Thursday, March 31, 2005

When you sigh, an angel dies.


Ok, i'm bored lah.

Can u believe that France drew with Israel, Spain drew with Serbia and Brazil drew with Uruguay? Gosh..
Thankfully, England won.
I've caught the soccer fever.


Since you've been gone..

Tuesday, March 29, 2005


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Sunday, March 27, 2005

What a day it has been.. woah.. im so tired to all those cake-smashing moments thanks to Sajeetha!! argghh! i trusted u sizta! sobss.. haha.. oh wells.. poor cake.. it was smashed onto my face.. all the cake smashers except for nice mummy, aunty and Deepa.. blahz! thanks for the bouquet of flowers and ferrero rocher.. how to eat it? which person in da right mind will eat? haha.. ok lah.. i'll gaze at it till i'm happy.. and after that, i'll eat it yea?! good..

Gayathri came along.. wif Shalini!! -screams- OMG! itz been long since i saw Shalu! i missed her! haha!! im glad that there were at least 2 friends to share my birthday with.. it sure is different from the past 5 years.. but enjoyable thou.. thanks everyone! u r wonderful people! and dear Fid who msg-ed me from M'sia customs! thanks dude!
It is my day today! Of course, i'll share it with Mariah Carey! haha!! and tmr, is another normal day..

Kumudha aunt said that in her mind, i'm always like a 12 or 13 year old kid.. she can't picture me being 18! haha.. thatz nice lah.. at least i'm young.. yes, i dun feel 18 at all.. now we shall wait for Sajeetha's birthday where i can haf my revenge! wahahaha! -evil laughter-

Nitez y'all!

MIN!! Haf a safe trip alritey?! Take care!
It rained the day u went away
and it still hasn't stopped since.
Itz pouring outside
and itz pouring inside, my heart that is.
The grey clouds up above
make the day seem even gloomy.
The day u left
and the other thing that left was ur love.
Waiting by the doorway,
waiting everyday.
Waiting for the moment,
that you would come back to stay.

Poetry at its best?? U decide! Haha!
i was bored..
Happy 35th birthday to Mariah Carey! Even at 35, she's still great!! -grin-

Ohh.. and Happy birthday to myself too! Haha! Here's to many more years of insane laughter, smiles, lame jokes and lots more!
And thanks to all those wonderful ppl who msg-ed me and called me and even emailed me! U r great! However, that doesn't stop me from saying that Gayathri Nair is a cheater!! She called me a few minutes before 12 so that she cld be the first to wish me! CHEAT!! She was hogging the phone! Haha.. Crazy woman! 2 years in a row eh? Thanks lotsa!
Got a card signed by Nathan bro, sis-in-law, aunty and cutie pie little nephew Keegan!! So cute!!
Uh huh.. Thanks darling sidekickpal Min for calling me too! Take care in Melbourne! And call before u leave! I still wanna sing "Leaving on a Jetplane"!! Haha!!

Itz Easter!! Where are the Easter eggs?!! Haha! Ok lah.. thatz all for now.. i'll end off by singing myself a song!

Happy birthday to me!
Happy birthday to me!
Happy birthday to me-eee!!
Happy birthdayt to Me!!


I guess i've found my way
it's simple when it's right
feeling lucky just to be here tonight
and happy just to be me
and be alive.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

I had a great day yesterDAY.. went to Marina Mandarin hotel wif bro n cuz for a Good Friday service.. coz bro's galfren called us.. It was nice.. I saw KIMBERLY! Omg!! How coincidental?!! So cool!!!! I miss her so much! She was so surprised to see me.. yupz.. we chatted for a while.. im glad i went.. at least i met Kim.. -smile-
Went little india for lunch.. yummy.. then took bus to toa payoh coz i wanted to play pool.. Thanks to bro, i managed to improve my skills and beat my cuzin! yeah! that was damn fun lah.. fun fun fun.. bro was laughing at my pool skills.. and i was laughing at cuzin's skills.. nonsense lah.. i had a great DAY.

NEXTLY, i wanna say thanks to da greatest sidekickpal out there. For being there over da phone at 11.30 in the nite, listenin to my ramblings and lamentings and complaints.. i needed someone to listen coz there's no one in da damn house to do that.. but u were there. thanks.. 49 minutes.. and that was all. u're da best and i luv ya!

NOW.. I went out to meet San, Shan, Cynthia n Mabel.. Had a great day.. Mabel's still da same. Eeeks! Stop tickling my ear!! haha.. u guys r still da same.. great.. and pool with cynthia was great too.. haha.. another day yea..

Idiotic Gayathri called me and started laughing over da phone! IDIOT! I MISSED U TOO!
Crazy gal.. sigh sigh sigh.. ur phone calls always make me smile.. even thou i dun see ur lame face! i can picture it when im talking to u.. haha.. i'll take ur "hint" and stay at hm tmr ok?!!


no anticipation.. itz just any normal day.
i guess it doesn't make a difference.


Life just kicked me from my back and i fell face first onto the hard solid ground.
BUT i got back up again.

Friday, March 25, 2005

Had enough. Enough.
We dun get listened to. We dun get the trust.
We dun get the love, which is supposed to be a must?
We dun get the chats, nor the talks
What we get, are the blames and the faults.
Did we ever sit and talk heart to heart?
Or did we even spend some time?
Did we have simple conversations?
No, cause u never had the time.
I've always wanted to try,
But your usual excuse was there.
We are just strangers,
Without even a care.
I've given up.
I dun think i'll get there.
Tell me what's left now?
Life is fucking unfair.
Enough. Had enough.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Happy Birthday Hafid!!

i hope u have a great birthday.. coz u sure deserve it man!
Yet again another day spent in PS.. haha.. Geksan was there!! -scream- Haha! WOW. been ages since i met her.. and the thing is, you never know how much u miss someone until you see them! haha.. Yesh.. i missed her tons.. Padma was being her usual wacky self and this induced great laughter from me! Dat gal, oh boy, such a cutie pie.. haha.. when she's supposed to be at d cashier tending to customers, she turns around and give these weird and comical looks at San and me! silly gal.. Had so much fun working on the scrapbook.. not brain, a day of creativity.. like wat San said "wow, just one day at the shop and u know what everything is used for?" haha.. I'm learning from d expert wat?! Which is none other than Padma Tan Weiling.. who is by d way, a chinese gal with a tamil name.. or is it a Sanskrit name?! we can never agree on that! Aye.. the three of us were juz sitting down and talking abt everything.. from poly life to sec sch life, dance politics, friends and what not? sad to say, yeah people do change.. even the ones that we thought wld remain the same steady self, do change. Change is inevitable.. Haha.. But i'm glad that San and Padma are still there. When u think back on the friends that are still there for you, it makes u feel glad that although others might have left, there are some still standing with you. Great! Erm Padma, if u happened to read this, i gotta remind u that u owe me 2 stuff! one from 2003's Valentines day and well, the 'thing' that Kesin asked me to be blur abt! haha.. U are my debtor!! I wun provide bad debts.. it better not be irrecoverable!


Never back to square one again!

