So our week started out with the (oldest) car not starting. I tried to keep from panicking as we had it towed to the shop by assuring myself it was nothing major. Brian came home from work saying they had called to tell him the timing was all off, and it would likely be $600--800 to repair, which for a $2500 car is almost as much as it's worth in the first place! We stewed and considered whether to repair it or just replace it (or both), and as I thought of the year's coming expenses (on top of Christmas shopping) w/ Lucy's vision therapy, Anne's allergy shots, Spencer's braces, possible wedding, Emily's senior trip, & a TN family reunion, I tried to not be overwhelmed. We had saved for a while, knowing this stage of life could get spendy, but it's still not fun taking from, instead of adding to, savings.
I had things to stay busy with though--our sweet friends the Shearman's were moving on Wed, so they dropped by Mon & Tues with their little ones to get them out of the movers' way, and after pickleball Wed morning, I could tell a friend was struggling, and wanted to drop by with some lunch. I didn't have awesome leftovers (just weird lentil soup and a few slices of homemade bread), but I knew I wouldn't make it if I tried getting too fancy since I also needed to get ready for a YM/YW trip to Temple Square that night. She laughed at my embarrassment over foil-wrapped bread, but we had a good visit, and it lifted my spirits to be with her. I ran home to get the girls to violin and allergy shots, and then to get cocoa and donuts loaded into the van for mutual. I was feeling rushed and a little crazy as I thought of what a long night it would be, and as I was hurrying Anne to dance before meeting at the church, the giant cooler of cocoa tipped over in the back of the van, the lid came off, and started to spill on top of the 5 dozen donuts! I pulled over to try and straighten things out, but with the stress I had been feeling that week already, on top of trying to ready everything for Christmas made me want to burst into tears. BUT!!!--this is where my miracle came! I saw 10yo Anne sitting there in the van, who had helped a ton loading things in the van, checking the cocoa, getting ready for dance early, and was calm and unworried, and I thought, "THIS IS NOT THAT BAD!! SPILLED COCOA IS NO EMERGENCY!!--and money and youth activities are in the Lord's hands, and I KNOW the Lord is aware of me and so I can try being BRAVE, even in my little crisis moment. I didn't FEEL a whole lot better, but I calmed down, and prayed out loud on the way to the Church for greater strength and the ability to remember who I was & God's power in my life. I kept thinking (this is probably going to be such an amazing activity after this adversity--I just need to hang in there).
The activity was not too amazing (to me). We did have a remarkable turnout of 40 youth--the first time we've EVER been short on drivers!! (stress)--and we had 6 less-active girls/non-members--most of which had never seen the lights at Temple square, but it was chaotic and the roads were barely visible in dark rain, and everything took 10X longer than normal trying to herd so many people between crowds. A few girls complained about the lack of organization and how late it was, & I almost lost a few Teachers in the Nordstrum's downstairs bathroom as they were closing & shutting down the elevators, and I was so embarrassed bringing home kids at 10:30 PM on a school night. I came home exhausted with my shoulders & neck tight, and thought, "Boy, that was not the miracle I thought might come!--but at least I chose courage, and maybe youth were touched that I couldn't see."
And the next morning, I did have a feeling of peace. I was so grateful for all of the support of so many leaders (who had lots of good feedback about the night), and that we had been safe, and that I was ABLE to be a part of the youth. Then Dad brought the car home, and the bill was $300--only half what they had predicted, which did feel like a personalized miracle! I caught a cold Friday (I'm sure from the late night+stress), but Dad & I still fit in some temple sealings--where we saw (no coincidences!) Costa's parents, who's been out almost the same time as you--they remembered you fondly!--, and as I read 3 Nephi 5:20, I LOVED how Mormon stated simply, "I have REASON to bless my God and my Savior Jesus Christ."
What an understatement! Boy, do I have reason! Pres. Nelson promised as we accepted this Book of Mormon challenge that the Heavens would open, we would be brought closer to the Savior, and change, even miracles would begin to happen. I felt that change and that help from Heaven as added strength in the face of my little adversities. Reading Saints about people being forced from their homes in the dead of winter makes it easier to laugh at spilled cocoa. And there really is an added spirit to having a missionary in our family. Loved the Christmas Devotional tonight--Sister Eubank is the best, and when Pres. Nelson talks about how we're preparing for the Millenium, I believe him!
I want to love better, and I love opportunities to practice--with family and callings and neighbors. I'm grateful for the times I remember the picture perfect meal is not as meaningful as time spent together, and that serving isn't always fun or convenient, but it's always good, and having courage can keep me from missing those opportunities. With the Light the World focus, and just thinking of families we could surprise w/ the 12 Days of Christmas, I already feel MUCH better than I have trying to finish online shopping, or get all the decorations out. This is a wonderful time of year, because anything that gives us REASON to bless our Savior is wonderful.
Bro. Christensen--sweetest, humblest man!--gave the opening prayer in Sac. Mtg today, and specifically prayed for all of the missionaries--BY NAME, and touched my heart! Then Bro. Brough, in his testimony, spoke about coming to help with that Thanksgiving Service project (where he miraculously saw you!), and the distinct impression he had that he was face to face with God's Army. He shared how the CEO of this Charity organization was converted to the Gospel after having spent Thanksgivings in the MTC, and the powerful spirit he felt there that made him keep wanting to come back and bring his family, and finally to read the Book of Mormon when he was given one (by an Uber driver haha!).
Love all the good you are doing!--you are definitely a huge part of my Reason to bless my God! Love, Mom