It's been a busy BUSY week.
I'm suppose to be doing my homework but well, Man needs breaks.
Currently feeling a little under the weather too.
This season just doesn't go hand in hand with my nose.
Wet cold weather gives me a cold and a wet nose. HAH.

Here's something funny. Then again, maybe not THAT funny.
So, my friend gave me an eeyore that can be hung to your phone.
I hung it infront of my mom's face and asked her if it were cute.
She said, "It would be cuter, if it could Bark."
=.="
It's a DONKEY (say it in the shrek voice).
Not a dog. HAH.

I think the cold weather makes ppl funny.
I can't believe i said something so lame to tim like,
don't be lame.
it means you are disabled.
in the BRAIN.
...
and then he LAUGHED. He repeated it a couple of times, and kept laughing.
It's not even funny!!

Here's the even weirder part.
We had to carry a really heavy box to the storeroom.
So i made fun of the "WE ARE MEN" thing the guys had to do in camp.
Timothy kept chanting it for awhile. Then he said,
"I wanted to say hallelujah, but Amen is okay. we AMEN. we AMEN."
and i don't know why, but at that time i found it really funny, and kept laughing.
The scariest part was he was laughing so hard, his laughter was high pitch and he was TEARING!!!

Oh, what the cold can do to our brains.

Elizabeth chirped at 11:45 PM | No comments

So my room's been painted pale green.
Seems like things are progressing fast.
If things go as planned, i should have my room done by monday.
Which means I got a whole new look for my room in 6 days.
Pretty fast, considering the fact that it took 3 months to get started.

Today's a good day! :D
Which is nice, since yesterday wasn't all that pleasant.
Really have to Thank God - the source of all my blessings.

It looked like i was gonna be late for band prac today coz i missed my bus.
And i was praying that by some miracle, i'm gonna make it to school on time.
I was also wondering whether God would answer my prayer.
I know He answers the prayers of a righteous man.
but I don't think i've been a good girl lately.
Maybe He wanted to say that He doesn't depend on stuff like this, coz i suddenly heard someone call my name and i turned around to see Shalini in a taxi! (my thanks!)
I ended up reaching early.
Is this Nice or NICE?

And for band today, 35 ppl didn't turn up.
That's like, a RECORD.
We sounded kinda funny. Really empty because there were lots of ppl missing from the bass.
We were kinda worried, coz we knew attendance were one of the things that really REALLY pisses mr tan off.
Surprisingly, though he was a little upset at first, he actually controlled his anger and said that we don't deserve to see a black face coz we are the GOOD GIRLS that turned up.
And the practice that followed was really fun and fruitful.
I was praying abt band related stuff so i guess, God answered my prayer in a way.
Isn't this NICE?

Plus, the painting of my room went rather smoothly.
MEGA MEGA PLUS, there hasn't been any arguement in my family today.

This makes today a REALLY NICE day.
For everything there is a reason.
So i guess God wants to show me something.
I'm not too sure what. Shall think abt it during TAG.
For now, it's off to more homework!

Elizabeth chirped at 11:23 PM | No comments

YAY!
Starhub's the best.
My internet is almost/already is back to it's normal speed.
NICE.

So i felt really depressed to be going back to band today.
i had so much fun with church ppl and all, i just didn't really feel like facing others.
Furthermore, Joyce wouldn't be there and i have to sit in the band stall by myself like a loner for the sec 1s practice.
It didn't help that i went to screw ard with my spectacles and now they are a little out of shape, making my vision funny, causing me to feel like puking.

But oh well, by the time main band started, everything felt okay.
I guess I'm slowly conditioning myself for school.
5 days left..

Elizabeth chirped at 6:40 PM | No comments

CHECK THIS OUT!!

Elizabeth chirped at 9:21 PM | No comments

To those who are concernced,
I'm okay already.
Just had to spill it all out.

Hmm.. i'm kind of like a volcano.
It takes some time for me to explode, but when I do, it's kinda terrible.
But right after that, I'm okay again.

So, Christmas was kinda horrible for me this year.
BUT, my room is empty now. SURPRISE SURPRISE!
My mom finally called Uncle David CHIA down to remove my bedset.
Yep. That 8K white elephant that has been sitting in my room for 7 years is gone!!
Along with the table. All that's left is my cupboard.
So i'm finally gonna get the simple room i wanted.
My own space, so I can breath and PMS in. HAHAH.
When it's finally done I shall post a picture of it.
But i think that's gonna take some time.

Oh wait. I forgot to mention that my brother's room has been, edited. HAH.
The high high bed has been brought down.
..
Ok there's no point really describing everything.
When everything's complete, let the pictures do the talking.

I'm just glad that things finally started moving.
But with this means more decisions to make. And when there are more descsions to make, that means more quarrels.
I've alr argued with my mom once, and i shall not bother counting the no. of times my parents got pissed at each other.
Let's just pray that someday peace will be restored.
God, take over.

Elizabeth chirped at 1:26 AM | No comments

OH my gosh. THis totally suxs.
So i totally broke down while out with my family today.
It's like, lots of little stuff that have been stressing me out came towering down.
And the worse part is the trigger had to be abt my bedroom.
So now my Dad's pissed at me coz he thinks i'm using the thing abt me not having a bedroom as an excuse for not doing my work.

It's just that my whole holiday suxs.
I was so stressed out by band I was DROPPING HAIR.
Do they know that? No. coz i did't tell them. HAH.
So I thought I could finally take a break during the band break.
But I had to deal with a bunch of ppl who couldn't commit and as such a simple song presentation that was suppose to be rather stress free became rather stressful coz I have to keep watching out for other ppl's mood.
I guess even Karen could tell I was in a heck care mood throughout the whole thing.
If i had let myself really care, i would have broken down long ago.

Then, to stay over night, i stayed up at night to clean my bed so that they can dispose of it.
And then the whole sleepover thing just went down the drain becoz they didn't want to sleepover, not coz they can't. They didn't want.
I don't even care abt that lar. It's just a small issue but it adds up.

And my parent's won't stop arguing.
To the point that I believe if they weren't Christians, they would already be thinking abt getting a divorced.

And then there's the problem abt schools.
MY stuff are missing, Coz my frens didn't rmb abt it. So i have to find some way to get all my books and notes back. And i still have tons of homework untoched.

In short. My life is really horrible at the moment.
But I remeber JOB.
SO maybe Satan's trying to make my life a living hell. I wanted to question God.
But I think satan's just using all the stuff in the physical world to affect the spiritual world.

I love Isaish 40 right now.
Even youths grow tired and weary. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary.

Maybe the problem is i dun tell anyone abt my problems.
But i really don't see the point of telling someone if they can't do anything abt it.
Well, so whoever reads this, and is a Christians, just pray ok?
That's the only thing you probably can do anyway.

Rahh. don't read too much into this post.
I'm just trying to destressed so i can stop wetting myself.
SOrry, if anyone get's offended. BUT SERIOUSLY, don't read so much into this.

God help me.
I need a little love.
I'm tired of trying to love others.

Elizabeth chirped at 2:54 PM | No comments

I never really thought much abt the lyrics of Testify to Love until last night.
After thinking abt it, i realised it kinds of link to my previous previous post.
The post abt the evidence of God.

The verses are all abt naming some of the things in this world that are testimony of God's love. WHich in essence, is the evidence of God.
And so with that, the singers go into a declaration that they TOO, will be a testimony to the world.
We ourselves, our lives, our actions, are the evidence of God.
This song is a declaration. And i think we should either sing it with meaning or don't sing at all.

So, AT LAST, I went to make my IC today.
Suppose to have done it 2 months ago.
Last night, i went to ask Tim whether i have to bring an original copy of my birth cert or photocopy can liao. And he said photocopy.
This morning I reached there, quite happy to see that the crowd wasn't that bad coz it's only ard 11.
Then the lady at the counter told me, SORRY. MUST HAVE ORIGINAL BIRTH CERT. COME BACK ANOTHER DAY.
Wonderful!!
In short, due to my stupidity ( i should have known better than to trust my bro on this kind of thing), i wasted 1half hour and $1.
I read the newspaper and they said it would rain around 1pm so i aimed to be home before 1 but ended up reaching at 1.45pm.
But praise God, the rain only started when i was at the main gate of my hse.
NICE TIMING EH?

