Guilty Pleasure!!

Yay!!! My books have arrived in mail!!!
*hearts in eyes*

Can't wait to indulge in them!!!

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

关于侦探小说/影片

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

我最最最讨厌不见东西、了无音讯

我今天不见了一叠活动纸，让我内心十分不甘愿，纳闷了很多钟头（至今也有十二个钟头了）。
至少也要有“残骸”让我心服口服对不对？
怎么可能那么凭空就消失了呢？！？！？
更可恶的是，“凶手”顺手牵羊走我那份，把自己那叠活动纸咋了？丢了吗？毁尸灭迹了吗？？这简直是罪大恶极！！！杀害了多少树木啊！！！ T_T 还连累我得重印，又再杀死多少树木！！！ T_T 可恨的是，连我的长尾夹也给拿了！！！

我最最最在意自己丢失东西、资料，因为得去补上或是弥补，简直是麻烦透顶 。
你看，就为了找、寻回自己的“足迹”，就折腾了不少时间。之后，自责了不少时间。颓废消沉到认命花一段时间。最后，终于面对现实赶去重印，又再花费了时间。简直让人想 *#(&%(#&amp<{;%()@:}{)$&*#&!@)$@($&*!)($+!_$&*~_%#(){};%#(*

就像我在小四那年不见的那一本少年版《水浒传》，至今十余年我仍然耿耿于怀！！而且，更甚的是，里头还有一则爸为我剪下的彭飞的报章！！！绝无仅有，哪能再找回一则从报纸上剪下的报章啊！
回想那段，我也不知道怎么把东西给漏了呢！ 隐约记得书本放在个纸袋（真的是纸袋，不是塑料袋），应该是遗留在巴士上了。 T_T

可能，不见东西的阴影得回到我学前教育6岁那年。有一回，学潮流，拿了一个手提、不是披肩的包包。上了巴士后，我把包包放在我身后，坐下。之后，抵达学校后，我便踏着轻快的脚步走入校门，几乎快到一楼的课室，才惊觉，我的包呢？！？！ 我被急哭了。这时，校车阿姨跑来，把包包拿给了我。真让我松了一口气！幸亏当时坐的是校车，阿姨还记得我们拿的包包！

至此之后，我就对自己的物品非常珍重。超级害怕东西给遗留在哪儿。很不幸，小四那年还是发生 了一起惨案。T_T
（因此，Cecelia Ahern的There's No Place Like Here让我非常有共鸣！）

所以，就连人，请不要忽冷忽热，时而在，时而不在，我很受伤。
要消失前，先通知一声，知会一下。

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

迈步

《迈步》

去！
意不再、意不在。
已铁了、横了、恒了。
决战未知、为之、为止。

写于二零一六年五月十七日

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

"Crafting an identity"

Lately, I have the urge to change a new DP.
But so far, no pictures/photos spoke to ME yet.
So wells... still hanging on, though I know that pic has to go for sure!

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

三寸天堂

Super love this song.
Even the male version is equally good!! (Sang by Power Station :) )

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

我是一只小小鸟 -- 动力火车、杨培安

I rarely like covers of songs... and I think most songs are best sang by their original singer.

BUT, I think these 2 artistes Power Station and Yang Pei An are that good that I think their rendition of Zhao Chuan's song is equally good!!! :)

NOW now now.. this is a bad timing to be intrigued by Power Station's vocals again. cos their online sale of concert tix is starting in 2 days' time.. OMG. Be tempt not!!!!!!! Even though I super love their onstage / live singing!!!!!!

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

Random post .. on my life.

1. Small little sub-goals along the way. :)

I was glad for the long Labour Day weekend.. sat myself down and got myself to start doing things and thinking through things and to unstop the procrastination. But hey, that ain't procrastination, one ain't got time to THINK for MYSELF just cos work is rolling on and on huh.

Along the way, little sub-goals. Just getting it off the chest seems to make it official huh.



2. Today, just got another important sub-goal cleared. YEAH. Awesomeness.

With this step down, there is no backing off. GO WITH IT! There is no other way out.

Through these procedure, I somewhat realized I do "like" making inquiries instead of emailing. Direct one-to-one consultation which I can verify and clarify on the spot. Fantastic.
I mean, email is good, but when time is dire, phone call is the one that works best.



3. Reading

I was updating the books I had just read. Shockingly, I had only completed one book this year?!?! Are you kidding me?!??!

I read A LOT this year! Probably, I was book/chapter-jumping (non-fiction books).. Reading different chapters of different books at the same time.. haha. Just like how I watch my dramas and anime. (In fact, my drama and anime stint were pretty much on hold this year. This is just how busy it gets.)

Anyway, gotta buck up and finish more books. :)

Interestingly, I've been reading more non-fiction this year.. so rare. hahahah. I like this particular mental developmental aspect of myself. 

That also goes to say there isn't any interesting fiction book around that keeps me hanging on to every word.. Human Croquet (Kate Atkinson) was one book which I gave up this year. I read half of it, and things aren't progressing in the novel. It is worse than reading Cell (Robin Cook) / Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)'s built-up of mystery, where both books became page turners after a certain chapter and got me reading through the night. Books like these were worth the wait and excruciating agony for the front chapters. Books like Angels and Demons (Dan Brown) and Gone Girl (Gillian Flynn) are equally good because you get absorbed into the entire mystery right from the start.
I always thought I was pretty good at sticking through boring bits and to wait till the exciting parts.. but no.. Atkinson has proved me wrong. I hope her best-selling Life after Life is not so disappointing.. *fingers crossed (I had purposely kept some presumably good books to read -- good books are hard to come by)

(Update) I need to confess.

I just bought 3 books online.......... >_<
I can't help it... Despite feeling apologetic for buying soooo many books.. I'm excited for my books to arrive!!!! Gillian Flynn, Harper Lee & Katrina Repka! :)



4. Emotional roller-coaster

I must say I am on an emotional roller-coaster this year. Never had I experienced that many emotions for the past years.. and I think that's overwhelming. It takes so much self control (over managing so much non-stop work) to be a rational human being. Expectations, demands, changes, disgruntles, wishes, hopes, you name it.

It felt like going through puberty again. (I think I weren't even this angsty or emotional during my teens) Late growing up huh... zzz

And that is bad.. Gotta keep a rein on the emotions.






5. (Update) Shows
Realized I haven't really been watching / completed a lot of dramas and anime this year... busy.
Or, I've been watching more variety shows.. oops.
Such as Infinite Challenge or We're married. hahahaha.

BUT there's too much Korean stuff already.. Need some fix of  ドラマ and アニメ to balance it out!!!






6. Next chapter

In progress.... :)




7. Got another thing settled today 16 May. Informed. Another sub-goal achieved!
Well, things got round faster than I thought. So wells... Wait and see.
挽留的意义是什么？可惜不是你……
Well... life goes on. 

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)

啥都带不走

走到生命的尽头，会是什么？是感慨？惋惜？是后悔？是欣慰？

如何时刻提醒自己念死无常？
倘若这一刻离开，理智上知道一切乃身外物，什么也带不走，钱财、家人、仇人、恩人、屋子、书本、宠物、凡事“我的”东西。唯有“记忆”、意识、习性、智慧、已造业。
但是，为什么在忙着活着的当下，就不能理智地提醒自己除了能带得走的，啥都不重要？
活着的当下，被什么给蒙蔽了？

生命，说长不长，说短不短，如今已达而立之年，长辈已达耳顺之年，太不可思议了……
就那十余、二十年，我能吗？如何不忙昏了头，如何多为他人想想、多陪陪他们……

~ whatever happens, happens for a reason. =)