I like this song.
Second Chance - Hillsong
You called my name
Reached out Your hand
Restored my life
And I was redeemed
The moment You entered my life
Amazing grace
Christ gave that day
My life was changed
When from my shoulders
Fell the weight of my sin
So it’s with everything I am
I reach out for Your hand
The hope for change
The second chance I’ve gained
On You I throw my life
Casting all my fears aside
How could greater love than this
Ever possibly exist
Consume my thoughts
As I rest in You
I’m now in love
With a Saviour
Bearing the marks of His love
So I’ll wait upon You now
With my hands released to You
Where a little faith’s enough
To see mountains lift and move
And I’ll wait upon You now
Dedicated to Your will
To this love that will remain
A love that never fails
Thursday, December 27, 2007
I'm in transition.
So i went to find the notes I made when Pastor Paul Ang preached on transition. I'm typing it here for the benefit of whoever is also in transition.
The notes aren't fantastic, but well.
HOW TO RESPOND DURING TRANSITION?
Definition: a process of passing though or crossing over from one season in life to another. It helps us move to a different level that God has prepared for us.
[1] We must release our past.
Past hurts, failures and disappointment. And also our past success.
1 Samuel 16 -> Smauel had to release Saul
Joshua 1 -> God told Joshua Moses was dead even though everyone knew that. That was because Joshua had not released Moses so God had to repeat it. Joshua had to move on as the new leader.
[2] You must be alert and watchful.
Be alert to what God is doing.
2 Kings 2 -> Elisha kept watching Elijah because he never knew when he might be taken away and he did not want to MISS his double portion of blessing.
[3] Leave your comfort zone.
That includes waking up at 3am to pray.
All the disciples had equal opportunity and access to Jesus but only 1 walked on water because he dared to leave his comfort zone.
Ruth -> 2 seasons. Famine then the harvest. She left her comfort zone. By responding correctly, she somehow found favour in a land that didn't welcome foreigners.
When you work in God's will, you will find favour wherever you go.
[4] It's an opportunity and strategic time, but also a difficult time.
A mother goes through labour. An opportunity for life, but also a difficult time. A time when you wish you were not pregnant. But hey, it get's you ready to receive your miracle! In the form of your child.
[5] Persevere.
When the ocean is at the lowest, it's time for the tide to change.
When you're down with something, don't worry, because God is up to something. So don't give up!
So i went to find the notes I made when Pastor Paul Ang preached on transition. I'm typing it here for the benefit of whoever is also in transition.
The notes aren't fantastic, but well.
HOW TO RESPOND DURING TRANSITION?
Definition: a process of passing though or crossing over from one season in life to another. It helps us move to a different level that God has prepared for us.
[1] We must release our past.
Past hurts, failures and disappointment. And also our past success.
1 Samuel 16 -> Smauel had to release Saul
Joshua 1 -> God told Joshua Moses was dead even though everyone knew that. That was because Joshua had not released Moses so God had to repeat it. Joshua had to move on as the new leader.
[2] You must be alert and watchful.
Be alert to what God is doing.
2 Kings 2 -> Elisha kept watching Elijah because he never knew when he might be taken away and he did not want to MISS his double portion of blessing.
[3] Leave your comfort zone.
That includes waking up at 3am to pray.
All the disciples had equal opportunity and access to Jesus but only 1 walked on water because he dared to leave his comfort zone.
Ruth -> 2 seasons. Famine then the harvest. She left her comfort zone. By responding correctly, she somehow found favour in a land that didn't welcome foreigners.
When you work in God's will, you will find favour wherever you go.
[4] It's an opportunity and strategic time, but also a difficult time.
A mother goes through labour. An opportunity for life, but also a difficult time. A time when you wish you were not pregnant. But hey, it get's you ready to receive your miracle! In the form of your child.
[5] Persevere.
When the ocean is at the lowest, it's time for the tide to change.
When you're down with something, don't worry, because God is up to something. So don't give up!
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
We attempted to recreate a picture of us smiling without showing our teeths.Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Yes, that's me, Geraldine and Joey. So cute right!?
BIRD DROPPINGS FELL @ 11:50 AM
If I didn't know Jesus..
This Christmas would be just another chance to spend time with loved ones and to show love and appreciation through gifts and what not. So if for some reason both elements are removed, if i find myself rather alone this christmas and have not received any gift, then what is left of Christmas to me? I would then say that this Christmas is boring, sigh and hope for some excitement.
This is my sixteenth christmas and I think it's the first time I'm actually starting to think about the whole meaning of it.
Nowadays I hear these sentence fairly often.
"It doesn't feel like christmas."
And I would wonder, just what is christmas suppose to feel like?
When I was very young and unable to comprehend big pictures, I just knew Christmas as the time when mummy and daddy would buy me gifts. Some uncle and aunties would also give me gifts and I get to go to Joey/Rachel/my house to play with all the other kids my age. There would be a lot of laughter and good food.
And so, like the rest of the world, that became the meaning of Christmas to me. As I got older, christmas changed a bit here and there, mainly in the things I did but still the meaning was the same. A busy yet happy season. And like the rest of the world, I get drawn into this cycle. Maybe it's human nature. We don't think. We learn about the way things work in this world and then just blindly follow it. And later on, our kids will learn from us and blindly follow it.
Why do ppl write cards and give presents on valentine's day, birthdays and christmas day?
->Duno. But everyone does it so I do it.
Why do the adults give us red packet with money inside during new year?
->Duno. That's just the way thing is, and when I'm older, I'll have to do it too.
Why is red and green considered the color of Christmas?
->Duno. But if you use these 2 colors, everyone understands that it's for christmas.
SEE. Sometimes I think we're really stupid.
But hey, that can't be what christmas is all about right? Makes it feel so shallow. Which does not sit right with man's natural desire for deeper things. It feels so empty.
So for once, I went to think about the stuff we learnt in sunday school about christmas.
Christmas is the celebration of the birth of Jesus. The day when our Mighty God for the sake of love put aside his godly status and became a man in the form of Jesus. We celebrate because it marks the beginning of the end. The end of living apart from God, living under Satan's oppression.
Now isn't that a very good reason to celebrate? I think this is what Christmas is suppose to feel like.
It's like feeling the rain on your outstretched arm while you're standing in a land that has experience the drought for many many years. The rain does not immediately bring a change. The seeds in your field have not grown and bear fruits yet. But you still do a rain dance because you know that although you can't see the fruits yet, by the fact that the rain is here, the fruits will come. So you celebrate when the rain comes and also when the harvest is over.
Likewise, we celebrate both Jesus' birth and ressurection.
Having said all that, I can now sincerely wish you
Merry Merry Christmas =)
*if i were telling this to an audience, right now I would end this with the song we are the reason.
As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
Monday, December 24, 2007
The medicine I have to take makes me really drowsy. I feel like I'm on a boat and my brain's all messed up. I suppose I have things I want to blog about, but I need to wait till I'm not so drugged to sort my thoughts out.
This Christmas Eve, I just wanna share this video with everyone. I suppose most christians would have seen this before. Many have commented feeling really touched by it. But I wonder, to one who have not heard the gospel before, what would the impact be? As Christians, we know what the skit is potraying. But I really really want to know, what does the untrained eye of a non-Christian see when they watch this video?
Watch and comment.
This Christmas Eve, I just wanna share this video with everyone. I suppose most christians would have seen this before. Many have commented feeling really touched by it. But I wonder, to one who have not heard the gospel before, what would the impact be? As Christians, we know what the skit is potraying. But I really really want to know, what does the untrained eye of a non-Christian see when they watch this video?
Watch and comment.
Friday, December 21, 2007
A friend made an interesting comment.
Evangelists and pastors are able to heal people, because the people believe that they can be healed. Like, if a particular person is known to have done healing, he is able to do even more healing because the people around him would have more faith. Not that he is the one who does the healing, but i guess it is because of his faith that inspires the people around him to have faith too and believe that a miracle would happen that very moment.
I'm currently down with the flu bug. A rather inconvenient time to fall sick with christmas just around the corner. So, when i msged my fren to ask her to pray for me, she commented on this. Which I find interesting because while many christians know that healing is about faith, in our everyday lives we don't quite practice it. When we're sick, we ask ppl to pray for us but i think we often undermine it's effectiveness thus really rendering it ineffective.
So, this time round, we're not just gonna pray, but we're gonna pray and believe in that prayer. I believe I can be well in time for sunday's christmas event. That gives me 1 day to rest. Normally i take 2 to 4 days to recover from flu, but I really want to hope and believe that on sunday night, I won't be sniffing away.
Haha, we'll see. It'll be quite coolif when i get healed in like a day. Especially when I got it a little worse than usual.
I would call this, letting God work in our everyday life and not just during certain period we set aside for him.
Evangelists and pastors are able to heal people, because the people believe that they can be healed. Like, if a particular person is known to have done healing, he is able to do even more healing because the people around him would have more faith. Not that he is the one who does the healing, but i guess it is because of his faith that inspires the people around him to have faith too and believe that a miracle would happen that very moment.
I'm currently down with the flu bug. A rather inconvenient time to fall sick with christmas just around the corner. So, when i msged my fren to ask her to pray for me, she commented on this. Which I find interesting because while many christians know that healing is about faith, in our everyday lives we don't quite practice it. When we're sick, we ask ppl to pray for us but i think we often undermine it's effectiveness thus really rendering it ineffective.
So, this time round, we're not just gonna pray, but we're gonna pray and believe in that prayer. I believe I can be well in time for sunday's christmas event. That gives me 1 day to rest. Normally i take 2 to 4 days to recover from flu, but I really want to hope and believe that on sunday night, I won't be sniffing away.
Haha, we'll see. It'll be quite cool
I would call this, letting God work in our everyday life and not just during certain period we set aside for him.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Back from mission trip!
I don't quite know what to say. I have mixed feelings about the trip.
Well, boat rides are an excellent time to talk to God aside from the effect of being rocked about too much.
I set foot on Singapore soil and realize that I only have 2 weeks of my holiday left to do whatever I want. While I didn't exactly waste this holiday, I feel like I've been rushing/running after something only to realize that I have no idea where I am heading.
Haha, I think I'm lagging. It feels like I'm about to have an identity crisis. Maybe it's because I'm in transition. From one phase of my life into another. It's easy to get lost and lose your bearing. Who am I? What am I suppose to be doing now? Right now I'm just holding onto the one identity I'm sure of. That no matter what, I am a child of God. I am loved by the King. And no matter how lost I feel, I can have hope knowing that he's with me, he knows where he's heading and he will guide me there.
So I may be a little lost a little more. But just as all good things come to an end, so do all bad things come to an end. I just need to keep having faith to follow the voice that's trying to guide me out of pitch darkness and back into the light.
I don't quite know what to say. I have mixed feelings about the trip.
Well, boat rides are an excellent time to talk to God aside from the effect of being rocked about too much.
I set foot on Singapore soil and realize that I only have 2 weeks of my holiday left to do whatever I want. While I didn't exactly waste this holiday, I feel like I've been rushing/running after something only to realize that I have no idea where I am heading.
Haha, I think I'm lagging. It feels like I'm about to have an identity crisis. Maybe it's because I'm in transition. From one phase of my life into another. It's easy to get lost and lose your bearing. Who am I? What am I suppose to be doing now? Right now I'm just holding onto the one identity I'm sure of. That no matter what, I am a child of God. I am loved by the King. And no matter how lost I feel, I can have hope knowing that he's with me, he knows where he's heading and he will guide me there.
So I may be a little lost a little more. But just as all good things come to an end, so do all bad things come to an end. I just need to keep having faith to follow the voice that's trying to guide me out of pitch darkness and back into the light.
Friday, December 14, 2007
It is over.
NSSN came and went. That means, no more long hours of band practice, no more worrying about whether I'll be a loner and no more desperate attempts to sound like a trumpet. For this year at least. Sounds like rather good news, so why does my heart ache?
I'm slightly surprised that I'm feeling kinda sad that the band I'm joining next year, isn't this band. Somehow, I've gotten attached to it in these 4 weeks. Fun-loving, very very slack, kinda havoc and filled with people who love their instruments. Rah. Some of them I probably won't see ever again. Sigh. It's feels like the ending of NCO camp all over again.
It's amazing how masterful God is at crafting our lives. I think there were quite a number of twists in this short 1 month. One moment I was so excited I was crying. The next I hated it. Then loved it. And so on. I think in the end, this whole process was good for me even though it wasn't easy.
Ah well, tmr's mission trip. That's why i left their MAD cam whoring session early. I seriously mean MAD. Hopefully, I won't be feeling sleepy tmr.
NSSN 2007
NSSN came and went. That means, no more long hours of band practice, no more worrying about whether I'll be a loner and no more desperate attempts to sound like a trumpet. For this year at least. Sounds like rather good news, so why does my heart ache?
I'm slightly surprised that I'm feeling kinda sad that the band I'm joining next year, isn't this band. Somehow, I've gotten attached to it in these 4 weeks. Fun-loving, very very slack, kinda havoc and filled with people who love their instruments. Rah. Some of them I probably won't see ever again. Sigh. It's feels like the ending of NCO camp all over again.
It's amazing how masterful God is at crafting our lives. I think there were quite a number of twists in this short 1 month. One moment I was so excited I was crying. The next I hated it. Then loved it. And so on. I think in the end, this whole process was good for me even though it wasn't easy.
Ah well, tmr's mission trip. That's why i left their MAD cam whoring session early. I seriously mean MAD. Hopefully, I won't be feeling sleepy tmr.
NSSN 2007
Thursday, December 13, 2007
I should be feeling really fortunate and happy now, but I'm not.
I went blog hopping to try and find out where people got posted to. Not very successful, but I'm guessing that quite a number of people got into SA.
After 3 weeks of being in an uncomfortable foreign environment, I'm starting to wish that I had gone to SA. It's more familiar and comfortable without being overly so. If I hadn't gotten that phone call that faithful day, things would have fallen out differently. Then again, I would never learn to appreciate the nice environment St Margs provided for my "moulding years". Haha, I was so anti-SA then.
I feel like everything's just a dream. Whether a good or bad one, I can't decide. I wonder if this is really the path for me. The path God wants me to take. By the way things have fallen out, it appears to be so, for only God can open doors like that. But.. aiya.
I'd rather be friends with nerds than the cool kids.
I went blog hopping to try and find out where people got posted to. Not very successful, but I'm guessing that quite a number of people got into SA.
After 3 weeks of being in an uncomfortable foreign environment, I'm starting to wish that I had gone to SA. It's more familiar and comfortable without being overly so. If I hadn't gotten that phone call that faithful day, things would have fallen out differently. Then again, I would never learn to appreciate the nice environment St Margs provided for my "moulding years". Haha, I was so anti-SA then.
I feel like everything's just a dream. Whether a good or bad one, I can't decide. I wonder if this is really the path for me. The path God wants me to take. By the way things have fallen out, it appears to be so, for only God can open doors like that. But.. aiya.
I'd rather be friends with nerds than the cool kids.
HAHAH.
Nanyang!? NOT!
I did a lot of traveling today.
In total, i took 11 bus rides, 2 train rides and 1 cab. Only to realize that my bus stamp ended yesterday instead of tmr. So today I spent a grand total of $12.80 on travel fees. Heart pain.
AH, but thank God. I am considered blessed :D
I'm so tired right now. Tmr night's the concert. And then, on sat i'm going for mission trip. HAHAHA.
I think i'm a bit off frequency right now.
How unfair. LOL.
I should shut up.
Good night!
Nanyang!? NOT!
I did a lot of traveling today.
In total, i took 11 bus rides, 2 train rides and 1 cab. Only to realize that my bus stamp ended yesterday instead of tmr. So today I spent a grand total of $12.80 on travel fees. Heart pain.
AH, but thank God. I am considered blessed :D
I'm so tired right now. Tmr night's the concert. And then, on sat i'm going for mission trip. HAHAHA.
I think i'm a bit off frequency right now.
