What if SK decides it is a no-go for our relationship? This possibility exists and I really shudder thinking about it.

SK said we had very different perspectives on our relationship. She's a realist while I'm an idealist. She wants to iron out all issues before committing, because it will be easier for us to pull the plug if we cannot accept our differences; however, being idealistic, I believe we could resolve all issues with God as our foundation and our love for each other.

While we have difference perspectives, we still very much want/wish to take our relationship to the next level. This is really where realism meets idealism. I pray that God will continue leading us, and really let His will be done. He is the Alpha and the Omega, and only He knows what is best for us. We can only submit and trust His guidance.

I realize loving someone unconditionally is tough; in fact, it is so tough that I occasionally wished she would change a little to ease my loving... And I hate myself for not being able to love as unconditionally as I think I could... No matter, I will still try to love SK as unconditionally as possible - love that I think God has given me to shower SK with... I just have to put away the puny humanly me aside...

When is too much too much?

Will I ever stop believing the existence of true love?

Will I believe the lights at the end of the tunnel are from the headlights of an approaching train?

Is an idealist hit by realism more pitiful compared to a realist rejecting idealism?

Is this entry meaningful at all?

While everyday is unique on its own, the date six days ago has three consecutive prime numbers to marked it. It was 13 November [20]07; in short, it was 13/11/07¹.

The main aim of this entry is not to belatedly celebrate that day; the mentioning of that day is to set the stage for the funniest joke I heard today.... :p

I told SK about the uniqueness of 13 November on that day itself; however, after six days, with a very serious and confident look, she told me that the next date that share the same trait would be 17/13/11.

"Ahah, but how do you have 13 months in a year?" I asked, suppressing my laughter.

"Oh ya..." Embarrassed, she started pinching me.

Then she thought for a little while longer, and said "I know, the next one with consecutive primes is 3/7/11!"

"Erm.... you skipped one prime, my dear; 5 is a prime number." I pointed it out deadpan.

"Is it???" and she punched me for her careless mistake....

Isn't SK adorable? I simply love this woman's charm..... ;)

¹ Using UK locale.

There are highs, as well as lows. Fluctuating is inevitable... and giving up is not an option...

SUTEKI DA NE (Isn't it Wonderful) Composer: Nobuo Uematsu | Singer: Rikki
Japanese Romaji	English Translation
Kaze ga yoseta kotoba ni Oyoida kokoro Kumo ga hakobu ashita ni Hazunda koe	My heart, swimming In the words the wind has borne A voice, bouncing On a tomorrow carried by clouds
Tsuki ga yureru kagami ni Furueta kokoro Hoshi ga nagare koboreta Yawarakai namida	A heart, trembling On a mirror where the moon quivers A star falls, spills Gentle teardrops
Suteki da ne Futari te wo tori aruketa nara Ikitai yo Kimi no machi ie ude no naka	Isn't it wonderful If we could walk, holding hands I'd want to go To your town, your house, into your arms
Sono mune Karada azuke Yoi ni magire Yume miru	To your heart I leave my body Mixed into the night I dream
Kaze wa tomari kotoba wa Yasashii maboroshi Kumo wa yabure ashita wa Tooku no koe	The wind stops; your words Are a kind illusion The clouds break apart; tomorrow Is a distant voice
Tsuki ga nijimu kagami wo Nagareta kokoro Hoshi ga yurete koboreta Kakusenai namida	A heart flowing In a mirror clouded by the moon A star wavers, spills Tears you can't hide
Suteki da ne Futari te wo tori aruketa nara Ikitai yo Kimi no machi ie ude no naka	Isn't it wonderful If we could walk, holding hands I'd want to go To your town, your house, into your arms
Sono kao Sotto furete Asa ni tokeru Yume miru	That face Touch it, just so And dream a dream That melts in the morning

My feelings now....

Some things in life are simply too good to be true, so much so that people become skeptical about them...

They could simply be God's blessings, and all we need to do is to take a leap of faith and accept His gifts...

I pressingly need that courage to leap....

Still not.... :(