high heels.
Pity those who suffer from leg problems for the long years of heels.

Heels
In the shoes shop look super nice or comforting.
But wear already  is excruciating.
Superficial and totally not ergonomic.
What went wrong.

):

RAH

Dear Shooting Star,
I'm subtly pissed with the inane job that I'm holding. I've been doing lots of repetitive stuffs that it is so much insignificant and they always presume that I have a lot of faults eh?


One moment you ask me to do in this method and the next moment you want to change to another method, since you always think you are right eh. Reminds me of my PW days. ): Being too quiet will never have benefits at all. After all, AM leaving this place.


Damn all those who take advantage of me!

Perception changed.

Hello Shooting Star,
Busy happily and had my maiden blood donation at the Jurong Medical Centre on Saturday. Initially, I always have a bad impression of the giving of blood. I thought the 'sucking' of blood will somehow deprive me of my required haemoglobin levels. I initially think that my sister is tad crazy for being such a frequent blood donor. 


Yes, blood donation is awesome, since it is afterall for a good cause. Why not give, while you can? 


A side note, the nurses are uber-friendly and there are pretty good refreshments. Perhaps, you can meet some eye-candies there too. ><


And to "show off" my bandage, since it complements with my shirt...

(:


Can't wait for the next weekend. See you!

Love,

Heal

HCM and Da Lat

Dear Shooting Star,
Time once again flies. )):

Left Vietnam and back to my Sunny island! While I was not all over enthusiastic for the trip this time, it is once again an eye-opener for me. I love to immerse myself with the different cultures and of course, the food that the Ho Chi Minh can bring. I'm really so fascinated by the region that I live in, South East Asia, the different borders and it's variety of cultures, languages and traditions.


Excuse me since I did not travel to many countries, but I would say Ho Chi Minh is the Capital of Motorbikes. It is so marvelous to even stand by the roadside and observe the hustle and bustle of the city. Albeit the deemed messy traffic and the mission-impossible road crossing, the city is forever in the constant flux- people scurrying for living, people stopping by at food stalls to eat and people standing idly to rest.


With so many developments and constructions, I anticipate that HCM be another booming city. Yet, once again, as I witnessed city-dwellers imploring for money, a phenomenon prevalent in any big cities, we cannot deny that life is indeed selfish and unfair. With the globalised world, benefits can no longer be equally spread. Tourism may increase economic revenue for the country but robs the native tribes in Da Lat of their land. 


The Southern Vietnamese food palate is slightly sweet and strong. They also are generous in complementing main dishes with vegetables such as basil leaves and some other leaves which I don't know their names. No wonder they have such nice complexion since they consume lots of greens and other herbs. Plus, never leave Vietnam without tasting their French loaves. YUMMY.


The only regret that I had was not buying enough of their local embroidered accessories or some other handicraft. D:






So glad to be back anyways, since I got my charger back! <3

Love,

Heal

Mr Snowball 2- morning!

Yo Snowball,

The power of attraction: optimism works! I'm so happy that you have improved! (: Yes, lady luck is with you! But you do have the potential.

I'm so freaking pissed with my office's computer, it is so lag! ): Well, it did gave me some buffer time to slack and stare into spaces. Wonder if I really love the office environment, but anyways, which work is never mundane before? 

So glad that I'm going off for overseas again and this time's to Vietnam! But my charger will not be there. 

(:

Love,

Heal

Mr Snowball 1

Hello Snowball,
Dedicating this for you! Life after results still goes on as usual and seriously, I am not disappointed.  Results are not everything.


Yet, on this note, I am really appreciative and thankful of all those people who gave me so much support around. Especially my family members, I love you all. 


My rant of the week. The music school minder is such a Krusty Crab's Mr Crab. $$ faced. D:


Watched Alice in the wonderland with you! <3 The graphics are good but fantasy aren't our genre. The most marked phrase in the movie is "crazy people are smart" (unsure if it's the accurate phrase). The better meaning will be that it is important that if one loves something, pursue it.  Results proven that the more passion I have the better it is.


Sometimes, I really hope that I won't have to think so far or too much. As what I've read in the Buddhist book, 放下自我，活在当下. This meant that it's really pointless to being attached and cling to the past since one might be frightened to move forward. On the other hand, thinking too much further is empty and devoid of purpose since life is after all unpredictable.


Ironically, this might seem that this way of life will be without direction. Yet, thinking on the other perspective, this would mean that enjoying the present and relishing the moments are definitely worth the experience for. Who cares of the mistakes when learning becomes faster with it. And failure and flaws makes Man humble. While this is definitely not the direct translation of the Buddhist philosophy, this phrase did really make me reflect of the purpose of life that I should be in. 


I really want to desensitize my sensitiveness. Ignore the utterances of passing cloud and have faith.


On the same note, I'm glad that I'm love the stage of life I'm in. Despite the prevalent pre-adulthood worries and frustrations, I simply relish the not so young or not so old age.  It's a privilege in fact. For instance, in work, I can simply (for course not too often) commit mistakes since it is my maiden experience. Otherwise, I can act like an adult when being with some sec kids around and hover my authority. Muahahaha. Nevertheless, the transition of phase in life should at least change one's perception in forms so that one will be less obstinate of their ideas and hence loosen the absolute concept of things or people in their life. 


So, for those haughty freaks, wake up! 


Mr Snowball, I hope you can have better insulation to stand the cold cos I love cold than hot. And please don't hypnotize yourself so much that you have shrouded all the reminders and things that are ought to do! (: While you can worry that you take lady luck for granted, I hope that she will keep smiling on you!


