Pardon me for not blogging. Coz i've simply been too lazy to blog.
Actually i was kinda busy.. doing the youth planner and all..
ANyway, i'm blogging now simply coz i've something to advertise. Ho hum.
ST. MARGARET'S SYMPHONIC BAND
brings to you our very own..
POLKA III!!! (concert)
11 March 2006
5.30pm
$15
It's kinda expansive but that's coz we are trying to raise money so more ppl can go for our Sweden trip next year to take part in a competition.
I'm one of the kinda many ppl who are depending on this money. Coz my dad says 2000 for a sweden trip is not worth it. Unless it's abt $1500 then i can go.
And your dear beloved which is me lar, will be playing a super short and rather insignificant solo!!
SO come and support me!!!
Just inform me if you want to buy the ticket through sms, phone or tagging on my blog.
Monday, December 26, 2005
Ahh.. i'm feeling the holiday blues already!!
and it doesn't help that i've not finished A LOT of my homework.
anyway this year's christmas is so boring. Like.. it feels like a normal day. My family didn't do anything special.
The year is ending..
looking back to last year, i guess i've grown.
I guess we are often growing spiritually. Yet i can't wait to be spiritually more mature. I can't stand the fact knowing I'm not close to God and yet failing to do much abt it. GAH!
I guess i better get my lazy butt off the chair and start doing my homework.
I'm too lazy to add colors today. Shall leave it as it is
and it doesn't help that i've not finished A LOT of my homework.
anyway this year's christmas is so boring. Like.. it feels like a normal day. My family didn't do anything special.
The year is ending..
looking back to last year, i guess i've grown.
I guess we are often growing spiritually. Yet i can't wait to be spiritually more mature. I can't stand the fact knowing I'm not close to God and yet failing to do much abt it. GAH!
I guess i better get my lazy butt off the chair and start doing my homework.
I'm too lazy to add colors today. Shall leave it as it is
Saturday, December 24, 2005
OKie.. i did the funny quiz thing MARILYN did and this is the result.
A little accurate but not really.
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Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
A little true..
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Erm.. i still have certain criterias. I have a certain type wan.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
I'm so NOT straightforward.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
Ahem. Not true.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
I guess this is kinda true. I hate to fail. Other than for chinese.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Not really lar. A bit lor.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
A little accurate but not really.
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Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
A little true..
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Erm.. i still have certain criterias. I have a certain type wan.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
I'm so NOT straightforward.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
Ahem. Not true.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
I guess this is kinda true. I hate to fail. Other than for chinese.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Not really lar. A bit lor.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Thursday, December 22, 2005
So i went for 2 camps and when i come back, my blog is dead.
Anyway youth camp was a wonderful time.
Sure the games were crappy but the spiritual side was WONDERFUL!
Other then the fact that i was often half asleep during the sessions, i think it was okay lar.
During the first night, i went up for the altar call coz like David said those who are dry or can't worship or something.. haiya that kind lar to go up. And i was SO SO DRY ok!!! SO i went lar. And they were singing 'healing rain is falling down, healing rain is falling down, I'm not afraid..'
The words i'm not afraid really gave me courage. I was like Father i'm not afraid anymore so come down and just rain down on me. Let nothing stop you or me.
Then David prayed for me lar. AND THEN.. i slowly felt like every single Cell in my body was vibrating. I was kinda numb and it was kinda uncomfortable. It's like i had the pins and needles feeling just that it was throughout my whole body from top to bottom. It felt as if there was electricity or something going through me lar. It was the first time i encounter something like this. Coz normally you go up you just cry cry lar. It's like it's all a emotion. BUt this is like.. PHYSICAL!!!!!
And also David said that I used to have a passion for God but it has been reduced to a small flame. Almost gone but still there and flickers once in awhile. There are stuff holding me back from having the passion again and he's not sure wad. Once i can break free from the stuff, i will have a passion for God like never before.
And it kinda took me awhile to firgure out what was stopping me lar. Up till now still not so sure.
But the thing is that God hears. God is REAL! He's no fakeroo. Coz i've been praying for a revival for a long long time. I've gotten so dead and so cold. I'm still trying to break free but it'll take time. I can't wait to have a passion for God again!
Actually i wondered when did i ever have a passion for God before i realised it was probably during last year's FOP. Wah.. that experience there really taught me how to worship God and i was so on fire for Him after that lar. Somehow it just died.
Anyway.. that was 1 wonderful experience. Just kinda sad that i'm still rather cold and i couldn't worship in camp at all ok. NOT ONCE. Every single session i couldn't worship. I was always FALLING ASLEEP!!!!!!! My goodness. I kept falling asleep while standing during the worship songs ok!! I'm like.. what's up with me!?
Well.. so the camp's over. And this is the spiritual part of it. Tmr then i blog abt the other stuff like the fun stuff and about BAND camp.
TILL THEN!
Anyway youth camp was a wonderful time.
Sure the games were crappy but the spiritual side was WONDERFUL!
Other then the fact that i was often half asleep during the sessions, i think it was okay lar.
During the first night, i went up for the altar call coz like David said those who are dry or can't worship or something.. haiya that kind lar to go up. And i was SO SO DRY ok!!! SO i went lar. And they were singing 'healing rain is falling down, healing rain is falling down, I'm not afraid..'
The words i'm not afraid really gave me courage. I was like Father i'm not afraid anymore so come down and just rain down on me. Let nothing stop you or me.
Then David prayed for me lar. AND THEN.. i slowly felt like every single Cell in my body was vibrating. I was kinda numb and it was kinda uncomfortable. It's like i had the pins and needles feeling just that it was throughout my whole body from top to bottom. It felt as if there was electricity or something going through me lar. It was the first time i encounter something like this. Coz normally you go up you just cry cry lar. It's like it's all a emotion. BUt this is like.. PHYSICAL!!!!!
And also David said that I used to have a passion for God but it has been reduced to a small flame. Almost gone but still there and flickers once in awhile. There are stuff holding me back from having the passion again and he's not sure wad. Once i can break free from the stuff, i will have a passion for God like never before.
And it kinda took me awhile to firgure out what was stopping me lar. Up till now still not so sure.
But the thing is that God hears. God is REAL! He's no fakeroo. Coz i've been praying for a revival for a long long time. I've gotten so dead and so cold. I'm still trying to break free but it'll take time. I can't wait to have a passion for God again!
Actually i wondered when did i ever have a passion for God before i realised it was probably during last year's FOP. Wah.. that experience there really taught me how to worship God and i was so on fire for Him after that lar. Somehow it just died.
Anyway.. that was 1 wonderful experience. Just kinda sad that i'm still rather cold and i couldn't worship in camp at all ok. NOT ONCE. Every single session i couldn't worship. I was always FALLING ASLEEP!!!!!!! My goodness. I kept falling asleep while standing during the worship songs ok!! I'm like.. what's up with me!?
Well.. so the camp's over. And this is the spiritual part of it. Tmr then i blog abt the other stuff like the fun stuff and about BAND camp.
TILL THEN!
Friday, December 16, 2005
I'm going for youth camp today!!
And i'm EXPECTING!!
I"M EXPECTING AN ENCOUNTER!!
AH!!! I can't wait for it. WHOOT!
I get to meet God!
GAH!!!!!!
Ok.. that was like super enthu lar.
I'm excited inside. But you won't see me really shouting all these out.
I just have one problem.
I think my heart still is right to play the keyboard. I'm afraid that i will try to steal glory from God. As in i think abt my playing and not Focus on God.
I have until tonight to fix it!!
Oh well you won't hear from me PROBABLY until the 24 Dec!! That's the eve of christmas!
Coz right after youth camp i'm going for band camp and then i have the choir performance.
BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!!!!!
TATA!!
and i'm off to meet my creator!
And i'm EXPECTING!!
I"M EXPECTING AN ENCOUNTER!!
AH!!! I can't wait for it. WHOOT!
I get to meet God!
GAH!!!!!!
Ok.. that was like super enthu lar.
I'm excited inside. But you won't see me really shouting all these out.
I just have one problem.
I think my heart still is right to play the keyboard. I'm afraid that i will try to steal glory from God. As in i think abt my playing and not Focus on God.
I have until tonight to fix it!!
Oh well you won't hear from me PROBABLY until the 24 Dec!! That's the eve of christmas!
Coz right after youth camp i'm going for band camp and then i have the choir performance.
BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!!!!!
TATA!!
and i'm off to meet my creator!
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
So i did what i said i would and since Karen wasn't online, i talked to Daniel.
There were a couple of topics so i'll go through it one by one.
Asking..
Ever since I heard Joey share abt the New Creation Church (NCC) camp she went to and the experience she got, i've had questions on my mind. Coz before the camp started, the pastor told them to ask God for 5 things and at the end of the camp, almost all if not all, got the 5 things they asked for. So i was like, If I ask God will He answer? But isn't that rather seld-centered? Shouldn't it be all about God?
And so i went to ask Dan. And he quoted the Bible.
2You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. 3When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
James 4:2-3
When we ask, we should also DARE to believe that God will answer. We gotta EXPECT God to reply. I can't rmb wad Dan said but it was along the line that when we EXPECT God to work, God will work. Or something like that. Can't really rmb.
Love..
We often equate boy girl love to how we should love God. But loving God is more than that.
It's like when we were young we didn't understand that what we feel for our parents is called love. All we know is when daddy or mummy is not around we miss them.. that kinda thing. But we still love them but just duno it's called love at that time.
Loving God is a little like loving our parents. We want to honor them, please them etc.
So love is an action rather than a feeling.
Faith..
I wondered how to practice Faith. My mind wanted to, but my heart didn't dare to trust.
Dan said e.g we are walking home at night then we feel frighten and so we pray to God. The fact that we turned to God is practicing faith already. When we turn to Him we are acknowledging the fact that He can change something abt the situation that we can't. That He is soverign.
Faith is also kinda linked to expecting.
Experiencing God..
So if we want to grow closer to God, we have to encounter Him. But how?
I was thinking that i should ask God to let me encounter Him. Which brought me back to the asking part. And i realised things were kinda like this.
To Love God we have to encounter Him.
Most of the time, to encounter Him we have to ask.
When we ask we have to dare to expect.
Often, we ask and dun expect anything. We are just waiting for a result. So we are kinda limiting God's work. I think He wants us to expect it before He gives.
So i'm gonna ask God. And really try to expect it. I'm expecting an encounter with God at least ONCE during the camp.
Ok.. i tried my best to cover what we talked abt. I think i missed out certain bits. Haiya.. it was a long conversation and i forgot to save it. So i'm working from memory.
Anyway, many thanks to Daniel who "enlightened" me. HAH.
I felt more relived coz i was less confused.
So you should go ASK ur cell leaders whenever you have qns. Dun wait until they all pile up.
There were a couple of topics so i'll go through it one by one.
Asking..
Ever since I heard Joey share abt the New Creation Church (NCC) camp she went to and the experience she got, i've had questions on my mind. Coz before the camp started, the pastor told them to ask God for 5 things and at the end of the camp, almost all if not all, got the 5 things they asked for. So i was like, If I ask God will He answer? But isn't that rather seld-centered? Shouldn't it be all about God?
And so i went to ask Dan. And he quoted the Bible.
2You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. 3When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
James 4:2-3
When we ask, we should also DARE to believe that God will answer. We gotta EXPECT God to reply. I can't rmb wad Dan said but it was along the line that when we EXPECT God to work, God will work. Or something like that. Can't really rmb.
Love..
We often equate boy girl love to how we should love God. But loving God is more than that.
It's like when we were young we didn't understand that what we feel for our parents is called love. All we know is when daddy or mummy is not around we miss them.. that kinda thing. But we still love them but just duno it's called love at that time.
Loving God is a little like loving our parents. We want to honor them, please them etc.
So love is an action rather than a feeling.
Faith..
I wondered how to practice Faith. My mind wanted to, but my heart didn't dare to trust.
Dan said e.g we are walking home at night then we feel frighten and so we pray to God. The fact that we turned to God is practicing faith already. When we turn to Him we are acknowledging the fact that He can change something abt the situation that we can't. That He is soverign.
Faith is also kinda linked to expecting.