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Yes.. a topic that i feel like dissing now.. not really now.. maybe for some time already? People go on and on about love and the one that they love, saying how they wld die for them and do anything for them and will never part them till da day they die or even aft they die.. Blah blah blah blah.. Bullshit. Ok, i'm so sick of hearing these lines being repeated over and over and over and over again.. u get the picture? Good. And i'm tired of all those promises being made and being broken. Isnt it just irritating? Hallo? U promised to cherish her till the rest of ur life or even after that, blah blah future plans and all that.. so what now? U've broken up with her? Why? It is SO selfish of you to give her up when u think that u aren't compatible anymore. Why cldn't u haf thot of it in the first place? U cld haf saved alot of heartbreaks u know? I dun understand.. The fact that i didn't hear this news from u is enough to say that i dun know you anymore. Had to hear if from someone, who heard it from someone. What a nice friendship we've got? Hey look, i'm not just a friend who you will notice when u need to borrow something or because you need some company. If that is what friendship means to you in your dictionary, i'm sorry.. I guess we must be using different dictionaries then.. Ya, even if it goes to the end of a break-up, can u pls be a bit gentlemanly and talk to her and sort things out before parting amicably? Dun be so heartless and tactless to break up over SMS!! Oh my goodness.. That's like the worse way to end a relationship.. What is wrong with you? If u need someone to talk to, you shd have known that i was here. But u failed to see.. U haf failed to see so many stuff. I think sometimes you are juz living in ur own world.. No one can help you unless you help yourself.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005


Man U rocks! Arsenal fans, go home and sleep! -as quoted by Kavi!
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Happy Birthday Kim!!


wherever you are, i still rmbr ur birthday! we gotta meet up soon yea..
Whew.. am i tired or wat.. been out da whole day and yes, i had dinner with the one and only Chen Minyi! (hey it rhymes!) Haha.. went to PS again.. Visited "Made with Love" again.. i think Padma was highly amused by Min's reactions to the scrapbooking materials n stuff there! Haha.. dun say i didn't warn u gal! Yupz.. But thanks to Min, sales were boosted up! Haha.. Datz fantastic.. will be there tmr again..

Had dinner at Cartel.. damn i screwed up da order! haha.. i'm learning lah.. at least the food was good.. woah i'm so full.. my food came first, so i was waiting for Min's food to arrive so that we cld eat.. and that gal was going "no u eat first! shut up! eat! i dun care! eat!" Ok.. i think i was laughing too much at her reaction.. well well.. and she wore a short skirt.. on purpose.. coz she was going out with me! huh?! i dun geddit!
Alritey.. and that gal had to run soon after that coz of some television program.. NESH!! see lah!!! blahzz..


I think when u are in love, u wld do anything for that person.
But when u fall out in love with that person,
you think u were stupid to do all those stuff.. haha..


I forgot.. Huishan msged me asking me where i wanna have lunch on saturday.. and i said i'm fine with anything.. and her interesting reply was, "U pick, stupid banana!!"
Erm.. what is so stupid abt the banana?! hahaha!!
Sweet ppl make my day wonderful.. haha.. Went PS to "Made with Love".. Padma was working there.. Great to see her again aft such a long while.. yupz.. the whole store was left to her management.. which i was kinda surprised but she proved me wrong! she is a great salesperson! haha.. i was the first customer for da day.. yupz.. and since there were no customers, we sat and i made a nice card! haha.. so accomplished! Yupz.. Along came Ah Wai.. just talked and joked and kept ourselves busy with the equipment there, playing around with paper, chalks and wat not.. haha..

So someone stood me up today lah! wah.. damn bad.. wat if i was waiting for u and didnt think of calling beforehand? sigh.. fine fine.. i dunno why u cldnt make it or wat.. but well, i'm glad my day wasnt wasted..

uh huh.. so now i'm waiting for time to pass and then i cld meet Min for dinner.. we are da craziest.. or maybe our ears have problems.. i was at PS and asked Min if she wanted to have lunch with me.. she said she can't.. then she said letz haf dinner since she can't meet me tmr.. then i said alrite and i was gonna leave PS soon.. then when i reached hm, she called me and wanted to meet me at PS.. but i was Home! haha.. Miscommunication! Helps if u dun yell over da phone too much dear.. i might be going deaf soon.. haha.. so anyhow, i'm gonna meet her at PS.. uh huh.. and i'm starving coz i havent had lunch yet!!!

Monday, March 21, 2005

Hmm.. some random thots filling my head after talking to my cousin.. sheesh.. even when u are 20, love is still love.. some love is still shallow.. how saddening? i mean, quoting him, "what can i do? she was with me when i had the money. Now that i dun, she's left." So, makes us wonder doesn't it? What love is really about? I haf no idea. But see, there are so many shallow ppl out there.. tsk tsk.. Love has lost its appeal. What else is new?

Ya.. i really need to complain abt the world's greatest mudderfaadder! if there eva was a "World's Most Irresponsible Idiot" award, then that bugger wld def get it.. omg.. such an annoying asshole.. excuse my language.. that title solely belongs to the damn contractor who's doing the kitchen renovation for my house. How unfortunate? Very. I swear, i mean i really swear i've never seen any1 like him. He irritates the hell outta me man.. Firstly, he can't speak English, we can't speak Mandarin. So only dad communicates with him thru Malay. How efficient? Secondly, he's nv punctual. Hallo, we were waiting for him da whole day and he nv turned up. OK, dad called his handphone. And found out that the smart fella, left his phone at hm. GOSH! A simple job, he's been freaking dragging it for like 2 weeks? If that comopany had a website or email add, i wld haf written a complaint letter.. argghhh.. irritating..

Still thinkin.. should i go to the airport on Sunday? hmmm... hahaha.. i dun mind! Then i can sing Jewel's "Leaving on a Jetplane"! hahaha!!
Mm.. it had been such a long day.. almost never-ending.. but i wished it wld never end.. but of course, it does.. especially when u are having so much of fun with the greatest company.. haha.. yeah.. all good things must come to an end right?

My day started off with bro and me going to J8 to meet Sajeetha and Deepa.. and along our journey there, bro was telling me abt d wedding dinner he went to last week and i was asking him about car pracs n stuff.. some conversation that we never seemed to have whenever we are at home.. it was fun.. but i wish he can stop smoking.. smoke smoke smoke.. terrible lah.. like some chimney.. aiyoh.. i was scolding him.. but well, who listens to Sivan?! No One! haha.. Anyway, Sajeetha n Deepa came soon after that.. and we went to 'Secret Recipe' for lunch.. there is nothing "secret" abt that place!!! well, i was telling bro that there was a nice coffeeshop across the street.. haha.. had lasagne there.. i think Mac Center's pasta is so much filling and so much worth the money.. tsk tsk.. but, the company i was with, made with worth the money and the time.. ha.. i can't stand my brother.. "So sit lah", that's his standard reply!! Argghh!! if u thought i was lame, wait till you see my brother! hmm.. and so we finished lunch and walked around J8.. nothing much to shop around counting the number of times i've walked around there.. haha.. well Deepa was updating me on her life.. Gaya3!! i got gossip to tell you!! haha!! yeah.. Sajeetha really wanted to take pics with us.. so off we went to take all those crazy cuckoo pictures with our equally crazy and hilarious poses.. haha.. haf to say they turned out well.. is it because of ppl in the pic? haha.. i guess when u take pictures with beautiful ppl, u get beautiful results! haha.. remember our "Heartbreakers"? we gotta patent the name! haha.. itz our's!

Yupz.. since we were so tired after giving all those poses, (yeah as if!) we walked to the coffee shop coz the pancake there is yummy! i used bro's money to buy pancake for myself.. haha.. and even there, he cldn't stop smoking.. i took his pack and wanted to take a stick out, and told him that he wants to smoke, he gotta share with me! haha.. ya lah.. this kinda tricks dun work alr.. haha.. As i'm typing this, i got reminded of Deepa's pancake experience! "What goes around, comes around, what goes up must come down"!! haha!! that was crazy man! Uh huh.. so after talking about a whole lotta stuff, and with Sajeetha persuading me not to go for training, hmm.. i relented lah.. felt so bad.. coz David sir called me.. sigh.. i think the closing date to submit the grading form is over.. i guess i gotta go for July's grading.. but he asked me to concentrate on the up coming competition.. Yes sir! -salute! haha..
Yeah.. so we reached hm.. I swear Sajeetha and Deepa know all the tamilans in Singapore.. haha.. as we say, Singapore is too small lah.. every1 knows every1 else.. except me.. coz i am an anti-social.. haha..
Dad came hm and we wanted to have dinner outside.. So did the whole of Singapore decided to have dinner outside? it was freaking crowded lah! we went to 2 seafood place before settling at another place and they said we gotta wait for at least 25minutes.. thank u eh.. like that, wat time u want me to eat? haha.. but oh well, no choice.. so had to wait.. and there were no more vegetables?!! had to see Deepa's reaction! haha.. so fierce! haha.. dinner was crazy as ever.. haha.. Sajeetha had no tissue to wipe her hand lah.. so thank u, had to wipe it on my shirt sleeve.. damn bad! yupz.. Dad was chasing us to leave the place so we had to leave lah.. then we headed down to Holland V, to Sajeetha's place! said HI to aunty and uncle! hahah.. and was disturbing Sajeetha while she was writing in my diary, and brother AS USUAL disturbing Deepa.. hahahaha.. clowns man.. Oh ya, i was browsing thru Henderson Sec's 2003 yearbook.. HAHA.. how ppl change?! haha.. omg! Anyway.. had to leave.. thou we didn't feel like.. Dad drove back.. i think bro had 'nuf of driving around.. but his driving skills are improving.. hurrah now i haf an extra chaffeur! haha..

