haiz...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

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School has been really tough this week. Basically, my mind is too preoccupied with school homeworks and revisions and etc. Frankly speaking, they're like 1001 things to be done and I'm about to go insane. I don't knoe how long i can hold on and not lose my sanity but at times like this, I need a lot of moral support and strength to live this complicated life. In addition to that, my grandmother fell sick a week ago. I know her conditionis major, serious and critical and I know she is suffering inside. I know she is a strong woman but that can be scary too. She's too strong that she's able to hide the pain she's suffering inside and that is a worrying case. I knoe she's a good person and doesn't want my uncles,my aunties,my mom to worry bout her but she she shouldn't be doing that at this point of time. She should, by right, shares her tears and woes so that we would be able to know what she feels and do what we can. I feel bad...I feel really bad...for not having the bloody time to visit her everyday after school...Sometimes I feel like I'm too selfish...SOmetimes i feel like I only care about myself....i wanted her to get well...i want her to be happy and she might not know this. I could only pray and hope that u get well soon.I pray that u will be strong and pray that god will give u the strength and will to live. I'm sorry...i will visit u this saturday...it's heartbreaking/it's a really sad situation... walau apa pun jua, saya harap tuhan akan memberi nenek kesabaran dan keimanan dalam menempuh ujian hidup ini......

there are a lot of things that i would like to do but am not able to do so due to the hectic schedule..huh...im seriously in no mood to write anything else rite now...i better finish all my homework and i gotta go pray....tata

tired n unsure,uncertain....

The week of holiday is ending. Time flies really fast like lightning flashing in the sky.I seriously don't want the week to end but being a vulnerable and useless human being, i cannot do anything to stop the clock from ticking or turn back the time. Trust me, I wish I could. I rather not brag about how time flies, cos by doing so, more time will be gone and before i knew it, it will only be a few seconds for school to start. Anyway, the week has been fine for me although i have to admit that the days are not put to good use since i wasn't feeling well most of the time and all i managed to do is watching TV and sleep and playing computer, and not forgetting , resting! oh yeah, plenty of rest, I have. Ok, so , there are lots of homeworks to be done and i haven't done a single thing except for GP(err.. well ...if ur considered most of the questions in the comprehension answered were nonsense and full of crap a piece of work, then i guess, ive done most of them)
Times like this, i really wish I was a genius so that i would be able to think fast and hence, all my homeworks would be completed on time.I mean, some of the work required you to use ur thinking skills ...(to me, thinking is hard work and i'm not a good thinker AT ALL, neither am i knowledgeable nor wise nor creative and i don't read a lot) . I wish i would be more hardworking and read a lot. I wish my brain has a great capacity to absorb all the informations that I've read and put it into good use so that when we were discussing about world affairs or current issues, I would not feel stupid and left behind and am able to share with everyone my thoughts, opinions about certain things in class. I wish I have something good to say to everyone and boy, I wish I am articulate!yeah, I know, that was a wishful thinking on my part!
I'm sleepy and exhausted . The thing that i really want to do is lie on the bed and hug my pillow really tight and fall into sleep. that would be so tempting! But no, i shouldn't do that. Does anyway of u have any idea what I can do to get rid of this sleepiness of mine and man, I have a lot of things to memorise! I only wish for ONE thing,I really HOPE and WISH i manage to stay awake all night! heck yeah, that's a difficult task!

I missed all of them....i REALLY do!

I didn't go to school just now.we were supposed to attend the 'cca or club thingy' or whatever heck they called but i decided to skip it cos i was unwell and i feel really restless and everything is like so mendak gitu...i knoe i knoe it's lame! well...guess school has been ok so far! I think i managed to adapt myself to the new environment quite well...and i don't suffer from "MISS-MY-FORMER-SCHOOL-BADLY" syndrome anymore when i came to the new school... sure i missed a lot of things about my former school but life still has to go on whatever it is...I miss being around with my classmates and eat breakfast in the class while waiting for the teacher to enter for his or her lesson....i miss crapping and joking with my friends...i miss looking and admiring little cute juniors in my school from far.....i miss sleeping during the lessons....i miss not paying attention the lessons....miss all the teachers!!i miss laughing at the teachers with my friends at the back seat while he or she is conducting the lesson....i miss doing unnecessary stuff in the class while the teacher is teaching in front...i miss listening to songs from my handphone while the teaching is busy marking or teaching or doing her stuff!!(in my new school, ur not even allowed to bring handphones to school!)I miss my school's canteen food , I miss sleeping, haing a picnic, playing bingos, talking about crappy and nonsensical stuff with my friends during maths lesson...i miss complaining about every single thing about the school with my friends....I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT MY SCHOOL!! ok enuff oready...bye!

Kids nowadays....

Looking at my sister surfing the net and doing so-callled a-cute-research for her science project or assignment or homework or whatever she called it is a very fun and interesting things to do. The wonder of technology is so amazing that even 8 years old kids are attracted to it....My 8 years old sister is busy chatting with her friend on the telephone and using the computer at the same time to do her science homework...they have to find out more about plants and her science teacher suggested that they used the internet as a source of information. so she was busy discussing with her friends about her science homework when i barged into the room and asked her to step out of the way..she scolded me and asked me to shup up ! She told me to back off or else...i dunno what! im not angry though cos it's always a cute thing when she gets all cranky and mad...
haha....I remembered my friend once told me that her cute,chubby and adorable 5-years-old niece has a frienster and surprisingly she was very popular. Lots of people added her and they wanted to be her friends. She got so many good comments from her-so-called "online fans",saying things like "you are soo cute and tiny" and etc..
heck yeah....everyday people added her and she got lots of photos on her friendster. Needless to say, they were all cute and stuff and damn...she really knows how to pose in every one of her pictures! THat 's what makes her stand out from everybody! No kidding!
I guess there are some diadvantages as well...technology can do u harm too if ur not cautious...that's y the mind of young people is easily corrupted nowadays...I guess influences are rampant and they're like everywhere...If we have the will to stay strong...they we probably won't succumb to temptations and fall into such traps!

YEAH dah beli baju!!

yeay...like finally....dapat jugk beli baju baru....its been ages since i bought myself a new one...so went to This fashion with Nini...we spent lots of our time there tapi stakat li satu baju ...one cute top and one cardigan!!everything in the shop is like so cantek!if only i had more money,i would buy all the clothes!!but it was quite expensive for me....baru bali cardigan and top ajedah $30+!!! at first ingtkn nk save money....abey tgk baju tu sumemcm cute aje...at last beli jugak...tkpelah skali skale...all my baju dah burok nk mampoz!!i feel like makcik2 wearing all those baju yg ader pat my wardrobe!!its just so burok lah!!ok dah....tk yah nk step cerewet lah kt sini!abeh dah happy dpt baju...gi makan kt Long john.....hmm....then ingat kn nk beli belt skali...ingatkn nk li murah2 nyer ...cam $8 nyer gitu...abeh tanaklah...i dont wanna spend all my $50!! but i seriously wanna go to THis fashion again nk li sluar ngar lagi satu cardigan ngar lagi satu top!!! but i hv no money...ade lah duet sikit kt bank!! tapi ...tanaklah spend tu sumer...save it for tomorrow...hmm...dah lah ...tgklah....
date kt atas salah eh....i wanna change my url tomorrow or maybe the day after tomorrow due to some reasons...
kk...tata