Experiencing God..
So if we want to grow closer to God, we have to encounter Him. But how?
I was thinking that i should ask God to let me encounter Him. Which brought me back to the asking part. And i realised things were kinda like this.
To Love God we have to encounter Him.
Most of the time, to encounter Him we have to ask.
When we ask we have to dare to expect.
Often, we ask and dun expect anything. We are just waiting for a result. So we are kinda limiting God's work. I think He wants us to expect it before He gives.
So i'm gonna ask God. And really try to expect it. I'm expecting an encounter with God at least ONCE during the camp.
Ok.. i tried my best to cover what we talked abt. I think i missed out certain bits. Haiya.. it was a long conversation and i forgot to save it. So i'm working from memory.
Anyway, many thanks to Daniel who "enlightened" me. HAH.
I felt more relived coz i was less confused.
So you should go ASK ur cell leaders whenever you have qns. Dun wait until they all pile up.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Just finished choir practice. I actually have lots of comments but i shall not say them coz they are not edifying.
If you noticed, i've been adding less color to the enteries coz i'm getting lazier. HEH =P
Anyway, I'm super tired today after a long day WASTED walking around in shopping Malls. I'm quite upset and the way things were lar. Like everything seemed so messy and disorganised but i shall zip my mouth too.
After dropping by Jere's blog, It remindeded me of some stuff.
Well.. He mentioned how we love God but frankly speaking, in my heart i know i DON'T love God. Which is such a sad thing.
I'm still stuck in the everything's in my head but not my heart phase. I know that God is soverign and all in my HEAD but my HEART does not believe it.
My Head says i should do this and that, i should have FAITH but my HEART does not have it.
Haiz. Up till now i'm still not sure what to do abt it. But my mom says that for Faith to grow, we must practice it. And 1 way to practice it is in situations when you are uncertain but you still GAN GAN (bravely) do it. Faith comes with encounters with God. Through difficult and trying situations.
Anyway, i think I'm gonna talk to Karen or some cell leader to get a better idea of this kinda thing.
If you noticed, i've been adding less color to the enteries coz i'm getting lazier. HEH =P
Anyway, I'm super tired today after a long day WASTED walking around in shopping Malls. I'm quite upset and the way things were lar. Like everything seemed so messy and disorganised but i shall zip my mouth too.
After dropping by Jere's blog, It remindeded me of some stuff.
Well.. He mentioned how we love God but frankly speaking, in my heart i know i DON'T love God. Which is such a sad thing.
I'm still stuck in the everything's in my head but not my heart phase. I know that God is soverign and all in my HEAD but my HEART does not believe it.
My Head says i should do this and that, i should have FAITH but my HEART does not have it.
Haiz. Up till now i'm still not sure what to do abt it. But my mom says that for Faith to grow, we must practice it. And 1 way to practice it is in situations when you are uncertain but you still GAN GAN (bravely) do it. Faith comes with encounters with God. Through difficult and trying situations.
Anyway, i think I'm gonna talk to Karen or some cell leader to get a better idea of this kinda thing.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
I'm BAAAACCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!
anyone miss me?
So, after a 4 day camp, 34 hrs w/o sleep and then sleeping for 18 hrs, I'm BACK!
And i'm also TIRED. I slept on the hard HARD floor for 3 nights!! well actually 2.. coz i din sleep on the last night.
Camp was ok for me but it was great to see the kids start daring to raise their hands and start praising God. On the last night I think many got to experience God. Ah.. i guess you can sorta say that our mission is accomplished. The Theme was HEART OF WORSHIP and i guess the kids are now 1 step closer. I just hope it lasts.
On the last night, i guess God spoke to me too.
I realised that God is hurt when ppl who are found in His church, doesn't worship Him. He has been doing so much for them and in all those, His Glory could be seen in it. But they do not see it, and they do not worship Him
I also realised that I should GROW UP spiritually. I should Stop depending on those times when God touches me and I cry to know that He is there.
I should also GO OUT. Worship Him in other ways other than by singing songs. Sharing the word with ppl is also a form of worship. It's time to Give and not just recieve.
Ppl often feel that God's presence leaves after the service is over but actually, He is always there. It's just that we think He has left. We thought wrong.
Anyway i'm kinda sad that camp has ended. It was kinda fun after all. did i mention that my group won? i dun realli understand how we won. Coz the kids are kinda disorganised yet they some how can win some games.
It was a different thing to be a camper and to be a Group leader. And a totally different experience to have 2 GL in a team instead of 1. i kinda clashed with Cheryl a couple of times but we learn to accomodate.
Anyway i'm looking forward to the next camp! the YOUTH camp!!
anyone miss me?
So, after a 4 day camp, 34 hrs w/o sleep and then sleeping for 18 hrs, I'm BACK!
And i'm also TIRED. I slept on the hard HARD floor for 3 nights!! well actually 2.. coz i din sleep on the last night.
Camp was ok for me but it was great to see the kids start daring to raise their hands and start praising God. On the last night I think many got to experience God. Ah.. i guess you can sorta say that our mission is accomplished. The Theme was HEART OF WORSHIP and i guess the kids are now 1 step closer. I just hope it lasts.
On the last night, i guess God spoke to me too.
I realised that God is hurt when ppl who are found in His church, doesn't worship Him. He has been doing so much for them and in all those, His Glory could be seen in it. But they do not see it, and they do not worship Him
I also realised that I should GROW UP spiritually. I should Stop depending on those times when God touches me and I cry to know that He is there.
I should also GO OUT. Worship Him in other ways other than by singing songs. Sharing the word with ppl is also a form of worship. It's time to Give and not just recieve.
Ppl often feel that God's presence leaves after the service is over but actually, He is always there. It's just that we think He has left. We thought wrong.
Anyway i'm kinda sad that camp has ended. It was kinda fun after all. did i mention that my group won? i dun realli understand how we won. Coz the kids are kinda disorganised yet they some how can win some games.
It was a different thing to be a camper and to be a Group leader. And a totally different experience to have 2 GL in a team instead of 1. i kinda clashed with Cheryl a couple of times but we learn to accomodate.
Anyway i'm looking forward to the next camp! the YOUTH camp!!
Monday, December 05, 2005
Ok i'm leaving hse soon but i'll make 1 last post.
well.. i guess i'm kinda climbing out from my valley already. A few days ago i was at the valley man. Er.. for those who dun understand, a christian walk is always full of ups and downs. before you get to the top of the moutain, you will ALWAYS encounter a valley.
I kinda forgot abt that until yesterday. David said that when we are serving, we will be at a peak. But before that, God will test us. God will allow the enemy to fool us so that He can test our characters and stuff.
well.. i guess i'm kinda climbing out from my valley already. A few days ago i was at the valley man. Er.. for those who dun understand, a christian walk is always full of ups and downs. before you get to the top of the moutain, you will ALWAYS encounter a valley.
I kinda forgot abt that until yesterday. David said that when we are serving, we will be at a peak. But before that, God will test us. God will allow the enemy to fool us so that He can test our characters and stuff.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
HELLO!!!!!!!
I'm going for children church camp TMR!!
So i probably won't blog until fri or maybe sat. Maybe i'll make 1 last post tmr. maybe not. SEE HOW.
Ok.. i just found out that my dad watched fiddler on the roof before. I watched the front of it before. Coz my dad was saying IF I WERE A RICH MAN. then i got the TRADITION song stuck on my head. Then the IF I WERE A RICH MAN got stuck too. HAH.
I think most of you won't understand wad i'm talking abt. HAH. For those who went to zihan's hse to understand ok.
Hmm.. i think for group cheer i'm gonna kop something from Charlie and the chocolate factory or the fiddler on the roof. HAH. coz they got retarded songs. HAH.
anyway hopefully i'll learn to have a heart of worship too along with the campers.
I'm gone tmr!! MISS ME OK!!!!
I'm going for children church camp TMR!!
So i probably won't blog until fri or maybe sat. Maybe i'll make 1 last post tmr. maybe not. SEE HOW.
Ok.. i just found out that my dad watched fiddler on the roof before. I watched the front of it before. Coz my dad was saying IF I WERE A RICH MAN. then i got the TRADITION song stuck on my head. Then the IF I WERE A RICH MAN got stuck too. HAH.
I think most of you won't understand wad i'm talking abt. HAH. For those who went to zihan's hse to understand ok.
Hmm.. i think for group cheer i'm gonna kop something from Charlie and the chocolate factory or the fiddler on the roof. HAH. coz they got retarded songs. HAH.
anyway hopefully i'll learn to have a heart of worship too along with the campers.
I'm gone tmr!! MISS ME OK!!!!
Today is a RETARDED day.
Coz our school band totally threw our face away. YEAH!!!
both the seniors and the juniors. YEAH!!
Coz, the juniors played some christmas songs, and the seniors SANG to it.
The band wasn't really in tune but the "Choir" was worse. HAH.
STill.. it was FUN! I think only we(the seniors) enjoyed ourselves. HAH.
Coz we were semi high and had fun being retarded lar.
2 week band break has started. And all the camps are coming. Gonna be BUSY BUSY BUSY!!
I'm gonna miss my fellow cornertist. I have to admit that the holiday practice helped us to bond together. All the retarded times we had. Being the only section that laughed when no one else is laughing. HAH. And to NOT PLAY when we are suppose to play. Gah.. anyway 2 weeks isn't veri long.
Coz our school band totally threw our face away. YEAH!!!
both the seniors and the juniors. YEAH!!
Coz, the juniors played some christmas songs, and the seniors SANG to it.
The band wasn't really in tune but the "Choir" was worse. HAH.
STill.. it was FUN! I think only we(the seniors) enjoyed ourselves. HAH.
Coz we were semi high and had fun being retarded lar.
2 week band break has started. And all the camps are coming. Gonna be BUSY BUSY BUSY!!
I'm gonna miss my fellow cornertist. I have to admit that the holiday practice helped us to bond together. All the retarded times we had. Being the only section that laughed when no one else is laughing. HAH. And to NOT PLAY when we are suppose to play. Gah.. anyway 2 weeks isn't veri long.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
Hmmm.. read some christian articles yesterday.
I dun have to worry abt the future. Coz even though i duno what the future holds, i know who is holding it. I can't believe i actually forgot abt tht and tht's why i worry until like that. In the end, everything will still work for good and not for evil. So i can finally rest my case abt the future.
As for my walk with God, i realised that i have been enduring religion and not having a personal walk with God. I've been doing things a christian would do because that's my religion and not because I have a close walk with God.
Jesus said in the bible "If any man thirst, let him come unto Me, and drink." He wants thirsty ppl, not EMPTY ppl. How much we have of God, is actually how much we want. We don't have more because we don't want more. So I'm asking God to give me a burning, blistering thirst. And Jesus is the water. Holiness is not the way to Christ; Christ is the way to holiness.
However, we often come but not drink. To drink, we must drink by faith. Many ppl know this and say yes, Christ is the answer and they get that into their heads, notebooks, bibles but NOT INTO THE HEART. There comes a time when we need to believe Him and say, "My heart is thirsty for the blessing. I will receive the Lord Jesus. I take Him by faith." We must drink.
We are so close yet we miss it. So now i'm trying to drink by faith. Like i said before, i know this in my head but not in my heart. I still have to figure out how the information is suppose to be transfered to the heart. Maybe it's through difficult times that it gets transferred.
For now, i'm focusing on trying to drink from Jesus. TO Drink in more of Him. To thirst for Him.
I dun have to worry abt the future. Coz even though i duno what the future holds, i know who is holding it. I can't believe i actually forgot abt tht and tht's why i worry until like that. In the end, everything will still work for good and not for evil. So i can finally rest my case abt the future.
As for my walk with God, i realised that i have been enduring religion and not having a personal walk with God. I've been doing things a christian would do because that's my religion and not because I have a close walk with God.
Jesus said in the bible "If any man thirst, let him come unto Me, and drink." He wants thirsty ppl, not EMPTY ppl. How much we have of God, is actually how much we want. We don't have more because we don't want more. So I'm asking God to give me a burning, blistering thirst. And Jesus is the water. Holiness is not the way to Christ; Christ is the way to holiness.