Making this card reminds me of the fact that I'm a citizen of Singapore.
So i'm ruled, govern, protected or restricted by it's laws.
I have to recognize the authority the government have over me.

But, I'm not just a Singapore citizen.
I'm also a citizen of another kingdom. A greater one. With an even better RULER.
Whose every single law was made out of love for me/us.

If there's an identification card for Singapore, shouldn't there be one in the Kingdom of God?
Something/someone that would confirm us as members of His Kingdom.
I'm not too sure if I'm making sense or even thinking too much.
But I would say, that Jesus is our birth certificate, and the Holy Spirit is our IC and God is our King.

And I'm losing track of what my main point is for bringing this up.

I guess, what I really want to say is, while we are in this world, don't forget that we are also members of another GREATER kingdom.
And just as our ICs or rather, actions/mannerism/looks will be obvious clues of our nationality to others, we should make it such that our citizenship in Christ is just as obvious, if not more obvious, to others.

OK oK. THis is a mess. i'm too tired. Hah.
THE WHOLE MAIN POINT OF EVERYTHING IS,
be a testimony. An obvious one.

Elizabeth chirped at 2:19 AM | No comments

So i was doing TAG yesterday, and the topic was on Death of a Family.

Families are dying. And in every one of those homes, the autopsy results are the same. Cause of death? Satan's strategy of alienating and severing the spousal relationship.

Sadly, the strategy is working.

And sadly again, it seems to be working in my family too.
I guess this is something that I have to keep praying for.
Need more prayer support. Ask me if you're not sure what to pray for.

Elizabeth chirped at 1:20 PM | No comments

Christmas is coming, but it so does not feel like it.
I totally forgot that christmas is coming.
Somehow over the years, christmas has lost it's meaning to me.
I mean it's to celebrate the birth of Christ right?

So, more and more theory abt how man came abt and stuff are coming out.
Ppl call us fools when they hear what we believe in.
They believe that they are the one who controls everything in their life be it good or bad.
In the same way, I call them fools when i read their point of view.
2 fools. But who's the REAL one?

And Man continues to argue. To prove they are right.
They demand for evidence in a world which seeing is believing.
I'm just thinking, all the evidence are ALREADY THERE.
There's no problem with the evidence. Just their eyes.
It isn't that there are no evidence, they are just not seeing.
It's all around you everywhere u go.

It doesn't matter what Man may say.
I'm not very different from other Man. I believe what I see.
And I am amazed as I watch God move strongly in ppl's lives.
The thing is His evidence are fresh and you just keep seeing more and more.
So I continue to stand my ground that the Almighty God I belive in is real.

I know most blogs by ordinary students like myself may sound childish especially in the eyes of older folk. But i'll keep blogging anyway.
Well, it's good to look at different point of view. As long as you still know what u believe in.

The viewpoint of a frog in the well.

Elizabeth chirped at 11:51 AM | No comments

It's been raining and raining the whole day.
Glad that the singers have cleared up their parts a lot.
I play on the weighted keyboard until my fingers want to die liao. Have to keep stretching over an octave.

I really wonder what ministry I really belong to.
Worship feels like an ON THE WAY kind of thing. Not really my calling.
Oh well, till He reveals it in His prefect timing.

So, i'm a really tight lip person on my affairs/secrets.
Don't know why, but since young, i've always been afraid to tell my secrets.
Not that ppl often ask me to share it anyway. Coz i will keep really quiet when I feel I'm on dangerous ground so as not to draw attention to myself.
I guess maybe it's coz I'm a LOVE FACE kind of person. Which is why at times I feel like I'm carrying too much burdens on my shoulders. Like ppl are expecting so much out of me and I just have to live up to it.
But I'm still afraid to trust.
To trust ppl with things that are really close to my heart.

Ooh. This is starting to get a little emo.
I guess in all things I'll just trust God to change me for the better.
He loves me just the way I am but He's not gonna leave me in the state I am.

Oh, and I just realised something today.
I've stopped dropping a lot of hair!!
For a period of time, I kept dropping hair lar. SO SCARY.
Not that it made a lot of difference coz my hair's so thick.
But it's still scary to keept dropping hair.
Anyway the main thing is that it finally stopped!
YAY! Praise God. hah.
I think it was the stress that caused it. All the band band band.

This post is really random.
And i'm really weird.
I miss my old hair :(

Elizabeth chirped at 10:37 PM | No comments

Crazy internet.
It just had to die the moment i click publish post last night.

So new skin, coz ppl kept complaining they couldn't access my blog with the old one.
Plus, i needed something fresh.

Based on the song "without love" by Stacie Orrico which is based on the 1 Corinthians 13, the chapter on LOVE.
One of my fav chapters, so i thought, WHY NOT?
First introduced to the song by JOY LEE during Camp Rising. HAH.

Still have to make some changes.
I think the pic feels a bit too big. Hah. I'llchange it when I feel like it.
Currently feeling very lazy coz it took a super long time to do the picture for this skin.
Plus, it's a bit too pink for a person like me.
Then again, change can be good. HAH.

I'm suppose to make the ppt slides for Testify to Love but i ended up doing this.
Naughty naughty.
Maybe i should stay home and do it now.
Hmm.. nah. I'll turn up for the vocals practice lar.
Since i alr said i would be going.

Enjoy.

Elizabeth chirped at 12:39 PM | No comments

AHhhhh.
It's good to finally be home. Not that being away from Home is all that bad.
For a week and a day, i've been enjoying myself and just chilling out, having fun.
If secondary sch life is alr like tht, i dread to think of the future.
But then again, shouldn't i be having a hope for the future, because I have Jesus Christ?
Life doesn't get smoother when you know Christ. It gets bumpier.
But, praise God that what we gain is much more :)

It's been fun, having camp and staying over at Shalom's hse.
Go check out her blog to see the corny stuff we did in the middle of the night.
Everyone needs a time when they can just drop everything and be childish again.
To just be free from the pressure of responsibility and the opinions of others.
All things said, it's really time to get down to business.
My heart sinks at the thought of the pile of untouched homework and the books that needs to be bought.
Oh wait. I still have to photocopy other ppl's notes too.
Sigh. Why did no one rmb abt my stuff???? Now it's all gone.

Hah. To top it off, Shalom brought us to some auntie to cut hair.
Now we both look funny. Hah. In her opinion, my haircut isn't that bad.
For me, i think we both just have to get used to it, till it grows long again.

5 days to the christmas thing.
Still have to do the ppt coz Chrissy is going to HK.
Just have to commit everything to Him.

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."
Ephesians 6:12

Fight a spiritual battle.

Elizabeth chirped at 8:58 PM | No comments

Feels like i'm blogging twice abt similar topics since i just blogged for shalom.
Anyways, lots of things have been happening for me too after the camp.
Seems like i need to toughen up on my spiritual warfare.
Lot's of praying and TAG to do.
Anyone want to join in and support?

Facing lots of temptation.
Old habits die hard.
The devil is really intelligent. He just knows WHERE to hit.

Today was especially draining.
I guess it wasn't just me but everyone in the team.
When something happens to someone in a team I guess it affects EVERYONE no matter how small you think you are.
I just have to trust in God to let things work out for the best.
Maybe on the day itself we will still sound like crap. Maybe something will happen.
Maybe maybe..
I really duno. But If we've already committed it into His hands then i guess everything will turn out for the best after all.

The worse part was we were singing TESTIFY TO LOVE.
Which is so ironic.
So much love we had lar.
I'm talking abt myself too not just other ppl.

ok. I've nth to say.
Just BLANKing out now.
BLANK BLANK BLANK.
Maybe i shall copyright it.
Ok wadever dam lame.

BYE BYE (copy shalom who copied mrCHin)

Elizabeth chirped at 1:28 AM | No comments

So I guess the restoration process is complete.
I'm really trying to live being led by the spirit.
Games He told me to quit I've quit.
Things He told me to do I've done.
Seems like my life is clearing up.
YAY! =D

Dan has uploaded camp pics!! YAY!
So everyone can go kop now. HAHA.
The following pictures are of JERICHO!!
Yea, i love my group. haha.

This is plain gay. It's too small but if u can see the big one, you will realise how gay my face is. HAH.

The Girls in Jericho. SO little lar. only 4.

