sispec ):























now i got to work hard to cross over.















too bad then.


-dexter

hello

tmr morning (or rather, later this morning) will be posting.





kinda nervous.



i really miss you.
i dont know if you are too.
\:
you probably dont believe me anyway.
i hate this feeling.











okay, recently, my emotions are running wild.
im not settled on the inside.
im very messed up emotionally.
maybe cuz of the nervousness?
no. probably not.





im struggling to balance my life.
i've noticed that i've become a more carnal person after only 2 mths of army.
yes, i know it's not a good sign.
i repeat: i know.








i cannot get the assurance i want... yet.
haha, dont ask me assurance about what, seriously.
i dont even know how to answer you, if you do ask.

but there are several things i really want to know for sure, but i cannot.
simply because no one is able to tell me for sure at this point of time.
or those who can tell me is unable to.
of course, God can, but i know He doesnt want me to know yet.
at least thats what i feel.

all in all, i am the only one who can determine the certainty of the path that lies ahead of me.
and i really wanna get this path right.
but i REALLY CANNOT DO IT ON MY OWN.
i need You, Jesus........ help.










God, sort me out.
im feeling like a sponge ball being squashed at all sides.
maybe im just exaggerating.








but im happy too!
it's not all emo emo emo.
"oh, dexter, you are so emoooo!!! go delete this post!!!"
"eeee... emo post!! ew!!!"
"there he goes again."


i'm happy cuz ive got great friends to stand by me.
not just my bmt friends.
but more so for ppl like Noel, Honghwee, Joyce, Char, KS and Leonard.
they keep me going and i thank God i have them in my life.












im a complicated dead knot,
figuring myself out.
and i'm sure you know how heart-wrenchingly-frustrating it is to untie a stubborn knot >(






goodbye.
good night.



-dexter

hello.


pop loh.
picture: zulu 02/08 - pl 2 , sect 2.


yes, our SectCom ORDed.








okay,
20th june we'll see where God puts me in NS.



i love you guys.
had alot of fun with ya'll zulu platoon 2.



God bless you all,
and all the best for the rest of your NS life.







thank You Jesus, for giving me friends i can have fun and rely on in times where things get tough.





love,
-dexter

hello.




oh, i only booked out like 9 plus pm last night.
just woke up.
beautiful sunday morning.
it's june.
10 more days to POP.





i really hope i get into OCS even though i only got a pass for IPPT.
stupid 1 more pull-up to silver.





I CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO CHURCH.
AND MEET ALL THOSE WHOM I LOVE.





Love God,
Love people,
Love life.





though i'm in NS,
i'm still an on-fire Christian
and will never stop being proud of that fact.





(:



Love,
-dexter