Saturday, August 25, 2012

St. Geezy End of Summer Vacay


This past weekend Mike and I decided that we needed a weekend getaway.

We were tossing around ideas, there was Pocatello, Idaho Falls, Lava Hot Springs, Jackson Hole, Moab, Grand Junction, Vegas, and St. George.

Luckily Mike's co-worker owns a few Condo's in St. George and was able to rent us one for a cheap price for the whole weekend.  Like, a REALLY cheap price!!

We left shortly after we got off work on Friday and made just a few stops along our way.  The first was in Payson to see my Bailee and surprise her with a back-to-school gift and an I'm-sorry-we're-not-taking-you-with-us gift.

This will be my Goo's second concert.  And I am more than thrilled to spend it with her!!

After visiting with the Bug, we headed on towards the Geezy.

It was a fun road trip.  We giggled, listened to the radio, and then to my iPod (not Mike's choice...)...

Our stop before St. Geez was in in the Beav.  I have, for the past 8ish years wanted an 'I Love Beaver' T-Shirt...and a pic of me in the big, ole, Beaver rocking chair.  My dreams were fulfilled!!



We finally hit St. George at around 11pm.  Because we were in a different condo than the last time, I took pictures of the whole place.  But, for some reason my photo editor won't let me rotate and edit them tonight, so I give up...

However- here are some other fun little pictures!  The first is the AWESOME pool!


This next one I absolutely LOVE.  It was a total candid moment.  I can't stand still when anyone touches my neck.  Mike knows this and rarely ever kisses me there.  I was standing there with him getting ready to take a pic and he attacked my neck.... You can already see it was making me Giggle out of control... but, I have to admit, I did need to do a little ass kicking afterwards!  My neck is OFF LIMITS!  (unless.....oh, nevermind...haha)




Here is the pic we took AFTER the neck attack.  Geez, I sure love this sexy piece of man meat!!


And here is me giving him "loving" kisses. ;)

We sure love each other so very much.  I completely agree that we were made just for each other.

The next day I met up with my old High School Buddy and we got Pedicure, went shopping, and went to lunch.  I loved every minute of seeing her and catching up.


The worst thing about this pedicure is that they SUCKED!  $30 for a pedi where your polish chips after a day and your feet don't end up smooth and soft.... yeah (sorry for the language) that's fucked up. I'm sorry Ivy, this was your first Pedi... come to SLC and I'll take you to an amazing place that charges less than $30 and your feet are soft for weeks, and the polish doesn't chip unless your nails grow out or you chip your nail yourself!

For lunch we went to:

It was mediocre at best, but of course the Cheddar Biscuits were to die for!!!

After our lunch and little shopping spree at Target (I needed a new swim suit and of course some cute dresses haha) we went our separate ways and I went back to our Condo with my Lover.  The next group of pictures is of me FRIED after the vacay, Mike and I in the condo before swimming, Ivy and my tootsies, and me floating on a swim raft.



There was also a LOT of Margarita drinking...which, I know, I should have paced myself.  But, I was on Vacay!  For the first time in a long time without Bailee!!  So, please don't judge. :)


We laid by the pool pretty much every waking second.  It was so amazing!  It brought me back to my natural roots where I loved summer, the water, and the sun.  



I don't think most of you know, but I was a crazy swimmer from about 2.  I started on the swim team at an early age (4, I believe) and did amazing.  I had mad, crazy, blue ribbons for being so super awesome and fast!  My Uncle, Shane, was my best friend and my most amazing supporter/team member/partner during these times.  (I still and always will consider him my big brother).  Anyways, because of my old swimming roots, I was drawn to the pool this entire trip.  

Frying my legs...


I took the temp picture at about 9am.... while we were at the pool it was over 100.



And I paid for it.  I haven't gotten this much sun since about 2002 (pre-Bee)


The top picture is of me at 3am after we got home from our vacay...you can see some of my ouchiness from my sunburn.  The other pic is of course a fun little picture of my Mr and I at the pool.

Here are a few more fun pictures from our stay at the Condo...


Me, cheesing it up!



Floatin' .... I could do this for HOURS!!


My handsome, soon to be (hopefully sooner than later) hubby


At this point I was bored and was just snapping away!!


I am not lying.  I am fried!  Still! :(


On Sunday on our way home I really wanted to stop and visit my Grandparents 'resting' place.  I haven't been there yet and I have been aching to sit and just talk to them.  So, we stopped by the Hurricane Cemetery and found their plots.  I put my blanket down, planted some gorgeous daisies for Grandma, and placed a handful of Pine Nuts for Grandpa.  And then I broke down.  I cried for so long.  I talked to them about how horrible I feel for not being the best grandchild and visiting or calling more, I cried because I don't feel like I got enough time with them...for example, my grandma died at 62.  It was such an emotional reunion, but I felt them right next to me holding me tight and letting me know in their own way that I am special.  I really can't wait to visit them many times a year.  I haven't lost anyone close to me besides the two of them.  So, just sitting there and crying and talking to them helps so much!  I also can't wait to take Bailee there and let her talk to them.  To end this post I am going to add some photos I took while chatting with my grandparents.











I miss them so very much.  And I hate myself daily for not being the 'perfect' granddaughter that I could have been.  It's also not easy having a family member make you feel like crap, when you already feel awful.

I miss having a connection with my family.  Things have changed so much over the years and I am saddened that we have all grown so far apart that we're afraid to call each other just to check in.  Maybe it is just a part of getting older.  But, I am not close at all with my family.  And it kills me every day.  I went through such a crazy spell after my divorce with Eric, and I have lost soooo many people who were so important to me.  
How do I fix it??  I've tried calling, texting, fbing.... Ugh, I give up.  I'm not who I was a year or two ago.  I have GROWN so much in the past six months.
I guess I know who my real friends are now.  And the sad thing, it's not very many.  I would've stuck by you when or if you went crazy for a short amount of time.

