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♥ Friday, August 26, 2016

Perhaps. Perhaps there are really things that I wanted to do. There are thoughts to achieve or to do something that crossed my mind before. But probably really because I think too much, too much that I start to push them away from my mind unknowingly. Therefore, there has never been a want.

I don't make plans. I don't have any plans. I don't like changes. I'm actually still at the same spot all along which I don't think is a good thing. I lost motivations. I wait for things to come to me and not work for it. Even typing out these doesn't makes me wanna do anything about it either.

I don't know what I want in life. People do talk to me about it. Like why don't you go further study or look for a better job out there. Those are suggestions. No ones really sit down and talk and plan my route with me. Because it's my life. People do not wanna interfere in. Decisions in life are made by yourself and you have to bear the consequences. I don't like to make decisions. I don't wanna get involve in other people life too. If someone ask me to make a decision for their life. If they should change a job etc. I can be giving my view but usually I'd say you have to make the decision yourself. I wouldn't say a yes or no. If things goes well then good if not they will probably blame you for it. I'm scared of making the wrong choices. I'm always hesitating. I don't even know whether what I'm doing now brings me to anywhere.

 I wish I know and can see into the future what will happen when I made a certain choice.

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♥ Friday, April 1, 2016

What are the chances of meeting your friend coincidentally in a movie theatre?
And the possibility after the movie have already been released for 2 weeks already.
And the possibility of them sitting at the seat next to you?
Yes. I met my friend in the movie theatre yesterday.
How small the world can be.

The movie -Allegiant started at 9.30pm.
Desmond and I were seated and we were joking about taking selfies but didn't as the lights went off and the movie started.
We were sitting next to the stairs.
2 person squeezed through. First a lady and followed by the guy.
I was like "eh he looks like Yixuan"
The guy sat beside Desmond.
I think Desmond didn't think he was really Yixuan. He didn't turn towards the guy.
I lean towards my left. Looked at the guy beside Desmond and I went "Yixuan?!"
Yixuan turned with a surprised face.
Desmond then turned to his left.
We all laughed.
Got a bit excited and talked forgetting we were in the cinema but not very loud.
Then we all went slient. Yixuan finished his sentence before saying that we are watching movie and shouldn't be talking.
Desmond and I didn't really have much mutual friends. Mutual friends that we actually do talk to.
We were always joking about surprising Yixuan and look at his expression. But ya, never did we expect to meet him at Nex.





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♥ Monday, December 28, 2015

I'm back to blogging recently.
Few more days to the end of year 2015.

Company Chirstmas celebration on the 22nd wasn't very fun.
Just some performance from department to department.
My department didn't have to present as marketing wasn't there.
How lucky!
We didn't prepare any performance and HR have came up with some "punishment." We escaped this time!
But the buffet lunch we had was good!

Early dismissal on the Christmas Eve.
Although it drizzled but I decided to go jogging as planned.
The drizzle stopped a while after I started jogging.

Then Christmas.
Decided not to stay home this Christmas.
Went for movie with a poly sch mate.
Watched IPMan3.
Had lunch at EwF.
Then went Holland V and had ice cream waffles at Sunday Folks. I've been wanting to go there and finally went there.
Then walked around Orchard.
Had rainbow cake from Dean and Deluca.
Didn't have a good appetite that day.

Boxing Day.
Finally met up with N678
Had dinner at Andong Zzimdak.
Slacked at Starbucks.
Photos time.
Pat came to fetch Jing so we got a ride too.
Then Mahjong at Hockhao's place.
As usual, I didn't play.
Sat beside Yuan Ling and watch them play.
They stopped at 2.30am.
Patrick drove all of us home before returning the car back to Jing's dad at 3am to go to work.

Ivan came over to stay yesterday.
He has got too much energy.
I doze off at 2am. And he slept only at 4pm.
This afternoon went to the hairdresser.
He has no patience yet didnt wanna leave me there alone. He made a lot of noises.
He can be such an angel at times and yet sometimes the opposite which makes you feels so irritated.
I usually ignore him when he makes a fuss. He wouldn't be able to hear others when he is making to much noisy.
Hope as he grow up he'll be more well behave.








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♥ Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Last last Saturday was a really rainy day.
Met up with Min Hui for badminton.
Luckily we played at our usual indoor function hall.

 Initially also planned to go night cycling with JiaYi and Bernard that day, but the weather is not giving any chance. So we arranged for to go cycling the next day afternoon. But it started raining again after our lunch. Then we went to my house to slack and watch movie instead.

