New blog skin!! It looks more PROFESSIONAL right? Coz i din not use PAINT to make the spastic skins this time.

I used arc soft photo impression and adobe photoshop CS. So got more style.. but not as nice as others yet. Haven't really learnt how to use it properly. But the adobe is a trial wan lor.. only 30 days.. sad.

ANyway, i've not finish editing the fonts and stuff so pardon me if you can't read properly for the time being. I tml then edit lar.. tim is breathing down my neck liao.

So bye bye.

Elizabeth chirped at 8:55 PM | No comments

Ahh.. i've juz watched a walk to remember for PSE. The show is SO NICE! So sad and so sweet. For sappy romantics as Zhen Li puts it. Yet she still cried while watching it. Somemore this is not the first time she's seen it.

Anyway... i'm like in love with the OST, only hope. So i'm gonna change my bg sound to that for awhile.


Kk.. anyway during the 2nd nite of the revival thing, David said that the book heaven is so real is NOT TRUE. Coz there were a lot of loopholes here and there. So we were like.. what abt 'the divine revalation of HEAVEN'? So, we asked him afterwards. And he said he had never seen the divine revalation of heaven book before so he doesn't realli know. But he said that no matter what, we should check it with the Bible. Anyway, i stopped reading the book. Juz in case it was putting false ideas into my head.

So.. er.. this is to correct my earlier post abt the book. If i wanna know anything abt heaven, i shall read the BIBLE, coz that's the word for me. Coz i know it can be trusted, It's the book of TRUTH. Not so sure abt all these authors though. It may be real yet it may be fake. I rather have prevention rather than cure.

Anyway, my b'dae is coming up. But i dun expect any presents from ppl this time lar. Coz it's the day that i died and got born again!! Not the day that i got born into this earth. That wan, YOU GUYS BETTER BUY ME A PRESENT!
Anyway, it's sept 5. Yep i'll be 1 year old soon. Hmm.. looking back, in this 1 year, i've grown quite a bit. I remember 1 year ago i decided to take that step of faith after God spoke through the speaker to me. Hmm.. i was still a rather 'going through the motions' "christian". Sometimes i still go through the motion. But not so much anymore.. at least i'm trying to change.

Anyway, HAPPY TEACHER's DAY to the teachers!

Elizabeth chirped at 5:17 PM | No comments

I'm Back from the revival talk thingy. Today is day 2. Yep.. i went for the yesterday's (day 1) too. Then stayed over at Joey's and went for today's talk.
We were late coz we went to a fren's hse to persuade her to go to church. She went in the end and we reached like.. juz went the sermon was starting. SO we din miss much of the sermon but we missed the worship :(

Anyway.. after the msg, the speaker asked ppl to go forward. And like.. we (the 5 sistas) went forward lar. And we started to sing 'show me ur face' and i juz started to cry. I suddenly realised how much the lyrics meant to me. I mean i used to think that the lyrics were kinda nice.. at least the chorus part lar. But the song never realli strike deep into my heart. I juz suddenly realised that i realli realli loved the verse. It's like this..

Verse:
I don't want to worship from afar
Drawing closer to you
Is my only desire
You're the one that i've been longing for
Let me dwell in your presence
To worship and adore
I fall on my knees
Lord i'm yearning for you alone
Deep calls to deep
Lord i know there must be more

Chorus:
Show me your face oh lord
Make my heart pure as gold
Standing in awe of you
Your love it surrounds me forever
Show me your face oh lord
I want to know you more
I want to stand right here with you
All of my days..

Yep.. i mean the chorus still meant a lot to me but the verse suddenly meant so much more. Remember how i said i felt so dry.. and like i can't worship (refer to the FOP post). This is why it meant so much to me. I realli didn't want to worship from afar anymore. I realli wanted to dwell in God's presence. I wanted to praise and worship but i juz couldn't do it.

As i sang and sang.. i begin to cry more and more. Tears were juz flowing. I'm so glad to cry ok.. it's been such a long time since i cried while worshiping the Lord. Then Karen Roberts, the speaker's wife, came to me and she juz asked the holy spirit to come. She didn't say much to me. Unlike to the others.. some of them she talked to them and stuff. Interceeding for the Lord. And soon she went on to others. I was a little sad that she didn't say much but i was more occupied crying out to the Lord singing the song and reali reali meaning it. First time i realli meant the words i was singing so much.

