English and SS papers are over.
I think know i'm gonna do badly.
Why o why must the elect history remedial be conducted today and not on wed!!?

I'm here to upload photos so tht they won't go

missing.
HAH. Coz recently i've been digging out a lot of old photographs and found out that the best way to "preserve" them was to upload it.

Taken last Sunday

Rather gay is it not? Keith was the broom. HAH.

We made a new friend!! The daughter of someone there.
Apparently, she's also Joey's cousin's classmate!!

I just found this amusing.. haha.

Elizabeth chirped at 11:57 AM | No comments

OKAY!
So we've shifted to the new place.
Looking great!
Ahh. Can't wait for everything to start running.

In the mean time there's exams to worry abt.
Finally the exam stress has hit me, and hit me hard.
So I'm off to prepare for it.
Hopefully, i'll be able to make the best of this week.

God is great! and there's so much more to life!
Still, this blog shall be reduced to wasteland till 10 October!

ALL the best everybody!

Elizabeth chirped at 6:02 PM | No comments

Oh man.
I almost died in the toilet.
I had the WORST , well maybe the second worst ever Stomach upset in my lifetime.
(I cried during the worst. Hah. then again, i was young)

I was desperately trying to remember what did I eat that brought this abt lar.
Could it be cheese? (i've been eating a lot of cheese recently)
Then again, though I'm a little lactose intolerant, i'm not THAT intolerant.
Cheese is fine with my stomach. Only plain milk is BAD BAD BAD.

So there could only be ONE explanation.

Wait, before that i must explain what happened.
So, even though I couldn't exactly read with the amt of discomfort I was facing, I decided to pick up the "EVEN GREATER" book by Reinhard Bonke.
Though I've finished it before, I finally decided to read it again.
Why do I use finally? Coz everytime i go to the toilet, i'll see the book and feel like reading it but never do.

I got really inspired by that book again.
AMAZING.
Considering that fact that I couldn't really think.
Upon reflection, that whole situation seems so unreal/blur/dream-like to me.

The memories of the thoughts I had consist of only the ending part.
By then my energy could be more er.. relax. hah.

I was thinking (talking to God), why do you only seem to raise up ppl from other country?
Why is there no BIG Singaporean?
And why is it that the stories in the book seemed to happen so long ago?
At least there was one story that was dated 1988. dots.
It seems as if those Big Big miraculous, life-changing things could only happen in the past.
Why is there almost nothing now? at least I'm not hearing it.

I had many qns.
Didn't exactly get my answers.
Or at least I got it, but i'm not sure if it's my logical mind or the Holy Spirit.

Was it because ppl have begun turning away from God?
They've forgotten what God has done for them and are slipping into this lukewarm feeling for Him.
Or is it just that ppl these days are just so bombarded with science and technology that they can't believe in miracles anymore?
Whatever it was, it was leading to this "blank-blank" period in what I like to call Christian history.

Then I begin to wonder, is this why david said you said there's gonna be this new wave thing?
Are you gonna rise up ppl again to do your work?
And I wondered whether this would be a repeat of the times of cycles.
Whether in the history of Man, we would just keep blowing hot and cold.
Well, i brushed that aside and kept thinking abt that NEW WAVE thing.
I kinda got really excited.
Like "HEY! There's gonna be a NEW WAVE! a NEW WAVE!! More of God!!"
So EXCITING RIGHT!?!?!?

So I told God.
Hey! If you're doing this NEW WAVE thing remember to include me ok!!
I'm sick of being a spectator in your Kingdom. So many christians I know are just spectators too.
I want to be DOING SOMETHING!
To be ACTIVE in your plan.
I DON'T WANT TO BE A SPECTATOR!!

Then I came to the realise that I've gotten more daring in God.
It's like, in the past, I would always say to God, I will try my best to (for example) be your disciple ( i never used the word disciple in the past lar).
Now i'm like, God, I want to be your disciple.
There's no more TRY.
You just go and DO.
I think this comes with confidence in God. As my confidence in Him grows, i do more and try less.

