Time check: 4:08pm on my watch and 4:15pm on the office clock. Haha. Anyway, work has been so good today. Haha.. Fun and laughter.. There was no 'government' today. As what they say lah. But its not because of that lah. We r practising workplace health promotion. Destressing through jokes and stuff. Haha..

Its already 4 plus. I thought it was 5. I'm freezing here man. And i'm hungry. Okay whats new?

Met Hemma after work last evening. She cycled over. So we walked back home. Fetched Divya from her tuition. Aunty, Hemma and i went. Haha.. its fun to be around with them. Talked to uncle till 12. Tsk tsk.. Midnight snack and all. See why i love my family?!! Haha..

anyway Min called. i always seemed to be missing her calls. I dunno why. I wanted to call her back but i cldnt find the television guide to check if she would be watching tv then. Haha. so i just sms-ed her.

I need to run. Badly. Haha.. put on your shoes and run with me!!!!

Havent been eating well. whats new. So i've been seeing a psychologist and a nutritionist. Namely Dinesh and Hemma. ahaha..

i am so cold i can't even type properly.. yikes..

Absolut Hunger.
The need for food.

i'm home. =)

met Nett for dinner. at thomson prata house. damn funny man.. i was telling her that the uncle working there is my friend. haha.. and i was asking how come he didnt take my order and stuffs. haha.. nuts man.. anyway, it was great seeing Nett! :) yeapp.. so we caught up and stuffs.
its a good feeling to catch up with a good friend. haha.. and things btw Nett and me didnt begin smoothly. HAHA.. i love to tell her that! and we spoke to each other all thanks to Yong Kang! cause we played a prank on him during PSL camp one year! haha.. crazy man..
but she has become a great friend, no matter how rarely we meet up. =)
so darling, thanks for meeting up for dinner. i'll try to make it on da 7th. i'll let you know k.
i love ya! :)

chatting with shalini now. i miss ya tons man.. hahaha..
silly billy girl.. calling me names all and making me laugh in da middle of the night! my mum's gonna think i'm nuts, laughing by myself!

Shalu!! I Miss You!! :)

Thaipusam 2006. I finally went after 6 years! And it was great cause i was with my cousins, aunt, uncle and parents! Haha.. And i took my cam with me! and snapped, snapped and snapped! it was truly beautiful.
That's my 'best friend' at the top centre, Divya! And there's Nava sithi, bottom centre.

 

arrghhhh i've got 15 more minutes here!!! then appa will pick me up from here!! hurry up dad!

yikes. today has been okay, doing project until at 5pm i got tasks to type letters. haha.. and then i was rushing coz dad was gonna pick me up at 6 and i thought i wldnt be able to type those letters. =(

so i typed fast. Neshie thinks my typing is slow. thats because i'm usually doing my projects while i chat with him.

okay gotta go. the phones here never stop ringing and there arent enuf ppl to answer them today. argghhh...

A little blog post before i get full-fledged busy.
Okay, i take back my words. I'm not that busy.. haha..
actually i'm supposed to be working on my marketing project. thinking, i'm thinking. i forgot to bring my thinking cap to work. i was wondering if i could wear a cap to work. cause i hate combing my hair. and even if i comb it, the moment i step outta da house, its messed up. aye..

work has been good. haha.. although i wish time would pass quickly (zul and i have been counting down!) i would definitely miss these people when i end my ipp.
still, i would drop by and say a hi to them whenever i come back to this place. haha..

eh Dass!! how was your exams? i wanted to tell you something! you know you sent me that email abt the phone ringing after you send the email? guess what! it kinda came true!!! HAHAHA.. but it came true a day later! still, it came true! haha.. anyway, i miss disturbing you.. lunch or dinner soon k?
Happy hols Dass! :)

Mum says the house is quiet without me. haha.. when i'm at home laughing or making noise, she'll say "shhh.." and all, now she says the house is quiet! ahaha.. see, "the value of Sivan is not often known till you lose her" :p Haha..

