work and friends..

madness in the bus, with chen meanyi :)) much-missed.

lower primary carnival at SNG.. such fun with the little ones (:

ms criz and meanyi! criz, always being the level-headed, sensible one who's helped me out!
if i'm the id, she's the super ego! putting us together, makes us the ego!

the sky is blue.. i wonder why..
minyi's artistic photo taking skills.. =)

its been boring and its been dull not to mention mundane and all things related ever since the guys have been enlisted. esp fid and uz i guess. havent met them for ages.

i need to stop taking photos at mrt stations and such crowded places. okay good.

now i'll look forward to the 23rd singapore french film festival.

and to earning more cause i need to pay for a bloody summon.

wtf..

we won. what else matters.

yesyesyes. for all you non-man u supporters who just love to shoot your mouth; we won. we're 2nd in the league table. that's not bad for starters.

i wldnt go out of my way to criticize liverpool or chelsea or arsenal, but i know people who love to do that. don't, cause it irritates me and other supporters as well. do yourself a favour and don't sound like a sore loser.

and yes, i agree that the sending off of john obi mikel was harsh. and perhaps the late penalty too. luck always plays a part though. but, we did play the better game. no doubt about it. next week we're facing birmingham who managed to draw with pool on saturday. who knows what could happen then yea.

for now, i'll bask in man utd's win :)

i hate to sound so mushy and all that.. but well, it can happen once in a blue moon, the blue moon was yesterday, resulting in the previous blog post..

so wells.. vespa, tattoo.. what more? life's good. but first, i must be a BLOODY MUGGER.
ciaoz!

meaningful.

we meet lots of people. some become our friends, some may not. some may disappear after few years and some, you know they could possibly stick around for the rest of your life, or to sound less dramatic, for a long long time :)

it's pretty tough to maintain friendships, relationships over years. i mean, there are factors that play a part in it. people get bogged down by their personal issues, work commitment, relationships, lack of time (though its said to be more of an excuse). and there are special people who truly take the time and effort to make a simple phone call or a text message or go the extra mile to arrange a meet-up over lunch or dinner.

i'd love to say that all my close friends are still my close friends over the years. of course not, lah! i could say i lost certain close friends, friends who i was closest to back in the earlier years. somehow, you also lose the closeness with friends who you could STILL be in close contact with. don't you think? say, you meet up regularly and etc, but some times, there is this distance between y'all. it sounds a bit movie-fied, well the media overplays everything. but i hope you understand what i'm talking about.

my friends, are still my friends, no matter if we're still in touch, or not. if they need help, i would help to the best of my ability. we might not have met for years or even talked for years, but there's no reason why i shouldnt offer you help or why you cant turn to me if you need help, yes? right. so there.

and maintaining friendships can be rather tiresome at times. there's this friend of mine, who always always always arranges for us to meet, go through the trouble of contacting the group of us, arranging for a nice place etc etc etc over the years. it's frustrating when people don't reply messages or reply too late. there can be so many excuses not to meet up. beneath it all, shan you're doing a great job in keeping all of us together and i really really appreciate it alot. every time we meet up, i just feel comfortable and contented. i'm glad we still stuck it out. although we can't meet up at times or have problems with this and that, we manage to somehow get to each other and be there. it's a solid friendship i'm glad we're having. it means tremendously alot although i don't really say it out that often.

juan, you're one of the most special person around. and i mean it when i say being around you makes me feel secure. i'm saying it in a good way, you idiot! you're a CARE BEAR, quite literally, i mean the "care" part, Not the "bear" okay?! you are one of the most loyal and trustworthy friend anyone could ever have and i mean what i said to you today at the prata house.. if you still rmbr lah! stop being so negative about yourself. let's go riding soon aight :)

zihui, crazily uttering words at an incredible speed when you're riled up.. you still are the same old girl i used to know back when we were pretty young and silly all the adjectives you could use to describe teenagers. it's great being in touch with you, again and yes, we will meet up more. oh ya, we're like the same height you know. don't say you're short, say you're petite! :)

always felt that somehow i lost the gift of writing. glad to know there are people who bring it out. and yeap, beautiful extended family that i am thankful for. aunts, uncles, cousins. blessed, i am.

for the people i've yet to meet up and stuff, don't worry, we're still friends, and we'll catch up soon. let's not regret not spending more time together while we could have. till death do us apart.. maybe even beyond that.

goodnight.

what do i call this? hmm..

class 95fm plays the best songs after 12am..
sing-a-long session.. woots..

thanks for dinner, khorkiee and leon.
nice and meaningful, talking to you both.
thank you for being able to make it today,
and for replying my sms-es.
appreciate it alot.

goodnight world.

mouse, please go see a doctor aight?

he scored, but he was humble about it.

cristiano ronaldo scored the only goal during this morning's uefa champions league match against sporting lisbon, his former club. the match started out like a replay of liverpool and porto; boring! but things got better in the 2nd half. with wes brown's accurate cross to ronaldo in the penalty area, it was a simple low diving header that put the ball into the net. woots! and ronaldo celebrated his goal in a rather apologetic manner, which i can understand, his former club that groomed him for 7 years. very humble, very respectful. and when he was substituted at the 84th minute or so, sporting fans applauded him off the pitch. wow.. true show of sportsmanship.. =)

anyways, arsenal won sevilla 3-nil, impressive indeed. and as we all know, liverpool and chelsea both drew their matches. man utd has yet to score more than once in their games. EDWIN VAN DER SAR is my man of the match. wonderful saves. if not for him, man utd would haf lost, i guess. next fixture would be against dynamo kiev... and then as roma..

