Love Is Pointless...No?

Well, well, well. Back again. This time I'm touching on a personal subject. Love...Awwww, how sweet. There once was a time when I was a little youngin attending French immersion elementary school (with absolute disregard for the world). Nothing much mattered to me other than candy and not getting beat for failing tests. Girls and love weren't even on my radar yet. I used to walk to and from school everyday. I'd cross the street, trudge through the forest, cross another street, walk through an open field, walk along a final street and end up at my school. The entire trip done alone. I didn't mind being alone, I'd been doing this for years so i knew all the ins and outs. Then one year (my final year at that school [grade 5]), I made friends with a kid, we'll call him Justin Credible, who was a few years younger. I think he was in grade 2. Me and this kid hit it off right away. He told me he lived just down the street from the school, so we agreed to walk home together. Throughout the day I was excited. I thought, "This kid seems pretty cool. And he lives down the street so now I have someone to walk half of the way home with me". I couldn't wait for the end of the school day, and finally it came. I sprinted out of the class, grabbed my things, sprinted down the hallway and waited at our agreed meeting spot. I half expected him not to show, but he did... but he had a guest. Standing there was some girl who was a year or two younger than me. We didn't agree to this, but he informed me that she was his sister and HAD to come with us. I accepted that and we all began our walk. This went on for months. And with each passing walk together I became more fond of this girl. We'll call her...Bessica Jellanger. She was, for lack of a better word, beautiful. She was always smiling, laughing and full of energy. I loved it. This went on for the entire school year. And with each passing day my feelings grew stronger for her. The days when she was at home sick I felt empty, and when I saw her again it's like life started anew. So the year went by and I was nearing graduation. My school only went up to grade 5, so after graduating I'd have to change schools and leave Bessica and Justin Credible behind. They both knew that. But I made a promise to Bessica that I would come back and walk her home everyday. I had every intention of keeping that promise. But my new school was different. I finished at the same time, but no matter how hard I tried I always ended up getting to her school late. After a few weeks of missed connections I gave up. Maybe she forgot about me over the summer. Maybe she found someone new to walk home with. Maybe she thought I wasn't serious when I made her that promise. Either way, I thought I'd never see her again. Years went by and now I was in grade 8. My new school only went from grade 6 to 8, so I was once again nearing graduation. My friends and I were all hanging out at the 7-11 on our lunch break when I saw this girl walking with kid from my class. From a distance I thought I recognized her. She was tall, beautiful, confident and had an amazing sense of presence. I was in awe. I played the cool cat and sat back calmly while she got closer. All the other guys were trying their hardest not to drool all over the floor, but I kept my cool. As she drew near my brain finally kicked into gear. I did know this girl. I knew her better than anybody there. It was Bessica. And damn she grew up. she was fucking stunning. She walked up to me and stood no more then two feet away from me. The same girl I loved seeing everyday. The only girl who ever reminded me of what true beauty was supposed to be. She stood there and waited for me to make the move, so what did I do?... I walked away...WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! This girl came all the way up to my school (on a school day), walked up to me and stood right in my face and me, like the fucking genius that I am, I walked the fuck away. I didn't know what to do. It's not like I was uncomfortable around girls. I was pretend married to 5 women at once in grade 8. I had girls left and right. But this one girl had my brain completely fucked. I couldn't think when she was around. So for the rest of the lunch period my drooling friends followed her around the plaza and I tagged along far at the back. She must have been really pissed because she didn't even acknowledge my existence after that. Worst day of my life. At the end of the school year, I found out that i failed a class and had to attend summer school. W/e, no biggie. But guess who was in my summer school class...C'mon take a wild guess...50 Cent? no no no. Barack Obama? not even possible. Martha Stewart? God no. That's right, it was Bessica Jellanger. But this time she did notice me. Not the fact that we used to walk home together and enjoyed each others company for what felt like forever (but yet not long enough). She decided to ridicule me. I was the butt of every single joke for that summer because of her. And the odd thing is, she didn't even seem to remember who I was. Like i was some random person. Her brother came to the school one day and he remembered me as if we just saw each other yesterday. But she had no clue who the fuck I was. I can easily say that I was heartbroken for the 1st time in my life. And now, 14 years later, it still bothers me. And it's going to bother me until I can apologize and hopefully she'll remember me (or stop repressing the memories of us). Or when I truly believe that she has no fucking clue of who I am. Clearly this has been bothering me. Feels good to get it off my chest tho. No closure, but now it's out in the open. Oh and I'm not sure if i spelt her last name correctly. I can't remember if it's one L and an I, or two L's and an A, or one L with an A, or two L's with an I. But I don't think that matters. All these damn "What If?"'s in my head now. Damn I miss her.

Would You Eat Dolphin Meat?

Now, I'm clearly aware that the world is filled with delicious things to eat, like cakes, apples, chicken and other yummy delectables. All of which are (normally) brainless, unconscious, necessary tummy stuffing food. But recently I came across a bit of information that is making me believe that the human race isn't in the food hunt for nutrition. Some (completely fucked up) humans actually consume dolphin meat. WTF?!?! Really? The smartest beings on our planet who, in no way harm any other living thing (unless for food or defense), are being eaten because we...well there actually isn't any logical reason to be eating dolphin meat. They're wicked poisonous due to all the mercury tainted fish they ingest which I'm sure would leave you all george bushed (retarded). And if thats not enough, THEY'RE THE CUTEST FUCKING ANIMALS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD...next to slow lorises lol. They're the smartest animals that we know of. We can eat them yes, yum yum. But respecting them as the most intelligent creatures on our planet, oh no no no, we cant have any of that. If anyone out there respects animals and nature then be warned the police shall be called and informed about your needless caring and love of life. But seriously, we've already bred, disrespected and devoured all the "stupid" animals, why in the hell do me need dolphins? If it came down to the end of the world and the only two foods left on our planet were elephant shit and dolphin, I would gladly wither away eating shit than have to kill something that can (given the chance) figure out algebraic equations faster than I can search for the answer on google. ATCHOO!!!...Sorry, I just sneezed...not sure why I typed it out tho...Anywho, I'm really tired. I don't sleep before I blog cause it helps me write better...or worser? Duno if that's a word or not but I'm gona roll with it anyway. Adios, ciao, au-revoir and 'til next time. Not sure what my next blog will be about but I'm sure it'll be good :D BOOYAH