DEMORALISED.

Actually I am feeling quite demoralised now.

I spent the past TWO hours plowing through the website just plainly downloading the resources.
Downloading -- that's it (of course gaining an overview of what's available) -- and categorising them into the various folders.
I can't read when the links lead to new links and then newer links..
So the only way to go about managing it, is to download everything, and read from there, instead of doing the categorising thereafter.

BUT I am so demoralised. TWO hours gone just doing categorising -- not even reading the resources.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??
And the assignment is due in a few days' time???
It's not as if I started the assignment late -- the information only came these few days AFTER I had started on the assignment. Now, it seems like I might have to restart my assignment?? T_T
It was a complete waste of my previous efforts. :'''''(((((((((((((((

ARGHHHHHHHHH.

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

........

I know I shouldn't say this, but I'm super glad that I'm not there experiencing all the mayhem. It's great that I'm physically not present!!!!If not, I wouldn't know how much negative karmic effects I will be exponentially quadrupling!!!! 😱

If not, I'd be super troubled and be burdened to no ends to handle indecisive inconsequential uncertain things. Omg.

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

今日は静かな日になります。いいです。

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

#gratitude

朋友給的忠告/叮嚀。
總是那麽無微不至、細心，這就是他的善良…

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

My cousin's new born :))))))

OMG I am gushing like mad over my cousin's new born!!! 😍
Even though they are now currently on the other side of the globe.

Awww really sooooooo cute!!!! 😍

hahahah but for privacy sake.. shan't be posting his baby's pic.

Babies are happy moments that brings the families together. :)))))))



UPDATE

wah.. my mei lagi best. 冇得顶！
When I told her the good news and sent her the baby photo, her reaction is as follows:

her: baby all look the same lo
me: zzz. wah thanks.
her: true what
me: no la.. at least got resemblance to parents what
her: no not when it's still a baby
me: got
her: only got colour different when the parens are indian or malay or....
me: 😂 wah thanks. lidat also can   

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

下定决心之后……

……就要义无反顾。

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

离家出走

打从第一次听到这首歌，我就对它产生了共鸣。

豁出去漫游　不通知亲友
那快感少有　哪管想去多久
抱得你未够　于这里闷透
才誓死跟你　逛尽地球

何必每件壮举都需要理由　伴你去出走
快活而内疚　不管举世追究
愿扣上你双手　自繁华浪处到沙丘
恋爱　能有幸这样放肆至足够

是因为我渴望这种无拘无束的自由吗？一种没有后顾之忧的感觉吗？
是我觉得我被束缚住了吗？被什么束缚？为什么会被束缚？我自己也说不清。
是不是把责任交给别人，自己就自由了？
心中或许有一些欲望，等待一个人来释放这些欲望？但是胆怯的我却害怕被欲望所吞噬，以致万劫不复。
又感觉自己像一个浪子，等待一个让我停下脚步的人，一个让我既逍遥自由，又可以让我安顿、有个避风港的人。既喜欢东西有规划，但是却不想被规划所规范……何等矛盾？
能够这样的人，想必也是一样潇洒没有任何约束和计划，这是我能接受的吗？何等矛盾？

原来，自己要的东西，是那么虚无缥缈的。
我要什么？我知道吗？
还是一直以来“要”的，是社会“灌输”的“正常”模式，但并非自己真的想要？
是不是遇到了，就会把握住？

这些无法回答的答案，是否有朝一日会得到解答呢？

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

私自身に誕生日おめでとう～ ：） 3 hours earlier than usual~ =P

今年，私のお誕生日のお願いは：いいと美味しいのチーズケーキ，一つに満足です，それだけ。：）
あれは２０１２年のお願い、今年もう同じ。笑い～

今まで私はチーズケーキを食べていない！信じらない！

今年私のカメラは八歳です。速いね。

自分にのプレセントは一人で旅。楽しいです！写真をいっぱい！

それて、今年はメルボルンにいることが最高のプレゼントです！

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

Stop the toxicity.

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

Ticking off the list.

