Saw a poster with a veri nice er poem.

Just Wait
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, i cried;
quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and i Wept for a clue to my fate..
and the Master so gently said,"wait."

"wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, i need answers, I need to know why!"
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not head?
By faith i have asked, and i'm claiming your Word.

My future and all to which i relate
hangs in the balance and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'no', to which i'll resign.
You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
we need but to ask, and we shall recieve.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.

Then quietly, softly, i learned of my fate
as my Master replied again, "Wait."
So i slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
and grumbled to God, "so i'm waiting... for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine..
and He tenderly said, "i could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair.
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
when darkness and silence are all you can see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love
when the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that i give, and i save, for a start,
but you'd not know the depth of the beat of MY heart.
The glow of My comfort late into the night,
the faith that I give you when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
from an infinite God who makes what you have last.

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,
what it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
but oh, the loss if I lost what i'm doing in you.
So, be silent, my cihld, and in time you will see
that the greatest of gifts in to truely know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still... WAIT".

Elizabeth chirped at 3:31 PM | No comments

heyoz..

We often worry abt tml or the future. What will we do in the future?
all i can say is this. “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has
enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34

Not that u dun care abt ur future, but just worry abt today. Here is a great sermon that u can go and read. Just 2 pages only lar.
Truth or Chains

Elizabeth chirped at 7:04 PM | No comments

I'm suppose to be studying my ting xie now.. but i need to blog abt wad i realised just now. It's abt the simple plan -shut up lyrics. I was thinking abt the lyrics.. then i realised the chorus is wad i wanted to say to the devil. SHUT UP SHUT UP!! stop decieving me and telling me lies!!


Shut Up - simple plan
there you go (not quite relevant yet)
you're always so right
it's all a big show
its all about you

you think you know
what everyone needs
you always take time (how true devil..)
to criticise me

it seems like everyday (starts to be relevant from here)
i make mistakes
i just cant get it right
it's like im the one
you love to hate
but not today

so shut up shut up shut up (YEAH!! Now it totally applies!!)
don't wanna hear it
get out get out get out
get out of my way
step up step up step up
you'll never stop me
nothing you say today
is gonna bring me down (yea.. coz i have God and the Bible!!)

Lol.. i was thinking abt how todays music arh.. tsk tsk. Was bored and listening to the lyrics.. checking if it was vulgar or anti christ. Then the idea came.. Lol.. how cool is that? never thought i would have thought of this.

Ok.. anyway i have to go back to my ting xie.. haiz. Oh yea.. if u dun realli understand wad i'm talking abt, read the post before this.

Elizabeth chirped at 6:01 PM | No comments

okies.. finally went for piano lesson after a 2 week break. and guess what, i actually studied on the way to her house and back. Like that is so WOW.

I'm trying to blog now and gracie the demented woman is disturbing me. Ok like wadever.

I keep thinking abt yesterday's sermon. Abt how the devil put thoughts into our head. E.g sumone syas "i loss my job. I'm such a failure.. i'm a loser" the i loss my job would be true but the i'm such a failure is not true. IT Is the devil putting lies in ur head.

Realised that was so true. And the thing is.. we really believe it. How many years have the devil been doing this already? Ever since u could think? At least now i know what to do. Find the lies, cast out the lies and speak the truth.

Hey ppl.. this realli helps. It really influence decisions i make now. And we are making decisions ever so often.

If u read this, hope it helps.
If no one is reading.. then this will just serve as a reminder to me. Maybe somewhere down the future when i forget, and i happen to start looking through all my past entries.. hope it will give me the same encouragement as now.

Elizabeth chirped at 8:30 PM | No comments

Just came back from church.

Today we talked abt what we did on mission trip and was asked to say what we learn. Discovered that i learn more than i thought i did.

God realli is more evident when you are in difficult situation. So do not despair when ur in that kind of situation. I mean like, if ur life is so blessed and you do not have to worry much, you start to think that you dun realli need God. Which is totally NOT TRUE. It is when you are in tight situation that you realli start to "see" God.

