Now i know what i want for my birthday!
But will dad just drive to M'sia to get me these?!

 

From top left: Terry's cute pose! // Criz's funny face! // KhorkiEeSamy n Me!//
Fid and me on da way to jln kayu // Terry during ICT //Benson during MM //
the jln kayu dinner gang // me in da movie theatre // and Terry again! :) 

Fun times with fun people.
I have a wonderful family :)

 

One Art -Elizabeth Bishop

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

--Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

i hate losing things.. sigh..

I love your bike. But more than that, I love You!! :)
Thanks for the bike rides, thanks for the meals, thanks for the 'chen liping' and 'only yesterday' jokes, thanks for the miss calls you give me during tutorials, thanks for making me laugh so much and thanks for being the kinda friend that never fail to bring me a smile, all da time.

 

She bullies me majorly.. Sometimes i irritate da hell outta her.. She quacks like a duck though i call her squid.. She 'throws my face' when i'm with her.. She claims she can eat 5 pratas at one sitting.. She blogs like tomorrow will never come.. She's always there when she hears the 'click' of a camera.. She gets me down at times.. She calls me almost everyday.. She hangs up the phone when her favourite tv program is on.. She makes me go deaf when she talks to me on da phone.. She dances in the middle of the canteen.. She claps when she's watching a movie in da theatre.. She makes me laugh.. She cheers me up.... Most of all, she has been there, in one way or another, throughout this whole semester. And yes, she's a squid.. and i'm a crab! :)

 

It is the last day of my semester. I hardly realised that. Min kept reminding me though.
It was a great day. One of the greatest days i ever had.

ICC presentation was hilarious. Before that, i kept disturbing Vanisha about her top. I'm sorry abt that dei. I hope u know i didnt mean it! :) I'm glad you were in our group for ICC. Added more fun and all those photo-taking. Send me all those klakar pictures we took k! :)

When i think of those those silly things we do, multi shots on the cam, ANTM poses (that was Criz!), jumping up and snapping the camera and screaming and laughing and calling people to take picture for us, my my.. it all simply adds up to fun. I wonder would i be having this much fun if i was somewhere else.. not in nyp.. not in sw.. not with this bunch of special people.. i doubt so.. then again, u can never be sure.. still, Min the squid, Dass, Crizzie Wizzie, Eileen, Jinghui, KhorkiEeSamy, Razinah, thanks for all the 'eternal memories' you have given me. [the 'eternal memory' tagline is developed by Qiuyu's MM group! haha..]

So.. we had law.. and after that, Fid called us to makan at Jln Kayu.. so we went.. Terry on his vespa, me on Fid's bike and Uz, Min, Criz in khorkiEe's car.. the ride was a blast. if i start talking abt it, i can never stop. so i'll save it for later! :p
Makan all sorta yummy food there.. and laughed over Terry's phobia of cats and Fid's "yesterday only" and "Chen Liping" (Jelly Bean?!) jokes!! No matter how many times we've heard that, we still laugh when we hear it again! And the ride back, Hafid was making me laugh so much, i thought i was gonna throw up all that i've eaten! Goodness..

In the end, i went for MM tutorial.. it wld be nice to see Mr.Phoon lah.. as i said to Eileen, give him 'face' lah! haha.. KhorkiEe, Terry, Fid, Uz and myself wenta class. and only saw Mr.Phoon, Clare and Eileen! Joined shortly by Leon, Firhan and Zul.. and Hanson came too. That was all. The 11 of us! We made so much noise.. sooooooooo much.. i wanted to pay attention.. but halfway i got distracted and so i joined in all the fun and noise that the rest of them were contributing to! Poor khorkiEe, she really thought i had lost my mind.. i laughed so much.. haha.. and had fun disturbing Eileen.. as always.. Uzair and i were taking turns to disturb that poor girl who was doing some serious work! oppsy daisy!

well... Mr.Phoon let us off early.. so Clare, Eileen, Uz, Fir, Hanson and i walked to the mrt station together.. haha.. i was conversing in mandarin with Clare.. haha.. i think she really couldnt stand my chinese.. she wanted to cry.. although she said my chinese is getting better lah.. well clare, u dun hafta say that to make me feel better.. gek sim is still gek sim! haha.. tell Eileen that!

bus journey back alone.. this is the part i hate.. without the company, without the noise.. without the fun.. haha.. only silence reigns and where thoughts start to stray..
nevertheless, a day full of wonderful memories.. it would definitely go down in the book of my life..