How unfair. LOL.
I should shut up.
Good night!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
TMR I GET TO SLEEP IN!!! YAY!
Oh man, I've been feeling seriously sleep deprived ever since the saturday before camp started. I am very very VERY happy that I can sleep in tmr. WAHAHAHAHA.
Friday is the concert. Up to now, I don't know if anyone is going for it. Haha. OH well, it can't beat polka no matter what. Haha. At the end of the performance, when they read the name of your secondary school, you're suppose to stand up. So I'll have to stand up alone. They are other ppl just like me, but still, it's quite pathetic. HAHA!
Ok, anyway, I want to thank God that at last, the girl clique has been formed. Wahahaha! OK, so they guys always gather together so I like to call them the guy clique. Like one big clique. And the girls used to be seperated into .. sections, schools or wadever. But finally, we've gathered together to form one big girl clique. Which effectively means that I'm less of a lone ranger coz instead of being left alone, I can now hang out with the girl clique! Hooray! Power to the women!
I think I'm a little high. There's something about today that just makes ppl high. HAH.
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!
Oh man, I've been feeling seriously sleep deprived ever since the saturday before camp started. I am very very VERY happy that I can sleep in tmr. WAHAHAHAHA.
Friday is the concert. Up to now, I don't know if anyone is going for it. Haha. OH well, it can't beat polka no matter what. Haha. At the end of the performance, when they read the name of your secondary school, you're suppose to stand up. So I'll have to stand up alone. They are other ppl just like me, but still, it's quite pathetic. HAHA!
Ok, anyway, I want to thank God that at last, the girl clique has been formed. Wahahaha! OK, so they guys always gather together so I like to call them the guy clique. Like one big clique. And the girls used to be seperated into .. sections, schools or wadever. But finally, we've gathered together to form one big girl clique. Which effectively means that I'm less of a lone ranger coz instead of being left alone, I can now hang out with the girl clique! Hooray! Power to the women!
I think I'm a little high. There's something about today that just makes ppl high. HAH.
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!
Saturday, December 08, 2007
God works in amazing ways.
The end of camp means the return to reality. For those who still do not know, I went to join VJ for their NSSN which is open to all sec 4s. Amelia left singapore last saturday which made today, the first practice I attended without her company. Her absence means that I am the only person from st margs. And also, the only sec 4 girl in the section. It may not seem like a big deal, but being in a foreign place all alone is kinda intimidating don't you think? It was hard to mix around because I couldn't quite click with the guys and the few girls that were around stuck to their own sections.
So, knowing that that's the situation I would find myself in, I was a little fearful this morning. I mean, who would want to be a loner? But I just committed the day into God's hand and went in with as much courage as I could master.
Well today, someone new joined our section for NSSN. Ok, more like he joined this week but i missed one practice. It was easier to talk to him than the other guys in my section coz he was from a mix school. How should i put it? It seems as if your gender causes this barrier thing that makes it awkward for 2 ppl from an all-boys or all-girls school to interact. Haha. But with him, I felt like I was treated as an ordinary human being, genderless, which made it so much easier to interact. He and another guy in my section also happened to have attended a mass band camp I attended in p5. That at least helped to gain me some sort of common ground which helped to break the ice a little. Coincidence? I think not.
In conclusion, because of that, I wasn't so outcasted today. I actually followed them for lunch since the seniors disappeared. It feels weird to be the only girl with a group of guys I don't even know well.
Haha. I know that to some this may seem like nothing much to thank God for. But well, understand that I've been to an all-girls school since i was 7. Being thrown into a new environment like that is quite a .. culture shock. The fear of being left out can be quite real. I'm guessing that there are already several people who are pretending to be someone they are not just to fit in with the pack.
Well, God works in amazing ways.
The end of camp means the return to reality. For those who still do not know, I went to join VJ for their NSSN which is open to all sec 4s. Amelia left singapore last saturday which made today, the first practice I attended without her company. Her absence means that I am the only person from st margs. And also, the only sec 4 girl in the section. It may not seem like a big deal, but being in a foreign place all alone is kinda intimidating don't you think? It was hard to mix around because I couldn't quite click with the guys and the few girls that were around stuck to their own sections.
So, knowing that that's the situation I would find myself in, I was a little fearful this morning. I mean, who would want to be a loner? But I just committed the day into God's hand and went in with as much courage as I could master.
Well today, someone new joined our section for NSSN. Ok, more like he joined this week but i missed one practice. It was easier to talk to him than the other guys in my section coz he was from a mix school. How should i put it? It seems as if your gender causes this barrier thing that makes it awkward for 2 ppl from an all-boys or all-girls school to interact. Haha. But with him, I felt like I was treated as an ordinary human being, genderless, which made it so much easier to interact. He and another guy in my section also happened to have attended a mass band camp I attended in p5. That at least helped to gain me some sort of common ground which helped to break the ice a little. Coincidence? I think not.
In conclusion, because of that, I wasn't so outcasted today. I actually followed them for lunch since the seniors disappeared. It feels weird to be the only girl with a group of guys I don't even know well.
Haha. I know that to some this may seem like nothing much to thank God for. But well, understand that I've been to an all-girls school since i was 7. Being thrown into a new environment like that is quite a .. culture shock. The fear of being left out can be quite real. I'm guessing that there are already several people who are pretending to be someone they are not just to fit in with the pack.
Well, God works in amazing ways.
Friday, December 07, 2007
My body alarm woke me up at 7.30 this morning. Just 3 mornings and the camp managed to change my body alarm. Well that's good.
I would say that this camp is different. Feels different. Then again, having been to 4 youth camps now, I find that each camp is unique in it's own way, achieving it's own purpose and all just as fantastic. Yet, this camp still feels different.
Anyway, I'm back all charged up with minor casualties. God was definitely moving and working in the camp and I'm quite certain no one went home empty handed.
I'm here to blog about the strange event that followed after the camp rather than the camp itself.
A group of us went to eat lunch and somehow, matthew fung got separated from us. We weren't sure whether he was still in compass mall or if he had alr gone home. We kinda crossed out that he had gone home on his own since his brothers helped to establish the fact that he didn't take the train much let alone the NEL. Dhouby Ghaut can be quite confusing for a first timer let alone a 12-year-old who had not travelled much. It felt a little foolish, but we gathered to pray at burger king before splitting up to search for matthew. After about half an hour, in which i was starting to fall asleep on my feet which searching for him, we called off the search to head home. Then, ring ring. Haha. Daniel got a call from his mom saying that matthew had reached home safely. On his own. By the train. !!!!. Amazing. He probably got led by the spirit on how to change from the purple line to the red line. Lol.
Well, the hardest part is to maintain our walk with God even after the camp. I pray that we will. Many amazing things happened during the camp. These stories can be told later. Right now my arms are aching. Haha..
Praise God, and thank the leaders for Camp iFaith was a success :D
I would say that this camp is different. Feels different. Then again, having been to 4 youth camps now, I find that each camp is unique in it's own way, achieving it's own purpose and all just as fantastic. Yet, this camp still feels different.
Anyway, I'm back all charged up with minor casualties. God was definitely moving and working in the camp and I'm quite certain no one went home empty handed.
I'm here to blog about the strange event that followed after the camp rather than the camp itself.
A group of us went to eat lunch and somehow, matthew fung got separated from us. We weren't sure whether he was still in compass mall or if he had alr gone home. We kinda crossed out that he had gone home on his own since his brothers helped to establish the fact that he didn't take the train much let alone the NEL. Dhouby Ghaut can be quite confusing for a first timer let alone a 12-year-old who had not travelled much. It felt a little foolish, but we gathered to pray at burger king before splitting up to search for matthew. After about half an hour, in which i was starting to fall asleep on my feet which searching for him, we called off the search to head home. Then, ring ring. Haha. Daniel got a call from his mom saying that matthew had reached home safely. On his own. By the train. !!!!. Amazing. He probably got led by the spirit on how to change from the purple line to the red line. Lol.
Well, the hardest part is to maintain our walk with God even after the camp. I pray that we will. Many amazing things happened during the camp. These stories can be told later. Right now my arms are aching. Haha..
Praise God, and thank the leaders for Camp iFaith was a success :D
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
It's funny how situations in life like to twist their endings.
Something good may become something bad. While something bad may become something good. Haha. I feel like my vocabulary's so limited.
Nothing is certain, the future isn't fixed.
I think God is a fantastic author.
Just look at the way he cleverly twists the storyline of our lives.
Randomness.
Ok if anyone wants tickets to "Not So Silent Night", a concert comprising of sec 4s from various schools and VJ band members, let me know. It's on 14 December, Friday. I kinda like the repertoire :)
I just realize if I go for mission trip, i'll be quite tired. haha.
I miss having songs stuck in my head. I miss familiarity. I wanna stop feeling like some crap idiot. I kinda want the hols to be over but kinda don't want it to. Haha.
I'm excited for youth camp!
Something good may become something bad. While something bad may become something good. Haha. I feel like my vocabulary's so limited.
Nothing is certain, the future isn't fixed.
I think God is a fantastic author.
Just look at the way he cleverly twists the storyline of our lives.
Randomness.
Ok if anyone wants tickets to "Not So Silent Night", a concert comprising of sec 4s from various schools and VJ band members, let me know. It's on 14 December, Friday. I kinda like the repertoire :)
I just realize if I go for mission trip, i'll be quite tired. haha.
I miss having songs stuck in my head. I miss familiarity. I wanna stop feeling like some crap idiot. I kinda want the hols to be over but kinda don't want it to. Haha.
I'm excited for youth camp!
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Oh oh oh oh... *to the tune of good morning baltimore
I've come to realised just how different guy's frequency is from girls. It's very very VERY different. I have soooo much more to say, but I can't. Not here. Not yet. The person I can tell is currently unavailable. Sigh.
Today has been a fairly lonely day. I foresee more of such days to come. hohohohelp. haha. I'm tired and I feel like whining. Next few weeks seem terribly packed. Since Os ended I've been losing the fats piled on while mugging without even trying to. A slight indication of the activities I've had. Basically, when you're out of the house, what you do is walk a lot. It's quite surprising how much work you do by simply traveling.
This post is pointless. I feel restless, stressed, irritated and random. PMS. Arhhhhh! I need to talk to someone by the end of the day or I'll go nuts. Verbal vomit. Bleah. I'm going to nap.
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I've come to realised just how different guy's frequency is from girls. It's very very VERY different. I have soooo much more to say, but I can't. Not here. Not yet. The person I can tell is currently unavailable. Sigh.
Today has been a fairly lonely day. I foresee more of such days to come. hohohohelp. haha. I'm tired and I feel like whining. Next few weeks seem terribly packed. Since Os ended I've been losing the fats piled on while mugging without even trying to. A slight indication of the activities I've had. Basically, when you're out of the house, what you do is walk a lot. It's quite surprising how much work you do by simply traveling.
This post is pointless. I feel restless, stressed, irritated and random. PMS. Arhhhhh! I need to talk to someone by the end of the day or I'll go nuts. Verbal vomit. Bleah. I'm going to nap.
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Friday, November 16, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Last day tmr!
I wish someone had told me that O levels would be this .. ordinary. I had expected it to be more happening or stressful. But it felt like any other school exam except that the papers are a bit different. Easier but unfamiliar. Hmm.
Somehow, in the process of crapping, I ended up really wanting to get 7 points. I think I mentioned that I wanted to prove certain things. Prove that God honors those who honor Him. Prove that one could keep going to church regularly, have a hetic CCA yet still do well. I wanted to lower the BM record by one more point. From 9 to 8 and now to 7. I also wanted to meet the expectations of the ppl around me. So screwing chem and english has naturally resulted in some fears and uncertainty. What if I really don't get my target?
But hey, God is good :)
I often say that because it's true.
"Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called sons of God."
It's quite ironic that I wanted to be a peacemaker but never really understood what it meant to be one. peacemakerliz. haha. It's even in my e-mail.
Anyway, I really liked the part about being sons of God.
*Sons share their father's possessions. So, they don't have to fight to get what they want. As a child of God, I already have everything. Silly to focus on results like that.
*Sons seek their father's approval. So, they don't need the approval of Man. Silly to let the expectation of man weigh me down.
*Sons serve father's reward. He gives and takes away. My heart will choose to say blessed be His name.
See, God is good. What will be, will be. Let Him do as He wishes. My results will be of His making not mine. I think God is fabulous :D
Thank God that I am His.
I wish someone had told me that O levels would be this .. ordinary. I had expected it to be more happening or stressful. But it felt like any other school exam except that the papers are a bit different. Easier but unfamiliar. Hmm.
Somehow, in the process of crapping, I ended up really wanting to get 7 points. I think I mentioned that I wanted to prove certain things. Prove that God honors those who honor Him. Prove that one could keep going to church regularly, have a hetic CCA yet still do well. I wanted to lower the BM record by one more point. From 9 to 8 and now to 7. I also wanted to meet the expectations of the ppl around me. So screwing chem and english has naturally resulted in some fears and uncertainty. What if I really don't get my target?
But hey, God is good :)
I often say that because it's true.
"Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called sons of God."
It's quite ironic that I wanted to be a peacemaker but never really understood what it meant to be one. peacemakerliz. haha. It's even in my e-mail.
Anyway, I really liked the part about being sons of God.
*Sons share their father's possessions. So, they don't have to fight to get what they want. As a child of God, I already have everything. Silly to focus on results like that.
*Sons seek their father's approval. So, they don't need the approval of Man. Silly to let the expectation of man weigh me down.
*Sons serve father's reward. He gives and takes away. My heart will choose to say blessed be His name.
See, God is good. What will be, will be. Let Him do as He wishes. My results will be of His making not mine. I think God is fabulous :D
Thank God that I am His.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Boohoo.
Warning! If you don't watch dramas this is going to be a really boring post so don't bother reading it.
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I've finally started watching the dramas that have been hogging the space in the computer.
Currently suffering the after blues of hanakimi jap version.
Yea, I did it again. Chiong through a drama. Started yesterday and finished it today. Goes to show how fantastic it is. Haha, i think this makes a boring topic for people who don't watch dramas.
I find that jap dramas have a very "values" feel to it. They always end their shows very nicely. Like they are trying to teach you something. It makes the after blues harder to bear. In this show while there's still romance, but it felt like the main focus was on friendship and letting youths be youths with their energy, hopes and all that. Really nice show.
I think I'm entering a jap phase. Did i mention that they also have fantastic soundtracks? Not surprising really. It often features an oboe, flute, violin or some other instrumental music. I like :D
Throw in a little funky music for the exaggerated scenes common in jdramas. Ahhhhhh.
So, having watched the taiwan and jap version of hanakimi, i must say the jap version is way better. In terms of adaptation of storyline, acting skills and looks, they win it hands down.
The ending of the taiwan version was just plain bad. I like how the jap version allowed everyone to find out about the main character's gender and seized the chance to teach about friendship.
The OST is fantastic. Sigh.
Time to sleep, tmr's geog MCQ paper. I'm so going to get full marks. HAH!
Warning! If you don't watch dramas this is going to be a really boring post so don't bother reading it.
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I've finally started watching the dramas that have been hogging the space in the computer.
Currently suffering the after blues of hanakimi jap version.
Yea, I did it again. Chiong through a drama. Started yesterday and finished it today. Goes to show how fantastic it is. Haha, i think this makes a boring topic for people who don't watch dramas.
I find that jap dramas have a very "values" feel to it. They always end their shows very nicely. Like they are trying to teach you something. It makes the after blues harder to bear. In this show while there's still romance, but it felt like the main focus was on friendship and letting youths be youths with their energy, hopes and all that. Really nice show.
I think I'm entering a jap phase. Did i mention that they also have fantastic soundtracks? Not surprising really. It often features an oboe, flute, violin or some other instrumental music. I like :D
Throw in a little funky music for the exaggerated scenes common in jdramas. Ahhhhhh.