However, we often come but not drink. To drink, we must drink by faith. Many ppl know this and say yes, Christ is the answer and they get that into their heads, notebooks, bibles but NOT INTO THE HEART. There comes a time when we need to believe Him and say, "My heart is thirsty for the blessing. I will receive the Lord Jesus. I take Him by faith." We must drink.
We are so close yet we miss it. So now i'm trying to drink by faith. Like i said before, i know this in my head but not in my heart. I still have to figure out how the information is suppose to be transfered to the heart. Maybe it's through difficult times that it gets transferred.
For now, i'm focusing on trying to drink from Jesus. TO Drink in more of Him. To thirst for Him.
Friday, December 02, 2005
Be WARNED. today's post is just full of complaints so NO COLORS at all.
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I'm feeling down down down.
I found out that my mom wasn't realli interested in working again. Money is tight and she doesn't FEEL like working?!?! And she goes on abt how a lot of ppl tell her to be housewife long ago but she never coz she is a workaholic. She say how other ppl the father earning less than my dad but the mother is a housewife so we should be able to manage.
I guess I want her to work coz i'm being selfish. Coz if she doesn't work means we have less money so i get less of what i want.
I'm so sick of feeling guilty everytime i have to open my mouth and ask them for something. Even if it is a NEED and not a WANT, i still feel guilty. I want to work but how? There's still school. I can only work as a tutor or teacher or something. But who will hire a 14 yr old to teach their kid!?
Well.. i'm actually feeling down more likely coz my hopes were dash rather than the prospect of having less income.
I was hoping my mom will get a job soon and things will get back to normal. Then i can go to sweden and i can get more clothes so i dun have to choose between 2 pants and 5 shirts each time i want to go out. and you wonder why i always wear the same thing. Or maybe it's just me. even if i had a dozen clothes i will still look as if i am always wearing the same thing.
Oh well.. i guess i can live with having to stretch money a bit. But i still want to go to Sweden and i think i won't be. Coz that money can be used to pay all the house bills instead of a 5 day trip. Even if my dad was willing i dun think i can bear it on my conscience to do something like that. It means the whole family will have to pinch even more.
I'm suddenly reminded of a TAG i did some time ago. Abt how God has to exist or we have no hope. That's what i'm thinking now.
Even when i'm at a spiritual stand still, i still have a little hope that God will provide. My brain knows that but my heart only believes 20% of it. If I didn't believe God existed, i think i would be feeling a lot more worse than this.
My heart just won't listen to what my head says in terms of christian related stuff. I know i should just commit it to God's hands and have faith but i dun seem to be having much faith.
I really like the song SHOW ME UR FACE right now. Coz i really want to See God.
Things may not be good now but i'm hoping that through this i can know God more.
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I'm feeling down down down.
I found out that my mom wasn't realli interested in working again. Money is tight and she doesn't FEEL like working?!?! And she goes on abt how a lot of ppl tell her to be housewife long ago but she never coz she is a workaholic. She say how other ppl the father earning less than my dad but the mother is a housewife so we should be able to manage.
I guess I want her to work coz i'm being selfish. Coz if she doesn't work means we have less money so i get less of what i want.
I'm so sick of feeling guilty everytime i have to open my mouth and ask them for something. Even if it is a NEED and not a WANT, i still feel guilty. I want to work but how? There's still school. I can only work as a tutor or teacher or something. But who will hire a 14 yr old to teach their kid!?
Well.. i'm actually feeling down more likely coz my hopes were dash rather than the prospect of having less income.
I was hoping my mom will get a job soon and things will get back to normal. Then i can go to sweden and i can get more clothes so i dun have to choose between 2 pants and 5 shirts each time i want to go out. and you wonder why i always wear the same thing. Or maybe it's just me. even if i had a dozen clothes i will still look as if i am always wearing the same thing.
Oh well.. i guess i can live with having to stretch money a bit. But i still want to go to Sweden and i think i won't be. Coz that money can be used to pay all the house bills instead of a 5 day trip. Even if my dad was willing i dun think i can bear it on my conscience to do something like that. It means the whole family will have to pinch even more.
I'm suddenly reminded of a TAG i did some time ago. Abt how God has to exist or we have no hope. That's what i'm thinking now.
Even when i'm at a spiritual stand still, i still have a little hope that God will provide. My brain knows that but my heart only believes 20% of it. If I didn't believe God existed, i think i would be feeling a lot more worse than this.
My heart just won't listen to what my head says in terms of christian related stuff. I know i should just commit it to God's hands and have faith but i dun seem to be having much faith.
I really like the song SHOW ME UR FACE right now. Coz i really want to See God.
Things may not be good now but i'm hoping that through this i can know God more.
Thursday, December 01, 2005
i feel like a band freak today!!!
I did band related stuff from 8.30 am to 5.30 pm. That's 9 HOURS of band stuff.
Band break is coming. Camps are coming. School is starting. GAH.
Concert is coming. My high C is NOT coming. GAH.
You do not have to read from here onwards. The below is just for me to channel my fustrations.
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HAiz..
I made a discover yesterday night. I've been faking all the while. I've been trying to be a good christian and trying to get close to God. I've always wondered why i'm not close to God. It's like coz I know quite a bit ABOUT Him. But i duno Him personally. There's no intimacy. W/O that how can I be close to Him?? But i'm not sure wad i can do other than to pray. Coz if i try reading the bible, i end up KNOWING more abt Him but not know Him.
Sometimes i wonder if second generation christians have to back slide before they can get close to God. I dun want to back slide but i dun want to leave a life trying to please a God i dun really know.
Children camp is coming. I'm feeling spiritually dead. How am i gonna try and teach them abt the heart of worship when i dun even have it myself.
I'm just lost right now. Unsure of what to do now. I guess i just have to keep praying. Even though i feel tht i dun realli know God, i am veri certain that the God i want to believe in is REAL and is the ONE and ONLY God. I've encountered Him enough to know this. But from here.. i'm still stuck.
I wish i was like the girl in the picture now. I'm standing on a mountain top. and i spread my arms and shout to the heavens.. FATHER! REVEAL YOURSELF TO ME! JUST REVEAL YOURSELF TO ME! SHOW ME WHO YOU ARE!!
A pity, i would never do that even if i could. I can only do it in my imagination. Coz i dun have the guts.
I did band related stuff from 8.30 am to 5.30 pm. That's 9 HOURS of band stuff.
Band break is coming. Camps are coming. School is starting. GAH.
Concert is coming. My high C is NOT coming. GAH.
You do not have to read from here onwards. The below is just for me to channel my fustrations.
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HAiz..
I made a discover yesterday night. I've been faking all the while. I've been trying to be a good christian and trying to get close to God. I've always wondered why i'm not close to God. It's like coz I know quite a bit ABOUT Him. But i duno Him personally. There's no intimacy. W/O that how can I be close to Him?? But i'm not sure wad i can do other than to pray. Coz if i try reading the bible, i end up KNOWING more abt Him but not know Him.
Sometimes i wonder if second generation christians have to back slide before they can get close to God. I dun want to back slide but i dun want to leave a life trying to please a God i dun really know.
Children camp is coming. I'm feeling spiritually dead. How am i gonna try and teach them abt the heart of worship when i dun even have it myself.
I'm just lost right now. Unsure of what to do now. I guess i just have to keep praying. Even though i feel tht i dun realli know God, i am veri certain that the God i want to believe in is REAL and is the ONE and ONLY God. I've encountered Him enough to know this. But from here.. i'm still stuck.
I wish i was like the girl in the picture now. I'm standing on a mountain top. and i spread my arms and shout to the heavens.. FATHER! REVEAL YOURSELF TO ME! JUST REVEAL YOURSELF TO ME! SHOW ME WHO YOU ARE!!
A pity, i would never do that even if i could. I can only do it in my imagination. Coz i dun have the guts.
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Ok..
I didn't really like the previous one so i made another one.
I really like this picture.
It's like the girl is opening her arms to God. It's suppose to be worshipping Him but i think if i were her on a mountain top and spreading my arms to the heavens, i'll be shouting "TAKE ALL OF ME!!!!"
hah. Something like tht lar. SO i put the words take all of me there.
I really want God to take all of me. That's the only way that i can know that God will be pleased with me. Coz i mean, His the one doing the work so He will be pleased wad.
I want Him to mould me according to His plan. TO just take my life and do whatever He wants with it. I sometimes wished that He had not given us a choice. Then again, that would make the relationship with Him so pointless and not precious.
While waiting to collect my books yesterday, i realised something that has to do with God and i decided that i would blog abt it. However, it has slipped my mind and i just can't recall what it is. When i remember then i blog abt it lar. hah.
I didn't really like the previous one so i made another one.
I really like this picture.
It's like the girl is opening her arms to God. It's suppose to be worshipping Him but i think if i were her on a mountain top and spreading my arms to the heavens, i'll be shouting "TAKE ALL OF ME!!!!"
hah. Something like tht lar. SO i put the words take all of me there.
I really want God to take all of me. That's the only way that i can know that God will be pleased with me. Coz i mean, His the one doing the work so He will be pleased wad.
I want Him to mould me according to His plan. TO just take my life and do whatever He wants with it. I sometimes wished that He had not given us a choice. Then again, that would make the relationship with Him so pointless and not precious.
While waiting to collect my books yesterday, i realised something that has to do with God and i decided that i would blog abt it. However, it has slipped my mind and i just can't recall what it is. When i remember then i blog abt it lar. hah.
Monday, November 28, 2005
New skin for 2 reason
1) JOYCE kept complaining
2) i wanted a bigger space to blog
HAH. Anyway this is much plainer. and it's WHITE! for the first time.
I think it's kinda weird. In terms of layout. But i'm lazy to edit.
I actually wanted a picture of a father driving his kid and u can see the road. But cannot find any, this was the best i could get to depict God leading us to Heaven.
Coz when we are on our own, we can try to find our way to heaven but obviously we won't get there coz we simply duno the way. However, if we believe in Jesus, he will lead the way for us and so, we will get to heaven.
I prefer the driver method. Coz driving also means putting God in control, letting him control how fast or how slow to God.
But no picture leh.. so this also can lor.
1) JOYCE kept complaining
2) i wanted a bigger space to blog
HAH. Anyway this is much plainer. and it's WHITE! for the first time.
I think it's kinda weird. In terms of layout. But i'm lazy to edit.
I actually wanted a picture of a father driving his kid and u can see the road. But cannot find any, this was the best i could get to depict God leading us to Heaven.
Coz when we are on our own, we can try to find our way to heaven but obviously we won't get there coz we simply duno the way. However, if we believe in Jesus, he will lead the way for us and so, we will get to heaven.
I prefer the driver method. Coz driving also means putting God in control, letting him control how fast or how slow to God.
But no picture leh.. so this also can lor.
Streaming Result
Pure Physics
Pure Chemistry
Pure Geog
Elect Hist
A Math
Hah. That's exactly what i wanted for my stream and i got it. Realli have to thank God for it. He helped me do so well in my exams i had little doubt that i would get what i wanted. All the same, i was worried abt my Humanities as i had no idea wad to take. So i just left it in God hands. So God's verdict is for me to take pure geog. Ha... His will His Bill.
Pure Physics
Pure Chemistry
Pure Geog
Elect Hist
A Math
Hah. That's exactly what i wanted for my stream and i got it. Realli have to thank God for it. He helped me do so well in my exams i had little doubt that i would get what i wanted. All the same, i was worried abt my Humanities as i had no idea wad to take. So i just left it in God hands. So God's verdict is for me to take pure geog. Ha... His will His Bill.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Juz a quickie. Coz i'm doing housework now.. But the computer is on so i'll make a quickie.
It's so tiring to do housework.. and the distribution is not realli fair. My dad has to work yet he practically does ALL the ironing and washing of clothes. As you know, since we are still NOOBS, ironing takes a LONG LONG time. Then my 2 bros always dun want to help out. I try to help when i remember. WHich isn't often. HAH.
Anyway, though we're going through difficult times, i guess God has a purpose for everything. I'm sure my family will learn something from all these. We'll just have to have FAITH in God.
Still.. i dun want my hands to get rougher!! but they are. oh well.
