the evasiveness of siv

light da candles.

happiest 20th birthday to juan :)

da one who's always annoying me, bullying me, ignoring me when i talk to her, passing sarcastic comments, but still such a great friend to have all these wonderful years =)

happy 22nd birthday to my brother!
da klown who dances with his liverpool tee and talks to it during a match. da one who always makes everyone laugh in hysterics. siblings aren't perfect, they usually annoy the hell outta you but for a good part in your life, they also make you smile and laugh and irritate you over which football club is better. oh wells, family! :)

thanks for the anger.

time check: 11:17pm.

my eyes feel like they're burning. whats new eh.
its been a good day, murukku mania at home. but as the night approached, i found myself thinking abt the conversation between vanisha and me last thursday.

dass, you could be right about what you said to me. i should feel angry about it. why i did not deserve the trust, why i had not heard abt the issue from the person and why i was probably still being kept in the dark.

i've given this matter so much thought that it just tires me out. like i've said previously, you can have as many good/close friends as you want but you are allowed to have secrets and choose who you want to share them with. and thus, i have reasoned with myself that none of my close friends HAVE to tell me whats going on in their lives, who entered, who left, etc.
yes, it wld be nice if they did. it wld probably show that they trust me, they need someone to listen and talk to. but not everyone's like that. for some reason, this person didnt... what can i say, share some issues with me. and i would be lying if i said that it did not hurt, that i hid my surprise when it was mentioned.

i don't know why this happened. it's still there i guess, a part of me, just that it has been overlooked, rather repressed and ignored. it wld not really change what i feel towards the person, a very very good friend of mine. however, i would be careful of my next step. it's a land mine out there. i realised.

there's no anger. none at all.
just this tiny bit of disappointment.
the feeling of being let down.
which will prolly dissipate.

anyway, how can i be angry when vanisha displayed all that anger for me? :)

work, life, laughter

these titles never make sense. haha how random-fied (all these words ending with -fied have been influenced by divya). anyways, work's over. gonna miss da kids. haha.. esp at coral sec, great bunch really. nice school :)

removing da banner from acs barker. sam gave up on it :p

coral sec! thats da erm, whats it called? tic tac toe booth.. where u gotta answer qns related to smoking. i'm an expert now, from playing the game over and over and over again :) the kids just love to flip the boxes and help me hook da qns up. such nice kids..

the bestest supervisor-cum-friend-cum-mentor-cum-unicycle freak! carolyn! i got a video of her trying out da unicycle. she catches on damn fast. will tryta post it :p haha..

"be cool, don't smoke". we went crazy with the ink stamps. sorry, it seemed fun, even the kids loved it.

deepavali fever is officially here! more like cookies fever. look guys, its kuih makmur! nava chithi and i did it all by ourselves. it turned out like .... KUIH MAKMUR! the thing is that, chithi has never done it before and the only experience i had, was helping out another aunty last year. so its an achievement for both of us. chithi, we have passed! hahaa.. such fun, honestly. even divya came over to help. but like what chithi said, divya's kuih makmur turned out to be like the rabbit sweet. muahaha.. :p LOL-FIED !!

breakfast with uncle and hemma on sat. lunch with the rest of the family and off to ikea for curtain shopping! sadly, no curtains for me. all for divya's, hemma's rooms and the living room. divya wanted pink, HOT pink. she's just bimbotically pinkified.

thank god she settled for a better colour. woots!

yeap, posing with household items are the latest in thing.. madness..

gotta run!! mum's calling for lunch...

so the week goes..

hello cyberspace. i been missing, have i?
life's been good. the BEST FRIEND rocks. haha.. - bows to divya.
she helped me change my blogskin. why is it that kids nowadays are so much better at it than us older youths? hmm..

caught up with friends. esp shan cynthia and mabel :) excellent. shan's room warming party, which wasnt really a party cause only mabel and i were there. but i had fun watching HSM2. haha.. and yes, met up with premma along with shan and cynthia.

watching HSM2 at shan's place. everytime i look at vanessa hudgens, i'm reminded of her nude photographs, not that i saw them, but just that it was pretty unexpected of her. well, we shd stop having expectations of media personalities. yeap.

caught up with fid terry uzair min and eileen on sunday. fid looks absolutely fit! :) in great shape, all thanks to his trainings. i gotta catch up with him!

our very own "wentworth miller", terry lee :)

am i the only idiot who carries a bouquet of flowers in a paper bag? i suppose so. didnt wanna be seen with them. haha.. they were for hemma.

Happy 18th Birthday to you!! (yday) her friend and i managed to pull a surprise on her. nice nice..

THE best friend with my cap. she looks so cute, doesnt she? haha.. the kind soul :)) - sings best friend theme song :p

work was at acs barker this morning. thats sam, after we hung the banner. work was good. tiring though. working da whole week. cheers to money!

fedora thoppi. ennaku vendum.
but like what sajeetha asked "where would you wear it to?"
me, "erm, to my family parties"
sajeetha, "everyday got parties issit?"

i would wear it out with you, sista.
walk with me, and everyone would associate you with me.
haha.. fame and recognition :p

a love so bright
it hurt my eyes
made me blind

HAHA. enna oru kavidhai?!

us 3

shalu & i. "we complement each other" - as quoted by shalini :) its been over a month since i last met her and it was really fun catching up with one another at boat quay's tcc.. ranjan, gayathri, shalu & i.. madness.

SHE LOVES ME. its all over da photograph! :p
ranjan didnt wanna take photos. cause he's partly bald. haha.. can't wait for the meet-up.
such fun.

always behind me ; family.

hello there. marvellous day isn't it? just the exception of the extremely hot weather here in sunny island. for once i wish we have the 4 seasons. at least it would give us a reason to wear fur coats (?!) and blazers and wool jackets. (poor sheeps).

just to digress away from the weather, it has been an unfortunate weekend. so many bad news, everything at once. it's a question worth asking, "can a person really handle everything at once?" as pessimistic as i wanted to be, as the situation was, some really great people made my weekend a blast.

family's family. i owe it all to them.

to hemma, divya, kavitha, nava chithi, bala uncle, mum, dad, brother, arasi athai, sens, kalah sis, saravanan bro, sabrina anni and mr happiness, thank you for the smiles and laughter.

lets get away from sad stuff, it was chithi's bday on 6th oct sat. so we went over to celebrate!

The BEST aunty lah. Together with Kumutha athai :)

The BEST bunch :)

no matter how good friends u are, u are allowed to have secrets and u choose whoever u wanna tell it to.

Could we but draw back the curtain,
That surrounds each others lives,
See the naked heart and spirit;
Know what spur the action gives;
Often we would find it better,
Purer then we think we would.
We would love each other better,
If we only understood.

- only to find that the author is unknown.