Work is the same repeatitive stuff.
Just that there's a Christmas event this month.
I "volunteered" to be event committee again.
I'm not against it. Just that some people need to be appreciative and not acting nice in front of you, getting you to do the task and then at the back telling another story.
For this Christmas event, we have to prepare 2 cards for outlet staffs and 1 card for backend department.
I discussed with some of the colleagues in my department and they said they don't wanna make the cards and said I can settle it.
So I cleared some work I had on hand, then decorated the cards before giving to my department colleagues to fill in their wishes / message.
One of my colleague suggest me to decorate the cards with the outlet staff names on them. But I didn't really like the idea because there might be change of work schedules. But got her to check on the number of staff that will be there on the day we are going down to deliver the cards since I need to prepare the gifts.
She asked this colleague next to her and that colleague asked why she wanna know. She told her that I need it because I'm preparing the cards. That colleague checked and said schedule not out yet and added "wa she so free doing cards."
That colleague was the one that asked me to prepare the cards for the department and then behind me saying "she so free."
Who is the free one?
Ya, I'm not busy cos I'm not busy sitting there cutting the ends of my hair.
I'm not busy cos I not busy playing with my phone.
I'm not busy cos I don't keep saying "I'm busy."
Anyway, aside from this one unappreciative colleague.
I, along with 2 nice colleagues that I chose to accompany me, went for really last minute shopping on the day of the shop visit.
I was really indecisive between getting a tumbler or body wash set. But end up getting the body wash set from bodyshop as the tumblers were out of stock. 
Initally wanted to get 5 sets but got 6 instead as there's promotion. We were lucky that we bought 6 sets as the AM happens to be there at the outlet.
The smiles on the sales staff faces made everything feel worthwhile.

Tomorrow we will have a Christmas Lunch and the presentation of the backend Christmas card and also along with a performance. But our department didn't prepare any performance. Shall see how it goes tomorrow.

The past weekend I dreamt of myself quiting the company. After the exit interview and finally signing on the paper my first though was, "where shall I go next?"
In that dream I seems to have quitted before securing another job. I have not been thinking of leaving the job I am in but have definitely thought of. People are saying you with a diploma and a few years experience you can get a better pay elsewhere. But what about the environment at other places? I just fell for the comfort here.

 Yesterday, meetup with JiaMin and Elizabeth to go cafe hopping.
WanJing, the offically Mrs Ng!, came with Patrick as the surprise.
Pretended to meet them coincidentally.
We thought Eliz have already suspected as she saw JiaMin waving her hand. But JiaMin said she was shaking her hand as she was holding on to her stuff for too long and she kinda believed after turning and not seeing anyone.
Then she saw JiaMin whatsapp message notifications on my phone and me trying to hide cover the notification.
But she didn't suspect. She believed it was coincidental until we told her it was our plan.
We went to Eat.Play.Love cafe. That cafe is really suitable for families with kids as there are so many arts and crafts stuff to keep them occupied.
I acted and told Eliz that I forgot to bring the really belated birthday gift for her.
The others played along. Just when she believed, I took out the prezzie.
Patrick left after a while as he have something on. 
We ordered a bit too much and so our cafe hop ended there for the day.
We went bugis and 叮当 was there to promote for her concert.
 Listened to 2 of her songs. Her live singing sounded as good as those played.

 These few weeks..
 I read "How to fall in Love" by Cecelia Ahern that I borrowed from the library. And I managed to finish it before its due date.
 I rewatched "My date with a Vampire" season 1 and 2.
 I self-made x'mas cards for my friends. I passed them on our meetups and I just personally delivered the cards for Min Hui and YS to their house, as their house are just nearby and I wouldn't get to meet them before Chirstmas.
I decorated my Sylvianian Families house.

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♥ Saturday, November 14, 2015

Went out shopping today with my parents.
Headed to chinatown to get buttons for my dress.
Dad got his Preserved lemon. We got it from a stall, beside the escalator, on the 2nd floor in People's Park Complex. The Preseved Lemon there taste better than the ones they got from bugis, so we went back there to buy.
Oh, and I like their Lychee Plum.
Then we went OG. Spent quite an bit to get a set of sylvianian families.
It's on promotion but still it is not cheap.
I initially wanted to get this. It's on sale for $39.90 which I saw from the OG booklet that was sent to my house.


But I ended up getting the city house with lights which is much bigger than that.
Haha, and the cashier got so excited helping me to open up the box to check with the content.
There's a little girl living within us.
It's something I ever wanted since young (besides barbie dolls).
I wanted a doll house.
And I bought it today.
But I can only get my hands on it next week as we requested for delivery.
Can't wait for it to be home!