Wondering what we're doing? Talking abt straight and crooked fingers and who could do the fish thing. HAH.
My group is very zi hai.

Nice scenery. But too bad we all look so small.

Jerocho Group photo.

With the MONGster this time. HAHA. It's so cute.

Elizabeth chirped at 10:31 AM | No comments

To update my almost non-existent blog.

Lots of things have been happening during the school break.
For me, my holiday has finally started. As in, i finally have time in which i can CHOSE what i want to do. Probably have to use it to do holiday homework though. And this 'free time' is only abt 1 week long. Then it's back to stuff that i can't decide whether i want to go or not.

It's all these nonsensical activities that i'm filling my time up with that killed my walk with God.
For a month or more, i've been living as pagans do. Worrying and living in sin, trying to do everything by my own strength. It's no wonder I got burnt out.
So for this year's youth camp, i was praying for restoration to my walk with God. Coz somehow, though i tried to get it restored abt 2 weeks ago, it didn't seem to be restored. A little bit fixed, but still rather damaged.

So I went for the camp.
Great location, Great games, Great groupings, great everything.
Worship and sessions were fantastic for most, but sadly, not for me.
I don't know why, but somehow during all the ministering sessions, i still could not connect with God. I would plead with Him to show Himself to me but somehow it felt like nth was happening.
The weird part was while I was being upset with God, David called Shalom and I to go and pray for others. I'm upset that I can't seem to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit and you want me to pray for others?

Well, i tried, and i have no idea what I was doing. I didn't seem to be effective.
So this disconnection from God carried on until the last night. When we were doing the spiral praying thing, somehow i begin to hear the Voice of the holy spirit speaking to me again. I don't know what happened, but softly and slowly, i begin to hear His voice again.
For this whole camp, God never used anyone to speak to me. Yes there were prayers, but no words. I guess God has His plans.
Let's just wait and see how things are going to turn out.
But for now, I'm just glad and want to give thanks to God for restoring our relationship.
I can finally communicate with Him again which is like the best thing in the world.

Great great job to the camp committee.
After planning a camp, i finally begin to appreciate all the ppl who have been planning all the annual youth camp. It's tedious and requires lots of sacrifices.
But at least it's worth it, because it's all for the house of God.
Then i wonder, have i been making sacrifices for all the wrong things?
Lord help me. I'm begining to have lots of resentment in my heart.

My life's still in a mess. It's a wonder what 1 month without Jesus can do to your life.
I'm just so glad that i now at least have a hope for the future.
Hmm,... it seems like God does lots of dirty jobs.
He cleans up the mess we make in our lives.

Overall, camp was good. It was the one thing i truely enjoyed in my whole holiday.
I'm missing the whole church thing now.
Looking forward to the day I can finally escape from the system of the world which i know i do not and cannot belong to and be finally found in the house of God doing His work.
Till then I shall just perservere on and keep equipping myself.

Elizabeth chirped at 8:31 PM | No comments

What a timely message today.
It was about worrying.
Yes, i've been stressing out too much recently.
It was wonderful to just soak in God's presence at the end of the sermon during the ministering part.
I was just so tired of everything I kept crying and crying in the presence of God.
How silly it was of me to try and do everything on my own strength.
I asked for His strength but still kept trying to do everything on my own.

Let's face it.
I'm weak. I'm human. And i can only do so much at one time.
So the trick is to just focus on God's stuff. Coz He will handle the rest.
I can't go through anymore on my own strength.
So if I survive, no wait. I WILL survive through this and it will all be because of God.
I will be calm, not stressed, and not tired out in any other way except physically.
Coz God's gonna be my strength.
And through this, His glory will be revealed.

Ohyes.
And if you have no idea what i'm talking abt, it's coz band camp, grad dinner and concert are all coming up. Try planning everything and you will get what i mean.

Lalala~
I'm gonna rely on the Almighty.

Elizabeth chirped at 8:17 PM | No comments

I'm TIRED.
And almost totally burnt out.
Ppl around me, pls bear with me. HAH.

The worse part is my walk with God is going down because of Band.
Coz I'm always so tired when i do tag, i just fall asleep.
And I try to rmb God and include Him in my activities, but i'm so tired i end up praying for strength all the time and don't talk to Him.
HAIZ.
I want to fall in love with Him again.

Elizabeth chirped at 8:50 PM | No comments

I finally remember what i wanted to tell joyce.
You know the cliche thing ppl always say about the safest place is normally the most dangerous place and that the most dangerous place is the safest place?
It's kinda true with God's love.

When you're in God's love/in love with God, you do all sorts of crazy things. Crazy things that can put your life at risk. A person in love with God is dangerous.
But that person is also probably one of the safest person on earth.
Coz when you're in God's love, you are safe. For eternity, and even on earth.
That's coz ultimately, God's hand is behind all the dangerous things you do, so no matter what, you will not come to harm coz God says that He knows the plan He has for us, plans to prosper us and not to harm us.

Am i making sense?
The main point is that being in love with God and remaining in His love is such a cool thing.
It's so risky, it's so dangerous, it's so EXCITING!!
And yet, you know you will never come to harm.
Not like sin. It's risky, it's dangerous, it can be exciting (though no matter what it can't beat His love), BUT it will always always ALWAYS bring you to harm.

Anyway, another thing i was thinking abt.
What would my current classmates, remember me for a few years down the road?
Will the connect my name with a lamer or some band freak or some gd moral person or whatever?
I wonder what would be the deepest impression I left on them.
Then I wonder, what do I WANT to be remembered for?
Maybe I'm thinking too much but it's stuff like this that reflect what kind of person you are.

Mr Tan mentioned 3 of his happiest moment in his life.
And so I begin to think, what are mine?
It's sad that I can't name the day I got my salvation as one of them coz up to today, i still really do not know excatly when or what it was that made me go to God.
But one of the happiest moment in my life so far was the day i had a preview of what it's like to be crazy in God's love. To have that crazy faith in God coz you're just so sure of His love and you're in love with Him.
The day when things were going wrong and a normal person would be stressing out, but i was going crazy and feeling like life was fantastic coz I just had this crazy certaincy that everything was going to be alright coz it's in God's hand. And at that moment, nothing could have shake me off that feeling.

I still think God is the coolest dude in the world.
HAH. That sounds funny.
But I think it's true.
If you thought God was boring, you never knew God.
If you wished that you had met God later, then I guess you've not experience what it's like to live with God's power in your life.

Ok, i think this post is a little messy but whatever lar.
That's my new favourite phrase thanks to joey.
Hah. Whatever lar, shut up lar.

Elizabeth chirped at 10:31 PM | No comments

HAHAHAHA.
Our NCO POP video is on youtube.
For those who want to watch.



I MISS NCO CAMP :(

Elizabeth chirped at 2:19 PM | No comments

SOB. It's over!!!!
I'm gonna miss the camp sia.
It's coz for the past few days, they are all i knew coz they are the first few ppl i see when i wake up, and the last few before i sleep. HAHA.
A real fun bunch of ppl.
All the DMs are burnt while the BMs are only a little darker.

This is really a once in a lifetime experience for ppl like me who belong to bands that do almost no drills at all.
My first time to march and play and do formations.
Really got to thank God for today.
Just before the POP we could hear thunder. But it didn't rain in the end so we could still do our show.
I was praying really hard that it wouldn't rain. And also that I wouldn't feel like puking.
Praise God for answering both my prayers.
In the afternoon during POP rehearsal, I couldn't tahan the standing and had to sit down twice.
So I was really worried that I wouldn't be able to tahan the actual thing.
The worst part was we had to stand longer for the real thing than the rehearsal.
YET, i was still fine when the whole thing was over.
Praise GOD yea!

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh. Which reminds me!
I had a nightmare last night.
I dreamt that someone told me that God would not answer the prayers that i said to Him in the toilet. and in the dream i always pray in the toilet.
And then another person told me that because I've been far from God, He's going to ignore all my prayers and leave me on my own.
The 2 ppl are those kind of ppl that can hear from God so it's as good as God's word.
So i was begging some old indian man what to do to get back to God.
And like it was really hard.
I woke up in fear. Like what am i going to do without God?
The worse thing was when I was abt to pray this morning, i stopped coz I "knew" He was going to ignore me. As in, i thought everything that happened in the dream was real.
It's so scary lar.