So, having watched the taiwan and jap version of hanakimi, i must say the jap version is way better. In terms of adaptation of storyline, acting skills and looks, they win it hands down.
The ending of the taiwan version was just plain bad. I like how the jap version allowed everyone to find out about the main character's gender and seized the chance to teach about friendship.
The OST is fantastic. Sigh.
Time to sleep, tmr's geog MCQ paper. I'm so going to get full marks. HAH!
Monday, November 05, 2007
I'm in a good mood!
I crapped in SS again. like history.
I think many O lvl student was counting on good governance. But it didn't come out. Haha. When i saw the topics I just smiled to myself. I think the paper was quite fun in some weird way. I left the hall feeling quite liberated. Kinda like geog but on a smaller scale.
I'm just really really really thankful to God right now. I love my subject combination. It feels like it's so so fitting for me. I thank God that in his foresight he led me to choose this combi.
I remember laughing when i found out I got the same combination as joyce. Quite cool mah. At that point of time we had the same post. It was even cooler that we both contemplated switching to pure history. I think I told God that if she switched, then I would to. Like some indication thing. She didn't, she was too lazy. So I didn't. I was too lazy too. Haha.
Thank God for that.
Ah, see. God has a perfect plan. Same goes for our results.
So, in God we trust :D
I crapped in SS again. like history.
I think many O lvl student was counting on good governance. But it didn't come out. Haha. When i saw the topics I just smiled to myself. I think the paper was quite fun in some weird way. I left the hall feeling quite liberated. Kinda like geog but on a smaller scale.
I'm just really really really thankful to God right now. I love my subject combination. It feels like it's so so fitting for me. I thank God that in his foresight he led me to choose this combi.
I remember laughing when i found out I got the same combination as joyce. Quite cool mah. At that point of time we had the same post. It was even cooler that we both contemplated switching to pure history. I think I told God that if she switched, then I would to. Like some indication thing. She didn't, she was too lazy. So I didn't. I was too lazy too. Haha.
Thank God for that.
Ah, see. God has a perfect plan. Same goes for our results.
So, in God we trust :D
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Once again I found myself at Bishan CC trying to "study". This time, it was SS. When Rachel had a sudden urge to pee and drag me along with her to the toilet.
This was what I saw:
It's super super belated, but i'm not complaining. That's my first birthday cake :D
It finally feels like I've gotten a proper celebration. Thank you so much :D
Then...
WARNING! THIS IS WHAT O LEVEL DOES TO YOU!
Ridiculous! I guess we were a little high from the rich chocolate cake we shared :/
Well, we managed a total of 12 videos before we lost our stamina. Haha. Ask for a peep at our phones to view the rest :D
P.S. I wasn't trying to censor our faces. It's just like that. HAH!
This was what I saw:
It's super super belated, but i'm not complaining. That's my first birthday cake :D
It finally feels like I've gotten a proper celebration. Thank you so much :D
Then...
WARNING! THIS IS WHAT O LEVEL DOES TO YOU!
Ridiculous! I guess we were a little high from the rich chocolate cake we shared :/
Well, we managed a total of 12 videos before we lost our stamina. Haha. Ask for a peep at our phones to view the rest :D
P.S. I wasn't trying to censor our faces. It's just like that. HAH!
Friday, November 02, 2007
Physics was .... like chem. but slightly better.
Which makes science quite ....
Haha.
At least this time round I expected it. I took a good look at the tys last night and realized with horror that they pick topics to test on. Correction. They pick on small small topics. Further correction. They pick on topics that I can't quite do.
As expected, today's paper was.. on topics I was okay at but get tricked easily. I got my As through moments, magnetism and electromagnetism. Today, NONE of it came out. Naturally, i am worried.
But I thank God all the same. Like geog, i was freaking out last night coz I expected the paper to be thus. If not for his comforting presence, I would have freaked in the paper and done much much worse.
I've come to realize that O lvls doesn't really reflect much anyway. As always, grades don't reflect character. And in this case, the grades aren't even accurate in the first place. Do i sound like a sore loser? haha. I probably do, but hey there's truth in my observation.
In his hands then. I trust God.
Anyway, I'm going to score full marks for paper 1 so it doesn't matter :D
Which makes science quite ....
Haha.
At least this time round I expected it. I took a good look at the tys last night and realized with horror that they pick topics to test on. Correction. They pick on small small topics. Further correction. They pick on topics that I can't quite do.
As expected, today's paper was.. on topics I was okay at but get tricked easily. I got my As through moments, magnetism and electromagnetism. Today, NONE of it came out. Naturally, i am worried.
But I thank God all the same. Like geog, i was freaking out last night coz I expected the paper to be thus. If not for his comforting presence, I would have freaked in the paper and done much much worse.
I've come to realize that O lvls doesn't really reflect much anyway. As always, grades don't reflect character. And in this case, the grades aren't even accurate in the first place. Do i sound like a sore loser? haha. I probably do, but hey there's truth in my observation.
In his hands then. I trust God.
Anyway, I'm going to score full marks for paper 1 so it doesn't matter :D
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
I am so tempted to watch all my dramas now.
I am so distracted I can't study.
I am struggling to not let go of myself now.
I am craving release from the many weeks of "Thou Shall Not"s.
GAH! I just have to go to school 4 more times and it's over. OVER OVER OVER!
4 times sounds so fast. I can't believe those 4 times are spread over 2 weeks :(
Phyics is on friday. I must get an A1. I must not screw it like chemistry. I must not be complacent. I must study, I must practice. I must do all these but I can't. Booo. I don't have the stamina left to keep pushing ahead.
God please help me.
I am so distracted I can't study.
I am struggling to not let go of myself now.
I am craving release from the many weeks of "Thou Shall Not"s.
GAH! I just have to go to school 4 more times and it's over. OVER OVER OVER!
4 times sounds so fast. I can't believe those 4 times are spread over 2 weeks :(
Phyics is on friday. I must get an A1. I must not screw it like chemistry. I must not be complacent. I must study, I must practice. I must do all these but I can't. Booo. I don't have the stamina left to keep pushing ahead.
God please help me.
Monday, October 29, 2007
The rain woke me up while I was in deep sleep. (it splattered on my face :/)
If what Dawn said is accurate, I would feel sleepy the whole day.
And what Dawn said is accurate. So i felt sleepy the whole day.
My brain was lagging during english paper 1 and through it all i felt like ****ing.
So it's kinda not surprising I couldn't finish my english compo let alone check it.
ENGLISH IS DOOM!!!!!
I think i'm going to get a B3 :(
On the other hand, paper 2 was quite ok and e maths was a breeze :D
Well, I shall take Pastor Mark's advice and sleep after depressing papers. Haha. Such a nice weather to take a snooze too.
8 papers down, 8 more to go.
God knows what He's doing.
I trust God.
If what Dawn said is accurate, I would feel sleepy the whole day.
And what Dawn said is accurate. So i felt sleepy the whole day.
My brain was lagging during english paper 1 and through it all i felt like ****ing.
So it's kinda not surprising I couldn't finish my english compo let alone check it.
ENGLISH IS DOOM!!!!!
I think i'm going to get a B3 :(
On the other hand, paper 2 was quite ok and e maths was a breeze :D
Well, I shall take Pastor Mark's advice and sleep after depressing papers. Haha. Such a nice weather to take a snooze too.
8 papers down, 8 more to go.
God knows what He's doing.
I trust God.
Friday, October 26, 2007
I SURVIVED.
I am alive and well.
Not really, I was sick this morning. BUT, praise God, my flu and lethargy miraculously went away in time for the paper this afternoon. Ah seriously, God has been this strong and comforting presence throughout the week. I don't know how others managed this week without him.
So how was the paper?
I went in with 1 strong topic and 1 er ok topic.
The er ok topic came out. War in Pacific.
So I had the details in my brain, but not the categories. Like the main points. Which was quite strange coz I normally have the main points but not the details. SO, i anyhow write lar. I wrote a lot of crap, but they kind of made sense so i hope the examiners buy it.
E.g. Why did the Japanese attack Pear Harbour?
One of my points:
Japan wanted to prove it's might and tatical superiority. It is known that the westerners had drawn cartoons depicting the Japanese as cross-eyed little men who could not shoot properly. As Japan was a proud nation, they felt insulted. Hence they attacked Pearl Harbour to prove to the Americans that not only were they people who could shoot properly, they could do so better than the Americans.
Quite crappy right?
I didn't write just that lar, but that's the gist of it. My answer was very very long. So you can imagine how much stuff I was making up. But it's not really lies coz there were indeed such cartoons. I've seen it before. I think it was in sec 2 history text.
Well, I think overall this week's paper were all quite okay with the exception of chemistry.
I'm really really thankful for all the help God has given me this week.
He's the BEST! i tell you!
I would swear by Him the way some people swear by Chicken essence. Actually more than that. But then again, I am not allowed to swear.
Down to english, e maths and physics.
I have very high hopes for physics.
O levels is starting to feel kinda fun. KINDA. means not really, but just.. kinda.
Time to get some proper rest after a terribly tiring week.
Ah, I do hope I can sleep well now that the scary week is over.
and indeed, the joy of the Lord has been my strength :)
I am alive and well.
Not really, I was sick this morning. BUT, praise God, my flu and lethargy miraculously went away in time for the paper this afternoon. Ah seriously, God has been this strong and comforting presence throughout the week. I don't know how others managed this week without him.
So how was the paper?
I went in with 1 strong topic and 1 er ok topic.
The er ok topic came out. War in Pacific.
So I had the details in my brain, but not the categories. Like the main points. Which was quite strange coz I normally have the main points but not the details. SO, i anyhow write lar. I wrote a lot of crap, but they kind of made sense so i hope the examiners buy it.
E.g. Why did the Japanese attack Pear Harbour?
One of my points:
Japan wanted to prove it's might and tatical superiority. It is known that the westerners had drawn cartoons depicting the Japanese as cross-eyed little men who could not shoot properly. As Japan was a proud nation, they felt insulted. Hence they attacked Pearl Harbour to prove to the Americans that not only were they people who could shoot properly, they could do so better than the Americans.
Quite crappy right?
I didn't write just that lar, but that's the gist of it. My answer was very very long. So you can imagine how much stuff I was making up. But it's not really lies coz there were indeed such cartoons. I've seen it before. I think it was in sec 2 history text.
Well, I think overall this week's paper were all quite okay with the exception of chemistry.
I'm really really thankful for all the help God has given me this week.
He's the BEST! i tell you!
I would swear by Him the way some people swear by Chicken essence. Actually more than that. But then again, I am not allowed to swear.
Down to english, e maths and physics.
I have very high hopes for physics.
O levels is starting to feel kinda fun. KINDA. means not really, but just.. kinda.
Time to get some proper rest after a terribly tiring week.
Ah, I do hope I can sleep well now that the scary week is over.
and indeed, the joy of the Lord has been my strength :)
Thursday, October 25, 2007
I AM LIBERATED!
LIBERATED I TELL YOU!
I SURVIVED GEOGRAPHY!!
means, I AM GOING TO SURVIVE THIS WEEK!
Last night I was SOOO tempted to give up on O levels.
I was totally freaking out.
Like, "Oh Crap! I never gonna finish everything on time! I CAN'T DO THIS!! I CAN'T DO THIS! I want to stop studying NOWWWWW! I'm going to get like, a B3 for everything and get 18 points! SO I SHOULD JUST GIVE UP NOOW! GIVE UP! GIVE UP!"
I felt like I was running 2.4km, and the stitches were starting to kick in. And every muscle in your body was screaming STOP! But you know if you stop, you're going to fail. Then you hear that voice in your head saying, "at the rate you're going, you're going to fail anyway. So just stop now and save yourself the trouble."
Sounds familiar?
LIES! ALL LIES!
Lies from the father of all lies.
Thank God, that by some miracle, I managed to hear the tiny small voice over all that commotion in my head that said, SHUT UP AND PRAY.
And so, I collapsed on my bed, and just let the spirit utter in groans I do not understand all that was on my mind.
Thank God that I did so.
Coz I realised how silly I was. Ah please. Those thoughts were obviously from the devil. HELLO. I AM A CHILD OF GOD. I don't take orders from the enemy.
It's quite cool that I flipped through the bible and "happened" (it's obviously the hand of God lar) to find a lot of relevant verses.
Can you believe, I actually DOUBTED GOD?
Coz He was my miracle in geog mid years and prelim. Hello. I studied ONE DAY before the exam and I did well. I was saying, God, I can't count on you to make the miracle happen again what. I'm on my own. I'M DOOMED on my own.
Ah, O level makes people do silly things.
I prayed that I would enter the hall with joy, and leave with joy.
And indeed, before I entered the hall, I was excited about the paper. God would do His miracle :D
And yes indeed, I left with JOY :D
Haha, I could do every single question I attempted. Somehow the facts just came to mind. What I studied and what I predicted came out.
Now I just hope that I had not misinterpreted the question and hope that the examiners can read my handwritting :/ I suppose most of you know how doing a pure geog paper can get.
AND SO,
I FEEL SO LIBERATED! RIGHT NOW!
The scariest paper is over!
It's so fun to blog about o levels!
It only happens once in a life time (well, it better!) and i experience such a myriad of emotions.
Aha! History tmr!
I bet all the pure hist girls are super super stressed now. At least it's half. I had like three quarter of my pure. I love geography now. Haha. I always hate it before the paper starts and love it after that coz it's really not that tough!
Well, tmr I'm only going in with 2 chapters out of 10. Let's see what happens :D
And in all things may His name be praise! :D
You set my feet to dancing
You fill my heart with joy
LIBERATED I TELL YOU!
I SURVIVED GEOGRAPHY!!
means, I AM GOING TO SURVIVE THIS WEEK!
Last night I was SOOO tempted to give up on O levels.
I was totally freaking out.
Like, "Oh Crap! I never gonna finish everything on time! I CAN'T DO THIS!! I CAN'T DO THIS! I want to stop studying NOWWWWW! I'm going to get like, a B3 for everything and get 18 points! SO I SHOULD JUST GIVE UP NOOW! GIVE UP! GIVE UP!"
I felt like I was running 2.4km, and the stitches were starting to kick in. And every muscle in your body was screaming STOP! But you know if you stop, you're going to fail. Then you hear that voice in your head saying, "at the rate you're going, you're going to fail anyway. So just stop now and save yourself the trouble."
Sounds familiar?
LIES! ALL LIES!
Lies from the father of all lies.
Thank God, that by some miracle, I managed to hear the tiny small voice over all that commotion in my head that said, SHUT UP AND PRAY.
And so, I collapsed on my bed, and just let the spirit utter in groans I do not understand all that was on my mind.
Thank God that I did so.
Coz I realised how silly I was. Ah please. Those thoughts were obviously from the devil. HELLO. I AM A CHILD OF GOD. I don't take orders from the enemy.
It's quite cool that I flipped through the bible and "happened" (it's obviously the hand of God lar) to find a lot of relevant verses.
Can you believe, I actually DOUBTED GOD?
Coz He was my miracle in geog mid years and prelim. Hello. I studied ONE DAY before the exam and I did well. I was saying, God, I can't count on you to make the miracle happen again what. I'm on my own. I'M DOOMED on my own.
Ah, O level makes people do silly things.
I prayed that I would enter the hall with joy, and leave with joy.
And indeed, before I entered the hall, I was excited about the paper. God would do His miracle :D
And yes indeed, I left with JOY :D
Haha, I could do every single question I attempted. Somehow the facts just came to mind. What I studied and what I predicted came out.
Now I just hope that I had not misinterpreted the question and hope that the examiners can read my handwritting :/ I suppose most of you know how doing a pure geog paper can get.
AND SO,
I FEEL SO LIBERATED! RIGHT NOW!
The scariest paper is over!
It's so fun to blog about o levels!
It only happens once in a life time (well, it better!) and i experience such a myriad of emotions.
Aha! History tmr!
I bet all the pure hist girls are super super stressed now. At least it's half. I had like three quarter of my pure. I love geography now. Haha. I always hate it before the paper starts and love it after that coz it's really not that tough!
