When all is said and done, and nothing matters anymore.
Are you a part of me.
It was so easy, we had it all but it was all in vain.
I would have given more.

Now the stage is bare there's no one.
Where it used to be so magicial.
All the roles i played in, never a happy ending.

I remember the first time you took me by the hand.
You said was meant to be, if love is yours then it will find a way to...

Bring us back where our love first started.
Where did it all go?
Never thought that love could just slip us by.
But you're inside of me, i've been holding on.
A prayer in my heart(night i pray) wish you come running to me and...

Bring me back where love was our power.
Let's give love a chance.
And let me know this time you're gonna stay.
Oh baby come to me, i'm waiting.
Let me hold you tight, won't let go.
Bring it back where love's so good.

Now the stage is bare there's no one.
Where it used to be so magicial.
All the roles i played in, never a happy ending.

Bring me back where love was our power.
Let's give love a chance.
And let me know this time you're gonna stay.
Oh baby come to me, i'm waiting.
Let me hold you tight, won't let go.
Bring it back where love's so good.

I know it isn't easy sure i'll try.
I got this feeling we'll be fine.

Bring me back where love was our power.
Let's give love a chance.
And let me know this time you're gonna stay.
Oh baby come to me, i'm waiting.
Let me hold you tight, won't let go.
Bring it back where love's so good.

Oh baby come to me, i'm waiting.
Let me hold you tight, won't let go.
Bring it back where love's so good.

不是说好不放弃爱我的权利吗？
why are we both being so foolish

thought catalog is really a good place to set your mind thinking.
really much food for thought.
so i'm gonna leave a few links here, for my own reference and for my readers (whoever yall are the minimal people) if yall wanna set your minds thinking about some stuff (:
some other links from other webs tho.

http://thoughtcatalog.com/nikki-garcia/2013/04/how-you-know-when-someone-cares/#AXbPFB2yuOQscph3.01

http://www.marcandangel.com/2012/02/08/12-relationship-truths-we-often-forget/

http://thoughtcatalog.com/sarah-mccartan/2013/12/its-okay-to-quit/

http://thoughtcatalog.com/evelina-miropolsky/2013/12/15-simple-ways-to-take-care-of-yourself-when-life-gets-crazy/

I decided that doing all these is no good. there's no point in trying to predict anything.
probably said a few times that I am clear headed and I know what I'm doing.
but this time for real, I have decided that this is best and I will do it.

no I am absolutely not giving up on anything at all, I'm just switching to a more passive role.
I wont sit here and wait for things to happen because they probably wont fall from the sky.
I will wait. but I will go out there and do things I wanna do. and be happy.

things might not be good now but I believe with all my heart that it will all be fine.
it may not be as how I want it, or how you want it. but it will work out in the end, it will.
I'm gonna trust in what I placed my trust in right from the start, that it will lead me to the right path.

idk what led me to make this decision. but as you said, I'm strong and I will get through stuff.
all I truly wanted was to feel better, and I need to take steps towards it. i.e. being strong.
maybe sometimes my fault will still act up but I will keep it to the bare minimum.

never tried doing something so big by myself before, but I have to do it because I want to.
nope, not because it's the right thing to do, but because I want to. because I dont wanna regret.
I will wait while pursuing my own goals, while doing things I like. I will still wait.

because whats meant to be will be.
and for me, friendship > nothing at all (:

really hoping you will read this.

say it isnt so, tell me you're not leaving.
say you changed your mind now,
and I am only dreaming.

feeling so very emotional right now as I'm packing for prom.
I think we take for granted the fact that with social media we are always gonna be able to keep in touch with all our friends.
but truth is, even w social media, you have to bother to do it.

missing a friend a lot recently, it's not easy having to deal with the sudden change.
I think what I miss most is the comfort. or maybe the ease that I felt in the past.
it's been a while, I'm coping a slight bit better I should think.
but it's not that I dont ever think of the times that things were better, and the world seemed less cruel.

