It's been a year since...

It's been a year since I quit SQ.

Apart from the pay, I am really happier. Although flying made me a more carefree person, i didn't get any satisfaction. I miss my friends there, i miss flying together w Adrian, i miss sleeping in.

But I guess history can hardly repeat itself. We've all moved on to do something new.

I'm in be in the dark typing this post.

I can't sleep cos there's something on my mind.

It's puzzling why one's mind worries so much- esp at night when one is alone, tired and retired in bed.

I'm thinking about my future.

I was studying earlier in the day and plotting out my life-line from now till (possibly) 80.

i told myself that I wanted to have a million dollars by 30. Thought about it, and changed that age to 35 instead.

then again, by 35, there are so many other things I want.

I hope to settle down with the guy of my dreams, go on holidays every year, have 2-3 children…

HOW AM I POSSIBLY GONNA SAVE $1mill by 35.

Aside to money, the thought of settling with 'a guy' provokes me.

What if the guy never comes.

It feels like every guy I meet, I don't bother interacting with. Not what i'm looking for, too fat, too skinny, not ugly, BO, doesn't speak good english… the list is in-exhaustive.

it's not the lack of chemistry but that of time and effort.

Maybe I should take a sabbatical. migrate somewhere for abt a few years. gain some experience and have fun.

Very tired now.

good night

Love Love,

Edda

just got up… late for church...

looks like it's gonna rain.

I oughtta get up and go for a swim.

soon soon.. 5 more mins…

30 min has passed.

work has been great, but the recent Japan quake was a real shocker.

I pray that Japan will recover soon.

My heart can only achingly send my condolences to the people who have lost their loved ones.

I've recently taken up my CFA exams.

There are 6 thick books to read and understand. Most people I talk to tell me it is impossible to finish all 6. To top it off, I work 9-7.

I will prove them wrong. Besides, my real reason for taking the CFA is to learn.

I need to find a conducive place to study.

My 2011

Hi guys,

it's been a long time.

many things have happened since.

After being together for barely 2 years, Adrian and I parted our ways.

Being in a ground job didn't exactly get us closer together.

He's busy, I'm busy, and the frequent quarrels did not help.

I did not like the way I treated him, and I did not like the way I was treated.

Single's great, though on most nights, it is quite lonely.

When day breaks, it is different. Work fills your time and keeps you occupied so much so as your fears and troubles are easily forgotten.

Then night comes and it gets lonely again.

I don't want to get used to the feeling of being lonely.

Cos if I do, i might end up a lonely old woman…

I guess it's really over between me and Ad.

Every time I am free, he isn't.

Every time I text him, he doesn't really reply (when he used to)

I guess it's even hard to stay as close friends.

Now that he has his own job, he isn't the same person.

Don't get me wrong, i am extremely happy that he quit SQ to be where he is now. He's doing very well and I wish him all the best.

When will my prince charming come?

My 2011

RIP

my little 3-week old kitten died on 18October2010. My whole world stopped and stared for a while when the news was broken to me in the morning. I cried to work. I remember holding Moo Moo in my arms the day before when he was very restless, I knew he wasn't going to make it.

I broke my little finger during tchoukball practice. Google it if u don't know what it is. Till today, I still hate the guy for throwing it so hard towards me.

Many would think that having a ground job would allow me more time with Adrian. That is hardly true. He and I basically live our own lives now except during weekends. It's good cos we both have space, but it's bad cos things might be different if we ever tie the knot and live together. It's going to require alot of adapting. Then again, marriage is last on my to-do list for now.

First on my to-do list? To buy a private property and rent it out.

gotta go!

XOXO

Edda

2 months into training,

thank u google for that cheque!

thank u guys for clicking on my ads above!

work has been great. learning a lot. there's really a whole lot of operational work that needs to be perfected in a bank. i learn sth new every day.

passed all my papers- thank God! I honestly didn't study much to deserve to pass the first time round. Prayers do help!

i've started playing the piano for church. happy.

sprained my tiny finger during tchoukball training just now, and i will not forget the person who threw the ball at me. it's swollen now. shall not train next week, seriously. we'll see.

so beat now.

XOXO

Edda

One month after SQ

Hello everyone!

it's been a month since SIA, and a month in my bank.

i miss my friends from SQ, and yes, i miss traveling 80% of the time. However...

I've been having a good time with my new friends and colleagues.

Though the going is tough in this new line, I've been taking it in good stride and enjoying every moment of it.

These days, i've been studying loads to do with the bank and monetary affairs in Singapore.

It's been interesting. I'd be taking a few exams soon- which would determine if i can/cannot start to work as a Financial Executive.

I'm keeping this post short, but i'll update this blog more often.

here's a random fact i learnt today.

It's been researched upon that the most common dream people have is one where a spouse/mate cheats on you.

yes, It was found that the infidelity dream is the nightmare that haunts most people, sometimes on a recurring basis! It rarely has anything to do with an actual affair, but rather the common and universal fear of being wronged or left alone :)

Enjoy your long Hari Raya weekend yawl!

XOXO, Edda Christine Sim