My brother's random thoughts!! :
born as a warrior die as a legend

Hated by few
Loved by many
Respected by all...

All good things must come to an end,
but maybe they weren't good in the beginning.

Charlie's Angels: Why is Charlie looking so buaysong?! Haha!!
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What Lah? Haha!! The caption was written by ME! Deepa's and my famous 'stick-out-da-tongue' pose! Haha!
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A day out with the Crisis Cousins! Haha! The thorn among the roses, my bro! With my cousins Sajeetha in da centre and beside her, Deepa!
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Saturday, March 19, 2005


isn't it cute? haha.. got it from a taekwondo webby.. nice side kick there..
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Sigh.. i can't think of anyone else who will practically write down the patterns for taekwondo.. Ya lah, thatz me.. How? No choice lah.. didn't go for training for 2 weeks and grading's approaching.. i need to get my belt! so here i am, on a beautiful saturday morning, searching for taekwondo pattern videos and writing them down.. wat a task.. i hope the closing date for grading is not over yet.. itz all right if i have to pay the late fee of 5 dollars.. haha.. as long as i get to go for grading.. i'm done with 3 belts.. a few more lah.. can rmbr green belt and brown tip.. so alrite..

so mum's behind me talking to me and i'm typing away on da com.. i'm not even answering her.. haha.. just nodding my head.. i just listen to her lah.. since she can't complain to dad, she complains to me.. thatz ok.. i'm lending her my listening ear! haha.. divya went to da zoo yesterday to visit her best friends.. haha..

i guess i got nth else to say.. hmm..

Friday, March 18, 2005

Laughter, the best medicine? Uh huh i totally agree with that! Itz a 100% assured when i am with Uzair and Hafid! And if u add Eileen into the situation, total hysterics! Itz all so silly when we look back at it, with Eileen's serious questions and the 3 of us giving her the worst and lamest answers!

Eileen: Where's Firhan?
Hafid: -Pretends to look into Eileen's wallet- Nope, not here.
Me: -searching into my pockets- Not here either.

Did i mention that we were lame? Absolutely! Firhan is super slow.. Till now, he's been thinking that Ridzafir's name is 'Uzafir'? U miss Uzair too much?!
Eileen and i went to J8 and guess who we saw? SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS and Patrick Starfish! Haha! Damn, we wanted to avoid all those cameras but we had to walk in front of it all!

Seminar was good.. haha.. i turned around and told Hafid and Uzair "SW guys are good looking." And they both thanked me. Next thing, i added on, "but why is our batch an exception?!"
Opps! I'm joking guys! U r all da best looking guys in da whole course! Happy?!

Now that exams are over, i have too much time on my hands.. So i guess i better keep myself occupied by.. ..? erm i haf no idea.. Dad asked me to take up a 3rd language.. i wanna take up driving, take up guitar, play soccer, train for grading.. yep.. supposed to go for taekwondo this evening.. dumb clown Reagan was sleeping and da whole of next week, he's busy.. my arm guards are still with him.. argghh.. itz alrite.. i shall go for trainings myself.. oh ya, now i noe what i can do! i can go check out d taekwondo video patterns and prepare for grading! yeah!

When life throws you with the most unexpected things,
well, take ur bat and give ur best shot.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Singapore is freaking small! I like.. haha.. hmm.. so my friend's friend knows my another friend's friend!!! hahaha!! ok, a bit redundant here.. but hey, itz a discovery k.. so dun rain on my parade! imagining the surprise look on my friend when i tell her.. haha.. i luv surprises! dun u?!

anyway, my exams are OVER.. and i dunno why i dun feel excited.. oh wells.. anyway, had lunch, (was that lunch at 3pm?!) at amk pizza hut wif Qiuyu, Chris and Eileen.. thanks to Kaizhuan, Yuanzhi, Benny and Benson who ditched us! but hey, even then, lunch was simply fabulous! Christina is weird.. ok, she is too nice maybe? haha.. she accompanied us all da way there and did not eat single thing.. i mean SINGLE.. haha..
aft Chris left, Eileen, Qiuyu and i walked to Sportslink and World of Sports.. looking for sumthing nice for our dearest Eileen but dat gal just cldn't set her mind on anything! haha..

we left.. but we formed an alliance.. an ADIDAS alliance! and we are against... ****! Haha! go figure, it aint that hard..
Being the last day of our sem, it was easier to coax Eileen into taking 162 with me! It was crazy coz i suddenly told her abt dis newspaper report i read abt 50 cent in the Today paper.. and i told her that "bounce" in rap jargon means "leave".. and so out of sheer boredom, i was thinking abt songs which has "bounce" or "leave" in them..

Me: Eileen, imagine Jewel singing, "i'm bouncing on a jetplane.. i don't know when i'll be back again..."!!!
Eileen: -laughing-

Haha.. that was hysterical man! oh gosh.. how abt Sarah Connor singing "leave baby out that door, i aint gonna take this no more"...!! sudden silly inspiration.. yeah.. anything to make the bus ride worth our time.. haha.. craziness..

YEAH! i got a lunch date this sunday! hahaha!! Finally! as in finally i'm seeing that person.. not finally having a date!
approm makkals? aye.. good morning.. been up since 8.30am.. yawnz.. having kitchen renovation in d noon.. so sleepy lah.. now i know why Ms.Teo said she doens't like stats to be da last paper.. haha.. i'm guilty.. but hey, i did study.. last nite and this morning! hmm.. long awaited day is finally here.. hurrah.. ok, i dun even sound excited.. i wonder why..

was chatting wif Quiyu last nite.. omg.. i think we r better friends now coz of our long and lengthy gossip sessions! haha.. damn funny lah.. but gotta say, he got some great views on stuff.. uh huh..

Brother is da lamest lah.. mum and aunty were talking abt luv and marriage n stuff and so aunt was enquiring abt bro and i said he has a galfren! haha.. aunty is so funny!! haha.. "let her study lah. she's so young"! gosh! and bro was his own defence lawyer while mum and aunt were the public prosecutors and me? i was just watching all da action.. haha.. we were talking abt cars lah.. coz bro wants to rent a car in his holz.. and he asked me so graciously, "what car do u want me to rent?" and i happily said "volkswagon beetle!!!" and his lame reaction, "NO!! cannot!!" argghhh!! too much, 4 much.. no, actually itz 17 March! haha! my fav "March" joke!! Lame.. CMI man..

so.. yea, i heard this from somewhere,

"Boyfriends stab you in the front,
strangers stab you in the back,
but best friends dun carry knives."

Nice huh? haha!!

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

We are da silliest!! -exclaims-
Hahaha!! is it me or does amk KFC haf a crazy effect on me? ok, itz just me i guess.. laughing unneccessarily over da littlest stuff.. itz fun lah! and i saw Huishan at kfc!! another crazy gal! she was so excited to see me that when she got from her seat to give me a hug, she knocked down the bags on the chair next to her! haha! and her friends started laughin.. yesh.. i got that hug thou! haha!

so there we were.. letz see.. Christina, Uzair, Hafid, Min and me! craziness man.. i swear i laughed so much! over da dumbest things! haha.. Min trying to speak Malay and me trying to converse in Malay with Uzair and Fid and quiet Christina, with our occasional glances n winks! haha!! yeah.. we know watz going on.. [huh? we do?!] we dun actually! haha.. Saw Constance and Meixian there too.. watz up? Deyians and ex-Deyians storming amk kfc today? haha.. saw Yanyi and a few other ppl whom i dunno!
we chatted for soo long.. gossiping. ha!

i am crazy --- i dunno why my brother had to type that! i asked him to type something, and this is wat i get?! crazy!

where was i? ohh.. aunty is here.. i've been sitting at d com for over a couple of hrs but i've been listening to her gossips! hahahaha!! Runs in the family!!!!! ok, actually not! hahaha..