anywayyyy, Nava sithi has been great! and so has Div, Hem and Bala uncle (with all his nonsensical jokes).
life is good.

i was just thinking the other day. now i can't rmbr what exactly i was thinkin abt, but i rmbr this thought that occurred to me; family is the most important thing to anyone. often, when no one else has your back, they'll be there. i'm sure. i'm certain my family will be there if something happens to me. not only my parents and brother, but also my aunts, uncles and cousins. see, life is good with a great family. things dun always go smoothly with families. but at least, i have a family to call my own. i'm glad. =)

aye.. so philosophical today.. goodness..
i miss brother.. *Hallo! Have fun in camp. haha.. i shall see you dunno-when!

wow.. cybertai works even in my office!! hahaha.. cybertai dude, i love yaaa!! great.. i dunno why i cldnt log in to blogger from my office.. but i found a loophole! *tada*

anyway, time check: 8:02pm on Tuesday evening..
Sivan is still in da office.. 2 more hours to go before i can go off..

Anyway, i'll be staying in my aunt's house da whole of this weekday.. and coming back home on Friday evening. save me tons of time from traveling.. so ya, sorry can't meet anyone this week. but i've got a date on Friday.. haha..

Met Fid last noon.. had a great time biking with him.. popped by to sch to shout a hi to Dass! haha.. we were disturbing her while she was studying, alone.. at blk D level 5 where NO ONE else was there! crazy man..

and i saw this damn nice scooter at Lavender Street! ask Fid!! it was damnn damnn damnn NICE! something like Vespa merged with Harley! haha.. i shall try to put up a picture of that..

Had dinner with Terry and Fid at jln kayu..
Terry came after ipp.. we were basically talking abt ipp and the ppl we meet and all. haha.. terry's encounters with rich snobs.. man.. thank god i'm where i am! haha.. i guess everything does happen for a reason yeah?!

Hemmi! thanks for putting up with me at ur place! and thanks to Div Div and Chu Chu! hhahaha.. and not forgetting Bala! :) I had crab for dinner thanks to Nava sithi! yay! hahaha..

I finally answered calls in my office. i dunno why but i have this phobia of answering calls in the office.. but i loved answering calls when i was in BodyWatch! haha.. i am just worried i might screw things up here. but thankfully, not yet! hhahaha..

so well, that's all for now.. oh ya, some kind soul left this chocolate flavoured cracker sandwich on my table.. and i dun even know who?! haha. THANKS anyway!! my colleagues rock!! :)

Back to work!!!!!!!!

my over-dued post.. been busy.. haha.. it feels great to say that! anyway, i'm working.. cause i'm attached, to a place. which i am not gonna mention it here. the cyberspace isnt really a good place to reveal stuff.. ha.. my close friends know where i am.. so that's all right. and if u really wanna know where i'm working, (so u cld drop by to have lunch with me, just like darling Eileen, you can do so) just ask me!

anyway i mentioned in an earlier post that the next 3 months will be with Fid.. sad to say, all of us got split up.. i rmbr telling Vanisha that i hate working alone and that i hope i'll have Kai or Fid with me.. and she told me that i hafta learn to do things alone. yeap.. so here i am, alone at my work place.. thank God, my colleagues have been absolutely lovely! they are sooooooo helpful that they even go outta their way to help me out or to answer my qns.. =)

work is alright.. as long as i have stuff to do and am occupied, i am happy.. of course it isnt easy to sit and stare at the computer from 8:30 to 6, but well, i gotta grin and bear it.. at least i'll walk around the office, talk to my colleagues, go out for a short break and stuff lah.. and lunching at aunt's house almost everyday! haha.. oh ya, Eileen met me for lunch on thursday.. unexpected right?! esp from de one and only.. HAHA!

It was good to see her and i resumed to my usual disturbing and irritating her! (its been long yeah?!) anyway Eileen, thanks for coming down all da way.. have fun at work..