Simply wonderful.. =)
Mug well for the upcoming exams SW0401..
You guys are the best.. i mean it. And you too Dass.

The Clown Fish & The Puffer Fish - concluding chapter

Well, a story has to have an ending doesnt it? So here's the concluding chapter to the story of the Clown Fish and the Puffer Fish.


Things dont always go the way we want it to be, much as we really want it to.
Some people go to great depths for that. However deep they dive, they cant find what they are looking for. Certain things, once they are lost, are lost forever. Maybe they go missing for a while, or maybe a few years, who knows.. even many years. Certain things are irrecoverable. Once you've lost it, you've lost it. But then again, who knows, you might find it back again. But that's only a possibility.

The secret is to go on with life. Do not be stalled at any point of time. We all grow up dont we? At times we make mistakes.. small ones and huge ones that might cost us something or even someone. And then time passes and we realise our mistakes. We could be regretful for what we have done in the past. But whatever is done, is done. Regretting doesnt change what has happened. It prevents you from committing the same mistake again.

Sidetracking arent i? I'll get back to my story.

The Clown fish made a mistake. But a mistake made is a mistake made. We are not going to be like 5 and 8 year olds and wag fingers at each other. There is definitely regret. There is definitely sorrow and lots more that goes beyond words. Where words fail to reach out and type the emotions. However, the Clown fish isnt going to mull over it and stall. It cant afford to. The Clown fish will take it into its stride. It will hope for better things to come its way. It knows that there will be.. without a doubt.

The Puffer fish goes on its way. It doesnt belong with the Clown fish. It doesnt belong where the Clown fish is. Its like a saltwater fish being in a clear water stream or pond. It can't survive there. It will die.


So.. the Clown fish swam back to where it came from.
The Puffer fish stayed in the depths of the ocean.



One day they might meet again. One day ......

-The End-

sometimes silence says it best.
let's all shut up.

Sens' birthday..
See the birthday boy in red! Haha! :)
With me, Deeps and Sajeetha..
Sorry bro, your pic got cut!

 

sooo.. life has been like that.. exams are fast approaching.. barely 4 months in this semester.. and we pay a thousand dollars.. that's education in singapore man..
my bloody lappadappa has no proper form of wireless network.. so i've no choice but to resort to you know... "sharing" with my neighbours.. haha.. well another choice is that i can get a wireless router.. i will.. not just yet..

school has been... hmm... pretty much okay.. nothing new.. open house was fun.. i'm glad i went for it.. yup.. and then i met up with Sajeetha.. had lunch with her and wenta town.. it was good. haha.. quality family time yeah.. i should do it more often.. with deepa too.. missed that girl.. school life is depriving us of spending time with family..

surprised Sens on his bday.. wenta eat with aunty n uncle.. before that, bro and i wenta get a gift for Sens.. then met Sajeetha n Deepa and sorta surprised Sens.. he knew we were coming lah.. haha.. had lunch.. service was horrible.. but thanks to the lady who brought the cake to our table.. haha.. pool-ed with Sens and brother after that.. i violated most of the pool rules.. haha.. playing with them, is horribly comical.. i won a game though. accidentally lah..

anywayyy... Man Utd won Liverpool!! hahaha. i was rubbing it into Shalini's face!!! :)
WE WON! Yupp.. hopefully they keep up with this form.. but too far to catch up with Chelsea.. damnn....

for now, i'll await World Cup.. is there anything else to wait for?

Shalini, Me and Shalini's cousin Gayathri!
Nyp open house! I was a good host, wasnt i?! Haha..

 

NYP Open House!! Haha.. It was fun.. Uzair, Benny and Me!
Too bad cldnt get a picture with Hanson..