Also, count ur blessings name them 1 by 1. Why is it that we, who do not need to worry everyday abt what we will eat or about basic things or SURVIVER are so stressed out? The ppl in barakit seem pretty carefree even though they worry abt food everyday. The kids still can find fun in just a rice sack or a box. Though their life is so much tougher than ours, they are still thankful for the life given to them.

This blog is filled with my complains and stuff.. and i'm actaully quite blessed. Imagine if the ppl keep a diary, what would it be filled with? "Today i did not have anything to eat again.. i duno if i can bear with the hunger pangs till they arrive again.." Something like that? Who knows?

So singing the song..

Count your blessings name them one by one
Count your blessings la la la la la (cannot rmb)
COunt your blessings la la la la la

And i cannot rmb the rest. haha.. i think it is also one of aunty ho lan's fav song. I seem to rmb her leading this song.

Elizabeth chirped at 5:18 PM | No comments

Just remembered i'm doing chair share this sunday. Which bring me back to the lyrics of this song.

Children of God
Have you ever wondered
What this life holds for you
All the struggles that run through your mind
There’s a feeling that somehow
No matter what we do
We are left alone cryin’ in the dark

Bridge:
There is much, we can believe in,
If only we will trust in Him

Chorus:
Yet to all who receive Him
Who believe in His name
He gave the right to be the Children of God
I will stand on this promise
I will trust in His name,
I know for sure that Jesus will be with me everyday

From the fullness of His grace,
Jesus wants to be our friend
Holding out His hand to show us the way
On the cross He gave His life,
How He suffered and died
To show us we are precious in his sight
(Bridge)
(Chorus)


It sorta answers what i said earlier on. Haiz.. always one of my fav songs. Always encourage me. Hope it encourages you.

Elizabeth chirped at 7:22 PM | No comments

Heyo!!
nth much happened today.. feeling so bored. Feel so funny that i'm actually home so early.

Crap.. my languages suck. My eng suck. I'm so busted. My eng marks have drop to like all 50+ lor. I just can't do eng anymore. but it's not just me. A lot of ppl also.

Anywaiz, i think i'm falling sick. And my eyes are tearing. Oh.. btw, my mom finally allow me to take CL B i think. WEll she said something abt if i ever take CL B it will be in sec4. Some shit abt me learning the normal chinese so that when i take CL B i will be better than the rest.

Life sucks. I'm still drifting day to day. When i grow up, i'll still be drifting day to day. I dun like it. So fast and it has been 5 days since mission trip. Time flies so fast and it never comes back. Thru this week, i have not learn anything. How i wish i could die and go to heaven now.. but i'm still a baby, who needs to go thru all the tests.. so i can be stronger. So i can mature. So i can have wisdom. SO i can understand.

Am i talking rubbish again? Well..i'm just in a realli sian mood. God bless and good day. I'll be adding a sentence from ODJ each day if i rmb.

God knows everything about me.

Elizabeth chirped at 5:03 PM | No comments

ARLOW!!
Wishing MARILYN a veri beri happy and BLESSED birthday!! (hopefull you will see this).

Aniwaez..i'm home from skool! MISS ME!? Yes i knew it! I'm just so loveable right? Ok.. like i sprain my toe yesterday. And carolyn was like.. you can sprain ur toe? WEll.. i accidently band it against my bed. And now it hurts. And it looks a lil swollen. and there is this reddish blue black mark. SO .. well.. maybe it's jst a bruise. BUT IT HURTS. and i miss my bus coz i couldn't run. I just had to do a short 4 sec sprint and would have catch the bus. BUT i could not even walk properly soyea.

I realli realli want to take CL B. Like today i had a chinese common test which i did not study for at all coz i was rushing my math project(got postpone to nxt thurs). So i left the 30 mark han zi blank. And only answered 3 words. Then when i looked at the cloze passage i realised i realli dun understand much. The words look like pictures/characters to me then words. I was like.. wow.. i never realised that before. So i did the test the usual way. See the qns got wad word which can be found in the passage just put that as the ans. Then for the open ended wan, got wd word thay can be found in passage and qns, copy the sentence before and after it.
[[my chinese reali reali suck. i just want to speak. Dun want to write]]

My mom probably won't allow. Even tim is not taking CL B although he gave up on chinese completly.

oh ya.. just rmb that this skin reminds me of youth camp last year. We must first love ourselves thingy. I think that ppl are often either too self centered or too other centered. i dun think i can find any in between. Oh well.. I love myself and won't abuse myself so there. I love me for me. I love me coz Gid made me me. I'm unique and i'm special.