Well, tmr I'm only going in with 2 chapters out of 10. Let's see what happens :D
And in all things may His name be praise! :D
You set my feet to dancing
You fill my heart with joy
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Boooo.
Chem was like ...... ....... .........
When an acid and a carbonate react, what do you get?
Carbon dioxide, water and a salt right?!
It's like sooo common sense!!!
I went to write carbonic acid and a salt! LIke !#*%#$%??
I MUST HAVE BEEN MAD.
They went to ask all the weird weird things again. Reminds me of my physics paper in prelim. Hopefully the results would be the same. HAHA!
Does not help that my school ppl found the chem paper a little tough while Shalom said her friends found the paper VERY EASY. i'm .......
Ok, doesn't matter. It's over and out of my hands.
Besides, I have a future better than any of those education alone could get me.
Ah, i have to study geog now.
I've got the heaviest combination of subject anyone could get this week.
I'm highly irritatable now.
PMS and a crappy chem paper just don't go together >(
Chem was like ...... ....... .........
When an acid and a carbonate react, what do you get?
Carbon dioxide, water and a salt right?!
It's like sooo common sense!!!
I went to write carbonic acid and a salt! LIke !#*%#$%??
I MUST HAVE BEEN MAD.
They went to ask all the weird weird things again. Reminds me of my physics paper in prelim. Hopefully the results would be the same. HAHA!
Does not help that my school ppl found the chem paper a little tough while Shalom said her friends found the paper VERY EASY. i'm .......
Ok, doesn't matter. It's over and out of my hands.
Besides, I have a future better than any of those education alone could get me.
Ah, i have to study geog now.
I've got the heaviest combination of subject anyone could get this week.
I'm highly irritatable now.
PMS and a crappy chem paper just don't go together >(
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
WHOOOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A Maths is over!
It's over it's over it's over~
I can burn all my a maths stuff now. WAHAHAHHAHAHHA!
How was the paper?
It was quite simple, but a bit tricky.
At first, I couldn't do RV (they went to combine the plane with vectors :/) and functions. I could almost make sense of what they were telling me but something was missing. So close yet so far.
So I prayed. Desperately and fervently. Let me see, Let me see!
AND I SAW!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAH!
but i think my functions got careless mistake.
BUT i still saw!
I must have looked silly in the exam hall. Closing my eyes and placing my hand on the paper in the middle of it. But who cares? I SAW!
YESSSSSSSS! Can you feel my JOOOOOOOOY!?
Ok time to mug for chemistry!
1 down and 6 more to go :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
A Maths is over!
It's over it's over it's over~
I can burn all my a maths stuff now. WAHAHAHHAHAHHA!
How was the paper?
It was quite simple, but a bit tricky.
At first, I couldn't do RV (they went to combine the plane with vectors :/) and functions. I could almost make sense of what they were telling me but something was missing. So close yet so far.
So I prayed. Desperately and fervently. Let me see, Let me see!
AND I SAW!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAH!
but i think my functions got careless mistake.
BUT i still saw!
I must have looked silly in the exam hall. Closing my eyes and placing my hand on the paper in the middle of it. But who cares? I SAW!
YESSSSSSSS! Can you feel my JOOOOOOOOY!?
Ok time to mug for chemistry!
1 down and 6 more to go :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Monday, October 22, 2007
What am i doing online on the day of my paper?!
To blog of course.
So much for closing this blog till 12 Nov.
Well, I really wanted to blog my thoughts before our written paper begain.
I don't know what others were doing the night before our A Maths paper, but I was spending a fantastic time going high in the presence of God. So high, I laid in bed for 1.5h and still couldn't sleep. But well, I came to the conclusion that there's no way I'm going to get 7 pts for O lvl on my own. In terms of prepardness: Mid-years> Prelims> O lvls
Fantastic right?
However, with God, I can! If He wanted to, He could make me score full marks for every single paper what. Last night, I felt as if He was daring me to ask for it, daring me to believe that it can happen. He made me look at my results since Sec 3 that weren't exactly pretty, but were always better than expected or deserved. What am i suppose to infer?!
Whatever it is, it's not in my hands anymore.
Responsibility + Rights = Privileges + Blessings :D
Whatever is committed into His hands, He will protect.
I love my parents, I love growing up in a Christian environment.
I think it's so cool, that we prayed together last night to commit everything into His hands. Oh, and also to commit the rest of the cell who are taking O lvls too.
I feel as if the whole church is supporting us as we battle this monster. All the prayers, well-wishes, support, teaching etc. and it's just O lvls.
Ah, I'm going to walk in later knowing that I'm not alone. There's family and friends plus God and angels with me. I'm so blessed :D
Oh oh. This morning a chain msg was going around.
"this is a gd luck chain. Send this to 10 of your friends to get >80 for all your exams if not u will be cursed. DO NOT SEND BACK. try it since its for Os!"
I was like, what the. Why try to curse ppl on the day of O lvls?! Anyway, being so high, I send a reply back asking my friend to forward it to the person who send the msg to her and so on.
"the Lord [my] God would not listen to [the person who's trying to curse us] but turned the curse into a blessing for [me] because the Lord [my] God loves [me]."
Deut 23:5
Haha, let's see whether I get "cursed" for not forwarding the msg or blessed instead.
I reckon the latter.
Seems like there's a lot on my mind before the exam.
I'm not going to make any careless mistakes later :D
And so, with my too jovial mood, I shall take the paper later.
Yes! It's starting at last!
To blog of course.
So much for closing this blog till 12 Nov.
Well, I really wanted to blog my thoughts before our written paper begain.
I don't know what others were doing the night before our A Maths paper, but I was spending a fantastic time going high in the presence of God. So high, I laid in bed for 1.5h and still couldn't sleep. But well, I came to the conclusion that there's no way I'm going to get 7 pts for O lvl on my own. In terms of prepardness: Mid-years> Prelims> O lvls
Fantastic right?
However, with God, I can! If He wanted to, He could make me score full marks for every single paper what. Last night, I felt as if He was daring me to ask for it, daring me to believe that it can happen. He made me look at my results since Sec 3 that weren't exactly pretty, but were always better than expected or deserved. What am i suppose to infer?!
Whatever it is, it's not in my hands anymore.
Responsibility + Rights = Privileges + Blessings :D
Whatever is committed into His hands, He will protect.
I love my parents, I love growing up in a Christian environment.
I think it's so cool, that we prayed together last night to commit everything into His hands. Oh, and also to commit the rest of the cell who are taking O lvls too.
I feel as if the whole church is supporting us as we battle this monster. All the prayers, well-wishes, support, teaching etc. and it's just O lvls.
Ah, I'm going to walk in later knowing that I'm not alone. There's family and friends plus God and angels with me. I'm so blessed :D
Oh oh. This morning a chain msg was going around.
"this is a gd luck chain. Send this to 10 of your friends to get >80 for all your exams if not u will be cursed. DO NOT SEND BACK. try it since its for Os!"
I was like, what the. Why try to curse ppl on the day of O lvls?! Anyway, being so high, I send a reply back asking my friend to forward it to the person who send the msg to her and so on.
"the Lord [my] God would not listen to [the person who's trying to curse us] but turned the curse into a blessing for [me] because the Lord [my] God loves [me]."
Deut 23:5
Haha, let's see whether I get "cursed" for not forwarding the msg or blessed instead.
I reckon the latter.
Seems like there's a lot on my mind before the exam.
I'm not going to make any careless mistakes later :D
And so, with my too jovial mood, I shall take the paper later.
Yes! It's starting at last!
Saturday, October 20, 2007
SECTION!
Aha! They're so sweet. And they were also the first to play me a birthday song! Awww...
Sometimes, I think they treat me better than I treat them.
Thank you my lovely juniors! Haha, just what I needed while mugging :D
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Hmm.. I wonder where I should go from here.
There are things I want to blog about but fear it's not suited to be on a blog. Well, let me start with an incident today then.
While waiting for the train to come, I brooded about things that had happened, or rather, not happen. Time passes fast when one broods, and all too soon the train was here. I stood up and walked past the list of train stops, only to realize that I've been waiting for the wrong train.
Ah, how silly!
I wonder if it symbolizes something, though I hope not.
I wonder if I should talk to someone. But it is not my way to unload my sorrows on another and dampen their day. Well, let monday come quickly then.
While we know certain facts, like how I know that God understands, knowledge doesn't keep the emotions at bay. It simply makes them bearable.
Oh, I'm not depressed. Just upset with certain stuff and taking the chance to ponder and learn about human nature and myself from the feelings it ignites. Quite interesting, really.
If asked a word to describe my Sixteenth birthday, I would say: unexpected.
In 2 days, we commence.
Friday, September 28, 2007
I did well for prelims :D at least in my opinion.
Did better than expected. Now why does that sound so cliche? Coz it has happened to me so many times that ppl don't believe me when I say I'm going to do badly. But it's really not my doing!! I don't know why He's so good to me, but He just is. I don't deserve anything from God but He still gives all the same.
Don't look at me, look at Him. He's the one behind everything. He's my secret to all my "luck" or whatever you wish to call it.
I also want to thank the leaders who have been helping us in our studies. Especially Cyrus (if he reads this) who saved my ass for physics. That's sounds strange. haha. But ya, i'm really blessed to have a supportive environment to study in. =)
Well, My slogans till O lvls:
" I WILL NOT MAKE ANY CARELESS MISTAKE IN O LEVELS!"
"7 points, 7 points, 7 points!"
I'll repeat that to myself 10 times a day. I hope self-fulfilling prophecy works. hoho.
Did better than expected. Now why does that sound so cliche? Coz it has happened to me so many times that ppl don't believe me when I say I'm going to do badly. But it's really not my doing!! I don't know why He's so good to me, but He just is. I don't deserve anything from God but He still gives all the same.
Don't look at me, look at Him. He's the one behind everything. He's my secret to all my "luck" or whatever you wish to call it.
I also want to thank the leaders who have been helping us in our studies. Especially Cyrus (if he reads this) who saved my ass for physics. That's sounds strange. haha. But ya, i'm really blessed to have a supportive environment to study in. =)
Well, My slogans till O lvls:
" I WILL NOT MAKE ANY CARELESS MISTAKE IN O LEVELS!"
"7 points, 7 points, 7 points!"
I'll repeat that to myself 10 times a day. I hope self-fulfilling prophecy works. hoho.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
This morning I came down from the clouds of complacency and landed on my two feet.
My first 2 results were quite terrible. This is what you get when you're complacent. Do not be decieved, God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.
But rather than taking this negatively, I'm quite thankful for it actually. I've been lacking the drive to chiong through this final 3 weeks. With this minor setback (at least God was good and didn't let it be a major setback), at least I know I won't be slacking off.
On an even brighter side, my next 2 subjects improved.
Praise God! Especially for chem - classic grade jumping example.
By His grace, I found a good tutor 2 weeks before mid-year who helped to turn my Cs (I was mostly at the bottom of the class for chem) into an A!
So in the end, my day ended quite well.
Minusing SS which i failed by 1 mark, so far I've gotten 7 points for 3 subjects with english having gone through moderation.
Ahh, in everything, THANK GOD!
My first 2 results were quite terrible. This is what you get when you're complacent. Do not be decieved, God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.
But rather than taking this negatively, I'm quite thankful for it actually. I've been lacking the drive to chiong through this final 3 weeks. With this minor setback (at least God was good and didn't let it be a major setback), at least I know I won't be slacking off.
On an even brighter side, my next 2 subjects improved.
Praise God! Especially for chem - classic grade jumping example.
By His grace, I found a good tutor 2 weeks before mid-year who helped to turn my Cs (I was mostly at the bottom of the class for chem) into an A!
So in the end, my day ended quite well.
Minusing SS which i failed by 1 mark, so far I've gotten 7 points for 3 subjects with english having gone through moderation.
Ahh, in everything, THANK GOD!
Sunday, September 23, 2007
As of tmr, I'll be exactly 4 weeks to O levels.
I've already gotten myself a battle plan. No computer except on weekends with the exception of this thurs and fri as I should be ranting about results. Oh, and tv only after 7pm. 2 weeks before Os, no using of computer at all.
Today, the weather decided to pull the same trick on me as it did last week. When I left the house, the sky was clear and sunny. When i was on the bus, the sky turned dark and it begun to rain heavily. This time i was luckier. Because I left the house late, I was still on bus 1 and could buy an umbrella before taking bus 2 to church as compared to being on bus 2 when it started raining last week. I'm quite certain that the time it rained today was almost the same as last week. Freaky huh?
There's this series of picture my mom took of me when I was young. Ok, not series, just 2 pictures. With it were 2 captions.
"Are you coming with me?"
"If not, i'm going on my own."
That's how I feel right now. I like to rally ppl to join me in what I believe is good. That's why I'm so for the idea of encouragement. But it feels like no one's following. So if they're not coming with me, I'm going on my own. Actually, I think i've been doing that for quite some time already. I pray that I'm heading the right way.
I think it's a great tragedy to live as if God didn't exist. To live never being who you were made to be. It's tragic if we die missing the whole point of living. And the point of living is definitely not just about getting good grades and a good job. If life was like that, it's a great tragedy indeed.
Well, I really want to do as the speaker said today. Follow the Holy Spirit. Follow until his plans have materialized and I've reached heaven. That way, I'll be heading the right way.
Ok, no more using of computer till the weekend!
Or maybe this friday.
I've already gotten myself a battle plan. No computer except on weekends with the exception of this thurs and fri as I should be ranting about results. Oh, and tv only after 7pm. 2 weeks before Os, no using of computer at all.
Today, the weather decided to pull the same trick on me as it did last week. When I left the house, the sky was clear and sunny. When i was on the bus, the sky turned dark and it begun to rain heavily. This time i was luckier. Because I left the house late, I was still on bus 1 and could buy an umbrella before taking bus 2 to church as compared to being on bus 2 when it started raining last week. I'm quite certain that the time it rained today was almost the same as last week. Freaky huh?
There's this series of picture my mom took of me when I was young. Ok, not series, just 2 pictures. With it were 2 captions.
"Are you coming with me?"
"If not, i'm going on my own."
That's how I feel right now. I like to rally ppl to join me in what I believe is good. That's why I'm so for the idea of encouragement. But it feels like no one's following. So if they're not coming with me, I'm going on my own. Actually, I think i've been doing that for quite some time already. I pray that I'm heading the right way.
I think it's a great tragedy to live as if God didn't exist. To live never being who you were made to be. It's tragic if we die missing the whole point of living. And the point of living is definitely not just about getting good grades and a good job. If life was like that, it's a great tragedy indeed.
Well, I really want to do as the speaker said today. Follow the Holy Spirit. Follow until his plans have materialized and I've reached heaven. That way, I'll be heading the right way.
Ok, no more using of computer till the weekend!
Or maybe this friday.
Friday, September 14, 2007
My Mood Now:D
ALMOST rainy mornings are the best :D
Didn't have to go to school today so i slept in, woke up to a very shiok weather and spend a wonderful time with God. Today's devotion went along the line of God being the one who predestined things. Which is a timely msg since I've been fretting about where to go after Os. It reminded me that ultimately He's the one who's in control and paving my path.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.
Proverbs 16:24
He'll do as He wishes so I needn't fret. haha.
Just a random thought. I've tried living for man before and got tired out. I tried living for myself and was never satisfied. So i tried living for God and got the best results.
Ok, my brothers are finally back. Have been feeling like an only child for a week with one in the army and the other in China. The house felt quite empty. I've realised that as we got older, we argued less. Good what.
Anyway, with his return, I've got the Secret DVD!! Now I can watch it again and again. Especially the piano battle. Yea! Oh, and i was quite surprised he got me a bag. Seems like he's starting to treat me better. hoho.