It's so tiring to do housework.. and the distribution is not realli fair. My dad has to work yet he practically does ALL the ironing and washing of clothes. As you know, since we are still NOOBS, ironing takes a LONG LONG time. Then my 2 bros always dun want to help out. I try to help when i remember. WHich isn't often. HAH.
Anyway, though we're going through difficult times, i guess God has a purpose for everything. I'm sure my family will learn something from all these. We'll just have to have FAITH in God.
Still.. i dun want my hands to get rougher!! but they are. oh well.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
hehe hoho haha.
I've made another DISCOVERY!!
Another bit of my purpose statement.
I was praying for the children camp when i just said this.. "no glory goes to me all glory goes to You".
It makes so much sense right?? I was like.. Ooo.. did i just say that?
Anyway.. now my purpose statement will go something like this...
I exist to please God with my life and in everything I do, no glory goes to me but all glory goes to God.
Something like that lar..
Anyway tis is just a quickie.
so TATA!!
I've made another DISCOVERY!!
Another bit of my purpose statement.
I was praying for the children camp when i just said this.. "no glory goes to me all glory goes to You".
It makes so much sense right?? I was like.. Ooo.. did i just say that?
Anyway.. now my purpose statement will go something like this...
I exist to please God with my life and in everything I do, no glory goes to me but all glory goes to God.
Something like that lar..
Anyway tis is just a quickie.
so TATA!!
Monday, November 21, 2005
I watched charlie and the chocolate factory today at Zhihan's hse!! And I/WE learned the Oompa-Loompas dance. Hahaha. So retarded. The plan is to perform it in camp on the last night or something.
Anyway.. i just did TAG so i'm gonna blog abt it.
It's abt how roaches kept destroying the domino formation someone was working on. Every day the person will place abt 10,000 dominos and some will be hit down by roaches at night. The little bugs destroy the beautiful work.
In the same way, our little sins can destroy whatever good work that we have done. It can also affect our relationship with God.
This show how A little goes a long way. HAHAHA. That is often used for good stuff yet it can be applied to bad stuff. A little sin goes a long way.
We often think that 1 White lie won't hurt much but it does. It can destroy whatever good work u have been doing. Even if u are lying to prevent someone from being hurt.
A little goes a long long way. =)
Anyway.. i just did TAG so i'm gonna blog abt it.
It's abt how roaches kept destroying the domino formation someone was working on. Every day the person will place abt 10,000 dominos and some will be hit down by roaches at night. The little bugs destroy the beautiful work.
In the same way, our little sins can destroy whatever good work that we have done. It can also affect our relationship with God.
This show how A little goes a long way. HAHAHA. That is often used for good stuff yet it can be applied to bad stuff. A little sin goes a long way.
We often think that 1 White lie won't hurt much but it does. It can destroy whatever good work u have been doing. Even if u are lying to prevent someone from being hurt.
A little goes a long long way. =)
Saturday, November 19, 2005
SOMEONE STOLE MY ADDIDAS SHOE!!!
he/she also took my brother's DC shoe lar!
They're both fake.. but it's still nice to wear it lar. Cause it looks so real. Haha. Then my neighbour have REAL addidas shoe exact same design never kana stolen leh. Duno lar. But i cannot find it anywhere!! RETARDED.
Anyway, Today's sermon was rather interesting and thought provoking. Or should i say "guilt provoking". hoho. It didn't realli start off very well coz it was like.. HOW TO BE SUCCESSFUL. and i'm like... i want to learn about God you talk abt how to be successful the christian way. But it made a lot of sense. Juz a quickie on it.
(one) Bearing personal responsibility
When we blame others we often get stuck at where we are. But if we take responsibility, God will slowly led us to sucess.
(two) Cleaning my personal life.
We need to get rid of the rubbish inside us. It's ok to want to look good on the outside but we must be clean on the inside. We should not have evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, malice, deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance and folly.
(three) Discovering personal passion.
It's not abt DECIDING what you want to do in future. It's about discovering what God wants you to do. Discover what your passion is. Coz God made us passionate abt a certain thing for a reason. And we can only discover it when we are close to God.
I felt guilty abt the bearing responsibility part and the clean on the inside part. Coz i have always blame everyone else abt my lousy chinese but myself.. and i had a couple of those unclean things.
But i'm really excited! about the discovering your passion part. All the while i've wondered what should I choose. Yet now i know that i dun have to bother abt that dilemma anymore. I just have to discover it. I really wonder what it is. Will it be music? i only enjoy making music with people. So i'm like not SUPER interested in piano coz it's like solo. But i really really enjoy making music. Ha.
I duno. I'll just have to keep walking with God and discover from my creator my purpose and my passion. WHEET!
he/she also took my brother's DC shoe lar!
They're both fake.. but it's still nice to wear it lar. Cause it looks so real. Haha. Then my neighbour have REAL addidas shoe exact same design never kana stolen leh. Duno lar. But i cannot find it anywhere!! RETARDED.
Anyway, Today's sermon was rather interesting and thought provoking. Or should i say "guilt provoking". hoho. It didn't realli start off very well coz it was like.. HOW TO BE SUCCESSFUL. and i'm like... i want to learn about God you talk abt how to be successful the christian way. But it made a lot of sense. Juz a quickie on it.
(one) Bearing personal responsibility
When we blame others we often get stuck at where we are. But if we take responsibility, God will slowly led us to sucess.
(two) Cleaning my personal life.
We need to get rid of the rubbish inside us. It's ok to want to look good on the outside but we must be clean on the inside. We should not have evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, malice, deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance and folly.
(three) Discovering personal passion.
It's not abt DECIDING what you want to do in future. It's about discovering what God wants you to do. Discover what your passion is. Coz God made us passionate abt a certain thing for a reason. And we can only discover it when we are close to God.
I felt guilty abt the bearing responsibility part and the clean on the inside part. Coz i have always blame everyone else abt my lousy chinese but myself.. and i had a couple of those unclean things.
But i'm really excited! about the discovering your passion part. All the while i've wondered what should I choose. Yet now i know that i dun have to bother abt that dilemma anymore. I just have to discover it. I really wonder what it is. Will it be music? i only enjoy making music with people. So i'm like not SUPER interested in piano coz it's like solo. But i really really enjoy making music. Ha.
I duno. I'll just have to keep walking with God and discover from my creator my purpose and my passion. WHEET!
Gah! For NO REASON, i'm missing band.
Which is retarded.
Maybe i had too much fun in Band recently. I've never missed band before ok.
Maybe caused its a cold and lonely night. There's no one to talk to. And English Folk Song Suite is stuck in my head. Wad a wonderful combination.
Why am i even blogging abt this? I don't know.
I'm going crazy after all the blog hopping.
Which is retarded.
Maybe i had too much fun in Band recently. I've never missed band before ok.
Maybe caused its a cold and lonely night. There's no one to talk to. And English Folk Song Suite is stuck in my head. Wad a wonderful combination.
Why am i even blogging abt this? I don't know.
I'm going crazy after all the blog hopping.
Friday, November 18, 2005
So tired. i was in school from 9.45am to 5.45pm. Then work until 9pm. I really didn't want to go and teach lar. But no choice. I realli had to count on God for His UNLIMITED strength to see me through. Somehow i made it. By God's grace.
Gah... band was rather fun i guess. Yesterday was more fun. I realli wonder what God's gonna do with my life. I mean don't you think it's kinda exciting and cool. Like there's a reason why you like what you like and do what you do? And you know somehow or another all these things will be critical in doing what God wants you to do? And it will PLEASE God when you do what He wants you to do?
Nice relationship right??
Up to now, i'm still trying to find my purpose. I read PDL last year and didn't really understand nor gain a lot from it. This year.. almost exactly 1 yr later, I only read 3 chapters yet it seems to mean a lot to me. Probably coz they first few chapters are so BACK TO THE BASICS. Just reading those 3 chapters and recalling a little of what i read last time.. i'm at least able to form 1 part of my purpose in life. At first when David Lee ask us to write our purpose last year I had not much idea. But now..
I guess my purpose will be something to do with pleasing God. I'm making that my er.. motto. TO PLEASE GOD. It's gonna be so cool when i can say just be for I die that I've led a meaningful short life doing God's will and now i'm on my way to Heaven to spend eternity with the One i'm trying to please. Gah.. i dream of that day man.
ha.. that's my goal in life.
Hello Jesus! Are you smiling at me? =)
Gah... band was rather fun i guess. Yesterday was more fun. I realli wonder what God's gonna do with my life. I mean don't you think it's kinda exciting and cool. Like there's a reason why you like what you like and do what you do? And you know somehow or another all these things will be critical in doing what God wants you to do? And it will PLEASE God when you do what He wants you to do?
Nice relationship right??
Up to now, i'm still trying to find my purpose. I read PDL last year and didn't really understand nor gain a lot from it. This year.. almost exactly 1 yr later, I only read 3 chapters yet it seems to mean a lot to me. Probably coz they first few chapters are so BACK TO THE BASICS. Just reading those 3 chapters and recalling a little of what i read last time.. i'm at least able to form 1 part of my purpose in life. At first when David Lee ask us to write our purpose last year I had not much idea. But now..
I guess my purpose will be something to do with pleasing God. I'm making that my er.. motto. TO PLEASE GOD. It's gonna be so cool when i can say just be for I die that I've led a meaningful short life doing God's will and now i'm on my way to Heaven to spend eternity with the One i'm trying to please. Gah.. i dream of that day man.
ha.. that's my goal in life.
Hello Jesus! Are you smiling at me? =)
So tired. i was in school from 9.45am to 5.45pm. Then work until 9pm. I really didn't want to go and teach lar. But no choice. I realli had to count on God for His UNLIMITED strength to see me through. Somehow i made it. By God's grace.
Gah... band was rather fun i guess. Yesterday was more fun. I realli wonder what God's gonna do with my life. I mean don't you think it's kinda exciting and cool. Like there's a reason why you like what you like and do what you do? And you know somehow or another all these things will be critical in doing what God wants you to do? And it will PLEASE God when you do what He wants you to do?
Nice relationship right??
Up to now, i'm still trying to find my purpose. I read PDL last year and didn't really understand nor gain a lot from it. This year.. almost exactly 1 yr later, I only read 3 chapters yet it seems to mean a lot to me. Probably coz they first few chapters are so BACK TO THE BASICS. Just reading those 3 chapters and recalling a little of what i read last time.. i'm at least able to form 1 part of my purpose in life. At first when David Lee ask us to write our purpose last year I had not much idea. But now..
I guess my purpose will be something to do with pleasing God. I'm making that my er.. motto. TO PLEASE GOD. It's gonna be so cool when i can say just be for I die that I've led a meaningful short life doing God's will and now i'm on my way to Heaven to spend eternity with the One i'm trying to please. Gah.. i dream of that day man.
ha.. that's my goal in life.
Hello Jesus! Are you smiling at me? =)
Gah... band was rather fun i guess. Yesterday was more fun. I realli wonder what God's gonna do with my life. I mean don't you think it's kinda exciting and cool. Like there's a reason why you like what you like and do what you do? And you know somehow or another all these things will be critical in doing what God wants you to do? And it will PLEASE God when you do what He wants you to do?
Nice relationship right??
Up to now, i'm still trying to find my purpose. I read PDL last year and didn't really understand nor gain a lot from it. This year.. almost exactly 1 yr later, I only read 3 chapters yet it seems to mean a lot to me. Probably coz they first few chapters are so BACK TO THE BASICS. Just reading those 3 chapters and recalling a little of what i read last time.. i'm at least able to form 1 part of my purpose in life. At first when David Lee ask us to write our purpose last year I had not much idea. But now..
I guess my purpose will be something to do with pleasing God. I'm making that my er.. motto. TO PLEASE GOD. It's gonna be so cool when i can say just be for I die that I've led a meaningful short life doing God's will and now i'm on my way to Heaven to spend eternity with the One i'm trying to please. Gah.. i dream of that day man.
ha.. that's my goal in life.
Hello Jesus! Are you smiling at me? =)
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
I'VE JUST MADE ME FIRST DOLLAR!!!