TMR IS DA LAST PAPER!!! woah wee!!! and i'm booked on da 26th of March! haha.. erm.. Anyone wants to date me out on the 27th?! Haha!!
Ok, God exists in everyday life and sometimes God comes in the form of people. Trust me. Anyone who saves your skin from something, or is there when u needed that extra push or extra hand, is an angel sent down by God! haha.. and today, i'm so grateful that i was around an angel.. not ur usual sweet, soft spoken angel with shimmering eyes! haha.. this one's a bit different.. This angel was wearing an Esprit t-shirt.. haha.. with Nike shoes? yes i think they are Nike! yup.. and she literally made me listen to her rattling on and on about management concepts and asking me abt work teams, and all those definations and so on.. i hate last minute studying.. but since she was asking, i dun wanna appear like i've not studied (in fact i did!) so i tried to answer her on-going qns and subsequently took my book out and was checking.. Holy God! when i flipped my qn paper this morning, i realised that most of the qns that she asked me earlier, were all on the paper! How lucky can i get? omg! Hahaha.. Isnt life wonderful? there i was, deciding that i had enuf of work teams!! but, due to extra 'motivation', i had to, and i mean i had to flip my books again.. Grateful.. that was wat crossed my mind.. wooo.. i am one lucky ass.. so, my fears were for nothing.. can u believe it? i was dreading management paper.. in the end, it sure was manageable! phew.. Thanks angel!

So there.. there are angels in ur daily life.. itz just that, do you notice them?

i just saw one today

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

i am suffering from INSOMNIA!!! i can't sleep... hahaha.. haiyoh.. and i didnt feel like waking up this morning.. but obviously i had to.. bcoz i had accounts exam.. blahz.. was early in meeting Min.. there she was, still studying.. gosh.. Criz came and the 3 of us walked to sch, with Min and me bickering as always.. haha.. itz TUESDAY for ur info! haha.. how interesting.. we are so cuckoo lah.. ohh, i wanted to tell Min "dun be dumb" but since she doesn't like the word dumb, i said, "dun be ... silly"! haha!! not bad not bad.. a pat on the back for me!
exam was ok.. i just felt like sleeping lah.. dunno why, felt super sleepy.. paper was ok.. when i turned behind aft they've collected the papers, i noticed that the ppl behind me, from Uz to Qiuyu i guess, had all left! and there was Eileen! haha.. i waved a hi to her.. haha.. da silly things i do.. yes, at d exam hall.. aft exam, walked out of da sports hall, happened to see Vanisha, Razinah and Bazilah.. poor Vanisha is sick.. i cant even understand what she was trying to tell me.. haha.. hope you've seen a doc gal! accompanied Min to da north canteen so she cld eat!!! along came Terry, Jinghui and KhorkiEeee!!! haha.. talked talked till i had to go meet Hemma.. wait, a song for her:
Hey ma, what's up
lets slide, all right
all right and we get it on tonight
You smoke, I smoke
I drink, me too
well good cause we gon get high tonight
Got drops, got Coups, got Trucks, got jeeps
all right cause we gon take a ride tonight
So ma, what's up
let's slide, all right
all right and we gon get it on tonight
Crazy me.. haha.. Coz Hemma sounds like "Hey Ma"..
Yupz.. so i brought Hemma over to wonderful nyp for lunch.. and saw da sick gal wif Raz n Baz! haha.. opps! my cousin thinks Min is pretty... hmmm... lemme think abt it before i say anything... well... haha okok lah.. pretty lah..
letz not talk abt the MCYS seminar thingy, coz it was a total waste of time.. ha.. terrible..
anyway.. tmr is management.. sigh.. gotta study.. 2 more papers..

Monday, March 14, 2005

Was chatting wif a wise one.. hahaha!! and i asked a thought-provoking qn.. and she as usual, had a way to answer it.. i asked her,
"why does God make 2 ppl who arent even ard the same wavelength, who come from total opposite backgrounds and fight over da dumbest things, meet?"

and da wise one said,
"in fact i dun..and i always thought tt was wad made life so beautiful and interesting.. and well, altho u fight with the person, think abt it, if it stops wun u miss it? haha, sometimes its better not to find answers cos living is like abstract art.. u can nvr figure it out!"

Life.. Go figure!
Whatz up with the newspapers these days? Every page i turn, i see the words "Media", "Mass communication".. Talk abt signs.. Is everything pointing to the direction where i hoped i could be? I just asked myself today as i was reading an advert in the newpaper for the diploma in Sports and Leisure management.. am i gonna be a coach? Nah. am i gonna enter the sports industry? i wish! Then what am i doing, taking a diploma in Sports and Wellness management?! I dunno how many times i've asked myself this qn and i've yet to get an answer from myself.. I really wish i was taking a diploma in Mass Communication, but of course with my wonderful classmates.. Uh huh.. i wanna write a book.. someone inspire me pls! haha!! and one day, i'll be famous.. for writing?!! erm i dunno.. Btw Singapore Press Holdings is so near my place!! haha!!

Did i mention i love writing? Ohh.. you'd probably figure that out by now?! Haha!
Halloooo!!! Happy good Monday to every1!!!! Today is a fabulous day!! why? erm.. coz i said so!! haha!! look.. itz exam week and i can still be so crazy.. crazy wazy, topsy turvy, wavy curvy.. oh gosh.. Stop it Sivan! hahaha!! okok.. i met Christina and went to sch!! She's so cute.. i was waitin for her at d train station n she came along so i walked towards her and her immediate reaction was to gimme a 5! haha.. i dunno y! but i missed her lots! yeah.. crazy gal.. cld still watch WWE No Way Out.. haha.. too bad, i didnt.. and i had horrible nitemares last nite.. thanks to all those dumb ghost stories on radio.. must tell mum not to listen to them.. at least not with me!!

Met Benny and Qiuyu and we sat n talked to them.. there was a guest in campus.. none other than Ms.Tanya Tan.. i've become so famous that ppl wanted to see me?! -disbelief- haha.. I am Sivan.. and Sivan is ME! pls dun mistake me for sum1 else! hahaha!!

Paper was alritee lah.. ok ok.. as long can pass, i'm happy with that.. yupz.. crazy lah.. hung out wif Jac, Uzair, Fid and darling Min aft that.. haha.. so nice to see KhorkiEe.. dunno why! haha.. goofing around with her! haha.. cuckoo lah.. more lame jokes.. ultra lame jokes.. ahhh.. hahaha.. went off with Jac, Fid n Uz.. uh huh.. tmr's accounts.. gotta study.

ok lah.. dun blame me if i dunno who's Jon Johnson.. He plays soccer? Wrestler? nope.. he's da winner of Manhunt or sumthing lah.. haha.. i'm so oblivious of all these.. k i didnt follow that show.. but now, do i haf a choice? not when Min's new found neighbour is Mr.Johnson.. i'd rather be Shearer's or Beckham's or Roberto Carlos' neighbour.. haha.. ohh, i dun mind The Undertaker or John Cena or Shawn Michaels.. haha..

tmr is 15th of March.. and then it'll be 16th, 17th and 18th.. uh huh.. so watz new? haha.. nothing!

WU HUISHAN!!!

thanks for teaching me Econs!! owe u one!!