Look all over the world
there's no one like me
no one like ME!
Look all over the world there's no one likeme
there's no one exactly like me

some people are fat and some ppl are thin.
blah blah.. can't rmb the song liao

Anyway, the ppl at the back of the bus who went for mission trip, this is the song that we were trying to rmb. TATA!

Elizabeth chirped at 5:01 PM | No comments

New Skin

I know this is super common. Coz it's like the top 10 downloaded or something at blogskins.com. But i just couldn't resist. Fell in love with it immediately. So yea.. till i get bored then i change. Wanted to make my own. Copy the original creator's style but my own. But i dun have adobe photoshop on this comp leh. So if i make not nice wan. So oh well.. till i get it or something.

Today duno ms wee or skool or the band teachers treat us to lunch which they got catered in. Not being unappreciative but the food wasn't all that great. Still good. but i prefer the Chinese dance gal's treat. Pizza and cake. SIOK! oh well.. i guess it depends on who ur teacher is.

Still glad that band got a GOLD!

Elizabeth chirped at 4:42 PM | No comments

Went for mission trip over the weekend!! My first trip lor.

The ride there quite fun. Take boat. WEnt to the back an enjoy wind lor. Siok. Bascially we were traveling half the time. So let's skip to the barakit part. The first thing that hit me was the smell. They were making charcoal and the smell being produce was like... dot. dot. dot. My eyes started tearing, cannot breath properly, like got acid feeling in my throat. We quickly shifted our stuffs at a place we won't smell the smoke. Lucky pig named cheryl got to do the rice thing. As in she packs the rice into 5 kg 5kg lar. I got stuck with signing the "ration" cards. The kids are veri cute lor. And Ibu Francis so bias. Favour the girls. And keep taking pic. Destract the kids from aunty veron's lesson.

give fod, teach finish blah blah blah. Then go house visitation. Like it's dam fun and dam scary. The walking part that is. The visitation quite boring coz they speak in baharsa or something so i dun understand anything. Like.. their house are made up of wood and when you walk.. you feel as if the planks would break any moment and you would drop into the water. It's like a kampong lar. But above the water wan. The ppl there veri poor lor.. anyway.. fast forward some more to the journey back. We (wah long long = cheryl, ibu francis, nek nek nana, marilyn and evan) started digging out the christian songs we use to sing. found so many. Thoses sing in kindergarten that kind. THe 90s songs. We sang for the whole 2 hr journey back to the hotel lor. Cheryl was high by the time we went for dinner which is like qite late.

Sleep wake up etc. Went to another village. Veri boring not going to go into details. Skip to the journey back. WE walked by the way. Ibu and nek nek started talking abt serving in church. CAme to the part on musicians. We, the youths there, were complaining that they always say things but never do it wan lor. Nek nek was saying that they need musicians or something and ask why we never volunteer or something like that. Is not we never lor, we got lor. Everytime got those paper ask you what you want to serve as we got put musicians. They never ask us wan lor. And we where got dare to offer.. our standards not veri good want wad. I mean we might be grade 7 or 8 that kind but playing chords is diff from playing notes ok.
So ibu say what want to start a class train evan yizhen me piano. Cheryl and i were like say only wan. Even uncle eng kuang (er spelling correct?) say what want to start so musician club youth wan. never do anything. That time i already knew it will be all words and no action. True enough.

If i'm not wrong nek nek say duno who complain not enough musicians. If they will just OPEN their eyes they will see that there are SO MANY youths who can serve. For the piano there are like at least 4, 5 ppl. Guitar is SO MANY. And that is only in secell. Can go take from sett. It's time to bring in the new generation.

