SuMMer EuRoTriP ' 07

i'm going to frankfurt to meet qilah n his fiancee...gonna stay there for 3 days... then heading to cologne to meet jaybond, another farisian guy tat i knew.... afta tat... Barcelona, Madrid, Lisbon, Rome n Venice... semoga perjalanan ku ini dipermudahkan.... ameen...

happY BirtHday n HaPpy anNiveRsarY

birthday boy, me n our lil' baby...

28th june..... e most unforgettable day in ma whole life.... regardless of wut others may say, i'd like to dedicate tis entry specially for my dearest love.... happy 23rd burfday.... n happy 4th anniversary to both of us.... i love u so much darling........

that's my homemade choc cake... u'r already 23 dear...

I aM CoMInG Back HoME

I am coming back home

I been a long time away from home

I travel al around the world

I saw beautiful things in different places of the world

The world is big

It has many places to visit

The world is round

I feel safe in my home

I feel so good at home

I am glad to be back after a long time away

The beautiful paints hang in the wall

The paints on the wall give my living room that special touch

It is nice to go away on a holiday

Then come back rested from it

I need a holiday sometime

I need to spread my wings and fly away

FrEE liKe A BirD

yeah.... my 5th year of being a medical student has come to e end.... well, as i can say i finished my exam already, so glad i did my best n i'm so proud of my own potential.... thanks Allah for giving me such a bright mind n intellect, thanks to all my dear... mak, along, kaka, kak in, abg. ala, adeq, abg izan, abg ucok, abg fami.... u guys are way too great... always there when i'm in vain n need....

so since my lectures, practical n exam session ended already, i went out today to get sum fresh air n enjoy e moment like being a bird... so free, flying here n there.... my first destination was novi cheremushki, it's a big electrical and electronical appliances centre where u can find most of e old fashion n latest handphone, digicam n wutsoever.... bought a digicam for my beloved sis, it was quite a bargain... hope she'll be happy n will take good care of e camera ....

afta that, we took metro to leninsky prospekt.... went to NIKE n PUMA discount center which is just 15 minute walking distance... not much interesting there but i grabbed a jersey written LUKOIL in russian alphabet, red in colour... that gonna b a perfect gift for my big brother... then went to FAMILIA, e best place if u wish to save money n buy thing for a very good low price... i was so attempted at all e scarf hanging there, since kaka told me tat she n the 3 daughters (inani, aqilah n alimah) want tudung, i decided to buy them beautiful russian made tudung...n not being forgotten... oso a scarf for hannan's mother....

cz it's still early, then we just took a bus heading to e most popular perfume and cosmetics store yet selling goods at e cheapest price.... ARBAT PRESTIJ, located only 2bus stop distance.... bought RED DELICIOUS "for him' by DKNY, tis one for my brother in law, Abg Fami.... LACOSTE pink for my sister kaka to be shared with her husband, since abg ucok doesn't care wut perfume it is as long as e perfume smells good.... n for my love who gonna celebrate his 23rd birthday on tis June 28th, i specially bought him eau de toilette BURBERRY.... purposely give e present early to him so tat 'll be e first person who wish him.... can't let other people especially girls to wish him first.... hehe, joking....

done with the shopping, we straight away took a taxi to our beloved hostel..... n for e dinner, we had plain basmathi rice with telur dadar, japanese cucumber n budu.... feel like at home.....

Just A Guy's tHoUGht

my perfect match... tq sayang 4 being so understanding

tis is actually a bulletin in e frenster, a fren of mine express his thought by writing in e bulletin so tat he can share wit others.... n i loves tis bulletin a lot as i can say....

you might agree with it,

but when it actually happens

96%of girls dont realize it

'til it is too late and....

that guy who did it is so frustrated

that he has moved on to some one who will take notice....

From a guy's point of view....

We don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us,

yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes

without evenacknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls you,

but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/stunning,

we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.

One of the sexiest thing about a girl is her confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.Don't be mad when we hold the dooropen.

Take Advantage of the mood i'm in. let us pay for you! dont "feel bad"about it We enjoy doing it. It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you.

"Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody'slooking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place,

you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have

or put on every kind ofmakeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.

or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See thebeauty in it.

Don't get angry easily. Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott MorrisChesnutt, Brad Pitt,

or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.

It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word"handsome"/"beautiful"Girls,

I cannot stress this enough:

if you aren't being treated right by a guy,

dont't wait for him to change. ditch him.

sorry,,disgrace to the male population ass

and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel,

or what you do.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....

and say"i love you" ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a

Tips for the less experienced:

*Holdin Hands

Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.

Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

*Cuddling

Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold

Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

*Movies

Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder

Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other

Guys : When she tells you she loves you,look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

*Laying below the stars

Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat

Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

but e thing is if u guys get concerned if some other guys happen to call us at 2am,

girls not only get concerned but we feel like... killing u man if we know tat u talk, call, chat n wutsoever with another girls ard 2 am....it's like.... "humm... u'r making up wit other girls huh!! hate u!!!!" ( tis is wut we girls think about)....

but u guys can't get mad on us cuz tis is perfectly girls/woman nature... if u guys can't understand all other thing bout girls, but tis one always put on mind... plsss ... we'r so jealous n stingy.... we don wanna share ur love with others.... we'r too scared of being fooled n cheated... n never ever ask us 'WHY????"... we got no answers for u... Allah The Almighty knows best.....

al-Fatihah....

