What's meant to be, will be.
Upcoming similar circumstances as I did the other time, how uncanny, except with better technological advancements which will be a constant nagging even if you're out there.
So be it, leave it open, for greater horizons out there. Move on, and never backwards, "Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forward."
One Hundred Names has regained my faith in Cecelia Ahern.
Labels: 不疑靈境難聞見
It's not so much of being alone that scares me, I'm totally at peace with myself and solitude is my best self recovery remedy. I need 2-3 hours of down time daily, just to "recover", and of course over the weekend.
Catching a movie alone? I'm fine by all means. Countless movies I've caught alone (when I've persuaded myself enough to get my bum out of home, Haha! And of course, if it's a movie I'm dying to watch without interested or free takers, like Departures or My Times, I'll go!!)
Dining alone in a bustling place with families, couples and friends? No problem! One needs to eat, and I think personal well being and food intake is more important, unless it comes with irritating overpowering eyepower eyeing at your seat, like in hk)
Venturing to a new place? Why not?
Sports? As long as it allows for solo play, why not? Squash, swimming, yoga.. running is out, it's not for me. (Only regret is not having someone to play my favourite sport -- badminton, it takes two to lop)
What's scary is... not having someone whom you can share your happiness, sorrow, exhilaration, new findings, random findings with.
“大概今生有些事 是提早都不可以 明白其妙处” 《苦瓜》
Labels: 知我者二三子, 耳得之而為聲, 陈奕迅Eason =)
I thought what I did was normal, ie nothing out of the ordinary, all those sending for courses etc. From non existent programmes to upcoming programmes to becoming fixed programmes.
Little did I realize, oh, so that was planning, liaising, executing.
From nothing to something, to a system, to be operationalized, until it became something "normal".
そうか。
So I did do something.
#humblebrag
Now you know why that stack of papers always got chosen to be placed back into the cupboard after deliberation time after time.
That stack has nothing special. In fact just amateurish. Or it's just common day stuff.
BUT that is the stack that has the most hardwork and heartwork put into it.. BEFORE the craziness of administrative and events management got to you.. and everything else important were put into the backseat.
You ask why, why important stuff were put to the backseat. Simply put, because meaningless yet unnegotiable time have to be put in to complete all admin stuff to get things going, if not be prepared for catastrophe just cos you didn't nail that down in time. Then you just got to deploy your inherent developing skills in whatever little time you've left to pull off everything else which are more important. How ironic.
So how, you tell me how to clear my cupboard during my yearly spring cleaning? Haha. One still needs something to remind oneself of one's roots and initial inclination.. to keep one going and not lose sight of the intent.
Labels: 知我者二三子, 空山不見人, 醉翁之意不在酒
Lady Gaga
Alrights, this feels more normal.
The rush of adrenaline, the exhilaration, the excitement, the bursting with happiness moment. The dramatic thrusting of fist into the air (all in one's mind), and the setting off of internal celebratory mode complete with bursting fireworks and party poppers even though the surface looks so calm and serene.
Nothing is final only when the verdict is out. No longer empty promises.
Grateful and appreciative.
And with little things that one should be grateful of : wonderful colleagues who are always ready to share laughter or even get my favourite Singer's autograph from her hubby's former student, daily reads/sharing from L, my biological and non-biological sisters (just cos I know you're always there), bff, family. :) :)
What's your WORD?
GRATEFUL. :)