Then aunty dell came to me and asked me if i had been prayed for. And i was like ya.. then she asked me to go to the back. SO i started to move, then Karen Roberts grabbed my arm and told aunty dell to let us soak in God's presence. As in dun make us go to the back lar. SO i went back and stood and juz cried even more. Coz i suddenly rememeber one part of the Bible where Jesus told his disciples to not turn away the children. To let them come. I was juz so touched. Like.. God was saying dun turn us (children/youth) away. Let us stay that kinda thing. I juz had a feeling that God was saying that I was precious in His eyes. He doesn't want me to go away. In fact He wants me to come. Come into His Kingdom. So i juz continued to stand in the front, singing my guts out and crying and crying. Then when sumone said to go to the back if i had been prayed for, this time i went lar.. coz like i didn't want to hog the front. Must give others a chance.

Standing at the back, i continued to sing.. and still cried and cried. Every song they changed to i juz suddenly felt that the words had so much meaning that i never noticed before. I was so glad to be crying.. I didn't even know why i cry. I wasn't feeling sad or super happy that kinda thing. But i cried so much until i had a bit of that cannot talk properly feeling. You know when you were young you can cry alot. Then i always cry until i sorta have hiccups as in if i try to talk i stumble coz i have to keep taking deep breaths. I juz suddenly realised that it was the presence of God. I looked around.. everyone was crying their hearts out.

I was like.. this is 1 reason why i'll never walk away. There is still SO MUCH MORE to the relationship with God. I mean.. the whole atmosphere thing. I was like.. not only will i experience this again.. i'm gonna experience more things. I wished that non-believers were there. I wished that the ppl i've been trying to share christ to had been there. To juz feel and enjoy the presence of the Lord. It's so magnificent.

Haiz.. after some time we stopped lar. Sad man.. i realli had a great time. Juz singing songs to God and crying. I like to cry coz it means tat i'm realli touched by the song that kinda thing. It's been so so long.. it felt like rain on a desert. I wished they had sang rain down lar.. but they didn't.

Anyway.. tml still have day 3. So i'm gonna get sleep now so i can stay awake tml.
Nite nite!

Elizabeth chirped at 1:01 AM | No comments

GAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I just finished my bath (time now is abt 2140 to 2150). Coz i like reached home at 9+++pm!! And i left house at like 11.30am so i've been out for about 10 HOURS!!! Doing school stuff!!! I'm super SUPER TIRED now and my shoulders are aching from carrying all the instruments, stands, files etc.
Like our audience were families and friends in the end so like it was kinda pointless to go all the way to sentosa. SO TIRING!!

This is juz a quickie coz i'm gonna sleep soon. I haven't even studied for Home Econs CT but like i dun realli care lar. I'll complain more abt today tomorrow.

Anyway.. i started reading 'The Divine Revalation of HEAVEN' this morning. Yea.. i know.. cheryl lended it to me months ago then now i started reading. Well.. the book's realli good. At first i put off reading it coz i was like.. hiya it might not be so zhun (accurate) lar. It can just be used as a refrence to what Heaven may be like. Till i started reading it. What she (mary, the author) said about heaven, she supported it with evidence from the bible. As we all know the bible is the book of truth where 95% of our answers can be found (haha.. from yesterday's sermon) so i realli felt that the book wasn't lying.

And as i read about the angels recording this and recording that.. i'm like.. WOW. There must be an angel following us all around all the time. Like even right now as i'm typing this, an angel may be scribbling things down onto the gold edged paper.
Then i was like.. hmm.. it seems as if the angels are reporting the stuff we do to God so it isn't realli that God is there and then by our side. Then i was like.. but God is always around.. omi something. Then i decided that it could be look at this way. It's like chatting on MSN with ur fren. You type type type and press enter and the person at the other end recieves what u typed veri fast. So like.. the angels is MSN messenger. and we are on one end of the conversation.
Get what I mean???

ANyway it's like 10pm now so i'm gonna do TAG and then sleep liao. Will give more details tml!! As in like explain further what i just talked about.
Oh crap.. i just realised i've not practice my piano!! And i have piano tml. My teacher is so gonna kill me. >.<

Nite nite people!

Elizabeth chirped at 9:50 PM | No comments

YES!! No band today. Can finally take a break.

Okie.. so i had bio yesterday and we were learning abt abortion. And our brilliant ms poh showed us pictures of aborted babies. I was realli realli GROSSED OUT. Like.. it's kinda sad to see these kinda pic. I mean.. you see pictures of bloody babies.. some with their body parts all seperated. Some of them so young you can hardly make out the legs and hands and it looks like a mass of flesh.. or something like a chicken. It was totally gross.. like.. how could the mom bear to abort it?

I mean.. God breathed into the babe and gave it life.. yet u selfishly take it away. How could you decide for the foetus whether he should live or die. You were foolish enough to do something wrong so you sould take responsibility for it.