My parents are not rich.
But I did have toys to play with.
I also did have great company to play with even though we fight and quarrel all the time.
They can't afford to get expensive toys for us.
I used to envy that my cousins have a room or a whole wardrobe filled with toys.
It's not that I had never wanted news toys, I did have a wishlist and I had secretly wished that Santa would send me during Christmas. Getting the toys on my wishlist never really matter to me. It'd be good if I received it but I wouldn't roll on the ground and make a fuss to get them.

I had great a childhood.
I spent my mornings watching cartoons.
I didn't have any pressure to get good grade in school.
I have more company at home.
I was well fed and clothed.
Now I wish that I lived at that period of time forever.

I hardly ever get to see my elder brother except during special occasions like Chinese New Year and birthday.
I know my parents are always waiting for his calls.
He always said he is busy.
Everyone is, everyone have to work.
We knows that he goes out to sea.
But there will be times where he'll be in Singapore.
So what does he do when he is back?
What I see on social media is friends gatherings and him going out with his wife and her parents.

I honestly doesn't like his wife's mum. She's super rude and pretentious.
She doesn't give people respect so neither do I have to. But I'll still at least give a a fake smile and address her auntie when I see her. My parents taught me manners.
Her mum was smiling when they came over to discuss about their marriage. But the day after they got married she came to my house without greeting the owner of the house and demanded to get things for my brother and argued with my parents. I'm like what the?!?!
Another thing I hate about her is that she tried to brain wash me (when I had stayover at their house) saying that we women should be "controlling" man.
We are in Singapore and now is not the era where men are dominant but neither are women. We should be treating our partners with respect instead of pinching them and throwing a tantrum at them when we are upset and making ridiculous demands. I have never gotten into a real relationship but my mummy have always tell me to treat my partner and his family with respect.

I knew my mum doesn't like his wife and neither his wife like my mum.
But they never fought. I saw her scolding my mum on facebook, but that was before they got married.
The last time I saw his wife(election day) I think she had a quarrel with my brother of something, and she was in a bad mood. She didn't speak to any of us and was on her iPad all the way until I started speaking to her.

I never knew that we will grew further as we grew older.
It was really a bliss back then.
The 5 of us going out together as a family.
The 5 of us watching tv together.
The 5 of us having meals together.
Anything that we did together as one family.

Life is never perfect.
There's no such thing as happily ever after.
If only I can write my own life story...


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♥ Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Last Sunday, met up with Jia Min and Eliz. Had dinner at Tamp mall pizza hut. Received a pack of "hello kitty goodie bag" from Jiamin, Eliz and Dan as my belated birthday gift. All my favourite! Thank You!




We didn't have much time to meet up as we have to work and JM have projects and exams too. 
A short meet up to catch up is really good.
Life gets busy, but we still remember one another and make time for each other despite our busy schedules.


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♥ Saturday, September 12, 2015

Casted my first vote today!

Waited for my elder brother to return home and went back to my Primary school in the afternoon to vote.
We were allocated to A2. There was no queue then.

I was in a really relaxed mood when i walked into the school, passing all the securities and telling my brother,"I feel like talking a selfie with you since we are back here but we cant" and "This wall (underwater world) that dad painted with the teachers are still here!" blah blah blah. Until when we entered A2, the polling officer read out my name, registering my name, everything suddenly seems so serious. Collecting my voting slip since like collecting exam papers to sit in a major exam.
I marked a cross at the polling paper. Making sure that I crossed the right one before folding the slip and dropping it into the box.

Waiting to catch the live cast of the results now!

Anw Charles Chong won Punggol East! Yay!
He have been a great help to my family.
Although he is no longer serving my area but I really hope that he win and continue to serve the people:)




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♥ Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Happy Birthday to me!

Took off day as usual.
Didn't have any fanciful birthday celebrations or parties.
I find that spending this day with loved ones are much more meaningful to me.
Received birthday messages from family, relatives, ex-classmates, friends and colleagues. Really appreciate those who actually remembered my birthday and those who saw it on facebook and wished me.


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♥ Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Last Saturday, my dad and younger brother went fishing together with one of his friend while mummy and I went shopping.  
That night, my brother arranged to go cycling with me the next day and said we haven’t gone out together for a long time.
I agreed without suspecting anything.

 On Sunday, I woke up at 6am for my morning jog. 
In the afternoon, I went to Serangoon to get some stuff with dad and was late to meet my brother due to the bus delay. We end up going out for dinner together. Then my mum and brother were discussing something without wanting to let me know. Then I knew something was going on.

 We headed to central for dinner. Then my brother was looking around and then at his phone. Then, we went up the overhead bridge to get to the other side. A lady wearing shades appeared in front of us laughing. I immediately recognized that laughter. It’s Jia Yi. She was wearing shades because she just had her lasik done.