Then I felt God say that someday He may do that. Like when the day of judgement comes.
When it's too late for ppl to repent. He will be forced to met out justice.
But now, NOW while it's still not here now, He will always hear my prayers and answer them.
He won't ignore me or leave me alone no matter how many times I do the same to Him.

It just struck me that many ppl think that Christians have to give a lot to God.
Like we are bounded by rules and stuff.
But really, we arn't giving much to God. He's the One who keeps giving and giving.
It's time we start showing ppl the Real God.
We need to go and tell them the truth about Christianity.

Elizabeth chirped at 10:04 PM | No comments

Sob.
NCO camp is ending. And i probably won't see any of them again. WAHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Tmr last day. Sad man.

Had dinner with a group of them again today.
Was talking to one guy who was talking abt smoking and stuff.
Listening to it all, I begin to realised what a sheltered life i've been living.
It's like, all those stuff are just STORIES, and I can't imagine it happening to me or anyone I know.
Sitting there, I felt like I was the most guai person there. The goody-two-shoes who doesn't do anything wrong, though i do lar.
As I sat there and listen, I felt a little disturbed.

What are we doing? We, who calls ourselves Christians, followers of Christ.
We're still struggling with stuff like getting members to come to church and doing TAG regularly or just trying to be friendly with newcomers etc.
I mean, OUT THERE, there are youths OUR age, IN Singapore, who really need GOD.
Their lives are messed up and what they really need is to come to know KNOW God. Not just hear the same old story, but to KNOW the real God.
And God needs His messengers to reach them.
But where to get messengers who can carry the msg?
So many of His people (i duno whether i should add "") are still stuck at the basic level.

Jesus didn't come to save the righteous but the unrighteous.
I just see the Church as a place full of ppl who are very self-righteous, myself included.
It's like we're separated from the rest of the world.
It's not surprising that ppl see us and say that if that is what christianity is all abt, then I'm not interested.
I'm like, SERIOUSLY, what on EARTH are we doing? Literally!
What are we doing?

Since NCO camp started, i've been drifting further and further away from God.
Maybe it's coz I spent less time with Him. My thoughts were often preoccupied.
But just like that, in a snap, He had me back with Him again.
I feel like shaking my head.
Yes, we are to be set apart from the world.
But that's on the INSIDE. Our believes, values, thinking etc.
I don't think we are suppose to be apart on the outside too. Coz if that were the case, how would we ever bear fruit?

Jesus was apart from the world inwardly. He's thinking, His being, the whole thing that made Him who He is. But He was always with the ppl of the world.
Mixing with them, eating with them, teaching them.
There's a fine line between a disciple and a pharisee.
I just hope we know where we are.

Again I ask,
What are we doing?

Elizabeth chirped at 10:00 PM | No comments

Rah.
We didn't even do much drills today and already I'm so tired.
What's gonna happen tmr!?
ahh. NCO camp is killing me!!

Furthermore i still have church stuff and band stuff to deal with.
Rah. Why does everything just have to come at the same period?
It doesn't help that i have a pimple on my eye.
Rather uncomfortable.

Okays. I've complained enough.
Why should i say i cannot when i can do all things through christ who gives me strength (philippians 4:13)?
God is my strength! =D

Elizabeth chirped at 8:17 PM | No comments

Crap lar.
Satan, please GO AWAY.
I know you're upset that i'm getting closer to God but please just GO AWAY!
Hmph.

So, for the past few days, I've been getting lots of weird emotions.
Like, he keeps trying to make me feel small, unimportant, and tries to make me WANT to conform to the pattern of this world.
Ugh. And that keeps coming in between God and me.
Even in my dreams, he tries.
At least that shows that I'm improving in my walk with God.

BUT God is Great!
And He keeps reminding me that I'm precious in His eyes.
That my worth is not based on anything else but on what He says.
And He thinks me precious enough to send His Son, who never did anything wrong, to die in place of me, who did so many wrongs.
Yes, I know my worth.
I am worth the heartache and the pain in the eyes of God.
I am treasured by Him more than anyone else in the world.
I'm His star, and I'm gonna shine light for Him.

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
Proverbs 31:30

I'm a Hero in the eyes of God
A precious child of the King
I once was lost but now am found
And I leave for Him alone

Do not conform to the pattern of this world.

Elizabeth chirped at 11:17 PM | No comments

Sigh.
I wonder who is cheong.
I hope he or she comes back.
What would make a person bother spending so much time to spam my tagboard? And with such words too.

Hey CHEONG.
Whoever you are, if you have something to say, drop me a mail.
I would like to hear more from you other than the same repeated words.
Why does God sux? Are you satisfied with Life?
I'm serious. I really really want to hear from you.

Ok. I have been living more in His word recently.
And really, memorising scripture, is seriously helpful.
It's easier to hear God's voice this way.
Trust me. Hear it from one who used to dislike memorising verses.
IT HELPS. ALOT.

I seriously think I'm weird, and I'm nuts.
Look all over the world and there's no one like me! :)

Why should I let the pressures of life bother me when I can take courage knowing that Jesus has overcome the world and its problems (john 16:33)?

I don't care what ppl say.
My God is AWESOME. My God is BIG. My God is the coolest!
He makes me high! He asks me to do lots of funny stuff!
If only you could come see my life. If only you could get a chance to feel my emotions.
Only then will you know, only then will you be able to understand.
Why I love my God.
Jesus, oooooooh, Jesus!

I'm under the influence of Love!
His TRANSFORMING love!! :))))))))

Elizabeth chirped at 8:24 PM | No comments

RRRRRRAHHHHHHHHHH!
I can't stand it when ppl say tht I'm some xiao jie that can't handle stress.
Not that anyone said that to me recently lar.
I just felt like saying that.

NEVER EVER have i seen what an impossible task loving is until today.
I always knew it was hard, but not THIS hard.
I really really really Respect ppl who can love.
And so, I respect only God.
Haha.

God, you're asking the impossible out of me.
But then again, you gave me Jesus, who's in me.
So, it's not really THAT impossible.

Love you enemies, do good to those who hate you.
I'm not even trying to love my enemies, i'm just trying to love a tricky person.
And already i feel like i'm facing a mountain.
What more, to love you're enemies??
That's like what, i'm on earth and facing Heaven?

No wonder you say that if we do not Love, then you are not in us.
Coz you're the only one who can love. and enable us to love.

Seriously, you have been throwing memory verses at me the whole day.
NOW, you throw me a chapter!!!
1 Corinthians 13.

ok. I'm really tired, but strangely I'm having fun.
Coz really, i'm just here to whine.
So this is what they mean that God came and screw up our life, in the sense of the world.
But along with it comes this excitement, this joy, all these stuff that are not suppose to be there.

Hmm.
I think my post really doesn't make sense coz I never describe my situation. HAH.
But then, i don't think i'm making sense to myself now.
I'm tired, i'm not smiling, but i'm feeling really happy to myself.
All these knowing that i'm having a mountain to climb tmr.
I think I'm crazy.

God, is a crazy God. And He has made me crazy too. Haha.
Hey, i'm paying Him compliments ok.
Doesn't sound like it right?
See, i told you we're crazy.
Am i going insane in a sane world, or just turning SANE in a crazy world?

Elizabeth chirped at 9:24 PM | No comments

Rah! Ok let me blog my inititial post first.

Ok, so i finally realise what was meaningful.
Or at least put it into words.
Let your light shine before Man that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in Heaven.

Ok. Right.
For you to be able to see light, there must first be darkness right?
Like, stars are always there, but the reason you dun see it in the morning is coz there is light.
But agaisnt the dark sky, you can see the stars.
So, wouldn't ppl be able to see the light i have, better when there is darkness?

Yep. So in the same way, we can't just keep sticking to ppl who are like us, with lights, and easy to love. We need to love the unlovable, to be with with those who are in darkness.
So that our light can shine that ppl may see THAT light, and praise our Father in Heaven.

Which reminds me of that thing about the power of the Holy Spirit.
His power never fades, it's just that if you do not put Him in situation that He can show His power in, you will never see it.
Yep, so Holy Spirit, i'm just gonna let you do the work.
Show me you glory.

I've been tempted twice already.
I'm just waiting for the third one to come so i can resist and Satan will flee.
God help me.