Either way-  I have Mike.  I have Bailee.  And I have Eric.  And to be honest... I am HAPPIER than I've been in years!!  Betcha' can't say that without a lie. 

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Happy 9th Birthday Bailee!!

A little over 9 years ago I looked like this:


Roughly 2-3 weeks later, I looked like this (after getting the epidural):


And the very next morning, this was my reward:


I am the proudest mama there is.  I love this little girl more than I could possibly imagine!  She is my angel, and my bestest friend.

I hope you have a great birthday Bailee!!  Know that Mama loves you the mostest!!

xoxoxox

Monday, July 23, 2012

Chicago!

Yesterday was my beautiful grandmothers 71st birthday. A few of us went to Park City to have dinner and watch the musical Chicago at the Egyptian Theater.

We met at Wasatch Brewery for dinner and then headed to the theater for the musical.

It was amazing. I am pretty sure I am now a musical show fan!! I loved it so much!

My favorite song was the Cell Block Tango... Don't all men have it coming? Hahaha jk

I can't wait to introduce more theater to Bailee. (she's seen Thriller so far).

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

New Health Blog

I've been being awesome at loosing weight for over 2 weeks now and have started a blog...

You should check it out and follow me on my journey.

everydayimlosingit.blogspot.com

Happy America Day

This is one of my favorite holidays and I'm sick with the flu. :(

At least look at this old, cute picture of Bailee and I on this holiday 2 years ago.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

LAGOOOOOOOOOOOON

I am so excited that Bailee is FINALLY at the age where she loves all rides! I knew it was coming after Disneland this year and the fact that we rode the California Screamin', Tower of Terror, and Splash Mountain a thousand and one times.

Gooey rode EVERY SINGLE thrill ride at Lagoon a couple weeks ago. I am such the proud mama!

Favorite Quote

I saw this quote yesterday and I am in LOVE!!

This is exactly what I needed.

I just started this new lifestyle change a few days ago and have been needing encouragement.

It is so nice to have a totally new quote that I've never seen before to help me along this way.

I have saved this photo as my lock screen on my iphone. I have it plastered on my desk, I am also putting it my kitchen... This is very powerful to me.

No more Fat Jami.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Sushi....blah?

We went out for sushi last night at Ginza and I was sorely disappointed. I haven't had it in over a month and wanted it again before I started my diet (today).
Well, it could be worse....it could have been delicious and made dieting even harder. Haha
Well played, sushi, well played.

Dieting for the summer is going to be rough, but I am determined to be thinner by my 30th. I can do it!! I mean, it's JUST food, right?

Wish me luck!

#operationskinnyjamilyn2012

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Lagoon all Summer long!!

I went and bought us all Lagoon Season Passes this past weekend. I figured that we usually go at least 2 times, so why not??
Mike and I went on Saturday for a few hours. We had so much fun. I can't wait to go again this weekend!!! :D

New Suits for Sumah!!

Boogs talked mama into 2 new bathing suits for summer...
I can't believe in a week she'll be out and leaving me!! At least I get her every other weekend!!
Happy Sumah 2012 everyone!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

The Sun will rise...it'll be alright.

I know my post last night was depressing. Especially for this time of the year.

All I know is that for some reason God gives me another day.

Now to find how to make that day work to my advantage. I know I'm not working and am slightly handicapped in my left hand- But, I can and will turn this home into a masterpiece. Something for Mike to be proud of.

Too bad I need money for shelves. Anyone know of any men willing to help? Dad? Or even easy bookcases.

It's time to take back my womanhood and my home.

I want more than anything in this world for Mike to walk in the door after a long days work to a happy, clean home. And of course dinner would be good too. (but we all know he is a better chef)

I love you Mike. And I love my snuggle buggly Bailee.

On the bright-side...


...I have Mike. STILL STANDING BY ME!!

And I couldn't love him more. YES, I'd love that special question to finally be asked to me. But I am also happy with where things are in our lives.

I love this photo because it shows so much love for each other. Even though it is impeccably blurry. I love this man with everything inside of me.

Christmas may totally BITE THE DUST this year- but it is the first Christmas we'll be spending as just us. With hopefully many, many, many more to come...'WINK WINK, NUDGE NUDGE'...lol

We were both just ready for something different this year. We are poor and can't contribute to each other in gifts....so why not spend it alone together.
Whether we go to Wendover or stay home... I just hope it's the best Christmas without Bailee ever.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Christmas Heartache


Not having your child with you is obviously the most heart wrenching way to spend your Christmas.

Now, not having any funds to actually GET her gifts... That brings on a whole other feeling of heart wrenching pain.

I know it's not about Christmas. I know it's about Christ and his birth.

But, I am dying.

I broke down at Target today because I could only afford her a barbie doll with a $5 coupon. Which made the doll $5 bucks itself. I was on the phone with a friend while asking the concession's lately for a cup for ice water when I burst into tears. A friendly gentleman grabbed my arm and told me to breathe- it was all going to be ok.

That's when I sat in my car for 10 minutes crying my eyes out. I don't see this being ok. I don't see an end to this. (and no I'm not just talking about Christmas)

I ache. I ache so badly and don't have the courage to ask for help.

Oh, and I miss Bailee. I miss her immensely. I want to be the one with her on Christmas morning. I want to tuck her in and read her our traditional story on Christmas Eve. I ache for her as well.