what will you do?

someday we will learn through the hard way and it's never going to be easy, it's tough, it's hard, it's painful, it's torturing and not only that..

we realize, hey fuck shit this is going to happen again someday and again i'm in for this fuck shit and you realize what the shit you should do but you feel so tired and all burnt out.

you say to yourself fuck this shit, settle tomorrow then and when tomorrow comes, you think and say, hey it's over let's prevent this from happening in future and you let it all slip.

someday the exact same shit will happen again and the exact same cycle will take place and everything will fall back into it's place to recreate this whole new pain filled, mind fucking and heart torturing experience that you once went through.

so what are you going to do this time?

what are you going to do when it happen again?

what are you going to do when it all breaks down, crushes everything that you built since day one till now,

what are you going to do?

OR-D

my service period is reaching an end,
now gotta be my all time low for this "career".

how many times had i ponder to put my name above the dotted line.
just so i can get a car
just so i can afford more stuff
just so i can have a stable life
and
just so that i can create bonds that-i feel-will always last.

many a times, we take the simple way out
staying in our comfort zone
not willing to venture out to see
what's out there for us.

not saying that regulars are not adventurous or stuff
it's just me.

someday i wanna make it big.
but being a regular
i can't imagine me being big.
haha.

there's so much to consider
before signing on the dotted line.
i really do respect and admire those who
did sign and did their due diligence or
their part as a regular but for some
that are just there
not doing their part, not giving their all
nor putting in effort in their job,
i would like to say, F off
and stop wasting tax payers money.
there's nothing wrong with the organization but something
seriously wrong with the people.
i feel so fucked up for them when i think of them.

The longer a person stays in an organization
the more things the person is able to see.

i've seen quite a lot within this two years
for sure, i've learnt a lot.
but how many of these lesson will follow me
through out my whole life?
how many of this lesson are applicable for my future,
depends.

i guess, i've got to note down so as to allow me to remember
my wonderful 2 years of service,
i shall find one good day to pen down all the
big hooha that i went through and all the lessons
that i've learnt, so as to remind myself in future
not the make the same mistakes
and at times to draw experience from incidents
to prevent future happenings.

there's a lot of people i wanna thank.
but a thank you will only last for that second,
but a friend made and remembered,
will be a lifetime.

OR-D lo. :D

what happen and what not?

i loaded the video thinking that we can watch it together but that didn't happen.

want me to know how you feel?

how i hope you know how i felt.

stucked

i got something to tell but i don't know how.
somethings to discuss but i don't know how
cause at the end of the day i know...
i'm on the losing end, so what's the point?

What a week, went through lots of planning sessions
had a lot running in my mind this whole week
regarding work, studies and future work and more.

came the weekends but...
sadly, i had to spend my sat in camp. hahaha
it was an experience, not everyone has
and the learning points will always stay
with me for the rest of my time.

i strongly believe
one place where bonds are made will never be broken
through hardwork, tekan session,
chiong sua and time wasted waiting and talking cock in bunk.
a place where i call "home" for now. hahaha

i spend my sunday thinking about a lot of things
mixed feelings inside of me.

when can we find a point where there's a balance?
whenever i thought we reached a balance point,
comes a situation to forcefully
make me think again.

"compromise is not possible" Hitler said.

i need time again. bye guys.

*Its all the angry and sad times*
*that makes the HAPPY times*
*extra extra sweet*

memories

memories here are special.
from the day i start blogging till today, so much to fill
and so much to say.

i shall start blogging again whenever i'm free :)
my feelings and all will be poured
all out!

but before anything i will for sure talk to my gf,
so she knows she's more important then a blog. keke.

for today, i just wanna kick start this blog again,
a ribbon cutting thingy.. so.. here we go. :)'





DONE! :D
shall head out for supper with my lovely cousins now.
so, good bye and good night fellas!


*Its all the angry and sad times*
*that makes the HAPPY times*
*extra extra sweet*

so much.... so much...

we had so much to look forward to.
we had so much to offer.



*Its all the angry and sad times*
*that makes the HAPPY times*
*extra extra sweet*

words?

can words really bring someone to a new high?


*Its all the angry and sad times*
*that makes the HAPPY times*
*extra extra sweet*