Anxiety is your Enemy

I stepped in the hall with a calm mind.
Everything was practically fine, until the clock starts clicking.
Anxiety was all over me once I penned the first character on to my answer sheet.
It has never occur once before, for the past few papers.
I am not able to think, everything seems so unaccustomed, questions which I thought I could easily pull it through was an impediment for me to excel.

I can feel my heartbeat beating furiously, so vigorously such that I could not write properly. I tried my best to do what I can do. It is really 'enlightening' to experience such rare occurrences.

Now I know, anxiety is bad, is evil. We shall not be overwhelmed by its power, the power that we belittle them, thought that they are insignificant, in fact, they control our sub-conscious mind.

Right...why did i feel nervous today?
Every problem has its own reasons and roots, all caused by whom, nobody but yourself.
After reflecting quite deeply, I realised that I slept late last night, to finish up the bit of revision that I deemed to be important. Lack of sleep, period. Besides, I did not take proper meals. In fact, I skipped breakfast because I wanted extra time to study for Biology in school, I skipped lunch because there is nobody to accompany (was mugging alone in reading room), ended up eating cereal with milk for tea. And, I only ate a bit for dinner as the food yesterday was totally inedible, seriously. I deduced that it might be an indirect source of the nervousness due to lack of nutrients which affected by nervous system.

I shall learn from what i did wrong, and try not to place myself in such situation as it waste my effort for mugging so hardly when I ended up doing not up to expectations.

Anxiety.
I'm cheered up! and shall have some good rest before proceeding to work on my next paper tomorrow.

Mid Autumn Festival

It was really really fun today.
HOWEVER!
IT WOULD BE MUCH MORE FUN IF MY CLASSMATES WERE THERE!
IT IS NOT NICE BEING ALONE!

Luckily, some of my Malaysian Scholar Friends were there to accompany me at the later part of the event. We were 'zi-highing' almost at the end of the event.

If I could, I would choose to come back next year. Hope people whom I know to go back to. LOL.

I am tired... =)

Exam Papers

All my examination papers are very horrible.
Once I left the examination venue, I knew, I did very badly.
I am not disappointed about the grades that I would get as I know grades are not that important. But, I feel disappointed in myself because I could have disappointed the high expectations of my teachers. There is no single paper which I stepped out of the venue and said : 'yeah! I can get at least a B.' It is quite worrying now.

But, not to worry too soon, I am somewhat lucky as I still have chances to compensate for the papers at least, for those subjects that we still have some papers left. All I have to do is to score as much as possible to make a comeback, probably at least a C, I hope.

Tomorrow is Chemistry, and I know, I can do it.
Hopefully.
I guess the upcoming weekend will be my mugging spree!

Good Morning!

It is 7am in the morning.
It is raining quite heavily with thunderstorm and all.
The lightnings were really bright, and the sound was very loud.

You need to be aware of what others are doing, applaud their efforts, acknowledge their successes, and encourage them in their pursuits. When we all help one another, everybody wins.

-- Jim Stovall

National + Teachers D-Day!

Yesterday was the National Day for Malaysia!

Happy National Day, Malaysia!
Merdeka!



Did not really celebrate this time round.
Merdeka!!
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Today is Teachers' Day!
Wish all teachers all the best!

=D