oh man!

monday is here once again.
0830hr shuttle service madness.
just like that (except the driver and students not as happy):


report due in less than 1 week's time.
haven't started.

project discussion tomorrow.
haven't read up.

somebody please please push me.
i've lost the momentum to study ever since the last poly exam.
perhaps after CE paper?

up till now, no sense of urgency and no moooood to study and do my work.
jia lat jia lat.
this spells disaster.
and the worse thing is i THINK tests are nearing.
see, i DO NOT even know.
dooms day nearing i think.
i THINK...

haven't been this pessimistic before.
nothing seems right.

i am losing myself.
i see a huge change in me.
anyone see it?

it's scary you know.
and i still hate school.

3rd week of school

omg, i am sick.
sometimes i feel super weak. ultimate weakling.

and i realised everyone's complaining about school.
how sian school is, their new found friends, etc etc.
but mainly the sian-ness that is there EVERYDAY.

totally agree with this statement.

skipped school today, was feeling not-so-well.
heng today's lectures not so heavy, if not sure miss alot.
feeling terrible from inside out.
coughing and sniffing like there's no tomorrow.

really so sian. but what to do?
no certificate no future.
but having one doesn't guarantee success in the future.
and most of us are trying so hard to get it.
life is tough, that's all i can say.

after all that rants, we still have to go to school.
contradicting isn't it? D:

First week of school

so super sian.

lecture theatres.
lectures.
canteen food.
new found friends.
notes printing.
rotting in the library.
multiple breaks in between.
shuttle bus rides.
long journeys.

all these summarised my first week of school.

The 9th of August

The 9th of August is a holiday.
we don't have to go to school, we all can play.
I'm dressed in my best, especially for today...
HIP HIP HURRAY, it's our national day!
so we sing,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

i used to sing this for 6 yrs in primary school.
and yet many people never hear of this song...
after i attempted to sing for david and stella during lecture break.
they really think i'm weird.

i went somewhere near kallang theatre to see fireworks with family at night.
failed attempt again.
thought was a great spot.
but daddy told me he was merely trying his luck, never been there before.
wah.
in the end saw fireworks, but like, small lah.
i think watch from television nicer, the camera man will zoom and focus for audience.

tried to take a photo of the fireworks, failed again.
no idea how to use the right mode.
in the end like blurred images.

failed. (doesn't it look like a speck of dust on a black background?!)

ahhhhh never mind, just watch. haha.

quite nice. for once, a decent photo taken. hahaha

and last one:

(note: the pair of eyes behind belong to my mum. quite funny. haha)

D:

I feel so lost now, that school is going to start after national day.
I know i shouldn't complain.
many things went on, driving lessons, weight loss programme, school matters, and enjoying my last bit of hols doing nothing.

i can't run away from industrial attachment this time round.
oh man.
my monday schedule is crazy.
oh no.
school starts on 11 AUGUST!
jia lat.

to all starting school: ENJOY WHILE WE CAN!