Vday this year was nth special.. my supervisor gave me a strawberry though! haha.. ohh.. i msg-ed Criz to wish her and asked her where my chocolate is.. cause she gave me chocs last year.. and she replied that she'll send my e-chocs.. haha.. and she really did!! so sweeeeeeett!!! hahaha... CRIZ!!! I MISS YOU TONS MAN! And i miss Min too.. i miss a whole lotta ppl.. Fid calls now and then.. =) and i miss studying.. can u believe it.. kids, trust me, studying is so much more fun than to work..

oh ya, i received a gift for vday! it was from Shan!!! Thanks girl!

More.. next time..

the dreaded exams are finally over. now we gotta wait for the dreaded results.
wasnt very focused this semester. however mum seemed to have interpreted that wrongly and asked me how come i was studying so much this semester. yeah. just because i had been going to school almost everyday to study during my study break, it makes me hardworking? not really. admist all that mugging, we are bound to waste precious time joking, doing silly things, singing and of course, our fav; prata-ing.

met gayathri in da evening. its been long since i saw her. a month? maybe.
haha.. was greeted by a Gaya-Hug. it was great seeing her.
so we walked and walked and shopped and shopped.
i finally got my sandals and sneakers.
Ranjan joined us too. Good to see him too.
Gaya and i got him a belated bday and advance vday gift.
Ranjan Kumar, i hope you like your gift. and thanks for being a good company
though you are usually irritating us! we still appreciate your presence. =)

Gayathri and i wenta surprise Shan over at Isetan Scotts.
long since i saw her too. long since i saw these people.
i miss them tons. gotta catch up soon?
anyway, Huishan, thanks so much for the letter and the gift!
Its my first vday gift of the year. i guess i wun really be receiving anything else.
we should meet up soon. with the rest of them.
Cynthia, thanks for da tag. i miss talking to you over da phone, u washing machine!

its gotta take some time before you can get really comfortable with the people around you.
with people like Shan and co, and Gaya, Ranjan & Shalu and also Juan, Dawn, Nett, Padma,
chatting just goes with the flow. i miss the people i can talk to, really talk to.

instead of being happy with the end of the exams, i'm ranting and going on about the lousy
stuff in my life. i can't believe 2nd year is over for me and my classmates.
i'll worry about that later.



and we don't see eye to eye
i always try but you don't seem to
now i'm stuck and caged in this cell
which feels like hell
when am i going to be free from this
would time even tell
if it does, let me know please.



rants.. ramblings.. silly scribbles.. sudden inspirations..
call them anything you want to.


last night, was bad.
you know when something bad happens to your friend
and she tells you about it but you dunno how to react to it
and you dunno what to tell her to make her feel better
you wanna say "its all right" but you know it isnt.
well, that was how i felt.
aye, if there was something i could have done to lift your spirits
just a notch higher, i would have done it.
and the silly things i said and did to
pull up the corners of your mouth
and to see a smile.
i hope at the very least, i made you smile.
i hope so.

ahhh.. the things you do for a friend.
and the things you do to make them laugh and smile.


yes, before i let it slip my mind;
Hemma! well done for your excellent results!
are you sure we are related? i'm having my suspicions!



i hafta go. as usual, its da "its late already. why are you online now? what time are you gonna sleep???"
rahhh.. i need my bloody own space. damnnnnn.

Hey i know i love prata.
But not more than how much i love you!
You're as sweet as the sugar in my bomb prata!
Let me sing you a song:
"Vanisha's all da same, she only gets judged by what she dass"
opps i mean "does", not "dass"!!