By now there should be no one reading coz this post is super boring. Yea wadever.
Back to the mission trip. Came back on a different boat that realli suck. Go indonesia that time i no motion sickness. Come back.. i'm ready to puke.

On monday i still feel like puking lor. Some more had geog test which i didn't study for and will probably fail. Getting the results on thurs. Then had NAFA. and i was still suffering from motion sickness.

I must say that somehow mission trip was fun. Coming back i had a little bit of mission trip blues. Probably coz i still had fun. Some how.

Elizabeth chirped at 3:13 PM | No comments

Ok.. just check the results so far for syf (excluding today's result) 14 bands got gold out of 90 bands (including us) so we did quite well lar. And only 9 bands got gold with honours. Still waiting for whoever made the syf blog thing to update. By sat we should know how well we realli did. After all 148 bands finish their SYF.

Feeling a little stress still even after SYF. Haiz.. stupid AGG musical. SO late then finish. Maybe i should pon. But then waste money leh. I feel so weird without having to go for band practices. I'm suddenly so free.. or maybe not. Something always happen to crop up so i dun have a free day. Will miss the sec4s when they go. Band seems less fun when you think of them gone. Only have crazy rachel and shahira for entertainment. Dun look forward to the sec1s and 2s coming in again. Feel like they are intruding something special.

I guess we've bonded during the process of getting ready for SYF unknowingly. Haiz.. i'm feeling a little of the after "camp" blues. All shahira's fault. I din think abt their leaving till she mentioned it.

Oh.. we even have a er.. wad i would call a section song. HAHA.. the numa numa song.

Lame lar..

Elizabeth chirped at 7:38 PM | No comments

WE GOT GOLD!!

AT LONG LONG LAST!! After so many years of silver, we finally got a gold for syf!! First time in history!! But i scared this next batch, my batch not so good leh.. then cannot get gold leh..

ANiwae, BAND RAWKS! We RAWK! I RAWK THE MOST!! haha.. our many months of hardwork over liao. Just like that. Work so hard just for 1 day. Hiya.. now no band prac until after mid year.. will miss band. Funny, when we had band we would have given anything to "pon" band.. now... Probably coz i noe that when we go back we won't be playing those 2 songs again.

When we were on stage that time i thought that Jeanette was blasting. And i felt like i was sticking out. And i thought we were a bit messy at certain parts. Then when i heard the recording it was ok leh.. so weird. Probably coz mr tan change out sitting arrangement after our last visit to SCH then not use to it lar. SO HAPPY WE GOT GOLD!!

OH.. and while we were playing, i think the Maris Stella Guys were making noise. Like i noe they think they dam great lar but like WADEVER~ not like they are gold with HONOURS like that.

I'm so proud of our band okey.. all the other bands all seat in the usual position and they play like stone like that. Act Cool lar.. But our band were sitting in a diff position showing we actually noe at which place do we sound good. And for the first time, almost EVERYONE was involved in the music. SO NICE to see our own memebers moving to the music. Normally most of us just stone there.

ANIWAE, today was a dam tiring day. At least we did mrs Lee proud. We finally achieved a gold. Well.. truth to be told, i dun think we might have achieved it without Mr tan, as well as.. GOD. WE were praying and praying before and after we played. WHat "freaked" me out today was that.. mr tan was saying stuff like "dun worry, i will be with you." repeated the i will be with you quite a no. of time throughout today. I was thinking like, that sounded like God, if you get what i mean. I could sorta sense that it was him saying that He will be with us watching over us. So credit goes to mr tan but most importantly God for giving us such a erm wonderful conductor.

MAY WE GET GOLD WITH HONOURS NEXT YEAR!!

Elizabeth chirped at 8:34 PM | No comments

I have not post like forever. Ok.. have been wearing blazer for the past few days to get "used" to the uniform. SO the ppl would blame it on the skirt lar and so now we are wearing CCA skirt instead. Ok.. And like me feet is totally cramped in the shoe.

Today had roller blading lesson and halfway thru guess wad happened? I got bloody toe cramps. JOY!! ruined my lesson. After awhile ok.. then suddenly my left toes also kana. First right now left. Like it must totally be the bloody shoe i wore this morning lar.