Elizabeth chirped at 8:04 PM | No comments

The Beatitudes
Now when he saw the crowds, he went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to him, and he began to teach them saying:
"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

Salt and Light
"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.

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That is what i have memorised. Well i'm trying to memorise the sermon on the mount so that's what i memorised SO FAR.
I just felt that the verses were especially meaningful today. I can't explain it.
Read it slow and absorb the meaning. Maybe you will see what I see.

Elizabeth chirped at 6:28 PM | No comments

2 more reasons to add to WHY I LOVE MY JESUS.
Coz of His amazing transforming power.
He's so cool please. He literally takes dirt and turns into something priceless.
Like us!! Haha.
Ok, coz He can change stuff that ppl call hopeless and make it new again.
Who else but our almighty God can do that?

And and, I love Him coz He is Mighty.
Seriously, there's nothing my God cannot do.
What have I got to fear, but Him? He's so big and strong and that's why I love Him.

So I've finally finally realise that the best way to work out any relationship issue, is to talk.
Whether it's friendship or you're relationship with God, TALKING is important.
Yes, I've dealt with 2 friendship and my walk with God over the weekend (and today lar).
So I know what i'm TALKING (haha. not funny) about.

Church has been swell since we moved to Amtech!
I really think God is doing something in our church.
(again, His transforming power is just AWESOME!!!)
Secell is getting more bonded, the cell leader cell memember gap is closing, or so i feel.
and FINALLY, i had the best worship practice.
There was hardly any "i'm so small" feeling this time round.
I guess that's coz I finally set my heart to do it right for God.

Oh oh, and once again, talking really did help.
My thanks to Karen, who talked me through this, and Daniel, for just talking and spending time with us even when your exams are sooooo near, and to JW, for today! Yes, i cleared it with my fren.

What else can I say?
I'm in love.

Elizabeth chirped at 2:09 PM | No comments

Haven't been updating regularly. Me Bad.

So I've been thinking after reading the book called living the life of an ordinary radical.
Quite good i must say.
I wondered why I fell for Jesus. I wondered what it was/is the I love about Him.
Do I know the God I love? As in know His heart that kinda thing.
When the author met someone who said he didn't believe in God, the author asked that guy to describe the God he doesn't believe in. After hearing the description, the author declared that he doesn't believe in God too. At least THAT God. Then he proceeded to describe the God he believed and fell in love with.

I want to be able to tell ppl abt the God I love.
Exactly what I love about Him.

I'm a person who likes to be different. In a weird way.
Generally, what the majority likes or do, I will purposely not like it or do it.
Maybe that's why ppl think I'm weird.
And this is why I fell in Love with Jesus.
He is different. And He is daring.

He broke rules without breaking the real rules.
He broke unspoken social rules. He mixed with tax collectors, the poor, the lepers etc.
And He did this not only without breaking the commands that God has set, but He actually epmhasised them.
He showed love in a loveless world, mercy in a merciless world.
He told the rich they were poor, and the weak that they were strong.
Basically, He turned everything upside down.
The best part is that what He said is all true.
He was different, and was killed for it.

See, that's what I like about Him.
He's so unpredictable, you're kept in suspense.
He does things in such an unexpected manner you don't know whether to laugh or cry or both.
And He's dangerous coz He will make you do many stupid(in the eyes of the world) things for Him. To the point that you might even lose your life.
He's just so different from all the other gods you hear about in this world.

This is the God I fell for. The different God.

Elizabeth chirped at 12:22 PM | No comments

Yeah!
Many thanks to the ppl who gave me those!
Pink Kapo from Birdie, FAKE trumpet from Joyce, Bookmark from Karen, Book from Secell, butterfly necklace from Dad, Msg in a bottle from Zhenli!
Yea, not forgetting those who wished me too!
Thank You many many!! =D
Those who forgot are pardoned the moment they rmb that they forgot. HAH.

Ok, so it came and it went.
After a long period of separation, i think i'm begining to find my way back to God again.
It's good to be back!
The drought is over and it's starting to rain again!
I'm finally really SEEING, really really SEEING, the importance of reading His Word.
Yea, so this time I'm really really putting in the effort to get grounded in His Word.

Coz I finally saw what a hypocrite i was.
I said I wanted to know Him more, hear his heartbeat etc. but i didn't want to read His Word.
If I want to "see" Him, where else to look but to the bible!?
I mean Christ is the word in flesh right?
And besides, i think the Bible has lots of cool stuff.

La di da di da~
Life looks brighter again coz I'm finally picking up my cross again.

Elizabeth chirped at 3:04 PM | No comments

Just a quickie.
Here's my predicition before I get back my results tmr.
Cs for everything except MathS.

Tmr I shall know whether I'm blessed or not.
HAH.
What a day.

I AM GOING TO SLEEP.
If I don't wake up in the middle of the night, I'm going to be sad :(

Elizabeth chirped at 10:11 PM | No comments

Many ppl are believers in God.
Some of that many are disciples. Ppl who not just believe, but put that faith into action.
And a few of that some, are ppl who really understands the heartbeat of God. Who know Him so well, and are so anointed that ppl are slain just by his passing by.

3 groups.
Are they not all considered Christians?
Yet why the great difference?

I believe that God's plan for all of us are to be in the third group.
To be used mightily by God.
He has Great Great plans for us. Yes he does.
It's just that we, get trapped in all our worries and problems that His plans for us are unable to proceed.
We get so worried abt what will the world think of us that we limit ourselves to just believing in God but not doing anything for God.
And the worse thing is, many ppl think that that's okay. They feel happy with where they are. Just believing in God.

How can you be happy with just that when you know that there's something more?
I don't just want to read abt these people.
I don't want to trap God in a book. Or in a sunday or just in the night.
I want to be living out the great plans He has for me.
And right now, THIS, is NOT IT. It's not the ultimate plan yet.

Well it's easy to say. Hard to do.
Still, it must first start with the desire for it.
All those ppl who made it, sacrificed a lot of Jesus.

Yesterday, I spent the whole day on the computer.
It wasn't excatly wrong, since I had nothing better to do.
I got entertained while playing games and watching shows.
But at the end of the day, as i lay in bed, i felt something lacking.
Did i not spend a whole day doing what i want? So why am I feeling this?
There isn't any happiness or satisfaction that I've spent a whole day doing what I want to do.

It felt so different from the nights of days which I have spent time with God. Quality time.
Those nights, I lay in bed with a smile on my face.
And I feel satisfied and wait in anticipation for the next day.

It just goes to prove that God is real. And ppl need Him in their lives.
This is an important reminder for me.
Especially since I have been wondering whether we really needed God in our lives.
Foolish, yes.
And I thank Him for that reminder.
God is real, and ppl need the Lord.

Elizabeth chirped at 10:09 AM | No comments

WHOO HOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
Exams are finally over!!
Many thanks to those who help to pray for me!
Thank you thank you!

Aiiish.
My results are still gonna be horrible.
But that's expected since i didn't put in much effort.
My prediction before dooms day on tuesday, Cs for everything except maths.
Marvelous!
OH well. Me bad.

What a crazy crazy week.
I'm gonna drown myself in TAIWAN dramas and forget abt everything else.
I need someone to come and fix my life.
Coz i'm seriously starting to screw it up real bad.

It's times like this when it is so tempting to believe that God isn't real.
To forget that you still have to be accountable to someone.
While it is tempting, I can NEVER EVER deny His existence.
He's so real you just can't deny it.
No matter how i'm feeling now, I still won't ever regret knowing Him, having Him in my life.

Hoho.
I like what the guy who wrote the ordinary radical book said.
Many ppl say Jesus came and fixed their lives.
For me, Jesus came and screwed it up.
I was doing fine, and then suddenly He turns up and start asking me to do things that ppl scorn.
Putting me in awkward situations, demanding for more than i can give.
But then again, i would not have missed all these for the world.
Yea, He may have screwed it up, but He made it totally complete.
A wholeness others only DREAM of.
Searching for the key to that completion, yet they refuse the answer we give.
Jesus is the answer. It's plan and simple.

Elizabeth chirped at 1:40 AM | No comments

Breakfast at Mac with Joey

Doesn't that look appetising? Rahaha.

This is Joey. She's on the phone!
When suddenly....