 

Yuga and Me! Bumped into him in town!
Great seeing him after so long! :)

 

Doesnt it have a retro feel?!
Anyway this is for you, Sajeetha, the "purple" girl!
I had a blast of a time hanging out with you!
Thanks for coming over to Nyp and thanks for going shopping with me!
I love you and before i end,
"When in doubt, Buy it!!!" Hahaha!! :)

 

YES!!!!

We are finally done with our MM project!!
Feel so accomplished..
Great work guys..

Whew.. its over..

Presentation tmr yeah.. =)


Lemme catch up with sleep..

The Clown Fish & The Puffer Fish

This is a story between a clown fish and a puffer fish. It was a strange friendship. Okay not so strange. Just unique.

You would probably think that a clown fish, just like its name, is always clowning around. You're right. So just like any other clown fish, this was no exceptional fish. It lived up to its name. For now, let's just call it clown fish.

So the clown fish met a puffer fish when it went around swimming in the ocean one day. Mind you it went deep sea diving. Deep down where sharks are found lurking in the still waters. Normally the clown fish doesnt swim there. It sticks to somewhere near the shore. Where its friends are.

Back to the story. One day the clown fish decided to swim far out to the ocean. To go where none of its friends had ventured. It was a very curious fish. So it swam past a coral reef when it caught a glimpse of a strange looking fish. It had spikes on its body. Now, the clown fish didnt know that it had just met a puffer fish and that the spikes were a defense mechanisism for the puffer fish. So being friendly, the clown fish went to say hi. It took a while for the puffer fish to reply the clown fish with a hesitant hi.

Now a bit more about the puffer fish. Being wounded emotionally, this puffer fish did not trust any other fish/jellyfish/sea-horses or any other sea creature in the ocean. You can't blame it though. This puffer fish had been through alot. I mean really alot. So it wasnt its fault that it was kind of anti social and kept mostly to itself right? Over time, it became a fiercely strong and independent fish. Which was good in a way and also bad in some ways. I mean, however strong and independent you are, you can never lead your life alone. You can't ward off people. However bad life had been, there are some people, i mean fishes, who will definitely be not anything like those sharks it had met? Am i right to say that?

What had happened after the meeting of the clown fish and puffer fish?
They became friends. Well that was a long story as you know, the puffer fish took a long time to trust the clown fish, and the clown fish, well it can be insensitive at times as it took things lightly most of the time. Still, the course of nature kept them together or should i say, they kept themselves together?

Things were not always a bed of roses, excuse me, a bed of sand and shells.
They fought over stuff. Small things though.
And then they made up and were back to being normal.

However, this clown fish had a problem. It was a little selfish. It had high expectations of its friendship with the puffer fish. It wasnt a very independent fish to start off with. Loneliness was something that was a choice to it. Either you choose it, or you dont.
Just when things were going smoothly, the clown fish SCREWED everything up.


Now for the ending of the story, you would have to stay in tune.
And please pray that it has a happy ending yeah?

This is one of da nicest mondays i had since a long time.
Thanks to Fid. and his bike. Haha.
I proclaim my love for bikes. I'm in love with them.
Unfortunately mum said she'll kick me if i go ahead and register for bike license.
That is a figure of speech by da way. She wun kick lah.

Anyway, whenever i go riding with Fid, i have this damn huge smile on my face.
Clearly explains things right?
Cars, bikes, taxis, buses. I seem to love them all. Haha..
Ya, i missed out bicycles.

Ms.Prema asked if i had any problems.
Haha.. no no.. i really dun.
I'll work harder for exam.

Oh, lunching with KhorkiEe, Terry, Fid and Uz was great.
Bought back OCK curry puffs for god-ma Rajwant!
OCK curry puffs rock, only yesterday right?! (inside joke btw Fid, Terry, Kk, Uz & me!)

Had a bet with Min today.. haha.. nothing better to do.
i like bets. reasonable ones though.
Min's new Lacoste polo tee looks good. Hot pink eh.
not my colour. but nice. =)

Dass came by and brightened my day.. additional brightening!
sorry you heard that comment abt ur shirt!
i was really talking abt some random girl walking by! haha..
"so sally can wait.. she knows its too late....." hahaha
Dei.. lappadappa rocks! when it isnt giving me problems!
we'll meet up in pasir ris soon. poi padi for now!