Looking at the pics.. i juz saw how wonderful God has created us to be. The difficult task of developing the baby and all. No wonder the bible says we were fearfully and wonderfully made. I mean it's a wonder how 1 sperm and 1 ovum could TADA! Be turned into a babe.. and a babe could turn into an adult. I mean the transformation and all is so wonderous. How awesome is our God who made us. It sure isn't an easy task. But nothing is too great for my God.

Yet.. there are ppl killing God's creation everyday. Killing the chance for each foetus to glorify His name. Saying He has made me from an embryo into a child/teen/adult. A micro organisim into a full grown 4/5/6/7 feet grown person.

It's juz so sad to see the little lifeless body. I'm eating as i'm typing this and i recall the pictures as i'm typing. I realli feel like puking man. I'm thinking.. this foetus could have grown up and make a difference in people's life.

SAD CASE...

Elizabeth chirped at 4:27 PM | No comments

BZ BZ BZ BZ!!!
I've not blogged for 10 days!! SChool band sleep School Band Sleep.. wad kind of stupid cycle.
Anyway today's rachel's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!! But she doesn't come to my blog so she won't see this. I dun think she even knows i have a blog. OH well..

Okie.. the body band presented the body song last sat. A pity we played better when rehearsing and we screwed our ending. Still it was a good chance to be a musician. The body song i'm referring to is the 'if we are the body' song. The one that i posted the lyrics and the song??? rmb??

While we were rehearsing, i could actually feel the difference. I mean the first time we practiced, we didn't like pray or anything.. we juz started to try and jell.. and not much came out of it. The second time we practiced, the leaders were there and so we prayed before we practiced. Funny.. we never thought abt comitting the time to God when it is for Him. SO well.. i mean.. the music started getting better.. i started getting more ideas for the 'tidbits' the piano is suppose to play and wow.. things realli started moving. It was realli fun lar.. i believe the prayer made the difference. At first i thought it was practice make perfect that kinda thing.. then i soon realised that it was probably coz of the prayer. See the importance of prayer??

Prayer prayer prayer. I have always seen the power of prayer.. and yet i dun pray often enough. haiz.. 1 thing i realli want to thank God for is for giving me a peacful mind. i mean i kept fearing the darkness and i always juz had tis fear in me. Until sat service.. david said something abt peaceful mind. And he talk talk talk then before moving on to the next topic he was like.. btw you can ask for it ok. So at nite before i slept.. i kept praying for a peace of mind. And i realli had a more peaceful mind. Less fearful. i din fear the darkness so much. Still a little fearful but much less... Praise the Lord! AMen??

If for no other reason then it would be for this reason why i like my skin. It talks abt God answering prayer.

I believe He answers.. Do YOU?

Elizabeth chirped at 5:23 PM | No comments

UMPH!!! I'm so so tired now i juz plonk onto the chair.
Today was the istana performance lar. I couldn't realli care lar. I rather not perform at the istana actually. It was SO HOT and WARM there!! And all the audience are juz like parents and stuff.. oh.. and the president too. But that was only for 3 songs. And the stage was like tilting coz the ground was tilting. We were like.. performing on a hill. And so i was WARM, SWEATY and oh so off balance. And you expect me to PERFORM!? I was juz playing the notes lar. No mood to perform lar. I felt sleepy sumore coz of the heat. It didn't help that my mom was trying to take pics.

Like this week is SUPER TIRING!! I've not realli rested for 2 weeks liao. Speech day, cluster arts, open hse, Istana. And still have SENTOSA LAR!! I reali reali reali HAVE TO THANK GOD for seeing me through the past few weeks. I wondered how i would have managed w/o His strength. EVERY SINGLE DAY and night i'll be praying for strength. Last week the VOICE was like totally silent and i felt so far away from God. I later realised that it was coz of my busy schedule that i wasn't paying attention to God. Even when i do my TAG i'm doing it in a rush or i'm half asleep already. I only realised it while doing TAG some other day. So i begin to actively talk to God. Kept talking to Him whenever i was free and did not have to focus on something. And slowly bit by bit i begin to hear the voice again. It was not as active as the last time but still.. i'm glad to hear it.

Yesterday i went for FOP. The music was realli good.. but i felt so.. COLD. not physically but spiritually. My heart was cold to the Lord. I sang the songs but i could not cry, i could not feel God's presence, i could not feel anything at all. Not a stiring in my spirit, not a slightest ripple. I cried to the Lord to melt my cold heart but nth happened. The music was nice to listen to but i wanted more than that. I couldn't worship the Lord and the worse thing was.. I DIDN'T KNOW WHY!!! Throughout the whole worship i felt so sad. I dun want this kind of worship. God didn't deserve this kind of worship. I was juz so dry. And when we sang rain down i realli wish it would rain and so i wouldn't be so dry. But nth happened. I raised my hands, i jumped.. realli trying to worship but i juz couldn't. I'm still waiting for my miracle to happen. I know it's coming.. i know the water has started to flow but i juz duno what to do till then. Do i juz sit back and do nth?? OR am i suppose to do something? I realli do not know.