为自己做一些事情。

• Network -- not exactly, but I have made friends. :)
• Dream Big -- Living the dream!
• Plan ahead -- sort of!
• Get up early -- Definitely. Waking up 7.30am at time without the alarm.. how amazing is that?
• Stay focused -- Not really.. I am quite distracted lately.. sigh........ Let's hope this is getting somewhere. Have Faith!
• Watch less TV -- Yeah lesser (drama/anime/reality shows) than I did during the hols then.. weird huh. haha. But I watch more news nowadays cos it's more accessible.
• Invest in yourself -- Definitely!
• Read more books -- Of course.. just that they aren't fiction books. man... I miss reading novels!!!
• Avoid time wasters -- no good... been distracted lately... Okay that is not a time waster... but.. yeah...
• Take calculated risks -- I think I took one. Let's see where that goes.. Have faith! Oh and I am going on a trip on my own. Step out and enjoy the nature!
• Write down your goals -- Did I or did I not?
• Live on less than you make -- Definitely!
• Make your health a priority -- YUP! Sleep well, eat well, drink well, live well! :)))))
• Do work that matters to you -- YUP!!!
• Learn from people that you admire -- YUP!!! So many things to learn from them! Their lives, their culture, their positivity!!
• Foster meaningful relationships -- Definitely! :)
• Cultivate an attitude of gratitude -- #gratitude
• Take action, even when it's scary -- I had taken it, and here I am. And while I am here, I took another one.. let's see where that goes...
• Have a powerful and inspiring WHY -- Cultivating this in progress..

:))

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

平常心

如果你心中冇乜其他目的，就唔會咁苦哈哈。咁執著，肯定有古怪，有許多附帶條件。
平常心，做正確嘅決定，唔要俾压力改變咗你的原則。無條件仍然要跟住原則行。
相信直覺，屬於你嘅始終都會屬於你。

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

没有人可以支配你的时间、自由和情绪。

#beyourself

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

#random

ARGH... I hate it when I am in the Zone for learning and reading... then biological needs (extreme hunger) force me out of it. :(((((

SIGH. Gotta go cook up something to fulfill my stomach before I can cook up something for the essay.

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

相信直觉的当儿，保持清醒，不要昏了头。

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

What is your word?

#grateful



#grateful for technology that allow us to take photos of information on slides that were clicked too fast.

It's both a pro and con.

For adults, it could be put to good use, such as what we did above.

For adults in our fields, it is actually detrimental to us, depending on how you look at it, because the users of these technology, whom we deal with everyday, ain't responsible users. The users overuse it unnecessarily (okay, maybe necessary for their need to be accepted), and you can't be sure when they use it to your disadvantage. Photos can be edited, live videos can be taken etc. SIGH.

Okay for now, #grateful for technology.

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

What's your word?

#......

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

気持ち悲しいの日

I am blasting Eason's songs today. yeah~

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

无题

当最初的新鲜感不在时
你会想，到底背后的顾虑是什么
怎么总是绕着、拘泥于同一个小点
铺白是一种理解还是一种无礼（无理？）
 
就连铺白落空  语气变异
你会思考，是不是关注点被蒙蔽了
看见的东西是不是被局限住了

太相似的相似
不似真实的真实

这似乎诱人
的猜测
拉把切磋

不过时间却拿捏地精确地很、诡异地很

 诡异地很




 待续

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

Groceries Run (again)

Finally some greens and fruits!!! *hearts in eyes*
Oh and I love the Woolworths at Carlton (even though it's so much further at the other side of the neighbourhood). imho it is quite cosy, really awesome choices of bakery, and has more relevant stuff (to me) than the one at QV. Even the staff are friendlier. :)))

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

ゆうき

"You're so brave."

Even though I've never thought of myself that way, but I think I'd think of it that way from now on, to relish in the compliments or envy that others shower on me. That's a compliment I've heard quite a few times.. from acquaintances, consultants, locals etc.

I do need "courage" initially to pluck myself out of it.. to dissuade myself of all the pros and cons. But afterwards, after that first step, after the decision to go, it gets easier (especially after settling all the nitty gritty stuff).

It takes a lot.. not just intangible, but lots and lots and lots of tangible stuff to be where I'm, I'm at.

Perhaps it's how I framed "this escapade".
It's only temporary, go for it.
It's not permanent, what's there not to try?
It's your final chance, go once and for all.
It's not life and death, why not go on ahead?
It's just a trip.. just a really long trip. (Which is very true as of now, it didn't make me feel like I missed out a lot of not being there.. it feels just at home wherever I'm. It's still four walls, my water bottles, laptops, me, myself and I)
It's a trade off, give and take, you lose something, you receive something (maybe something even better).
It's an adventure, go find the missing piece, immerse yourself in something entirely different.
And the list goes on.

Whatever is waiting at the end of the road? Only by moving on with life and with karma can tell.

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

Rice.

An Asian (in the guts), through and through.
Never knew a bowl of homecooked rice could be so fulfilling (in both sense of the word). :)

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)