Time to slack off a little while. My revision schedule starts on monday :(
ALMOST rainy mornings are the best :D
Didn't have to go to school today so i slept in, woke up to a very shiok weather and spend a wonderful time with God. Today's devotion went along the line of God being the one who predestined things. Which is a timely msg since I've been fretting about where to go after Os. It reminded me that ultimately He's the one who's in control and paving my path.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.
Proverbs 16:24
He'll do as He wishes so I needn't fret. haha.
Just a random thought. I've tried living for man before and got tired out. I tried living for myself and was never satisfied. So i tried living for God and got the best results.
Ok, my brothers are finally back. Have been feeling like an only child for a week with one in the army and the other in China. The house felt quite empty. I've realised that as we got older, we argued less. Good what.
Anyway, with his return, I've got the Secret DVD!! Now I can watch it again and again. Especially the piano battle. Yea! Oh, and i was quite surprised he got me a bag. Seems like he's starting to treat me better. hoho.
Time to slack off a little while. My revision schedule starts on monday :(
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
PRELIMS ARE OVER!
I feel like doing the dance Evan Almighty did, but I have no idea how. Haha.
Results shall be out on 27 Sept. Fingers crossed till then.
I suddenly find myself with nothing to do.
No dramas to watch, no games to play, no brothers at home, no books to read. So i've been practicing just ONE song on the piano over and over again. I think my parents and neighbours must be sick of the tune by now. Let's see, i've been playing it everyday since last monday. I heard Josiah has been doing the same thing too. Can't help that it's a nice song to play. Your fingers feel more shiok than your ears.
Oooh, my tv show's starting.
I feel like doing the dance Evan Almighty did, but I have no idea how. Haha.
Results shall be out on 27 Sept. Fingers crossed till then.
I suddenly find myself with nothing to do.
No dramas to watch, no games to play, no brothers at home, no books to read. So i've been practicing just ONE song on the piano over and over again. I think my parents and neighbours must be sick of the tune by now. Let's see, i've been playing it everyday since last monday. I heard Josiah has been doing the same thing too. Can't help that it's a nice song to play. Your fingers feel more shiok than your ears.
Oooh, my tv show's starting.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
They are so mean!
Physics was crap.
The questions were so uncommon I bet you won't find it in the TYS or physics workout. Everything i've been practicing didn't come out. There goes my A1. My 2nd best subject is now my worst paper. Bleah.
On the other hand, E Maths was good.
Thank God that my head which was threatening to throb painfully, didn't. Prelims are almost over! Yay. But i wonder what kind of JC i can get into for the first 3 weeks. I estimate 17 points. Hoho.
Oh well. It's over.
God has already shown me a lot of mercy in my studies. And for that I'm grateful despite everything.
Fight for O levels!
That's like, the only thing i seem to talk about these days.
Physics was crap.
The questions were so uncommon I bet you won't find it in the TYS or physics workout. Everything i've been practicing didn't come out. There goes my A1. My 2nd best subject is now my worst paper. Bleah.
On the other hand, E Maths was good.
Thank God that my head which was threatening to throb painfully, didn't. Prelims are almost over! Yay. But i wonder what kind of JC i can get into for the first 3 weeks. I estimate 17 points. Hoho.
Oh well. It's over.
God has already shown me a lot of mercy in my studies. And for that I'm grateful despite everything.
Fight for O levels!
That's like, the only thing i seem to talk about these days.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
I dropped my phone on the floor ONCE from a height of 50 cm and it stopped working.
Nuts I tell you.
I prayed really hard and hit my phone on my hand a few times and TADA! It works.
Thank God! literally.
I'm feeling excited. I really want things to change.
You know how when we're young, we have lots of dreams and aspiration? People would wish that we would grow up quickly, mature and learn to differentiate between dreams and reality. So we grow up, we see the world and learn that it's not such a beautiful place after all. We get disheartened, we grow bitter and angry with the world. It's times like this that you wish that you could be a kid again, believing that there isn't evil in the world and that all our dreams can turn into a reality.
How ironic.
Today, I promised God that I wouldn't watch any dramas until after O lvls.
I was kind of reluctant at first, coz technically, there's nth wrong in watching dramas just that I have a tendency to get addicted. Then He was like, I can die on the cross for you but you can't even give up doing what you like for me? So i'm stopping. Despite being in the middle of a really really really good kdrama called Coffee Prince.
Somehow this week I kept thinking about what I've done for God. He did everything for us. But what have I done for Him? I thought about how when 2 people are in love they often do silly things and make fools of themselves. It struck me that I never actually made a fool of myself for Him before. Call this love?
So after a long period of inactivity, I'm trying really hard to take up my cross once again and follow him. Yea, I got tired and I slacked off. But it's time to get up and do something for Him.
This change of heart is partly because on tuesday night, after hearing Joey talk and stuff, I suddenly imagined myself in a courtroom with God as the judge. I felt so stifled by this feeling of fear and dread. It's like, God was going to play a video of my life and see what I've done for Him. I was fearful because I knew it would reveal that i didn't do anything. Then suddenly, Jesus walked in. The fear was lifted and the vision stopped.
I sooo do not want to be caught in a situation like that. Better do something now while I still have the chance.
Ok, am I rambling? It feels like I am.
My brain feels kind of jumbled up.
Miracles can happen, miracles are waiting to happen.
Now who's gonna have the faith to make it happen? Maybe it's time to be like little kids again.
Scary to think how easily Satan deceives.
Ok, time to cram for geog P1 first.
Nuts I tell you.
I prayed really hard and hit my phone on my hand a few times and TADA! It works.
Thank God! literally.
I'm feeling excited. I really want things to change.
You know how when we're young, we have lots of dreams and aspiration? People would wish that we would grow up quickly, mature and learn to differentiate between dreams and reality. So we grow up, we see the world and learn that it's not such a beautiful place after all. We get disheartened, we grow bitter and angry with the world. It's times like this that you wish that you could be a kid again, believing that there isn't evil in the world and that all our dreams can turn into a reality.
How ironic.
Today, I promised God that I wouldn't watch any dramas until after O lvls.
I was kind of reluctant at first, coz technically, there's nth wrong in watching dramas just that I have a tendency to get addicted. Then He was like, I can die on the cross for you but you can't even give up doing what you like for me? So i'm stopping. Despite being in the middle of a really really really good kdrama called Coffee Prince.
Somehow this week I kept thinking about what I've done for God. He did everything for us. But what have I done for Him? I thought about how when 2 people are in love they often do silly things and make fools of themselves. It struck me that I never actually made a fool of myself for Him before. Call this love?
So after a long period of inactivity, I'm trying really hard to take up my cross once again and follow him. Yea, I got tired and I slacked off. But it's time to get up and do something for Him.
This change of heart is partly because on tuesday night, after hearing Joey talk and stuff, I suddenly imagined myself in a courtroom with God as the judge. I felt so stifled by this feeling of fear and dread. It's like, God was going to play a video of my life and see what I've done for Him. I was fearful because I knew it would reveal that i didn't do anything. Then suddenly, Jesus walked in. The fear was lifted and the vision stopped.
I sooo do not want to be caught in a situation like that. Better do something now while I still have the chance.
Ok, am I rambling? It feels like I am.
My brain feels kind of jumbled up.
Miracles can happen, miracles are waiting to happen.
Now who's gonna have the faith to make it happen? Maybe it's time to be like little kids again.
Scary to think how easily Satan deceives.
Ok, time to cram for geog P1 first.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Say goodbye to lousy motorola and hello to my new SE phone.
Sometimes, I really think that I'm treated better than I deserve. What kind of person gets a mp3 player and a new phone after losing a fairly expensive phone?
A very lucky person.
Right.I've been making effective use of my one week break. Not. I think the teachers thought that we would all be studying during the one week break. I thought so too. But seems like no one has been doing that.
Let's see what I managed to do.
I almost finished another korean drama.
I managed to catch 2 movies in the cinema - Hairspray, Secret(really nice show)
I managed to watch abt 5 movies or more on the computer (Dororo was good)
I spent the rest of my time trying to learn how to play the OSTs of Secret on the piano.
Oh, and i managed to cover 6 out of approx 30 chapters of phy.
One more.
As shown by the pictures below.
Guess where are we and what are we doing?
Note the time and the queue.
Our orders were finally taken.
Happy people with 6 dozen donuts.
Total time = 1hr 42min
Unglam unglam!
Yummy crepe.
Celebrating our Baptism day :D
Somehow it feels as if the picture quality of W850i is better than S500i though both are 2MP, but i shalln't complain.
At the rate I'm going, I seriously wonder if I would get my 3 A1s.
Sometimes, I really think that I'm treated better than I deserve. What kind of person gets a mp3 player and a new phone after losing a fairly expensive phone?
A very lucky person.
Right.I've been making effective use of my one week break. Not. I think the teachers thought that we would all be studying during the one week break. I thought so too. But seems like no one has been doing that.
Let's see what I managed to do.
I almost finished another korean drama.
I managed to catch 2 movies in the cinema - Hairspray, Secret(really nice show)
I managed to watch abt 5 movies or more on the computer (Dororo was good)
I spent the rest of my time trying to learn how to play the OSTs of Secret on the piano.
Oh, and i managed to cover 6 out of approx 30 chapters of phy.
One more.
As shown by the pictures below.
Guess where are we and what are we doing?Note the time and the queue.
Our orders were finally taken.Happy people with 6 dozen donuts.Total time = 1hr 42min
Unglam unglam!Yummy crepe.Celebrating our Baptism day :D
Somehow it feels as if the picture quality of W850i is better than S500i though both are 2MP, but i shalln't complain.
At the rate I'm going, I seriously wonder if I would get my 3 A1s.
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Sometimes you can't help but feel so small and inadequate when there are things to be done that requires more than just hard work and effort.
Anyway, I never thought I would ever say this, but I miss playing classical pieces. I remember telling my mom that I wanted to stop my piano lessons coz they were useless. I wanted to play pop pieces, I wanted to play church songs. Those, didn't really require what I was learning. But now I miss playing those pieces, and oh man, I actually miss practicing for exams. Hey, you get to master a really hard song. Quite cool what.
I think after O lvls when I really start my lessons again, I'll look back at this post and laugh at myself. Ah well, the grass is always greener on the other side.
For those who were wondering, I've given up on mastering the flight of the bumblebee. Haha. I can play the right and the left hand alone but not together. After awhile, the song gets really annoying :/ BUT, I have mastered the entertainer! Sort of lar. I'm gonna try the maple leaf rag after messing ard with the keyboard in church just now. Chopin's songs are nice :D
Ahhh.. i've got to work more on my playing.
jia you!
Anyway, I never thought I would ever say this, but I miss playing classical pieces. I remember telling my mom that I wanted to stop my piano lessons coz they were useless. I wanted to play pop pieces, I wanted to play church songs. Those, didn't really require what I was learning. But now I miss playing those pieces, and oh man, I actually miss practicing for exams. Hey, you get to master a really hard song. Quite cool what.
I think after O lvls when I really start my lessons again, I'll look back at this post and laugh at myself. Ah well, the grass is always greener on the other side.
For those who were wondering, I've given up on mastering the flight of the bumblebee. Haha. I can play the right and the left hand alone but not together. After awhile, the song gets really annoying :/ BUT, I have mastered the entertainer! Sort of lar. I'm gonna try the maple leaf rag after messing ard with the keyboard in church just now. Chopin's songs are nice :D
Ahhh.. i've got to work more on my playing.
jia you!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Finally, I CAN TAKE A BREATHER!
WHOOOO!!!
Yes! I'm ecstatic!!
After 3 days of intensive mugging, the worst of the worst is finally over!
For those who do not know, I DISLIKE my humans. papers the most. That's because I can't prepare in advance for them. So having all 3 of them in a row was quite a killer.
Anyway, they're OVER OVER OVER!!!! except geog p1 lar but it's mcq.
For those who have prayed/been praying for me so far, here's a big THANK YOU! They really made a difference. Somehow, I could feel God watching over me even as I did my papers. My marks ain't gonna be terrific, i know i didn't put in enough effort to expect that, but it's feels as if they are gonna be better than what my efforts were worth.
So, a disclaimer even before prelim is over and before the results come out in abt a month's time, all credit goes to God.
And they say, the bird's damn lucky.
But I know better. The bird's just blessed.
WHOOOO!!!
Yes! I'm ecstatic!!
After 3 days of intensive mugging, the worst of the worst is finally over!
For those who do not know, I DISLIKE my humans. papers the most. That's because I can't prepare in advance for them. So having all 3 of them in a row was quite a killer.
Anyway, they're OVER OVER OVER!!!! except geog p1 lar but it's mcq.
For those who have prayed/been praying for me so far, here's a big THANK YOU! They really made a difference. Somehow, I could feel God watching over me even as I did my papers. My marks ain't gonna be terrific, i know i didn't put in enough effort to expect that, but it's feels as if they are gonna be better than what my efforts were worth.
So, a disclaimer even before prelim is over and before the results come out in abt a month's time, all credit goes to God.
And they say, the bird's damn lucky.
But I know better. The bird's just blessed.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Yes! I've finally gotten the motivation to start studying - 2 weeks before prelim.
Seems like it's a habit I've developed. I'm not sure about sec 1, but if i remember correctly, I've always started studying only 2 weeks before exams since sec 2.
Crap. I hope i would have the drive to continue even after prelim.
Anyway, I'm here to post my prelim schedule for those who wish to know and pray.
Many thanks in advance.
20 Aug (Mon)- O lvl English Oral
I think I screwed up conversation. I used the word screwed.
27 Aug (Mon) - English/Social Studies
28 Aug (Tue) - A Maths P2/P.Geog P2
29 Aug (Wed) - Chem P1/P2/E.History (ahhhhhh!)
30 Aug (Thu) - A Maths P1
*Sept Holidays
10 Sept (Mon) - P.Geog P1
11 Sept (Tue) - E Maths P2/Physics P1/2
12 Sept (Wed) - Emaths P1
17 Sept (Mon) - Physics Prac
19 Sept (Wed) - Chem Prac
Seems like it's a habit I've developed. I'm not sure about sec 1, but if i remember correctly, I've always started studying only 2 weeks before exams since sec 2.
Crap. I hope i would have the drive to continue even after prelim.
Anyway, I'm here to post my prelim schedule for those who wish to know and pray.
Many thanks in advance.
I think I screwed up conversation. I used the word screwed.
17 Sept (Mon) - Physics Prac
19 Sept (Wed) - Chem Prac
Friday, August 10, 2007
W580i. Big screen, slider, flat. Grey blue/Orange white.
Oh my.
Ok. I'm suppose to do a game now.
"FUN" GAME
Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.
1. I think sharing straws is gross. Maybe that's because when I was young, there were a number of occasions when I found food stuck on the straw which I shared with my brothers. Imagine sucking that up :X
2. I have a strange opposite "curse" when it comes to my results. Generally, if I expect to get back good grades, I get bad ones. But when I think I'm gonna do badly, somehow I end up getting good grades. Oh, this does not apply to Chinese. I always get bad grades for that. ho hum. But in everything, give thanks, yes?
3. I want to see snow. FALLING. I used to cut rough paper into small squares and throw them out of the window. It's a pretty sight :) That was until I realised I was littering.
4. In Primary One, I wanted to become a president. The first female president of singapore. Then my brothers laughed at me. So instead I wanted to fly to the moon. I think Uncle David said he would bring me there. Maybe it was just a dream.
5. Here's a secret. I'm scared of heights. I don't dare to stand on the balcony of houses that are really high. I used to be scared of using the overhead bridge. I imagine I would fall if I walked too near to the side so I always walk in the middle whenever i had to use it :/
6. I never understood why people love going to town. I feel so crapified each time I'm there, I just want to go home. I imagine that I have a hundred things not yet done whenever I am there.
7. Sometimes I feel like a giant. Tall, big hands, big feet. I told my mom that if I grow anymore, I am going to see a doctor to get some growth stunting pills. Too bad the nurse said my growth rate was still within the normal range during health check up.
8. I want to dress better, but have no guts, no money (i spend too much on food), and almost no clothes that match my frame.
