Pardon me, but shit just got real. lol.

Somehow I feel like a mini celebrity couple in church even since my dad happily shared about my relationship during service. Now it's always, where's you're boyfriend, where's ngiap? It's feels like I went from being me as me, as one whole and singular being, to being half of a whole. Maybe that's what they mean where they say 2 become 1. It was never 1/2 + 1/2 = 1. No, we came together, complete as our own person, but somehow being together makes you 1. And it feels like I can understand a little bit better how the holy trinity is 3 and yet they are 1, and yet there are 3. Hahaha. It's so abstract and yet so real. And it isn't reflected only in the questions. Sometimes, it scares me just how our hearts get tied together, and I finally understand what it means to be yoked together. You feel each other's happiness and joy, and also sadness and pain. It's like your emotions are your own, and yet, not really your own anymore. Haha. When I re-read what i'm saying, it sounds so abstract and silly, but it is true. I'm still trying to figure my way around this crazy complex simple thing called love. Trying not to lose who I am even as I'm walking down an unfamiliar path. It's bewildering at times. But God is in control, and He shall be the lamp unto my feet and light unto my path :)

Elizabeth chirped at 3:59 PM | No comments

All the talk about friendships and bgr has got me thinking.
When you're a cell leader and you're in a relationship. Do you still have friends? Kindred spirits?
I miss my peers. It's just so hard these years. We turn 21, all in different worlds. I almost wish we were 16 again. Almost. If not for the scars we carry that makes us who we are today.

Elizabeth chirped at 1:16 AM | No comments