And not by working for your parents or relatives but WORK WORK! I mean i made my first 20 bucks. Gah.. it wasn't as bad as i expected. Earlier on this week i was kinda stress abt it. But as i prayed i became less stress. I was so disturbed by it to the extent i could stone for 45 mins thinking abt the job. That is BAD BAD BAD!!!
Things went rather smooth. I din have any problem with the the officers nor the tutees. haha.. that's what i call ppl who are getting tutored. Hohoho.
I must really thank God this time. It's like a heavy burden have been lifted off me. I was really burdened by this whole thing. But now i guess it's ok. No wonder ppl always say to share your burden with the Lord. That's what someone told be before. That God wants to share my burden. I shared it with God and He helped me carry it. I mean.. Man have limited strength and no matter who you are.. after carrying it for awhile, you will start to get very tired. But God with His unlimited strength, can help us carry it and not be burdened. Not only does He not get tired but He will FOR SURE carry us through lar.
I've also finally cleared my thinking. At first after reading the first few chapters of the purpose driven life and hearing a cat and dog sermon, I started to have this "IT's ALL ABOUT GOD" mentality. And so came saturday service. I couldn't worship. Coz i felt that every single song was clashing. Coz it had stuff abt thanking Jesus for dying for me. Then i was like.. why must sing until so ME ME ME!!? I was SUPER confuse.
Now i realise that it's like Jesus died for us because He love us and also for God's glory. It's not juz for God's glory alone neither is it juz for us. The top line is coz He loves us. But the bottom line is it's for God's glory. The reason is both. Yes, it's all about God. But there are other things too. Loving us is also about God. It reflects God's love. Therefore the reason is BOTH.
Eh.. i hope this is not confusing you ppl. Anyway i'm glad i've made money! Now i can pay for my class tee and make the XX shirt. YIPPIE!
And not by working for your parents or relatives but WORK WORK! I mean i made my first 20 bucks. Gah.. it wasn't as bad as i expected. Earlier on this week i was kinda stress abt it. But as i prayed i became less stress. I was so disturbed by it to the extent i could stone for 45 mins thinking abt the job. That is BAD BAD BAD!!!
Things went rather smooth. I din have any problem with the the officers nor the tutees. haha.. that's what i call ppl who are getting tutored. Hohoho.
I must really thank God this time. It's like a heavy burden have been lifted off me. I was really burdened by this whole thing. But now i guess it's ok. No wonder ppl always say to share your burden with the Lord. That's what someone told be before. That God wants to share my burden. I shared it with God and He helped me carry it. I mean.. Man have limited strength and no matter who you are.. after carrying it for awhile, you will start to get very tired. But God with His unlimited strength, can help us carry it and not be burdened. Not only does He not get tired but He will FOR SURE carry us through lar.
I've also finally cleared my thinking. At first after reading the first few chapters of the purpose driven life and hearing a cat and dog sermon, I started to have this "IT's ALL ABOUT GOD" mentality. And so came saturday service. I couldn't worship. Coz i felt that every single song was clashing. Coz it had stuff abt thanking Jesus for dying for me. Then i was like.. why must sing until so ME ME ME!!? I was SUPER confuse.
Now i realise that it's like Jesus died for us because He love us and also for God's glory. It's not juz for God's glory alone neither is it juz for us. The top line is coz He loves us. But the bottom line is it's for God's glory. The reason is both. Yes, it's all about God. But there are other things too. Loving us is also about God. It reflects God's love. Therefore the reason is BOTH.
Eh.. i hope this is not confusing you ppl. Anyway i'm glad i've made money! Now i can pay for my class tee and make the XX shirt. YIPPIE!
Monday, November 14, 2005
i'm gonna work! for 5 days onli. And i dun realli want the job. Coz it's at night and the person stays at some gukhat or wadever.. camp. So like the are security guards that carry guns and inside you can see many police buses.
I suppose to teach 2 ang moh kids piano. And they are so terrible, they can't even read notes and they're grade 4!! and their exam is on 22 nov and they can't even play the piece through.
OK.. so i've juz read through this long long article on the Cat and Dog theology that frances sent and i guess most of us are cats.
I made a horrifying discovery that i'm cat! GAH!
Ok.. for those who duno the Cat and Dog theology.. it goes like this.
Dog: You clothe me, you feed me, you shelter me, you love me, YOU must be God.
Cat: You clothe me, you feed me, you shelter me, you love me, I must be God.
the article goes in depth lar. it's 10 pages long!! It's only when i read it that i realise i'm kkinda like the cat.
My prayers focus on asking God to help me. I dun do things to reflect God's glory. I do things that i think will benefit myself. I also learn that when you read a passage, there is the top line and bottom line. And we often miss the bottom line. We only read abt the most important thing and normally it's related to us like a blessing or something. But we fail to notice the bottom line.. that it's for God's glory that He bless us.
Anyway.. i'm gonna focus on God now.
This article realli makes me reflect on my life lar. And it also changes the way you live and view things.
Here's a link to the article. I uploaded it myself.
Cat and Dog Theology
Have fun reading!
I suppose to teach 2 ang moh kids piano. And they are so terrible, they can't even read notes and they're grade 4!! and their exam is on 22 nov and they can't even play the piece through.
OK.. so i've juz read through this long long article on the Cat and Dog theology that frances sent and i guess most of us are cats.
I made a horrifying discovery that i'm cat! GAH!
Ok.. for those who duno the Cat and Dog theology.. it goes like this.
Dog: You clothe me, you feed me, you shelter me, you love me, YOU must be God.
Cat: You clothe me, you feed me, you shelter me, you love me, I must be God.
the article goes in depth lar. it's 10 pages long!! It's only when i read it that i realise i'm kkinda like the cat.
My prayers focus on asking God to help me. I dun do things to reflect God's glory. I do things that i think will benefit myself. I also learn that when you read a passage, there is the top line and bottom line. And we often miss the bottom line. We only read abt the most important thing and normally it's related to us like a blessing or something. But we fail to notice the bottom line.. that it's for God's glory that He bless us.
Anyway.. i'm gonna focus on God now.
This article realli makes me reflect on my life lar. And it also changes the way you live and view things.
Here's a link to the article. I uploaded it myself.
Cat and Dog Theology
Have fun reading!
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Sorry i haven't been blogging. I kinda got addicted to a game.. THANK GOD i'm over it already. I dun even dare to play it now coz i'm scared i'll get addicted again. It was realli sucking up my time and i had little time to pray or do anything else. Gah.. the dangers of addiction. And it's a stupid game.
As for the broken relationship.. things are ok liao.
Anyway.. here's the LONG OVERDUE sermon notes on PRAYER - Revival part I. Many of you didn't go. Like there were onli 4 youths. Me, Joey and my bros. Kinda pathetic right? Well it was a veri important sermon on prayer. so here goes..
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PRAYER
Creating an appetite for God and prayer.
Without God's power, we cannot manufacture a change in our life. When we pray, we are actually CHALLENGING the devil with power. (how cool!)
Prayer is powerful onli if we live and do righteously in the eyes of God. As in the prayer of a righteous man is veri powerful.
The Church of God is in control of the nation actaully- or at least has the potential to do so. Coz we can PRAY! and prayers can move MOUNTAINS! If we all prayed for singapore... imagine what could happen.
ARE WE DESPERATE ENOUGHT TO SEE GOD WORK MIRACLES AND CHANGE SOCIETY?
James 5:17-19
17Elijah was a man just like us. He prayed earnestly that it would not rain, and it did not rain on the land for three and a half years. 18Again he prayed, and the heavens gave rain, and the earth produced its crops. 19My brothers, if one of you should wander from the truth and someone should bring him back, 20remember this: Whoever turns a sinner from the error of his way will save him from death and cover over a multitude of sins.
PRAYER RECEEDS REVIVAL.
(it kinda shifts to a diff topic from here..)
Deuteronomy 28:1-6
Blessings for Obedience
1 If you fully obey the LORD your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the LORD your God will set you high above all the nations on earth. 2 All these blessings will come upon you and accompany you if you obey the LORD your God:
3 You will be blessed in the city and blessed in the country.
4 The fruit of your womb will be blessed, and the crops of your land and the young of your livestock—the calves of your herds and the lambs of your flocks.
5 Your basket and your kneading trough will be blessed.
6 You will be blessed when you come in and blessed when you go out.
Before you receive your blessings you have to...
(1) Fully Obey God.
Because blessings are the consequence of earlier actions in which we are persuing after God.
The reason the Jews (first generation) couldn't enter the promise land was coz they didn't OBEY God.
OBEDIENCE WILL BRING US INTO THE PROMISE LAND.
GO FURTHER!
Joshua 3:1-5
1 Early in the morning Joshua and all the Israelites set out from Shittim and went to the Jordan, where they camped before crossing over. 2 After three days the officers went throughout the camp, 3 giving orders to the people: "When you see the ark of the covenant of the LORD your God, and the priests, who are Levites, carrying it, you are to move out from your positions and follow it. 4 Then you will know which way to go, since you have never been this way before. But keep a distance of about a thousand yards between you and the ark; do not go near it."
5 Joshua told the people, "Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the LORD will do amazing things among you."
Go FURTHER in our prayer walk. Every good Father will want to see his children go further than him. We have to cross over when going further. There will be CHANGES!
(2) There's a Battle to fight!
Because the devil doesn't want us to win. Life is a Battle (does this remind you of yesterday's TAG?). We fight by PRAYER.
Coming to church is just but the beginning of joining an ARMY.
Go forward! never backwards.
(and now.. his famour words!!)
NOTHING HAPPENS WITHOUT PRAYER!!!!!
Pray unceasingly until the enemy let's go. Until the power of God is demostrated. If it's God's will, God's bill. Our will, our bill.
HAVE FAITH IN PRAYER!
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And with that.. we started to pray and pray. Pray in tongues.
Now that you know..
YOU MUST PRAY!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
I just finished trying to mend a broken relationship. Now just waiting for the outcome.
Remember yesterday i blogged abt anger? Yep. So well.. i talked to God and begin to see my mistake. I was flipping through my notebook trying to find the page where i stop at so i could do my TAG. And i saw this mess of words on one page and i thought it was a conversation i had with the girls. So i wanted to read it for fun.
It turned out to be notes on a sermon that said Mending broken relationship. I stuggled to read it coz my handwritting was super messy. I duno why. I shall type it out.
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Christ wants his family to be known for their love for each other. So we must restore broken relationship. Blessed are the peace makers. Peace making is not avoiding the conflict. It is solving it.
7 Steps to restore broken relationship
1) Talk to God before talking to the person.
When we tell other people before speaking to God, the conflict becomes worse. Cause words are transferred like a broken telephone line. All our relationship would be more soothing if we talk to God. (i agree!!!!!) No one can meet your needs except GOd. You do not have because you do not ask God.
2) Always be the one to take the initiative.
Restoring broken relationship is important. An unsolved relationship blocks our fellowship with God.
3) Sympathise with each others feelings.
Use your ears more than your mouth. Don't try to talk people out of how they feel. Just listen to their feelings. When you are in a midst of the conflict, the feelings felt are not true.
We act like beast when we are hurt. Our patience come from wisdom. People don't care about what we know until they know we care.
4) To restore, you must admit your own mistake.
We all have blind spots. We need a third party to show us our blind spot. Confession is a very important tool. If we admit out mistakes, it defends the other's anger. Accept responsibility and ask for forgiveness.
5) Attack the problem not the person.
When we quarrel there is always you, you, YOU! The word of God says a gentle word defuses anger but a sharp tongue kindles the temper. Nagging NEVER WORKS.
6) Co-operate as much as possible.
If we are serious about getting our relationship right, we must put effort. Peace comes with a tag.
7) Emphasise reconcillation.
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Ok i've type it out. So i tried to use this method to mend it. Hope this can help you too.
Remember yesterday i blogged abt anger? Yep. So well.. i talked to God and begin to see my mistake. I was flipping through my notebook trying to find the page where i stop at so i could do my TAG. And i saw this mess of words on one page and i thought it was a conversation i had with the girls. So i wanted to read it for fun.