Dinesh. Thank your brother for helping out with my report.
Not bad, your family seems to be really nice. haha..
and go for the op pleaseeeee.
i listened to you. so listen to me for once.
and ya, CONGRATS FOR MAKING IT!!! hahaha..

BuBu! Ya i hope to see ya on friday.
Dun tell people you're related to me.
I got reputation yeah! hahaha..
chumma joke lah!

Sajeetha siztaaaa!!!
hmm what's there to tell ya?
I love ya!! hahahaha..
i shall crash ur gym soon! hahaha..

and of course you..
here's something..
whether you read it or not.
i hope you do.
but i dun think so.
______________________

Light the corners of our minds
misty water colored memories
of the way we were

Scattered pictures
of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another
from the way we were

Can it be that it was all so simple then?
Or has time rewritten every line?
If we had the chance to do it all again
Tell me, would we? Could we?

Memories
can be beautiful and yet
what’s too painful to remember
we simply choose to forget

For it’s the laughter
we will remember
whenever we remember
the way we were......
The way we were.

some poem i found in a website..
hmm...

The nutters i went out with.
How come someone's always missing whenever we meet up?
All absentees were greatly missed! Haha..

 

Had a great Saturday.. Mabel was early for once. Miracle huh.. Wenta town to meet Shan.. kinda window shopped with Mabel first.. she's a great liar and i was taken in totally by one of her extreme lie. tsk tsk.. how gullible..

Shan knocked off work and Cynthia joined us with her other half.. haha..
Anyway we wenta Hark Music cafe which is walking distance from Dhoby Ghaut mrt station.
nice place.. good ambience.. i would absolutely love it if they played English songs though.
ah well, i still had a great time. Shan's sister was a wonderful hostess! haha.. what a way to put it.

and now, projects time.. God, make it end soon. i'm on an overdrive..
and i'm upset abt missing out on OIPP. but still, this is home.. blah!



and they said i'm attracted to people with split personality..
man you gotta be kidding me..

cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

I said i'll write an entry for Nesh. So here goes..

Hey Dinesh Kumar!! :)
I have this huge ill-intention of writting this entry in TAMIL. But well, i dun want to make u suffer. Haha!! So i'll go on in English.

Okay, Nesh is fuzzy and cuddly, just like Barney the purple dinosaur. But he doesnt sing like Barney or jumps around in excitement.

That paragraph is written solely to irritate Nesh! Haha!! Its not true, at least i think so!

Actually, Nesh is a good listener. He makes so much of sense and he makes me see things in a different light. Things that i don't even realise. Things that i would be so sick of.

Mr.Psychologist. That's Nesh. Actually he can be called a lotta names! Hmm..
Mr.Aman in Kal Ho Na Ho.
Mr.I-can't-speak-Tamil.
Mr.Neshie the Plushie.
Mr.Poet.
Mr.Save-the-day.

Haha.. Nesh, you have been a great friend in this short time that i've known you. It seems incredulous how we've never met and still click like we are 5 years friends or longer! (Helps that i'm nice right?! Haha!!) Thanks for being the person you are. Thanks for making me see sense. Thanks for always replying my emails. Thanks for listening to my complaints. Thanks for giving me advice and solutions. Thanks for the ring. And thanks for being a good friend.

Of course, no thanks for being such a pandi at times! Haha..

Now that i've reached enlightenment, reveal yourself!! You can't forever appear as a rubber ducky or a palm tree or a horse in msn! Haha.. Dun be mean!

This is how Neshie looks like:



Haha! I wish!!!! :)

Today is Friday the 13th. I never really believe in the tales and stories that this particular date and day have. My friday has been perfectly fine. Of course, a couple of years ago, Friday the 13th was horribly wrong. Flip the pages of my diary and yep, its written in black and white.
For today, its just mundane.. and peaceful..

IPP date is approaching. I'm regretful that i'm unable to go for OIPP. Sigh. I've tried talking to the parents. And they dun seem to relent. So that's it.
Do not ever ask me to go India again. If i can't go now, i dun see why i should go with you guys.
Parents... sighhhh....