mourinho's left chelsea.. speculations that he has been fired. i'm gonna miss him as much as i hate chelsea. he is an entertaining manager, and he was the reason for chelsea's title wins for the past 2 season, before man utd. ayeee.. who's gonna take the very hot seat?

vroom goes the vespa
riding the days away
bliss it is.



it's a haiku!
cause i can't think of anything else to write.

woots! just got a call from mr.uzbourne.. there's just so many things to do today.. i cancelled out on shopping with kavi cause i'm coughing like a mudderfadder, there's work at 4, which means i'm gonna miss man utd's match (damn) and the guys are meeting at bugis. sighhh..

lets digress.. england has qualified for euro 2008. they seem to do doing better without beckham and lampard and hargreaves, rooney, lennon.. mclaren shd continue using owen-heskey.


winning israel 3-nil.


winning russia 3-nil. another woots!

croak..

bowling at csc with uz, benson and arif. can't wait to see newly improved uz. book outtttt....

mind's cafe with shan, mabel, cynthia and gj. laugh-fest.

short films with leen. when's the next film fest? i can't wait..


i can't talk, i can't sing, i doubt i sound remotely human. actually i do.
speedy recovery me, please.

mr uz been enlisted.. its pretty saddening for me but i know he was looking forward to it. prolly the only person on earth who is happy to serve ns. well, here's to losing weight and getting tougher and learning lotsa fun stuff. see ya when you book out.

maddeningly sick. had the mother of all headaches and really thought i was on the verge of dying. drama mama. i'm alive, much to your dismay. today was a slumber day, thats what i been doing alllllll day. yday on the other hand, was a nicer day. hairsprayed with kavi, shopped for clothes at peninsula and dinner and movie at aunty ron's place. sorry for not finishing the pizza, lost my appetite totally..

sunday was a blast. from sin ming to jurong to towner to armenian street and back home.
i think it was the hot fudge sundae (with EXTRA hot fudge) that made me sick :(

my man utd poster has reached singapore. guess what, i saw it at peninsula for $11.90 while i spent $23 buying it online. how smart can i get? i wanna take a trip to pasir ris or play soccer with the boys in chua chu kang.. i think i'll just do both.

hemma-the-highly-useful has passed a nice poem to me.. which was passed to her by ANNAN SIRRRRR! :p anyways, the content of the poem makes a lot of sense, and it's true. guity as charged.

Have you ever watched kids On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done

Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down

Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child, We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste, Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time To call and say,"Hi"

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short. The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift.... Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

and something else, taken from her lit text:

there are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads.
Afraid, confused, without a road map.

The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.
Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.

But once in a while, people push on to something better.
Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone,
and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in,
or to give someone a second chance.

Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream.
Because it's only when you're tested that you truly discover who you are.

And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be.
The person you want to be does exist,
somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief.
And beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead.


life. it's like this.

speaking out

hello there. amidst some ramblings about time that was spent crazily with friends and family, there has not been any much of an update about my life. well i doubt the netizens would be any interested to read about it anyway. even though i have logged in to blog something, for once worthwhile, i do not seem to have the ability to structure the thoughts and feelings coherently. blame it on exhaustion or simply blame it on the lost capability of stringing together words that might truly reflect how i'm feeling. so now you're left with wondering if i'm really conscious and sane when i'm typing this. of course, if you have read about our psychodynamic theorist mr freud, you would say that everything sorta happens unconsciously. yes, that's probably my "id" being present right now.

many of you would have read about sigmund freud's structural theory which explains about the "id", "ego" and "super-ego". for those of you who have not, let me give you a summary.
His theory is basically based on consciousness vs unconsciousness (correct me if i'm wrong!).

The "id" is fully unconscious and it acts upon the repressed feelings during consciousness.

The "ego" is mostly conscious and deals with reality.

The "super-ego" is basically our conscience, dealing with morality etc.

i was just thinking through, suppose a person is being in his "id" role. (oh, a baby is in the id stage, as it acts on its instinctive drives and needs and needs immediate satisfaction etc; the pleasure principle). so well, going back to my point ... isn't it an awful and scary thought if we were to be ruled only by our "id"? if so, all of us would act upon our repressed feelings, acting upon our primary drives like sex and hunger and anger. being immoral, egocentric and being illogical. how would that be? how would everyday life function if we were to be ruled only by our "id"?

as i came across in a television programme, "we all have feelings. that doesn't mean we have to act upon them" ... or something like that.


hemma would prolly come up with something good to answer the questions i've posed in this entry. ehh, can you just create a blog and write something useful, haha.. look who's talking eh.. =)

chunky monkey!

happy birthday to jeevas clan's very own CHUNKY MONKEY Prakash! :))
he turns 10 today and i hope he gets everything he wishes for, cause actually, he's a very adorable boy, making everyone laugh by saying some nice comments abt his lovely sis :p

I LOVE YOU! :D

what have i gotten myself into? lord, this assignment is tough. okay maybe i'm not competent enough to complete it. blame it on complacency, blame it on being too last-minute. wells, nothing's new isnt it? okay, i have to hand this up on wednesday and i'm left with 2 more long answer questions. ayeee. i cannot wait for wednesday night to be over. lord help me help myself.