Most any man can father a child for this we know is true, but to be a good dad there's a whole lot more for all these men to do.They have to have strength to endure long days even though their bodies be tired, the love in their hearts has to show in their eyes to the child who so admires.They have to show honesty through each day and show that life is worth living, they have to show caring in all they do in taking and in giving.Understanding has to be a big part of the father's heart as well, and though he feels pain or hurts at times he may never, never tell.They have a great laughter that shows in their eyes and comes rolling from within, to light up the faces of each little child as each day draws to an end.Hopes for today, Dreams for tomorrow is what they must keep showing, and though they grow old they still feel great joy, for the love of their children keeps growing.

N i knew my father was really a true father.



buat ayahanda tersayang... semoga rohmu dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan insan2 yang bertaqwa.... al_Fatihah....



SELAMAT HARI BAPA .....



called mom yesterday n she reminds me of father's day today... i miss u dad...

counting e days

The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of.

"Blaise Pascal"

I hold it true,
whate'er befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; 'Tis better to have loved and
lost Than never to have loved at all.

it's 2 in e morning, was very2 sleepy earlier but now i'm in front of my desktop... not in e mood of doing anything, just feel like gonna hav sum rest... been studying e whole evening n i think tis is e reason y i'm too tired n lack of motivation now.... one more paper to go... It's Obstetrics & Gynaecology but tis one not just normal exam but really tough since tis is government exam.... i have to struggle hard to get e best mark... not to show off, not for anything or anyone.... but just for my own satisfaction.... God willing.... InsyaAllah... Ameeen...

" Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

sorry my dear diary.... it's been a little while since i last write here.... though e class n lectures had finished doesn't mean i got time to enjoy,.... well for God sake it's study week...... got 5 exam tis semester... 2 done already during e posting... n last friday just settle one more paper, the apidemiology and infectious disease.... still got 2 more papers ahead.. clinical medicine on tis 13th, while OnG gonna b on 18th... a lot more to read and to b mastered.... will try my very best so tat 'll not regret at e end.... all e best to me and all my frens...

my sweetheart

sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga

for almost 2 years in every summer back home in malaysia, i suffered from tis kind of skin disease or oso known as eczema.... It is not a common type of eczema tat i knew, but seriously killing me since tis kind of eczema at first only shows tiny blisters (vesicles) deep in the skin, which look like sago grains or frog-spawn, associated with itching and a burning feeling, but later and more chronic stage shows more peeling, cracking, or crusting.... and yeerrrks... my fingers looks terrible and disgusting.... feel so malu to show and shake hands with people cz people might think tis is mycotic infection or kurap.... means me as a virgin, doesn't practise hygienic care properly....

really disappoint me.......

tis year, summer pop up very early in moscow and e weather is like u'r not sumwhere around north pole.... 34 C.... but tis is not e main thing.... my biggest problem ever happen again, and even worse.... for 2weeks the blisters deep-seated in my skin.. while sum bump out of the skin.... i didn't prick e blisters, gonna see wut will happen next but still they start to form clusters and then crack and crust.... my fingers are just like e bark of e trees....

then i start browsing net till finally find sumthing tat resembles mine.... and tis eczema is actually called pompholyx or dishydrotic eczema.... as some investigators consider pompholyx is caused by abnormal sweating, i myself might say they are right.... since childhood, i've experienced excessive sweating of my hands and legs....( fingers, palms, and soles)... tis condition is called hyperhydrosis.... yes, i'm a salamander.... (cz my frens in highschool said so).....

anyway, if u think u'r unlucky.. there's always somebody tat suffers more than u.... and it's true cz in my case i only suffers from cheiropompholyx.... means only my hands involves in e process while my legs remains intact....

Didn't we almost have it all..... Grey's Anatomy...

i had been very busy since last sunday.... hannan's uncle came all e way fr msia to moscow to attend an International Waste-Tech Expo.... so basically we spent our days n nights from sunday till thursday with e uncle tat's a.k.a Ayah Su... e best thing is tis visit happened 2b at e most perfect time, since we finished our class session for tis semester on tuesday... so got plenty of time to bring them around moscow..... we managed to bring them to all e most interesting place in moscow... (red square + kremlin n st.basil, VDNKh park, victory park, blue mosque n red mosque, e old and new arbat street, tverskaya street, pushkin square, e stunning 100th yrs old shop, walk along e most expensive street... cuci mate tgk boutique LV, Escada, Dior, n sume jns brand mahal lah.... eat at the halal Gandhara restaurant, cruise along moscow river... n alot more)

so today afternoon, watched my fav tv-show... the grey's anatomy...


PRESTON: "Cristina, I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there, in sickness and in health. I could say till death do us part. But I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I am steady. I'm a heart man. Take 'em apart, put 'em back together, hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this, I am sure. You are my partner. My lover. My very best friend. My heart. My heart beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you... me."

but in e end of tis series, e wedding is over.... BUrke n cristina didn't get married... wut a pity... n i was crying.... i'm afraid but i donno y,....