I care about too many far too much.

Little faith, trust and belief in people.

Feeling like a terribly anti-social sloth today. The weather isn't helping. I don't function well in heat.

Schedule's packed like hell as usual. Thought things would be better post Y Camp and now that I'm clearing leave. Unfortunately not. Meet ups with friends, family, sending lens for repair, doctor's check ups and my deteriorating health, commitments to help in other stuff... Sometimes I wish I had time for myself.

Now that's something I ought to find.

我真的很希望自己是个无感情的人物。不被感情折磨，不被人伤害，不被人欺骗了自己的感情。

Bearing witness is a very painful thing.

I have to be selfish.

Last night I lost a bit of myself. I think I'm just destined to be hurt my whole life.

The truth is, I don't trust you as much as I profess to. It takes a lot for me to have trust in you. And if you aren't prepared to give, the trust wont be forthcoming.