Good night and sweet dreams. 

Love, 

Heal

Impermanence?

Dear Shooting Star,


Today is a smooth day! Whee. Seems so happy and energetic, albeit the usual yawns and moaning in my office. 


Ambivalence always seems the neutral and nice attitude, yet, this kind cannot last.


Pondering why friends always touch and go in my life and wonder which one can really last and stay dear and close? Is that the impermanence of things. This makes me feel sad of how things and people don't stay along with you.


Sometimes, I wonder will I leave a impact to your life or at least a memory of your life. Nevertheless, I will hope the best of your life. (:


On a happy note, it's a weekend! Can't wait to meet up all my friends and talk like no other. (:


As usual, anticipation is always the happiest. 

Love,

Heal

Rants

Hello Hello Shooting Star.


Chinese New Year just flies. Generally, life passes and going back to Malaysia is just like the usual visitation to my relatives and I just love it! 


Malaysia is so sunny and the sun is blazing and treacherous. Not as friendly as the sunny island of Singapore. The authorities are superb. Once again, the usual custom officer will hopefully demand for red packets while after a insincere cny greeting. And obtaining the extra arrival card cards still need extra $$ to pay. WTH.


But I don't pretty much care about this, as such things happen often. Nothing is said unfair since conditions stays. While we cannot change it, why lament and be oft angered by this right? Insignificant fries.


Talking, sleeping and eating is the usual routine of cny. My relatives do not really gamble and is never our habit. Hence, I have bad card playing and zero mahjong skills. So most of the time we chat and eat ( no wonder my cough still don't heal).


The best is of course the fireworks, since sg doesn't have such privilege. Unfortunately, the police this year starts hungry for some money and patrol becomes so stringent. Blazing the crackers becomes like a sneaky thing to do and we have better plans for the next year. Shall replace them with a barbecue session! See what can they do with us!


The  best is the food! The once in a year then cook bamboo shoots sedap and I ate for 2 consecutive days. No soup is better then my aunt's pepper soup and while it's so hot that you feel like stopping, you can't cos it's so shiok. No pictures were taken cos I was too overwhelmed by these glorious food. :P


And I'm so happy that I can carry a few months old baby! I thought such things will have to wait long long since I wasn't really willing to carry one. Although they are so angelic and cute, they can be pretty fragile. And yea, I finally carried one! :D The parent of the kid is only like eighteen and I'm so speechless. Plus, this is the second child. Wow. And they literally threw the baby under the hands of their great grandmother. Great. 


My mother's family tree and network is so big that she will have tons of stories to hear from my grandmother and aunts. Harmless and endless gossiping of one another is the usual phase of their life. The typical aunties' behavior. Sometimes, I wonder, wouldn't it be great if they substitute part of these with more meaningful things to do? Such as more commitment to their faith and more physical exercises? 


Heard of my uncle having an affair with another woman. I'm so shocked and so pissed. Why guys would be blinded by the seductions and can bear to destruct a happy family. WTH. Guys will still be guys. Stereotypically, they ogle pretty woman and are dirty minded. I really hope that he will change his mind and save his family. Nobody can help much but we can only give the emotional and mental support. 


Happy Chinese New Year! 


I hope I'll have better perception and judgement and of course, LUCK.

Love,

Heal

HAPPY CNY!

Hello the new year!


Hello Tiger! I hope this year will be better albeit the unpleasant predictions.


Bless everyone with health and happiness.


YESH, I'm liberated from the cubicle. Well, it did sound depressing. I can't wait to go Malaysia. Guess life is all of anticipation and that forms the most of the excitement and elation.


The reunion dinner is -.- cos the pen chai isn't up to my expectation. While I still prefer steamboat, this dinner is the healthy alternative! Afterall, the superstition is that I shouldnt complain and rant too much in the cny period, so I shall sound (: The best thing is that I don't feel bloated.


Still, my cough is such a turner. I cough wherever I go and the worst is the uncontrollable and unstoppable cough. 

Happy thing is that I had good food today! In the morn, afternoon and dinner! 

Attitude and Discipline

Dear Shooting Star,


Indeed, work is -.- A loner in a cubicle. ZzZ


Wonder why life has to be always be restricted with all sorts of manners and behaviors. The office language or conversation has sometimes irks me of the way we have to 'act' to sound polite and nice. 


I kind of love the instructor way of talking and his so-call logic of life. While his incessant reminders thats all things in life such as driving ethics needs attitude and discipline did bemuses me, it is pretty true. 


Sometimes, it can be fun to mimick the streotypical way of how uncles will talk. (: While the hokkien mix with Chinese and English language did sound kinky and the tone can be a bit brusque, at least they are capable in being straightforward of what to say. Straight to the point with just a few words.


Shall work on this. :D


Went to Melacca this week and was so stuck by the scorchness. The street did reminds me of roads along Chinatown in their Jonker streets and we visited the same shops again. Still, I had fun mixing with my friends to know them better! Plus, I was elated that I managed to safely navigate them around the streets in Melacca. And, introduced them to eat some authentic dishes of the state.


While the cendols (*2) we ate was disappointing and could no longer bring me the nostalgic feeling of eating them while I was young, I love the chicken rice balls and the steamed hainanese white chicken. It might look slightly bland but I do love the fragrance of the sesame oil on the chicken. YUMMY!


And I totally love this spongebob, since it is so unique! Thanks a lot! The crochet master! :D

HAPPY! 

Love,

Heal