I feel dry.. yet am i dry? Am i realli dry? I DUNO. I think i'm taking God for granted. I'm taking it for granted that He died for us.. for me. I'm taking it for granted that the Lord gives me strenght, that he answers my prayer. I've begin to think that it is something that He should do. How could this happen?

I duno.. i realli duno. I'm juz hanging in here.. hanging onto my faith. Trusting that the Lord will change me. He will change my heart. He will carry out His purpose.. His plan. Even if i'm dry i will still trust in Him. I'll wait for him to Rain Down on me. He will be the one who will equip me to be fruitful again. I juz have to trust.

Elizabeth chirped at 7:38 PM | No comments

Ahh.. band was quite fun today! Coz we had to think of actions to do while playing.. and like we came up with weird ideas so we ended up laughing 50% of the time instead of playing or dancing. WAHAHA. And cornet was the grooviest section for speech day. WHOOT!! we should get a cert ok!!!

Moving on. i juz realised that on wed nite and thurs nite, i dreamt that the ppl i was with in the dream.. can't rmb who lar.. but we were all asleep or something.. then someone asked us to wake up. And i would realli wake up as in physically. Wed nite, i auto wake up. Woke up too early lar.. like 5.30. Then thurs nite it is connie wake me up lar. The only part i rmb is the waking up part lar. Then today for morning devotion, Ya Hui talked abt waking up too. A little bit lar. And i'm like.. whoa.. like is this a msg from God telling ask to wake up?? Like so coincidental. But i dun believe it is coincidence. I believe it is a msg. WAKE UP PEOPLE!! There is a GOD who LOVES US!! Can't you all see it?? He is almighty and can handle all our problems. So why are u ppl still slashing ur wrist!? Why are we not loving Him?? Christians too. OPEN UR EYES and see what the Lord has done for u. Can't you see what he wants you to do for Him in return? Out of love??

Our eyes have been close for too long.. it's time to OPEN OPEN UP OUR SLEEPY EYES!! Not juz those non-believers.. fellow bros and sis in Christ too.

Hmm.. this reminds me of the song we used to sing in Children Church. I only rmb bits of it. Like.. open open up ur sleepy eyes. Get up and do the best you can. You never know what God has plan so ge up get up and do the Yi-yai-yai-yai-yai (something like that? can't rmb!!)

OPEN UR EYES and be blind no more!

Elizabeth chirped at 10:13 PM | No comments

Oooo.. my blog is dying coz i'm not blogging. Like this term is juz so hetic!! and i practically dun have school for the whole of next week. SO i can REST!! haha.. like mon celebration, tues national day, wed holiday, thur have sch lar.. fri FIELD TRIP!!! hahaha!!

YEah!! This sat going for FOP!! i'm excited!! A pity i can't go for tml's one. At least i actually get to go. I was suppose to go for a ACS I concert ok.. thank God that my senior bought my ticket from me. Like my other fren last min dun wan to go but can't cancel her ticket.

And tis sun is the performance!! at the istana. WE get to take a pic with the president but like i dun realli care lar. I'm still trying to decide if i should go to church on sun in my sch U or go in norm clothes then change to sch U. Like so retarded lar.

Okie... enuff crap. time to do what tis blog is for.

Well.. my christian walk is getting a little screwed coz of my busy schedule. A few days back or maybe a week ago, I did my TAG lar and the topic really meant a lot to me.

It's like we are erm.. soccer players. Then God is the coach. Then we are sitting on the benches lar.. bench warmers. Then we ask God to let us play.. the thing is that we have not had any training. Or veri little lar. Not that God didn't offer us training, we were juz too lazy/scared or wadever reason to accept. So, we were not equiped how were we suppose to take part in the tournament?? We would juz get thrashed. The main point of the TAG tht day was actually that we had to do things the hard way. Coz the players would rather take the stairs instead of lift so as to train their muscles that kinda thing. When we do things the harder way, we get equiped more. SO like if we spend more time with God like.. we would be more equiped. Like.. dun just wait for God to come and touch you.. do it the harder way and like.. try and touch Him first. Like instead of juz reading the bible you can memorise verses too.

Get the pic?? I know it's a little messy. But here's the main pt.

Equip yourself so you can be used in God's kingdom. The best way to equip yourself is to do things the hard way.
(the hard way has to be good lar)

Elizabeth chirped at 8:10 PM | No comments