It turned out to be notes on a sermon that said Mending broken relationship. I stuggled to read it coz my handwritting was super messy. I duno why. I shall type it out.
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Christ wants his family to be known for their love for each other. So we must restore broken relationship. Blessed are the peace makers. Peace making is not avoiding the conflict. It is solving it.
7 Steps to restore broken relationship
1) Talk to God before talking to the person.
When we tell other people before speaking to God, the conflict becomes worse. Cause words are transferred like a broken telephone line. All our relationship would be more soothing if we talk to God. (i agree!!!!!) No one can meet your needs except GOd. You do not have because you do not ask God.
2) Always be the one to take the initiative.
Restoring broken relationship is important. An unsolved relationship blocks our fellowship with God.
3) Sympathise with each others feelings.
Use your ears more than your mouth. Don't try to talk people out of how they feel. Just listen to their feelings. When you are in a midst of the conflict, the feelings felt are not true.
We act like beast when we are hurt. Our patience come from wisdom. People don't care about what we know until they know we care.
4) To restore, you must admit your own mistake.
We all have blind spots. We need a third party to show us our blind spot. Confession is a very important tool. If we admit out mistakes, it defends the other's anger. Accept responsibility and ask for forgiveness.
5) Attack the problem not the person.
When we quarrel there is always you, you, YOU! The word of God says a gentle word defuses anger but a sharp tongue kindles the temper. Nagging NEVER WORKS.
6) Co-operate as much as possible.
If we are serious about getting our relationship right, we must put effort. Peace comes with a tag.
7) Emphasise reconcillation.
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Ok i've type it out. So i tried to use this method to mend it. Hope this can help you too.
Whew.. I've never been told openly before by anyone tht they hate me so i'm trying to deal with it. Kinda pissed off coz i can't stand "earthquakes". I prefer "volcanos". There are signs and warnings for volcanos. As for earthquakes normally they are either sensative.. or they juz fake that nth's bothering them when it is until it juz explodes.
And once again.. i had to be reminded of God in my time of anger.
"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry.."
Ephesians 4:26
So i shall juz commit it into God's hands so i can have a peace of mind.
Time and time again i have had to commit my anger to the Lord. I had to "vent" my anger on him. Instead of shouting back angry remarks.. many a time i had to realli control myself, go somewhere else and start praying. Coz i always rememeber this phrase. "Hurting people hurt people". can also be used in angry ppl anger ppl.
So if the angry person make me angry.. i'll also become an angry person who will make sumone else angry. So i would be no better than the person i'm angry with.
I also rememeber reading somewhere that says anger against sumone is thinly veiled anger against God. Angry that things arn't going your way. But God is in control! So it means you are angry with God too!
I can't stand sour relationships so normally i do my best to keep peace. I like peace. Which is often why i always end up the peace maker in cliques. or maybe not. If i think the fren is not worth the effort i wouldn't bother. At least until my conscience comes to me and starts saying.. is this a christian behaviour?? then i would feel so guilty and try to patch things up.
Anger is realli a difficult thing to deal with. Just keep trying to deal with it in a healthy way. Dun ruin other people's happiness juz coz things arn't going your way.
And once again.. i had to be reminded of God in my time of anger.
"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry.."
Ephesians 4:26
So i shall juz commit it into God's hands so i can have a peace of mind.
Time and time again i have had to commit my anger to the Lord. I had to "vent" my anger on him. Instead of shouting back angry remarks.. many a time i had to realli control myself, go somewhere else and start praying. Coz i always rememeber this phrase. "Hurting people hurt people". can also be used in angry ppl anger ppl.
So if the angry person make me angry.. i'll also become an angry person who will make sumone else angry. So i would be no better than the person i'm angry with.
I also rememeber reading somewhere that says anger against sumone is thinly veiled anger against God. Angry that things arn't going your way. But God is in control! So it means you are angry with God too!
I can't stand sour relationships so normally i do my best to keep peace. I like peace. Which is often why i always end up the peace maker in cliques. or maybe not. If i think the fren is not worth the effort i wouldn't bother. At least until my conscience comes to me and starts saying.. is this a christian behaviour?? then i would feel so guilty and try to patch things up.
Anger is realli a difficult thing to deal with. Just keep trying to deal with it in a healthy way. Dun ruin other people's happiness juz coz things arn't going your way.
Sunday, October 30, 2005
We juz finished the 3 day revival service. I think this weekend has been a blast.
On sat we went to sentosa.. quite fun lar. then when to church for revival pt 2. Learnt much.. shall blog abt it tmr or something. But the main thing was during the prayer part at the end..
the speaker actually called me lar!!
I mean it's those God tell him that kind leh. Coz he doesn't know me or my name. The first time i kana this lar.
Anyway.. the things he said.. mainly put to rest my confusion lar. Recently i have been veri confused abt religious stuff. Coz like God has been veri silent for a long time. So i kinda got fed up and so i finally asked God why and stuff. What's wrong with our relationship? Why is God so silent? Stuff like that. So by singleling me out like tht.. it kinda showed to me that i'm still important to God. Juz coz He's silent doesn't mean that He isn't watching me or that i'm not realli important.
And then there was the part abt me carrying the burdens.. something like that. Well.. another speaker said that to me before.. something last year. Abt carrying expectations. Well... meaning i'm still carrying too much burden and is not sharing them with God. SO yesterday night i juz told God all my problems.. and i feel much better now.
However.. the first part the speaker interprated correctly. The second part he interprate wrongly.. He said pray for my father's salvation. HELLO!? my dad is already saved! He's the first gen. christian of my family. Haiya.. anyway the first part was interprated correctly.
Anyway.. i'm glad that it happened.
It realli helped strengthen my faith..
First time man...
On sat we went to sentosa.. quite fun lar. then when to church for revival pt 2. Learnt much.. shall blog abt it tmr or something. But the main thing was during the prayer part at the end..
the speaker actually called me lar!!
I mean it's those God tell him that kind leh. Coz he doesn't know me or my name. The first time i kana this lar.
Anyway.. the things he said.. mainly put to rest my confusion lar. Recently i have been veri confused abt religious stuff. Coz like God has been veri silent for a long time. So i kinda got fed up and so i finally asked God why and stuff. What's wrong with our relationship? Why is God so silent? Stuff like that. So by singleling me out like tht.. it kinda showed to me that i'm still important to God. Juz coz He's silent doesn't mean that He isn't watching me or that i'm not realli important.
And then there was the part abt me carrying the burdens.. something like that. Well.. another speaker said that to me before.. something last year. Abt carrying expectations. Well... meaning i'm still carrying too much burden and is not sharing them with God. SO yesterday night i juz told God all my problems.. and i feel much better now.
However.. the first part the speaker interprated correctly. The second part he interprate wrongly.. He said pray for my father's salvation. HELLO!? my dad is already saved! He's the first gen. christian of my family. Haiya.. anyway the first part was interprated correctly.
Anyway.. i'm glad that it happened.
It realli helped strengthen my faith..
First time man...
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
haiz.
Boredom.
School's boring. can't wait for this sat to come. Go sentosa. Also marks the start of my so called holiday. so many band pracs. Can't wait for youth camp too.
Ah wells..
I think i often feel much more closer to God when i pray more often.
Anyway..
I realli like the Potter and Clay thing.
I mean like ppl often think that there is only 1 potter but.. there are 2 Potters. One is God and the other is the World. By default, we are being moulded by Potter World. Coz Potter God does not believe in forcing ppl to be moulded by Him. But Potter World tries to force those being moulded by Potter God to be moulded by Potter World.
Potter World turns out BEAUTIFUL creations. However they are all useless and serve no purpose other than to be eyecandy. They also fade and break veri fast.
Potter God turns out plain looking creations. However they are all veri useful and can be used for many purposes. They also last for eternity.
The BEAUTIFUL creations hate the useful creations coz they are plain. Thus the plain creations undergo a lot of "creational" pressure.
Would you rather be moulded by Potter God or Potter World?
Boredom.
School's boring. can't wait for this sat to come. Go sentosa. Also marks the start of my so called holiday. so many band pracs. Can't wait for youth camp too.
Ah wells..
I think i often feel much more closer to God when i pray more often.
Anyway..
I realli like the Potter and Clay thing.
I mean like ppl often think that there is only 1 potter but.. there are 2 Potters. One is God and the other is the World. By default, we are being moulded by Potter World. Coz Potter God does not believe in forcing ppl to be moulded by Him. But Potter World tries to force those being moulded by Potter God to be moulded by Potter World.
Potter World turns out BEAUTIFUL creations. However they are all useless and serve no purpose other than to be eyecandy. They also fade and break veri fast.
Potter God turns out plain looking creations. However they are all veri useful and can be used for many purposes. They also last for eternity.
The BEAUTIFUL creations hate the useful creations coz they are plain. Thus the plain creations undergo a lot of "creational" pressure.
Would you rather be moulded by Potter God or Potter World?
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Friday, October 21, 2005
Hohoho!
Back from church.
Wah.. today's a tiring day. Learned tamil.. then watch wayang.. my goodness that was so boring.. then had band! We sightread the phantom of the opera.. it's NICE. and light calvary.. how boring.
Anyway.. you guys better go for the concert coz i need the CASH to go to sweeden!!!!!!!!
Then at church we discussed abt some problems we had.. In the end all we could conclude was that we had to commit everything into God's hand.
You know.. i feel that i only rmb God when i'm in need.. which is NOT GOOD.. so i was like if only i could say that i didn't mind suffering if it meant i could always rmb God. However.. i also knew that i was selfish and was not willing to keep suffering.
Hiya.. duno leh.
All i know is that God has proven TIME and TIME AGAIN that He is in control. Like that is what He means the most as to me. He's the controller of my life.
Back from church.
Wah.. today's a tiring day. Learned tamil.. then watch wayang.. my goodness that was so boring.. then had band! We sightread the phantom of the opera.. it's NICE. and light calvary.. how boring.
Anyway.. you guys better go for the concert coz i need the CASH to go to sweeden!!!!!!!!
Then at church we discussed abt some problems we had.. In the end all we could conclude was that we had to commit everything into God's hand.
You know.. i feel that i only rmb God when i'm in need.. which is NOT GOOD.. so i was like if only i could say that i didn't mind suffering if it meant i could always rmb God. However.. i also knew that i was selfish and was not willing to keep suffering.
Hiya.. duno leh.
All i know is that God has proven TIME and TIME AGAIN that He is in control. Like that is what He means the most as to me. He's the controller of my life.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
i did the funny quiz thing daniel yan did.
It's kinda true.. EXCEPT the last part. i think of love as something i dun need right now.. BUT I DUN FEEL LIKE FLIRTING AROUND!!!!!!!!!!
GGAAHHH!!!!
The Key to Your HEART
You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
It's kinda true.. EXCEPT the last part. i think of love as something i dun need right now.. BUT I DUN FEEL LIKE FLIRTING AROUND!!!!!!!!!!
GGAAHHH!!!!
The Key to Your HEART
You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
YIPPIE!!
today's my b'dae!! big deal.. it's juz another day. But i've gotten all my results... and i think i'm kinda pleased with them.
Chinese - 40.5%
English - 67.3%
Maths - 80%
History - 78.1%
Science - 68%
Home Econ - 71.5%
Literature - 63.3%
Yep! Chinese could have been worse.. i mean by usual is a 30+ so this is not bad. English is also an improvement coz i normally get B4...
Maths is a miracle. Normally i do badly for pp1 and veri well for pp2. This time opp. pp1 44 pp2 36. SO 80! Thank God.. i was so scared for pp2 coz i slept realli late the night before and i didn't study lar. I was juz talking to rachel on the phone.
History is surprising. didn't realli expect an A1.. so THANK GOD!
Science.. the whole level did realli badly. my class got 13 ppl fail and the average is 55.8% and my class is suppose to be like the 2nd best class. The other classes have averages that fall within D7 and E8!!!! so getting a B3 is quite good liao. So even though i wanted an A1... i won't complain. Thank God i didn't do badly..
Home econs.. no comments.
