Oh gosh, weekend is so darn long this week. Elena is on leave since Thursday and will only be back on Tuesday, and so that means my working week gonna start only on Tuesday too... sigh.... Nevertheless, I've found out that she has a liking for latte, so I'm going to buy that for her first thing on Tuesday morning!
Long weekend.... :(
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
I'm not too sure, but recently, I have this desire to ask Elena out for lunch, despite having not talked to her for a long time (well, less than 6 minutes in total for 2 sessions, what a "stellar" figure.) Even a couple of my colleagues/friends told me that too. Is it God's subtle way to tell me to do that? I really don't know. I hope it is and I think I really have to pray about this.
Let's see, how shall I go about doing this? Should I email her? Nay, that's so insincere. Perhaps, pop over her desk and ask her? After all, she seems to be reporting to work quite early these days, so I guess that would be the best time... Hmm..... One of my friends said it would be good if I act upon this early; otherwise, I would be dragging this matter for too long and may just miss this opportunity (which may be God bestowed.) I guess my friend's advice does make a point..... :)
Let's see, how shall I go about doing this? Should I email her? Nay, that's so insincere. Perhaps, pop over her desk and ask her? After all, she seems to be reporting to work quite early these days, so I guess that would be the best time... Hmm..... One of my friends said it would be good if I act upon this early; otherwise, I would be dragging this matter for too long and may just miss this opportunity (which may be God bestowed.) I guess my friend's advice does make a point..... :)
My results for CFA:
Level 1: Fail
The table below illustrates your subject matter strengths and weaknesses. The three columns on the right are marked with asterisks to indicate your performance on each question or topic area.
Must they emphasize the word "Fail"?
Sigh.....
Level 1: Fail
The table below illustrates your subject matter strengths and weaknesses. The three columns on the right are marked with asterisks to indicate your performance on each question or topic area.
| Q# | Topic | Max Pts | <=50% | 51%-70% | >70% |
| Multiple Choice | |||||
| - | Alternative Assets | 12 | * | - | - |
| - | Derivatives | 12 | * | - | - |
| - | Economics | 24 | * | - | - |
| - | Equity Analysis | 24 | - | * | - |
| - | Ethical & Professional Stnds. | 36 | * | - | - |
| - | Financial Statement Analysis | 68 | * | - | - |
| - | Fixed Income Analysis | 24 | * | - | - |
| - | General Portfolio Management | 12 | * | - | - |
| - | Quantitative Analysis | 28 | * | - | - |
Must they emphasize the word "Fail"?
Sigh.....
Monday, July 25, 2005
It has been, lemme count, about a month and a half since I last had a conversation with Elena, and OMG, that's a freaking long period of time elapsed!
After listening to the song "A Thousand Years Later" for countless times, I felt love-smitten again (hmm, talk about pop culture poisoning!) My feelings for Elena has once again intensified, and I'm cracking my brains harder to lower the barrier between us. Since my first email to her, I've sent her another 4 emails recently. Well, the content of the emails were video and flash files which were quite entertaining, and my intention of sending those to her was to help uplift her moods. On the days when I sent her the mails, I noticed her moods were not exactly that good, and I searched high and low (from the internet, where else?) for these files, hoping these would brighten her day.
My mind is so filled with her now.... :)
After listening to the song "A Thousand Years Later" for countless times, I felt love-smitten again (hmm, talk about pop culture poisoning!) My feelings for Elena has once again intensified, and I'm cracking my brains harder to lower the barrier between us. Since my first email to her, I've sent her another 4 emails recently. Well, the content of the emails were video and flash files which were quite entertaining, and my intention of sending those to her was to help uplift her moods. On the days when I sent her the mails, I noticed her moods were not exactly that good, and I searched high and low (from the internet, where else?) for these files, hoping these would brighten her day.
My mind is so filled with her now.... :)
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Can't believe I'm so energy-drained since last Wednesday. On Monday, Kai "unofficially" celebrated my birthday for me (we met for dinner and went to the movies). And on Tuesday (and today), I had to do OT. Luckily, yesterday was cell gathering, so it wasn't that bad. But all the activities (plus work) left me so exhausted that I'm wishing weekend would come asap, so I could sleep through morning!
Anyway, I'm so surprised by myself for the fact that I have not mentioned Elena in any of the entries for the past 2 weeks! :p
Well, it's time to reset my focus...... and set it on her! Hahaha..... :p
N.B: To all my friends, thanks for remembering my birthday! (Er... I think Sunday's entry was the dead-giveaway, right?)