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Manchester United 4 - Southampton 0

YES! itz wonderful news for all Manchester United fans over da world as Manchester United qualifies for the FA cup as they triumph over Southampton over at St Mary's.. The scoreline was 4-0! haha!! yes.. they predicted lots of goals.. The match was at 1.10am this morning and surprisingly i watched d first half.. aha.. too high on Viva Strawberry yoghurt drink, really! thatz wat KhorkiEe said! haha.. Giggs was out on a facial injury.. and they were playing on a 4-4-1-1 formation.. with Rooney and Van Nistelrooy upfront.. yupz.. the 2nd minute goal from Keane was a superb one! If Arsenal can score in the 3rd minute, Man U is a minute ahead! haha!! wonderful play.. esp Rooney.. the way he dribbled through 2 Saints player and passed the ball to Nistelrooy who passed it to Ronaldo who finally put the ball where it belonged: in the net! haha!! beautiful play.. saw the match highlights this morning and found out that Paul Scholes scored twice in the second half.. Great! haha! Man U's attack is good, but not the same for defence.. very sloppy.. Rio Ferdinand is a good player, but too blur! He was hesitating whether to let Tim Howard get the ball or should he clear it himself.. could haf cost a goal to them.. luckily didn't..

oh wells.. enough soccer talk.. that's NOT watz coming out in the exams.. i need to revise Econs.. haha.. if only there was a Principles of Soccer or Soccer Management.. haha.. i'm sure many of us wld ace it.. anyway.. thatz it.. all da best to me and every1 having exams next week..

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Arsenal 1 - Bolton 0

YES! for once, my predictions were on target!! but rather disappointing as they only won by a goal.. Fredrik Ljungberg's 3rd minute goal.. see, Arsenal can survive without Henry.. and Ashley Cole was out on a hamstring injury.. Bergkamp, Reyes, Pires and Viera is all the team need to win lah.. But gotta agree, terrible miss by Ljungberg.. that should haf been in.. easy goal.. wat a waste.. 93rd minute too.. they could haf changed the scoreline to 2-nil.. haha..

waiting for Man Utd's match.. like wat Terry said, the most important thing is that Man U wins.. i second that!

Min called.. actually i msg-ed her and asked if i cld call her up.. but she called.. haha.. ok.. i'm happy now.. -grins from ear to ear-
i chatted with the Prince of Wales.. or so as Nesh claimed! haha.. yes, and i am still da Queen of England. haha.. craziness.. but thank u Nesh for providing an answer to all my questions.. haha..
and lastly, i called KhorkiEe.. can u pls be honoured?! i know i replied ur msg very very late! at least i called ya!! hahaha!! and i did miss you!! dearest KhorkiEe can still ask me, "yes? wat do u want? how can i help u?".. and i said "double cheeseburger, medium ice lemon tea and fries!!" haha!! LAME! ok 'nuf..


itz the 24th minute and Arsenal is leading 1 nil against Bolton.. haha!! hope the streak continues..
erm.. it really sounds weird coming from a Man Utd fan.. but i gotta win the bet!
*let things be all right* -crosses fingers
Benny, we both lost the bet.. at least for the S League match.. Geylang drew with Albirex..
now we shall wait for the Arsenal match and hopefully they win! (coming out from a Man U fan?!)
i guess i gotta repeat myself..

u mean alot to me and i dun wanna lose u over such trivial matters..

Friday, March 11, 2005

Can we Please push the damn Television into EXTINCTION????
Hey.. Newcastle are through to the quarter finals.. great match.. Shearer once again proving his worth.. and Kluivert, finally making his mark.. haha.. great.. So now i'm in d ibrc wif Benny and Clare.. Uzair was wif us earlier.. but, ahem ahem, now he's at d Mac wif a GIRL! haha.. he has poor eyesight lah.. kept sayin d gal is ugly.. but after seeing her, we all agree that she's not that bad.. Uzair only eyes for ahem ahem.. dat Royal Highness.. ahaha.. i m crapping.. both of us have been crapping since lunch.. i dunno y.. and wif Benny's arrival, we've been crapping even more.. haha.. studied stats.. not bad.. Uzair called Eileen to join us.. but as u all know, she doesn't like to leave the comfort of her house.. next thing u know, she'll wanna take the exams in her house.. haha.. crap.. hmm.. the 'brother' at FJ's western store is freaking lame lah.. Clare and i went to order food from there and he asked me, "are u all just friends or have some kinda special r'ship?" erm.. and i said "obviously we r just friends. why?" and he said "ohh, because i wanna tackle her." erm.. UNCLE, u wanna tackle her??!! *clare: -pukes- my gf is overseas now. ...she'll come back to burn your shop. Hahaha.. nice thoughts u haf there.. haha.. crazy.. and then i ordered this lunch set called "seafood fiesta" and he got the plate and said "see, food".. LAME.. CANNOT MAKE IT LAH! and he poured the tomato herb sauce over the sphagetti and i said, "brother, the SEA covering all the FOOD!!!" LAMER'S DAY!! oh gosh.. wat do u get when u put Sivan, Benny and Uzair together? Ans: LAME.. erm.. i dunno how i derived at this answer, Benny just said that.. ok nvm..
btw, itz a beautiful day.. i cant see the sun and it rained just now.. hey, we shd appreciate dark days too!! oh ya, Benny and i haf a lunch bet! He said Arsenal will draw with Bolton this Saturday coz Henry is injured and will be out for 3 weeks.. i said Arsenal will pull an easy win over Bolton.. so there. the loser gotta treat lunch for the winner.. and where will the lunch be? hawker centre!! hahaha!! ok, Benny being such a nice guy, has agreed.. haha.. great.. whoeva wins or loses, we will both haf a scrumptious meal!! haha.. i'm sure Min will be on my side since i'm bettting for Arsenal.. letz talk abt Man U.. they'll be playing against Southampton.. hmm.. i think they'll either win or draw.. unpredictable lah.. and Benny thinks there's a possibility that Real Madrid will lose against Getafe.. eh.. i swear i've nv heard of that club! haha..
we forgot abt S League!! Benny said Geylang will win against Albirex.. i disagree!!! letz bet for the Japs.. haha.. if only we cld place bets under Singapore Pool.. haha.. but, i think i shdnt.. i've lost too much $ on betting.. haha.. enuf lah..

oh goodness gracious me!! itz already 5pm!!! i wanna go Home!!!!! and enjoy a nice hot cup of tea.. haha..



itz weird that when i was thinkin abt u da whole nite, and u didn't appear in my dreamz..
but it wasnt a peaceful nite though..
letz get things straight.. i know i say stupid things at times and i do even stupider stuffs.. and i rarely get angry over things.. but when i do get angry, it just lasts for a while?.. if i'm in the wrong, i'll apologise.. if i said something mean, i'll say sorry.. yes.. so, i'm sorry.. i dunno why i'm saying sorry.. but sorry anyway.. erm.. there's alot of things i wld like to say and i know in my blog i wun get interrupted.. haha.. so.. for the record, i dunno why we haf all these little misunderstandings, but i'm glad we always get things rite at d end of da day.. and itz weird that both of us, who are as apart as north pole and the south pole, are such good friends.. but like wat u like to say, Everything happens for a Reason".. opposites attract? not neccessarily.. thatz why i believe that me being here is for a reason.. ahem.. shdnt state what the reason is though.. haha.. anyway, i noe i get stepped over by ppl at times.. and i noe i've got ppl like u to stand up for me and i appreciate that.. i'm an easy going person.. so i go wif the flow.. i guess if u were me, and sumthing happened to u, i wld get angry for u too.. so i understand how u feel.. but, letz not fight over the littlest of stuff.. we only got 2 more years.. after that, everything is an unknown.. i'm being apprehensive abt the future but there's no point worrying abt it when we've got the best of the present, which is Now! so, we'll just continue irritating da hell outta each other, but mildly only ok?! haha.. jokes aside, u mean alot to me and i dun wanna lose u over such trivial matters.. there. i've said it all. if i were to continue, i might as well write a novel and give it to you.. ok that was lame. enough said.

Food for thought:
if u dun get angry, u dun care.
but if u do get angry, then u do care!