Literature.. Another MIRACLE. I was expecting to do SUPER BADLY coz it was the same day i took my math pp2 and i din study lar. SO i'm surprised i got B4 even. While going thru qn3 Ms Shen was saying that if we sat on the fence she penalised us. I was so scared i would fail tht qns lar. Coz i was sitting on the fence.
then i found out i got 13/20!!! apparently my conclusion saved me. I happen to conclude in such a way that meant i wasn't sitting on the fence. I SOOOOOO THANK GOD!!!!!!
OK.. so in short..
A1 - 2 M,H
A2 - 1 HE
B3 - 2 E,S
B4 - 1 L
E8 - 1 C
Oh well.. everything turned out better than expected. So i realli REALLI want to THANK GOD so much for helping me lar.
Does God answer our prayers or wad?
today's my b'dae!! big deal.. it's juz another day. But i've gotten all my results... and i think i'm kinda pleased with them.
Chinese - 40.5%
English - 67.3%
Maths - 80%
History - 78.1%
Science - 68%
Home Econ - 71.5%
Literature - 63.3%
Yep! Chinese could have been worse.. i mean by usual is a 30+ so this is not bad. English is also an improvement coz i normally get B4...
Maths is a miracle. Normally i do badly for pp1 and veri well for pp2. This time opp. pp1 44 pp2 36. SO 80! Thank God.. i was so scared for pp2 coz i slept realli late the night before and i didn't study lar. I was juz talking to rachel on the phone.
History is surprising. didn't realli expect an A1.. so THANK GOD!
Science.. the whole level did realli badly. my class got 13 ppl fail and the average is 55.8% and my class is suppose to be like the 2nd best class. The other classes have averages that fall within D7 and E8!!!! so getting a B3 is quite good liao. So even though i wanted an A1... i won't complain. Thank God i didn't do badly..
Home econs.. no comments.
Literature.. Another MIRACLE. I was expecting to do SUPER BADLY coz it was the same day i took my math pp2 and i din study lar. SO i'm surprised i got B4 even. While going thru qn3 Ms Shen was saying that if we sat on the fence she penalised us. I was so scared i would fail tht qns lar. Coz i was sitting on the fence.
then i found out i got 13/20!!! apparently my conclusion saved me. I happen to conclude in such a way that meant i wasn't sitting on the fence. I SOOOOOO THANK GOD!!!!!!
OK.. so in short..
A1 - 2 M,H
A2 - 1 HE
B3 - 2 E,S
B4 - 1 L
E8 - 1 C
Oh well.. everything turned out better than expected. So i realli REALLI want to THANK GOD so much for helping me lar.
Does God answer our prayers or wad?
Monday, October 17, 2005
I'm BaCK from piano!
I passed my piano exams with FLYING COLORS!!! yea rite. i passed it by 8 marks. 108/150. brilliant right?? i'm suppose to fail wan lar. I juz got super lucky to get a leniant examiner. But i dun think it's luck lar. I think it's God's grace. Considering how little i practiced and how crap i've been playing during and before the exam.. it's a miracle i passed. I got a female examiner and as we all know.. they are super strict. but not this wan. do i THANK GOD or wad??!
Hohoho... she say my finger work veri weak. HOW TRUE! so i passed on the dot my pieces and my scales. hoho. but my aural i got 16/18!!!!!! How brilliant is that!!!!
haha.. then she keep scolding me for not practicing properly. and abt HOW IMPORTANT finger work is. blah blah blah...
Anyway.. before going for piano i was like.. oh no! i'm gonna be late. So i was like praying that the bus will come at 7.50 so i can reach on time. THen i reach the bus stop at 7.50 and the bus came!!!!!!! miracle!!!!! i'm like... WOW!
Maybe coz i actually resisted temptation in the end that's why. I was SO TEMPTED to tell my teacher some lie to postpone piano practice lar. I was so sleepy. But after a long long time of thinking.. i decided not to lar. It's a sin to lie. so i left house late coz of tht.
I passed my piano exams with FLYING COLORS!!! yea rite. i passed it by 8 marks. 108/150. brilliant right?? i'm suppose to fail wan lar. I juz got super lucky to get a leniant examiner. But i dun think it's luck lar. I think it's God's grace. Considering how little i practiced and how crap i've been playing during and before the exam.. it's a miracle i passed. I got a female examiner and as we all know.. they are super strict. but not this wan. do i THANK GOD or wad??!
Hohoho... she say my finger work veri weak. HOW TRUE! so i passed on the dot my pieces and my scales. hoho. but my aural i got 16/18!!!!!! How brilliant is that!!!!
haha.. then she keep scolding me for not practicing properly. and abt HOW IMPORTANT finger work is. blah blah blah...
Anyway.. before going for piano i was like.. oh no! i'm gonna be late. So i was like praying that the bus will come at 7.50 so i can reach on time. THen i reach the bus stop at 7.50 and the bus came!!!!!!! miracle!!!!! i'm like... WOW!
Maybe coz i actually resisted temptation in the end that's why. I was SO TEMPTED to tell my teacher some lie to postpone piano practice lar. I was so sleepy. But after a long long time of thinking.. i decided not to lar. It's a sin to lie. so i left house late coz of tht.
Sunday, October 16, 2005
BACK!!!
Juz came back from CHIOR practice!! for the orchard christmas thingy. I'm so glad i joined in the end. At first i didn't want to join.. coz i couldn't stand singing coz i get the vibration thing between my eyebrows and above my nose there. BUt i decided.. at least i have a voice to sing praises to God with.. others want also cannot. And i mean.. we are singing for God. This is an opportunity to serve the Lord. So i joined in the end.
It turned out to be FUN. It's realli cool singing in harmony. It's for sure more fun then sing-a-long lar. Anyway it was a BLAST!
And i'm so LOOKING FORWARD to youth camp!! I think it's dam cool that the fact the camp is to take place while i'm having my band break. I mean last year it clashed but this time it's gang gang hao. Like my break is untill the 19 of dec i think. and the camp ends on er.. 19 or 20??? i can't rmb. And i should be helping out during the children's camp too. and it's still during the break too. HOW COOL!!!!!
God realli is in control of my life man...
I feel like changing my skin to one that depicts God being in control..
Maybe i should.. i'll juz change the picture.. and the words.
But leave the leaves there.
Haiya. duno lar. See how.
I'm so excited!! Coz for the past few days.. God has been showing me that he IS in control.
Juz came back from CHIOR practice!! for the orchard christmas thingy. I'm so glad i joined in the end. At first i didn't want to join.. coz i couldn't stand singing coz i get the vibration thing between my eyebrows and above my nose there. BUt i decided.. at least i have a voice to sing praises to God with.. others want also cannot. And i mean.. we are singing for God. This is an opportunity to serve the Lord. So i joined in the end.
It turned out to be FUN. It's realli cool singing in harmony. It's for sure more fun then sing-a-long lar. Anyway it was a BLAST!
And i'm so LOOKING FORWARD to youth camp!! I think it's dam cool that the fact the camp is to take place while i'm having my band break. I mean last year it clashed but this time it's gang gang hao. Like my break is untill the 19 of dec i think. and the camp ends on er.. 19 or 20??? i can't rmb. And i should be helping out during the children's camp too. and it's still during the break too. HOW COOL!!!!!
God realli is in control of my life man...
I feel like changing my skin to one that depicts God being in control..
Maybe i should.. i'll juz change the picture.. and the words.
But leave the leaves there.
Haiya. duno lar. See how.
I'm so excited!! Coz for the past few days.. God has been showing me that he IS in control.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
YOHOHO!
YEp another NEW skin. Well.. i said that i would change it after exams right??? and today i had my last paper so it IS after exams. I think the leaves are dam cool. I was fooling around with photoshop. Testing things out. I LIKE IT. uhuh. Duno how long it'll last though.
Today, i got 2 b'dae presents!!! A super adorable baby eeyore from grace and cat as well as a 37dg pencil case. Hohoho. Thanks for them. they are super super nice!
Well.. i went to meet jo,rach and manna then we walk around city hall for 3 and a half hours. incredible. My legs were dying. We made a pit stop at nana's workplace though. Kinda lame lar..
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Anyway.. i juz realised that God reali REALLY is in control of my life. While talking to rachel on the phone on wed nite i realised how lucky i am to be in st margs. I mean her school sounds horrrible. No intergrity and stuff. Wonder what kind of person i would have been like if i had gone to a sch like hers.
I mean.. it's a blessing in disguise that i shift house and so had to shift school. And that i had a neither here nor there aggregate score. I mean.. If i had not gone to SMPS, i couldn't be affiliated to SMSS and with my aggregate score i go to neighbourhood sch liao lar. I'm so glad i came to SMSS. Coz of the christian environment.
See.. God had been in control all the while. From 6 years ago when i was in p2 till now. Actually even before i was born.
SO i can take heart knowing he's in control.
YEp another NEW skin. Well.. i said that i would change it after exams right??? and today i had my last paper so it IS after exams. I think the leaves are dam cool. I was fooling around with photoshop. Testing things out. I LIKE IT. uhuh. Duno how long it'll last though.
Today, i got 2 b'dae presents!!! A super adorable baby eeyore from grace and cat as well as a 37dg pencil case. Hohoho. Thanks for them. they are super super nice!
Well.. i went to meet jo,rach and manna then we walk around city hall for 3 and a half hours. incredible. My legs were dying. We made a pit stop at nana's workplace though. Kinda lame lar..
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Anyway.. i juz realised that God reali REALLY is in control of my life. While talking to rachel on the phone on wed nite i realised how lucky i am to be in st margs. I mean her school sounds horrrible. No intergrity and stuff. Wonder what kind of person i would have been like if i had gone to a sch like hers.
I mean.. it's a blessing in disguise that i shift house and so had to shift school. And that i had a neither here nor there aggregate score. I mean.. If i had not gone to SMPS, i couldn't be affiliated to SMSS and with my aggregate score i go to neighbourhood sch liao lar. I'm so glad i came to SMSS. Coz of the christian environment.
See.. God had been in control all the while. From 6 years ago when i was in p2 till now. Actually even before i was born.
SO i can take heart knowing he's in control.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Now in the midst of exams..
not too bad.
I realli thank God that the info was retained in my mind.
Anyway.. i was doing TAG the day before yesterday.. and then i was like.. haiz.. why now God so silent.. testing me huh.. oh well. Then i realised i was like a tree. My roots had to be DEEP DEEP into the ground so that when the storm comes, i won't be swept away. And trees with deep roots normally have trouble finding water. they have to dig deep into the earth for it.
So i'm like.. hmm... that's the same for God. I have to dig and search for Him. So that when the storm comes, i won't be uprooted from Him.
So this is a good thing. =D
Then yesterday's TAG..
ABt how it is not normal to be abused. It is normal to be in God's perfect love. Abt there lar..
Then i suddenly realised that like.. the world is declining morally and so like being open abt sex and all is like the norm now. But juz because like everyone is doing it, does not make something normal. I mean many of us have been blinded by the devil. We lie so much until we think it's normal to lie. "oh lying isn't a big sin". But it's NOT true. It's still a sin.
It is actually normal to have a relationship with God. I mean that's why we were first created. But now.. the world is making it seem like believing in God is a bad thing.
Lying is not the norm.
Stop thinking that it is.
Remember what was initially meant to be the "norm".
not too bad.
I realli thank God that the info was retained in my mind.
Anyway.. i was doing TAG the day before yesterday.. and then i was like.. haiz.. why now God so silent.. testing me huh.. oh well. Then i realised i was like a tree. My roots had to be DEEP DEEP into the ground so that when the storm comes, i won't be swept away. And trees with deep roots normally have trouble finding water. they have to dig deep into the earth for it.
So i'm like.. hmm... that's the same for God. I have to dig and search for Him. So that when the storm comes, i won't be uprooted from Him.
So this is a good thing. =D
Then yesterday's TAG..
ABt how it is not normal to be abused. It is normal to be in God's perfect love. Abt there lar..
Then i suddenly realised that like.. the world is declining morally and so like being open abt sex and all is like the norm now. But juz because like everyone is doing it, does not make something normal. I mean many of us have been blinded by the devil. We lie so much until we think it's normal to lie. "oh lying isn't a big sin". But it's NOT true. It's still a sin.
