I just realised something cute abt myself today...I can actually nosebleed while writing my essays...which is abusrd cos....I HAVE NEVER EVEN EXPERIENCE NOSEBLEEDING WHEN I TRAIN...

hmmm...if im writing in black and white...my paper will prolly be stained in blood...then the marker might just award me more marks since i put in 'more effort'...haha...hmmm...idea

paints a picture of how these papers are leeching the very shit out of me...

Sigh...

Isn't it interesting how the lyrics of some songs fit the situation in ur life just tt instant? It just spells everything out.

You and I Both (Jason Mraz)

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
Now you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

You and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see now
Well I'm already finally out of

And it's okay if you have go away
Just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear it ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

You and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see now
Well I'm already finally out of words.

Anyone who is interested...just msn me, i'll be more than glad to send u...

driven by nuts

These few weeks are madness...MADNESS.

I nid a breather...soon.

:) :| :(

Fever running...but fighting it. Wishing there was more than 24 hrs a day so i can have a little break from all the hassle......and i tink i ought to start looking after myself.

There were days wen i felt hungry, sat down and tried to recall what i had for the previous meal...only to dawn that i had none for the day. Bad...bad...cos it just means i did not take my medication as well. Sucks.

I had a somewad better earlier week on weds wen i was offered an internship by some international pr company, fleishman and hillard. I'll prolly take it up some hols but the thing abt this short stints is that the pay is...wait a min...wad pay?

Rewind. Those days at espn and income were more fun and challenging than anything else. Still in touch with JJ with her recent church charity carnival at St.Teresa's and heard rumors that Clarice is finally expecting...I wonder how the folks r doing now...prolly missing my presence...haha...well i kind of miss them...

Dinner with hh. He was whining at the dining table saying that being luffed at almost everyday by 20 over ppl is bad for his growing up...tt he will be emotionally scarred for life....wad bullshit. Such good memories in sheares...babe magnet he is...phua qiqi+suai ge...i tink we haf our 2005 pageant couple gentlemen...muahahaha

I went swimming in the early afternn after tut...needed the sun and chlorine to disinfect the stress that i was put through this past week. I needed a break badly. Had a leisure dip then headed to central forum where life is finally teeming again with bazaars. eusoff hard at work. Bought a canon printer for pris and met geraldine and later emma and deb. The printer din come with a usb cable...doesn't make sense to me. I wonder which smart alec invented the lack of this..Oh haf i mentioned? The milo van is back in action. Their milo taste like heaven in the sweltering weather.

Happy 21st to both my sisties...they're prolly frolicking somewhere with their fwens in changi now. We have a chalet down at netheravon road...gona make a trip down to show some face before heading down to his memorial. I heard the whole gang is turning up. It's like the only time of the year whereby we all put our busy schedule aside to come together. I appreciate this sort of bonding. Max is flying back as well. High time tt punk tell us wad he's been up to.

This wkend...my heart bipolarified. Like every other yr. Like every other oct.

lets move on shall......we?

in a haste to quench my thirst
i knocked over the glass
only to spill all over
don't want to be crying over milk
but its difficult when it tastes this sweet
why are things so hard to do
when it comes to you

i miss her

Had a hot date with miss pris last fri to watch this rh production at ucc...our punctuality, sad to say, has never been a virtue, so the evening saw us bashing thru the whole mass of engin buildings trying to make the show. All this to support our dear ticketing heads at rh...but it was pretty enjoyable lar...

The play titled 'poppy' was quite entertaining...u can never go wrong with humor...the only downside was that the male lead had terrible vocals. Either that or it was prolly the 1st of the 3 performances they were stringing 2gether, hence the lacklustre display. Then again, he prolly sucked...which is really a pity cos he can actually act.

Met deb and gang as well. Apparently her boiboi was in ticketing oso...so she...ahem...had no choice but to show some support....haha...good to c her as goofy and upbeat as ever...

Bugged the service centre on my lappie...apparently my softwares din give up on me, it was my harddisk tt screwed up...so technically speaking, all the failed reformatting process i had put myself thru was basically a hair-pulling process...she'll be back in about 2 to 3 weeks...how neat is tt? I miss her.............

In kg's room with its master slogging it out at his studio...his desktop is mine...mine...fine, only for the night. Well...at least i have a terminal facing me now...i should count my blessings.

Something good will come my way soon...even if it doesn't, nothing worse can ruin my life at this pt in time...hah...optimistic me.

stabbed 4 times

My comp just crashed a record of 4 times. Gone are all my essays, research papers and pp sides and the bestest news is that most of them are due in a wk's time.