 

i was just thinking what am i going to do after i graduate from poly..
well, dad wants me to go to a uni. which i dun really have much interest in.
unless i get into psychology. that, i like..

and there's the 2nd option of entering the workforce.
which i'm seriously contemplating.
afterall, how much do you wanna study? i'm kinda sick of studying already.
Marketing Management, Business Finance, Intro to SW, not really my cup of tea.
We were complaining so much today.. actually we were supposed to be studying.
In the end, i didnt do much studying. Nope. It was answering qns from KhorkiEe and Jeanne.
And in between, writing notes to Dass and disturbing her. Haha.
I want to write better things than 8 steps to effective communication or identifying the 5 gaps in service. And i dun wanna define the Cash Conversion Cycle and prepare a profit and loss statement. Chelladurai's diagram? Goodness. No thank you.

Again i am left to wonder, what am i doing here?


I realised people can be deceiving. I dunno why i can't see the negative, devious side in people.
Or at least, in some people. Choosing to believe in the best in people isnt getting me anywhere.
To say the least, you might be branded as a fool if you continue to think that everyone is nice.
Yeah right.


Anyway, on a lighter note, Neshie wants to be mentioned in my blog! Holy cow, thats da first time anyone has ever said that! :)

Hello Neshie Smashie!!!! We love you too!! (by "we", i mean Hemma and me!)

And Hemma, i heard from a reliable source that you're sick. Please get well soon.
Haha.. And all da best for friday. =) Stop worrying k. No wonder you're sick! Its because of all that worrying!


Gotta go. EFMA tmr.

not another hangover again
then tell me the source of this pain

sleep, where are you
slumber, i'm looking for you

and i'm waiting for the end.
it doesnt really make any sense.
but who cares.

You're beautiful no matter what
to me, its you who matter, so guess what
i'll have your back, maybe not everytime
but i'll still have your back
even when we're running on different tracks.
so what if you have a cigarette hanging from your mouth
you're my friend, and for that, i'll be proud
i'll bear no grudge, i wun be the one who'll judge
i like you for you, that's what matters
i hope you see it too?
and so what if others leave
i'm gonna be here, you'll have me.
we might not agree sometimes
we have different sets of mind
we arent like A and B
but we're real, you and me.
things might not last, time may pass fast
we might lose the ones we have now
we might lose some love along the way
still somehow
i know i'll have you
and i want you to know that
you'll have me too.

To a beautiful friend.
Who is beautiful, inside and out. =)
You know who you are.

Happy Birthday Minyi Chin Chai !! :)

much love..

i'm not going to say its good to be back.

its just good to fill this space with some words, no matter whether they mean anything or not.

these past few days have been great. studying in school till night falls.
and then dinner with the klakars.
its really true that when you are having so much fun, laughing and joking,
you forget your sorrows.
and once you're back to being by yourself, misery welcomes you with open arms.

still, lying in the pits isnt doing any good to anyone.
i might as well have fun, while i still can.
the next 3 months will be with Fid. that's simply great.

true. you can never get everything that you want.
but you can at least be happy with what you get.
i have one of the greatest company. i guess i'm good... with them.

yes khorkiEe, it was great talking to you today.. with Vani the Barney too! :)
you guys are wicked. esp terry and fid..
Prata-ing was great too. "can i take this?" "yes. you can take her too!" that was Fid! haha..

laughter's my medicine. but sometimes i wish i can walk outta everything.

and dass, stop hopping onto chairs when you actually lose balance!
learn to aim and throw, can?!
for everything... nandri. haha.. pls dun be embarrassed by what happened at Casuarina. Afterall, everyone knows you got a thing for me! wahahahaha..

its not nice to keep staring at a picture of doughnuts.
so i thought it would be nicer to blog about something.
but i dunno whats there to blog abt.



and each day i pass
with thoughts of you in my mind
losing track of the time
as my mind swirls just so fast

where are you
are you lost too
where are you
are you with somebody new

what happened that made you so
you were not like this before
what happened
i don't know you anymore

i wish the finger pointing would stop
i wish the blame game resides
when will we both see
that the ones in fault were you and me

i'm not walking away
i'm merely stopping
and waiting for you
you don't hafta run to catch up

and one day
you'll see me
and one day
i'll see you too

its never the end
till someone said so.