..she see's something that totally freaks her out!

It turns out to be Jeremiah!!!!!!

Or maybe it was me and my spasm. HAH.

They're cousins. They don't look alike.

AT our NEW BUILDING!!I can't begin to understand why they chose WHite as the font color.

Mel looks totally cool here. HAHAHAH.

Here's a proper one. I like the poster. It's nice =)

Random pic of the new hall (w/o the stage).

Our caterer happans to be called Manna pot!! HAHAHAH.
It's funny because below, is MANNA.

This is then the REAL manna. HAHA. I gave her this CD as her really late birthday present.

Elizabeth chirped at 8:17 PM | No comments

English and SS papers are over.
I think know i'm gonna do badly.
Why o why must the elect history remedial be conducted today and not on wed!!?

I'm here to upload photos so tht they won't go

missing.
HAH. Coz recently i've been digging out a lot of old photographs and found out that the best way to "preserve" them was to upload it.

Taken last Sunday

Rather gay is it not? Keith was the broom. HAH.

We made a new friend!! The daughter of someone there.
Apparently, she's also Joey's cousin's classmate!!

I just found this amusing.. haha.

Elizabeth chirped at 11:57 AM | No comments

OKAY!
So we've shifted to the new place.
Looking great!
Ahh. Can't wait for everything to start running.

In the mean time there's exams to worry abt.
Finally the exam stress has hit me, and hit me hard.
So I'm off to prepare for it.
Hopefully, i'll be able to make the best of this week.

God is great! and there's so much more to life!
Still, this blog shall be reduced to wasteland till 10 October!

ALL the best everybody!

Elizabeth chirped at 6:02 PM | No comments

Oh man.
I almost died in the toilet.
I had the WORST , well maybe the second worst ever Stomach upset in my lifetime.
(I cried during the worst. Hah. then again, i was young)

I was desperately trying to remember what did I eat that brought this abt lar.
Could it be cheese? (i've been eating a lot of cheese recently)
Then again, though I'm a little lactose intolerant, i'm not THAT intolerant.
Cheese is fine with my stomach. Only plain milk is BAD BAD BAD.

So there could only be ONE explanation.

Wait, before that i must explain what happened.
So, even though I couldn't exactly read with the amt of discomfort I was facing, I decided to pick up the "EVEN GREATER" book by Reinhard Bonke.
Though I've finished it before, I finally decided to read it again.
Why do I use finally? Coz everytime i go to the toilet, i'll see the book and feel like reading it but never do.

I got really inspired by that book again.
AMAZING.
Considering that fact that I couldn't really think.
Upon reflection, that whole situation seems so unreal/blur/dream-like to me.

The memories of the thoughts I had consist of only the ending part.
By then my energy could be more er.. relax. hah.

I was thinking (talking to God), why do you only seem to raise up ppl from other country?
Why is there no BIG Singaporean?
And why is it that the stories in the book seemed to happen so long ago?
At least there was one story that was dated 1988. dots.
It seems as if those Big Big miraculous, life-changing things could only happen in the past.
Why is there almost nothing now? at least I'm not hearing it.

I had many qns.
Didn't exactly get my answers.
Or at least I got it, but i'm not sure if it's my logical mind or the Holy Spirit.

Was it because ppl have begun turning away from God?
They've forgotten what God has done for them and are slipping into this lukewarm feeling for Him.
Or is it just that ppl these days are just so bombarded with science and technology that they can't believe in miracles anymore?
Whatever it was, it was leading to this "blank-blank" period in what I like to call Christian history.

Then I begin to wonder, is this why david said you said there's gonna be this new wave thing?
Are you gonna rise up ppl again to do your work?
And I wondered whether this would be a repeat of the times of cycles.
Whether in the history of Man, we would just keep blowing hot and cold.
Well, i brushed that aside and kept thinking abt that NEW WAVE thing.
I kinda got really excited.
Like "HEY! There's gonna be a NEW WAVE! a NEW WAVE!! More of God!!"
So EXCITING RIGHT!?!?!?

So I told God.
Hey! If you're doing this NEW WAVE thing remember to include me ok!!
I'm sick of being a spectator in your Kingdom. So many christians I know are just spectators too.
I want to be DOING SOMETHING!
To be ACTIVE in your plan.
I DON'T WANT TO BE A SPECTATOR!!

Then I came to the realise that I've gotten more daring in God.
It's like, in the past, I would always say to God, I will try my best to (for example) be your disciple ( i never used the word disciple in the past lar).
Now i'm like, God, I want to be your disciple.
There's no more TRY.
You just go and DO.
I think this comes with confidence in God. As my confidence in Him grows, i do more and try less.

Back to the point.
That ONE explanation after saying all these is, Divine Intervention.
HAHa.
Though I wished He could have picked a nicer way to get me to read the book.

Still, I'm excited.
It doesn't matter whether it's a new wave or not.
The point is, if I want to stop being the spectator, He's not gonna mind at all and make me a DO-ER.
So i'm gonna stop being a spectator!
Are you?

Elizabeth chirped at 8:39 PM | No comments

It's THAT time of the year again.
When suddenly, almost everyone is suddenly so hardworking.
It just goes to show that no matter what ppl say, they still want to suceed in life.
And it also goes to show that they think their way to sucess is through good education.

Well, the merits of education has been proven.
It's not a bad thing.
Education will enable you to get THAT bright future that you want.

I'm still not going to just throw away my education like that.
In a sense, it is still my safety blanket.
Not that I really need one, since i'm pretty much convinced that my future is in God's hands.
It's just that I don't excatly know whether His plans will require a good education.
and Besides, He didn't tell me to throw away my education.
He told me to put Him first, and let the rest fall into place.

So we were kinda talking abt our future.
Sometimes, I feel a little afraid to answer when asked what I want to be when I grow up.
Coz the answer will bring out the "er.. ugh?" kind of face from non-believers.
And it may bring out the "er.. Orh" kind of face from believers.

Even if God never called me, there's this desire in me to be working in His kingdom.
Or should i say, that desire got planted there after He called me and it never faded away?

But then, it doesn't really matter what the future holds for me.
Coz I know whose hands their in.
That's enough for me.
Don't have to worry abt tomorrow (masterlife day 1).
For now i shall focus on my exams.

Or rather, I shall focus on God and doing masterlife THEN on my exams.
I DID say I relax before studying.
You just never thought that my relaxation time would be doing masterlife and spending time with God did you?

I'm begining to find that everytime i spend time with Him, there's this peace and stillness that will be in me.
Along with joy, hope, love and renewed confidence with the Father.
It's like, there's this whole renewing thing.
Especially after you pray.

You don't really need a touch from God at the altar to be passionate abt Him again.
If you would just do a proper QT, you will find that it is the same, if not even better.

Now why didn't we see that earlier?
Coz we let ourselves get deceived by the deceiver.
Which brings to mind, my fear of darkness or rather being the only awake person in the house is kind of coming back.
It's silly, but I can't cast it off.
There's this uneasiness every morning.
Help me pray ok?

i recently read abt someone who wrote to the newspaper to ask how to be satisfied with life. If only she BELIEVED.
I'm pretty certain many ppl in singapore our age have heard of God before.
So it's probably they heard but didn't believe.
Then again, it might be because the wrong things were said while sharing.
But the "secret" to life, is spending time with the Father.

I think that would be similar if not BETTER than yoga (finding ur balance and all).

Just a passing thought.
Note: it's not to my credit that I end up doing ok if not well for my studies even if I didn't really study. Credit goes to God. Look up. Not at me.

Elizabeth chirped at 6:34 PM | No comments

I can't wait for October to come.
Sure, exams are round the corner. So is the move to Amtech.
I couldn't really care abt exams anyway.
I'm in a carefree kind of mood now.

So as I was praying, for a moment I actually believed that since God's plan is different for everyone, my principals may not apply to everyone my age.
Then there was this quick voice that said NO. Stand Firm on it. Don't be deceived.

For me, I sincerely believe that we should try to live as above-board as possible.
After all, we are called to set an example.

I don't like having to hide things.
Just to take note, there's a difference between Hiding, and not sharing.
Hiding comes with the pit-pat feeling in your heart when it's almost discovered.
It comes with fear. More often then not, you don't share them with ppl you respect.