Back to the point.
That ONE explanation after saying all these is, Divine Intervention.
HAHa.
Though I wished He could have picked a nicer way to get me to read the book.

Still, I'm excited.
It doesn't matter whether it's a new wave or not.
The point is, if I want to stop being the spectator, He's not gonna mind at all and make me a DO-ER.
So i'm gonna stop being a spectator!
Are you?

Elizabeth chirped at 8:39 PM | No comments

It's THAT time of the year again.
When suddenly, almost everyone is suddenly so hardworking.
It just goes to show that no matter what ppl say, they still want to suceed in life.
And it also goes to show that they think their way to sucess is through good education.

Well, the merits of education has been proven.
It's not a bad thing.
Education will enable you to get THAT bright future that you want.

I'm still not going to just throw away my education like that.
In a sense, it is still my safety blanket.
Not that I really need one, since i'm pretty much convinced that my future is in God's hands.
It's just that I don't excatly know whether His plans will require a good education.
and Besides, He didn't tell me to throw away my education.
He told me to put Him first, and let the rest fall into place.

So we were kinda talking abt our future.
Sometimes, I feel a little afraid to answer when asked what I want to be when I grow up.
Coz the answer will bring out the "er.. ugh?" kind of face from non-believers.
And it may bring out the "er.. Orh" kind of face from believers.

Even if God never called me, there's this desire in me to be working in His kingdom.
Or should i say, that desire got planted there after He called me and it never faded away?

But then, it doesn't really matter what the future holds for me.
Coz I know whose hands their in.
That's enough for me.
Don't have to worry abt tomorrow (masterlife day 1).
For now i shall focus on my exams.

Or rather, I shall focus on God and doing masterlife THEN on my exams.
I DID say I relax before studying.
You just never thought that my relaxation time would be doing masterlife and spending time with God did you?

I'm begining to find that everytime i spend time with Him, there's this peace and stillness that will be in me.
Along with joy, hope, love and renewed confidence with the Father.
It's like, there's this whole renewing thing.
Especially after you pray.

You don't really need a touch from God at the altar to be passionate abt Him again.
If you would just do a proper QT, you will find that it is the same, if not even better.

Now why didn't we see that earlier?
Coz we let ourselves get deceived by the deceiver.
Which brings to mind, my fear of darkness or rather being the only awake person in the house is kind of coming back.
It's silly, but I can't cast it off.
There's this uneasiness every morning.
Help me pray ok?

i recently read abt someone who wrote to the newspaper to ask how to be satisfied with life. If only she BELIEVED.
I'm pretty certain many ppl in singapore our age have heard of God before.
So it's probably they heard but didn't believe.
Then again, it might be because the wrong things were said while sharing.
But the "secret" to life, is spending time with the Father.

I think that would be similar if not BETTER than yoga (finding ur balance and all).

Just a passing thought.
Note: it's not to my credit that I end up doing ok if not well for my studies even if I didn't really study. Credit goes to God. Look up. Not at me.

Elizabeth chirped at 6:34 PM | No comments

I can't wait for October to come.
Sure, exams are round the corner. So is the move to Amtech.
I couldn't really care abt exams anyway.
I'm in a carefree kind of mood now.

So as I was praying, for a moment I actually believed that since God's plan is different for everyone, my principals may not apply to everyone my age.
Then there was this quick voice that said NO. Stand Firm on it. Don't be deceived.

For me, I sincerely believe that we should try to live as above-board as possible.
After all, we are called to set an example.

I don't like having to hide things.
Just to take note, there's a difference between Hiding, and not sharing.
Hiding comes with the pit-pat feeling in your heart when it's almost discovered.
It comes with fear. More often then not, you don't share them with ppl you respect.

I have my little secrets too. Things I've done that I'm ashamed of.
But I really really try to keep that as low as possible.
I try not to commit the sin in the first place so that I won't have to deal with it.
Yet, i still fall at times.

