Lost my trend of thoughts for PI. So I thought I'd take a break by blogging hmm.
The past week's really been crazy, with tests trainings friendlies and late nights. Late nights are the worse, they leave me all queasy in the morning that I feel like some pregnant woman with the tendency to puke because my stomach just churns and churns ._.
And as i'm typing this I still have that feeling. Tsk.
Sometimes when I feel lost and demoralized I just feel glad that the house's almost always empty so I can break down. Did so on wednesday. Never thought I felt so bottled up, presumed it's just stress. But when I broke down I felt so much emotions being released.
OKAY BACK TO PI.
Finally done :D
Really really afraid for Physics test next week ._. Someone please tell me why did I choose physics :/
Or rather, why did I not choose H1 phyiscs. Really cant take it anymore. I feel the drive to do Math Chem and Geog. Anything other than physics. WHY :(
And I pretty much screwed math test earlier this week ._. Sincerely pray that there'll be ECF or I'll just be ready to fail my math test. Not tryna be a bitch here but I really cant accept screwups for math :/ Ohwells, Mel, get over it.
Glad that we didnt havta train till 830 ystd tho, felt like I was gonna break alr, before training ._. Been feeling rather feverish in class these few days. But ending training earlier didnt make me more productive at home tho ._. I NEED TO BE STRONGER.
Went home w the pig ystd, mini htht bout the future :) Set me thinking quite a bit on the rest of the ride home. I already kinda anticipate that I'll end up in FASS eventually. But there's many other things I wanna do apart from being in FASS :/ Really anticipate the career day next wed to see what I can learn from those talks.
Right, trng tmr.
Toodles!
Friday, March 30, 2012
Friday, March 23, 2012
finally turning on my com in eons. have to blog thru here cuz i removed the blogger-droid app from my phone. taking far too much space.
feeling really worn out even tho i just woke up. must be the mental stamina i lack ._. looking at the to-do list pasted on my wall just makes me lose it. cant believe it's only week2 next week and we're all cramped like crap already ._.
not forgetting that nats is like in 2weeks time? yeah 'round thr. so the level of stress and fatigue will be carried up to a whole new level, which means higher level of perseverance, higher level of trying to concentrate in class, and higher level of controlling my temper when i really wanna flare up. but come to think of it i really think this will make me a better person ;)
had a really horrible week1 i cant deny. due to awesome sleeping hrs (like 12am-10am) during the hols, i have shitloads of trouble waking up at 630am and tryna stay awake in lectures especially. cant believe how i actly half-died during geog on tuesday. bet mr chang was a lil annoyed ._.
lectures were terrible. i can never understand physics. someone tell me why in the world did i choose physics? ._. it's probably cuz i cant do bio, but there are so many other subjects. gosh regrets regrets. but then again, i'm probably quite lucky for the fact i took CMG. cuz it's really comforting to see mr chang so awesomely nice, like hes probably the nicest h1 teacher.
chem and math are surprisingly fine and i'm still on track. thank goodness. and i'm especially thankful to 38 because we're such a fun class and more than often the jokes created here and thr can keep me awake/cheer me up :)
thanks to everyone who's been bearing w my hot-tempered self recently, really appreciate all of you :)
and thanks pig <3 you jiayou too :)
feeling really worn out even tho i just woke up. must be the mental stamina i lack ._. looking at the to-do list pasted on my wall just makes me lose it. cant believe it's only week2 next week and we're all cramped like crap already ._.
not forgetting that nats is like in 2weeks time? yeah 'round thr. so the level of stress and fatigue will be carried up to a whole new level, which means higher level of perseverance, higher level of trying to concentrate in class, and higher level of controlling my temper when i really wanna flare up. but come to think of it i really think this will make me a better person ;)
had a really horrible week1 i cant deny. due to awesome sleeping hrs (like 12am-10am) during the hols, i have shitloads of trouble waking up at 630am and tryna stay awake in lectures especially. cant believe how i actly half-died during geog on tuesday. bet mr chang was a lil annoyed ._.
lectures were terrible. i can never understand physics. someone tell me why in the world did i choose physics? ._. it's probably cuz i cant do bio, but there are so many other subjects. gosh regrets regrets. but then again, i'm probably quite lucky for the fact i took CMG. cuz it's really comforting to see mr chang so awesomely nice, like hes probably the nicest h1 teacher.
chem and math are surprisingly fine and i'm still on track. thank goodness. and i'm especially thankful to 38 because we're such a fun class and more than often the jokes created here and thr can keep me awake/cheer me up :)
thanks to everyone who's been bearing w my hot-tempered self recently, really appreciate all of you :)
and thanks pig <3 you jiayou too :)
Monday, March 5, 2012
In class with 1 more hour till physics starts.
Feeling damn bloody angsty cuz of the stupid math test that i lost so many careless marks.
And now this.
Fuck this seriously. Why couldnt we have known earlier, that the lesson is gonna be pushed back?
I swear i fucking hate last min changes. Especially if it screws up my already settled plan.
Then what, i got happy for nothing?
Seriously, what the shit. What a nice way to screw up my initially good day.
Feeling damn bloody angsty cuz of the stupid math test that i lost so many careless marks.
And now this.
Fuck this seriously. Why couldnt we have known earlier, that the lesson is gonna be pushed back?
I swear i fucking hate last min changes. Especially if it screws up my already settled plan.
Then what, i got happy for nothing?
Seriously, what the shit. What a nice way to screw up my initially good day.
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