Suck Thumb & Die

Some times, just leave your baggage behind, let your past go, then perhaps we'll be a happier person. I don't know why but I keep thinking of the times we spent together. I can even relate the movies that I watch to what happened between us. Its sad how things turn out, but nevermind, cos if that's what you really want, then I'll just have to accept it.

I'm going for a camp. To a place which brought me two different kind of feelings. One is when I really fear and have a phobia of. All the punishments, PT, activities (that im afraid of) and just the feeling of being out of my comfort zone. Another feeling is when I feel all excited to meet my friends, have all the fun stuff together, no restrictions, and be the one that dominates the events. But now, I'm going to meet my fears all over again.

I think people play a big part of whatever you do. The words they say can really pierce through my delicate heart. Their actions they do can really hurt whatever that is left of me. Hence, a big part of why I'm not enjoying the things that I do or are happening in my life now is because of the people. But I'm glad I do have some that call themselves my friends. And I'm proud of them.

Too bad, life is just the way it is.
Suck thumb and die.

The Most True of The Lot

I'm the biggest sucker when it comes to love and relationships.

Random. But True

1. Return what is not yours. Its not nice to keep things hanging.

2. I'm confused.

3. I don't want to hurt people's feelings, but in the end, I end up hurting myself.

4. I'm sick of camp life. I don't want to be a trainee anymore.

5. I'm trying to find a new goal in life.

6. Sometimes life is just complicated the way it is.

7. I think I feel happiest alone, but also miserable when I'm too alone.

8. I think Aquarius are cool. Because I'm one. We have rather unique characteristics.

9. I want to get a Blackberry Bold.

10. If there's one thing I could do now, I want to make time pass faster.

11. I completed Block 1 successfully.

12. I'm looking forward to being the best in shooting.

13. I think girls are really weird creatures.

14. Boys are really worse than girls when it comes it bitching and gossiping.

15. I think older/mature girls are really more attractive.

It's My Life

I haven't exactly been updating this space about what's happening to me in my current life. So let me do so by telling you what I've been doing.

1. Training has been starting to change. Not so mundane anymore. Wake up, PT, lessons, lessons, sleep. This time round, we've been doing other things, which makes time past slightly faster. However, the time spent as a recruit/trainee has been way too long. Its really tiring and I'm really sick of training life. By May or June hopefully, I'll be able to get out of there and finally see the real world out there. Tests (law test and scenario based test) is coming up real soon. After that, finally entering Block 2 phase and hopefully start my range soon so that we can go out for attachment.

2. My love life. Hahahaha. Just know its there, yet not there totally.
But I'm happy with her, so that's all that matters =)

3. Family. Nothing much. Just that we have been happier together and less quarrels than before. Which is a good things. Except that I haven't seen my sister for a really long time. And I miss her.

4. Friends. Hmm.. Nothing much about them because most of them don't wanna talk to me. So they're like almost non existant in my life at the moment. Are they really that busy or are they really so ignorant? Sigh.

If you realised that points 2 - 4 is very short. That's because training has taken up 5/7 of my life. Hahaha. That's how lifeless I am now with training almost everyday of my life. But I really do want to complete it ASAP. I don't regret joining, even if I did, I have a principle to stop me from doing that. But I'm rather contented with what I have now. Oh, and I don't miss school one bit. Hahaha!

That's all folks.

Happy Bunny New Year

Here, wishing everyone of you out there.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!