So much for the many sunrises ive caught for the past 2 weeks trying to do them properly. Foresee some frantic desperation? Neh.........

I'm just gona sit back, relax, sip some tea and watch the world go by......

choirbois united

Haven't been blogging the longest. Busy like hell.

I'm officially in sheares choir...Actually, I suspect all who went for audition got thru...it always helps with good company...my corner of peeps all qualified as well, adi, aaron and keguang...(i wonder if it has to do with us threatening gladys that if either one of us is out, the rest will boycott the show...)

the long wing is having the kick of terming us choirbois united as the CB corner...tmd...wait till we blow them away with our melodious voices...

I have a game on msn minesweepers with net last nite...or rather early this morning. Noob at the game but FINALLY managed to win a game with a stroke of luck...(finally)...man it was a close one. 26vs25. Bloody tyco on the last flag.

Finally started to pick up the pace of gaming in hall after such a long break. I remember those times when me and adi ate and breathed cs. The spirit of gaming seem to have taken a toil with all the yr2s mugging away even when the finals are still pretty much out of sight. Though feeling abit 'insecure' hanging out with karan, the coolest bollywood hunk ard (cos he basically games,sleeps and eat ONLY) and occasionally adi in those cybermaps, life has been slightly more eventful in the room.

IPPT's this sun. So fun. Can't wait to get it over and done with. The monetary awards will do me alot of good in these cash-stricken times. I need the 400 bucks...desperately...

Toking about running. Attended our sh25 run yesterdae...originally a 5km run, me and liang liang decided to venture abit more and attempted a 8km run down south bouna vista...had a crazy badminton session thereafter and witnessed adi the maestro flaunting his superior racket skills and net... her ger/guy power at the expense of me and hatta...oh haf i mentioned?...hatta did a spectacular backflip when tripping over himself when returning a shot......boy...tt was funny...the embarrassed look on his face...was..........priceless...:P

I slept at 8 this morn...only to arrive late for my proj discussion which is like happening now...(i look like i'm involved lar) evil me...

Oh man, they're gona stay overnight to complete the research assignment. And i'm the only one who has accomodation on campus...should i? or should i not?..........................

lest i fear

sombre is the night
that resides in
the hearts of those
who surround me
lest i fear that
tonight would be like another day,
another screaming tomorrow.

wingless birds

start today thinking everything that is impossible is now possible, and everything that is possible is now impossible.

men can fly, but birds are rooted to the ground.

think of the possibilities.

k drama

Sprawling on my living room floor trying to get my mind to focus on leeching any worthy facts from my pile of reseach papers...only to fall prey to the most unlikely thing on the screen......a Korean drama show...im so ashamed of myself.

I remember how i condemned those japanese and korean dramas during the craze cos the Japs apologise and kneel too easily and the Koreans cry too much.

This show dun exactly rock but the character the female lead plays is so alluring. The role those korean actresses play are quite the standard...u know...they like to act strong, play hard to get, always emotionally confused and are weak in the inside...and when they do feel down, it always helps with the soppy weather, and then she gets drenched and weeps at the same time...sad man. And the guys are all of the sudden, job ignorant...their lives revolve only ard their love interest. And of cos the world seem to suffer from a severe lack of women. All the guys seem to fall for only one lady and so coincidentally...the same one. Rivalry adds to the occasional emotional fist punches. And it helps if either the female or male lead is terminally ill or something. Standard story line.

Is my new-found inclination towards k drama signifying a change in my character? NOOOooooo......shitt...

wadeva...

Someone signed me up for some wine-for-idiots course. Supposed to come in handy durin my sep. Feeling tortured cos i got like even more readings to do. And there's like a gazillion types of wines...and the billion mtds to consume them..

So morale of today's story...I'm turning more sissy and learning to be more cultured. Neat huh?

Btw, the k show is called 'summer scent' and for those staying in sheares...pls dun start poking fun at me again bcos of the title cos it ain't funny liao...

is it time to go?

6am in the morning. Buried under piles of books. Keep me sane pls.

if only there was something left to give
to make it seem worthwhile,
to make material of this mess,
but there is nothing else,
and i have nothing else.
will you hear this gentle voice
and fill my world with colourful emotions,
or will you give me absence,
leaving me a mile of sorrows?

i shan't ask
and i shan't want,
for there's nothing more perfect than you.
how i pine and long for any day other than today.
i have become a gargoyle of the night,
a grey against grey.