I have my little secrets too. Things I've done that I'm ashamed of.
But I really really try to keep that as low as possible.
I try not to commit the sin in the first place so that I won't have to deal with it.
Yet, i still fall at times.

I believe we should keep our lives kind of transparent.
So that all may see the good work that God has done in it.

Let me not hide it anymore. It gives ppl wrong impressions.
Temptations? Yes i face them too.
Am I not made up of the same stuff as everyone too?
Does my body not go through the same stuff as yours?
Do i not feel the same emotions as you?

I face the same things as you, but it is the choices that we make that lead us to different path.
Laugh at me, mock me, do whatever you want.
But I want to make as many choices as possible with the word GOD stamped all over it.

It doesn't matter whether or not my principal applies to you.
If you have to hide, somethings wrong. You know it.

I officially decided to be a disciple of God. To commit myself to Him.
My life is going to be God's evidence.
A reflection of His work.
So I'm determined to do my best (with the aid of the Holy Spirit) not to do anything that will nulify/threaten the credibility of this evidence.

I've decided.
What abt you?

Elizabeth chirped at 5:27 PM | No comments

53 Chancery Lane. Where we spent 8 years..??
Time to say good bye.





















The santuary we had our activities in.





















Now reduced to this. Notice that the cupboards are missing. They have been moved.

This is a really old pic. When we were sec 1. Anyway, our secell room!!

Now left to this..

No more place to Jam..
















Our new place still under construction. How will the finished product look like?

Elizabeth chirped at 7:51 PM | No comments

I haven't been blogging yea.
Still deciding whether I should close this blog or not.
That's because I realised that many of my post have this "holi-er than thou" kind of tone to it.
Which in the end, sometimes totally destroys my point of blogging.
And if I can't write what I want to say, no point in blogging.

So, this is to update my walk with God.
After all, this blog is to keep a record of that.

Saturday was our last ever saturday service, and last ever service in Chancery lane.
Also my first time serving as a keyboardist.
Not that bad, nor was it really good.
Not that it matters much since the whole environment/setting is gonna change since we're moving.
I really liked the songs selection though.

So, right at the end, well, almost everyone had a word from God I guess. Through the cell leaders.
I attempted to pray for Karen while she was playing the piano. I ended up crying as I realised how much love there was in all our cell leaders/elders etc.
I totally felt it that day. As we were moving the church stuff, i just felt so loved.
And I felt so bad that I had been taking this love for granted.

Well, Shufen came and prayed for me.
I was kinda surprise at what she/God said.

She said that God was pleased with the values/principals that I have instilled/trying to instill in my life. Friends will challenge those values. Not just any friends but even my really really close friends. But don't forget that I have a friend with me through it all. The Holy Spirit will be my best friend. Stand firm.

Something like that. Kinda surprise coz before that I sought of felt that God was telling me I have to stop being so proud.
So this was really random.
But it was still a great last saturday service.

Sunday night.
Right after I finished praying after doing my TAG at home, I felt the Holy Spirit speaking to me.
His voice was clear and strong.

He said to be patient, to hold out, to perservere. God will give me the guy He promised me. It will be good, if I would just hold on to His promise and not fall into temptation.
The blessing promised would be so much greater if I would let His plan unfold instead of choosing to fall into temptation now.

First of all, that was really random since my prayer had nothing to do with that topic.
Second of all, there is no one to fall into temptation with. HAH.
Oh well, still I will hold on to His promise.

And then at night (last night lar) I dreamt abt stuff.
I can't rmb what.
Except for one part.
I saw this face. I can't rmb how it look like now. But i remember the eyes.
The eyes that frightened me. It was hard. And it was staring at me.
I feared and so I started singing.
(don't ask me why i even sang and of all songs, why i picked "God is in the house". it's a dream!)
I sang, Jesus, Jesus, He calls me for His own.
I expected the eyes to show fear at the name of Jesus. But it didn't.
And then I fell back to sleep.
Freaky nightmare.

School was rather interesting today.
Triple english period and ms chang wasn't in school again.
So we had our thought provoking opinionated discussions again.
Topic: pre-marital sex

On the it's okay side, we had fion and zhenli
On the it's not okay side, we had joyce and myself.

What can I say?
The whole time i just kept thinking of last night.
What i felt the holy spirit telling me so strongly.
And i kept thinking, hey this is the begining of the test of my principals.

But really. What more could I say?
In a part of my prideful heart, I was hoping that their relationship would be a mess in the future so that I would be proven right.
But then again, I would rather they be right and I be wrong.
For if they are right, what do I lose other than maybe my face and a little happiness.
But if I am right, and they continue to refuse to believe, they will meet a horrible end.

It didn't help that I knew with a certainty that I wasn't wrong.
I have my own evidence to prove to myself that God is real.
It's so easy to prove that God is real.
But how are you ever going to find evidence that show that God isn't real?
You won't ever.
You can only say it.
And even then you think He isn't real only because you have not seen/felt the evidence for yourself. You refuse to look/feel.
Will you ever be able to prove that some hundred thousand/million ppl are crazy?
That we only imagine ourselves being hit by some invincible wall. That we are mad that's why we cry for no apparent reason or start laughing for no reason.
You can't prove that He doesn't exist.
But I can prove He does.

What else can I do?
But to pray and set an example.
To let them never ever have a chance to call me a hypocrite.

We all started at the same begining. (more or less lar. some richer some poorer)
But it's the choices we make at each point of time that leads us to different path.
When you are young, the paths arn't that far apart. Arn't that different.
But as you grow older, they get farther and more different.
Until it leads to 2 totally opposite ends.
I wonder how at the end, our lives would look like.
Would you have been right?
Or would I be right?
Or should i say, would my mistake be bigger, or yours?

Elizabeth chirped at 3:23 PM | No comments

Ai-Yai-Yai-Yai-YAI!!!!!!!!!!
I'm in a good mood today!

After a crazy hetic holiday, I'm finally having a break.
How ironic.
I never got to rest during the holiday.
Now that it's over, i'm finally resting.
Hoho.

Let's see..
I left house at 7am from mon to sat and came back at timings ranging from 9pm to 11pm.
Fantastic!!

At least my HARD WORK paid off.
My section came in SECOND for section competitioN!!
A total miracle since we totally screwed up the day before.
YAI YAI YAI! God is good!

Ahhh. I had a nice lunch too.
With zhenli, joyce and her friend Joel.

I can't wait to shift to the amtech building!
I can't wait to start serving in the worship ministry!
I can't wait to start Masterlife!! (wait. i'm suppose to start today)
I can't wait for tmr's prayer meeting!
YAI YAI YAI! The christian life is SOOOOO exciting!!!!

Oh my gosh. This joy how can I describe it?
It's not simply being happy.
It's not just being full of optimisim and hope.
I can't explain it to you.
I can only ask you to come and experience it yourself.

There's really a God-shaped hole.
Only when that's filled will you start to understand what i'm talking about.
YAI YAI YAI!!! I have the spirit in me!!

Elizabeth chirped at 6:26 PM | No comments

WHooo!
I rather hyped up abt Church now.
ok, well, i'm in a love-hate dislike realationship with my church.
Haha. I really love to be in Church coz it's like so focused on God.
Yet, there are certain stuff/habits in my church that i don't like. Still, I'm rather excited abt the new place we are shifting to after talking to Jon and Joey.

And masterlife seems quite good.
So i'm excited abt it too!
I'm excited to learn abt God.
He's just so awesome =)

He's my pillar of strength. My emo support.
My EVERYTHING!!
I rely so Heavily on Him.
How could I survive without Him?
How do OTHERS, survive without Him?

Hyped up about my God!!

Elizabeth chirped at 6:50 PM | No comments

I just watched SCV channel 62.
It was in the middle of some movie.
Curious, i continued watching it.
I was surprised when the song they played during the couples wedding was a christian song.
A chinese one. I think the title is "tian kong de cai hong" translated into the rainbow in the sky..?

Anyway it was one of those chinese songs that many people love.
It was quite surprising coz normal secular tv shows don't use christian songs.
Turns out that that song is the theme song of the show too.

The couple talked about things like, God's plan and all.
Then the guy died due to lukemia.
There was a scene which really struck me coz it kind of reflected what I've been feeling.