I believe we should keep our lives kind of transparent.
So that all may see the good work that God has done in it.

Let me not hide it anymore. It gives ppl wrong impressions.
Temptations? Yes i face them too.
Am I not made up of the same stuff as everyone too?
Does my body not go through the same stuff as yours?
Do i not feel the same emotions as you?

I face the same things as you, but it is the choices that we make that lead us to different path.
Laugh at me, mock me, do whatever you want.
But I want to make as many choices as possible with the word GOD stamped all over it.

It doesn't matter whether or not my principal applies to you.
If you have to hide, somethings wrong. You know it.

I officially decided to be a disciple of God. To commit myself to Him.
My life is going to be God's evidence.
A reflection of His work.
So I'm determined to do my best (with the aid of the Holy Spirit) not to do anything that will nulify/threaten the credibility of this evidence.

I've decided.
What abt you?

Elizabeth chirped at 5:27 PM | No comments

53 Chancery Lane. Where we spent 8 years..??
Time to say good bye.





















The santuary we had our activities in.





















Now reduced to this. Notice that the cupboards are missing. They have been moved.

This is a really old pic. When we were sec 1. Anyway, our secell room!!

Now left to this..

No more place to Jam..
















Our new place still under construction. How will the finished product look like?

Elizabeth chirped at 7:51 PM | No comments

I haven't been blogging yea.
Still deciding whether I should close this blog or not.
That's because I realised that many of my post have this "holi-er than thou" kind of tone to it.
Which in the end, sometimes totally destroys my point of blogging.
And if I can't write what I want to say, no point in blogging.

So, this is to update my walk with God.
After all, this blog is to keep a record of that.

Saturday was our last ever saturday service, and last ever service in Chancery lane.
Also my first time serving as a keyboardist.
Not that bad, nor was it really good.
Not that it matters much since the whole environment/setting is gonna change since we're moving.
I really liked the songs selection though.

So, right at the end, well, almost everyone had a word from God I guess. Through the cell leaders.
I attempted to pray for Karen while she was playing the piano. I ended up crying as I realised how much love there was in all our cell leaders/elders etc.
I totally felt it that day. As we were moving the church stuff, i just felt so loved.
And I felt so bad that I had been taking this love for granted.

Well, Shufen came and prayed for me.
I was kinda surprise at what she/God said.

She said that God was pleased with the values/principals that I have instilled/trying to instill in my life. Friends will challenge those values. Not just any friends but even my really really close friends. But don't forget that I have a friend with me through it all. The Holy Spirit will be my best friend. Stand firm.

Something like that. Kinda surprise coz before that I sought of felt that God was telling me I have to stop being so proud.
So this was really random.
But it was still a great last saturday service.

Sunday night.
Right after I finished praying after doing my TAG at home, I felt the Holy Spirit speaking to me.
His voice was clear and strong.

He said to be patient, to hold out, to perservere. God will give me the guy He promised me. It will be good, if I would just hold on to His promise and not fall into temptation.
The blessing promised would be so much greater if I would let His plan unfold instead of choosing to fall into temptation now.

First of all, that was really random since my prayer had nothing to do with that topic.
Second of all, there is no one to fall into temptation with. HAH.
Oh well, still I will hold on to His promise.

And then at night (last night lar) I dreamt abt stuff.
I can't rmb what.
Except for one part.
I saw this face. I can't rmb how it look like now. But i remember the eyes.
The eyes that frightened me. It was hard. And it was staring at me.
I feared and so I started singing.
(don't ask me why i even sang and of all songs, why i picked "God is in the house". it's a dream!)
I sang, Jesus, Jesus, He calls me for His own.
I expected the eyes to show fear at the name of Jesus. But it didn't.
And then I fell back to sleep.
Freaky nightmare.

School was rather interesting today.
Triple english period and ms chang wasn't in school again.
So we had our thought provoking opinionated discussions again.
Topic: pre-marital sex

On the it's okay side, we had fion and zhenli
On the it's not okay side, we had joyce and myself.