it's never easy. I hate changes, I hate it that we grow up, we succumb to the pressure of society.
we get so caught up in our work, our daily lives, that we lose sight of whats matters most.
why do we take things for granted, why do we hold on to our pride so much?
I wish I never held my pride so tightly, I wish I was a lil more courageous. I never knew.

interpersonal relationships, be it friendships or romantic relationships, are always between two.
one can never make the light shine by himself/herself. just like how one-sided love is more often than not, fruitless.
it's never easy to stop caring for a person you were so close to, you dont stop caring, you just stop showing it I guess.
you stop expressing your feelings because you cant, and you hold on to your pride so tightly.

many a time people give up, or put at risk interpersonal relationships, for the sake of tangible returns.
for a degree, for money, for a job, just for tangible happiness.
but what happiness can a person garner if all he or she deals with is inanimate gains?
why do we let ourselves do this, and let ourselves regret when we can no longer change things?

we make plans for the future because we have faith, that when we go to sleep today, we will wake up tomorrow, so as to fulfill our plans.
we make appointments in advance, because we trust that an arrangement between two will be treasured enough to be met.

but...what happens if there is an unexpected turn?
what happens if plans get destroyed by sudden incidents?

we get upset.
some of us are just a lil upset, some of us wouldnt be appeased with the world.
but ultimately we have to move on.

moving on is only one side of the story.
if a loved one left, you'll probably one day get over the fact that he/she is gone.
but you never stop loving. because you always did.
and there is no reason to stop.

so to my friend, I dont know if you will ever know how I feel, or if you will read this.
I just want to let you know that, we might not agree now, or next week, next month or even next year.
but no matter what, even though things between us will likely never be the same again, I really want you to know that I'll always be here, I'll always be ready for you.

"we don't always have to return to the same path, there are many other paths to begin from."

just hear the shatter
and feel the coldness within.

so the prelims are over.
and looking at my results I can only say I'm very frankly, scared shitless for the As.

telling myself day after day that I can do this.
planned out a timetable and religiously followed it. but am I really getting anywhere?

everything seems so surreal, especially graduation.
I cant believe I've been here for 6 years and I'm graduating in one week.
ONE WEEK OMG YOU KIDDING ME?!?!

and before we know it As will be here. and very soon over.
I really dont know if I can do this anymore.
every single day I'm just losing faith in myself, getting more and more tired.

on another note,
I really really miss how things were before.
but they'll never go back to how they were anymore, right?
就像来不及许愿的流星，
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经。

after grad-book photo taking (:

just sharing the photo above makes me feel extremely nostalgic.

yeap I'll be graduating in less than 80 days and it gives me mixed feelings. 

missing my old self so much,

really hating how hot-tempered I'm becoming these days. 

really really hope I will become better soon, if not after As.

so thankful for the boy who will bear with my bad days (yes literally everyday) and make me feel special no matter how bad my day went. (:

 "Just know, when you truly want success, you'll never give up on it. No matter how bad the situation may get" - Unknown

"Challenges are what make life interesting and overcoming them is what makes life meaningful" - Joshua J. Marine

"Forget all the reasons it won't work and believe the one reason that it will." - Unknown 

Just some quotes to spur myself, and my readers, on :) and the first quote is for someone I truly hope will not give up no matter what. I hope you are able to see that we're all here for you and that you should never give up on yourself, because many people envy you for your ability to do well in your sport, and hope you can turn that resilience to your academics. bottom line: we are all here for you and we will not hesitate to help you as long as you ask for it. jiayou :) 

well uhm, JCTs are just over. okay maybe not just. but yeah I'm just trying to say that us y6s only have two last checkpoints. which will determine where we will go next. I'm not trying to hide my desire for stellar grades but I believe that A level grades are only as important as until we get into the course in University. thereafter it is not important anymore. 