Thursday, March 10, 2005

sorry Arsenal fans.. itz da end of da line for u and me.. both Man U and Arsenal are out to da Champions League.. letz root for Chelsea or Liverpool k?! haha.. went to sch wif Min.. juz cause she can eat her laksa.. dun ask y.. in d end, dun haf laksa.. alamak.. so no choice, went to FJ and she ate.. yupz.. lunch was on da house coz she betted that Arsenal wld win the match against Bayern Munich.. yupz.. so they did win and i did lose my bet..
i guess i was a bad PSL? coz i cldnt refuse peer pressure? Mrs.Ong wld haf been disappointed in me.. haha.. i wanted to study in sch.. but got dragged to watch "Hitch".. no prize for guessing who i watched it wif.. oh well.. i should really cut down on my expenditure.. i mean, really. since going to poly, i've been spending more.. hell.. i shd stay hm more often..

went to meet Huishan!!!! haha.. finally caught up wif her at d Mac near her place.. had lunch, yes, at 3.30pm, and updated each other wif our lives.. itz so coincidental how the both of us are in da same situation.. yep.. all these talks just make me miss sec sch life even more.. aye.. we are suffering from "post-secondary-school-life-syndrome". everything has taken a 360 degree change.. enuf of sad stories! ok.. i studied econs and lemme tell u wat a wonderful teacher Huishan is! omg! i totally forgot how studyin wif her was like! she is da best.. she explained very thoroughly and patiently.. man, better than our wonderful tutor.. i think i finally understand wateva i cldnt understand before! haha.. thanks so much gal..
and while telling me how to draw graphs, Shan went like "before you draw anything, anything, anything..." ok, u shd haf seen the way she said it! gosh.. it juz made the both of us laugh.. and there we were, laughing at her sudden outburst.. haha.. and then i realised how long it had been since i laughed genuinely from my soul.. it juz clicked. that was the difference between everything.. we juz sat there, laughing at a silly thing and there was no one there to say "hallo, thatz not even funny!" it was a real laughter.. the one thing that is still real.. though it had been missing.. and i'm glad it was there. even just for a day.. and with my close friend.. for that couple of hours, i was genuinely happy. so thanks Shan.. and Cynthia a.k.a washing machine! hahaha.. thank u both for the belated Valentine's day gift!! it really really made me smile today!! i luv it!!!!! woof woof!!! hahahahha!!!

Jinghui is nice to talk to.. hahaha!! thanks oh-wise-one!! haha!! crazy me..

Food for thought:
Some people are receivers and some people are givers.. the receivers might be richer at the end of the day, but itz the givers who sleep happily in the night.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Hey.. just gonna blog abit b4 i hit da books.. yepz.. printing past year exam papers now.. dumb printer wasnt cooperating wif me juz now.. but thank god to sumthing called "troubleshooter", everything's ok now!! haha.. i rmbr once when my printer was printing the wrong things and i didnt wanna waste the papers, so i wld pull the paper out of the printer.. haha.. it nv works! arrgghh!

went to sch, supposedly to study.. joined Uzair at d Mac canteen.. but my eyes caught sight of the 8 Days mag lying next to Uzair, so instead of studying, i was reading that mag.. haha.. at least Uz was asking me some econs qns.. so abit of work done there.. not enough, i know! yupz.. we were listening to his jukebox, which was attached to 2 small speakers (see the stuff that's inside his Big Bag?!) and Ja Rule's "Wonderful" song was running.. so u know the part where R Kelly goes "ho ho hoho" sumthing like that? and i was singing it and Uzair said "not Christmas yet"... LAME!! omg!! anyway, Hafid called me up and he was also in sch wif his galfren! haha.. so we joined them and went to level 5 com lab.. did we study? sorta.. Hafid clarified econs wif Uz.. and me? i was sourcing for da past year papers, which i found thanks to Fid.. must say Shasha is rather a nice person.. very quiet too.. and Hafid being the person he is, kept disturbing her lah.. yupz.. and Uz was so bored that he went to shockwave.com to play some games.. and i said "letz play pool" (as in the computer game) and Hafid immediately went "ok letz play pool!!" (which he meant by us going to the pool place to play!) and so, all of us decided to play pool! yep.. b4 we left sch, we bumped into Vanisha and Razinah! good to see them.. then at FJ, i saw Gaya!! haha.. long time nv see her.. so chatted wif her for a while b4 taking a cab to amk central.. haha.. cab fare was $2.60 if i'm not wrong.. sponsored by your's truly! yupz.. so we played pool.. i think Uzair is da best player among us lah.. and i suck at pool.. i really gotta get my bro to teach me to play.. but hey, wif Hafid, Shasha and Uzair teaching me, i wasnt that bad.. haha.. i lost a game against Shasha and aft that Uzair and i paired up against Fid and Shasha and we WON! haha.. all thanks to Uzair lah! went off after that.. poor Uzair had training at bukit gombak at 4 and we left amk at like 3.50? opps! haha..

finally got my Gatzby wax! haha.. atrocious price man! see, bcoz of the increase in price, there is a movement along the demand curve and as u all noe Sivan is not a rich man's daughter, she decreases her expenditure on Gatzby wax.. haha.. i'm trying to apply econs here ok.. i know it probably doesn't make any sense.. haha.. oh well i tried.. ok i'm being happier than i've been for days.. haha.. and itz because someone changed her flight so that she'll be here for my birthday!! hahaha.. i am sOoOo touched!!

Management... here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -runs around the house like a crazy gal-

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Good afternoon.. juz finished studying 3 chapters of management.. sigh.. itz Tuesday ALREADY? days go by so quickly.. is the earth revolving extra quickly? blahz.. anyway, i am such an absent minded person.. first i misplaced my ruler.. actually itz wif Eileen.. and now, i cant seem to find my stapler.. haiyoh.. irritating man.. i hate losing things but i lose stuff like nobody's business.. yeah.. i can even misplace my handphone at hm and search for it everywhere and not find it.. happened to me once.. i searched for my phone and finally mum told me it was in da kitchen.. i wonder how it ended up there? oh well..
anyway, i went Queensway yesterday.. wif my wonderful family.. yes, we had to go out coz brother wants to drive, desperately! ohh.. he almost knocked down this idiotic fella who looked abt 18-20 years old.. we were so close to that fella and my bro slowed down da car and dat dumb ass was fiddling wif his phone.. hallo? u wanna die, die. but pls, not this car!! and i wonder why bro didnt think of using the car horn?!

yupzz.. had dinner at Holland ave and when i told Sajeetha, she called me a pig coz i didnt ask her along! haha.. anyway we've established connection once again.. whew.. ohh.. Hemma called last evening to talk.. erm wat did we talk? basically insulting each other as usual and me teaming up wif Divya to irritate Hemma! haha!! crazy lah..

need to studyyy... arrggghhh.. and i need to talk to Hafid...
ohh.. Do you know that Mrs.Soh is gonna be taking the International Cross culture class? so cool rite?! she said itz fun and easier than taking languages.. haha.. i haf Hafid to thank for!




all these talk abt friendship is actually crap.
a true friend is someone who'll hear you out,
be it your mum, ur dad, ur brother, ur sister, ur cousin or whoeva.
Not necessarily, a Friend.
and most of the time,
we choose to ignore that person
and we search high and low for that 'friend'
when actually, we are staring right into their eyes.
Truth is, that person was sitting beside you all along,
but you didn't realise it.