What can I say?
The whole time i just kept thinking of last night.
What i felt the holy spirit telling me so strongly.
And i kept thinking, hey this is the begining of the test of my principals.

But really. What more could I say?
In a part of my prideful heart, I was hoping that their relationship would be a mess in the future so that I would be proven right.
But then again, I would rather they be right and I be wrong.
For if they are right, what do I lose other than maybe my face and a little happiness.
But if I am right, and they continue to refuse to believe, they will meet a horrible end.

It didn't help that I knew with a certainty that I wasn't wrong.
I have my own evidence to prove to myself that God is real.
It's so easy to prove that God is real.
But how are you ever going to find evidence that show that God isn't real?
You won't ever.
You can only say it.
And even then you think He isn't real only because you have not seen/felt the evidence for yourself. You refuse to look/feel.
Will you ever be able to prove that some hundred thousand/million ppl are crazy?
That we only imagine ourselves being hit by some invincible wall. That we are mad that's why we cry for no apparent reason or start laughing for no reason.
You can't prove that He doesn't exist.
But I can prove He does.

What else can I do?
But to pray and set an example.
To let them never ever have a chance to call me a hypocrite.

We all started at the same begining. (more or less lar. some richer some poorer)
But it's the choices we make at each point of time that leads us to different path.
When you are young, the paths arn't that far apart. Arn't that different.
But as you grow older, they get farther and more different.
Until it leads to 2 totally opposite ends.
I wonder how at the end, our lives would look like.
Would you have been right?
Or would I be right?
Or should i say, would my mistake be bigger, or yours?

Elizabeth chirped at 3:23 PM | No comments

Ai-Yai-Yai-Yai-YAI!!!!!!!!!!
I'm in a good mood today!

After a crazy hetic holiday, I'm finally having a break.
How ironic.
I never got to rest during the holiday.
Now that it's over, i'm finally resting.
Hoho.

Let's see..
I left house at 7am from mon to sat and came back at timings ranging from 9pm to 11pm.
Fantastic!!

At least my HARD WORK paid off.
My section came in SECOND for section competitioN!!
A total miracle since we totally screwed up the day before.
YAI YAI YAI! God is good!

Ahhh. I had a nice lunch too.
With zhenli, joyce and her friend Joel.

I can't wait to shift to the amtech building!
I can't wait to start serving in the worship ministry!
I can't wait to start Masterlife!! (wait. i'm suppose to start today)
I can't wait for tmr's prayer meeting!
YAI YAI YAI! The christian life is SOOOOO exciting!!!!

Oh my gosh. This joy how can I describe it?
It's not simply being happy.
It's not just being full of optimisim and hope.
I can't explain it to you.
I can only ask you to come and experience it yourself.

There's really a God-shaped hole.
Only when that's filled will you start to understand what i'm talking about.
YAI YAI YAI!!! I have the spirit in me!!

Elizabeth chirped at 6:26 PM | No comments

WHooo!
I rather hyped up abt Church now.
ok, well, i'm in a love-hate dislike realationship with my church.
Haha. I really love to be in Church coz it's like so focused on God.
Yet, there are certain stuff/habits in my church that i don't like. Still, I'm rather excited abt the new place we are shifting to after talking to Jon and Joey.

And masterlife seems quite good.
So i'm excited abt it too!
I'm excited to learn abt God.
He's just so awesome =)

He's my pillar of strength. My emo support.
My EVERYTHING!!
I rely so Heavily on Him.
How could I survive without Him?
How do OTHERS, survive without Him?

Hyped up about my God!!

Elizabeth chirped at 6:50 PM | No comments

I just watched SCV channel 62.
It was in the middle of some movie.
Curious, i continued watching it.
I was surprised when the song they played during the couples wedding was a christian song.
A chinese one. I think the title is "tian kong de cai hong" translated into the rainbow in the sky..?