so yeah, it's kinda disgusting to see how we have to slog our guts out and mug our asses off just because of this. I mean some people don't even do what they do in Uni for a living. sigh, the ironies of life.

just wanna say I'm reaaaally thankful for the nice teachers I have, especially Mr J.Chang and Mr LYX (: super duper thankful that they dont ever give up on me and always believe in me no matter what (:

gonna post up little snippets of my post-CTs here :) but before that shall have a few pictures from the Navy Open House 2013 (; 

so Miss Eileen got super duper excited as soon as she learnt about the NOH, and that my dad works in the Navy so she was super interested in going, and well since I missed the one 3 years ago, why not? :D 

quite sucky that the day was really hot, not much winds. other than when we went out to sea on the Navy ship and the feel was reaaaally good because of the strong winds and the relaxing currents :) 

HAHAHAHA YES. I KNOW. but this is just a reflection on how strong the winds were (;

this was us, before going up on the ship (:

sitting on the tank cuz that woman insisted LOL. I was actually quite afraid. :/

with Major Xavier and the other officer (Eileen couldnt rmb his name) who told us so much about life on the submarine! 

left the NOH about 7pm when everyone was leaving already HAHA. took many photos and played some games and toured many ships. all in all it was a good day :D
dined with Eileen at CCP before heading home, dying of fatigue especially because my shoes broke and had to walk in mummy's heels for quite a bit ><

alright now for Post-CTs :D

Friday 5 July

after the last paper, decided to check out the Hokkaido fair with JH (; wasnt really much to buy and we didnt wanna have food from the fair for dinner so we went around hunting for dinner :D 

note: tampines is to be avoided during meal times, AT ALL TIMES. you'll die of hunger by the time you find somewhere which isnt crowded. 

thankfully Jack's Place wasnt that crowded, I mean, there wasnt really a long queue. and we settled for that :)

lobster bisque - our favourite (: a must-have!

had crayfish with chicken for myself (:

the boy had venison and crayfish (:

DESSERT :D yes a horrible photo I admit. but it was real good ^^

Saturday 6th July

Jpot lunch with da fam (: I cannot stand the photos I take at times, especially when I blog them out >< bear with it guise HAHA.

headed off to meet JH for a short while, after his sailing training, went to bugis to buy baking stuff before heading back home to rest!

Sunday 7 July 

wokeup at godly 7am, after sleeping at about 3+am because of my baking date with the bestie :D 

haha thank goodness (or not?) her beloved has the same birthday as mine, so I have preparation company during JH's birthday ^^ 

long-awaited rainbow cake in a jar, it was ultimate fun baking and playing with all the colours and the piping bags that couldnt get the batter where we wanted them to HAHA. although the end result was really terrible I still enjoyed the process (: 

this photo sums it up (; 

headed out to meet my birthday boy soon after :)
lunch-ed at Secret Recipe but I dont have the photos cuz it's with him opps. like the nice ambiance of that place and the desserts were really so tempting but because of the (horrible) cake, we decided to leave the dessert for another time :) sorry dear I will make up for it after my As HAHA stuff you with fattening dessert hehehe ^^

was contemplating between a movie or just chilling out (SEE, SINGAPORE IS SO BORING.) and then I suggested gaming :D hehe rather good choice because everywhere else is crowded on a sunday. lost terribly to that boy but still had loads of fun ^^

went home for dinner cuz he had family dinner :)

spent my night watching Murray vs Djokovic :D SO HAPPY MURRAY WON YAYY :D awesumposum tennis never regretted spending that 3hours!