9. Surprise surprise. I like the chinese language. I just can't seem to read it, write it or speak it. So i just listen. To 93.3FM. To Mayday and S.H.E. Surprise surprise.
10. I think this game is quite fun. I think I imagine too much. I think I'm weird.
TAGS. Dawn, Jere, Rochelle, Jesse, HuiJun and Joyce.
Wahaha. I manage to think of 6 names.
Anyway,
Happy TWENTY-FIFTH birthday
to Daniel Yan.
This is a distorted photo, but it's the only single shot I have. HAHA.
Oh my.
Ok. I'm suppose to do a game now.
"FUN" GAME
Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.
1. I think sharing straws is gross. Maybe that's because when I was young, there were a number of occasions when I found food stuck on the straw which I shared with my brothers. Imagine sucking that up :X
2. I have a strange opposite "curse" when it comes to my results. Generally, if I expect to get back good grades, I get bad ones. But when I think I'm gonna do badly, somehow I end up getting good grades. Oh, this does not apply to Chinese. I always get bad grades for that. ho hum. But in everything, give thanks, yes?
3. I want to see snow. FALLING. I used to cut rough paper into small squares and throw them out of the window. It's a pretty sight :) That was until I realised I was littering.
4. In Primary One, I wanted to become a president. The first female president of singapore. Then my brothers laughed at me. So instead I wanted to fly to the moon. I think Uncle David said he would bring me there. Maybe it was just a dream.
5. Here's a secret. I'm scared of heights. I don't dare to stand on the balcony of houses that are really high. I used to be scared of using the overhead bridge. I imagine I would fall if I walked too near to the side so I always walk in the middle whenever i had to use it :/
6. I never understood why people love going to town. I feel so crapified each time I'm there, I just want to go home. I imagine that I have a hundred things not yet done whenever I am there.
7. Sometimes I feel like a giant. Tall, big hands, big feet. I told my mom that if I grow anymore, I am going to see a doctor to get some growth stunting pills. Too bad the nurse said my growth rate was still within the normal range during health check up.
8. I want to dress better, but have no guts, no money (i spend too much on food), and almost no clothes that match my frame.
9. Surprise surprise. I like the chinese language. I just can't seem to read it, write it or speak it. So i just listen. To 93.3FM. To Mayday and S.H.E. Surprise surprise.
10. I think this game is quite fun. I think I imagine too much. I think I'm weird.
TAGS. Dawn, Jere, Rochelle, Jesse, HuiJun and Joyce.
Wahaha. I manage to think of 6 names.
Anyway,
Happy TWENTY-FIFTH birthday
to Daniel Yan.
This is a distorted photo, but it's the only single shot I have. HAHA.
Monday, August 06, 2007
I am almost ready to declare my phone gone.
Tmr shall be the last attempt.
To say that I don't feel sad at all, is a lie. My phone was my mp3, camera, "gaming station" and alarm clock. I feel a little cut off from the world. But I'll survive. It's just a phone after all.
Ever heard of a guy called Nick Vujicic?
He is a guy with no limbs. I highly encourage you to watch THIS.
For people who are facing difficult situations.
I was reading through my message history on msn.
"I believe passionately about masterlife and the results it can bring" - 3 Sept '06
How did we end up treating masterlife as a really tedious and boring thing to do?
4 Sept '06, we saw our unfinished new church and was super excited about service.
How did coming to church end up a chore for some?
It's questions like these that will start to weigh you down as you ponder over the answers. Well, I'll encourage you to watch the video. Hear it from a man who has no limbs.
Tmr shall be the last attempt.
To say that I don't feel sad at all, is a lie. My phone was my mp3, camera, "gaming station" and alarm clock. I feel a little cut off from the world. But I'll survive. It's just a phone after all.
Ever heard of a guy called Nick Vujicic?
He is a guy with no limbs. I highly encourage you to watch THIS.
For people who are facing difficult situations.
I was reading through my message history on msn.
"I believe passionately about masterlife and the results it can bring" - 3 Sept '06
How did we end up treating masterlife as a really tedious and boring thing to do?
4 Sept '06, we saw our unfinished new church and was super excited about service.
How did coming to church end up a chore for some?
It's questions like these that will start to weigh you down as you ponder over the answers. Well, I'll encourage you to watch the video. Hear it from a man who has no limbs.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
I am feeling ...
low in spirits.
It was with a heavy heart that I went for FOP. Even after trying to quieten down my heart through prayer, I still did not feel ready for it. So, it was a good thing that we started with Don Moen. I must say, I felt greatly encouraged through his songs. For awhile, I thought everything had gotten better. But it all came back when I reached home.
I feel weary and disappointed. I don't know how it happened, but one moment there were people beside me, and the next, I'm all alone. I feel tired of conditional love, conditional support, well, just conditions. But I know I'm just the same.
More can still be done, and I believe more WILL be done.
"However when the Son of Man comes, will he still find faith on the earth?" - Luke 18:8
You are my strength
Strength like no other
Reaches to me
You are my hope
Hope like no other
Reaches to me
In the fullness of your grace
In the power of your name
You lift me up
low in spirits.
It was with a heavy heart that I went for FOP. Even after trying to quieten down my heart through prayer, I still did not feel ready for it. So, it was a good thing that we started with Don Moen. I must say, I felt greatly encouraged through his songs. For awhile, I thought everything had gotten better. But it all came back when I reached home.
I feel weary and disappointed. I don't know how it happened, but one moment there were people beside me, and the next, I'm all alone. I feel tired of conditional love, conditional support, well, just conditions. But I know I'm just the same.
More can still be done, and I believe more WILL be done.
"However when the Son of Man comes, will he still find faith on the earth?" - Luke 18:8
You are my strength
Strength like no other
Reaches to me
You are my hope
Hope like no other
Reaches to me
In the fullness of your grace
In the power of your name
You lift me up
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Tough times build tough people.
True no?
Someone said that it's better to hear the seemingly harsh words that are true, than to hear words that are diluted in order to spare the person from hurt.
I thought about it for quite awhile, and found it true. Hear only the good things? Nah. I would rather hear the truth as it is. It saves so much time. You know where you are going wrong, and can quickly deal with it. Not cut out to be a leader? Then quickly find out what you were really made to be instead of trying to be someone you're not.
Something that someone said reminded me of something someone else said which I used to repeat to others frequently. Imagine you start off with skill point 2 in a particular field. You work really hard and manage to get yourself to skill point 5. But no matter how hard you work, you can never do better than someone who started off with skill point 4. Well the point was to do something you're naturally gifted in.
I thought about myself and about others.
Have I been diluting my words too much and as a result, have been hindering another's development? Have I been trying to be someone or something that I'm not? Then where am I suppose to be? Who am I suppose to be? And as a group, where and who are we?
I think we are quite lost. Maybe what we need is someone who has the courage to speak the truth. Maybe harsh, but truth that will wake us up, open our eyes and then head in the right direction. This generation has a very lost feel to it.
So maybe there will be hurts and tears. But at the end of it all, we'll come out tougher. We'll come out thanking the person who woke us up.
After all, it is the tough ones who survive and win the race.
True no?
Someone said that it's better to hear the seemingly harsh words that are true, than to hear words that are diluted in order to spare the person from hurt.
I thought about it for quite awhile, and found it true. Hear only the good things? Nah. I would rather hear the truth as it is. It saves so much time. You know where you are going wrong, and can quickly deal with it. Not cut out to be a leader? Then quickly find out what you were really made to be instead of trying to be someone you're not.
Something that someone said reminded me of something someone else said which I used to repeat to others frequently. Imagine you start off with skill point 2 in a particular field. You work really hard and manage to get yourself to skill point 5. But no matter how hard you work, you can never do better than someone who started off with skill point 4. Well the point was to do something you're naturally gifted in.
I thought about myself and about others.
Have I been diluting my words too much and as a result, have been hindering another's development? Have I been trying to be someone or something that I'm not? Then where am I suppose to be? Who am I suppose to be? And as a group, where and who are we?
I think we are quite lost. Maybe what we need is someone who has the courage to speak the truth. Maybe harsh, but truth that will wake us up, open our eyes and then head in the right direction. This generation has a very lost feel to it.
So maybe there will be hurts and tears. But at the end of it all, we'll come out tougher. We'll come out thanking the person who woke us up.
After all, it is the tough ones who survive and win the race.
Friday, July 27, 2007
The weather is shiok.
Too bad that my sensitive nose can't survive this kind of weather. Currently hanging on to tissue packets for dear life as I sniff my health away.
Photos taken in school uniform in previous post have been removed after request from school.
Today, there was a small hoo-ha in school. Later, we sat around a table and had a fun time cracking jokes out of hurt/anger/spite or simply for the fun of it. It was fun meaningless talk. But even later, as I walked home and reflected on my actions, something didn't sit quite well with me.
How should i put it? Maybe it was the hypocrisy, but I felt wrong. So much for, "as long as it depends on you, live at peace with one another". So much for being a light.
I often forget that the world is watching and I wonder what image have I projected. Definitely not Christlikeness.
Someday, I'll be judged for every careless word I've uttered. What would my verdict be?
With these thoughts, I'll go back to school.
Others will curse the darkness. Let me not be one of them.
Too bad that my sensitive nose can't survive this kind of weather. Currently hanging on to tissue packets for dear life as I sniff my health away.
Photos taken in school uniform in previous post have been removed after request from school.
Today, there was a small hoo-ha in school. Later, we sat around a table and had a fun time cracking jokes out of hurt/anger/spite or simply for the fun of it. It was fun meaningless talk. But even later, as I walked home and reflected on my actions, something didn't sit quite well with me.
How should i put it? Maybe it was the hypocrisy, but I felt wrong. So much for, "as long as it depends on you, live at peace with one another". So much for being a light.
I often forget that the world is watching and I wonder what image have I projected. Definitely not Christlikeness.
Someday, I'll be judged for every careless word I've uttered. What would my verdict be?
With these thoughts, I'll go back to school.
Others will curse the darkness. Let me not be one of them.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Up till today, I still remember the devotion Mrs Khoo shared about running the race.
The key points were perserverence and running in a way such that you win. She compared our 4 years in St Margs to 4 rounds. Somehow, that analogy stuck.
I've always thought that the last round is the most interesting round to observe. You get to see all sorts of things. Some pick up their speed in the last round, sprinting through and emerging champions. Some come in hand-in-hand with another person, edging one another on to success. Still some slow down just before the finish line, completing the race fairly well but less than what they could have gotten. By the side, those that have finished, shout encouragement in between breaths. Then, there's my personal favourite, in which the onlookers begin to shout out, "Seventeen something liao! Quick run faster!"
It's my favourite because no matter how tired the person is, you'll see them run in with all their might. Such is the fear of failing and having to go through the agony all over again. They push themselves to the limit at the end, but can only fervently hope that that's enough. I think that's quite funny - in a dry manner. But really, it's not. The implications of failing is quite intimidating. Which is why I'm often shouting that to spur others on. It's my favourite after all.
Heading towards the end of my last lap, I'm starting to think about what kind of 'finisher' I will be. At the rate i'm going, I will end up as a "seventeen something liao" kind of finisher. It's a risky option, as I don't know whether I'll succeed in the end. That's cutting it wayyyy too close to the edge. Don't want to have to run it all again, do I?
Once again, I hear that voice saying,"Run in such a way as to get the prize."
As I get nearer to the end, the option of choosing my finishing style gets narrower and narrower. As of now, I don't have to be a "seventeen" finisher. Neither does anyone else. Yet. But time's running out, and if we don't start soon, that's what we'll be forced to be. So dear folks who have me on their msn list, please do me a favour and tell me to go study if I have been online for too long. You can be the bystanders who shout encouragement. haha.
Chilling period's over. Time to hit the papers : /
"Don't procastinate," that's what I keep telling myself.
The key points were perserverence and running in a way such that you win. She compared our 4 years in St Margs to 4 rounds. Somehow, that analogy stuck.
I've always thought that the last round is the most interesting round to observe. You get to see all sorts of things. Some pick up their speed in the last round, sprinting through and emerging champions. Some come in hand-in-hand with another person, edging one another on to success. Still some slow down just before the finish line, completing the race fairly well but less than what they could have gotten. By the side, those that have finished, shout encouragement in between breaths. Then, there's my personal favourite, in which the onlookers begin to shout out, "Seventeen something liao! Quick run faster!"
It's my favourite because no matter how tired the person is, you'll see them run in with all their might. Such is the fear of failing and having to go through the agony all over again. They push themselves to the limit at the end, but can only fervently hope that that's enough. I think that's quite funny - in a dry manner. But really, it's not. The implications of failing is quite intimidating. Which is why I'm often shouting that to spur others on. It's my favourite after all.
Heading towards the end of my last lap, I'm starting to think about what kind of 'finisher' I will be. At the rate i'm going, I will end up as a "seventeen something liao" kind of finisher. It's a risky option, as I don't know whether I'll succeed in the end. That's cutting it wayyyy too close to the edge. Don't want to have to run it all again, do I?
Once again, I hear that voice saying,"Run in such a way as to get the prize."
As I get nearer to the end, the option of choosing my finishing style gets narrower and narrower. As of now, I don't have to be a "seventeen" finisher. Neither does anyone else. Yet. But time's running out, and if we don't start soon, that's what we'll be forced to be. So dear folks who have me on their msn list, please do me a favour and tell me to go study if I have been online for too long. You can be the bystanders who shout encouragement. haha.
Chilling period's over. Time to hit the papers : /
"Don't procastinate," that's what I keep telling myself.
Friday, July 20, 2007
Racial Harmony Day Celebration, Wednesday
Somehow, although I wasn't intending to, I ended up wearing an ethnic costume for Racial Harmony day celebration. Well, since Maithilli called and offered, since our beloved teacher wanted to take a photo, and since it is my last year in St Margs, I ended up in one. Wah, in the end we didn't get a photo with the teacher, but I got a number of photo with my friends.
Here's me, looking quite ... in a ... i duno what is it called. I had a hard time trying to put on the pants. Apparently, the end of the pants IS suppose to be unable to go pass your calf. I thought I had gotten fatter!! lol.
3 kuku-heads posing for the camera. Clothes courtesy of Maithilli, who glady offered to bring the costumes. I think she brought 4 saris and 2 of whatever I'm wearing. I nearly died while trying to help her carry one of the plastic bags. Goes to show how heavy they were. Thanks Mai! :D
The most decent shot of Joyce and me. Sometimes I think we get too gay for our own good. Maybe that's why I can't seem to get all the geography worksheets done. ho :/
"The monsters are attacking!! Raaa-hhhhhh!! Everybody run for your life!!"
Get my point?
Uhhhhh.. we were trying to take some burst shots while using the timer. We didn't know when the picture was going to be taken. Somehow, we ended up with this shot. Out of point.
"Outscore, Outdo, Out of point!" That's my class slogan :/
Speech Day, Friday
I tell you, I am SOOO gonna be back for speech day next year. With a green robe and 7 distinctions. Wahahahah!!! So is everyone else. Right.
I realised just how much we have learned from our CCAs while the various groups were performing during speech day. I mean, for most of us, we enter our CCAs with almost nothing. Yet, you see them today, enjoying themselves as they do their thing on stage. We leave, equipped with a new skill. For some, a new passion. For others, lessons learnt that they will continue to carry with them throughout their lives. Imagine, you come in not knowing how to dance or play an instrument, yet you leave, a Pro. Amazing isn't it?
Well, that's just a random thought. Back to the photos.
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Photos removed as requested by school.
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That's all folks!
Somehow, although I wasn't intending to, I ended up wearing an ethnic costume for Racial Harmony day celebration. Well, since Maithilli called and offered, since our beloved teacher wanted to take a photo, and since it is my last year in St Margs, I ended up in one. Wah, in the end we didn't get a photo with the teacher, but I got a number of photo with my friends.