Monday, March 07, 2005


Chris, me and Min! after the "Chris Minfrey" show.. renamed after the "Oprah Winfrey" show! haha! we're da polo tee gals!
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Sivan is the queen of england!!! says:
hahah
Sivan is the queen of england!!! says:
look at my nick
Tell me why are we so blind to see that the ones we hurt are you and me? says:
omg



Erm.. that was Nesh.. the Londoner.. idiot! haha.. he had his breakfast of waffles wif syrup and English muffins and wat not.. plainly disturbing me! he's a trained psychologist.. thatz wat he says! he is lah okok.. anyway thanks for the road towards enlightenment.. i appreciate it.. i'm nowhere there thou.. -grin-
he told me lotsa stuff that needs large volume in the brain to decipher.. but, ok, itz in da processing mode.. i'm still thinking thru it..

and i know who that person/people are. sadly i guess itz not you? i dunno.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

"If you have tears, prepare to shed them now.
You all recognize this toga.
I remember the first time Caesar ever put it on.
It was on a summer's evening in his tent,
That day he overcame the Nervii.
Look, in this place Cassius' dagger ran through.
See what a hole the envious Casca made.
Through this one the well-beloved Brutus stabbed;
And as he pulled his cursed steel away,
Notice how the blood of Caesar followed it,
As if it was rushing outside to find out
If it was Brutus who so unkindly knocked or not;
Because Brutus, as you know, was Caesar's angel.
Judge, O you gods, how dearly Caesar loved him!
This was the most unkindest cut of all;
Because when the noble Caesar saw him stab,
Ingratitude, stronger than traitors' arms,totally defeated him.
Then his mighty heart burst;
And hiding his face in his toga,
Right at the bottom of Pompey's statue (Which ran blood the whole time) great Caesar fell.
O, what a fall that was, my countrymen!
Then I, and you, and all of us fell down,
While bloody treason grew over us.
O, now you weep, and I can tell that you feel the beginnings of pity.
These are gracious draps.
Kind souls, what, do you weep when you look only at our Caesar's wounded clothing?
Look at this!
Here is his body, damaged, as you see, with traitors."
Let's blog.. how bout NOW? haha..

Went Yishun ite to study! i really like that place! very conducive, on a SUNDAY! haha.. Rajwant, Clare, Benny and Eileen were there.. yupz.. studied Econs.. not bad lah.. but after a while, i lost focus and went to disturb Eileen.. opps.. i'm so bad lah.. i know i know.. but i haf short attention span.. yupz.. cld tell that Eileen wasn't happy.. sigh.. next time, i'll study wif 99% focus? yep.. Really need some1 like San or Cynthia to study with.. i rmbr Cynthia scolding me when i got distracted.. haha.. those were da days.. better substitute that phrase wif sumthing else.. getting kinda cliche.. yupz.. Benny and i had our soccer talk.. then Rajwant drove us to North Point so that we cld get our lunch.. Uzair joined us and we had lunch in the yishun ite canteen.. ohh ya, Benny got this cake from Bengawan Solo and he and the rest of them decided to let me cut the cake and haf it as my "3 weeks advance Birthday celebration"! so sweet!! very touched! thank u all for being such sweeties!

cldnt get back to studying after that.. lost focus totally.. haha.. think Rajwant n Eileen were d only ones studying.. Eileen taught me Econs.. woah.. she can be real fierce man.. haha.. makes a good teacher.. great.. thanks for teaching me Ms.Tan! haha..!! ET!! hahaha. crazy lah..

came hm and my crazy cuzins were there! haha.. Kavitha rebonded her hair! pretty! thank god it looks natural and not like some broomstick! haha.. and prakash was being sOoOo nice to me coz he wanted me to help him wif his art! haha!! being a bad cuzin, i told him i was too tired! haha.. no lah, i was really tired.. was juz chatting wif aunty n Kavi.. wat were we chatting on? ohh.. abt Oprah Winfrey! hahaha!! after a while, dunno why, we were madly dancing. thanks to 50 cent and the Punjabi remix.. brother joined us.. he and his dumb dance.. haha.. aunty is damn 'happening' lah.. she's da best.. haha.. no need to exercise, juz turn da volume up and dance away.. phew.. freaking tired.. Prakash eats so slowly.. haha.. every1 finished their dinner except for dat cutie.. haha.. naughty boy lah.. kids nowadays.. haha..

tired tired.. enuf studying for da day.. actually i wanna play soccer.. haha.. one week for me to study, then 4 days of exams, then it OVER.. can't wait.

I'm minding my own business and here comes Eileen, trying to kick me!! BULLY!
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Eileen is freaking irritating.. wah.. i'm in yishun ite once again.. to study. sorry lah i am very distracted so here i am blogging..


Eileen: Say i IRRITATING?!??!! who in the first place come to my desktop & disturb me huh?!?!?! people studying and then YOU must come and use the computer here lah??!?!?! :P

see, thatz wat i said.. constantly bullied by this 18 year old gal.. sigh.. oh wells.. stomach is rumbling.. i am hungry.. i'm ordered to type more softly so as not to disturb Eileen, de One and Only!! oh my goodness.. but since i am considerate, i shall abide by the Royal Highness' rules.. Queen Eileen.. how does it sound? RUTHLESS Queen Eileen, after Queen Victoria.. haha.. opps.. Man U drew wif Crystal Palace.. haiyoh.. luckily Newcastle won Liverpool..

all hail Queen Eileen.. -pukes-

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Went bowling after a long time.. i mean Long! haha.. forced Eileen to join us! haha.. but it was fun man.. Qiuyu bluffed me.. he told me he cant bowl well.. but he was da best among us.. well that cld be because we were all lousy! haha.. Chris is a cute bowler! she always got that expression after she bowls.. haha.. a little skip and a smile and a sheepish smile if her ball rolls down da drain.. is it called a drain?! haha.. "longkang to us lah! yea.. cldnt get size 6 or 7 balls.. so we were stuck wif 8.. heavy lah! qiuyu used number 10.. yep.. in our last game, Chris n i paired up against qiuyu and Eileen.. yup.. We LOST! haha!! so we were supposed to treat them a drink.. i treated Eileen to a drink.. chris! u havent treated qiu yet! hahah!! crazy lah.. went hm after that.. still had lotsa time.. and was supposed to meet eileen at d mrt station b4 our com class.. so i called her and asked where she was, and she was coming from compass point.. she cld still ask me to leave hm aft 10 minutes eh! and when i reached da bus stop near my place, the wonderful bus had to leave.. which left me abt 20 minutes waiting for da bus.. and eileen had alr reached.. SO, she went sch.. luckily i saw Anna and i walked to sch wif her! hahah.. and also complained to her! haha.. i luv my classmates!! com class was kinda different, coz "someone" wasnt there lah.. -wink- i sat in between Hafid n Rajwant but Hafid had to change com coz his wasnt working.. Frontpage test was ok.. was helping Rajwant n d others.. was fun.. Hafid n i were sOo noisy during class! i told Mr.Peter Goh that i'll miss him.. haha. he dun wanna believe me lah! but hey, he is a nice teacher.. very nice in fact.. itz da last day of d sem.. i feel sad.. thank god i haf 2 more years.. but this 1st year has ended super fast.. i luv my class.. i cld not haf asked for a better class.. yep.. maybe this is why i came to nyp instead of going to some other poly? to meet this great group of ppl.. haha.. everything happened for a reason.. i am glad.. very.

i haf great friends.. somehow Benny and Hafid always seemed to know when i'm down and they always know how to brighten up my day.. haha.. such great guys.. truly.. last nite i was chatting wif Benny.. we always seemed to haf great conversations and he is one person whom i can truly talk abt everything to.. thanks for everything guys! u r simply great.. did i mention i have great friends?! i did!

hmm.. isnt it strange that Huishan, Cynthia and i are having the exact same thots now? juz chatted wif Cynthia online last nite.. itz like, we were saying how nowadays therez no one quite like the old friends we had.. ppl hardly haf time to care abt themselves that they dun take a look at d person next to them.. everything has begin to revolve ard them.. haf lost that feeling.. that feeling that sum1 cares and sum1 is there.. oh well.. we all say "i'll keep in touch", "we'll be friends" blah blah blah.. but these promises, we dun really keep after a while.. itz sad.. we make friends to lose them to time? i dunno.. thatz why i hate the word "forever".. coz itz a lie.


all my life, i prayed for someone like you.. and i hope that you feel the same way too.
yes i pray that you do love me too.

Friday, March 04, 2005

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a star wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
once again, i had to learn thru the hard way that being complacent doesn't get u anywhere.. Well done Sivan, simply Well Done.. itz not the first time u did that anyway. how many times must u go thru it before u learn your lesson? sigh.. i guess nice guys do finish last..

