Shouting out love in the centre of the world...

yesterday was the fourth month with Jeanneeeeeee :)
bubbly happy me! watched shouting out love in the centre of the world(japanese)soppy movie which wasn't that sad after all~ yet it was nice and meaningful in a simple way..not a complex storyline but how things unfolded was rather predictable..which kinda makes it sad cos u knew it was coming(girl dying, wad else?), but yet u knew u could do nothing, much like the protagonist in the show, sakoturo, which makes the audience share his pain quite adeptly and subtly. The agony of the old man and his bitter philosophy is blunt and hits home and an appropriate time. Better stabbed a sharp knife than beaten by a blunt mace. The charm of the dying girl shines through the dark and all but makes her death more inedible..yet forced down. Truely, i wept.

the show made me place myself in someones shoes. i guess i'll learn to appreciate things more now, life is not forever and it took a movie to teach me that. how shallow of me. sigh*! i'd never want to be in his position though..sad. sigh. i wanna cry each time i think of it..how gutted i felt and how gutted i feel.

in camp now and i'm COS today how sucks! but still gotta do duty~
jeanne's in school now and hopefully she's studying real hard and show me that people can do well with me. i've been nothing more than a jinx and a bad imfluence and all those has faltered in my presence. sigh*!
love u jeanne..

:Bryan)

seamanship

it's now seamanship and it's time for us to start refreshing our minds and get ready for the rest of the current bmtc course! which amounts to: POP
i've spent too many days, hours, minutes, playing computer games and it's about time i got down to work and started doing something productive..anything really..was duty instructor yesterday and had to wake at 5.30 this morning to bring recruits for breakfast~
it's nice to know that they treat me with respect yet they aren't totally scared of me..
i always believed that leading a bunch of people required more than simply fear..i mean, i could just be a bastard and kill them on the very first day..but i'd like to think that by giving them several chances and killing them only subsequently, i'm actually taking care of them rather than punishing them..

"those who do not learn from their mother shall learn from the world"
how wise the statement from the tribal afrikan.
some recruits have terrible upbringing and though they've seen the underside of society, they simply do not have the mental astuteness to cooperate to make things easier, faster and more efficient~
work will have to be done. yet the amount of work will not change..time and effort is the variable factor. we've been trying to instill a sense of urgency in them so they'll know the importance of time. i daresay we've failed rather miserably. still trying to find an idiot-proof solution to command recruits well.

enough about army..school nationals just concluded and it was nice going to the pool to watch the young upstarts going at it~
jeanne took part to represent her school and she did well for someone who didn't train at all at i'm proud of how she mantained her composure and pulled through reasonably well :)
it was also reallie nice to meet up with old schoolmates when congregating at the AC supporters' stand and it was especially pleasant to meet the new batch of AC swimmers. Past and present together, supporting as ONE. that will always be a part of AC..we may not always win, but the spirit within our wings is eternal, and we'll alway sbe the prettiest things around :P haha..okay enough ditzy talk.

i miss swimming,
and i miss jeanne now..
gonna take a nap..later my friend.