Monday 8 July

ironically this was JH's birthday but yet I spent the whole day home alone HAHA. took a good break off everything, vividly remember how nua my day was:

woke up at 1pm
lunch
watched drama online
watched drama on tv
dinner
watched drama on tv
watched drama online

yeah LOL I'd love life like this any day, over the hectic life I have now ><

Tuesday 9 July 

FINALLY the econs peeps were done with JCTs, how thankful I am that I dont take that wretched subject. super thankful.

met my DH063 (w/o shimin) for gaming at Bugis and had a freaking good time laughing at each other's antics HAHA.
rushed off to meet JH and then headed to Cineleisure to catch Despicable Me 2 :D
been super excited for this movie and although yes the sequel couldn't match the first movie but overall the comedy effect was just great for relaxation ^^

presenting my favourite scene from the movie:

HAHAHAHA head to cinema and have a good laugh if you havent watched the movie!

and after going on and on about minions, the boy suggested Cineleisure for the movie so that I could take photos with this giant minion!
HAHA still rmb how he was like "the thing damn big, you damn small" when I was posing for a shot.

YAY MINIONNNN <3 ok I need to grow up. HAHA.

since there was 18chefs and we havent had it in ages, since the Simei branch had to close for East Point to undergo renovation, so we decided to go over for dinner :D

tried their pasta for the first time, would say it's really not bad ^^

Wednesday 10 July

painfully headed back to school after so many days of sleeping happily ><

it was a truly painful day at learning fest, especially that food workshop where we had to sit 3hours, on the floor, cross-legged. 

if you guys dont know I am actually the owner of a body with manymany problems. 

sitting cross-legged on the floor for a prolonged period just means: back pain, knee pain, ankle pain.

not the best thing to happen for someone already angst that school has reopened.

cyber-wellness was supposedly quite okay, just that fatigue caused me to fall asleep ><

PAC for the YA talk was pretty enjoyable tho, hilarious seniors made my day!

went to train for Touch Rug with the 21 girls + yimin and xiaoqi for an hour or so then headed off to family dinner :)

yay tzechar my favvvvv <3 especially when there's crab HAHA.

salted egg butter crab - the most sinful crab dish on earth, also the most heavenly (;

Thursday 11 July 

learning fest workshops got slightly better, started the morning with coffee brewing!

I wouldn't say it was verrrry boring, just that I fell asleep during the parts where it was more dry (yes pun intended) >< 

shimin got a cup of cafe latte at the end of the workshop and shared it with alina katherine and I (: 

super love latte art, I'm gonna put it in my to-learn-list after As (:

Friday 12 July

SPORTS CARN 2013 :)

I was really excited because it's my last huge event at DHS already. altho the exposure to the Sun wasn't something I was looking forward to.

took the morning train with my best friend since I was taking about 3/4 of her journey (: thankful for the company in the morning and the nice talk even tho the train was rather crowded. 

met JH at harbourfront and we made our way to Sentosa together :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOHYUXUAN <3 glamqueenz+Germain ^^ 

with my favourite bimbz <3 

DRAKON TCHOUK (: 

with xinyi (:

DH063'12 (:

floppy - the girl who requested $10 for a photo >:

Ms Selena! 

supposedly a solo photo with Amanda but someone forced her way in. MY SUPPORTERS GANG HAHA. 

with the babes who didnt have an umbrella in the rain, and featuring Benedict's epic face LOL.

with 21! (:

with the babes and Mr LYX, one of the best teachers I've met (:

the PE teacher/mentor I've always been so thankful for (:

with Hunghui the beach babe HAHAHA.

w Stella and our cool shades (;

w Siow Ying and Looi Han at the bus-stop! 

last but not least, the DRATOO <3

weather was bad, getting a little too hot to stay on the island so decided to head back to mainland with JH (: chilled a lil at macs to rest those sore legs before heading back to Tampines for dinner (: 

grocery-shopped w him because he wanted to cook his family dinner the next day hehe so proud of him :') and it's awesome fun grocery shopping with you (: 

really sad we didnt managed to help Ervin get back what he really wanted last year. but I guess he could see that most of us tried our best (:

Saturday 13 July 

wokeup early again, for service learning at Peace Connect (: 

met Siow Ying and Alina early in the morning for preparation before the event. 

didnt capture much from the event, so here's the only photo I got! 

prettaye balloon in a balloon (: gonna learn it someday ^^ 

took the train to Admiralty to granny's house from Lavender. 