Here's me, looking quite ... in a ... i duno what is it called. I had a hard time trying to put on the pants. Apparently, the end of the pants IS suppose to be unable to go pass your calf. I thought I had gotten fatter!! lol.3 kuku-heads posing for the camera. Clothes courtesy of Maithilli, who glady offered to bring the costumes. I think she brought 4 saris and 2 of whatever I'm wearing. I nearly died while trying to help her carry one of the plastic bags. Goes to show how heavy they were. Thanks Mai! :DThe most decent shot of Joyce and me. Sometimes I think we get too gay for our own good. Maybe that's why I can't seem to get all the geography worksheets done. ho :/"The monsters are attacking!! Raaa-hhhhhh!! Everybody run for your life!!"Get my point?
Uhhhhh.. we were trying to take some burst shots while using the timer. We didn't know when the picture was going to be taken. Somehow, we ended up with this shot. Out of point."Outscore, Outdo, Out of point!" That's my class slogan :/
Speech Day, Friday
I tell you, I am SOOO gonna be back for speech day next year. With a green robe and 7 distinctions. Wahahahah!!! So is everyone else. Right.
I realised just how much we have learned from our CCAs while the various groups were performing during speech day. I mean, for most of us, we enter our CCAs with almost nothing. Yet, you see them today, enjoying themselves as they do their thing on stage. We leave, equipped with a new skill. For some, a new passion. For others, lessons learnt that they will continue to carry with them throughout their lives. Imagine, you come in not knowing how to dance or play an instrument, yet you leave, a Pro. Amazing isn't it?
Well, that's just a random thought. Back to the photos.
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Photos removed as requested by school.
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That's all folks!
Monday, July 16, 2007
Yay! I finally ran my 2.4 :D
Got it over and done with.
Can't believe it took 3.5 months before the teachers got around to letting us take the test. FYI, it's coz we missed one PE lesson on the day of SYF. When I finished, I just kept saying "Thank you Lord." Thank you that I'm still alive after everything. Not only that, but nothing bad happened to me. No stitch, no horrible knee-ache, no swollen ankles. Also because I was using the song One Way to maintain my speed. Haha. Thank God :D
Ok, Pictures pictures!!
I think a few others would be photoblogging abt the celebration. It'll be quite weird to see the same picture everywhere right? HAHA. So i'll just put some. I think Joey will upload all - when she gets around to doing it. Ho.
Got it over and done with.
Can't believe it took 3.5 months before the teachers got around to letting us take the test. FYI, it's coz we missed one PE lesson on the day of SYF. When I finished, I just kept saying "Thank you Lord." Thank you that I'm still alive after everything. Not only that, but nothing bad happened to me. No stitch, no horrible knee-ache, no swollen ankles. Also because I was using the song One Way to maintain my speed. Haha. Thank God :D
Ok, Pictures pictures!!
I think a few others would be photoblogging abt the celebration. It'll be quite weird to see the same picture everywhere right? HAHA. So i'll just put some. I think Joey will upload all - when she gets around to doing it. Ho.
So the reason I've not studied at all last week was because making these cards and balls, can be quite distracting. As in, making the ball required me to do a repeatative action so I decided to watch show at the same time lar. Hence, I got distracted from my studies. Me bad :X But it was nice to hear that they liked it :) I've always prefered giving handmade presents.
I don't know who started this. Karen?? She finished her bread and started to eat Joey's nutella with chee kuay (however you spell it) instead. They say it's nice, but I think it's gross. FYI, the smell is quite .... bad. Ack.
Hoho. This is quite comical despite the blurness. It's still a clearer shot compared to the video. So presenting to you the 3 birthday babies, as the guy called them, Joey, Cheryl and Shalom! P.S I know it can't be seen clearly, but Joey and Shalom are wearing clown hats. Lol.
Another blur shot. Pardon me, I had to use night mode coz we were seated in an area with no light above us. The picture didn't quite capture the moment, but these 3 silly birthday babies were messing around with their free dessert. Personally, I think they look quite unglam in this shot. Haha :p
A clearer shot of Dan as he sings on stage. Just look at this picture while listening to the video instead of watching it. Haha. Since it gives a clearer and better view after all. Anyway, I don't think the people who read this blog would grab him (ok that sounds funny), so there wasn't really a point for advertising. haha.
This may be a repeated picture, but it's quite funny wad. We look quite lame. lol. In case you didn't notice, Dan's hiding behind. I think he thought he would still be seen in the photo, but well, Joey blocked not just him, but Shalom's face too. gua gua.
Presenting, the Nine of us who went for the dinner. Still have quite a few lar. But I'll just let One picture do the job, since it would be repeated anyway. It was nice to see Cheryl among us again :)
My new cell leader and my old cell leader :) Somehow, I've always had a female cell leader. I think females add something to a cell that guys can't do. Haha. So i've been really blessed under their care :D
Finally, we all went home. Duh. haha. So the rest took the red line, while the three of us took the NEL home. Time to rest after an enjoyable day.
There you have it, the JCS birthday celebration. :D
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Joey, Shalom and Cheryl's birthday dinner at Fish and Co.!
Videos today, photos tomorrow.
Video #1
Click here if video doesn't load.
Presenting to you:
-Joey Lau, 16.
-Cheryl Cheong, 15.
-Shalom Fung, 16.
3 bachelorettes up for grabs! NOT.
Still underaged :D
Video #2
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Presenting to you:
Daniel Yan, 24
(guy in the middle)
1 Bachelor up for grab!
VERY available. HO.
Contact me on my tagboard for more details! :D
Videos today, photos tomorrow.
Video #1
Click here if video doesn't load.
Presenting to you:
-Joey Lau, 16.
-Cheryl Cheong, 15.
-Shalom Fung, 16.
3 bachelorettes up for grabs! NOT.
Still underaged :D
Video #2
Click here if video doesn't load.
Presenting to you:
Daniel Yan, 24
(guy in the middle)
1 Bachelor up for grab!
VERY available. HO.
Contact me on my tagboard for more details! :D
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Somehow, I ended up going with Dawn and Geri to Christine's band concert today.
Wasn't quite what I expected. Surprised to see the sec 4s performing :X
One of the songs played was Chorale and Jubiloso, which brought back many fond memorises. It's the first song we played in Sec 3 after the seniors left and also the first song Huiling conducted. Mr Tan wasn't around and the band was really quite pathetic, but it was fun. Haha. And I remembered how we planned our April Fool's Day prank.
Ahh.. yes, I'm waking up to music now.
I went for the concert partly because I heard the word "Solo" from Dawn. I was thinking, she should not have to go through what I went through. It's crap. Triple disappointment. Turns out, everything was not as grand as what I had in mind, but I think I managed to spot it :D
So much for studying hard. I've not studied at all this week. Why is everyone around me working so hard?! Makes me feel guilty. Still, I'm not getting enough pressure to start studying. Time should fly faster. I'm too used to studying 2 weeks before exams. Someone pressurize me please!! I keep wavering between aiming super high, and aiming at something more "realistic". I think if I really really want to, I can get 7 points, but then realistically speaking, I know I'm too lazy a person to work hard enough to get it. 12 points will do.
Someone please wake me up :/
Wasn't quite what I expected. Surprised to see the sec 4s performing :X
One of the songs played was Chorale and Jubiloso, which brought back many fond memorises. It's the first song we played in Sec 3 after the seniors left and also the first song Huiling conducted. Mr Tan wasn't around and the band was really quite pathetic, but it was fun. Haha. And I remembered how we planned our April Fool's Day prank.
Ahh.. yes, I'm waking up to music now.
I went for the concert partly because I heard the word "Solo" from Dawn. I was thinking, she should not have to go through what I went through. It's crap. Triple disappointment. Turns out, everything was not as grand as what I had in mind, but I think I managed to spot it :D
So much for studying hard. I've not studied at all this week. Why is everyone around me working so hard?! Makes me feel guilty. Still, I'm not getting enough pressure to start studying. Time should fly faster. I'm too used to studying 2 weeks before exams. Someone pressurize me please!! I keep wavering between aiming super high, and aiming at something more "realistic". I think if I really really want to, I can get 7 points, but then realistically speaking, I know I'm too lazy a person to work hard enough to get it. 12 points will do.
Someone please wake me up :/
It's July.
I don't like.
Gives me weird thoughts and feelings.
I went to a Meet-the-People session today to observe the procedures. Quite interesting. And it made all those stories we often hear about the less fortunate more realistic. We really live such sheltered lives.
I only managed to see 3 cases. The first was there regarding parking fines and summons. To think that there are people who can't pay off parking fines while I can have private tuition :/
The second case was regarding an elderly man who was in the last stage of cancer. Housing issues. He's quite funny, for a guy in the last stage of cancer. He said, either I have a house and die in it, or I get treatment and live under the bridge. Then he laughed. He thinks living under a flyover is funny :/
For the third case, a middle aged couple came to appeal for their son. Citizenship issues. One of those PRs who renounces citizenship to escape doing NS. Later on gets in trouble with the law. We quickly reached a conclusion that one should think carefully before renouncing our citizenship.
Well, the whole session was good exposure. We sheltered folks should see this kinda stuff more often, so we know that not everyone in Singapore is well-to-do.
Treasure what you have.
I don't like.
Gives me weird thoughts and feelings.
I went to a Meet-the-People session today to observe the procedures. Quite interesting. And it made all those stories we often hear about the less fortunate more realistic. We really live such sheltered lives.
I only managed to see 3 cases. The first was there regarding parking fines and summons. To think that there are people who can't pay off parking fines while I can have private tuition :/
The second case was regarding an elderly man who was in the last stage of cancer. Housing issues. He's quite funny, for a guy in the last stage of cancer. He said, either I have a house and die in it, or I get treatment and live under the bridge. Then he laughed. He thinks living under a flyover is funny :/
For the third case, a middle aged couple came to appeal for their son. Citizenship issues. One of those PRs who renounces citizenship to escape doing NS. Later on gets in trouble with the law. We quickly reached a conclusion that one should think carefully before renouncing our citizenship.
Well, the whole session was good exposure. We sheltered folks should see this kinda stuff more often, so we know that not everyone in Singapore is well-to-do.
Treasure what you have.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Somehow, I miss the feeling of knowing where I stand and what I'm suppose to do.
Recently, I watched a short Japanese Drama called Nodame Cantabile Live Action. It's about a really gifted pianist and conductor in a music academy. Funny, short and sweet. Yea, I know i'm suppose to be studying :X
Watching the orchestra play in the show reminded me about band and music. Both of which I now feel quite out of touch with. A picture emerged as they played. Not literally. I mean, I begin to see something. Each part/section was different from another, with its own charm and melody. Yet when put together, it forms a beautiful harmony. Really grand.
I can't really describe it in words. If you heard an orchestra before you'll get what I mean.
Anyway, that's the picture I see as an audience. Then I thought back to my time in band and remembered what it felt like to be part of it. You sit there and play, knowing that this sound you're making is part of a whole wonderful, complex structure of music. You feel a thrill, hearing how everything fits so beautifully, glad you are contributing to it and knowing that no one else can do it as well as you do. A sense of belonging.
Once again, my limited vocabulary is not doing any justice to what I'm trying to describe.
Well, somehow I linked it to the body of Christ. I imagine that that's what i would feel when I finally find, and take my place in the body of christ. No wait, I think it would be a hundred times better than that. Each of us, unique individuals. Assuming we are already well equipped in our designated area. And we all come together to play out our parts in God's masterplan. The picture we form would be simply stunning and breathtaking.
That's how it's suppose to be right? Differences to add color to the picture. Not to mess it up when the they don't compliment each other.
I'm kinda excited to see and play out the role God has planned for me. To know that you're doing what you were made to do, and that no one else can fulfill your role. How fulfilling. I think it's gonna be quite cool to see how everything fits together.
I hope you get what I mean.
Recently, I watched a short Japanese Drama called Nodame Cantabile Live Action. It's about a really gifted pianist and conductor in a music academy. Funny, short and sweet. Yea, I know i'm suppose to be studying :X
Watching the orchestra play in the show reminded me about band and music. Both of which I now feel quite out of touch with. A picture emerged as they played. Not literally. I mean, I begin to see something. Each part/section was different from another, with its own charm and melody. Yet when put together, it forms a beautiful harmony. Really grand.
I can't really describe it in words. If you heard an orchestra before you'll get what I mean.
Anyway, that's the picture I see as an audience. Then I thought back to my time in band and remembered what it felt like to be part of it. You sit there and play, knowing that this sound you're making is part of a whole wonderful, complex structure of music. You feel a thrill, hearing how everything fits so beautifully, glad you are contributing to it and knowing that no one else can do it as well as you do. A sense of belonging.
Once again, my limited vocabulary is not doing any justice to what I'm trying to describe.
Well, somehow I linked it to the body of Christ. I imagine that that's what i would feel when I finally find, and take my place in the body of christ. No wait, I think it would be a hundred times better than that. Each of us, unique individuals. Assuming we are already well equipped in our designated area. And we all come together to play out our parts in God's masterplan. The picture we form would be simply stunning and breathtaking.
That's how it's suppose to be right? Differences to add color to the picture. Not to mess it up when the they don't compliment each other.
I'm kinda excited to see and play out the role God has planned for me. To know that you're doing what you were made to do, and that no one else can fulfill your role. How fulfilling. I think it's gonna be quite cool to see how everything fits together.
I hope you get what I mean.
Sunday, July 08, 2007
I felt some pretty strong emotions. Thank God for helping me master it before I did anything I would regret doing.
Later on, as I evaluated the situation, I realised that I was upset because I felt that something I treasured got devalued. It was more of a pride issue. Here I am, trying to do something I believe in, only to hear that it's not important. I was so upset, I was sorely tempted to swear that I will never ever send a single sms/call to ask/encourage/get people to come/do something related to God. Ugly thoughts. Thoughts of being bitter and discouraging. But yea, it is wrong in the eyes of God. In the end, that's why we are here and even having the discussion. It's all about God.
Praise God that His word was timely.
He sees what I have done/trying to do. Like the way He sees every sin we have committed, He also sees every good thing that we're trying to do. If no one wants to start it, I'll start it and try to pass it on. Like a candle.
God encourages :D
(aiyo, i tell you it's so wasted!)
So yes, I sincerely believe that a culture of encouraging has to be built up. Joke all you want, but encouragement HAS to be carried out. I do not know of anyone who has ever stepped out of their comfort zone without being nudged and encourage. More often than not, people have to be pushed. It's those Christians who try to do it all on their own that end up dying off because there's no one there to encourage them and push them along. If God had not encouraged me, I would have gotten all depressed and stop trying to live according to His Will. Then what would have happened to me? Fall out and die lar. And that is the fate of everyone who receives no encouragement. So you tell me, important or not!?!? Ok, exaggerated.
As for suans, well that depends on the individual. Which is why I wanted the two separated.
For the records, I'm a person who gets broken by sticks and stones as well as words. Suan me and be prepared to have me bear a grudge against you forever. Muahahah! Not.
I have scars inflicted by words, so well, it's just easily opened. But a kind, sincere word does wonders for me, and that's why I want to pass it on to others.
Pass it on, pass it on.
Positive's the way to go!
Later on, as I evaluated the situation, I realised that I was upset because I felt that something I treasured got devalued. It was more of a pride issue. Here I am, trying to do something I believe in, only to hear that it's not important. I was so upset, I was sorely tempted to swear that I will never ever send a single sms/call to ask/encourage/get people to come/do something related to God. Ugly thoughts. Thoughts of being bitter and discouraging. But yea, it is wrong in the eyes of God. In the end, that's why we are here and even having the discussion. It's all about God.
Praise God that His word was timely.
He sees what I have done/trying to do. Like the way He sees every sin we have committed, He also sees every good thing that we're trying to do. If no one wants to start it, I'll start it and try to pass it on. Like a candle.
God encourages :D
(aiyo, i tell you it's so wasted!)