Oh ya.. i'm so hooked on this trilogy, Daughter of the forest, son of the shadows, child of the prophecy that when we play our syf pieces i'm imagining a part of the story. Like that is totally weird. Well.. you can't help but love a good book.
I'm starting to plan what i will do after SYF.. on those days i dun have to stay back.. SHIOK.

ok.. that's all for today. BTW, take a look at the NUMA NUMA DANCE KID VIDEO.
http://uploads.ungrounded.net/content.php?id=206373&name=206373_numanuma.swf&title=Numa%20Numa%20Dance&date=1113019200&quality=b&uj=0&w=500&h=375
just copy and paste this link.


till nxt time.
CHEERS
3 days to SYF and counting..

Elizabeth chirped at 10:12 PM | No comments

ARGH!!! Ok.. i'm suppose to be doing some stupid geog assignment now but i just couldn't resist taking a look at my tag board. Haha.. ok that is weird. LIke i think Ms Chan gives A LOT of homework. Doesn't help that my stupid piano teacher is complaining that i dun practice(actually i realli dun) and that SYF is like so bloody near. Not my fault i come back at night and neighbours complain when i play the piano at nite. Not coz my playing sux (though it does) but coz they want to watch TV!! Ok wadever.

I better go back and do my work or get busted by Gha-za-leh tml. Which reminds me i'm also gonna get busted by Sheryl tml coz i haven't finished the music work. Which also reminds me that all my assignments are due after SYF which is like next week. Crap.. i'm running out of time. WADEVER.

Elizabeth chirped at 9:51 PM | No comments

ARH.. so refresed after a nice long bath.

Today suck. Had to wear blazer for band today. Which is dam UNCOMFORTABLE!! And we all played like shit. Such that the alumni said that we prob get a high bronze or silver. !!! WE aiming for gold lar then say this kind of thing. WA LAU lor..

And duno how they talk and talk until they blame our skirts. Say what so tight cannot take in enuff air. cannot play properly. i bet on tues we will get scolding from mr tan. He got pissed off at SCH lor. Next fri need to wear again to get "used" to the U.

And coz of band i missed roller blading class again! That is like 1 mnth and 1 week from our last lesson. SO retarded!!

Shut up shut up dun wanna hear you... lol.. now listening to shut up by simple plan. Feeling better. OK.. till nxt time

Elizabeth chirped at 7:14 PM | No comments

Today, mrs kwok was like in pain. She was talking halfway during contact time when she suddenly stopped. We were like.. is she trying to remember what she wanted to say or is she in pain? Since she brief us on what to do when she is in pain, ghazeleh went to find a teacher. Ms duno what came and then they called mr chan. Then the 2 of them helped mrs kwok out of the class. SHe was like walking slowly like really veri pain. So we decided to say a class prayer for mrs kwok. And vanessa was abt to lead when mrs kwok came walking in. With this BIG SMILE on her face. We were like HUH!? I thought she okey already or something then it hit me. SHe was playing april fool joke on us lar. In our panic we forgot it was april fool's day. Like we still didn't make the connection even though we look out of the class and was wonderin how come they dissapear so fast. That was like the best and most convincing april fool's trick ever.

Note: only works if you are pregnant (in this case mrs kwok's baby is due any moment)

Okey.. that was the 1 interesting thing that happened today. Still had other tricks but not gonna go into great detail.

Like i only just bought my white shirt to wear with the blazer today. NO.. i mean tonight. Like my dad was SUPER PISSED OFF with me. And he was scolding and shouting at me through out the whole journey to Bishan to buy the stupid shirt. AND GUESS WHAT!? At the first shop we found the shirt paid and went home. Birdy and i went to tao payoh and went to all the shops there and couldn't find any that match the requirements. Of course my dad thought that it was coz i was just too fussy. Like wadever lar. Aniwae he's not pissed animore so won't go into the boring details.

Tml going to SCH again lor. This time in full band U. I'm gonna look like crap but wadever lar.

Blog again tml.

Elizabeth chirped at 11:11 PM | No comments