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INSIGHTS AND REFLECTIONS

cry me a riverit' s a call back. i miss those times:( and the hair, a little.

to the one who told me not to ever frown.

thanks.

i hardly know him yet he made my day.

and to the other, thanks for the night messages, yadayada.

weakling,

its unlike drey, really.

livejournal after promos, blogger's irritating untidy and horrendous.

I COULD GET USED TO IT

you've no idea how much secrets i've been keeping,
from everyone far and close.
you've no idea really.
and when you feel like sharing and its exploding in you,
you remembered you cross your heart, and yes hope to die.

guess i had it crashed cos i don't quite believe in what i wrote anymore =/ and just yesterday i walked out of school with my head up and mighty, ogling the stars.
i mananged to count ten but derrick thinks i'm retarded cos he couldn't see any.
awww you've no idea how pretty it is and it made my awful, sunken, miserable, dark and cold day bright.
cheeesee friesss(: and i played with the cute kitten that got me ohhhing and ahhhing. it's called faiz? faziz? faris? i have my own galaxy at night right in my comfort zone with notes from me to you <3
you are just like a stranger and when it comes to shooting stars i've seen a few, but i've never seen anything as beautiful as you <3

wake very morning and thank God for you. silly, yes, but aren't we all silly cos our hearts don't lie. they lie they do but they break like hell

mug hard dear ones, mug hard. love

GOTTA GO MY OWN WAY

do you believe in love at first sight?
it'll be as beautiful as you(:

saturday isn't all that beautiful right?

it's okay cos we've got no memories and we should go our own ways.

i've got to move on from where i dropped.

you're old picture to burn.

new ones have to come in drey, new ones.

till than i have notes to rewrite:(

damn its SINFUL, how i procrastinate.

just yesterday after i left the com at one ;(i wasn't really at the com as usual but i had to turn it off to make me feel better),

i told the dumb me to wake at nine and start making sunday, urm fruitful.

yet here at twelve i did less than an hour of work and here i am. whining.

not cool really, not cool when you're all anxious and uptight but your body seem to not respond.

plus, i can so cut my heart into two and tell you it hurts, from everything that i kept in the safe.

its old news yet the older it is the more you remember no?

on a pretty note yesterday's dinner was nice(: all dutch and i had my raw share of fish which could take the place of sashimi.

still, i love catching almost empty trains and walk the very late night home,

your mind's empty and everything feels good looking the stars home.

and the only thing i have to remember is to msg desmond and anthony when i'm home safe.

unfortunately, i'm always home safe and sound and i always forget to msg whoever everytime.

mauybe i should plan my own spree of nonsense and prob escape from this safe world.

note to self: i miss you terribly

mood's running up and down.

silly how i crave for something suddenly, feel like going somewhere someone, feel like replying.

than again there are times i dont feel like anything above and the silly reasons i give can so foad.

''my phone's in my room'' can so die off.

and seriously chem's killing me you her him.

but like yk said, we've gotta move up tgt. no giving up, not till i die.

what's exams? argh. ballistic that is.

ONLY HEAVEN KNOWS

you can feel it but not see it
like the wind, i'd love you.
like a walk to remember, make your list <3
when someone leaves it makes you upset,
you're motivated,
but somehow, the buts and hows kindda killed me.
dear you, please, take my anxieties away.
so i studied overnight last night at wcp.
i did four sheets of math (that is good right?), all of which had question to kill me:(
home wouldn't produce such results!
all in all was a lovely night, cold wind, some stars, mocha and an pencil genious at hand, drawing. and what is i lost some of my chem notes and he lost a friendship band. bummer
I NEED TO REWRITE MY OWN HANDWRITTEN PERFECT NOTES:(
grumbles, but worms got me laughing. gees loves my hand really(:
promos, they're seven days away:(( maybe my words were all lies.
night beautiful.

HEART'S GONE COLD.

Strong on the outside, inside i'd crumble.can we all stop time and never grow old.
it's heartening to see my pretty ones cry,
but damn she's so strong.
i'd prob split into ashes and flood the town.
maybe it's true, friendship's worth investing, compassionate enough to not hurt you so evidently.
they're all just status, and they make people have their heart broken.
they're all but superficial affection.
what's love?

last time i have to whine,
i crave sashimi!
damn

TIME WILL TELL

time heals what reasons can't...
perfect, from an emo guy.
and yes it does makes sense and it kindda made me feel better(:
thanks you know who reads my blog, don't lie. haahhaa
see, my friends, they're all wonders of my life.and so when i started to pen down....
i guess it didn't help.
hahahaha, this is random please stop thinking i'm in love, heart broken or whatever.
so peanut butter and and cheese fries.
i still want sashimi hokay.

it'll all be over soon(:
three weeks.
still physics at this hour,
till then guys, (shit or isit than? what is i was corrected so many times and i still don't get it?)

WALK DOWN THE YELLOW BRICK ROAD

till i find the answer my heart wants

just last saturday i slept at a whooping three... doing absolutely nothing.
i had my notes right infront of me and the player blasting VERY loudly.

but my mind wasn't quite present and god knows why didnt i decide to go online and have a productive conversation with people who'd could at the right time for now, finally, fill me with something to laugh or sane about.

so all the while i was stoning and lost and down for no rythm or reason and probably wondering where my dumb phone went to;

under the blanks, maybe(again).

and when i finally found it, it was a disappointment.

took random pictures of any tiny thing in my room and they all look significant, forsakened but nicely found.

and than i realised maybe i need the lens, to help me find answers my heart yearns for.

the missing piece that till now, with all the people around me i've no idea who,what,where.

so i fed myself with whatever i can find in the room, and yes i eat alot and i'm always hungry.

right now, i'm frustrated and the hunger gets me wild and i crave for prata and shashimi.

not really prata but shashimi. yes i want shashimi pretty please?

somemore late pictures of the week.

and maybe you'd hear from me after three sweet weeks of no social life and misery.

i promise i won't,

you're right but not right cos my heart lies.

I PROMISE

you feel so lost and not yourself even when you're around people you know by heart,
like something's missing and you don't know what.

night world.
later,
late.

THE JEWELER'S SHOP

I am afraid of love. Am i really afraid of love?What pervades me now is the feeling of love. Yes i see love in your eyes, But i feel fear, fear that's in the future.One ring without the other has no value.

One love cannot be divided into two.Am i ready for love?urm what is love again?so when my hands touched his face, i felt the tinge of peace. so that is love?maybe.you don't know what you got yourself into. i am selfish, full of confidence, full of nonsense and i have no direction. i give sparingly and i think of myself. i fear, i fear, i fear.what you don't know is that the difference brings us closer.leave it in HIS hands,

you'll know <3>
and no i'm not in love. maybe but no.

tell me again what is it i'm after?
the paths, they're taking me down.

BEST I EVER HAD

so you sailed away,
now i'm here to stay,
love can be so boring.the number of times i walked from my room to the kitchen and back and there while studying is atrocious.
considering the fact that my room's pretty far from the kitchen, it's pretty good exercise.
i could so point my pinky (yes pinky) at organic chem. CHEEEESEEEFRIESSS!

ditch my runway,
snatch the notes.

i ought to go jog l8r, i need to lighten up,
and i promise to be up to all good tmr, really.
i shall mug real hard in the early day andd change my mask near early afternoon.
no stress, its an easy job.

breathe out,
i'll breathe you in <3