i want to tell you about the love that got away
the kinda love that never stays
where you seem emotionally unavailable
you think it's hard to handle.

i wish i could tell you magic is real
that it helps and it heals
it could be true if you believe
rainbows and butterflies do exist

hide the ugliness behind this veil
the pretense behind the mask
facades beneath your face
don't ever let your feelings surface

remain in the dark
cause it's safer there
safer when you can't see anything
you sit in the dark, waiting for someone to bring a light.

happy bday :)

it's my friend's birthday.
and she's one of the best damn things i have in my life.

(i think it's supposed to sound much nicer than how i wrote it).

happy birthday pandi.
you've always been family to me.
shalu and you, both :)

few would understand
some might
how it flares up when we meet
combustible, we are
together, not too far
threat to each other
we hate one another
grow sick of this
stay apart
save our hearts
... ... ... ...
then we do it all over again.

captain jack sparrow .. not.

Hello Gayathri Nair. This is for you; for calling me one-eyed. tsktsk..

The cap looks nice though..

the girls

met up with criz for a last minute dinner ((: from the moment that she saw me, till the end of the night, criz filled me up with gossips, scandals, juicy information and all the other words associated with such material :p man, she's just up to date with everything. not to mention, she meets the wackiest people!

we wenta BK, how i miss it so.. we thought someone had actually "choped" the table with a copy of the New Paper.. oh wells, we took that table anyway :p

criz rocks. really... you have no idea how much! :D
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and then i was off to meet gayathri nair! ((: we wenta liang court's mac. why? not because gaya was hungry but because she was feeling greedy (in her own words)! can you believe it, i've never tried that chicken foldover thingy.. just felt it was something similiar to a chapati with a chicken patty inside. so my wonderful friend kindly shared her dinner with me and it was good! haha..

shalu joined us after that.. poor child was 'disturbed' by people sitting at the bridge.. haha..
and then it was off to a very interesting night. HAHA..

we saw adawiyah :)
and we saw lijuan!!

it isnt easy typing when you've only one eye for use. so i can't figure out what i'm typing..
the weekends should be fun.. so i'll update again ((:

TGIF? i've class in the evening!!

the weekends!

the bestfriend's the nicest 15 year old kid i know! she rocks my life! hahaa.. and her tamil is the cutest! "sandei poda poriyaa, naaye!" :p bestfriend, nee kallu lah.. yesterday was sucha blast.

speaking of yesterday, we celebrated 2 of my uncles' birthdays at bestfriend's house. hemma made oatmeal cookies ---- with M&Ms!! :)) i want more! god, we had so much to eat. it shouldnt even be allowed! sinful.. i felt really bad cause prakie couldnt eat chicken nuggets since he's taking some TCM for his ezcema & chicken wld interfere with his medicine. poor boy.

satheeshh is our "molu molunu yamma yamma" :p (that's a tamil song by the way). he sports a new hairstyle and is absolutely adorable and terribly sarcastic. life's good, dudeee! :))

saturday was a long day. met sajeetha for a couple of hours just to catch up. it's always nice to meet her. she's like a truckload of information. haha..

had to head for research methods class after that and it was pretty good. wow. afterwhich saravanan was sucha nice soul and agreed to meet me earlier for our movie date. no, no, not OUR movie date, shan's also part of the date! :p anyway we caught "journey to the center of the earth". i liked it. and i can't wait to catch the 3D version at the end of the year.

so after the movie, we had dinner. and in the midst of topic about changing names, saravanan decided to call me "june" cause shan was contemplating to keeping her english name as claudia or december (shan's a december baby). saravanan, being a gundu like always, doesnt even know when my bday is (and he was there at my party anyway!). so february was being lame (yes, that's the gundu) and shan and i started calling him names of vegetables. are we the silliest? we had a fun cab ride home ((: [thanks to shan for the pics.. i shd thank her new hp instead; omnia!]

friday was a good day too. why? cause i met gayu3 and shalu after my class :D

both of them are so animated. okay i am too and hemma is right abt indians speaking with their hands! we were talking abt boob jobs and how to differentiate them and i didnt realise i was using hand gestures. i think gayathri was more embarrassed than me :p and shalu's the funniest, hahahhaa.. her tamil is in a league of its own, just like bestfriend's.. but it's cute.. headed back home with her and i was constantly entertained in the train by shalu's singing, how lucky huh? :p

i want a bicycle. i don't mind a vespa but i've no license for that.

well i don't mind a car but i've no money for petrol.

a very good friend told me once, years before (when i was 13 0r 14); "don't doubt your friendships" and for some strange reason this phrase was stuck in my mind, even till today.

and so.. i'm sorry i havent been listening to it.
but i try to. i really do.

you know what's a bad day?

it's when you've shampoo-ed and conditioned your hair and go out to meet someone.
and end up running in the rain on your way back.

arghdamnit
%#$^&*%$#$^^&*$#@!!!!

i'm updating.. on my life. last week was a blast. apart from that vile assignment that was submitted on monday. but last week, i repeat, was great. i met up with friends, i made linguine that turned out, kinda uncooked, i had great food with gayathri and got teased about not being able to use the chopsticks, i had APPLE STRUDEL, i had yakun kaya (i love!), i had clodhoppers (is that how they r spelt?). basically a friend intro-ed me to great food. hahaha..

and i'm a deejay. but i'll just call myself Siv. thank you.

had weekend classes. learning and motivation. prof is great. she looks like a rockclimber but we found out that she does yoga. does wonder.. now i'm really motivated.

headed to hemma's house on sat evening. bestfriend jumped to my defences again (: lovely child. hemma's started school and getting lost in campus :p hey maybe you can hang out with the boon lay boys. haha..

i like shopping with Es. but i've yet to get my jacket. and i like singing hindi songs with nadiah and complaining about my bad hair days and she'll tell me she's having a bad tudung day :p
and doris is the funniest.

but now, now, now, i miss shalu. i'm seeing her tmr for breakfast ((:
life's good.

A Quote

i just wanted to share a meaningful quote with you guys. i chanced upon it months ago and understood it straight away. i have an issue about understanding complex sentences but this differed. so here it is. it's by Carl Jung, a Swiss psychiatrist and the founder of analytical psychology. he had actually worked with Freud.


"There are as many nights as days,
and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course.
Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness,
and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning
if it were not balanced by sadness."


makes sense? yes? good (: