God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

The PrataLover and De One & Only

Managed to complete HRM interview today. Went very well i guess.
Eileen thinks Mr.Edmund reminds her of someone back in school. Why does she always find resemblances to almost everyone but never rmbrs who they are? Okay we'll skip that.

So we managed to complete our interview in an hour 45 minutes. which was 12:45pm. my car prac was at 4:40pm. so i had hours to kill. slacked at kallang mac, listening to songs on my lappadappa, having a Happy Meal cause i was feeling happy, taking photos, talking cock, drooling whenever beckham was shown on the telly, having serious talks with Leen, having crap talks with Leen, singing songs, providing entertainment to every1 in that mac. haha.. and so on lah.. it was fun..

took a long journey to ssdc. benny was alr there. prac was okay lah. kinda nice. had a new instructor with an interesting name. haha.. slope sucked but i made it thru somehow. then we went out for our routine drive. it was good. although the car was pretty old, with not much of power-steering, it was pretty easy to control. just had to step pretty hard on the accelerator and brake. driving is damn fun, like what bro said. =) i am happy when i drive. cause i have the control. saw Deen at the interchange. talked to him.. and went back home. its been a damn long day. a sad day, cause the spanish are outta da world cup. they played well, but the french played a better game. kudos to zidane, viera, ribery and sagnol were impressive.. but so were casillas, ramos and fabregas. i think they played well. but spain has alot of young players. perhaps they lack the experience unlike veteran playas like zidane, viera, thuram, henry and barthez. well, anyway, it'll be brazil against france next. the winner of that match will be facing the winner of england and portugal match. haha.. good game. let's root for either italy or argentina lah.

shalu is heartbroken that spain is out. and yes, what exactly was torres doing on the pitch?
horrible.

anyway, mum opened the bottle of clabernet sauvignon, if thats how its spelt. haha.. and we had a glass of it. toast to you mummy! haha.. i dun really like it. drinkin isnt me. i will leave it to my darling kudikaari (drinking) friend! haha. no prize for guessing who!

i wanna watch beauty and the geek on star world. okay ciao then..

kapo-ed this from Jac's blog! haha..

Name 20 ppl u can think of right now. Don't read the questions until you've named the 20 ppl.

1. Gaya
2. Shalu
3. Eileen
4. Dawn
5. Criz
6. Minyi
7. Shan
8. Cynthia
9. Ranjan
10. Neshie
11. Terry
12. Nett
13. Premma
14. Benny
15. Juan
16. Uzair
17. Hemma
18. Divya
19. Kavii
20. Kumaran

How did u meet #14 (Benny)?
Erm, during nyp's freshmen orientation lah! he was just so friendly. haha..

What would u do if u didnt meet #1 (Gaya)?
I can just die!! She brightens up my days! But i wldnt be as mad as i am now lah. haha..

What if #9 (Ranjan) and #20 (Kumaran) dated?
OMG. that is just WRONG. they love women too much to date each other..

Would #6 (Minyi) and #17 (Hemma) make a good couple?
They prolly wld but they wld scream and make each other turn deaf. so why do that?

Describe #3 (Eileen)
ahhh.. she doesnt look like it, but she has a very colourful personality. she's a little bit of this and a little bit of that. wonderful girl. she makes me laugh, now she's beginning to laugh like me!
she's de one and only lah!

Is #8 (Cynthia) attractive?
Yes! She has a rock solid personality and she's just great to hang out with. And she's looking great these days! Haha..

Describe #7 (Shan)
One of my singing partners in sec sch! crazy, cute, sensible and just a wonderful little girl! she loves elmo lah.. haha..

Do you know any of #12 (Nett) family members?
Is her dog Spot counted?! i've met her dad. that's abt it lah. i miss her by da way!

What would you do if #18 (Divya) confess to you that he likes you?
Divya? my bestfriend of course loves me! haha. thats a well known fact!

What language does #15 (Juan) speak?
Good english, singlish, chinese. i taught her tamil back in sch but i doubt she can rmbr!

Who is #9 (Ranjan) going out with?
HAHAHA!! he goes out with Gaya pretty often. is that counted?!! haha..

How old is #16 (Uzair)?
He is 19! Just 1 week younger than me! :)

When is the last time you spoke to #13 (Premma)?
Hmm.. the evening of april 8 this year. she called me before i went for deeps' bday party.
its been a long time yeah..

Who is #2 (Shalu) fav band/singer?
Shalzinie likes too many singers and bands lah. if you ask which soccer playa is her fav, i wld haf said it in a flash. this qn is too difficult! Prolly her fav singer is SIVAN!

Would you ever date #4 (Dawn)?
Yeap! we do meet up often for dinner/drinks. she's data-ble. she's a great girl!

Would you ever date #1 (Gaya)?
Ya duh. we're always asking each other out! haha.. she's one fun monkey to be with!

Is #15 (Juan) single?
Yeap i suppose so. why is that so? she's another great girl! all the great girls are single! haha..

What's #10's (Neshie) last name?
Kumar! i guess.. Dinesh Kumar! i dunno his full name! oppsy. he didnt tell me.

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11 (Terry)?
Terry is a great and funny guy to be with. He's a good catch lah. See if i can 'reel' him in! Haha!

School of #3 (Eileen)?
NYP

Where does #6 (Minyi) live?
Balmoral Park? i think.. sounds something like that. its somewhere in town lah.. haha. rich kid.

What's your fav thing abt #5 (Criz)?
The fact that she makes me laugh, dancing for nuts, getting high on absolutely nth, being a great biatch to be with! i love crizzie wizzie Boo!!

Have you seen #2 (Shalu) naked before?
Nah.. i wldnt want to. hahaha.. i wldnt wanna see any1 naked for that matter!


Thats all!!!

Any time with you is Fun time!

Gaya-mangamma and me! god whatta name! sorry gaya, didnt mean to embarrass u like that. anyway u have finally sent me the pics we took last week! good girl. its nice! how come we always look good when we take pics together? hahaha.. i loveeeee youuuu pandi!

 

its about you

quick one before i get outta ma house..

never knew how special you would turn out to be
how special you are to me
if love grows, this is how it should be?
i had no expectations from you
yet you been there all these while,
silent and strong
sometimes silly and full of songs
i love you with all i have
oh yes!

and if anyone tries ta hurt you,
well .. let em just try!

David bent it like Beckham!

LOVE IS BECKHAM..
BECKHAM IS LOVE !!

 

Sontha kadhai, soaga kadhai..

Eh, the title's in Tamil.. so pardon me if you don't understand.
SHALZINIE, do you understand what i've written?! Haha.. Okay i know your tamil aint that bad. Its just funny when you speak tamil to me. But its funny in a good way. So thats good.
Anyway, my dear Shalzinie is sick, she has caught the football fever, literally. So she's sick. Haha.. But that sweetie girl accompanied me via phone when i was freaking bored and alone in nyp's free access lab on thursday. Gaya also called. So they ended up entertaining me lah. For an hour plus. Thanks people, my batt went FLAT after that! haha.. and it chose to die on me when my mum called! what a timing!

anyway, nyp's first floor free access lab is fucking cursed. damn it, i lost another thumbdrive there. just 3 weeks after i bought it. damn damn damn. and i didnt realise till 3 days after i left it there.
so duh, by the time i went back to look for it, it was GONE. why can't nice souls be in nyp and return something that they actually find?! i was cursing whoever took my thumbdrive. i feel like hemma! haha.. after she lost her mp3 playa. but bala uncle bought her another mp3. my parents dun even know i lost mine. of course, dad prolly doesnt even know i have one. well ya. so, i asked yuanzhi to get another for me since he's at sim lim. benson's so nice, he called and asked me which kind i want. seems theres one that is password enabled. and its $42, just $5 more than the normal one, 512mb. although technology helps us, if it gets too complicating, it just hinders us; i'm sure eileen agrees. so ya, i asked benson to get the normal one. i feel like i'm throwing money. i feel so bad. all those eating out sessions, shopping sessions (mom paid for me for my last shopping spree), losing stuff so carelessly and getting em replaced. sigh. dad saw my debit card bank statement and said i'm spending alot. actually it was $200 for 2 months lah. i can point out people who actually spend a thousand on a couple of days, haha.. Criz, you know who right?! Our dear "Chin Chai"!!! hahaha.. i'm so mean... wait, i'm not mean, SHE is mean! :)

met annie on thursday at prata house. with eileen and benny. was good seeing her.. she has become so generous (not that she wasnt lah!) she offered to treat us to prata. but well, we didnt accept. haha.. went for a drink then. chose some horrible drink. i dun think gin martini is my kinda drink. nice benny swaped his drink with me. =) Bunny is so nice! haha.. anyway, i'm getting sick of drinking. not that i'm some kudikaari (Gaya!!!) but well, just don't find anything nice in that. even when i drank at kk's bbq. sigh.. anyway, we left after our drink, and i accompanied eileen to her bus stop.. the bus took forever to come.. so we played our fav game; the Song Game! i wished criz was there! God, i miss Criz!! oh, we were trying to imitate her way of sayin hello. u shd hear how she does it! its damn cute. haha.. Biatch i miss you!

wednesday was dinner with Gayathri.. she's so flexible. we're supposed to meet on thurs, but thurs eileen asked me out, so i told gaya and she said she's free on wednesday! haha.. so thomson road we went. anyway, i had a blast of a time with gaya alone. usually its with manjen Ranjan and/or Shalzinie. but we both MISSED shalzinie.. we missed her so much that we wrote her name in the feedback form! :) laughed like mad dogs.. i was caught up with the lcd tv showing soccer!! hahaha.. that place is heaven!! soccer heaven! yes shalu, we shd catch a match one day. but now all the matches being played are at 11 or 3.. crazy ah.. my mum and dad would freak out if i say i wanna go out at that time. haha.. haiyohhh..
anyway, Gayathri Nair, u r damn bad.. u tag manjen's blog more than mine! i think i have more to talk abt! dun be biased can! naye! and thanks for wed. it was freaking fun. haha.. and our walk just to find a toilet. god, anytime spent with u is great. just dont make me laugh till i wanna throw up! idiot! i love love love you!!! :)))

been seeing benny for 6 times this 2 weeks. haha.. cause of our pracs.. but i'm not complaining. prac has been fun. i actually booked an instructor. its $8.40 man. so steep.. sigh. but i wanted that particular instructor. he's damn nice and patient and soft-spoken and he makes me laugh when i'm driving! haha. i actually feel confident and comfortable when i'm driving with him. i think i dun like loud and strict instructors, cause they remind me of dad. i swear if dad makes noise when i'm driving, i'm gonna just crash. i can't drive under EXTREME pressure. hhaha.. anyway dear Min is back from HK. met up with her after her prac.. haha.. i kinda missed the noise.. but i enjoyed the peace! opps..

had a bloody headache last night.. tryin to finish up the entre ica2 report. corresponding with criz over gmail and sending our accomplishments back and forth. aye.. i cant wait for it to be over.. have yet to start on coaching ica. another headache lah. HRM ica2 is progressing smoothly, thank goodness.. oh ya, speaking of HRM, kelvin my team mate is a nice fella. haha.. generally nice lah. yeap. great.

met dawn for a while last evening. she came down all da way just to pass me a gift.
spoke to her while waiting for the bus home. she looks great.. and she was making me laugh. i gotta catch up properly with her soon. and juan, shan, san, cynthia, mabel, adelyne and every1 else lah.

k i really gotta go.. sens is disturbing me!! and making me laugh..
basically he's soughting my help to get new songs.. he's quite outdated. haha..

Do it the Fernando way..

Leading the world cup 2006 with the second highest number of goals scored is Spain's
Fernando Torres, with 3 goals in the tournament, and more to come.
This 22 year old player is to be watched out! Hahaha.. Impressive player..
He's 22! But oh well, Fabregas is 19!! These players are getting younger and younger..
Look at Walcott, he's 17. Yet to see him perform for England. Btw, as predicted, England's meeting Ecuador and Sweden will be facing the host nation; Germany. Let's bid Sweden goodbye. Bye Ljungberg!! And we've yet to see an impressive play by Crouch and Rooney. Tsk..

Why Totti, why??

Francesco Totti! Why did you cut your hair?! But you still look hot as ever. So that's all right i guess. Italians are Hot! The whole Italian team has damn good looking players. Especially Totti and Inzaghi! Congrats on the win over Czech. Milan Baros looks better with short hair though. So does Kewell, but he already had his hair cut. Only a few guys look good with long hair, and one of them used to be FRANCESCO TOTTI !! :) 

"if you wanna go and take a ride with me..?"

If only i could drive away somewhere, where no one knows who i am.
If only i could start everything fresh.
Not make certain mistakes that i have done.

If i could change i would, take back the pain i would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave.
[sorry Linkin Park, your lyrics seemed to suit my mood]


Dear bearer of my Linkin Park "Meteora" album,
i know the cd has been with since.. since we left school?
i hope it's still with you. I don't want it back.
There's a little comfort in knowing that something of mine is with you.
I hope you listen to it when you feel angry, when you feel helpless.
If headbanging helps you to release all those anger, blast the cd,
just like how i used to do.
I hope you listen to it often
I hope sometimes you sing along to it.
And i hope when you do, you think of me.
I remember back in school when i used to listen to "Reanimation" album with you, sharing my discman (discman has become obsolete)
I remember listening to the "Enth E Nd" (remix of In The End), there was a part where the disc sounded like it was badly scratched. I still remember what you said to me when that happened.
I remember many wonderful things about you. Why bother with the not-s0-nice ones?
Maybe we've run the whole race. Maybe here's where it ends?
I wouldnt hesitate to run the race with you again, if you would still want to.

If you ever have a moment to spare, play "Meteora",
And i hope i glide through your memory.

Much love,
the owner of "Meteora"

 

Hi ho de merry oh

Happy belated dads' day.
Celebrated it at uncle's place this year. Not really celebrated, but we had a cake, and 2 uncles and dad were there. Anyway, seemed kinda pointless to have gotten a gift for dad lah. I thought he would like it, well ... the gift found its way to my room. God knows how. So much for taking damn long to select a gift admist everything. Thanks for never failing to make me feel this way.

On a better note, caught up with Gaya and Shalu and went shopping to get my darling uncles gifts. With our brilliant choice of gifts, both uncles like their shirt! wonderful.. =)
now thats what i call appreciative. but dads arent usually the expressive kinda anyway. like what Eileen said to me. so well.. anything goes i guess. nothing new anyway.

madness stayed over at my place on friday. i mean Divya, Hemma and aunty! haha..
we went shopping before that. Divya is a great person to shop with! cause both our tastes are kinda similar. i literally dragged her to accompany me to the fitting room. muahaha..
and Hemma has lack of coordination suddenly! okay lah, that'll be between us ya?! haha.. caught late night matches with her. that was fun. =)
next day, aunt River came over with the kids. oh actually dad fetched murali from tuition.
now thats another good story. Hemma, Divya, Dad and i wenta buy lunch first. so dad drove by old upper thomson road. now if u have passed by that stretch road, u wld know that its monkeys' fav place, really! so we drove along and saw adorable little monkeys! divya was so amazed by them. maybe i should bring her to the zoo?! hahaha. so after we bought lunch at casuarina curry, divya asked dad if he could drive along there again! so we went thru the same place! but BUT, it was one way! HAHA.. it was kinda fun.. dad was asking me abt driving. so i was telling him abt it and how they teach over at da driving school and yada yada. it was actually fun. wldnt it be more fun if we could have this kinda convos more often?