Anyway, I'm so surprised by myself for the fact that I have not mentioned Elena in any of the entries for the past 2 weeks! :p
Well, it's time to reset my focus...... and set it on her! Hahaha..... :p
N.B: To all my friends, thanks for remembering my birthday! (Er... I think Sunday's entry was the dead-giveaway, right?)
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Have been going out meeting friends these few days - on Thursday with one bunch of fellow actors whom I was acquainted to during a play last year, on Friday one church friend, and yesterday a friend since my polytechnic days. And of these 3 outings, 2 celebrated my birthday for me.
Yes, in less than a day's time marks the day I was brought into this world a few decades ago. In fact, there was a celebration for all the July birthday boys and girls today, arranged by a couple of church friends. Well, since I wasn't in the mood to celebrate, I didn't join them. In fact, the "celebrations" on Friday and Saturday weren't exactly celebratory in nature - I received a present on Friday despite my repeated request not to give, and on Saturday it was just a simple treat. In fact, May recalled my birthday was coming up that very morning, and hence decided to pay for our lunch (our initial intention was meet and catch up with each other over lunch.)
Happy birthday to myself....
Yes, in less than a day's time marks the day I was brought into this world a few decades ago. In fact, there was a celebration for all the July birthday boys and girls today, arranged by a couple of church friends. Well, since I wasn't in the mood to celebrate, I didn't join them. In fact, the "celebrations" on Friday and Saturday weren't exactly celebratory in nature - I received a present on Friday despite my repeated request not to give, and on Saturday it was just a simple treat. In fact, May recalled my birthday was coming up that very morning, and hence decided to pay for our lunch (our initial intention was meet and catch up with each other over lunch.)
Happy birthday to myself....
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
It's been a long time since I've last blogged, well, and the reason is simply I was busy (and still is!) with work these days... That's the result for being more familiar with the projects I'm involved in, and nope, I'm not lamenting.... In fact, I'm grateful for these 'cos not only will I gain a sense of accomplishment when I've completed the tasks assigned, I'm also, in a way, worshipping God with my work even though I may be sinning against Him some other areas of my life, but at least, I still have the capabilities to worship Him through my work.... :)
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Bumped into her again (yes, I know I have been blogging on this for so many times, but the focus this time is definitely not just on her....) while I was going out to lunch. The plastic bag she was holding seemed to contain a lunchbox when I saw her. As our distance drew closer, we greeted each other with a smile.
Well, I didn't have any lunch appointments, so I thought maybe I should lunch in. An idea crept up to me while I was buying my lunch - Should I ask her whether I could join her for lunch? Hmmm, that seemed to be a good proposition since we would be able to get to know each other better. On the other hand, what if she were to say no? Would that put her off?
The feelings of FUD and excitement ran through me, and as I was reaching the office, I said a quick prayer, "God, show me the way." The moment I was walking along the pathway which led to her desk, the feeling of anticipation intensified. How would she respond? What is God's answer to my short prayer?
As I was closing in to her desk, I saw her smiling (and yes, once again, our eyes met momentarily), with which within the next couple of steps I took reveal the reason why - she was chatting with Francisca. I must have felt a sense of relieve, since all the FUD have dissipated instantly. Come to think of it, I didn't feel disappointed at all; in fact, I felt grateful, grateful to God that He has answered me. Shortly after passing her desk, I gave thanks to God for telling me that it was still not the right time, and that I have to be more patient.
God knows my desires, and He's telling me He cares! :)
Well, I didn't have any lunch appointments, so I thought maybe I should lunch in. An idea crept up to me while I was buying my lunch - Should I ask her whether I could join her for lunch? Hmmm, that seemed to be a good proposition since we would be able to get to know each other better. On the other hand, what if she were to say no? Would that put her off?
The feelings of FUD and excitement ran through me, and as I was reaching the office, I said a quick prayer, "God, show me the way." The moment I was walking along the pathway which led to her desk, the feeling of anticipation intensified. How would she respond? What is God's answer to my short prayer?
As I was closing in to her desk, I saw her smiling (and yes, once again, our eyes met momentarily), with which within the next couple of steps I took reveal the reason why - she was chatting with Francisca. I must have felt a sense of relieve, since all the FUD have dissipated instantly. Come to think of it, I didn't feel disappointed at all; in fact, I felt grateful, grateful to God that He has answered me. Shortly after passing her desk, I gave thanks to God for telling me that it was still not the right time, and that I have to be more patient.