So yes, I sincerely believe that a culture of encouraging has to be built up. Joke all you want, but encouragement HAS to be carried out. I do not know of anyone who has ever stepped out of their comfort zone without being nudged and encourage. More often than not, people have to be pushed. It's those Christians who try to do it all on their own that end up dying off because there's no one there to encourage them and push them along. If God had not encouraged me, I would have gotten all depressed and stop trying to live according to His Will. Then what would have happened to me? Fall out and die lar. And that is the fate of everyone who receives no encouragement. So you tell me, important or not!?!? Ok, exaggerated.
As for suans, well that depends on the individual. Which is why I wanted the two separated.
For the records, I'm a person who gets broken by sticks and stones as well as words. Suan me and be prepared to have me bear a grudge against you forever. Muahahah! Not.
I have scars inflicted by words, so well, it's just easily opened. But a kind, sincere word does wonders for me, and that's why I want to pass it on to others.
Pass it on, pass it on.
Positive's the way to go!
Saturday, July 07, 2007
It's a waste. It's such a total waste I tell you.
A waste that only 5 youths turned up today.
We learnt about the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Apparently, the kind of tongues we use in prayer, is not the tongues that the Bible is talking about when it mentioned the gift of tongues. Aha! I bet you never knew that. So, when Paul said not to use it unless there's an interpretator, he never meant that you should not speak in tongues in public. Ahh.. I feel enlighten.
I say wasted for 2 reasons.
The speaker was the type that loved to give examples. Higly suitable for youths. Easy to understand and inspiring. Plus, it was on a topic that I thought would have interested more people. Wasted.
The other reason is because, there was a minstering session.
He started with Pastor Mark, and spoke about both him and the church. I felt .. previledged to have been there as a witness to the word that was spoken. It's kind of fuzzy now, but there was something about 3 years, and about the youths. Even if I repeated it to those who weren't there, the impact would not be the same. Even if the exact words were used, it no longer carries the spirit and hence.. be different.
He then called all the young people to come to the front. Five of us, Dawn, myself, Joey, Joy and Algene. One by one, he spoke a word over us. Not really a prophecy, but he sort of told us about what God has given us(strengths) and something about what we should/will be doing. It's quite cool that some of the stuff he said were related to what Dawn, Joey and myself were discussing this morning. Oh, and he said that there would be growth in the youth. Something like that.
SEE, wasted! Totally wasted.
Ok, I wasn't going to blog this part down, but I realized that he spoke into the mic so it doesn't really make much of a difference. Just for the records then, since that's part of the reason why I have this blog.
Once again, I was kind of busy crying so I can't really rmb the exact things he spoke of. But here goes. So, he said that I have or will have sensitivity to the Spirit. Others will curse the darkness, but I will be a candle. A candle in the darkness. A single flame, that will keep passing it on, one candle to another. The power to influence. And God does see what I have done for Him. He will honor me as I honor Him.
Something like that. Are you envious? Haha.
So, I'm not going to get annoyed. Well, i'll probably be lar, but I'll do something about it instead of just ranting.
Yep, He does honor those who honor Him. Classic example.
A waste that only 5 youths turned up today.
We learnt about the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Apparently, the kind of tongues we use in prayer, is not the tongues that the Bible is talking about when it mentioned the gift of tongues. Aha! I bet you never knew that. So, when Paul said not to use it unless there's an interpretator, he never meant that you should not speak in tongues in public. Ahh.. I feel enlighten.
I say wasted for 2 reasons.
The speaker was the type that loved to give examples. Higly suitable for youths. Easy to understand and inspiring. Plus, it was on a topic that I thought would have interested more people. Wasted.
The other reason is because, there was a minstering session.
He started with Pastor Mark, and spoke about both him and the church. I felt .. previledged to have been there as a witness to the word that was spoken. It's kind of fuzzy now, but there was something about 3 years, and about the youths. Even if I repeated it to those who weren't there, the impact would not be the same. Even if the exact words were used, it no longer carries the spirit and hence.. be different.
He then called all the young people to come to the front. Five of us, Dawn, myself, Joey, Joy and Algene. One by one, he spoke a word over us. Not really a prophecy, but he sort of told us about what God has given us(strengths) and something about what we should/will be doing. It's quite cool that some of the stuff he said were related to what Dawn, Joey and myself were discussing this morning. Oh, and he said that there would be growth in the youth. Something like that.
SEE, wasted! Totally wasted.
Ok, I wasn't going to blog this part down, but I realized that he spoke into the mic so it doesn't really make much of a difference. Just for the records then, since that's part of the reason why I have this blog.
Once again, I was kind of busy crying so I can't really rmb the exact things he spoke of. But here goes. So, he said that I have or will have sensitivity to the Spirit. Others will curse the darkness, but I will be a candle. A candle in the darkness. A single flame, that will keep passing it on, one candle to another. The power to influence. And God does see what I have done for Him. He will honor me as I honor Him.
Something like that. Are you envious? Haha.
So, I'm not going to get annoyed. Well, i'll probably be lar, but I'll do something about it instead of just ranting.
Yep, He does honor those who honor Him. Classic example.
I am feeling highly annoyed right now.
I'm sorry, but I'm going to have to rant.
[edited]
In geography, I learn about rivers. I learn that the fastest part of the river is its center, and the slowest is its sides. The faster the river, the more load (rocks) it can carry. You can call the center the most "happening". So deposition, which is when the rocks are put down and no longer carried by the river, often happens at the side.
If we are rocks, which part of the river can we be found in? Found in the center and you would keep traveling for a long time. Found at the side, sooner or later you're gonna be dropped and left behing while every other rock moves on.
David mentioned something like that before. But I only really understood what he was trying to bring across when I studied rivers in geog.
Sometimes I wonder, why are there only 2 youths in AIMS. During those sometimes, I would get annoyed and feel smug that those "fools" are missing out and I'm not. But always, God would chastise me for my thinking. Crap, I'm still such a self-centered, self-righteous prig. At least I'm trying to and know that I will change. You can't meet God and not change.
I am going to M'sia ONE week before prelims!
Call me nuts and I'll say, you would understand were you here today.
I am going to blast that stupid thought out of everyone's head that missing church and God would make your results better.
I'll go for the seminar and still ACE my prelims. ACE it better than those who missed church.
My gosh. I'm still so annoyed even after blogging!
I'm sorry, but I'm going to have to rant.
[edited]
In geography, I learn about rivers. I learn that the fastest part of the river is its center, and the slowest is its sides. The faster the river, the more load (rocks) it can carry. You can call the center the most "happening". So deposition, which is when the rocks are put down and no longer carried by the river, often happens at the side.
If we are rocks, which part of the river can we be found in? Found in the center and you would keep traveling for a long time. Found at the side, sooner or later you're gonna be dropped and left behing while every other rock moves on.
David mentioned something like that before. But I only really understood what he was trying to bring across when I studied rivers in geog.
Sometimes I wonder, why are there only 2 youths in AIMS. During those sometimes, I would get annoyed and feel smug that those "fools" are missing out and I'm not. But always, God would chastise me for my thinking. Crap, I'm still such a self-centered, self-righteous prig. At least I'm trying to and know that I will change. You can't meet God and not change.
I am going to M'sia ONE week before prelims!
Call me nuts and I'll say, you would understand were you here today.
I am going to blast that stupid thought out of everyone's head that missing church and God would make your results better.
I'll go for the seminar and still ACE my prelims. ACE it better than those who missed church.
My gosh. I'm still so annoyed even after blogging!
Friday, July 06, 2007
Social Studies lessons have been quite interesting lately.
In one lesson, we were force to say some not so nice stuff about a particular group of people. I use the word force, because we weren't allowed to sit down until we said something that was negative but made sense. Quite a fun excercise, but it just didn't sit too well with me. We were suppose to learn that there are always 2 sides to things :/
Well, the real interesting bit was the stories told about caning and execution in Singapore.
Perception is something that changes quite frequently and drastically. I use to think that caning was a light sentence, but after hearing his vivid account, I changed my mind. He said that the really skillful "caners" are able to hit you at the exact same spot. Some people pee out of fright, others faint after the very first stroke. It leaves a permenant scar. His account was more indept, but I shall spare you the details. Not such a light sentence after all. It really does make you think twice about your action, despite the fact that girls can't be canned. Ho.
Here's the freaky bit. Death by hanging.
Apparently, you die not because of suffocation, but because your neck gets separated from your spine. Oh, the scary part is not the dying. That happens quite fast and relatively painless. The scary part is walking the long walk from your cell to the room. Some pee, some crap and some of them faint while on the way there. Which makes things easier. They'll just hang you while you're unconcious(!!). Others are not so lucky. They are afraid and become all jelly, like their legs can't really move, but not afraid enough to faint. So it's harder for them to stand properly on the platform, which just makes the death messier. Then there's still the other case. Normally happens when the man is really big size I think. He's so heavy, the force of him falling and the tension of the rope on his neck not only separates his neck from his spine, but the skin of his neck breaks, which means his head gets detached from his body. And all the blood would start gushing out. Gross.
Who feels worse? The one being executed or the one executing?
The one carrying out the job or the one who Ordered the job done?
Who are we, to decide if a man should live or die?
I wonder whether the man can go to heaven if he were truly repentent. It sounds unlikely right? But then, if we can expect God to forgive us for lying, then surely He can forgive us for murder right? It can be said that the two have different seriousness. But both are part of the ten commandment. So shouldn't one be as serious an offence as the other in the eyes of God?
Hmm...
In one lesson, we were force to say some not so nice stuff about a particular group of people. I use the word force, because we weren't allowed to sit down until we said something that was negative but made sense. Quite a fun excercise, but it just didn't sit too well with me. We were suppose to learn that there are always 2 sides to things :/
Well, the real interesting bit was the stories told about caning and execution in Singapore.
Perception is something that changes quite frequently and drastically. I use to think that caning was a light sentence, but after hearing his vivid account, I changed my mind. He said that the really skillful "caners" are able to hit you at the exact same spot. Some people pee out of fright, others faint after the very first stroke. It leaves a permenant scar. His account was more indept, but I shall spare you the details. Not such a light sentence after all. It really does make you think twice about your action, despite the fact that girls can't be canned. Ho.
Here's the freaky bit. Death by hanging.
Apparently, you die not because of suffocation, but because your neck gets separated from your spine. Oh, the scary part is not the dying. That happens quite fast and relatively painless. The scary part is walking the long walk from your cell to the room. Some pee, some crap and some of them faint while on the way there. Which makes things easier. They'll just hang you while you're unconcious(!!). Others are not so lucky. They are afraid and become all jelly, like their legs can't really move, but not afraid enough to faint. So it's harder for them to stand properly on the platform, which just makes the death messier. Then there's still the other case. Normally happens when the man is really big size I think. He's so heavy, the force of him falling and the tension of the rope on his neck not only separates his neck from his spine, but the skin of his neck breaks, which means his head gets detached from his body. And all the blood would start gushing out. Gross.
Who feels worse? The one being executed or the one executing?
The one carrying out the job or the one who Ordered the job done?
Who are we, to decide if a man should live or die?
I wonder whether the man can go to heaven if he were truly repentent. It sounds unlikely right? But then, if we can expect God to forgive us for lying, then surely He can forgive us for murder right? It can be said that the two have different seriousness. But both are part of the ten commandment. So shouldn't one be as serious an offence as the other in the eyes of God?
Hmm...
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
I read a particular sentence while during TAG recently which I really like.
This is how we should do things.
I do because I am.
Not, I do therefore I am.
Really really like it. :D
It's like saying, I go to church therefore I am a christian. When really, it should be I go to church because I am a christian.
Quite thought provoking if you start thinking about all your actions.
Do we do it so that we are, or because we are?
This is how we should do things.
I do because I am.
Not, I do therefore I am.
Really really like it. :D
It's like saying, I go to church therefore I am a christian. When really, it should be I go to church because I am a christian.
Quite thought provoking if you start thinking about all your actions.
Do we do it so that we are, or because we are?
Monday, July 02, 2007
My gosh. I was so confused just now.
For a moment, the principle I had been living by felt like it had gone haywire. Which is bad. Because I'm a very .. principle kind of person. Which makes a survey i did at Advisor Team quite accurate. It said that my temperament is a guardian.
Back on topic.
It started off when a friend talked to me a little about her BGR. And there was this persistent question, "What are you searching for?", that kept running through my mind. We all search for/wait for that one person who would bring us .... WHAT!? And can't God fulfill whatever it is that we are searching for? Then I realised that it is God who made us this way. Made us such that there's a need to connect with someone else. If it is good for us, then why is it ok to have one later, but not now? Distractions? But there will always be distractions.
Ok, I got really confused at this point of my thinking. Confused because my stand on relationships have always been good later, bad now. It felt like my brain had a momentary memory lapse because for the life of me, I could not remember what the answer to that is. So I started to blog out the above paragraph, right up to that sentence, when the answer hit me.
And I felt like Homer Simpson.
Du'oh!!
My goodness. What we will have later, or at least suppose to have later, that we do not have now, is MATURITY! Let me rephrase that. What we will have in a greater amount later which we do not have so much of now, is maturity. AHh. That's better.
Yes, Maturity. Both mental and spiritual maturity to handle it such that it brings about the good that God intended it to bring instead of .. all the rubbish many teens have today. Correct me if I'm wrong.
So, with this firmly lodged in my head now, I shall carry on living by it. Yay! I'm a happy principle person now. Since we're on this topic I might as well state another reason I recently figured out that helps me to follow this.
I've come to realise that I'm a person who doesn't quite commit very easily, but when I do, I go all the way. Which means, I'm probably gonna give my all in my very first relationship. Wait, isn't that what you're suppose to do in a relationship anyway? Ok fine. Well, that would mean that I have nothing left to give if it doesn't work out. Like that story on Joey's blog. Which is scary, and bad. OH, wait again. But God can restore. Yea, but I would rather not have it that way, if i could choose it.
So God can keep my heart till He finds someone He's willing to share it with.
Lalalala~ I'm a happy girl! :D
For a moment, the principle I had been living by felt like it had gone haywire. Which is bad. Because I'm a very .. principle kind of person. Which makes a survey i did at Advisor Team quite accurate. It said that my temperament is a guardian.
Back on topic.
It started off when a friend talked to me a little about her BGR. And there was this persistent question, "What are you searching for?", that kept running through my mind. We all search for/wait for that one person who would bring us .... WHAT!? And can't God fulfill whatever it is that we are searching for? Then I realised that it is God who made us this way. Made us such that there's a need to connect with someone else. If it is good for us, then why is it ok to have one later, but not now? Distractions? But there will always be distractions.
Ok, I got really confused at this point of my thinking. Confused because my stand on relationships have always been good later, bad now. It felt like my brain had a momentary memory lapse because for the life of me, I could not remember what the answer to that is. So I started to blog out the above paragraph, right up to that sentence, when the answer hit me.
And I felt like Homer Simpson.
Du'oh!!
My goodness. What we will have later, or at least suppose to have later, that we do not have now, is MATURITY! Let me rephrase that. What we will have in a greater amount later which we do not have so much of now, is maturity. AHh. That's better.
Yes, Maturity. Both mental and spiritual maturity to handle it such that it brings about the good that God intended it to bring instead of .. all the rubbish many teens have today. Correct me if I'm wrong.
So, with this firmly lodged in my head now, I shall carry on living by it. Yay! I'm a happy principle person now. Since we're on this topic I might as well state another reason I recently figured out that helps me to follow this.
I've come to realise that I'm a person who doesn't quite commit very easily, but when I do, I go all the way. Which means, I'm probably gonna give my all in my very first relationship. Wait, isn't that what you're suppose to do in a relationship anyway? Ok fine. Well, that would mean that I have nothing left to give if it doesn't work out. Like that story on Joey's blog. Which is scary, and bad. OH, wait again. But God can restore. Yea, but I would rather not have it that way, if i could choose it.
So God can keep my heart till He finds someone He's willing to share it with.
Lalalala~ I'm a happy girl! :D
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