I swear this is the train route I hate the most :< because the train seriously takes forever between two stops (only for some stops though). 

superb spread of food, A for quality and service (:

w mum <3 

my favourite nephewwww <3
okay I only have one nephew.
BUT HES SO ADORBZZZ. <3

and yes then sunday came and past, and zoommmm monday.

back to school.

sigh.

Wednesday 17 July 

only interesting thing this week was that I had my virgin blood donation experience (;

so excited but yet scared at the same time!

and I was reaaaally high during when the blood was being extracted from me I think I scared the babes, they must have thought something was wrong w me LOL.

Thursday 18 July 

celebrated Jie Min's belated 18th with the pw peeps and hanzhang kaixiang junyou (:

headed to ramen champ, but being me who's not really a fan of ramen, ate rice instead :D 

thanks to the horribly long break before H1 T.T

not the best place to take a photo but I love how glam I look here (;

H1 ended at disgusting 515pm but thank goodness for daddy who came to pick me up (:

went to Tampines 1 to get a cake for mummy cause Thursday was mummy's birthday :D

Happy Birthday mummy <3 

Saturday 20 July

dinner with the psch gang ystd, thai seafood despite the fact I dont take thai food.

ALMOST EVERYTHING WAS SPICY I SWEAR. but it's okay, the company made up for it (:

Attempted soccer style pose hahaha. The only group of people that I feel most at ease with in my simplest outfit and my truest self, just like primary school days. No one judges the way you dress and behave, no one hates you for jokes that are mocking. Love the simplicity of every meet up that lasts past midnight. Truly my second family :') really thankful for such wonderful friends I've made since young.

caption from my bestf's photo on insta (:
so true I couldn't have said it better myself.

Sunday 21 July 

after a day of mugging at home mummy took me out for dinner at Jack's Place (:

not gonna post the food photos, too fattening making me guilty ><

dessert and tea (:

daddy was attending an event at the Istana but came to pick us up after dinz (:
and since I was wearing a nice dress I decided to take a photo with him :D

me and my smart+handsome daddy <3

okay done :D
that took long LOL. 
time to get back to geoggg~~~ 

just a quick update before the hols end.

I think I've grown and learnt so much during this hols, I don[t mean the academic sense in this case.

but of course, I do hope my knowledge has expanded in terms of academics.

I've learnt that no promise lasts forever.

I mean, from young I know that I hated it whenever my mum broke her promise to me. 

like not buying ice-cream for me after she promised to (yes childish, but I was a child then).

but even I cannot guarantee that what I promise will hold true forever, or as long as it was supposed to last. 

I break my promises as well, I know and I am honestly guilty at times, but sometimes something else just gets the better of me and I break it. I'm not blaming it on external factors but yes I know I should not but yet I did. Thus, anyone is capable of it too.

Gonna take every promise with a pinch of salt now. 

I've learnt that one should never let their validation lie in the hands on others.

Simply put, your life belongs to you, don't let anyone else determine anything for you.

Sometimes it's really good to be alone for awhile, because ultimately everyone is alone. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that we should not let the feelings of others determine us or anything like that. The key is not too much. It's knowing when to stop. 

There is honestly no point in expecting too much from someone and when they fail to deliver, get yourself so upset. 

Ultimately, what is life if you don't live it your own way? 

I've learnt that people do give false hopes, and let you down when you trust them the most.

Have you ever experienced times when you let your guard down because a loved one seemingly does something in your favour? (note the word seemingly here)

And when you let your guard down and give them a chance, trust them once more, they go straight and destroy their chance, destroy your trust in them?

But yet, because they're so dear, you'll never completely lose faith in them, so you convince yourself to trust them once again.

Pathetic isn't it? Times like these I wish I was the kind who has serious trust issues, maybe then I wouldn't trust so easily and get disappointed so easily.