Anyway, facing reality, exams are approaching. We still have a couple of tests to go through and yes, presentations. Intro to SW seems to be my suckiest module.

I think i should go and study now.. Slacking like a mudderfadder.. hahaha..


i miss you..

Pinky and da Brain..
Its 11th January! Haha..
1, 2 and now 3.

 

We love taking pictures but i guess we love each other more! Haha..

 

No matter where, being with them is just fun.
Thank God Ranjan doesnt have his Snoop Dogg look in these pics. Haha..

 

It was a dream come true! And the feel of sitting on a bike, being in control, was beyond words. Yep, Fid you gave me something to rmbr! :) Thanks!

 

after a great day, things just gotta screw up.
why can't we practice what we preach?
what the hell?
can someone please tell?

you feel like throwing everything away.. but bloody hell you can't.

Nice guys are sometimes LOSERS.

i had wanted to say something. but i guess it'd be better left unsaid.

what a waste of words.

i had wanted to say something to you. but i guess i've kept them inside me,
just like how i always do.

what a waste of years.

now, i don't know what to do.


Nesh! i wanna talk to you!

Happy Birthday Dawn!!!! :)


Spoke to Dawn last night.. happening birthday celebrations huh!
anyway it was great to catch up with her after soooo long.. busy girl is now busy working.. when she wasnt working, she was preparing for her A's.. now that its over, she's busy working.. and doing OT!! so, Dawn, we really gotta meet up like soon!! you were rambling on and on over da phone last night.. shows how much you gotta tell me! haha.. oh my!!! :p

Its bloody raining out here.. it was raining during the campfire too. haha.. started abruptly, ended abruptly.. Cynthia, Nett and i were entertaining ourselves by singing those campfire songs that we knew.. well, so much has changed.. they even changed the PSL song.. now that's not fair! it will always be "If We Hold On Together".. maybe it should become the Alumni's song.. okay..

how come brothers have nothing nice to say to their sisters? hmm..

Okay.. 2006 is going good. Thanks to Toa Payoh..
I hereby proclaim that Toa Payoh rocks socks! And Deyi PSL alumni rocks even more!

Thanks Nett, Kesin, Cynthia, Geksan, Padma, Constance, Meixian, Sk for coming.
Its always great seeing you guys, no matter what. We'll be back.

Minyi.. thanks for offering to beat that boy up, but i dunno where he is now. haha..

Eileen! i finally rang da bell at LJS!!

Neshie!! Thanks for your gift!!!! I'll sit and stare at it! How are you by da way?
Havent heard from you for a while.

Dass!! Hi!!! Hahahaha...

its 2006 already. manasu seriyilla.. yetho eludhavaendum.. aanaal ennaku diary illai. athanaal blog pannugiraen. 2006 seriyaa mudiyavillai. manadhil yetho baaram irukira maadhiri irukku. adharku kaaranam neethaanaa? hmm.. yaen ippadi? ennaku theriyaadhu. vaarthaigal varavillai. or shd i say, seriyaana vaarthai varavillai? unnudan irukumboathellaam enna solvathu endru theriyavillai. yethai sonnaal seri endrum theriyaathu. unnodu niraiya paesa vaendum thaan. annaal naeram illaiya? allathu vaeru enna kaaranam? unnai kaetkalaam, aanaal naan kaetaaena? illai. yaen? badhilum theriyaathu.

varudangal poanathu. nee maarinaaya alladhu naan maarinaenaa? naan nalla nanbanaaga illaiyaa? yeathaavathu thavaraa sonnaenaa? alladhu seithaenaa? yaen ippadi irukkiraai? kaelvigal niraiya irukiradhu. kaetkathaan manam illai, naeram illai, vaarthaigal illai.

varuvadho enna? ennidam sollu.
irukavaa alladhu poagavaa theriyavillai. poagavum manam illai.

So this was how i spent my new year.. with the little ones at Sivaji uncle's house..
Sivan in white? Now that's a rare sight! Haha.. Happy New Year..