I actually love it when they share interesting bits about themselves. In fact, that is the MOST satisfying aspect of what I am doing now, where I get to interact with them, guide them etc. The theoretical aspects are just as important, but I guess the rapport is what that kept me going, and also working with wonderful colleagues. (Okay, does that mean I am actually very people-person despite what I think of myself? haha. I also secretly think I am an Extrovertly-Introvert, heheh, an extrovert only when circumstances require. Get me on the stage, get me to say a (prepared) speech, I'm fine by all means.)
In fact, I wished I could learn from them how to initiate and maintain a conversation or share anything with someone / anyone effectively. I am mostly a listener, or rather sometimes I find no need to express my opinions (and that ain't good, boooo).
I was quite surprised one of them actually 'told' me -- "someone overhead is spying on me (and hinted one's importance, hahah)" cos a remote controlled gadget just flew across the sky (flying at least at flying range, not within buildings' level). One rarely volunteered to initiate a conversation I would say. But I must say one is sharp to notice this small little gadget flying in the air though. Another shared about childhood's challenges. Another sought advice to take up some diving courses.
Sometimes I envy that they have such amazing social life. To be young and indulge in life's surprises.
It's no surprise why #YOLO came about.
I wished I had that spirit.
I had too many frames, too much restrains, wired too
Chinese-ly, wired to care too much about what others thought about me and my opinions, too overly collectivistic (not saying it ain't a good trait to have)... I just wanna break free from these. Let it go.
I am still trying though. I had some #YOLO moments, though not many.
Such as going for a course which I never thought I would be comfortable with (which I realized it's not the course contents itself, but rather the company, and I love learning more about myself), just signing up for a calligraphy course alone and went alone (why curb your interests just cos you can't find anyone to accompany you), express my utmost admiration and awe for X unabashedly in her face (cos I know she can take it, haha. Or was it a little of the 英雄惜英雄 understanding we understood of one another), bucking up the courage to thank someone unabashedly (in a card, first step k) etc.
I also realized I love learning new things, discovering new skills that I have, harnessing new abilities that I had acquired, always on the road of learning and discoveries. Pseudo (stagnated) growth stifles me. I was
constantly BORED. Nothing keeps me exciting nowadays, except for the interaction with the young ones. Which is why, it is so hard to find someone who can ignite all these in me. But before that, I will keep on learning. Just because it's important to do so.
Waaaay to go and I am waiting for the moment to come to further unleash more #YOLOness.
May all things proceed well and smoothly!! :)
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