 We talked over dinner and hang around at the Community Centre hall. A short and nice meet up.

 I didn’t expect that we will continue to stay in contact even that she’s so far away. We meet up every year when she comes back. I miss those times we spent together in Secondary school. She brought a lot of laughter to my secondary school life. Even one of the teachers realized the change in me after she left to study in another school.

 I don’t stay I contact with a lot of friends. The usual ones are N678 and a handful of poly friends. That’s all. I didn’t get to meet the guzheng-ers although we each time said we should meet when we meet one another on the streets, because no one actually plan it. I’m comfortable with my colleagues but we never went out together. Except going for company events together and hang out at the 8th floor after work.

 I was sent on an assignment to one of the company under my company’s group. I was there for 2 weeks plus. The people there are generally nice. But I don’t know why I don’t feel comfortable there. Probably because of was some “war” between them previously. I just can’t wait to be back in my own office.

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♥ Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Last Sunday was the State funeral of our Singapore founding Father, Lee Kuan Yew.
He passed away on 23 March 2015. The first thing that came to mind was that he wouldn't be able to celebrate SG50 NDP with us. If you did realized over the years, the cheers were the loudest the moment he appeared during NDP.
7 days of national mourning, our flag flew at half mast.
The usual television schedules make way for programmes and coverage related to LKY and how he led to build our nation. Back then, I only knew that he was our former prime minister and learned a bit about him in Social Studies, However, watching those made me learnt more and realized how much more he did for our country.
Over the past week, Singaporeans queued hours to pay their last respect to Mr Lee at the Parliament House. Even though it was up to eight/ten hours, even in the humid weather. During that period, shops that was along the stretch of queue offered drinks and seats FOC to those people in queues. Strangers distributed umbrellas, food and drinks to those in the queue. People cared about one another.

The skies were gloomy, saddened by the leaving of a great man.
I sat in front of the tv and watched the live telecast of the state funeral.
His descendants walked in the rain.
Although the rain was pretty heavy, Singaporeans still formed a long queue, from the Parliment house to University Cultural Centre, stood by and wait just to pay their final respect to him. They threw petals and called out "Lee Kuan Yew", "LKY", "Thank You."
Many cried, some sang our nation song.
When I heard eulogies, especially from his sons and grandsons calling him "Papa" and "Yeye", it reminded me that although he was a great leader he was also someone's family member. The nation lost him, his family too. But he will always be remembered.
I feel really sad, like I had something stuck in the chest, but I didn't cry.

Over that period, there were also videos of him and his wife.
Reading it makes one really envy.
He kissed his deceased wife in her casket.
I remember my mum told me my grandpa hugged grandma before he took his last breathe and he lay down peacefully that my mum though he slept.
If only more guys were responsible and devoted like them.


Although LKY had left us, but as long as Singapore is united, we will not fall.



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♥ Saturday, February 23, 2013

I was looking though the list of post and I saw this post which was unpost under draft Y2009.
I didn't remember where I got it from.

September
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.


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♥ Thursday, February 7, 2013

Haven't been blogging.
Still don't dare to access my blog on web.
It's probably one of the Widgets that is affected but I dunno which.

Anw life have been quite normal.
Everyday work.
But so far the work is still manageable.
Just that my memory is not that good and sometimes got to consult my senior a few times.
She is really nice and would explain to me nicely.
But I think I'm quite irritating asking the same thing again and again.

Anw, the employees each received one kg of bakua for chinese new year!
And I heard there is buffet on Wednesday when we come back to work after cny public holiday.

2 more days to Chinese new year Eve.
I kinda look forward to it.
The gatherings and the ang paos!
But I wonder how this year chinese new year would be like.
Many things have changed.
When I was younger, I get to meet my cousins often as we used to go to our grandparents place often.
Now we hardly meet.
Except during special occasions.

Used to meet up often with Vanessa because we were in the same school and we get to work together for a period of time.
But now I'm working and she's working and she has got a boyfriend too.
Sometimes, I wish we were still schooling at TP and could go for our weekly jog together.
I got fatter already =(

Last week watched Ah Boys to Men 2 with N678.
Great movie.
I laughed throughout the movie.

Haven't been talking much or meeting up with my close friends.
Probably because we got busier.
I have been talking to people I'm not so close with.
Sometimes I get irritated talking to them, which I don't know why, and just don't feel like continuing talking to them. But of course not directly or obviously showing them I don't wanna talk to them.

Tmr's friday!
And I think there wouldn't be much people in the office.
Because some of the malaysian employees took leave to return to Malaysia to spend CNY with their family.
How I wish that we would receive an email from the HR tomorrow to tell us we could go back earlier.




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