;;

jcts in 4 days, the end of it in 8.

really looking forward to dating my favourite girl after jcts, just for a little break. :)

So glad the term break is here. But there really isnt much I'm looking forward to, other than more rest. This term has been so exhausting, physically mentally emotionally.

I really dont like being y6, I dont like growing up. I dont like the education system here.
But in the end, who are we to decide? Aren't we all just victims of the system? We are forced to believe that nothing is more important than our grades, but 10 years on, who really cares about how many As you had for your A Levels?

I dont exactly wanna go on with this post because it'll just seem like a meaningless rant because my head hurts so much to think clearly. Not forgetting I'll still have to settle SGC.
Yes, SGC - selling ourselves to scholarship boards, despite being told since young that we're priceless.

I'm tired. Really tired.

in the end, the one who makes you smile the most has the power to make you crumble the most. 

Too many things happening lately.

Somehow I still vividly recall that day approximately 2 years ago. I wanted to type a FB note on it to share my pride about the spirit we had, the support and the thundering cheers I witnessed at SBC. But I dismissed that idea because I was still packing for OBS. Lousy excuse yes. But I was just feeling slightly saddened that what we had 2 years ago has apparently diminished to naught today.

I know that being a part of DHSBBALL will make me biased towards my cca. And I agree that yes, the progress of the basketball team is extensively publicized in the school, be it by Mr Low, or now by Zhi Ming. Some might feel that it's unfair to their own ccas and I honestly can understand. So I will not be targeting only basketball.

I personally feel that we do have the capability to spread our spirit beyond the school grounds. Coming into Senior High made me feel strongly spirited with my house. But Senior High, it's honestly not just something as superficial as Bennu vs Drakon vs Homa vs Kirin. Sure, house spirit matters a darn lot. It helps to bring together groups of people, from different classes, taking different combinations. It really brings people closer, I say hi to many people I dont even know before SH now.

But honestly, this spirit can be further extended. If we have such great internal spirit, why not display it for the admiration of others? Why not make good use of it to intimidate formidable opponents at sports games? (I'm not saying about the Performing Arts here because it's quite ridiculous to cheer continuously at performances) I just feel very disheartened at the 'crowd' that we have at games. I just want to say that not only semi-finals or finals are important. These games are obviously important as to determine the placings. But how about the games that led to all these? The sweat and tears and blood that were shed during trainings, friendly matches and the first few rounds? The importance of these games are extremely undermined by the general majority. I'm not saying that we should stop all lessons the moment theres a sports game and send 20 buses of students to the competition ground. But I just wish that something can be done about how pathetic we look during competitions. Every other school has at least 10-20 supporters. Ours? Zero at times. Why is it that other schools can do it but not us?

No that was not a genuine question because I know the answer. It's because we are too academically driven. We are pushed to only care about that particular grade that appears on our result slips. To ace the A levels. Any other thing is of secondary importance. What happened to "We aim to educate students for the future and have identified a set of holistic outcomes"? People need to wake up. If pursuing of other aspects of life is deemed as a wrong decision, then I think that we are becoming nothing but workaholics. Sure you may argue that we are giving many opportunities to grow in other aspects but we are the ones not grabbing the opportunities. Then may I argue that most of the times these so-called opportunities feels more like prestige instead? It's only offered to the best of the best, the cream of the crop. So what exactly is the message being sent out? Maybe you feel that this is my personal view but I think I pretty much speak for the majority, at least those of my level. We often do not get access to the opportunities that are glamourized and can only watch while those of supposed higher ability (in mugging) get their hands on numerous opportunities and get to pick and choose, and only those more unwanted ones fall to people like me.