The girl was crying in a corner.
Her mother came to comfort her.
And she asked her mom, "Where is God?"
Her mother replied, "He is here. He has always been here. No matter what happened He has always been here."

That kind of surprise me.
Even though the movie seemed to be having some sort of christian theme, I could not help having that constant suspicion that there was gonna be something wrong with the film.
I expected the mom to reply something like there is no God or something.

The girl wakes up the next day and sees a rainbow in the sky.
At this point, they played the song again.
They showed the lyrics on tv.
It said something about how God's love never changes and how He put a rainbow in the sky to show His promise.
Here, things seemed a little more typical as it was rather cheesy.
I couldn't help but wonder if they were talking about God or the secret between the couple.
Their secret had something to do with rainbows.
I don't quite know because I started watching only halfway.

So the girl carries on her job as a doctor and impacts many patients.
She gives them a paper box and asks them to put their sorrows into the box and God will hear it.
Then SARS cames to hong kong.
She caught it from the patients and she passed away too.

At this point I'm really wondering why such a show is being shown on tv.

Then, at the end of the show, it says nothing can separate us from the love of God coz God is love himself.
And they proceed to say that this show is in memory of those who passed away in their fight agaisnt SARS.
...

I'm like.. ok, this is a really sweet but kinda weird show.
But I really like the song.
Can't find the lyrics though.
Shall go to church and ask around.

Elizabeth chirped at 4:29 PM | No comments

I went to garden ministries to see if I could find anything to cheer me up.
I found something on solitude.
http://www.gardenministries.com/solitude.htm
Well, it was basically saying I should go and talk to God alone.
Just me and Him and no one else.

So i went, and found my God.
Last night He didn't say much to me, but I just knew He was there listening to what I had to say.

This morning, I woke up and decided to do my TAG which I didn't do last night.
I opened the book and happen to see the title of July 25 "don't quit".
So I read it and got greatly encouraged.
The scripture was 2 Corinthians 4:1-16
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2%20%20corinthians%204:1-18&version=31

Small excerpt.
I have a friend with two small children. His wife suffered from various illnesses for years. She died a few months ago. I visited my friend recently and asked how he was dong. He replied, "Crawford, to be honest, I'm up and down. Sometimes the pain is unbearable." Despite his heartache, emptiness and pain, he said, "I can't give up, because God did not give up on me."

God's love and pursuit for us is constant.
He continues to pursue us even when we don't sense or feel him. I the midst of our emptiness, frustration, pain, and the agony of awful experiences that suddenly and shockingly blindside us, God is still there.

Well, while reading this I found it to be true.
I bet that guy must have felt really lonely when his wife was gone. Yet he was right to seek God for comfort coz he found God there. And I am now right to have done what he did which is to seek God.
I would like to do what he did. Don't give up, because God did not give up on me.
He's telling me that He hasn't given up on me, so i shouldn't give up on the task He has set before me.

The scripture reminds me that I won't be working on my own effort.
After all, I am but a jar of clay.
The difference is that I am holding a treasure so precious, I become precious too.
And that treasure is God.

So i've begun renewing me inside so that I can be strong for whoever needs it again.
God enables me to give anything anyway.
Without Him, I have nothing to give.

So I finally see why people often complain about putting on masks so that people do not see their weakness. They complain about how tired they get.
I just did that too.
But it's true that there's this God-shaped hole in all of us. One that only He can fill.
See, the difference is that when this hole is filled, your mask/exterior won't collapse coz they have something to rest on.
Those who complain, find no comfort coz that hole isn't filled.
That includes some christians coz they don't want to let God fill that hole.

People need the Lord.

Elizabeth chirped at 10:28 AM | No comments

Warning: this is an emo post.

Everyone is lonely.
No one seems to have a "true" friend.
That's how it is around me.

I find the people around me all searching for that Something, that someone.
And worse of all, I find that I am one of that everyone.
It is just that everyone reacts differently to this thing that they are feeling and searching for.

We are all searching for that someone, yet no one seems to meet our expectation.
For me, I gave that dream up long ago. So long that I don't remember a time when I was actually actively looking for that special someone.
For others, they are still searching, and hoping in vain to find that someone.

I fancy myself as a subtle-strong kind of person.
I lend strength to my friends in a subtle kind of way. By trying to be a constant predictable kind of person.
Like a rock. You won't quite notice it coz it doesn't seem to do anything. It doesn't interfere. But if you need it, for whatever reason, the rock is still there to do what it can do. But a rock have little abilities other than to be there and strong for itself.
That's what I fancy myself to be. A person with a relatively strong kind of character.
I don't know whether it's true.

The problem with being that kind of person is that the people around you don't quite know when you are weak. And often, people like that are also proud, and hence do not say when they are weak.
Who's gonna be strong for me?
I don't want to be a problem to people. And I know I become one when I share my problems.
Which is why I hardly share.
I can't find anyone around my age I dare to be a problem to.

Sometimes I wonder, have I made myself so "suay bian" (easy) until my feelings get overlooked? Not that I mind a lot coz I rather have peace than to have my way.
But sometimes I get fed up that no one seems to see what I'm seeing.
I don't mind that much if no one follows my way.
I get fed up when ppl get pissed with me when my hands are tied.

I'm lonely and I try to seek my comfort from God.
Coz I know He's the only one who can really be strong for me.
The only one whom I know I won't be a problem to coz He doesn't face problems.
He can handle Everything.

Yet He expects things from me that I'm finding hard to fulfill.
Hard because I'm scared to do it.
And so our relationship can't be taken a step further.
I feeling that detachment from Him right now coz I didn't do it again.
And this is the third time.

What am I to do?
I know what I have to do but I can't do it.
Maybe I should analyse my fear so as to overcome it.

I'm crumbling on the inside and struggling to remain strong on the outside for anyone who needs it. I could manage it in the past coz there there was something that was keeping the inside from crumbling.
So what do you do when that something is missing?

I need my God now but He seems so far.
And I feel too tired to cover the distance to get to Him.
Or is Satan deluding me? Making the distance appear further than it is?
Cursed Satan, won't you ever leave me alone?

Elizabeth chirped at 8:35 PM | No comments

That stressful burden has been lifted off my shoulders!
Yesterday night God just took it away.
Well, maybe He didn't exactly take it away.
He just pointed out to me something even worse so that that burden is insignificant.

For a month or more, life had somehow gotten .. uninteresting again.
It was meaningless and my walk got stagnant.
Well, i had always sort of known the reason for that but i kept brushing it away.
True life comes from obeying God and following His call.
It comes from carrying out His purpose for you.
But I had not been doing that for the past month.
So it's not surprising that life felt empty.

Yesterday I felt that God was telling me to do His work again.
Obey His Call. That's the most important.
The stark realisation on how I had actually let my life become so meaningless made everything else fade into the background.

So I have to try again. Share again.
This time, I'm not here to help get God right, but to get right with God.

I had the feeling that if I do not overcome this obstacle, if I do not finish this, I would always remain where I am now.
Stuck at this level of maturity, unable to proceed.
This task is standing between God and me.
And He's not gonna let me get closer till I get it down.

I HAVE to overcome my fears, and overcome the evil one.
While I was reading Revelation, I found that what Jon Wong said is really true.
You either overcome or you don't.
Revelation stated what would happen to those who overcome.
I shudder to think abt what happens to those who DON'T.

All these made me come to see that is really really true that living according to His Will is the only way to LIVE.
I cried before God yesterday when I finally admitted to Him how meaningless life had gotten.

I really hope I won't forget this lesson though I know I will.
The only way to live life is to follow His Will.

Satan is a willy old fox.
He always uses the same Old method.
Because they always work!
He always makes us look at things out of proportion.

My CCA? HUh. That's a small problem.
Studies? No big deal.
My walk with God? Super duper urber important.
And he flips it all around.

It is really by God's grace that He put me back on track again.
Well, I haven't exactly walked on the track again.
But He's shown me what is the path I'm suppose to take.

I just hope that more people would realise the truth.
Even if the world comes crashing down, or our troubles are too difficult to bear,
as long as we just OBEY God, everything will be fine.
We just have to OBEY.
That's the truth of it.
just OBEY.
I can't stress it enough. Coz I'm so upset that I actually got tricked.
We just have to OBEY!!!!

Elizabeth chirped at 5:34 PM | No comments