Anyway it was one of those chinese songs that many people love.
It was quite surprising coz normal secular tv shows don't use christian songs.
Turns out that that song is the theme song of the show too.

The couple talked about things like, God's plan and all.
Then the guy died due to lukemia.
There was a scene which really struck me coz it kind of reflected what I've been feeling.

The girl was crying in a corner.
Her mother came to comfort her.
And she asked her mom, "Where is God?"
Her mother replied, "He is here. He has always been here. No matter what happened He has always been here."

That kind of surprise me.
Even though the movie seemed to be having some sort of christian theme, I could not help having that constant suspicion that there was gonna be something wrong with the film.
I expected the mom to reply something like there is no God or something.

The girl wakes up the next day and sees a rainbow in the sky.
At this point, they played the song again.
They showed the lyrics on tv.
It said something about how God's love never changes and how He put a rainbow in the sky to show His promise.
Here, things seemed a little more typical as it was rather cheesy.
I couldn't help but wonder if they were talking about God or the secret between the couple.
Their secret had something to do with rainbows.
I don't quite know because I started watching only halfway.

So the girl carries on her job as a doctor and impacts many patients.
She gives them a paper box and asks them to put their sorrows into the box and God will hear it.
Then SARS cames to hong kong.
She caught it from the patients and she passed away too.

At this point I'm really wondering why such a show is being shown on tv.

Then, at the end of the show, it says nothing can separate us from the love of God coz God is love himself.
And they proceed to say that this show is in memory of those who passed away in their fight agaisnt SARS.
...

I'm like.. ok, this is a really sweet but kinda weird show.
But I really like the song.
Can't find the lyrics though.
Shall go to church and ask around.

Elizabeth chirped at 4:29 PM | No comments

I went to garden ministries to see if I could find anything to cheer me up.
I found something on solitude.
http://www.gardenministries.com/solitude.htm
Well, it was basically saying I should go and talk to God alone.
Just me and Him and no one else.

So i went, and found my God.
Last night He didn't say much to me, but I just knew He was there listening to what I had to say.

This morning, I woke up and decided to do my TAG which I didn't do last night.
I opened the book and happen to see the title of July 25 "don't quit".
So I read it and got greatly encouraged.
The scripture was 2 Corinthians 4:1-16
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2%20%20corinthians%204:1-18&version=31

Small excerpt.
I have a friend with two small children. His wife suffered from various illnesses for years. She died a few months ago. I visited my friend recently and asked how he was dong. He replied, "Crawford, to be honest, I'm up and down. Sometimes the pain is unbearable." Despite his heartache, emptiness and pain, he said, "I can't give up, because God did not give up on me."

God's love and pursuit for us is constant.
He continues to pursue us even when we don't sense or feel him. I the midst of our emptiness, frustration, pain, and the agony of awful experiences that suddenly and shockingly blindside us, God is still there.

Well, while reading this I found it to be true.
I bet that guy must have felt really lonely when his wife was gone. Yet he was right to seek God for comfort coz he found God there. And I am now right to have done what he did which is to seek God.
I would like to do what he did. Don't give up, because God did not give up on me.
He's telling me that He hasn't given up on me, so i shouldn't give up on the task He has set before me.

The scripture reminds me that I won't be working on my own effort.
After all, I am but a jar of clay.
The difference is that I am holding a treasure so precious, I become precious too.
And that treasure is God.

So i've begun renewing me inside so that I can be strong for whoever needs it again.
God enables me to give anything anyway.
Without Him, I have nothing to give.

So I finally see why people often complain about putting on masks so that people do not see their weakness. They complain about how tired they get.
I just did that too.
But it's true that there's this God-shaped hole in all of us. One that only He can fill.
See, the difference is that when this hole is filled, your mask/exterior won't collapse coz they have something to rest on.
Those who complain, find no comfort coz that hole isn't filled.
That includes some christians coz they don't want to let God fill that hole.

People need the Lord.

Elizabeth chirped at 10:28 AM | No comments