If you think I am being sour about all these, I am not. It's more of me feeling strongly that we can be so much more than we are now. And I honestly do not want to leave this school with nothing but a good image because of the school's good name. I want to leave and feel proud of the school. Feel proud that I was from this school, not because of it's good name but because of the way I've grown here and the colourful experiences I've had and the spirit I can confidently call home. But honestly as of now, I feel regretful that I probably wont get the chance to feel this way. It's not that I haven't grown as a person, but it's quite shameful to say that place I've grown most is actually on the basketball court. Where values of perseverance, determination, tolerance, teamwork, etc. are instilled deep into my heart. I'm not saying that there are no inspirational teachers. I am actually very lucky to have met quite a few teachers who are so passionate about what they do, it makes me question my ability to be this passionate my job in the future.  But that can wait.

Now all I want to say is, even if I dont get to enjoy that luxury. I sincerely wish that future batches can. 

had what was possibly my second best day in April on Speech Day! 
(well yes, because it was a so-called holiday)

didnt really wake up late (okay I overslept but not that bad) because I had already planned to head back to TNPS with Si Bin to visit 赖老师 because I recently found out that he was gonna retire at the end of May. Didnt believe it initially (esp since he has been talking about retirement since I was in p5) but yeah his post on FB and all should confirm it. 

was really awkward at the start because I guess we hadnt seen him for really long and all? but I have to say that I'm really thankful for my primary school life. Given I might not be from a school with very good reputation (in fact it's the opposite) but the teachers who have nurtured me and the friends that I have made are really a huge part of my life. I'm ever so thankful for the group of primary school friends that I still hang out with so often (Si Bin says we probably take it for granted at times), we might not always say it but I know we are so proud of the fact we still stick so close and that we really treasure each other :) the confessions that day cracked me up tho LOL.

here's the picture with 赖老师! sadly couldnt catch Mrs Gan cause the busy VP was out having a meeting ~.~ 

hmm after which I headed over to SBC to catch the A Girls match against SJI (International). felt a huge wave of nostalgia when I was making my way from payalebar and when I walked in I swear those feelings just overwhelmed me. 

I really cannot explain it but I think after manymany years I will probably still have an attachment to this place. no matter how terribly humid it is in here LOL. nerve-wrecking match which I'm so terribly glad they won, and advanced :') now they're a step closer to finish what we couldnt manage to finish last year. praying hard for them until the end of the season.

my supporterz club ^^ 

I'm actually willing to post this photo even tho my hair is messy because so glad to have them as well so that I wont be by myself when I'm rooting for my team! and I think I dont look too bad here right LOL. (altho my face seems significantly chubbier -megasigh-)

rushed off after the game for a nice date in town with my beloved <3
nice lunch at Kung Fu Paradise where we got free soup and drink because they were having an unknown promotion YAY :D HAHAHA #cheapthrill

didnt know what to do after that because Singapore is really quite boring == which reminds me of an article I've read recently. but it's okay, that'll be another time. 
headed for an impromptu movie - Judgement Day

this movie might not be VERY realistic but it kinda brings out how people tend to neglect the ones around them and the ones who love them until when they realize that they've no time left. and I feel that this is especially applicable in a society like ours because we are all too caught up with our work and just our own lives to hardly have the time to show our appreciation for the people around us. although I'm guilty of this, I think it's pretty hypocritical when we only start to show our appreciation when theres hardly any time left, or when it's already too late. I mean, if the person hardly mattered to you before, then why does a crisis make them matter? 

which then again, brings me to a song from so many years ago, one that I've always found meaningful and one that always pushes me to tell the people around me how much I appreciate them. even small actions. it's the thought that counts and the smallest actions will suffice.

 If Tomorrow Never Comes - Ronan Keating 

feeling a little emotional tonight for some reasons, ohwell. 
I guess I'm just feeling like I care a little too much and get cared for a tad too little. which is why I just choose to shut myself out from many people. especially when there's a crowd, ohgosh crowds are the bane of my life now (BECAUSE I'M OFFICIALLY RID OF MASS PE *THROWS CONFETTI*). sometimes I just wish I'd stop getting treated like Iron Lady, sometimes it's just not alright. 
time for bed.