Sizta, although we dun meet up often, somehow u seem to be always there. sigh.. thanks for all ur comforting words.. hope to meet up with u soon..

hey beautiful, I guess there'll be a time when we'll all wonder juz wad the hell we are doing down here..
and u'll start fretting tt u havent done anything useful at all in ya entire existence..
But one day when u manage to put a smile in a person's face or 2, u'll realise tt this is precisely why u are here for..
And I juz wanna let u know tt u have always made me lift my corners during the darkest times and I love u so much for tt.. and tt is exactly why God sent u down. To be my Angel...




i'm tired.. very tired..
Second semester has ended.. strange.. it seemed really very fast.. less than 4 months.. things are all going at such a fast pace.. i wanna slow down.. i just realised when i was going home, that i liked to walk down the street near my place.. coz itz like a downhill walk, and u get a beautiful view of the condominiums around my place.. itz just so beautiful.. with the clouds in the sky, the trees and the buildings.. i just felt so peaceful.. like there's no rush at all and i could just take my time and walk home.. my moments with myself.. i miss it.. only haf those times when i'm walking somewhere alone.. then i'll think about something.. like today when i was at amk interchange.. i was waiting for bus when i realised that it had been such a long time since i went to amk interchange.. in the past, it was always Gaya3, Shalini, Premma and i walking to the interchange and waiting till our buses arrive.. it juz made me think of them.. haha.. how fast time flies.. these past few months have been so busy that i haven't even gotten the time to call my cousins or friends to just haf a little chat or to enquire how they've been doing.. itz sad.. coz i used to complain that my cousin Sajeetha always doesn't haf the time to spend with me and she's usually not there during family gatherings and stuff.. now, thatz wat i'm doing too.. been missing in action for too long from my family scene.. no wonder sis-in-law always asks why i'm never there for gatherings.. i always say that i've got to study for tests and exams and do projects.. now then i realise, once time pasts by you, you can't turn it back.. like wat i told Min yesterday, "what's done, is done".. sigh.. itz hard for myself to believe that i am 18.. well, turning 18 soon.. where have all these years gone to? i can still remember my first day in primary school.. oh, and even my days in kindergarten.. how did i grow up so fast? i'm baffled.. life seems to be a routine.. we study, get a good job, get married, settle down, have kids, then repeat the whole education cycle for our kids and finally, leave this world. what is the purpose in life actually? i believe everyone has been sent or are born for a reason, for a purpose.. i have not found mine yet.. but whatever it is, i will not stop searching for it. i hope you find your purpose in life too.

Thursday, March 03, 2005


The greatest group! Hafid, Min, me and Benny! i think i was eating sweets lah.. thatz y nv smile! haha!! Psychological games!!! -wink- Eh.. why Hafid nv smile?! haha!!
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SIGH ...
Omg!! Huishan is da cutest!!! i received a msg from her saying "hey, u wanna meet next week to buy Sivan's birthday present?" Hahaha!! Meet ME to buy MY gift?! hahaha!! she accidentally sent it lah.. coz she's foreva mass-messaging every1.. haha.. blur gal! anyway i've missed ya.. so letz meet up, maybe when u wanna shop for my gift?! -wink- haha..

anyway i saw Zahir today! at nyp.. he came for da JAE thingy! talked to him.. enquired abt my other friends.. heard Muthu's in NS already.. also saw Nathan today.. we walked to sch together, wif his galfren.. Renganathan was being as lame as eva! yeah.. to him, SW students' final grades will be finalised thru a race n the winner gets the highest grades! Lamer!!! hahaha!!

did oral com web based project.. it was a rainy day lah.. my mood was also a bit deterred by.... ?? i dunno..

mmm.. saw my cute guy on tuesday!! haha.. he was going up d escalator n i was going down.. a bit like tamil movie lah!! hahaha! crap! n he saw me.. haha.. nth much lah.. hmm.. sum1 asked me a damn funny qn last evening.. ok.. it juz makes me laugh.. hahah..

Belinda msg-ed me last nite!! haha.. so good to hear from her.. =) she's planning to go to NP.. good lah.. everybody wanna go to NP or SP.. NO ONE wants to come to NYP!!! blahzzz..

tmr front page test.. itz gonna be boring.. coz "someone" wun be there.. haha..


i wun go back to square one again..
i wun feel this way..
i promise.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Is it possible to be in love with more than just 1 person?
uh oh.. i better not enter that teritory.. i have a cursed love life.. just ask my close friends.. haha!! i've "washed hands" off love.. and i wun go in search of it, unless it looks for me first!! haha.. i'm just dying of boredom.. erm.. i shd be probably studying right now.. but oh well, just a while more on da com.. i'm chatting wif qiuyu lah.. my new gossip partner! haha.. anyway, we r chatting abt a very interesting topic.. no, i'm not gonna reveal it! haha.. go tear ur hair out in frustration! haha..

What is love actually?
i dunno lah.. after 17 years, i dunno. Why dun U tell me?.. damn my tagboard's disappeared.. or else u can tag ur comments abt this.. go on, put ur thinking caps on and tell me!!!! i need a answerrrr!!!!
When do you know that u are in love?
God knows!! -throw hands up in despair-
If it wasn't for the money, cars and movie stars and jewels
and all these things I got
I wonder hey
Would you still want me (Want you)
Would you still be calling me (Still calling you)
You be loving me? (I'll be loving you)
i'm in the computer lab in sch.. look, itz a wedneday, lecture ended at 1.30pm and now itz 3.40pm and where am i? school!! why? oh.. coz i'm teaching students Microsoft Frontpage.. ok, thatz not right.. truth is, Min desperately needs help in her microsoft frontpage.. so obviously i'm d only nice soul around who would stay behind to help her.. yep..
"Dun BHB lah".. That'll be Eileen's quote.. haha.. oh, last nite i called her.. and b4 we hung up, i wanted to tell her a fairytale, i juz felt like lah.. if u also want sum1 to tell u fairy tales over d phone, do call me.. ya, as i was saying, so i forced her to listen while i told her the story of "The Princess and the Pea".. haha.. so fun!!
Today, i was telling Rajwant and Eileen the story of "Rumpelstilskin" or however it is spelt.. haha.. crazy lah.. Econs was boring lah.. KhorkiEe was laughing over... erm.. what WAS she laughing over? ok i dunno.. hmm.. accounts was da same lah.. so many ppl didn't turn up.. slack lah.. Hafid, Uzair and i were writing notes to each other.. Boring wif a capital B.. haha.. went to eat at Mac center aft that.. wah. laughed too much man.. Min was trying on Eileen's specs and Eileen was trying to get it back from her.. omg.. and Min was trying to capture a pic of herself wif her phone.. goodness oh goodness.. "psychological games" haha.. -winks at Uzair!!-

so here i am, running from this lab to the other lab where Hafid is.. coz he needs help wif his ppt.. Eileen was checking her astrology thingy lah.. so i asked her to look at mine.. haha.. i shd give 'smoldering glances'.. god knows what that means.. haha.. was practising it.. but can't really get it right lah.. haha.. ohh.. we checked the compatibility of Aries and Taurus.. HAHAHA..

hi this is hafid ya'll!! i gave Min a new nickname: 'Lil B.. which stands for "Little Biatch".. haha.. and Sivan is "SWB" coz Min calls her "Sivany Wany BOO".. yes, we know that Min talks loads of rubbish.. ahahaha.. and i'm so fed up with this psychological game ..wads that all about!! hey tell me people! esp u sivan, and uzair..it seems like it concerns me...hmm.....

Eileen: Hey people.... today is wednesday...tmr is thursday... and the day after next is friday.... good luck for web-based!... i love myself..... =)

OH GOD.. i haf the lamest friends eva man.. where was i before i was rudely interrupted? oh actually i asked Hafid and Eileen to blog lah.. so my bad.. yeah.. wah i tell u, i'm constantly getting bullied by Chen Minyi.. one day, i'll reach my limit.. hmmmmppphhh!!!! blahz!!! okok.. Eileen is rushing me to publish this post so that she can see the end result.. ciaozzz..

Ranjan said, "Girls are great. Every boy should get one!"
Woah.. i really like that! Great one man!