God knows my desires, and He's telling me He cares! :)
Just a quick update....
I bumped into Elena on Tuesday when I bought lunch back, and we "greeted" each other with a simple smile (but hers looked beautiful beyond description). Earlier on that same day, our eyes met when I walked past her desk; I smiled at her, but I didn't manage to catch her response 'cos her face was then hidden behind the partition as I continued my way.
Yesterday, our eyes met again as I (again) walked past her desk. However, I'm sure she didn't smile in response, 'cos she was in the middle of a briefing session, so she quickly turned her head towards the direction of the person briefing.
I am grateful to God for these encounters.... Thanks a lot, Father..... :)
I bumped into Elena on Tuesday when I bought lunch back, and we "greeted" each other with a simple smile (but hers looked beautiful beyond description). Earlier on that same day, our eyes met when I walked past her desk; I smiled at her, but I didn't manage to catch her response 'cos her face was then hidden behind the partition as I continued my way.
Yesterday, our eyes met again as I (again) walked past her desk. However, I'm sure she didn't smile in response, 'cos she was in the middle of a briefing session, so she quickly turned her head towards the direction of the person briefing.
I am grateful to God for these encounters.... Thanks a lot, Father..... :)
Sunday, July 03, 2005
It has been some time since she last smiled to me, but on Friday (beginning of the 3rd month after I've waved to her), she finally did when we bumped into each other at the lift lobby. Leeanne was present when that happened, and she quipped, "Must be feeling very happy now...."
"I admit I was, but not as much as compared to the past. I'm learning to control my emotions, as well as putting things in God's hands. Don't be mistaken: I still like her, but I don't my moods to be affected by her so much now."
Anyway, the incident on 1st July did made my day, and I'm grateful for it.
However, just a couple of minutes ago, one of my best friends called and broke the news to me that our friend, Linda, is currently in a relationship with a married man! I couldn't believe it at first, since to me, Linda has always been a rational person (although her reason for breaking up with her ex-boyfriend wasn't.) And to add to my disbelief, she has been involved in this for 2 years! According to my friend, Linda said the (married) man's love for his wife has already died off way before he met her (what a typical excuse!) and that the man's reason for not being able to file for divorce is because his child is taking the 'O' levels this year, and he has to wait till the exams' over (oh my gosh, this is so lame!) Not that I'm a subject expert, but I don't believe he'll file for divorce, and even if he were to, I don't think they'll be blissfully married. (TV dramas/movies are not entirely groundless, so one could really learn a lot from them.) What the hell is Linda smoking? How I wish I could knock some senses into her!
It has never crossed my mind that such things would ever happen to my friends around me, especially to my brothers- and sisters-in-Christ. But now, Linda has "demonstrated" all things possible under the sun will happen, no matter how much I would beg to differ.
So what's a friend to do? Sigh..... Talk about the harsh realities of life, so right-in-your-face....
"I admit I was, but not as much as compared to the past. I'm learning to control my emotions, as well as putting things in God's hands. Don't be mistaken: I still like her, but I don't my moods to be affected by her so much now."
Anyway, the incident on 1st July did made my day, and I'm grateful for it.
However, just a couple of minutes ago, one of my best friends called and broke the news to me that our friend, Linda, is currently in a relationship with a married man! I couldn't believe it at first, since to me, Linda has always been a rational person (although her reason for breaking up with her ex-boyfriend wasn't.) And to add to my disbelief, she has been involved in this for 2 years! According to my friend, Linda said the (married) man's love for his wife has already died off way before he met her (what a typical excuse!) and that the man's reason for not being able to file for divorce is because his child is taking the 'O' levels this year, and he has to wait till the exams' over (oh my gosh, this is so lame!) Not that I'm a subject expert, but I don't believe he'll file for divorce, and even if he were to, I don't think they'll be blissfully married. (TV dramas/movies are not entirely groundless, so one could really learn a lot from them.) What the hell is Linda smoking? How I wish I could knock some senses into her!
It has never crossed my mind that such things would ever happen to my friends around me, especially to my brothers- and sisters-in-Christ. But now, Linda has "demonstrated" all things possible under the sun will happen, no matter how much I would beg to differ.
So what's a friend to do? Sigh..... Talk about the harsh realities of life, so right-in-your-face....
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