It is actually normal to have a relationship with God. I mean that's why we were first created. But now.. the world is making it seem like believing in God is a bad thing.
Lying is not the norm.
Stop thinking that it is.
Remember what was initially meant to be the "norm".
Saturday, October 08, 2005
I've juz read 3 chapters of JESUS FrEAK!
Oo... i wanna be a Jesus freak.
Even if it means being rejected by the world.
DUH!
YOu're suppose to be rejected by the world if you are a jesus freak.
When i first read chapter 1 and 2.. i was feeling kinda down... like unhappy abt myself.. unhappy abt the way i've been treating God.. etc.
Then i read chapter 3 and i juz felt happy :D. I found humor in the book. It was like juz HAPPY. or maybe it's joy. i duno.
Oh ya.. forgot to mention..
chap 1 is Believe like a Jesus Freak
chap 2 is Pray like a Jesus Freak
chap 3 is worship like a Jesus Freak
I prayed and read prayed and read.
And i realised that worship is SO POWERFUL.
and i realised that God likes to use "funny" ways to solve our problems.
Like.. he told Joshua and the army to march around Jericho for 7 days. and after that the walls juz crash like that. Sounds kinda ridiculous rite? But this is exactly how God likes to work. Coz it shows how powerful he is. Coz he made what many ppl thought was impossible possible!
Haha.. imagine if you walk around your school for seven days.. then you shout God's name and it comes crashing down. HOHOHO.
Oo... i wanna be a Jesus freak.
Even if it means being rejected by the world.
DUH!
YOu're suppose to be rejected by the world if you are a jesus freak.
When i first read chapter 1 and 2.. i was feeling kinda down... like unhappy abt myself.. unhappy abt the way i've been treating God.. etc.
Then i read chapter 3 and i juz felt happy :D. I found humor in the book. It was like juz HAPPY. or maybe it's joy. i duno.
Oh ya.. forgot to mention..
chap 1 is Believe like a Jesus Freak
chap 2 is Pray like a Jesus Freak
chap 3 is worship like a Jesus Freak
I prayed and read prayed and read.
And i realised that worship is SO POWERFUL.
and i realised that God likes to use "funny" ways to solve our problems.
Like.. he told Joshua and the army to march around Jericho for 7 days. and after that the walls juz crash like that. Sounds kinda ridiculous rite? But this is exactly how God likes to work. Coz it shows how powerful he is. Coz he made what many ppl thought was impossible possible!
Haha.. imagine if you walk around your school for seven days.. then you shout God's name and it comes crashing down. HOHOHO.
Have not been blogging again..
coz of exams and many other stuff.
I've decided to change my skin again after exam.
Well.. now my family's kinda going under a financial crisis.
Maid's gonna go.
Car's gonna go.
SCV's gonna go.
Piano might have to go.
Coz my mom ain't working. n our family have been over spending on lexury items. HOHOHo. even though we're going thru difficult times, i trust that God will see us through. Yep. He probably has some unknown purpose for this. maybe we are suppose to learnt something thru this. I duno. I juz have to wait and watch God's mighty plan unfold.
Anyway, my birthday is coming!! whoot.
haha.. i'm gonna ask my dad to buy me a bag. coz my bag is being torn apart by heavy books. hmm.. maybe the MAs will go camp at the beach. Should be siok.
Duno yet lar.
Let's talk abt my chinese compo.
the topic was fa chen ji ce de na yi tian.
Or.. the day you got back ur result.
I read it as fachen (oneword) XX de na yi tian..
as in .. (direct translation) Happen XX that day.
Coz i didn't know how to read ji and ce. and i thought it was one word.
So after abt 20 mins of searching through the dict, i found the hanyoupinying for it lar.
SO i was wondering.. wad is ji ce? then i look at the meaning of ce.. i couldn't read the first meaning and the second had something to do with happiness.
So CLEVER ME, assumed it as happiness. I thought the title was now happen happy tht day (direct translation). So i wrote abt a wedding.
IMAGINE my surprise when i asked my fren and she said it was the day we got back our ecam paper.
HOW WONDERFUL IS MY CHINESE?
coz of exams and many other stuff.
I've decided to change my skin again after exam.
Well.. now my family's kinda going under a financial crisis.
Maid's gonna go.
Car's gonna go.
SCV's gonna go.
Piano might have to go.
Coz my mom ain't working. n our family have been over spending on lexury items. HOHOHo. even though we're going thru difficult times, i trust that God will see us through. Yep. He probably has some unknown purpose for this. maybe we are suppose to learnt something thru this. I duno. I juz have to wait and watch God's mighty plan unfold.
Anyway, my birthday is coming!! whoot.
haha.. i'm gonna ask my dad to buy me a bag. coz my bag is being torn apart by heavy books. hmm.. maybe the MAs will go camp at the beach. Should be siok.
Duno yet lar.
Let's talk abt my chinese compo.
the topic was fa chen ji ce de na yi tian.
Or.. the day you got back ur result.
I read it as fachen (oneword) XX de na yi tian..
as in .. (direct translation) Happen XX that day.
Coz i didn't know how to read ji and ce. and i thought it was one word.
So after abt 20 mins of searching through the dict, i found the hanyoupinying for it lar.
SO i was wondering.. wad is ji ce? then i look at the meaning of ce.. i couldn't read the first meaning and the second had something to do with happiness.
So CLEVER ME, assumed it as happiness. I thought the title was now happen happy tht day (direct translation). So i wrote abt a wedding.
IMAGINE my surprise when i asked my fren and she said it was the day we got back our ecam paper.
HOW WONDERFUL IS MY CHINESE?
Friday, September 30, 2005
Hohoho. English exam went OK. Not bad lar..
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So as said, i shall blog abt sat's sermon. POWER man.
The difference between Jews and Gentiles...
~ Jews are Jacob's descendents.. Gentiles.. others.
~ Jews are familiar with the things of God. Gentiles with the world.
~ Jews have the promises of God. Gentiles.. none.
~ Jews inherits blessings. Gentiles.. None.
~ Jews accept the truth. Gentiles.. some reject some accept.
From here you can see that Jews by default get all the blessings. It's only later that the gentiles get a chance coz the Jews kept rejecting God.
Jews had unbelief so God wanted to cut them out.
The didn't believe in God's...
~ Power
~ Purpose (reliance on God)
Jew complain to moses while in the desert.
Why was God so passive..? He had a purpose actually.
~ Providence.
God had prepared something ahead. He will provide.
Here.. the equilivant of the Jews... are 2nd generation (or 3rd gen etc.) christians.
We are receiving the blessings of God cause our parents love the Lord. Cause God said he will bless their generations.
The same enemy that was attacking the Jews.. is attacking us now. And he's using the same methods. Temtations.. etc. Coz the methods are effective.
If we cannot see the 3 Ps.. we will be swallowed by the earth.
When the non-believers (gentiles) come into the church.. will we still be around??
You have to choose God yourself.
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So as said, i shall blog abt sat's sermon. POWER man.
The difference between Jews and Gentiles...
~ Jews are Jacob's descendents.. Gentiles.. others.
~ Jews are familiar with the things of God. Gentiles with the world.
~ Jews have the promises of God. Gentiles.. none.
~ Jews inherits blessings. Gentiles.. None.
~ Jews accept the truth. Gentiles.. some reject some accept.
From here you can see that Jews by default get all the blessings. It's only later that the gentiles get a chance coz the Jews kept rejecting God.
Jews had unbelief so God wanted to cut them out.
The didn't believe in God's...
~ Power
~ Purpose (reliance on God)
Jew complain to moses while in the desert.
Why was God so passive..? He had a purpose actually.
~ Providence.
God had prepared something ahead. He will provide.
Here.. the equilivant of the Jews... are 2nd generation (or 3rd gen etc.) christians.
We are receiving the blessings of God cause our parents love the Lord. Cause God said he will bless their generations.
The same enemy that was attacking the Jews.. is attacking us now. And he's using the same methods. Temtations.. etc. Coz the methods are effective.
If we cannot see the 3 Ps.. we will be swallowed by the earth.
When the non-believers (gentiles) come into the church.. will we still be around??
You have to choose God yourself.
Monday, September 26, 2005
Juz finished mugging for science test tmr. I actually MUG!! WOW.
Anway, yesterday i was suppose to go to padang and watch skeleton key lar. Open air wan. Shiok shiok. GO with shalom and my bro lar. Coz sumone from church give my dad tickets to the NOKIA movie thing.
Anyway.. the movie started at 8.30pm but we had to be there by 7.30. Before the movie started they showed trailers lar.. DOOM.. King Kong (haha).. then the skeleton key trailer.
I started to pray during the skeleton key trailer. I kinda realised that it was a mistake for me to come coz i CANNOT watch horror movies or my soul will not have peace (shalom). So i was praying that i won't get scared and stuff. Then i felt like 1 droplet of water.. and another. Then no more..
THEN.. the movie started. AND at the EXACT SAME TIME, if not slightly earlier, it begin to RAIN HEAVILY. Juz suddenly like that. And we were all frantically grabbing our bags.. getting umbrella out and trying to keep dry. So never pay attention to the show. Zhun bo?
Long story short, we went home coz the rain was too heavy and unpredictable to stay.
I was thinking.. like maybe God didn't want me to watch the show. It's about some vodoo doll thing. I mean i didn't even get to see a SINGLE SCENE in the movie. Not even ONE! See how zhun it is?
I was kinda happy that i didn't get to watch. Even though i was all wet with a sandy wet bag and muddy pants. I mean.. i wondered how i would have been able to sleep last night if i had watched. It was like i was giving Satan a chance to frighten me if i had gone for the movie. I realli thanked God that it rained. Also.. like today we had school. By the time i reach home would have been like 11++ if i had stayed to watch then still must bath do TAG etc. Wah.. sleep veri late liao.
I call this DIVINE INTERVENTION. I think it's so cool. Wow.. movie start rain also start. haha..
Haiz.. (this is a contented sigh. haha.)
I'm feeling so much closer to God after sat's sermon.
Resurrected 2nd generation christian.
Nice.
Tml then blog abt the sermon. I juz had to blog abt this first. It was way too cool. Too "co-incidental". Well.. divine intervention. WOW.
Anway, yesterday i was suppose to go to padang and watch skeleton key lar. Open air wan. Shiok shiok. GO with shalom and my bro lar. Coz sumone from church give my dad tickets to the NOKIA movie thing.
Anyway.. the movie started at 8.30pm but we had to be there by 7.30. Before the movie started they showed trailers lar.. DOOM.. King Kong (haha).. then the skeleton key trailer.
I started to pray during the skeleton key trailer. I kinda realised that it was a mistake for me to come coz i CANNOT watch horror movies or my soul will not have peace (shalom). So i was praying that i won't get scared and stuff. Then i felt like 1 droplet of water.. and another. Then no more..
THEN.. the movie started. AND at the EXACT SAME TIME, if not slightly earlier, it begin to RAIN HEAVILY. Juz suddenly like that. And we were all frantically grabbing our bags.. getting umbrella out and trying to keep dry. So never pay attention to the show. Zhun bo?
Long story short, we went home coz the rain was too heavy and unpredictable to stay.
I was thinking.. like maybe God didn't want me to watch the show. It's about some vodoo doll thing. I mean i didn't even get to see a SINGLE SCENE in the movie. Not even ONE! See how zhun it is?
I was kinda happy that i didn't get to watch. Even though i was all wet with a sandy wet bag and muddy pants. I mean.. i wondered how i would have been able to sleep last night if i had watched. It was like i was giving Satan a chance to frighten me if i had gone for the movie. I realli thanked God that it rained. Also.. like today we had school. By the time i reach home would have been like 11++ if i had stayed to watch then still must bath do TAG etc. Wah.. sleep veri late liao.
I call this DIVINE INTERVENTION. I think it's so cool. Wow.. movie start rain also start. haha..
Haiz.. (this is a contented sigh. haha.)
I'm feeling so much closer to God after sat's sermon.
Resurrected 2nd generation christian.
Nice.
Tml then blog abt the sermon. I juz had to blog abt this first. It was way too cool. Too "co-incidental". Well.. divine intervention. WOW.
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