well alright.. so aunt River came over. her name is not river lah! her name is actually the name of an indian river. hahaha.. sounds nice right?
yeapp.. as usual she bought the whole shop. now my fridge is loaded with cadbury chocs. goodness. what did we do anyway? talked, dad and aunty were "fighting", childish people! nothing new lah.. but great company..

sunday was at west coast like i mentioned. kids and i played "snap" and "donkey".. it was fun. haha.. subash escaped from his forfeit. but thats okay cause he fractured his thumb.
uncles, aunts and i were discussing bout bro's bday plans. aunty Ron was there!!! :) yeappp..
dinner was with da kids. coz apparently the adults said the kids should eat first, while they gossiped. no they werent gossiping lah. they were making some jokes. god knows what it was but we had a good time at the dinner table as well! as usual prakash was da last to finish the food. muahahhaa.. slow coach! opps.. subash has become my saviour, he saved me from the "vicious" kavitha, who was tryin to kapo my handphone! haha..

thats abt it lah. so much fun and laughter. and meeting gaya and shalu was great too.


oh how the mighty have fallen.
blah..

What happens then?

What happens, when they leave your life?
When you wish to stop them?
When they walk out and don't look back?
You call them, but they walk on straight.
You will for them to turn around, with everything you have.
They seemed to have disappeared from your sight.

Why must you go?
Why have you left?
Turn back around ... please?

the Smiling Six :)

Okay, i like this picture so i'm posting this here! Haha!
Left to right: Brother, Guna, Sajee, Deeps, Me and Sens!
At Haagen Daz :)

 

Rengas Night Out

Talk about food.. Here we go again!
Had dinner at Thai Express with Sajeetha, Deepa, Guna, Sens and brother!
And as usual, with brother and Guna "bickering", most of us were laughing and laughing..
The way those 2 fight, you would think that they are a couple! Haha.. Opps!
Poor Deepa came despite her headache and flu.. But it was good to see that MIA girl! :)
We shared ice cream at Haagen Daz! Where i supposedly dropped my precious ring and abt 4 or 5 crew members were hunting for it. Well they really did a great job. Finally the manager found my ring! Customer service at its best! :) Holland Village's Haagen Daz rocks. Haha..

The 6 of us wenta Sajee's old place to sit and chat by the swimming pool. It was so much of fun.
More fun another time! Haha..

This beautiful collage is done by darling Deeps!

Eat till you drop..

That was taken last night, when brother and i joined uncle, aunt, Kavi and Prakash for dinner at Brazil Churrascaria..
Happy birthday to aunt and happy belated birthday to Kavii! :)
Thanks to dad for picking up the tab (discreetly!) and giving us sucha shock! Haha..
And that interesting drink i had.. Caipirinha with strawberry! Haha..
Too much food!! This is terrible!!!! Muahhaa...

 

Guess who's back?

you're back!
am i glad! haha..


i suck at multi-taskin, so i'm getting back to chatting with Neshie..

brain-drain

crm doesnt seem to register itself in my head.
but crm is kinda like common sense.
i have a lack in that though.

and qiuyu hasnt even started studying!
bloody 20% for this ica.
damnation..

back to books..

get high, forget your lows

i realise why i look forward to my car pracs.
because driving the car gives you control.
something i kinda lack in my life now.
but when you are driving the car,
it feels soooo good.

and it feels good to know that anytime
you can change the direction, stop
or simply crash.
at least you can do what you want.

anyhow, life has been kinda bitter-sweet.
isnt it always?
i should prolly say my prayers
and thank everyone before shooting my mouth.
but still, everything has a limit.
mine has been crossed.. maybe not.

angels in my life have been keeping me alive,
and going.
like yesterday, criz and i were at "butter & jump" (if u know what dat means)
just sitting there, watching and dissing people.
it was good for like 1/3 of "Hips don't lie".
but with criz beside me, things seemed much better.

sorry Ms Prema, i don't think i can do what you want me to do.
i don't think it will work out.
it has never. i'm close to giving up.
but i want out anyway.
thank you for talking to me.
or, listening to me.


let me go, please.